God let him do therein as shall best please him Set thou thy self to suffer tribulations and account them the greatest comforts for that the sufferings of this life are not worthy of the glory which is to come although thou alone couldest suffer them all 11. When thou shalt come to this estate that tribulation shall seem sweet and savory unto thee for Christ then thou mayst think it is well with thee for thou hast found a Paradise upon earth As long as it is grievous to thee to suffer and that thou desirest to fly it so long shalt thou be ill at ease and the tribulation thou flyest will follow thee every where 12. If thou dost set thy self to that thou oughtest to wit to suffer and to die to thy self it will quickly be better with thee and thou shalt find peace Although thou shouldest have been rapt even unto the third Heaven with Paul thou art not for this secured that thou shalt suffer no adversity I saith Jesus will shew him how great things he must suffer for my name It remaineth therefore that thou suffer if thou wilt love Jesus and perpetually serve him 13. O that thou wert worthy to suffer something for the name of Jesus how great glory would it be unto thee what joy to all the Saints of God how great edification also to thy neighbor For all do commend patience though few desire to suffer With great reason thou oughtest to be willing to suffer a little for Christ since many suffer far greater things for the world 14. Know for certain that thou oughtest to lead a dying life And how much the more every one dyeth to himself so much the more doth he begin to live to God No Man is fit to attain unto Heavenly things unless he submit himself to the bearing of adversities for Christ. Nothing is more grateful unto God nothing more wholesome to thee in this world than to suffer willingly for Christ. And if it were in thy choice thou shouldest rather wish to suffer Adversities for Christ than to enjoy the delight of many comforts because hereby thou shouldest be more like unto Christ and more conformable to all the Saints For our worthiness and the proficiency of our spiritual estate consisteth not in many sweetnesses and comforts but rather in suffering great afflictions and tribulation 15. If there had been any better thing and more profitable to the health of Man than suffering surely Christ would have shewed it by word and example But he plainly exhorteth all the Disciples that followed him and all that desire to follow him to the bearing of the Cross and saith If any will come after me let him deny himself and take up his Cross and follow me So that when we have read and searched all let this be the last conclusion That by many tribulations we must enter into the Kingdom of God THE THIRD BOOK CHAP. 1. Of the inward Speech of Christ unto a Faithful Soul I Will hear what the Lord God will speak in me Blessed is the soul that heareth the Lord speaking in her and receiveth from his mouth the word of comfort Blessed are those ears that receive the sound of the divine voice and listen not to the whisperings of the world Blessed indeed are those ears that hearken not to the voice which soundeth outwardly but unto the truth which teacheth inwardly Blessed are the eyes that are shut to outward things but open to those things that are internal Blessed are they that enter into the inward things and endeavor to prepare themselves more and more by daily exercises to the attaining of Heavenly secrets Blessed be they that delight to converse with God and rid themselves of all worldly impediments 2. Consider these things my soul and shut up the door of thy sensual desires that thou mayest hear what thy Lord God speaketh in thee Thus saith thy beloved I am thy safety thy peace and thy life Keep thy self with me and thou shalt find peace Leave all transitory things and seek those that be everlasting What are all temporal things but deceiving snares And what do all creatures avail thee if thou be forsaken by the Creator Forsake therefore all earthly things and labor to please thy Creator and be Faithful unto him that thou mayest attain unto the true happiness CHAP. II. That truth speaketh inwardly without noise of words CHristian Speak Lord for thy servant heareth I am thy servant grant me unsterstanding that I may know thy testimonies Incline my heart to the words of thy mouth Let thy speech distil as the dew upon my soul. The Children of Israel in times past said unto Moses Speak thou unto us and we will hear thee Let not the Lord speak unto us lest we die Not so Lord not so I beseech thee But rather with the Prophet Samuel I humbly and earnestly intreat Speak Lord for thy servant heareth Let not Moses speak unto me nor any of the prophets but do thou rather speak my Lord God the inspirer and enlightner of all the Prophets for thou alone without them canst perfectly instruct me but they without thee can profit nothing 2. They indeed may sound forth words but they cannot give spirit and life they speak marvellous well but if thou be silent they inflame not the heart They may teach the letter but thou openest the sense They bring forth mysteries but thou unlockest the meaning of sealed things They declare thy commandments but thou helpest to fulfil them They shew the way but thou givest strength to walk in it They work only exteriorly but thou instructest and enlightnest the heart They water outwardly but thou givest fruitfulness They make a noise with words but thou givest understanding to the hearing 3. Let not therefore Moses speak unto me but thou my Lord God the everlasting Truth lest I die and prove unfruitful if I be warned outwardly only and not inflamed within lest the word heard and not fulfilled known and not loved believed and not observed turn to my condemnation Speak therefore Lord for thy servant heareth for thou hast the words of everlasting life Speak unto me to the comfort of my soul and to the amendment of my whole life and to thy praise and glory and everlasting honor CHAP. III. That the words of God are to be heard with humility and that many weigh them not CHrist. Son hear my words words of greatest sweetness excelling all the knowledg of the Philosophers and wise Men of this world My words are spirit and life not to be weighed by the understanding of Man They are not to be drawn to vain liking but to be heard with silence and to be received with all humility and great affection Christian. And I said Blessed is the Man whom thou shalt instruct O Lord and shalt teach thy law that thou mayest give him rest from the evil days and that he be not destroyed upon earth 2. Christ. I saith our Lord have taught the
are most necessary unto a faithful soul. 304 That he who is to communicate ought to prepare himself with great diligence 309 That a devout soul ought to desire with her whole heart to be united unto Christ in the Sacrament 312 Of the fervent desire of some devout persons to receive the Body of Christ. 314 That the grace of devotian is obtained by humility and denial of our selves 316 That we ought to manifest our necessities to Christ and crave his grace 319 Of fervent love and vehement desire to receive Christ. 321 That Man be not a curious searcher of the Sacrament but an humble follower of Christ submitting his sense to faith 324 THE FIRST BOOK CHAP. I. Of the Imitation of Christ and contempt of all wordly vanities HE that followeth me walketh not in darkness saith the Lord. These are the words of Christ by which we are admonished that we ought to imitate his life and manners if we will be truly inlightned and be delivered from all blindness of heart Let therefore our chiefest endeavor be to meditate upon the life of Jesus Christ. 2. The doctrine of Christ exceedeth all the doctrines of holy Men and he that hath the Spirit will find therein an hidden Manna But it falleth out that many who often hear the Gospel of Christ are yet but little affected because they are void of the Spirit of Christ. But whosoever will fully and feelingly understand the words of Christ must endeavor to conform his life wholly to the life of Christ. 