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and_o tend_v to_o he_o by_o way_n of_o love_n that_o only_o can_v so_o enable_v a_o soul_n that_o no_o difficulty_n or_o disgrace_n can_v happen_v which_o she_o be_v not_o prepare_v for_o and_o therefore_o be_v able_a willing_o to_o embrace_v the_o same_o very_o i_o can_v affirm_v this_o by_o my_o own_o experience_n that_o a_o cross_a word_n or_o slight_a reprehension_n before_o i_o get_v into_o thâ—s_n spiritual_a course_n be_v more_o insupportable_a to_o i_o and_o do_v more_o disquiet_a my_o mind_n than_o all_o the_o difficulty_n or_o disgrace_n which_o since_o have_v fall_v upon_o i_o have_v do_v for_o now_o i_o think_v though_o i_o be_v neglect_v by_o all_o the_o world_n yet_o by_o fly_v to_o our_o lord_n he_o ease_v â—e_n of_o all_o my_o burden_n and_o as_o i_o have_v desire_v to_o have_v no_o other_o friend_n or_o comforter_n but_o he_o so_o it_o please_v he_o neither_o in_o doubt_n feâ—â—es_n pain_n disgrace_n nor_o in_o any_o other_o misery_n whereunto_o this_o life_n of_o we_o be_v so_o subject_a to_o reject_v i_o only_o he_o exact_v of_o i_o that_o in_o all_o the_o contradiction_n of_o wâ—l_n he_o send_v i_o or_o permit_v to_o fall_v on_o i_o i_o will_v humble_a myself_n and_o be_v confident_a in_o his_o help_n of_o which_o if_o i_o do_v so_o i_o shall_v be_v much_o more_o sure_a then_o if_o in_o my_o own_o hand_n i_o have_v a_o most_o absolute_a power_n none_o be_v able_a to_o persecute_v the_o way_n of_o the_o divine_a love_n but_o they_o who_o be_v resolve_v to_o to_o deny_v themselves_o in_o all_o thing_n and_o who_o willing_o and_o witting_o adhere_v to_o no_o create_a thing_n for_o if_o the_o soul_n do_v willing_o retain_v a_o affection_n to_o any_o such_o thing_n she_o be_v at_o a_o stop_n and_o can_v go_v no_o far_o for_o god_n must_v be_v seek_v and_o love_v whole_o if_o we_o desire_v to_o arrive_v to_o perfection_n she_o speak_v of_o the_o sanctity_n of_o the_o old_a order_n in_o old_a time_n when_o thâ—y_o be_v in_o their_o best_a case_n or_o in_o the_o prime_n of_o their_o good_a spirit_n write_v and_o say_v as_o as_o follow_v viz._n than_o only_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n be_v sincere_o without_o intermingle_v of_o human_a end_n or_o interest_n intend_a and_o seek_v and_o all_o order_n with_o one_o consent_n of_o hart_n do_v concur_v to_o the_o advancement_n of_o that_o alone_a they_o then_o apply_v themselves_o to_o several_a exercise_n in_o the_o exterior_a every_o one_o according_a to_o his_o institute_n some_o more_o easy_a and_o some_o more_o strict_a some_o of_o more_o action_n and_o some_o of_o less_o yet_o interior_o their_o principal_a end_n be_v all_o one_o and_o that_o be_v to_o find_v and_o enjoy_v god_n in_o their_o soul_n and_o out_o of_o that_o perfect_a charity_n which_o espâ—â—cially_o by_o those_o their_o internal_a exercise_n do_v groâ—_n in_o they_o they_o do_v every_o one_o as_o god_n do_v require_v and_o enable_v they_o employ_v part_n of_o their_o time_n in_o gain_v or_o do_v good_a to_o other_o soul_n thâ—n_o there_o be_v no_o great_a care_n or_o solicitude_n about_o temporallâ—ties_n god_n take_v care_n and_o be_v as_o it_o be_v solicitous_a to_o they_o thâ—n_o