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A56573	The testimony of that dear and faithful man, John Matern who had lived six years and faithfully served the Lord in his vocation in the family of C. T. now dwelling at Edmonton in Middlesex. Also, other blessed testimonies concerning him, and the truth itself; with something concerning his blessed condition in the time of his sickness, and when he was near his departure. With several testimonies of sensible children who had been under his tuition. Published that God may have his glory in preserving his faithful ones faithful to the end. A. P.	Matern, John, 1639 or 40-1680.; Paterson, A., Quaker.; Taylor, Christopher, ca. 1615-1686. aut	1680 (1680)	Wing P683; ESTC R217118	17,546	37

and from Satan's Power to his pure and Holy Power Grace and Truth in my inward parts in and through which he taught and enabled me to deny Ungodlyness and worldly Lusts and to live Soberly Righteously and Godly in this present World Glory and Honour be to his Name for evermore Now as the Lord God in his Love and Mercy hath reached unto my Soul and redeemed me out of the Hands of my Enemies through the power of his strength he also made me willing to deny my self every way and respect as to out ward Honour and Preferment which I could have enjoyed if I would have conformed my self to their way and Worship and vain customs and manners in life and conversation but the fears and dread of the Lord being upon my Heart I could no longer conform my self unto them but I freely gave over my School-office and imployment in Teaching Children trusting in the Lord he would not leave me and forsake me if I did faithfully follow him in the Regeneration which Work I felt begun upon my Soul in and through his Holy Heavenly Spirit of Grace and Truth manifested within me because of which I counted all my former knowledge and Honour as Dung and Dross for the excellency of the Truth and knowledge of my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ whose power I felt Operating in me to destroy the Works of the Devil to serve him in Holiness and Righteousness according to the measure of Grace which he had given me and enabled me withal And seeing my self with some others were like a Pelicane in the Wilderness and as a Sparrow alone upon the House top sojourning in Mesech and dwelling in the Tents of Kedar amongst a Crooked and Perverse Generation covered with Grose Darkness hating the peaceable way of the Lord which according to that ability and knowledge I had then in the Lord I made known to them the Lord raised a desire in my Father-in-law who was a Priest to go out from amongst them and to go to the People of the Lord which he had Raised Gathered and Chosen for himself in England to enjoy his Holy Living Powerful presence in their Meetings and to partake of the quickning and refreshing vertue of the Life and Love of the Lord in his Light where the Saints Communion stands And as soon as he made it known to us his Wife and Children we found the same willingness and freedom also in us to go out from our Fathers House and Kindred not consulting with Flesh and Bloud what would become of us But being freely resigned and given up into the will of the Lord to dispose of us as he pleased we chose rather to suffer afflictions with the People of God and to undergo all Tryals and Exercises which the Lord might suffer to come upon Them and Us then to enjoy the pleasures of Sin and Vanities of this World for a Season And after we had made known our Desire and Intent to some of our Dearest Friends which several times did Write to us on the behalf of Truth and we understood that they were willing to receive us in the Love of the Lord we left all for the love of Truth and went away to save our selves from that Perverse Generation in all our Journey the Lord was with us and brought us safe and well with Joy and Gladness of our Souls to his Beloved People here in England where I now have been these six years employed according to the Lord's good will and providence amongst tender Children to instruct them in Languages and other necessary Sciences appertaining to this outward Life What troubles and exercises within and without I have met withal I willingly pass by as being light and momentary in comparison of that inward comfort blessing of my Soul which I have received of the Lord. For he in his endless Love and Mercy hath in a very great measure satisfied the Travail of my Soul and answered the earnest desires and breathing of my Spirit for the Children of our Family that he in his goodness would be pleased to appear unto their Souls and to manifest himself in his Holy Everlasting Power by which they might feel their Hearts melted tendered and broken before him the Almighty God their Creatour to Fear and Dread him in their Youth that at length that rough and perverse disobedient and stubborn Spirit which reigned in some of them to the grief and sorrow of our Hearts might be wrought out and a meek low and humble Spirit might be created in them through the Spirit of our Lord Jesus Christ which we also in the Lord's time have seen brought to pass in and through the Almighty Heavenly Blessed appearance and powerful opeperation of his Heavenly Spirit in our Family-meetings whereof we have formerly born our Testimony and do bear the same at this present time that the Power of the Lord is still self and experienced in and amongst us in our Meetings O the Glory of that first great and notable day of