3. What will it avail thee to dispute profoundly of the Trinity if thou be void of humility and art thereby displeasing to the Trinity High words surely make a Man neither holy nor just but a virtuous life maketh him dear to God I had rather feel compunction than understand the definition thereof If thou didst know the whole Bible and the sayings of all the Philosophers by heart what would all that profit thee without the love of God and without grace Vanity of vanities and all is vanity but to love God and to serve him only This is the highest wisdom by contempt of the world to tend towards the Kingdom of Heaven 4. It is therefore vanity to seek after perishing riches and to trust in them It is also vanity to hunt after honors and to climb to high degree It is vanity to follow the desires of the flesh and to labor for that for which thou mayest afterwards suffer more grievous punishment Vanity it is to wish to live long and to be careless to live well It is vanity to mind only this present life and not to foresee those things which are to come It is vanity to set thy love on that which speedily passeth away and not to hasten thither where everlasting joy is permanent 5. Call often to mind that Proverb That the eye is not satisfied with seeing nor the ear filled with hearing Endeavor therefore to withdraw thy heart from the love of visible things and to turn thy self to the invisible For they that follow their sensuality do stain their own consciences and loose the favor of God CHAP. II. Of the humble conceit of our selves ALL Men naturally desire to know but what availeth knowledg without the fear of God Surely an humble Husbandman that serveth God is better than a proud Philosopher that neglecting himself laboreth to understand the course of the heavens Who so knoweth himself well groweth more mean in his own conceit and delighteth not in the praises of Men. If I understood all things in the world and were not in charity what would that help me in the sight of God who will judg me according to my deeds 2. Cease from an inordinate desire of knowing for therein is much distraction and deceit The learned are willing to seem so to others and to be accounted wise There be many things which to know doth little or nothing profit the soul and he is very unwise that is intent upon other things than those that may avail him for the welfare of his soul. Many words do not satisfie the soul but a good life comforteth the mind and a pure conscience giveth great assurance in the sight of God 3. How much the more thou knowest and how much the better thou understandest so much the more grievously shalt thou therefore be judged unless thy life be also more holy Be not therefore extolled in thine own mind for any Art or Science which thou knowest but rather let the knowledg given thee make thee more humble and cautious If thou thinkest that thou understandest and knowest much know also that there be many things more which thou knowest not Affect not to be overwise but rather acknowledg thine own ignorance Why wilt thou prefer thy self before others sith there be many more learned and skilful in the Scripture than thou If thou wilt know or learn any thing profitably desire to be unknown and to be little esteemed of by Man 4. The highest and most profitable reading is the true knowledg and consideration of our selves It is great wisdom and perfection to esteem nothing of our selves and to think always well and highly of others If thou shouldst see another openly sin or commit some hainous offence yet oughtest thou not to esteem the better of thy self for thou knowest not how long thou shalt be able to remain in good estate We are all frail but thou oughtest to esteem none more frail than thy self CHAP. III. Of the doctrine of truth HAppy is he whom Truth by it self doth teach not by figures and words that pass away but as it is in its self Our own opinion and our own sense do often deceive us and it discerns little What availeth it to cavil and dispute about dark and hidden things whereas for being ignorant of them we shall not be so much as reproved at the day of judgment It is a great folly to neglect the things that are profitable and necessary and give our minds to that which is curious and hurtful we have eyes and see not 2. And what have we to do with Genus and Species the dry notions of Logicians He to whom the Eternal Word speaketh is delivered from a world of unnecessary conceptions From that one Word are all things and all speak that one and this is the Beginning which also speaketh unto us No Man without that Word understandeth or judgeth rightly He to whom all things are one he who reduceth all things to one and seeth all things in one may enjoy a quiet mind and remain peaceable in God O God who art the Truth make me one with thee in everlasting charity It is tedious to me often to read and hear many things In thee is all that I would have and can desire Let all Doctors hold their peace let all creatures be silent in thy sight Speak thou alone unto me 3. How much the more one is united within himself and becometh inwardly simple and pure so
Extol not thy self for the bigness or beauty of thy body which is dissolved and disfigured with a little sickness Take not pleasure in thy natural gifts or wit lest thereby thou displease God to whom appertaineth all the good whatsoever thou hast by nature 3. Esteem not thy self better than others lest perhaps in the sight of God who knoweth what is in Man thou be accounted worse than they Be not proud of wel-doing for the judgment of God is far different from the judgment of Men and that often offendeth him which pleaseth them If there be any good in thee believe that there is much more in others that so thou mayest conserve humility within thee It is no prejudice unto thee to debase thy self under all Men but it is very prejudicial to thee to prefer thy self before any one Man The humble enjoy continual peace but in the heart of the proud is envy and frequent indignation CHAP. VIII That too much familiarity is to be shunned LAy not thy heart open to every one but treat of thy affairs with the wise and such as fear God Converse not much with young people and strangers Flatter not the rich neither do thou appear willingly before great personages Keep company with the humble and plain ones with the devout and vertuous and confer with them of those things that may edifie Be not familiar with any Woman but in general commend all good Women to God Desire to be familiar with God alone and his Angels and fly the knowledg of Men. 2. We must have charity towards all but familiarity with all is not expedient Sometimes it falleth out that a Person unknown to us is much esteemed of from the good report given him by others whose presence notwithstanding is not grateful to the eyes of the beholders We think sometimes to please others by our company and we rather distaste them with those bad qualities which they discover in us CHAP. IX Of obedience and subjection IT is a great matter to live in obedience to be under a superior and not to be at our own disposing It is much safer to obey than to govern Many live under obedience rather for necessity than for charity such are discontented and do easily repine and murmur Neither can they attain to freedom of mind unless they willingly and heartily put themselves under obedience for the love of God Go whither thou wilt thou shalt find no rest but in humble subjection under the government of a Superior The imagination and change of places have deceived many 2. True it is that every one willingly doth that which agreeth with his own sense and liking and is apt to affect those most that are of his own mind But if God be amongst us we must sometimes for peace sake cease to adhere to our own opinion Who is so wise that he can fully know all things Trust not therefore to thine own opinion but be willing to hear the judgment of others If that which thou thinkest be not amiss and yet thou submittest it for God and followest the opinion of another it shall be better for thee 3. I have often heard that it is safer to hear and take counsel than to give it It may also fall out that each ones opinion may be good but to refuse to yield to others when as reason or cause requireth it is a sign of pride and stiffness CHAP. X. Of