there_o be_v indeed_o all_o sincere_a and_o real_a proceed_n between_o they_o then_o there_o be_v perfect_a amity_n without_o proper_a interest_n or_o fond_a affection_n to_o the_o impediment_n of_o theâ—r_n love_v and_o seek_v after_o god_n alone_o who_o be_v that_o one_o thing_n which_o only_o be_v necessary_a then_o there_o be_v no_o acceptation_n of_o person_n but_o they_o be_v content_v so_o god_n honour_n be_v advance_v not_o care_v though_o it_o be_v do_v by_o any_o other_o order_n as_o well_o as_o by_o themselves_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n if_o this_o spirit_n may_v be_v reviue_v again_o how_o much_o will_v my_o soul_n rejoice_v if_o saint_n benet_n his_o s._n francis_n h._n s_o s._n igâ—atius_n his_o etc._n etc._n child_n be_v perfect_o as_o this_o life_n will_v permit_v unite_v together_o and_o with_o one_o hart_n and_o consent_n seek_v and_o labour_v to_o advance_v thy_o honour_n and_o praise_n as_o our_o founder_n do_v in_o heaven_n which_o if_o we_o do_v then_o will_v the_o spirit_n of_o the_o primitive_a church_n flourish_v and_o thy_o tear_a and_o mangle_a member_n be_v heal_v and_o perfect_o set_v again_o together_o then_o heretic_n and_o sinner_n will_v easy_o be_v convert_v by_o they_o to_o thou_o then_o there_o will_v be_v another_o learning_n then_o now_o there_o do_v flourish_v in_o our_o order_n and_o thou_o by_o they_o will_v speak_v who_o make_v the_o tongue_n of_o infant_n eloquent_a 10_o then_o they_o by_o prayer_n converse_v in_o a_o familiar_a and_o tender_a manner_n with_o thou_o will_v speak_v so_o that_o none_o will_v be_v
of_o my_o death_n obtain_v for_o i_o wretched_a sinner_n confidence_n in_o his_o mercy_n which_o be_v as_o thou_o know_v above_o all_o his_o work_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o love_v but_o he_o be_v worthy_a of_o all_o love_n and_o adoration_n i_o can_v without_o great_a joy_n remember_v these_o follow_a word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v hope_v his_o goodness_n will_v for_o his_o own_o sake_n give_v i_o leave_v to_o apply_v they_o to_o i_o poor_a and_o sinful_a soul_n though_o i_o deserve_v nothing_o of_o myself_n never_o have_v do_v he_o any_o faithful_a service_n in_o all_o my_o life_n chap_n 43._o v._n 1._o and_o now_o thus_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o create_v thou_o and_o form_v thou_o fear_v not_o because_o i_o have_v redeem_v thou_o and_o call_v thou_o by_o thy_o name_n thou_o be_v i_o 2._o when_o thou_o shall_v pass_v through_o the_o water_n i_o will_v be_v with_o thou_o and_o the_o flood_n shall_v not_o cover_v thou_o when_o thou_o shall_v walk_v in_o fire_n thou_o shall_v not_o be_v â—uâ—ned_v and_o the_o flame_n shall_v not_o â—urn_v inâ—_n thou_o o_o bless_a saint_n make_v intercession_n for_o i_o that_o i_o may_v be_v confident_a in_o he_o who_o thus_o abound_v with_o mercy_n amen_n 3._o because_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n thy_o god_n the_o holy_a one_o of_o israel_n thy_o saviour_n 4._o since_o thou_o become_v honourable_a in_o my_o eye_n and_o glorious_a i_o have_v love_v thou_o 5._o fear_v not_o because_o i_o be_o with_o thou_o 6._o and_o every_o one_o that_o invocate_v my_o name_n for_o