the Blessed Glorious and powerful appearance of the Lord God in and amongst the little ones of our Family The Remembrance whereof makes glad my heart and rejoyces my Spirit blessed be the Name of the Lord forevermore we cannot be still but are constrained in his Love which he hath shed abroad in our Hearts by the Holy Spirit which is given unto us but speak well of his Name because of the Saviour of his Life which we still seel in the midst of us For the Lord hath not been with us as a Stranger that stays but for a night but we can say it of a truth that he hath hitherto made his abode with us the blessed effect upon the Hearts and Spirits of many Witnesses confirmed it For instead of the thorn comes up the Fir-tree and instead of the Pryer comes up the Mir-tree in as many as have Subjected their Souls unto the power of God bearing Fruits of Sobriety Righteousness Meekness and Godliness in and through the Blessed Operation of his Holy Spirit which he hath blessedly poured forth and is pouring forth upon them to the Glory and Honour of his name and for an Everlasting Sign that shall not be cut off Now the Lord hath been and is gracious unto our Souls and in his Grace and Love he daily renews his goodness unto us manifesting himself in his Love Life and Power when we meet together in his Holy Heavenly Fear O how doth he shed abroad his Love in our Hearts O how doth he receive our Spirits that many times we are even Ravished with his Love and so filled with his Power that our Cups are made to overflow with Praises and Thanksgivings unto the Lord. The desire of my Soul is that I and every one of us that have tasted of the good Word and Power of the World to come by which we witness our Hearts and Minds in some measure changed into the Holy and Righteous Image of the Son of God

who is the Light and Life of our Souls may never forget it nor give him any occasion to Withdraw his Love and Mercy from us but that his Holy and blessed Work of Regeneration and Renovation of our minde as it is begun by his Holy and Glolious Power it also may be carried on by the same that daily we may Witness an increase with the increase of the Lord and a thorow change in our inward Man from Glory to Glory as by the Spirit of the Lord that thus his Praises may be perfected out of the Mouths of Babes and Sucklings unto which he hath made known himself in his Heavenly Light and Life Mercy and Power Grace and Truth by which many of them are come to know the things of God and of his Spiritual Kingdom revealed within them in his Holy power Righteousness peace and joy in the Holy Ghost which things are hid from the Wise and Prudent of this World because they hate and despise the Light of Jesus Christ in and through which alone they should receive the true and Saving Knowledge of God and his Son Jesus Christ whom to know is Life Eternal wherein also the operating virtue of the Living Bloud of the Son of God is onely effectually felt and Witnessed cleansing away all Sin and Iniquity unto the saving of the Soul from the Wrath to come that so an entrance may be adminstred unto it abundantly into the Everlasting Kingdom of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ wherein the Righteous live with God in unspeakable Joy and full of Glory O that many of the young and tender ones here with us may be kept in the Life and Virtue Wisdom and Power of the Lord God to the confusion of many in their Earthly Wisdom and the conversion of them from their Evil wayes O thou Shepherd of Israel lead them on Gently and Tenderly and go before them out and in as a Shepherd goes before his Flock and lead them to the Green Pastures of Life that Feeding there they may have Light and Life in them and that they may have it more abundantly and by it become an Eternal Excellency to thee and a Joy of many Generations O Lord I humbly beseech thee Bless our Godly undertakings and indue us with thy Heavenly Wisdom that we may bring them up in the nurture and admonition of thee O Bless this Family here and all the Families of thine inheritance every where with Heavenly and Spiritual Blessings in thy Son Christ Iesus O Lord keep keep and preserve me every one of us that have tasted of the sweet Love and Heavenly Power by which our Souls have been reached convinced and converted faithful unto thy self keep us always in a Living Sence of thy manifold mercies and tender Love to us that we may live in thy holy Fear and never return to folly any more but walk low and humble with thee our God and tender Father in Christ Iesus O Lord establish our Hearts with thytruth that we may never depart from thee Season our Souls with thy Holy Powerful Word of Grace that all our Words and Works may be Savoury and good for the use of Edifying strengthen our inward man with might by thy Spirit that under thy banner of Love we may fight the good fight of faith and keep a good Conscience and finish our course with joy and receive the Crown of Righteousness which is laid up for all them that love thy appearance in thy Heavenly Light So O Lord for all thy goodness and mercys and benefits both Temporal and Spiritual bestowed upon me and our Family my Soul praises and glorifies exaltes and magnifies thy holy Name Glory and Honour Wisdom and Power be unto thee who art God over all blessed for ever and for evermore Amen Edmonton the 24th of the 6 Month 1680. J. Matoi● He died about 7 Days after that he brought in his Testimony and caused it to be read amongst the Scholars My most Loving