not hinder thy ascent into Heaven if thou tread them under thy feet For every sin and vanity trodden down subdued and mortified is one step Gen. 28.12 De vitiis nostris senlam facimus dum vitia calcamus Luk. 15.7 Heb. 12.1 2. one Scale or Round of that Celestial Ladder which being set upon the Earth reacheth up unto Heaven which the Angels of Heaven rejoyce to behold And may the right hand of God assist me to lay aside every weight and the sin that doth so easily beset me and to run with patience the race that is set before me Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our Faith who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross and despised the shame and is set down at the right hand of the Throne of God Blessed Lord who hast made me after thine own Image to attain the perfection and felicity of my Being in the beatifical vision and fruition of thy Majesty in Heaven vouchsafe here to guide me with thy Counsel and after that to receive me with glory through the Merits and Mediation of thy blessed Son and my dearest Saviour Jesus Christ Our Father which art in Heaven c. The XXIV Psalm PARAPHRASED Verse 1. THe Earth is the Lords and all that therein is the compass of the world and they that dwell therein The Heavens are the Lord 's chief Dwelling-place the Earth and all the Nations thereof he hath given to his Son Jesus as he is Redeemer of the World so Psal 2.8 Desire of me and I shall give thee the heathen for thine inheritance and the utmost parts of the Earth for thy possession For he hath founded it upon the seas and prepared it upon the flouds As God hath so wisely ordered the Earth and the Water that the one may refresh not overflow the other so he hath founded his Church upon a Rock above the Flouds of secular Cares and Turmoils and all the rising waves of this World 's vast Sea which is signified by the Situation of his Temple on a Hill And Who shall ascend into the hill of the Lord or who shall rise up or stand in his holy place Who is he that shall be qualified to appear and stand in the presence of God and to joyn with his people in that solemn worship which in his holy Temple is exhibited unto him Such a one is also qualified to ascend and raise up his Soul to those mountains of joy in the celestial Sion And such a one is He that hath clean hands The works of whose hands are clean from all injustice and impurity and washed with the tears of true penitence from the filth of all former pollutions And a pure heart to all outward an inward holiness is required which consists in the purity of the heart viz. to be pure from all sordid and vile affections to be sincere and without hypocrisie in all Religious performances that hath not lift up his mind to vanity who follows not those pomps and vanities of this wicked world which he once so solemnly renounced nor sworn to deceive his neighbour that will not say much less swear an untruth nor yet break his word especially when confirmed with an oath Such is the holiness and innocence that entitles a people to the presence of God in his Temple upon Earth and in his House in Heaven 1. the holiness of the heart 2. of the hands 3. of the tongue or Holiness in thought word and deed He shall receive the blessing from the Lord The blessings of the Lord shall descend upon him when he ascends into the hill of the Lord and righteousness or mercy in the pardon of his sins or the reward of righteousness i.e. Salvation not of or from himself or from any but from the God of his Salvation This is the generation of them that seek him these are those holy and happy people who so faithfully seek the Lord that they find him viz. in grace here in glory hereafter which is the double blessing of them that seek thy face O Jacob All that be true Israelites indeed thus make their holy and humble addresses to the God of Jacob for his grace and favour Lift up your heads O ye gates or lift up your gates O ye Heads or Princes of the Heavenly Hierusalem and be ye lift up ye overlasting doors which open the passages to life everlasting and the King of glory shall come in he who hath vanquished and gloriously triumphed over the gates of everlasting death over all the spirits and powers of darkness is ascended to open the gates of the Kingdom of Heaven to all Believers Who is the King of glory in whose glorious conquests we may glory and in whose righteousness we may make our boast it is the Lord strong and mighty who although he submitted himself to be betray'd apprehended arraigned and condemned to death yet is he even the Lord mighty in battle who naked and unarmed hath vanquished by his sufferings and by his death overcome death and him who hath the power of death the Devil for which victory he rides in Triumph upon the clouds of Heaven and therefore Lift up your Heads O ye gates of the celestial