Selected quad for the lemma: spirit_n

Word A	Word B	Word C	Word D	Occurrence	Frequency Band	MI	MI Band	Prominent
spirit_n	holy_a	scripture_n	son_n	7,316	5	5.5655	4	false

Text snippets containing the quad

ID	Title	Author	Corrected Date of Publication (TCP Date of Publication)	STC	Words	Pages
A30143	Grace abounding to the chief of sinners, or, A brief and faithful relation of the exceeding mercy of God in Christ, to his poor servant John Bvnyan wherein is particularly shewed, the manner of his conversion, his fight and trouble for sin, his dreadful temptations, also how he despaired of Gods mercy, and how the Lord at length thorow [sic] Christ did deliver him from all the guilt and terrour that lay upon him : whereunto is added, a brief relation of his call to the work of the ministry, of his temptations therein, as also what he hath met with in prison : all which was written by his own hand there, and now published for the support of the the weak and tempted people of God.	Bunyan, John, 1628-1688.	1666 (1666)	Wing B5523; ESTC R3994	67,228	108

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the_o loss_n of_o his_o trouble_n of_o mind_n than_o better_a wherefore_o if_o my_o guilt_n lie_v hard_o upon_o i_o than_o i_o shall_v cry_v that_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n may_v take_v it_o off_o and_o if_o it_o be_v go_v off_o without_o it_o for_o the_o sense_n of_o sin_n will_v be_v sometime_o as_o if_o it_o will_v die_v and_o go_v quite_o away_o than_o i_o will_v also_o strive_v to_o fetch_v it_o upon_o my_o heart_n again_o by_o bring_v the_o punishment_n for_o sin_n in_o hell-fire_n upon_o my_o spirit_n and_o shall_v cry_v lord_n let_v it_o not_o go_v off_o my_o heart_n but_o the_o right_a way_n but_o by_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n and_o by_o the_o application_n of_o thy_o mercy_n through_o he_o to_o my_o soul_n for_o that_o scripture_n lie_v much_o upon_o i_o without_o shed_v of_o blood_n there_o be_v no_o remission_n heb._n 9.22_o and_o that_o which_o make_v i_o the_o more_o afraid_a of_o this_o be_v because_o i_o have_v see_v some_o who_o tho_o when_o they_o be_v under_o wound_n of_o conscience_n than_o they_o will_v cry_v and_o pray_v but_o they_o seek_v rather_o present_a ease_n from_o their_o trouble_n then_o pardon_v fo●_n their_o sin_n care_v not_o how_o they_o lose_v their_o guilt_n 〈◊〉_d they_o get_v it_o out_o of_o their_o mind_n and_o therefore_o have_v get_v it_o off_o the_o wrong_a way_n it_o be_v not_o sanctifie●_n unto_o they_o but_o they_o grow_v hard_a and_o blind_a an●_n more_o wicked_a after_o their_o trouble_n this_o make_v 〈◊〉_d afraid_a and_o make_v i_o cry_v to_o god_n that_o it_o may_v no●_n be_v so_o with_o i_o 71._o and_o now_o be_v i_o sorry_a that_o god_n have_v make_v m●_n a_o man_n for_o i_o fear_v i_o be_v a_o reprobate_n i_o counte●_n man_n as_o unconvert_v the_o most_o doleful_a of_o all_o th●_n creature_n thus_o be_v afflict_v and_o toss_v abou●_n my_o sad_a condition_n i_o count_v myself_o alone_o an●_n above_o the_o most_o of_o man_n unblessed_a in_o this_o condition_n i_o go_v a_o great_a while_n but_o when_o comfort_v tim●_n be_v come_v i_o hear_v one_o preach_v a_o sermon_n upo●_n those_o word_n in_o the_o song_n song_n 4.1_o behold_v thou_o an●_n fair_a my_o love_n behold_v thou_o be_v fair_a but_o at_o that_o tim●_n he_o make_v these_o two_o word_n