and Endeared Friend and Colleague John Matern being taken ill of a Feaver the 24th of the 6 Month 80. was called out of this Life the 1st day of the 7 Month a little after the 7 hour in the Afternoon THis is my Testimony and belief concerning him that he is entred into everlasting favour with the Lord who in his life-time much regarded the Honour of his Maker and it was the delight of his Soul to be imployed either amongst young or old in his Fathers business it was his hearts delight and Souls great joy to have the oppertunity to benefit others He was a Man very much Dead to the World the sense whereof I felt Livingly upon my Spirit at present and I hope the comfortable fellowship and Heart-gladding society that I have had with him for these three years and more and that wherein we have mutually enjoyed in one another shall never be forgotten by me but shall be matter of Praise and Thanksgiving to the God of true unity who was pleased to bless us together and work up our Spirits into an oneness so that I may truly say my Dear Friend to my knowledge was never exercised one way or another with sorrow or grief but my Soul was engaged to sympathize with him and to feel the weight of his Burthens and then we both breathed together to the God of Grace whose Mercies are infinite till he in his tender Bowels of compassion was pleased to afford ease and Relief And as in his Life-time we were Indisolveably knit together in our Spirits so that at his Death our Loves were not abated but much more Large then ever About Four hours before he departed we kept our Family Meeting in the room where he Lay i● being his desire and there Lovingly together we enjoyed one another in the Lord to the melting and tendring of I believe the hearts of all that were present And in the time of the Meeting he was filled with Divine praises and Heavenly Hymns and a Heavenly presence was felt supporting his Spirit all the time of his Sickness but more especially during the time of the Meeting so that he was first exercised in Singing Praises to the Lord and in magnifying his great Power evidenced in himself and in this Family his cryes were strong tha● the Lord might carry on his Blessed work begun in this Family and he besought the Lord to prosper his truth daily more and more every where till all were Subjected thereunto which he declared should come to pass he likewise confessed the many Singular favours he had Partaken of in this Eamily and as it were with regret bemoaned his absence from it so long that he should have so long wandered not knowing his place and service in the Body When the Children were all sitting round about him in the Meeting his Heart was open and large towards them in exhorting and beseeching of them to persevere and go on in the name and authority of the mighty God and that

they might be faithful unto him in their measures and not to despise the day of small things but as they were faithful in a little more should be added his Mouth and Heart was full of Praises to the Highest for many particular mercies but more especially that he had received the knowledge of the everlasting Truth and had walked in it for some time perfectly and uprightly in his measure for which at that time he declared he had the Testimony of a good Conscience and was entred into Eternal Peace with the Lord which I do firmly believe and without doubting am perswaded that it is true and it is the desire of my Heart that I may so walk in my Generation that in the end I may enjoy but such a comfortable Death as he did It was as hard a Tryal as ever I met with I may say which I desire may be sanctified of the Lord but now am well satisfied that he is gone into everlasting bliss to be with the Lord for ever And it is the belief of my Heart that when ever it shall please the Lord to call me out of the body that as we were lovely together in this Life that forever we shall be Ioyned as I am preserved faithful and that in a more nearness then could be enjoyed here we shall sing Praises to God and the Lamb for ever So in this belief I rest my self contented with my condition at present Edmonton the 2 of the 7 Month 1680. A. Paterson DEar John Matern Died not as a Fool Dieth that feared not the Living God but his Heart was bent to seek after a City whose Builder and Maker is God He made his Calling and Election sure and a good Savour he has left behind him and his Works follow him he was a diligent Man in his Vocation and very zealous for Gods Glory his aim was at Eternity and through the mercy of the Lord he missed not of it so that when he lay on his Death-Bed the Glory of the Lord over-shadowed him and his Innocent cryes were unto him that all might be kept faithful that professed his name and more particularly that both small and great in our Family might be preserved to the Lord and his Heavenly Sounds of Praises to God with a raised up voice by the Assistance of the Power and Glory of God upon his Spirit I believe I shall never forget me thinks mine Ears are full of them still hearing the sound of that sweet Harmonious melody with a raised up voice when otherwise if Gods power had not enabled him confessed he was scarce able to move his Tongue he have Heavenly Exhorations to the young ones to persevere and go on in obedience to the Lord in that truth they had received and encouraged his honest and faithful companion and assistant to go on in the work of the Lord. I dearly loved him because of his simplicity and lowliness of Mind his