Paradise which have been shut against the sons of Men from the fall of the first Adam and be ye lift up ye everlasting doors Raise up your selves ye immortal souls open and be enlarged in your desires and affections unto him who hath opened unto you the everlasting doors of glory and the King of glory shall come in He who is ascended will also descend into you if pure and Heavenly minded and thither enwrap and raise you whither himself is gone before if yet for your further satisfaction you desire to know Who is the King of glory by whose Triumphant ascent into Heaven we believe and hope thither to ascend also It is even the Lord of Hosts he who hath the command of all the powers of Heaven Earth and Hell who hath the command especially of all the powers and operations vertues and graces of the Holy Spirit of God and dispenseth them accordingly unto all that love and fear his name He is the King of glory he is glorious indeed above all and God over all blessed for ever and therefore to him as is most meet be all glory ascribed Glory be to the Father c. As it was in the beginning c. The LXXXIV Psalm PARAPHRASED 1. O How amiable are thy dwellings especially in the high and holy place thou Lord of Hosts even of the numerous troops of Angels and Archangels and of all the powers of Heaven My soul hath a desire which is more than ordinary 't is a longing even to a separation from it self to enter into the Courts of the Lord to view those several Mansions of glory and the blissful condition wherein all the Courtiers of the King of Heaven do praise him for ever my heart and my flesh when subdued
of my sins and of whose sins I have been many ways guilty All the good Creatures of God I have abused and his mercies in them all those evil deeds I have committed and the many good offices I have wittingly omitted all which stand upon record in the Lord 's black book of remembrance and mine own Conscience shall bear witness to all these undeniable Evidences These are the Books that shall be opened against me and I have not what to answer for my self Psal 26.1 But my trust is in the tender mercies of the Lord therefore I shall not fall and be cast in my trial Holy Jesus who wast condemned being innocent acquit me though greatly nocent through Faith in thy Bloud Judge me O Lord Ps 35.24 according to thy righteousness not after mine for 't is little and good for little but 't is thy righteousness Holy Jesus both active and passive I must plead for my acquittance when judged by thee then O then let not mine enemies triumph over me Let them not say in their hearts there there so would we have it neither let them say we have devoured him But in the hour of death and in the day of Judgment Good Lord deliver me MEDITATIONS UPON THE General Judgment WHen the Son of man shall come in his Glory Mat. 25.31 and all his holy Angels with him then shall he sit upon the Throne of his Glory And before him all nations shall be gathered This is called The day of the Lord 1 Thes 5.2 by way of Eminence as being of all days the greatest I. And that first in respect of the great appearance which shall be upon this day both of the Judge and the persons to be judged 1. Great and glorious terrible and amazing shall be the appearance of the Judge himself with all his numerous attendants His personal appearance shall be in Majesty and great glory not in respect of his Divine nature for that appears not to the eyes of flesh but in respect of his Humane nature assumed That nature which appear'd here upon earth poor mean contemptible wherein he was despised and scorned whipt and scourged beaten and buffetted bespattered with ignominious spittings and vile reproaches rack'd disjoynted distorted deformed nailed and pierced crucified and died shall upon this day appear cloathed with Majesty and crowned with glory Every eye shall see him even they also who pierced him and the marks in his nailed hands in his nailed feet and in his gored side shall appear as so many shining Stars for their glittering splendor 2. A great day in respect of the numerous attendants upon this great Judge of whom Dan. 7.9 when the ancient of days did sit thousand thousands ministred unto him and ten thousand times ten thousand stood before him the judgment was set and the books were opened When this day of the Lord cometh the Sun shall be turned into darkness and the Moon into bloud and all the glittering Stars shall fall from their Orbs but then the Sun of righteousness shall shine attended by all the triumphing Saints and Angels of Heaven who shall appear as so many Stars in the Firmament above dazling the eyes and astonishing the hearts of all persons to be judged and this renders 3. This day a great day in respect of the appearance that shall then be even of all the Men that ever lived or shall live upon