the avoiding superfluity in words FLy the tumultuousness of the world as much as thou canst for the talk of worldly affairs hindreth very much although they be recounted with sincere intention for we are quickly defiled and enthralled with vanity I could wish that I had oftentimes held my peace when I have spoken and that I had not been in company Why do we so willingly speak and talk one with another when notwithstanding we seldom return to silence without hurt of conscience The cause why we so willingly talk is for that by discoursing one with another we seek to receive comfort one of another and desire to ease our mind overwearied with sundry thoughts and we very willingly talk and think of those things which we most love and desire or of those which we feel most contrary and troublesom unto us 2. But alas oftentimes in vain and to no end for this outward comfort is the cause of no small loss of inward and divine consolation Therefore we must watch and pray lest our time pass away idlely If it be lawful and expedient for thee to speak speak those things that may edifie An evil custom and neglect of our own good doth give too much liberty to inconsiderate speech Yet religious discourses of spiritual things do greatly further our spiritual growth especially where persons of one mind and spirit be gathered together in God CHAP. XI Of the obtaining of peace and zealous desire of profit in grace WE might enjoy much peace if we would not busie our selves with the words and deeds of other Men which appertain nothing to our charge How can he live long in peace that thrusteth himself into the cares of others that seeks occasions abroad that little or seldom recollecteth himself within his own breast Blessed are the single-hearted for they shall injoy much peace 2. What is the reason why some of the Saints were so perfect and contemplative Because they labored to mortifie themselves wholly to all earthly desires and therefore they could with their whole heart give themselves to God and be free for holy retirement We are too much led by our passions and too solicitous for transitory things We also seldom overcome any one vice perfectly and are not inflamed with a fervent desire to grow better every day and therefore we remain cold and scarce warm in Religion 3. If we were perfectly dead unto our selves and not entangled within our own breasts then should we tast divine things and have some acquaintance with heavenly enjoyments The greatest and indeed the whole impediment is for that we are not disentangled from our passions and lusts neither do we endeavor to enter into that path of perfection which the Saints have walked before us and when any small adversity befalleth us we are too quickly dejected and turn our selves to humane comforts 4. If we would endeavor like Men of courage to stand in the battel surely we should feel the favorable assistance of God from Heaven For he who giveth us occasion to fight to the end we may get the victory is ready to succor those that fight manfully and do trust in his grace If we esteem our progress in religious life to confist only in some exterior observances our devotion will quickly be at an end But let us lay the Axe to the root that being freed from passions we may find rest to our souls 5. If every year we would root out one vice we should sooner become perfect Men. But now oftentimes we perceive it goes contrary and that we were better
sure more especially to instruct thy self before all thy loving friends If thou hast not the favor of Men be not grieved at it but take this to heart that thou dost not carry thy self so warily and circumspectly as it becometh the Servant of God and a devout religious Man It is better oftentimes and safer that a Man hath not many consolations in this life especially such as are agreeable to the flesh But that we have not at all or do very seldom tast divine consolations the fault is ours because we seek not after compunction of heart nor do altogether forsake the vain and outward comforts of this world 4. Know that thou art unworthy of divine consolation and that thou hast rather deserved much tribulation When a Man hath perfect contrition then is the whole world grievous and bitter unto him A good Man findeth always sufficient cause of mourning and weeping for whether he consider his own or his neighbors estate he knoweth that none liveth here without tribulation And by how much a Man looks narrowly into himself by so much the more he sorroweth Our sins and wickednesses wherein we are so enwrapt that we can seldom apply our selves to heavenly contemplations do Minister unto us matter of most just sorrow and inward compunction 5. Didst thou oftner think of thy death than of thy living long there is no question but thou wouldst be more careful to amend I believe thou wouldst willingly undergo any labor or sorrow in this world and not be afraid of the greatest austerity if thou didst consider within thy self the infernal pains in the other world But because these things enter not to the heart and we still love those things only that delight us therefore it is we remain very dull and cold in religion 6. It is often our want of spirit which maketh our miserable body so easily complain Pray therefore unto the Lord with all humility that he will vouchsafe to give thee the spirit of compunction And say with the prophet Psal. 80 Feed me O Lord with the bread of tears and give me plenteousness of tears to drink CHAP. XXII Of the consideration of humane misery MIserable thou art wheresoever thou be or whithersoever thou turnest unless thou turn thy self unto God Why art thou troubled when things succeed not as thou wouldest or desirest For who is he that hath all things according to his mind Neither I nor thou nor any Man upon earth there is none in this world be he King or Pope without some tribulation or other Who is then in the best case or condition even he who can suffer something for God 2. Many weak and infirm ones can say Behold what an happy life hath such an one how wealthy how great he is in how great power and dignity But lift up thine eyes to the riches of heaven and thou shalt see that all the goods of this life are nothing so to be accounted of They are very uncertain rather burdensome than otherwise because they are never enjoyed without carefulness and fear Mans happiness consisteth not in having abundance of wealth but a mean estate should content him it is truly misery enough even to live upon the earth The more a Man would be spiritual the more bitter to him is this present life because he seeth more clearly and perceiveth more sensibly the defects of humane corruption For to eat and to drink to sleep and to watch to labor and to rest and to be subject to other necessities of nature is doubtless a great misery and affliction to a religious Man that would gladly be free and delivered from all sin 3. For the inward Man is much oppressed with these outward and corporal necessities whilest we live in this world Therefore the holy Prophet prayeth with great devotion to be delivered from them saying Bring me O Lord out of my necessities But wo be to them that know not their own misery and a greater wo to them that love this miserable and corruptible life And some there be so much dote upon it that although with great labor and pains they can scarce get mere necessaries yet could they live here always they would care nothing at all for the Kingdom of Heaven 4. O how foolish are these and faithless in their hearts who lye so deeply sunk in the earth that they can mind or relish nothing but carnal things But miserable wretches as they are they shall in the end feel to their cost how vile and how nothing that was which they loved Whereas the Saints of God and all the devout friends of Christ respected not those things which pleased the flesh and which flourished in this life but longed for the everlasting riches with their whole hope and desire Their whole desire was carried upward to things durable and invisible that the desire of things visible might not draw them to things below O Brother lose not thy hope of coming forward in godliness there is yet time the hour is not yet past 5. Why