my_o glory_n i_o have_v create_v he_o form_v he_o and_o make_v he_o 8._o bring_v forth_o the_o blind_a people_n and_o have_v eye_n the_o deaf_a and_o he_o that_o â—ath_v ear_n 9_o let_v they_o give_v their_o witness_n &_o be_v justify_v 10._o in_o very_a deed_n you_o be_v my_o witness_n say_v our_o lord_n and_o my_o servant_n who_o i_o have_v choose_v that_o you_o may_v know_v and_o believe_v i_o and_o understand_v that_o i_o myself_o be_o 11._o i_o be_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n and_o there_o be_v no_o saviour_n beside_o i_o and_o there_o be_v not_o that_o can_v deliver_v out_o of_o my_o hand_n 16._o thou_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o give_v away_o in_o the_o sea_n and_o a_o paâ—h_n in_o the_o uâ—hâ—menâ—_a water_n 18._o remember_v not_o former_a thing_n and_o look_v not_o on_o thing_n of_o old_a i_o be_o he_o that_o take_v clean_o away_o thy_o iniquity_n for_o my_o own_o sake_n and_o i_o will_v not_o remember_v thy_o sin_n 26._o bring_v i_o into_o remembrance_n and_o let_v we_o be_v judge_v together_o tell_v i_o if_o thou_o â—ave_n any_o thing_n that_o may_v be_v justify_v hethertho_n the_o word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v s._n john_n 2._o v_o 12._o i_o write_v to_o you_o little_a child_n because_o your_o sin_n be_v forgive_v you_o for_o his_o name_n and_o now_o my_o child_n abide_v in_o he_o that_o when_o he_o shall_v appear_v we_o may_v have_v confidence_n and_o not_o be_v confound_v of_o he_o in_o his_o come_n my_o dear_a believe_v not_o every_o spirit_n and_o every_o spirit_n that_o dissolve_v jesus_n be_v not_o of_o god_n fear_n be_v not_o charity_n but_o perfect_a charity_n cast_v out_o fear_n let_v we_o therefore_o love_n god_n because_o god_n love_v us._n this_o be_v the_o charity_n of_o god_n that_o we_o keep_v his_o commandment_n and_o his_o commandment_n be_v not_o beauty_n o_o infinite_a goodness_n who_o be_v charity_n it-self_n pour_v thy_o grace_n abundant_o into_o my_o poor_a foul_a i_o invoke_v thou_o my_o god_n by_o the_o merit_n and_o intercession_n of_o all_o thy_o saint_n in_o heaven_n and_o servant_n on_o earth_n to_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o now_o in_o this_o my_o last_o extremity_n al_n i_o desire_n be_v that_o in_o life_n and_o death_n i_o may_v be_v dispose_v of_o according_a to_o the_o multitude_n of_o tâ—y_n most_o abundant_a mercy_n a_o fountain_n never_o draw_v dryâ—_n all_o my_o joy_n be_v in_o that_o thou_o be_v my_o god_n and_o that_o i_o be_o at_o thy_o dispose_n though_o i_o be_o poor_a in_o all_o vertnes_n yet_o i_o be_o confident_a to_o be_v partaker_n of_o thy_o merit_n o_o sweet_a jesus_n which_o thou_o liberal_o bestow_v according_a to_o thy_o will_n and_o pleasure_n o_o be_v thou_o bless_v in_o all_o thou_o dispose_v o_o my_o god_n who_o be_v all_o i_o desire_v into_o thy_o hand_n i_o commend_v my_o spirit_n who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o amen_n the_o most_o learned_a of_o d._n s._n augustin_n say_v aiâ—_n eruditissimus_fw-la doctorum_fw-la augustinus_n o_o eternal_a truth_n and_o true_a charity_n and_o o_o aeterna_fw-la veritas_fw-la &_o vera_fw-la charitas_fw-la dear_a eternity_n thou_o be_v my_o god_n to_o thou_o &_o chara_fw-la eteruitas_fw-la tu_fw-la es_fw-la deus_fw-la meus_fw-la i_o suspire_v day_n and_o night_n this_o be_v that_o sublive_a tibi_fw-la suspiro_fw-la die_fw-la ac_fw-la nocte_fw-la hic_fw-la est_fw-la sublimis_fw-la ille_fw-la contemplative_a augustine_n contemplator_n augustinus_n cvius_fw-la cor_fw-la charitas_fw-la christi_fw-la vulneraveraâ—_n who_o hart_n the_o charity_n of_o christ_n have_v wound_v o_o my_o dear_a saâ—nt_n who_o great_a humility_n i_o can_v never_o to_o much_o praise_n and_o admire_v pray_v for_o she_o to_o who_o thou_o have_v be_v in_o her_o great_a affliction_n and_o misery_n even_o as_o a_o father_n and_o mother_n for_o which_o be_v exhibit_v honowr_n to_o thou_o by_o the_o most_o sweet_a hart_n of_o jesus_n our_o saviour_n the_o son_n of_o the_o live_a god_n by_o which_o and_o from_o which_o do_v most_o abundant_a sweetness_n flow_v to_o all_o the_o elect_a in_o the_o power_n that_o he_o give_v thou_o be_v one_o by_o who_o he_o bind_v and_o loose_v sinner_n give_v a_o abundant_a benediction_n to_o thy_o poor_a servant_n and_o beg_v of_o my_o god_n that_o i_o may_v never_o seek_v or_o intend_v any_o thing_n for_o time_n or_o eternity_n but_o his_o honour_n and_o glory_n and_o that_o i_o may_v so_o humble_a and_o subject_v myself_o under_o his_o mighty_a hand_n thaâ—_n for_o his_o love_n i_o may_v willing_o submit_v myself_n in_o what_o manner_n he_o please_v to_o all_o creature_n let_v i_o commit_v and_o commend_v myself_n to_o thy_o protection_n who_o be_v a_o careful_a receiver_n of_o all_o my_o petition_n and_o who_o art_n one_o who_o in_o a_o most_o particular_a manner_n godâ—_n have_v give_v i_o confidence_n in_o in_o all_o â—he_n necessity_n wherein_o my_o soul_n do_v stand_v need_n of_o a_o advocate_n and_o friend_n o_o happy_a change_n to_o leave_v all_o friend_n on_o earth_n to_o find_v the_o more_o certaiu_fw-la &_o assure_a friend_n and_o intercessor_n in_o heaven_n who_o be_v never_o absent_a never_o uncertain_a nor_o ever_o do_v they_o fail_v as_o those_o in_o this_o world_n be_v subject_a to_o do_v be_v therefore_o mindful_a of_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o in_o my_o life_n &_o also_o in_o my_o last_o extremity_n and_o remember_v that_o when_o affright_v with_o the_o multitude_n and_o greivoush_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o imperfection_n i_o dare_v scarce_o 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life_n desire_n and_o all_o my_o happiness_n tâ—_n who_o for_o ever_o be_v all_o glory_n honour_n anâ—_n adoration_n by_o all_o as_o well_o on_o earth_n as_o in_o heaven_n and_o who_o by_o his_o sweet_a mercy_n and_o thy_o intercession_n i_o desire_v and_o hope_n to_o love_n and_o sâ—rue_a for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n omnes_fw-la qui_fw-la habebant_fw-la infirâ—os_fw-la ducebant_fw-la ill_n ad_fw-la jesum_fw-la &_o sanabaâ—â—ur_n 4.40_o all_o that_o have_v disease_v bring_v thâ—m_n to_o jesus_n and_o they_o be_v curedâ—_n to_o who_o therefore_o shall_v i_o fly_v in_o my_o manifold_a infirmity_n but_o to_o thou_o my_o jesus_n my_o goâ—_n and_o my_o saviour_n who_o be_v worthy_a oâ—_n our_o love_n our_o thought_n our_o heart_n and_o our_o soul_n but_o