the face of the earth and of all the Angels also who are more numerous than men in the judgment of the Schoolman who saith T. Aq. p. 1. q. 50. Art 3. that there be as many if not more of spiritual than of corporal Beings 4. A great day in respect of the multitudinous Trials even of all the works that ever have been done from the Creation to the dissolution of all things under the Sun And not our works only but 5. Of all our words even of every idle word an account must be given By thy words thou shalt be justified Mat. 12.36 37. and by thy words thou shalt be condemned 6. Not our words and works only but even the inward thoughts intentions and desires of our hearts shall be expos'd to open view and censure the Lord will bring to light the hidden things of darkness and will make manifest the counsels of all hearts 1 Cor. 4.5 The most seared Conscience of the wicked and the most subtle secret Conscience of the Hypocrite shall by the all-piercing light of the divine Majesty be displayed and appear as manifest and open as if all the counsels thereof had been written with a beam of the Sun Ps 90.8 For thou O Lord hast set our misdeeds before thee and our secret sins in the light of thy countenance 'T is recorded of Agathon a person famous amongst the Aegyptian Fathers for strictness and holiness of life that he was notwithstanding exceedingly afraid upon his approaching death And being demanded the reason of his fear by such as knew the innocence of his life He answered That the judgments of God do vastly differ from the judgments of Men Every way of man is right in his own eyes but the Lord weigheth the spirits Prov. 16.2 Woe woe to the most holy and innocent life amongst Men if the mercy of God do not interpose in the day of Judgment For alas who is so holy who so pure and innocent as to stand with any confidence in that all-discerning light of the Sun of Righteousness Eccl. 23.19 Whose eyes are a thousand times brighter than the Sun beholding all the ways of men and considering their most secret parts I have been guilty most merciful Father I have been guilty of manifold miscarriages which I have now forgotten nor can I through the strictest examination of my self recal to my memory many of mine offences Job 14.16 17. But although I cannot yet thou numbrest my steps dost thou not watch over my sin my transgression is sealed up in a bag and thou sowest up mine iniquities So surely are all my transgressions kept in store against the day of my Trial whilst I sensual and secure think all is well enough with me and that my sins are forgotten Ps 19.12 O cleanse thou me from all my secret faults and as they are hid from my memory Ps 51.9 so hide thou thy face from them blot them out of thy Book of remembrance that they appear not to my confusion on that great and last day II. 1. The Lord hath made all things for himself yea even the wicked for the day of evil Prov. 16.4 The great day of Judgment is call'd 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 the day of evil As for which day the Lord hath reserved the full execution of his severe justice upon all the evils of the world In the Creation of all things the power of God was most especially manifested in the government of the world doth his wisdom most appear In the Redemption of mankind his
the one and the other but a frail mortal life which taking end the Soul that is enriched with the ornaments of divine Grace is immediately cloathed with the Robes of Glory and therefore both the one and the other is stiled by our Lord Life Eternal John 17.3 This is Life Eternal that we might know thee 3. The happiness of Heaven is the end of all Holiness upon Earth and that must needs be the greatest good which is the end of all that is good for the end is more noble than the means 'T is the last good we hope for and so the most perfect as being the perfection and accomplishment of all the good we can imagine or desire nay 't is a blessedness beyond our frail imaginations to comprehend as it is written eye hath not seen nor Ear heard neither have entred into the heart of man the things which God hath prepared for them that love him * Quod Deus praeparavit diligentibus se fide non capitur spe non attingitur charitate non comprehenditur desideria vota transgreditur acquiri potest aestimari non potest Aug. in 1 Cor. 2.9 4. Raise up thy affections O my Soul as to be ravish'd with the love of Heaven so to lament with tears of sorrow and shame thy sloth and negligence thy coldness and indevotion thy sinful security and earthly mindedness and what obstructs thy way and slackens thy pace towards this place of joy unspeakable and glorious O how slight and trivial how inconsiderable are all the most strict and rigid labours of Repentance and Mortification of the most profound Piety and ample Charity in respect