wilt thou defer thy good purpose from day to day Arise and begin in this very instant and say Now is the time to be doing now is the time to be striving now is the best time to amend my self When thou art ill at ease and much troubled then is the time of deserving best thou must pass through fire and water before thou comest to the place of refreshing Unless thou dost earnestly force thy self thou shalt never get the victory over sin so long as we carry about us this frail body of ours we can never be without sin or live without trouble and sorrow We would gladly be quiet and freed from all misery but seeing by sin we have lost our innocency we have together with that lost also the true felicity Therefore it becomes us to have patience and to wait for the mercy of God till this our iniquity be put away and this mortality of ours be swallowed up of life 6. O how great is humane frailty which is always prone to evil to day thou confessest thy sins and to morrow thou committest the very same thou hast confessed Now thou art purposed to look well unto thy ways and within a while thou so behavest thy self as though thou hadst never any such purpose at all Good cause have we therefore to humble our selves and never to have any great conceit of our selves because we are so frail and so inconstant Besides that may quickly be lost by our own negligence which by the grace of God and our own great pains we have scarce at length obtained 7. What will become of us in the end who begin to wax cold so timely Wo be unto us if we will so give our selves unto ease as if all were in peace and safety when as yet there appeareth no sign of true holiness in our conversations We have need like young beginners to be newly instructed again to good life if happily there be any hope of
goods And he that loseth Jesus loseth too much and more than the whole world He is most poor that liveth without Jesus and he is most rich that is well with Jesus 3. It is a piece of great skill to know how to converse with Jesus and great wisdom to know how to keep Jesus Be humble and peaceable and Jesus will be with thee Be devout and quiet and Jesus will stay with thee Thou mayest soon drive away Jesus and lose his grace if thou turn aside to outward things And if thou shouldest drive him from thee and lose him unto whom wilt thou flie and what friends wilt thou then seek Without a friend thou canst not well live and if Jesus be not above all a friend unto thee thou shalt be too sorrowful and desolate Thou doest therefore foolishly if thou doest trust or rejoyce in any other It is better for thee to have all the world against thee than Jesus offended with thee Amongst all things therefore that be dear unto thee let Jesus alone be thy chiefest beloved 4. Love all for Jesus but Jesus for himself Jesus Christ alone is singularly to be beloved who alone is found to be good and faithful above all friends For him and in him let as well friends as foes be dear unto thee and all these are to be prayed for that all may know and love him Never desire to be singularly commended or beloved for that appertaineth only unto God who hath none like unto himself Neither do thou desire that the heart of any should be set on thee nor do thou set thy heart on the love of any but let Jesus be in thee and in every good Man 5. Be pure and free within and intangle not thy heart with any creature Thou oughtest to be as it were naked and to carry a pure heart to God if thou wouldest be free to consider and see how sweet the Lord is And truly unless thou be prevented and drawn by his grace thou shalt never attain to that happiness to forsake and cast off all that thou alone mayest be united to him alone For when the grace of God cometh unto a Man then he is made able for all things And when it goeth away he is poor and weak and as it were left only unto the lash and scourge of every adversary In this thou oughtest not to be dejected nor despair but to resign thy self with all indifferency unto the will of God and to bear all things that befal thee for the glory of Christ for after winter followeth summer after night cometh day and after a tempest fair weather CHAP. IX Of the want of all comfort IT is no hard matter to despise humane comfort when we have divine It is much and very much to be able to want both humane and divine comfort and for the Glory of God to be willing to endure desolation of heart and to seek himself in nothing nor to regard his own merit What great matter is it if thou be chearful and devout at the coming of grace This hour is wished for of all Men. He rideth easily enough whom the grace of God carrieth And what marvel if he feel not his burden who is born up by the Almighty and led by the soveraign guide 2. We are always willing to have something for our comfort and a Man doth hardly put off and forsake himself The holy martyr St. Laurence overcame the world with his Prelates because he despised whatsoever seemed delightsom in the world and for the love of Christ patiently suffered Sixtus to be taken from him whom he most dearly loved He overcame therefore the love of Man by the love of the Creator and he rather chose the divine good pleasure than humane comfort See thou also learn to forsake some necessary thing and a beloved friend for the love of God Be not grieved when thou art forsaken by a friend knowing that we all at length must be separated one from another 3. A Man must fight long and mightily with himself before he get the full victory over himself and be able to draw his whole heart in to God When a Man trusteth in himself he easily slideth unto humane comforts but a true lover of Christ and a diligent follower of virtue betakes not himself to humane comforts nor seeketh such sensible sweetnesses but rather hard exercises and to sustain great labors for Christ. 4. When therefore spiritual comfort is given thee from God receive it thankfully but know that it is the gift of God not any desert of thine Be not puffed up joy not too much neither do thou presume vainly but be rather the more humble for that gift and more wary and sollicitous in all thine actions for that hour will pass away and temptation will succeed When consolation is taken from thee despair not presently but with humility and patience wait for the Heavenly visitation for God is able again to give thee greater consolation This is not new nor strange unto them that have experience in the way of God for the great Saints and ancient prophets had oftentimes experience of such kind of vicissitudes 5. For which cause one under the enjoyment of divine favor said I said in my prosperity I shall never be moved But in the want of this he addeth what he found in himself saying thou turn'dst thy face from me and I became troubled Yet doth he not despair in the midst of these changes but more earnestly prayeth unto the Lord and saith Unto thee O Lord will I cry and I will pray unto my God Lastly he receiveth the fruit of his prayer and witnesseth that he was heard saying The Lord hath heard me and taken pity on me the Lord is become my helper But wherein Thou hast turned saith he my sorrow into joy and thou hast compassed me about with gladness If great Saints have been so dealt withal we that are weak and poor ought not to despair if we be sometimes fervent and sometimes cold for the Spirit cometh and goeth according to the good pleasure of his will For which cause blessed Job saith Thou visitest him early in the morning and suddenly thou provest him 6. Whereupon therefore can I hope or wherein ought I to trust but in the great mercy of God alone and in the only hope of heavenly grace For whether I enjoy the presence of good Men or religious brethren or faithful friends or holy Books or excellent treatises or sweet songs and hymns all these help little and have little savor when grace forsaketh me and I remain left in mine own poverty At such time there is no better remedy thà n patience and the ordering of my self according to the will of God 7. I never found any so religious and devout that hath not had sometimes a withdrawing of grace or felt not some decrease of zeal There was never Saint so highly rapt and illuminated who first or last was not tempted For he is not