my_o love_n his_o chief_a an●_n subject_a matter_n from_o which_o after_o he_o have_v a_o littl●_n open_v the_o text_n he_o observe_v these_o several_a conclusion_n 1._o that_o the_o church_n and_o so_o every_o save_v soul_n 〈◊〉_d christ_n love_n when_o loveless_a 2._o christ_n love_n without_o 〈◊〉_d cause_n 3._o christ_n love_n when_o hate_v of_o the_o world_n 4._o christ_n love_n when_o under_o temptation_n and_o under_o di●sertion_n 5._o christ_n love_n from_o first_o to_o last_o 72._o but_o i_o get_v nothing_o by_o what_o he_o say_v at_o present_a only_o when_o he_o come_v to_o the_o application_n of_o the_o four_o particular_a this_o be_v the_o word_n he_o say_v if_o it_o be_v so_o th●●_n the_o save_v soul_n be_v christ_n love_n when_o under_o temptation_n and_o dissertion_n then_o poor_a tempt_v soul_n when_o thou_o be_v assault_v and_o afflict_v with_o temptation_n and_o the_o hiding_n 〈◊〉_d god_n face_n yet_o think_v on_o these_o two_o word_n my_o love_n still_o 73._o so_o as_o i_o be_v a_o go_v home_o these_o word_n cam●_n again_o into_o my_o thought_n and_o i_o well_o remember_v a●_n they_o come_v in_o i_o say_v thus_o in_o my_o heart_n what_o shall_v i_o get_v by_o think_v on_o these_o two_o word_n this_o thought_n have_v no_o soon_o pass_v through_o my_o heart_n but_o the_o word_n begin_v thus_o to_o kindle_v in_o my_o spirit_n thou_o be_v my_o love_n thou_o be_v my_o love_n twenty_o time_n together_o and_o still_o as_o they_o run_v thus_o in_o my_o mind_n they_o wax_v strong_a and_o warm_a and_o begin_v to_o make_v i_o look_v up_o but_o be_v as_o yet_o between_o hope_n and_o fear_n i_o still_o reply_v in_o my_o heart_n but_o be_v it_o true_a too_o but_o be_v it_o true_a at_o which_o that_o sentence_n fall_v 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believe_v that_o it_o be_v a_o true_a manifestation_n of_o grace_n unto_o my_o soul_n though_o i_o have_v lose_v much_o of_o the_o life_n and_o savour_n of_o it_o now_o about_o a_o week_n or_o fortnight_n after_o this_o i_o be_v much_o follow_v by_o this_o scripture_n simon_n simon_n behold_v satan_n have_v desire_v to_o have_v you_o luk._n 22.31_o and_o sometime_o it_o will_v sound_v so_o loud_o within_o i_o yea_o and_o as_o it_o be_v call_v so_o strong_o after_o i_o that_o once_o above_o all_o the_o rest_n i_o turn_v my_o head_n over_o my_o shoulder_n think_v very_o that_o some_o man_n have_v behind_o i_o call_v to_o i_o be_v at_o a_o great_a distance_n 76._o but_o so_o foolish_a be_v i_o and_o ignorant_a that_o i_o know_v not_o the_o reason_n of_o this_o sound_n which_o as_o i_o do_v both_o see_v and_o feel_v soon_o after_o be_v send_v from_o heaven_n as_o a_o alarm_n to_o awaken_v i_o to_o provide_v for_o what_o be_v come_v only_o it_o will_v make_v i_o muse_v and_o wonder_v in_o 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his_o only_a belove_a son_n as_o whether_o there_o be_v in_o truth_n a_o god_n or_o christ_n or_o no_o and_o whether_o the_o holy_a scripture_n be_v not_o rather_o a_o fable_n and_o cunning_a story_n than_o the_o holy_a and_o pure_a word_n of_o god_n 78._o the_o tempter_n also_o will_v much_o assault_v i_o with_o this_o how_o can_v you_o tell_v but_o that_o the_o turk●_n have_v as_o good_a scripture_n to_o prove_v their_o mahomet_n the_o saviour_n as_o we_o have_v to_o prove_v our_o jesus_n be_v and_o can_v i_o think_v that_o so_o many_o ten_o