of those Celestial joys whereunto they lead thee And if it shall once please God through the merits of Christ to receive thee into Heaven thou wilt then think all thy prayers and tears Age quod vgis fideriter labora in vinea tua ego inquit Dominus ero merces iva scribe lege canta geme tace ora sustine viriliter contraria digna est his omnibus vita aeterna majoribus praeliis T.K. sighs and groans fastings and watchings all thy labours of love both to God and Man very well spent that they have wafted thee over the troublesome waves of this worlds vast Sea into the Haven of Eternal peace and felicity Vouchsafe me O Lord a good end of my life a happy passport out of this world and lead me in the streight and even path that leads to thy Kingdom where that I may at last arrive it shall neither be my care nor fear what and how great things I suffer and undergo in my passage thither MEDITAT II. Of the place we call Heaven and first its Greatness THat Empyreal Heaven 2 Cor. 12.2 Deut. 10.14 2 Chr. 6.18 which is the seat of God and of all his holy Angels and Saints for ever is called also the Third Heaven and the Highest Heaven and the Heaven of Heavens and 't is of all the places of the Universe the most spacious large and ample for it contains all the Heavens and the Earth also even the whole Creation within its verge and compass Do but consider the vastness of the Sun and of the Moon with the multitude and magnitude of all the Lights of Heaven most of which are greater and some of them far bigger than the whole body of the Earth Consider also that besides the vast number of Stars there are empty spaces in the firmament for as many nay for many more than as many yet and then admire with astonishment the vast extent and amplitude of the Heaven of Heavens which containeth all these and all that is above and all that is below all these within its circuit and circumference Secondly Its brightness and Beauty The brightness of the Sun the Moon and the Stars do but imperfectly represent the Beauty and Brightness of Heaven as 't is described Rev. 21.23 Rev. 21.23 And the City had no need of the Sun nor of the Moon to shine in it for the glory of God did lighten it and the Lamb is the light thereof which exceeds as much the light of the Sun as the Suns light transcends that of a glimmering Taper The Air of this Country of Heaven is continually pure and clear bright and splendid 't is not capable of any Clouds Mists or Vapours not liable to any Rains Storms and Tempests not hick infectious Air offends the Inhabitants of this happy Land whilst the wretched Miscreants of the nether Hell are involved in blackness of darkness stifled with the suffocating fumes of sulphureous fire without the least hope of any purer Air wherein to breath for ever Thirdly Its Tranquillity All in this City of God is peaceable and quiet tranquil and secure and free even from the fear of the least disturbance Psal 90.10 no evil comes nigh this dwelling 'T is promised by our Lord John 16.22 Your joy no man taketh from you 'T is alone the joy of Heaven which cannot be taken away not by the world which is overcome and trampled under foot not by the flesh for that is so spiritualized and refined as no more to rebel against the dictates of the spirit not by sin for here enters nothing that is unclean not by death for immortality reigneth here not by any pain or sickness for these are but the Messengers and Forerunners of Death not by chance or fortune for Heaven knows no such heathen Deity not by Envy Hatred Malice Strife for all the Inhabitants of Heaven are combined in the sacred Bonds of everlasting Charity And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes and there shall be no more death neither sorrow nor crying neither shall there be any more pain for the former things are passed away Rev. 21.4 What the Lord promiseth to his Church Militant is fulfilled in his Church Triumphant Ps 147.13 The Lord hath made fast the bars of thy gates they are inexpugnable by any by the utmost force and fury of all the Spirits and Powers of Darkness The Lord maketh peace in thy borders Blessed peace dwells here without the least fear or danger of interruption For the grand Enemy of Peace is hence cast down fallen like lightning from Heaven Luk. 10.18 there 's no room here for that Author of all division nor yet for any of his instruments Ps 68.30 The people that delight in war 'T is the inheritance of Peace-makers Mat. 5.9 and of the peaceable minded and of such only as live in Peace upon Earth And O that it might please the God of Peace to allay that rancour to depress that tumour to asswage that itch of contention which now so much disturbs the peace of his Church upon Earth and obstructs the way to this heavenly Hierusalem the City of Peace Heb. 12.14 Follow peace with all men and holiness without which no man shall see the Lord. O God the Athour of peace and