I delight to think of spiritual things For whatsoever I love thereof do I willingly speak and hear and carry home with me the forms the Ideas and representations thereof But blessed is that Man that for thee O Lord dismisseth all creatures that violently resisteth nature and through fervor of spirit crucifieth the lusts of the flesh that so with a serene conscience he may offer pure prayer unto thee and be meet to be admitted into the Angelical quire all earthly things both outwardly and inwardly being excluded CHAP. XLIX Of the desire of everlasting life and how great rewards are promised to those that fight valiantly CHrist. Son when thou perceivest the desire of everlasting bliss to be given thee from above and desirest to depart out of the Tabernacle of this body that thou mayest behold my brightness without shaddow of turning open thy heart wide and receive this holy inspiration with thy whole desire Give greatest thanks to the Heavenly goodness that dealeth with thee so favorably visiteth thee mercifully stirreth thee up fervently holdeth thee up powerfully lest through thine own weight thou fall down to the things of Earth Neither dost thou obtain this by thy own thought or endeavor but by the mere dignation of Heavenly grace and divine favor to the end that thou mayest make a further progress in holiness and obtain greater humility and prepare thy self for future battels and endeavor to cleave unto me with the whole affection of thy heart and serve me with a fervent desire 2. Son the fire burneth many times but the flame ascendeth not up without smoak so likewise the desires of some Men burn towards Heavenly things and yet they are not free from temptation of carnal affection and therefore it is not altogether purely for the honor of God that which they so exactly request of him Such is also oftentimes thy desire which thou hast pretended to be so serious For that is not pure and perfect which is tinctured with the love of thine own proper commodity and interest 3. Ask not that which is delightful and profitable to thee but that which is acceptable to me and appertaineth to my honor for if thou judgest aright thou oughtest to prefer and follow my appointment rather than thine own desire or any desired thing I know thy desire and have heard thy frequent groans Now thou wouldest enjoy the glorious liberty of the Sons of God now doth the everlasting habitation and the Heavenly Country replenished with all joy delight thee but that hour is not yet come as yet there is another time to wit a time of war a time of labor and trial Thou desirest to be filled with the chiefest good but thou canst not attain it for the present I am he saith the Lord whom thou must patiently wait for until the Kingdom of God doth come 4. Thou art yet to be tryed upon Earth and to be exercised in many things Comfort shall be sometimes given thee but the abundant fulness thereof shall not be granted Take courage therefore and be valiant as well in doing as in suffering things contrary to nature Thou oughtest to put on the new Man and to be changed into another Man Thou must oftentimes do that which thou wouldest not and leave undone that thou wouldest do That which is pleasing to others shall go well forward that which thou wishest shall not speed That which others say shall be heard what thou sayest shall be nothing regarded Others shall ask and shall receive Thou shalt ask and not obtain 5. Others shall be great in the praise of Men but of thee there shall be no speech To others this or that shall be committed but thou shalt be accounted fit for nothing At this nature will sometimes be troubled and it is much if thou bearest it with silence In these and many such like a faithful Servant of the Lord is wont to be tried how he can deny and break himself in all things There is scarce any thing wherein thou hast had such need to dye to thy self as in seeing and suffering those things that are contrary to thy will especially when that is commanded which seemeth unto thee inconvenient or less profitable And for that thou being placed under authority darest not resist higher power therefore it seemeth hard to thee to walk at the beck of another and to leave all thine own opinion 6. But consider Son the fruit of these labors the end near at hand and the reward exceeding great and thou shalt be so far from sustaining them grievously that thou wilt take great comfort of thy patience For in regard of that little of thy will which now thou willingly forsakest thou shalt always have thy will in Heaven There thou shalt find all that thou wilt or canst desire there thou shalt enjoy all good without fear of losing it there shall thy will be ever one with me it shall not covet any outward or private thing There no Man shall withstand thee no Man complain of thee no Man hinder thee nothing come against thee but all things desired shall be there together present and refresh thy whole affection and fill it up to the brim There I will give thee glory for the reproach which here thou sufferedst the garment of praise for heaviness for the lowest place a kingly Throne for ever there shall the fruit of obedience appear the labor of repentance rejoyce and humble subjection shall be gloriously crowned 7. Now therefore be humbly obedient unto all and regard not who said or commanded this but take great heed that whether thy Superior or thy inferior or thine equal require any thing of thee or do insinuate their desire thou take it all in good part and endeavor to fulfil it with a sincere will Let one seek this another that let him ' glory in this the other in that and be praised a thousand thousand times but do thou neither rejoyce in this nor in that but in the contempt of thy self and only in my good pleasure and honor This art thou to wish that whether it be thy life or death God may be always glorified in thee CHAP. L. How a disconsolate person ought to offer himself into the hands of God CHristian Lord God Holy Father be thou blessed both now and for evermore because as thou wilt so is it done and what thou doest is good Let thy Servant rejoyce in thee not in himself nor in any thing else for thou alone art the true gladness thou art my hope and my crown thou art my joy and my honor O Lord. What hath thy Servant but what he hath received from thee even without any merit of his Thine is all that thou hast given and whatsoever thou hast made I am poor and in labors from my youth and sometimes my soul is sorrowful even unto tears sometimes also it is troubled in it self by reason of evils which hang over mine head 2. I long after the joy of
less to be loved and praised then if thou didst fill me with Heavenly comforts 3. In thee therefore O Lord God I put my whole hope and refuge in thee I place my tribulation and anguish for I find all to be weak and unconstant whatsoever I behold out of thee For neither can many friends avail nor strong helpers aid nor wise councellors give any profitable answer nor the Books of the learned comfort nor any wealth deliver nor any secret or pleasant place defend if thou thy self dost not assist help strengthen comfort instruct and keep us 4. For all things that seem to belong to the attainment of peace and felicity without thee are nothing and do bring indeed no felicity at all Thou therefore art the end of all that is good the height of life the depth of wisdom and the strongest comfort of thy servants is to trust in thee above all things To thee therefore do I lift up mine eyes in thee O my God the Father of mercies I put my trust Bless and sanctifie my soul with thy Heavenly blessings that it may be made thy holy habitation and the seat of thy eternal glory and that nothing may be found in the Temple of thy glory that may offend the eyes of thy Majesty According to the greatness of thy goodness and multitude of thy mercies look upon me and hear the prayer of thy poor Servant who is far exiled from thee in the land of the shadow of death Protect and keep the soul of thy Servant amidst so many dangers of this corruptible life and by thy grace accompanying me direct it by the way of peace to the country of everlasting light Amen