scripture_n forenamed_a in_o th●_n hebrew_n will_v be_v set_v before_o i_o as_o the_o only_a sentence_n that_o will_v keep_v i_o out_o of_o heaven_n the●_n again_o i_o shall_v begin_v to_o repent_v that_o ever_o that_o thought_n go_v through_o i_o i_o shall_v also_o think_v thus_o with_o myself_o why_o how_o many_o scripture_n be_v there_o against_o i_o there_o be_v but_o three_o or_o four_o and_o can_v god_n miss_v they_o and_o save_v i_o for_o all_o they_o sometime_o again_o i_o shall_v think_v o_o if_o it_o we●e_v not_o for_o these_o three_o or_o four_o word_n now_o how_o may_v i_o be_v comfort_v and_o i_o can_v hardly_o forbear_v at_o sometime_o but_o to_o wish_v they_o out_o of_o the_o book_n 164._o then_o methinks_v i_o shall_v see_v as_o if_o both_o peter_n and_o paul_n and_o john_n and_o all_o the_o writer_n do_v look_v with_o scorn_n upon_o i_o and_o hold_v i_o in_o derision_n and_o as_o if_o they_o say_v unto_o i_o all_z our_o word_n be_v truth_n one_o of_o as_o much_o force_n ●s_v another_o it_o be_v not_o we_o that_o have_v cut_v you_o off_o but_o you_o have_v cast_v away_o yourself_o there_o be_v none_o of_o our_o sentence_n that_o you_o must_v take_v hold_v upon_o but_o these_o and_o such_o as_o these_o it_o be_v impossible_a there_o remain_v no_o more_o sacrifice_n for_o sin_n heb._n 6._o and_o it_o have_v be_v better_a for_o they_o not_o to_o have_v know_v the_o will_n of_o god_n than_o after_o they_o have_v know_v it_o to_o turn_v from_o the_o holy_a commandment_n deliver_v unto_o they_o heb._n 10._o for_o the_o scripture_n can_v be_v break_v 2_o pet._n 2.21_o 165._o thus_o be_v i_o confound_v not_o know_v what_o to_o do_v nor_o how_o to_o be_v satisfy_v in_o this_o question_n whether_o the_o scripture_n can_v agree_v in_o the_o salvation_n of_o my_o soul_n i_o quake_v at_o the_o apostle_n i_o know_v their_o word_n be_v true_a and_o that_o they_o must_v stand_v for_o ever_o 166._o and_o i_o remember_v one_o day_n as_o i_o be_v in_o divers_a 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in_o a_o muse_n about_o this_o thing_n that_o scripture_n come_v home_o upon_o i_o mercy_n rejoice_v against_o judgement_n 168._o this_o be_v a_o wonderment_n to_o i_o yet_o true_o i_o be_o apt_a to_o think_v it_o be_v of_o god_n for_o the_o word_n of_o the_o law_n and_o wrath_n must_v give_v place_n to_o the_o word_n of_o life_n and_o grace_n because_o though_o the_o word_n of_o condemnation_n be_v glorious_a yet_o the_o word_n of_o life_n and_o salvation_n do_v far_o exceed_v in_o glory_n 2_o cor._n 3.8_o 9_o 10_o 11._o mar._n 9.5_o 6_o 7._o john_n 6.37_o also_o that_o moses_n and_o elias_n must_v both_o vanish_v and_o leave_v christ_n and_o his_o saint_n alone_o 169._o this_o scripture_n also_o do_v now_o most_o sweet_o visit_v my_o soul_n and_o he_o that_o come_v to_o i_o i_o will_v in_o no_o wise_a cast_v out_o o_o the_o comfort_n that_o i_o have_v have_v from_o this_o word_n in_o no_o wise_a as_o who_o shall_v say_v by_o no_o mean_n for_o no_o thing_n whatever_o he_o have_v do_v 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if_o ever_o sata●_n and_o i_o do_v strive_v for_o any_o word_n it_o be_v for_o this_o in_o john_n he_o pull_v and_o i_o pull_v but_o god_n be_v praise_v i_o get_v some_o sweetness_n from_o it_o 170._o but_o notwithstanding_o all_o these_o help_n and_o bless_a word_n of_o grace_n yet_o that_o of_o