faithfulness and diligence in his place and because his Heavenly care was intirely to do good when I remember his dear simplicity how like an Innocent Child he was in his place my Soul breaks within me and I am melted even into great tenderness and love unto him more then can be uttered Tongue cannot utter nor Pen set down the excellencie and eminency of this love which is so overcomming he was a very wise and learned man as to outward Learning but how he denied himself and how humbly he behaved himself and how free he was from priding himself because of his Great parts and natural endowments as a man I can say according to my Judgment he went before many well he is gone and in the name of the Lord he blessed the Family he had lived in and praised God that he had placed him in it such blessed things he acknowledged he had been partaker of in it and after he had done his work he went to his Father even as an Innocent Lamb unconcerned about his Death as fearing it not but on the contrary praising God for the certain trust he had in his Power telling us how certain he was of Eternal Salvation the Glory of the Lords power rested upon his Spirit and sweetly did he give up the Ghost O blessed art thou my dear companion my Soul loved thee and embraced thee and I love thee still and thy life is with us I pray God as that sincerity that was in three may remain in Thousands and Ten Thousands that Gods Host in this day may be innumerable Amen God is with us and we know though we may be taken out of this Life according to his pleasure yet his Truth and Faithfulness departs not from the Families of his faithful ones who can truly say they seek his sweet Face and countenance and Glory in all things and we can say that the secret hand of the Lord works not against us but for us Oh! my Soul be glad in the God of thy Mercies everlasting praises be to thy name for evermore Edmonton the 8th of the 7th Month 1680. C. T. DEar Friends and Children but especially you Children of this Family it is upon me to relate something unto you of my exercise which I have gone through since the Lord did put it into our Hearts to take upon us the exercise of Educating of Children and indeed the very first step into it was with fear and trembling but though I was very tender the Lord hath called me to a blessed Work and had blessedly assisted us by his mighty power and out-stretched Arm to this very day O the days of Sighing and Mourning that I have gone through amongst disorderly Servants and Children that sometimes I did not well know how it was with me or whether I went backwards or forwards in my condition O the travel the Travel that was in my way to Zion that indeed some times I was almost ready to dispair but it did please the Lord sometimes to arise in his mighty power to strengthen and encourage and uphold me in his blessed work and when his Glorious Light shone round encouraged to walk in his way and then I thought I should run swiftly when Exercises came again and when the Fogs and Mists did arise again and the Sun was Darkened again that I could not see which way to go then did I crie unto the Lord that he would be pleased to keep me in the measure of his blessed Truth for I said in my Heart that it should be my reasolution that I would never turn back again to folly Thus I passed on through much Difficulty and the Lord did mightily uphold me but sometimes I knew it not and indeed when I have beheld others Eating of the Dainties of Gods House I have been ready to murmure and say O Lord why do I fare so hardly my meat being bitter Herbs and of an unsavoury taste Thus I Travelled in Sorrow through a long Winter and in the Lords blessed time he was pleased to arise

faithful in a few things ● will make thee ruler over many things enter thou int● the joy of the Lord Oh it is a blessed sentence to al●● them that receive it as he hath Oh how sorry h● used to be if he saw any of us do amiss I can say i● would very much grieve him but when he saw an● of us do well Oh he would be glad and incourag● us to go on in the way of the Lord so I cannot bu● give him the Glory the Honour and the Praise both now for ever and evermore Ezekiel Wooley Jun. 11 years old This I have to Speak to the Praise of the Lord God and his Truth as concerning our dear Teacher John Matern HE was a man that feared the Lord and walked in his path and I can truly say the Lord was with him and the last day that he lived he lived to the praise of his name and it was his endeavour and intent as long as he lived to fear the Lord his maker and the name of the Lord was praised by him as long as he breathed in this World O that all People would arise for the name of the Lord that none may stick in the deep pit of Darkness but that they may come and fear the Lord that none may stay behind but come on with the Lord's people and walk on hand in hand with them and so press forward to the mark Christ Jesus as this man did who is gone to his rest in peace O Lord it hath pleased thee to take away one of thy Servants who served thee in uprightness of heart O Lord I humbly of thy Children thy presence ●s with us at this time and Oh pluck up the root of iniquity and throw down the great Tree of Wickedness that is growing in the hearts of Peo●●● that thy work may prosper and the light of thy countenance may shine through the Nations Oh raise up yet more Witnesses for thy self tha● all may fall down before thee and magnifie thy name who art God over all blessed for evermore William