THE FOURTH BOOK A devout Exhortation unto the holy Communion The voice of Christ. COme unto me all ye that labor and are burdened and I will refresh you saith the Lord. The bread which I will give is my flesh for the life of the world Take ye and eat that is my body that is given for you Do this in remembrance of me He that eateth my flesh and drinketh my blood dwelleth in me and I in him The words which I have spoken unto you are spirit and life CHAP. I. With how great reverence Christ ought to be received The voice of the disciple THese are thy words O Christ the everlasting Truth though not spoken all at one time nor written in one and the self same place Because therefore they are thine and true they are all thankfully and faithfully to be received by me They are thine and thou hast spoken them and they are mine also because thou hast spoken them for my salvation I willingly receive them from thy mouth that they may be the deeper imprinted in my heart These so gracious words so full of sweetness and love do encourage me but mine own offences do dishearten me and my impure conscience driveth me back from the receiving of so great mysteries The sweetness of thy words doth encourage me but the multitude of my sins doth oppress me 2. Thou commandest me to come confidently unto thee if I will have part with thee and to receive the food of immortality if I desire to obtain everlasting life and glory Come saist thou unto me all ye that labor and are burdened and I wil refresh you O sweet and loving word in the ear of a sinner that thou my Lord God shouldest invite the poor and needy to the participation of thy most holy body But who am I Lord that I may presume to approach unto thee Behold the Heavens cannot contain thee and thou saist Come ye all unto me 3. What meaneth this so gracious a condescension and this so loving invitation How shall I dare to come that know not any good in my self whereupon I may presume How shall I bring thee unto my House that have so often offended thy most gracious countenance The Angels and the Archangels honor thee the Saints and just Men do fear thee and saist thou Come ye all unto me Unless thou O Lord didst say it who would believe it to be true And unless thou didst command it who would attempt to come unto thee Behold Noah a just Man labored a Hundred years in the making of the Ark that he might be saved with a few and how can I in one hours space prepare my self to receive with reverenee the Maker of the world 4. Moses thy great Servant and thy especial friend made an Ark of incorruptible wood which also he covered with most pure Gold to put the Tables of the Law therein and I a corruptible creature how shall I dare so lightly to receive the Maker of the Law and the giver of life Solomon the wisest of the Kings of Israel bestowed Seven years in building a magnificent Temple to the praise of thy Name and celebrated the feast of Dedication thereof Eight days together he offered a Thousand peace-offerings and he solemnly set the Ark in the place prepared for it with the sound of Trumpets and joy and I the most miserable and poorest of Men how shall I bring thee into my House that can scarce spend one half hour religiously And I wish I could once spend about one half hour in a worthy and due manner 5. O my God how much did they endeavor to please thee and alas how little is that which I do How little time do I spend to prepare my self to receive I am seldom wholly recollected very seldom free from all distraction and yet surely no unbecoming thought ought to appear in the comfortable presence of thy Deity nor any creature wholly take me up for I am not to harbor an Angel but the Lord of Angels 6. And yet there is great difference between the Ark of the Covenant with its reliques and thy most pure body with its unspeakable virtues between those legal Sacrifices figures of future things and the true Sacrifice of thy body the complement of all antient Sacrifices Why therefore am I not more zealous in thy venerable presence Wherefore do I not prepare my self with greater care to receive thy holy things sith those holy antient Patriarchs and Prophets yea Kings also and Princes with the whole people have shewed such an affectionateness of devotion to thy divine service 7. The most devout King David danced before the Ark of God with all his might calling to mind the benefits bestowed in times past upon his Forefathers He made instruments of sundry kinds he published Psalms and appointed them to be sung with joy he also oftentimes sung to the harp being inspired with the grace of the holy Ghost He taught the people of Israel to praise God with their whole heart and with pleasant voices every day to bless and praise him If so great devotion was then used and such celebrating of divine praise before the Ark of the Testament what reverence and devotion is now to be performed by me and all Christian people at the Sacrament in receiving the
Cross did suffer and die for salvation of Mankind CHAP. III. That it is profitable to communicate often The voice of the Disciple BEhold O Lord I come unto thee that I may be comforted in thy gift and be delighted in thy holy banquet which thou O God hast prepared in thy goodness for the poor Behold in thee is all whatsoever I can or ought to desire thou art my salvation and my redemption my hope and my strength my honor and my glory make joyful therefore this day the soul of thy Servant for that I have lifted it up to thee O Lord Jesus I desire to receive thee now with devotion and reverence I do long to bring thee into my house that with Zacheus I may obtain to be blessed by thee and to be numbred amongst the Children of Abraham My soul thirsteth to receive thy body my heart desireth to be united with thee 2. Give thy self to me and it sufficeth for besides thee no comfort is available I cannot be without thee nor live without thy visitation And therefore I must often come unto thee and receive thee for the welfare of my soul lest perhaps I faint in the way if I be deprived of thy Heavenly food For so most merciful Jesus thou once didst say preaching to the people and curing sundry diseases I will not send them home fasting lest they faint in the way Deal thou therefore in like manner now with me who hast vouchsafed to leave thy self in the Sacrament for the comfort of the faithful For thou art the sweet refection of the soul and he that eateth thee worthily shall be partaker and heir of everlasting glory It is necessary for me that do often fall and sin and so quickly wax dull and faint that by frequent prayer and confession and receiving of thy holy body I renew cleanse and inflame my self lest perhaps by long abstaining I should fall from my holy purpose 3. For the imaginations of Man are prone unto evil from his youth and unless some divine remedy help him he quickly slideth to worse This holy Communion therefore draweth back from evil and strengtheneth in good For if I be now so often slack and cold when I communicate or celebrate what would become of me if I received not this remedy and sought not after so great an help Though every day I be not fit nor well prepared to communicate I will endeavor notwithstanding at due times to receive the divine mysteries and to be partaker of so great a grace For this is one chief comfort of a faithful soul whilest she wandreth from thee in this mortal body that being often mindful of her God she receive her beloved with a devout mind 4. O the wonderful condescent of thy mercy towards us that thou O Lord God the Creator and giver of life to all spirits dost vouchsafe to come unto a poor soul and with thy whole Deity and Humanity to replenish her hunger O happy mind and blessed soul that obtains to receive thee her Lord God with devout affection and in receiving of thee to be filled with spiritual joy O how great a Lord doth she entertain How beloved a guest doth she harbor How pleasant a companion doth she receive How faithful a friend doth she take in How lovely and noble a spouse doth she embrace She embraceth him who is to be loved above all that is beloved and above all things that may be desired Let Heaven and Earth and all their furniture be silent