esau_n sell_v of_o his_o birthright_n will_v still_o at_o time_n distress_v my_o conscience_n for_o though_o i_o have_v be_v most_o sweet_o comfort_v and_o that_o but_o just_a before_o yet_o when_o that_o come_v into_o mind_n it_o will_v make_v i_o fear_v again_o i_o can_v not_o be_v quite_o rid_v thereof_o it_o will_v every_v day_n be_v with_o i_o wherefore_o now_o i_o go_v another_o way_n to_o wo●k_v even_o to_o consider_v the_o nature_n of_o this_o blashemous_a thought_n i_o mean_v if_o i_o shall_v take_v the_o word_n at_o the_o large_a and_o give_v they_o their_o own_o natural_a force_n and_o scope_n even_o every_o word_n therein_o so_o when_o i_o have_v thus_o consider_v i_o find_v that_o if_o they_o be_v fair_o take_v they_o will_v amount_v to_o this_o that_o i_o have_v free_o leave_v the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n to_o his_o choice_n whether_o he_o will_v be_v my_o saviour_n or_o no_o for_o the_o wicked_a word_n be_v these_o let_v he_o go_v if_o he_o will_n then_o that_o scripture_n give_v i_o hope_n i_o will_v never_o leave_v thou_o nor_o forsake_v thou_o heb._n 13.5_o o_o lord_n say_v i_o but_o i_o have_v leave_v thou_o than_o it_o answer_v again_o but_o i_o will_v not_o leave_v thou_o for_o this_o i_o thank_v god_n al●o_o 171._o yet_o i_o be_v grievous_a afraid_a he_o shall_v and_o find_v it_o exceed_v hard_o to_o trust_v he_o see_v i_o h●d_v so_o offend_v he_o i_o can_v have_v be_v excee_v glad_a that_o this_o thought_n have_v never_o be_v fall_v fo●_n than_o i_o think_v i_o can_v with_o more_o ease_n and_o freedom_n abundance_n have_v lean_v upon_o his_o grace_n i_o see_v it_o be_v with_o i_o as_o it_o be_v with_o joseph_n brother_n the_o guilt_n of_o their_o own_o wickedness_n do_v often_o fill_v they_o with_o fear_n that_o their_o brother_n will_v at_o last_o despise_v they_o gen._n 50.15_o 16_o 17_o 18._o 172._o but_o above_o all_o the_o scripture_n that_o yet_o i_o do_v meet_v with_o that_o in_o the_o twenty_o of_o joshua_n be_v the_o great_a comfort_n to_o i_o which_o speak_v of_o the_o slayer_n that_o be_v to_o fly_v for_o refuge_n and_o if_o the_o avenger_n of_o blood_n pursue_v the_o slayer_n then_o say_v moses_n they_o that_o be_v the_o elder_n of_o the_o city_n of_o refuge_n shall_v not_o deliver_v he_o into_o his_o hand_n because_o he_o smite_v his_o neighbour_n unwitting_o and_o hate_v he_o not_o afore-time_o o_o bless_a be_v god_n for_o this_o word_n i_o be_v convince_v that_o i_o be_v the_o slayer_n and_o t●at_v the_o avenger_n of_o blood_n pursue_v i_o that_o i_o feel_v with_o great_a terror_n only_o now_o it_o remain_v that_o i_o inquire_v whether_o i_o have_v ●ight_a to_o enter_v the_o city_n of_o refuge_n so_o i_o find_v that_o he_o must_v not_o who_o lie_v in_o wait_n to_o shed_v blood_n but_o he_o who_o unwitting_o or_o that_o do_v unawar_n shed_v blood_n even_o he_o who_o do_v not_o hate_v his_o neighbour_n before_o wherefore_o 173._o i_o think_v very_o i_o be_v the_o man_n that_o must_v enter_v for_o because_o i_o have_v smite_v my_o neighbour_n unwitting_o and_o hate_v he_o not_o afore-time_o i_o hate_v he_o not_o afore-time_o no_o i_o pray_v unto_o he_o be_v tender_a of_o sin_v against_o he_o yea_o and_o against_o this_o wicked_a temptation_n i_o