Loosvelt 12 years old O Lord thy love is unspeakable when th●● scatterest the Clouds and makest the Ram 〈◊〉 descend as upon the tender grass and visitest us with the day Spring from on high then are we constrained to praise thy name Oh thou refreshest u● from time to time for we have none in Heaven bu● thee nor in the Earth in comparison of thee O● we have fresh encouragement to follow hard after thee O thou hast often broken our hearts befor● thee the living God and haste caused abundance o● melting tears and Soul-ravishing gladness among us and a remnant can say that one day in thy Court is better then a thousand elsewhere and it is better to be a door-keeper in thy house then to dwell i● the Tents of Wickedness Oh Lord what shall w● say unto thee or what shall we render unto thee fo● thy mercyes for thy Arm of power hath been about us to this very day Thy Hand is not slackened nor thy Ear dull t● bear the Sighing of the needy thou lookest dow● upon them with an Eye of pity and compassion an● thy love is the same that ever it was unto thy Children and thy all-seeing Eye is every where and in every place to watch over them who art the watchman of Israel who never slumbers nor sleepest but feedest thy sheep and makest them to lye down in the green pastures of Life O that when we depart out of this world we may lay down our head in peace with thee as the blessed man John Matern hath done who is deceased Oh he is gone to his resting place who was faithful to the end of his dayes and when he had finished his course in this world the Lord took him into himself Oh how pleasantly ●e lay upon his Bed praising the Lord whom he served in his lfie time he made his Calling and Election sure and is at rest with the Lord his maker who aboured for our good every way and is gone to a very pleasant habitation where he will have joy for ever Mary Taylor 10 years old This is my Testimony concerning my Dear Teacher John Matern THat he was a man that feared God with the uprightness of his heart and his greatest Travel was to do the will of God making it manifest amongst us and telling us what the Lord would have us to do and exhorting us to leave off the evil of our doings to follow the Lord to fear him and it was his greatest joy if he saw any of us bring forth a Testimony for the Lord O how would it refresh him yea that he could nor forbear but must praise the Lord before he went out of the Meeting and if there were any that did grieve the Lord Spirits and Rebel against him then he would be so grieved and troubled that he could scarce take his rest upon his Bed I can truly say that he was a man that sought the well-fare of our Souls and Bodies too and he taught us with all the might he had and that faithfully and if he found out a nearer way he told it us and if there be any that have not improved their time I can truly say that the fault is theirs and nor his for he did as much as he could for us and when he was upon his Death bed he exhorted us to fear God and he Praised and Glorified the God of Heaven unto the last breath that he fetcht in this world so that the Lord hath taken this good man out of this world and he is gone to his rest in peace with the Lord Jesus Christ where is joy for ever and evermore Thomas Green 16 years old This day the Spirit of the Lord giveth me utterance that I can bear a Testimony for my deceased Teacher John Matern THis I can say of a truth he was an upright man in his generation serving God with his whole heart he had a very great care that he might teach faithfully that so he might not bring any guilt upon his conscience and moreover he had a great Travel in the Lord for us who were under his tuition that we who felt the Power of God in us and had in some measure regenerated and changed us that we might walk uprightly and according to the truth he also had a Travel for them that had not felt the Power of God to change them but were yet in rebellion against God's Spirit that they might come to feel themselves in some measure changed and his Travel was great for the prosperity of truth every where and we whom he taught find a great want of him but the Lord supplyeth it and this can I say for him that the very same day about four hours before he Dyed we had a meeting with him where he being raised up by the Power of God though very weak in body but of Perfect understanding ●e exhorted us even with

THE TESTIMONY Of that Dear and Faithful Man JOHN MATERN Who had Lived Six Years and Faithfully served the Lord in his Vocation in the Family of C. T. now Dwelling at Edmonton in Middlesex ALSO Other Blessed Testimonies concerning Him and the TRUTH it self With something concerning his Blessed Condition in the time of his Sickness and when He was near his Departure WITH Several Testimonies of Sensible Children who had been under His Tuition Published that God may have his Glory in Preserving his Faithful ones Faithful to the end A. P. LONDON Printed and are to be S●●d by Ben. Clark in George-Yard in Lumbard-street 1680. TO THE READER DEar Friends to whose Hands these following Testimonies may come here you may see the wonderful dealings of the Lord God whose faithfulness fails neither Young nor Old who Travail in their measures for the prosperity of his blessed Truth both in their own particulars and that the Increase thereof may be great in the Earth These Testimonies both of that faithful Servant of the Lord J. M. as also of others who are considerable members of this Family together with