in thy presence for what praise and beauty soever they have it is received from thy bounty and shall not equal the beauty of thy Name whose wisdom is infinite CHAP. IV. That many benefits are bestowed upon them that communicate devoutly The voice of the Disciple MY Lord God prevent thy Servant with the blessings of thy sweetness that I may approach worthily and devoutly to thy glorious Sacrament stir up my heart unto thee and deliver me from all dulness visit me with thy salvation that I may taste in spirit thy sweetness which plentifully lieth hid in this Sacrament as in a fountain Enlighten also my eyes to behold so great a mystery and strengthen me to believe it with undoubted faith For it is thy work and not Mans power thy sacred institution not Mans invention For no Man is of himself able to comprehend and understand these things which surpass the understanding even of Angels What therefore shall I unworthy sinner dust and ashes be able to search and comprehend of so high and sacred a mystery 2. O Lord in the simplicity of my heart with a good and firm faith and at thy commandment I come unto thee with hope and reverence and do truly believe that thou art present in the Sacrament Thy will is that I receive thee and that by love I unite my self unto thee Wherefore I implore thy mercy and do crave thy special grace to the end I may wholly melt and flow over with love unto thee and hereafter never harbor any external comfort For this most high and worthy Sacrament is the health of the soul and body the remedy of all spiritual weakness hereby my vices are cured my passions bridled temptations overcome or weakned greater grace is infused virtue begun increased faith confirmed hope strengthened and love inflamed and enlarged 3. For thou hast bestowed and still oftentimes dost bestow many benefits in this Sacrament upon thy beloved ones that communicate devoutly O my God the Protector of my soul the strengthner of humane frailty and the giver of all inward comfort Thou impartest unto them much comfort against sundry tribulations and liftest them up from the depth of their own dejectedness to hope in thy protection and dost inwardly refresh and illustrate them with new grace so that they who before Communion felt themselves heavy and indisposed afterwards being refreshed with Heavenly meat and drink do find in themselves a great change to the better And in such a way of dispensation thou dealest with thy elect that they may truly acknowledg and patiently prove how great their own infirmity is and what goodness and grace they receive from thee For they of themselves are cold dull and undevout but by thee they are made fervent chearful and full of devotion For who is there that approaching humbly unto the fountain of sweetness doth not carry away from thence at least some little sweetness Or who standing by a great fire receiveth not some small heat thereby Thou art a fountain always full and overflowing a fire ever burning and never decaying 4. Wherefore if I cannot draw out of the full fountain it self nor drink my fill I will notwithstanding set my lips to the mouth of this Heavenly conduit that I may draw from thence at least some small drop to refresh my thirst that so I may not be wholly dried up And though I be not altogether Heavenly nor so inflamed as the Cherubins and Seraphins notwithstanding I will
the holy of Holies Thanks be unto thee Lord Jesus the light of everlasting light for the table of holy Doctrine which thou hast afforded us by thy Servants the Prophets and Apostles and other Teachers 5. Thanks be unto thee Creator and Redeemer of Man who to manifest thy love to the whole world hast prepared a great supper wherein thou hast set before us to be eaten not the typical Lamb but thine own most sacred Body and Blood rejoycing all the faithful with thy holy banquet and replenishing them to the full with thy Cup of salvation in which are all the delights of Paradise and the holy Angels do feast with us but yet with a more happy sweetness 6. O how great and honorable is the office of Gods Ministers to whom it is given with sacred words to consecrate the Sacrament of the Lord of glory with their lips to bless with their hands to hold with their mouth to receive and also to administer to others O how clean ought to be those hands how pure that mouth how holy that body how unspotted that heart where the Author of purity so often entreth Nothing but what is holy no word but good and profitable ought to proceed from his mouth which so often receiveth the Sacrament of Christ. 7. Simple and chaste ought to be the eyes that use to behold the body of Christ the hands pure and lifted up to Heaven that use to receive the Creator of Heaven and Earth Unto the Priests especially it is said in the Law be ye holy for that I your Lord God am holy 8. Assist us Almighty God with thy grace that we who have undertaken the office of Priest-hood may serve thee worthily and devoutly in all purity and with a good conscience And if we live not in so great innocency as we ought to do grant us notwithstanding in due manner to bewail the sins which we have committed and in the spirit of humility and with the full purpose of a good will to serve thee hereafter more fervently CHAP. XII That he who is to communicate ought to prepare himself with great diligence The voice of the beloued I Am the lover of purity and the giver of all sanctity I seek a pure heart and there is the place of my rest Make ready and adorn for me the great Chamber and I will keep with thee the Passover amongst my Disciples If thou wilt have me come unto thee and remain with thee purge out the old leaven and make clean the habitation of thy heart shut out the whole world and all the throng of sins sit like a sparrow solitary upon the house-top and think of thy offences in the bitterness of thy soul. For every lover prepareth the best and fairest room for his beloved and herein is known the affection of him that entertaineth his beloved 2. Know thou notwithstanding that the merit of no action of thine is able to make this preparation sufficient although thou shouldest prepare thy self a whole year together and think on nothing else Thou art of my mere grace and favor suffered to come to my Table like a beggar invited to dinner to a rich Man who hath nothing else to return him for his benefits but to humble himself and give him thanks Do what lieth in thee and do it diligently not for custome not for necessity but with fear and reverence and affection receive the body of thy beloved Lord God who vouchsafeth to come unto thee I am he that have called thee I have commanded it to be done I will supply what is wanting in thee come and receive me 3. When I bestow the grace of devotion give thanks to thy God for it is given thee not for that thou art worthy but because I have mercy on thee If thou have it not but rather dost feel thy self dry continue in Prayer sigh and knock and give not over until thou art meet to receive some crum or drop of saving grace Thou hast need of me not I of thee neither comest thou to sanctifie me but I come to sanctifie and make thee better Thou comest that thou maist be sanctified by me and united unto me that thou maist receive new grace and be stirred up again to amendment Neglect not this grace but prepare thy heart with all diligence and receive thy beloved into thy soul. 4. But thou oughtest not only to prepare thy self to devotion before Communion but carefully also to conserve thy self therein after thou hast received the Sacrament Neither is the careful guard of thy self afterwards less required than devout preparation before For a good guard afterwards is the best preparation again for the obtaining of greater grace because that a Man becometh therefore very indisposed if he presently pour himself out overmuch to outward comforts Beware of much talk remain in some secret place and enjoy thy God For thou hast him whom all the world cannot take from thee I am he to whom thou oughtest wholly to give thy self thatso thou maist live hereafter not in thy self but in me without all solicitude CHAP. XIII That a devout soul ought to desire with her whole heart to be united unto