for worldly wealth which is as transitory and uncertain as the life it self 8. And now Lord what is my hope truly my hope is even in thee * 'T is not in riches nor in all the world affords but in God alone that all hope of true happiness is attainable 9. Deliver me from all mine offences and make me not a rebuke to the foolish * Our sins deprive us of all true well-grounded hopes in God and make us liable to the scorn even of foolish men 10. I became dumb and opened not my mouth for it was thy doing * We must with a patient silence suffer the reproaches of others because occasioned by our offences and because sent from God for our amendment 11. Take thy plague away from me I am even consumed by the means of thy heavy hand ‖ And confess withal that we deserve to be consumed by the just judgments of God 12. When thou with rebukes dost chasten man for sin thou makest his beauty to consume away as 't were a moth fretting a garment every man therefore is but vanity * Whose lightest chastisements do easily deface the beauty and decay the strength of the corruptible body 13. Hear my prayer O Lord and with thine ear consider my calling hold not thy peace at my tears * Therefore the devout Soul is poured forth in Prayers with tears of godly sorrow for her offences from whence all the miseries of this life do flow 14. For I am a stranger with thee and a sojourner as all my fathers were * The earth is a strange land to the immortal Soul whose native home is Heaven where she was framed by the hands of the Almighty after his own Image 15. O spare me a little that I may recover my strength before I go hence and be no more seen * Which Image being defaced by her sins she humbly begs with tears Time and Space by Repentance Faith and new Obedience to recover her native strength and beauty before she leave her tabernacle of flesh Glory be to the Father c. As it was in the beginning c. The Prayer SInce my days are but as a span short and uncertain I humbly beseech thee O Lord to wean my heart from the disquietude of worldly cares and that I may be fruitful in all the good works of obedience and charity to repair the breaches of thy blessed Image which mine offences have made before my departure hence that so recovering the spiritual health and strength of my Soul I may die in thy Grace and Favour through Jesus Christ The XC Psalm Verses 1. LOrd thou hast been our Refuge from one generation to another * Holy men have in all ages of the world applied themselves unto the Lord for succour support and protection in all conditions 2. Before the mountains were brought forth or ever the earth and the world were made thou art God from everlasting and world without end * Who being eternal is also immutable in his mercy goodness power and providence over all 3. Thou turnest man to destruction again thou sayst Come again ye children of men * Dispensing both health and sickness prosperity and adversity life and death to the sons of men according to his all-just all-merciful all-wise good pleasure 4. For a thousand years in thy sight are but as yesterday seeing that is past as a watch in the night * The longest course of man's life in respect of God's eternal praevision is but as a day that is already past or as one of the night-watches which is both swift and short and also dark and gloomy through frequent cross and adverse occurrents 5. As soon as thou scatterest them they are even asleep and fade away suddenly as the grass * As sleep is the Image of death so the life of man in this world is but the image or shadow of life for as a shadow it fleeth the pursuer and fadeth as the grass 6. In the morning it is green and groweth up in the evening it is cut down dried up and withered * Which the same day beholds both growing and cut down flourishing and withered 7. For we consume away in thy displeasure and are afraid at thy wrathful indignation * This frailty of humane life is the punishment of sin which incurs most justly God's indignation and wrath 8. Thou hast set our mis-deeds before thee and our secret sins in the light of thy countenance * Whose eyes are ten thousand times brighter than the Sun both seeing and recording the most secret of our sinful ways 9. For when thou art angry all our days are gone we bring our years to an end as it were a tale that is told * 'T is through God's just anger for our sins that our days are shortned and our years are spent in vanity and trouble 10. The days of our age are threescore years and ten and though men be so strong that they come to fourscore years yet is their strength then but labour and sorrow so soon passeth it away and we are gone * The miseries of man's life are not so great through the shortness thereof as that his sorrows and troubles are