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go_v to_o church_n twice_o a_o day_n and_o that_o too_o with_o the_o foremost_a and_o there_o shall_v very_o devout_o both_o say_v and_o sing_v as_o other_o do_v yet_o retain_v my_o wicked_a life_n but_o withal_o i_o be_v so_o overrun_v with_o a_o spirit_n of_o superstition_n that_o i_o adore_v and_o that_o with_o great_a devotion_n even_o all_o thing_n both_o the_o high-place_n priest_n clerk_z vestment_n service_n and_o what_o else_o belong_v to_o the_o church_n count_v all_o thing_n holy_a that_o be_v therein_o contain_v and_o especial_o the_o priest_n and_o clerk_n most_o happy_a and_o without_o doubt_n great_o bless_v because_o they_o be_v the_o servant_n as_o i_o then_o think_v of_o god_n and_o be_v principal_a in_o the_o holy_a temple_n to_o do_v his_o work_n therein_o 13._o this_o conceit_n grow_v so_o strong_a in_o little_a time_n upon_o my_o spirit_n that_o have_v i_o but_o see_v a_o priest_n though_o never_o so_o sordid_a and_o debauch_a in_o his_o life_n i_o shall_v find_v 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wherefore_o then_o i_o fall_v in_o my_o spirit_n as_o to_o the_o hope_n of_o that_o and_o so_o remain_v 15._o but_o all_o this_o while_n i_o be_v not_o sensible_a of_o the_o danger_n and_o evil_n of_o sin_n i_o be_v keep_v from_o consider_v that_o sin_n will_v damn_v i_o what_o religion_n soever_o i_o follow_v unless_o i_o be_v find_v in_o christ_n nay_o i_o never_o think_v of_o he_o nor_o whether_o there_o be_v one_o or_o no._n thus_o man_n while_o blind_a do_v wander_v but_o weary_v himself_o with_o vanity_n for_o he_o know_v not_o the_o way_n to_o the_o city_n of_o god_n eccles._n 10.15_o 16._o but_o one_o day_n among_o all_o the_o sermon_n our_o parson_n make_v his_o subject_n be_v to_o treat_v of_o the_o sabbath_n day_n and_o of_o the_o evil_a of_o break_v that_o either_o with_o labour_n sport_n or_o otherwise_o now_o i_o be_v one_o that_o take_v much_o delight_n in_o all_o manner_n of_o vice_n and_o especial_o that_o be_v the_o day_n that_o i_o do_v solace_v myself_o therewith_o wherefore_o i_o fall_v in_o my_o conscience_n under_o his_o sermon_n think_v and_o believe_v that_o he_o make_v that_o sermon_n on_o purpose_n to_o show_v i_o my_o evil-doing_a and_o at_o that_o time_n i_o feel_v what_o guilt_n be_v though_o never_o before_o that_o i_o can_v remember_v but_o then_o i_o be_v for_o the_o present_a great_o load_v therewith_o and_o so_o go_v home_o when_o the_o sermon_n be_v end_v with_o a_o great_a burden_n on_o my_o spirit_n 17._o this_o for_o that_o instant_n do_v cut_v the_o sinew_n of_o my_o delight_n and_o do_v embitter_v my_o former_a pleasure_n to_o i_o but_o behold_v it_o last_v not_o for_o before_o i_o have_v well_o dine_v the_o trouble_n begin_v to_o go_v off_o my_o mind_n and_o my_o heart_n return_v to_o its_o old_a course_n but_o oh_o how_o glad_a be_v i_o that_o this_o trouble_n be_v go_v from_o i_o and_o that_o the_o fire_n be_v put_v out_o wherefore_o when_o i_o have_v satisfy_v nature_n with_o my_o food_n i_o shake_v the_o sermon_n out_o my_o mind_n and_o to_o my_o old_a custom_n of_o sport_n and_o game_n i_o return_v with_o great_a delight_n 18._o but_o the_o same_o day_n as_o i_o be_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o a_o game_n at_o cat_n and_o have_v strike_v it_o one_o blow_n from_o the_o hole_n just_a as_o i_o be_v about_o to_o strike_v it_o the_o second_o time_n a_o voice_n do_v sudden_o dart_v from_o heaven_n into_o my_o soul_n