the sensible Childrens Testimonies concerning the aforesaid Man We thought good to Publish that the Goodness Mercy and Loving Kindness of our tender and Compassionate Father may be Proclaimed in the Ears of many that through the Travelling Birth in others who at any time may have the occasion to peruse them there may Praises ascend even on this account to the God of Heaven this I believe will be the Effect that they will have in the Hearts of all Zions Favourites And not only so but the Love of God constrains us to send them abroad as so many Messages and Invitations to others who may have been under the profession of Truth for some time and yet Strangers to the Life and efficacy thereof as to leaven their Hearts and Souls with it's Savoury and Soul refreshing vertue that they may be awakened and alarmed to bestir themselves to make their Calling and Election sure while it is called to Day as the afore-mentioned Deceased Person had done There are Subjoyned some Testimonies of the more serious and sensible Children concerning their Deceased Guardian which I know will be Servicable where they come especially amongst young ones and may also be of some use to some Teachers and Instructers of Children The unprejudiced and Impartial Reader may feel and savour the Power of Truth even in these Childrens Testimonies who are but young in Years neither can it be in any probable manner supposed that they could frame such things by their own acquired Abilities but must with me confess that it is the Lords work and who can stop it or who can shut when the Lord opens and how can we sit silent and not invite others to come and share with us of that Heavenly Food the Father is pleased to hand forth unto us and that in a plentiful manner for which I render and return the Praise the Honour and the Renown of all unto Him who is Worthy God Blessed for ever Amen A. PATERSON THE TESTIMONY OF Iohn Matern c. I Cannot but Praise and Magnifie the Lord our God who in the abundance of his Love and tender Mercies hath oftentimes even to this very day Graciously Powerfully visited my Soul with the Day-spring from on high and hath livingly Refreshed my Soul with many others in our Family who in Sincerity of Heart and Mind in his Fear and Dread have quietly and patiently waited for his Loving Glorious and Powerful appearance more than they that watch for the Morning O how hath he often broken in upon our Hearts with his Holy Heavenly Almighty Power and hath tendered our Spirits before him that in the sence of his overcoming and quickning Power I have been constrained to Speak forth his Praises even admiring his goodness and mercies unto my Soul who when I was a Stranger to his Heavenly Truth going astray like a lost Sheep without a Shepherd not knowing the way to his Blessed Fold and to the Pastures of Life where he makes his flock to rest at noon watering and refreshing them with the Water of Life he was pleased in his everlasting mercy and endless goodness to follow me as the good Shepherd seeking that which was lost and not giving over till he found me wandiring from Mountain to Hill and from Hill to Mountain dry barren and unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ I say the Lord in his everlasting Love and tender Bowels of compassion followed me and found me revealing himself unto me in my lost and undone State and Condition not knowing whither to go or where to rest till he opened and enlightned the Eyes of my mind in and through his Heavenly Light which he commanded to shine out of darkness by which I came to see and to know my self and him who I had often pierced with my Sins and Iniquities unto which the enemy of my Soul did lead me Captive at his will till the good Shepherd and Bishop of my Soul did unstop my Ear that I could hear his voice and knocking 's at the door of my Heart Yea in and through his Heavenly Almighty Power begot in me a willingness to forsake the Evil of my wayes and to deny my former Teachers and Leaders that caused me to Err from his Holy Heavenly word of Truth which was and i● nigh in the Heart and in the Mouth and directed me to outward things seeking the Kingdom of God and his Righteousness which was to be revealed within not in outward observances and Ceremonyes one crying loe here the other loe there leading away from the Principle of Life and Truth in the inward parts by which my Soul should have been quickened and made alive unto God Thence it came to pass that even in the strictest observation of such things as I was directed unto having a ●e●l for God but not according to the knowledge of God that I my self also directed others to the sa●● when according to the wisdom of Man and acquired natural Learning in Colladges where I was bred up I had got Learning intending to be a Priest a guide for the Blind a Light to them which are in Darkness an Instructer of the Foolish a Teacher of Babes as having got the form of the literal knowledge but destitute of the Power Life and Spirit without which I my self was Blind and Foolish Dead in Sins and Trespasses till it pleased the Lord to reveal his Son in me in his holy pure and Heavenly Light by which I came to see out of Obscurity and Darkness which was in my Heart and the vail of Iniquity which was over my Mind came to be rent by his Almighty Power that so I came to behold him whom my Soul loved not afar off but nigh in me in and through his Holy Heavenly Quickning Spirit by which my Soul was quickened and turned from Darkness to Light