increased with his days 11. But who regardeth the power of thy wrath for even thereafter as a man feareth so is thy displeasure * God's displeasure for our sins is either more or less according as we do less or more stand in awe thereof 12. So teach us to number our days that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom * True wisdom is attained by the serious contemplation of the frailty of life and certainty of death 13. Turn thee again O Lord at the last and be gracious unto thy servants * Intermixing with our meditations devout Prayers for the propitious grace and favour of God 14. O satisfie us with thy mercy and that soon so shall we rejoyce and be glad all the days of our life * Which alone can satisfie the desires of the immortal Soul and throughly rejoyce the same 15. Comfort us again now after the time thou hast plagued us and for the years wherein we have suffered adversity * We may reasonably alledge our sufferings though for our sins as motives to implore the consolations of God's Spirit 16. Shew thy servants thy work and their children thy glory * God's proper work is mercy and 't is his glory to be gracious for the which the righteous do pray both for themselves and their Children 17. And the glorious Majesty of the Lord our God be upon us prosper thou the work of our hands upon us prosper thou our handy work * God's glorious Majesty appears by the gracious influences of his holy Spirit whereby we work the works of God to his glory and our own eternal happiness Glory be to the Father c. As it was in
the beginning c. The Prayer ALmighty God the Fountain of all Wisdom grant me so wisely to number and compare the short and sorrowful days of this mortal Life with that joyful and never ending day of a blessed eternity that despising the vanities of the one I may zealously aspire to the happiness of the other O satisfie the panting desires of my Soul with the sense of thy mercy in the pardon of my sins and let the glory of thy grace appear in prospering me to perform all those good works of Faith and Obedience which conduce to my eternal Salvation through Jesus Christ THE Second general Meditation UPON JUDGMENT And first the Particular Judgment IT is appointed unto man once to die Heb. 9.27 and after that the Judgment No sooner shall this house of flesh wherein the immortal Soul doth now inhabit be shattered in pieces by the hand of death but in the same moment the departing Soul shall be conveyed by the Angels of God before his Judgment-seat and this is call'd The particular Judgment that shall pass upon every person in particular immediately upon his death Eccl. 12.7 when the dust shall return to the earth as it was then shall the Spirit return unto God that gave it To give an account of the works done in the body whether they be good or whether they be evil That grand enemy of man the Devil awaits thy Soul's departure hence to dog thee to the great Tribunal of Heaven Ille enim tunc saeviens capit quos nunc blandiens decipit Greg. In this life he fawns to seduce but in the other he will roar to devour as a Lion over his prey to this end he will vehemently accuse thee aggravating all thy miscarriages through his suggestions committed and claiming thee as one of the subjects of his kingdom of darkness saying to the great Judge of all as several Fathers observe This person thou Judge of the world though he be thine by Creation Euseb Emiss Hom. Aug. orat cont Judaos Pag. yet he is mine by Depravation He is Thine by nature but mine by sin for he has obeyed my suggestions and disobeyed thy Laws and therefore though he belong to thee by right yet he is faln to me by default he is thine in respect of his workmanship but mine by the rebellion of his will and disorder of his affections having yielded himself to follow my temptations and to forsake the paths of thy Commandments But 't is not the Devil alone that shall thus accuse thee when arraigned at the Bar of divine Judgment but as S. Chrysostom saith the Heavens and the Earth and the Sea the Sun and the Moon and the Stars both Nights and Days and all the Creatures thou hast abused shall bear witness against thee but above all Thine own Conscience shall be as a thousand witnesses for being then freed from this clog and damp of the corruptible flesh all thy imaginations and desires all thy words and works spoken and done in the body shall appear to thy Conscience in their native genuine and proper colours without any ignorance or oblivion misperswasion or misprision which now blinds the minds of many thousands to their eternal ruine on that day O who shall then be able to answer thee one of a thousand thou most worthy Judge eternal if thou shouldst be extream to mark what is done amiss Job 9.2 Ps 130.3 and thy great mercy intervene not to mitigate the rigor of thy Justice