Christ in the Sacrament The voice of the Disciple HOw may I obtain this O Lord that I may find thee alone and open my whole heart unto thee and enjoy thee as my soul desireth And that no Man may look towards me nor any creature move me or eye me but thou alone maist speak unto me and I to thee as the beloved is wont to speak to his beloved and a friend to banquet with his friend This I pray for this I desire that I may be wholly united unto thee and may withdraw my heart from all created things and more and more by sacred Communion and often celebrating learn to relish Heavenly and eternal things O Lord God when shall I be wholly united to thee and absorpt by thee and be altogether forgetful of my self Thou in me and I in thee and so grant us both to continue in one 2. Thou art truly my beloved the choicest amongst Thousands in whom my soul is well pleased to dwell all the days of her life Thou art indeed my peacemaker in whom is greatest peace and true rest without whom is labor and sorrow and infinite misery Thou art indeed a God that hidest thy self and thy counsel is not with the wicked but thy speech is with the humble and simple of heart O Lord how sweet is thy spirit who to the end thou mightest shew thy sweetness toward thy Children vouchsafest to feed them with the bread which descendeth from Heaven and is full of all sweetness Surely there is no other Nation so great that hath God nigh unto them as thou our God art present to all thy faithful ones unto whom for their daily comfort and for the raising up of their hearts to Heaven thou givest thy self to be eaten and enjoyed 3. For what other Nation is
there so famous as the Christian People or what creature under heaven so beloved as a religious soul to whom God himself cometh to feed her with his glorious flesh O unspeakable grace O admirable condescent O infinite love singularly bestowed upon Man But what shall I give unto the Lord in return of his grace for so eminent an expression of thy love There is no other thing more acceptable that I am able to give than to give my heart wholly to my God and to unite it most inwardly unto him Then shall all my inward parts rejoyce when my soul shall be perfectly united unto God Then he will say unto me if thou wilt be with me I will be with thee And I will answer him Vouchsafe O Lord to remain with me and I will gladly be with thee This is my whole desire that my heart be united unto thee CHAP. XIV Of the fervent desire of some devout Persons to receive the Body of Christ. The voice of the Discipie O How great is thy goodness O Lord which thou hast laid up for them that fear thee When I remember some devout persons who come unto thy Sacrament O Lord with greatest devotion and affection I am oftentimes confounded and blush within my self that I come so formally and coldly to thy Table of the holy Communion that I remain so dry and without heart affection That I am not wholly inflamed in thy presence my God nor so earnestly drawn and affected as many devout persons have been who out of a vehement desire of the Communion and a feeling affection of heart could not contain themselves from weeping but with the desire both of soul and body they earnestly longed after thee O God the living Fountain being not otherwise able to allay nor satisfie their hunger but by receiing thy body with all joy and spiritual greediness 2. O the most ardent faith of those persons A clear argument of thy sacred presence For they truly know their Lord in the breaking of bread whose heart burneth so mightily within them whilst thou O blessed Jesus conversest with them Such desire and devotion so vehement love and fervency is oftentimes far from me Be merciful unto me good Jesus sweet and gracious Lord and grant me thy poor needy creature to feed sometimes at least in this holy Communion somewhat of thy hearty affectionate love that my faith may be more strengthened my hope in thy goodness increased and that my charity once perfectly enflamed after the tasting of Heavenly Manna may never decay 3. Thy mercy O Lord is able to give me the grace I desire and to visit me most mercifully with the spirit of fervor when it shall please thee For although I burn not with so great desire as those that are so singularly devoted to thee yet notwithstanding by thy grace I desire to have this great inflamed desire praying and craving that I may participate with all such thy fervent lovers and be numbred among them in their holy company CHAP. XV. That the grace of devotion is obtained by humility and denial of our selves The voice of the Beloved THou oughtest to seek the grace of devotion instantly to ask it earnestly to expect it patiently and with confidence to receive it gratefully to keep it humbly to work with it diligently and to commit the term and manner of this Heavenly visitation to God until it shall please him to come unto thee Thou oughtest chiefly to humble thy self when thou feelest inwardly little or no devotion and yet not to be too much dejected nor to grieve inordinately God often giveth in a short moment that which he hath long time denied he giveth sometimes in the end that which in the beginning of prayer he deferred to grant 2. If grace should be always presently given and at hand ever with a wish the weak Man could not well bear it Therefore the grace of devotion is to be expected with good hope and humble patience yet impute it to thy self and thy sins when it is not given thee or when it is secretly taken away It is sometimes a small matter that hindereth and hideth grace from us if yet it be to be called small and not rather a great matter that hindereth so great a good And if thou remove this be it great or small and perfectly overcome it thou shalt have thy desire 3. For presently as soon as thou from thy whole heart givest thy self to God and seekest not this nor that for thine own pleasure or will but setlest thy self wholly in him thou shalt find thy self united and quiet for nothing will relish so well and please thee so much as the good pleasure of the divine will Whosoever therefore with a single heart lifteth up his intention to God and purgeth himself from all inordinate love or dislike of any created thing he shall be the most fit to receive grace and meet for the gist of devotion For the Lord bestoweth his blessings there where he findeth the vessels empty And how much the more perfectly one forsaketh these low things and the more he dieth to himself by contempt of himself so much the more speedily grace shall come and enter in more plentifully and raise up higher the heart that is thus free 4. Then shall he see and be filled and wonder and his heart shall be enlarged within him because the hand of the Lord is with him and he hath put himself wholly into his hands for ever Behold so shall the Man be blessed that seeketh God with his whole heart and busieth not his soul in vain This man obtaineth the great favor of divine union in receiving the holy Eucharist for that he respecteth not his own devotion and comfort but above all devotion and comfort the honor and glory of God CHAP. XVI That we ought to manifest our necessities to Christ and crave his grace The voice of the Disciple O Most sweet and loving Lord whom I now desire to receive with all devotion thou knowest my infirmity and the necessity which I endure with how many sins and evils I am oppressed how often I am grieved tempted troubled and defiled I come unto thee for remedy I crave of thee comfort and succor I speak to him that knoweth all things to whom all my inward parts are open and who can only perfectly comfort and help me Thou knowest what good things I stand in most need of and how poor I am in vertues 2. Behold I stand before thee poor and naked calling for grace and craving mercy Refresh thy hungry beggar inflame my coldness with the fire of thy love inlighten my blindness with the brightness of thy presence Turn all earthly things to me into bitterness all things grievous and cross into patience all low and created things into contempt and oblivion Lift up my heart to thee in Heaven and suffer me not to wander upon Earth Be thou only sweet unto me from henceforth for evermore for thou only