But in thee have I put my trust Ps 38.15 Thou shalt answer for me O Lord my God I have no other Advocate to plead my cause but my righteous Judge himself from whom in my daily prayers I have required that they even mine enemies should not triumph over me when I stand to be judged before the Tribunal of Heaven Eccl. 23.2 3. Who will set scourges over my thoughts and the discipline of wisdom over my heart that they spare me not for mine ignorances and pass not by my sins Lest mine ignorances increase and my sins abound to my destruction And I fall before mine adversaries in the day of my trial and mine enemies the spirits and powers of darkness rejoyce over me whose hope is far from thy mercy Meditat. II. My flesh trembleth for fear of thee Psal 119.120 and I am afraid of thy Judgments when I consider the severity of many of thy temporal judgments which are now intended to drive sinners to Repentance that thou mightest spare them hereafter I cannot but foresee the unconceivable rigour of thy eternal judgments which intend punishment only without any thought of future mercy to spare and to forgive as in this life And I vile sinner have great cause to fear as a strict examination which all must undergo so severe a sentence to pass upon me having not so conscienciously as I ought obeyed the sacred dictates of the saving grace of God teaching us Tit. 2 11 12 13. that denying ungodliness and worldly lusts we should live soberly righteously and godly in this present world With what face then shall I look for the blessed hope or hope for blessedness upon the appearance of the great God and our Saviour Jesus Christ I have a greater cause to fear than to hope to wave than to await his coming But how shall I avoid or whither shall I flee from the face of my Judge whither but from an offended God to a merciful Redeemer from the Throne of thy Justice to thy Mercy-seat To meet thee now with Repentance in my heart and the fruits thereof brought forth in the actions of my life and with such spiritual wings cemented with the bloud of my Redeemer I may hope to flee from the wrath to come O God who art justly displeased for our sins Mat. 3.7 8. and pacified by our true and sincere Repentance spare O spare all those who confess their sins unto thee that they whose consciences by sin are accused by thy merciful pardon may be absolved through Christ our Lord. Meditat. III. Before Judgment examine thy self Eccl. 18.20 and in the day of visitation thou shalt find mercy And I upon the examination of my self do find my heart foul and polluted and my life stain'd with manifold offences but that I may escape the judgment of God I judge my self to be a miserable sinner I judge my self to have incurr'd the Lord's just indignation to have deserved the dismal sentence of condemnation to pass upon me For I have sinned and I have done wickedly and I have committed iniquity and have rebelled against the Lord by departing from his most holy Laws and Judgments Many will be my accusers when I come to my great Trial upon life or death eternal and many and great accusations have they to lay against me the Devil and his Angels whose suggestions unto evil I have too often followed many men and many women too who have been conscious
standeth right fixed in my affections to cleave unto thee and I will praise the Lord in the congregations in the assemblies of the Lord's people in the house where his Honour dwelleth and so shall I hope to be hereafter admitted into the blissfull company of Angels and Saints to praise the Lord for ever saying Glory be to the Father c. As it was in the beginning c. The XLIII Psalm PARAPHRASED Verse 1. GIve sentence with me O God when I stand before thee to be judged according to my works done in the body whether good or evil O then defend my cause against the ungodly people Plead for me against all the accusations of men women devils in whose company or by whose temptations I have done any evil O deliver me from the deceitful and wicked man that I be not ranked amongst such upon the left hand of unrighteousness and infelicity For thou art the God of my strength By whom I am enabled to resist all my ghostly enemies why hast thou put me from thee leaving me to mine own weak frail and sinful self And this is the reason why I go so heavily in the ways of thy service and of mine own salvation whilst the enemy oppresseth me being destitute of thy help the grand enemy of God and Man over-powers me with his temptations and assaults But that I may manfully resist and overcome O send out thy light and thy truth the light of thy Grace and the truth of thy righteousness which discerns the cause of the righteous from the ungodly that they may lead me out of all the errours of this sinful life that being separated from the allurements and society of the ungodly they may bring me to thy holy hill where thy Temple is situate and to thy dwelling the place where thine honour dwelleth And that I may go to the Altar of God both Sacramental and Mystical upon the Altar of my heart to offer up my whole self to be a living Sacrifice Holy acceptable unto God even the God of my joy and gladness who makes glad my heart by the consolations of his Holy Spirit when I approach his Altar and upon the Harp which is an instrument of a Triangular figure and represents the heart of man wherewithal I will give thanks unto thee O holy and ever blessed Trinity Father Son and Holy Ghost one God over all blessed for ever and my God even the God of my joy and worship my Glory and my Crown O then Why art thou so heavy O my soul There is no sorrow but for sin because this alone separateth the Soul from the God of all consolation and why art thou so disquieted within me 'T is thy unquiet passions and unruly lusts which disturb thy reason and withdraw thee thus disquieted from a sincere dependance upon thy God but return return unto thy rest O my Soul O put thy trust in God all thy sorrows and distempers are from thy self thy health and joy is from the Lord and for this I will yet give him thanks who is to be praised in both the seasons of sadness and joy for in both He is the help of my countenance the lightsome gladness of my heart and my God both of my Being and Well-being even the God of all that I am and all that I have and all that I hope to be which is to enjoy the beatifical vision of his divine Majesty for ever to sing Glory be to the Father c. As it was in the beginning c. THE Third General Meditation UPON THE PAINS of HELL MAny are the opinions and disputes and too curious also the disquisitions touching the place and nature matter manner and duration of the pains of Hell But it would be more Christian prudence strictly to search and find out those crooked deceitful and polluted paths which lead to that dismal place of torments that we may decline and avoid them 'T is surely better by much not to feel by woful experience the miseries of the damned than exactly to know and accurately to discourse of them And may this be ever my study blessed Lord my continual care and fear and constant endeavour not in the least particular to sin against thee for thy wrath and indignation which resteth upon sinners is a fierce wrath and a terrible 't is not in the power of frail man to sustain the fury of it MEDITAT I. Of the Pain of Loss AS there are two general parts of every sin in this life committed 1. An aversion from the Creator 2. A conversion to the Creature So there are two general kinds of punishment for Sin in the Life to come 1. The Punishment of Loss 2. The Pain of Sense The first and 't is esteemed by many holy Fathers the greatest of Hell-Torments is that which is call'd by Divines The Pain of Loss whereunto the wicked of the world are sentenced in these several expressions Mat. 22.13 25.30.41 Luke 13.27 S. Chrys Hom. 28. Take him away Cast him out I know you not depart from me ye cursed The Pains of Sense in Hell are intolerable saith Chrys yet for a man to suffer a thousand Hells is less irksome than to be banish'd from Heaven to be driven from the presence of God to be exil'd out of the Regions of Light and Joy to be rejected of the Lord and to hear from him I know you not Depart from me The Loss of Heaven must needs be the greatest of Evils because 't is the Loss of the greatest and most perfect good and of all that is truly good To lose the good things we do now enjoy in the world may be recompenced with advantage by the gain of Heaven but to lose Heaven it self to forfeit the right and title we once had happily obtained to be inheritors of the Kingdom of Heaven is a Loss irreparable Id. Serm. Aug. Enchir ad Laurent c. 112. Nothing can compensate nothing can equal nothing to be compared to this Loss 't is Hell enough it self if there were no other In this life the most wise and holy understand not throughly the fulness of Heavenly joys and so cannot be sensible of the Torment of their Loss but in the next life our eyes shall be opened and the veil upon our hearts removed and then shall the ungodly see to their unspeakable grief and anguish of spirit the vast difference betwixt the never fading pleasures of the right hand of God and the empty transitory pleasures of sin betwixt that fulness of joy in the presence of God and the deplorable sorrow of its loss and absence It is very probable that this Torment of Hell is meant by the Worm that dieth not For nothing can more corrode and eat so deeply even into the inmost recesses of damned Souls as to see and consider for what poor beggarly trifling things of the Earth here below they have lost those blissful Joys and ravishing Felicities of Heaven above when they shall