which_o say_v will_v thou_o leave_v thy_o sin_n and_o go_v to_o heaven_n or_o have_v thy_o sin_n and_o go_v to_o hell_n at_o this_o i_o be_v put_v to_o a_o exceed_a maze_n wherefore_o leave_v my_o cat_n upon_o the_o ground_n i_o look_v up_o to_o heaven_n and_o be_v as_o if_o i_o have_v with_o the_o eye_n of_o my_o understanding_n see_v the_o lord_n jesus_n look_v down_o upon_o i_o as_o be_v very_o hot_o displease_v with_o i_o and_o as_o if_o he_o do_v severe_o threaten_v i_o with_o some_o grievous_a punishment_n for_o these_o and_o other_o my_o ungodly_a practice_n 19_o i_o have_v no_o soon_o 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protest_v before_o god_n i_o ly●_n not_o neither_o do_v i_o feign_v this_o form_n of_o speech_n these_o be_v real_o strong_o and_o with_o all_o my_o heart_n my_o desire_n the_o good_a lord_n who_o mercy_n be_v unsearchable_a forgive_v i_o my_o transgression_n 21._o and_o i_o be_o very_o confident_a that_o this_o temptation_n of_o the_o devil_n be_v more_o usual_a among_o poor_a creature_n than_o many_o be_v aware_a of_o even_o to_o overrun_v thei●_n spirit_n with_o a_o scurvy_a and_o sear_a frame_n of_o heart_n and_o benumb_a of_o conscience_n

thereof_o for_o it_o do_v always_o in_o almost_o whatever_o i_o think_v intermix_v itself_o therewith_o in_o such_o sort_n that_o i_o can_v neither_o eat_v my_o food_n stoop_v for_o a_o pin_n chap_v a_o stick_n or_o cast_v my_o eye_n to_o look_v on_o this_o or_o that_o but_o still_o the_o temptation_n will_v come_v sell_v christ_n for_o this_o or_o sell_v christ_n for_o that_o 109._o sometime_o it_o will_v run_v in_o my_o thought_n not_o so_o little_a as_o a_o hundred_o time_n together_o sell_v he_o sell_v he_o sell_v he_o against_o which_o i_o may_v say_v for_o whole_a hour_n together_o i_o have_v be_v force_v to_o stand_v as_o continual_o lean_v and_o force_v my_o spirit_n against_o it_o lest_o haply_o before_o i_o be_v aware_a some_o wicked_a thought_n may_v arise_v in_o my_o heart_n that_o may_v consent_v thereto_o and_o sometime_o also_o the_o tempter_n will_v make_v i_o believe_v i_o have_v consent_v to_o it_o than_o shall_v i_o be_v as_o torture_v on_o a_o rack_n for_o whole_a day_n together_o 110._o this_o temptation_n do_v put_v i_o to_o such_o scare_n lest_o i_o shall_v at_o some_o time_n i_o say_v consent_v thereto_o and_o be_v overcome_v therewith_o that_o by_o the_o very_a force_n of_o my_o mind_n in_o labour_v to_o gainsay_v and_o resist_v this_o wickedness_n my_o very_a body_n also_o will_v be_v put_v into_o action_n or_o motion_n by_o way_n of_o push_v or_o thrust_v still_o answer_v as_o fast_o as_o the_o destroyer_n say_v fall_v he_o i_o will_v not_o i_o will_v not_o i_o will_v not_o i_o will_v not_o no_o not_o for_o thousand_o thousand_o thousand_o of_o world_n this_o reckon_n lest_o i_o shall_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o these_o assault_n set_v too_o low_a a_o value_n of_o he_o even_o until_o i_o scarce_o well_o know_v where_o i_o be_v or_o how_o to_o be_v compose_v again_o 111._o but_o to_o be_v brief_a one_o morning_n as_o i_o do_v lie_v in_o my_o bed_n i_o be_v as_o at_o other_o time_n most_o fierce_o assault_v with_o this_o temptation_n to_o sell_v and_o part_n with_o christ_n the_o wicked_a suggestion_n still_o run_v in_o my_o mind_n sell_v he_o sell_v he_o sell_v he_o sell_v he_o as_o fast_o as_o a_o man_n can_v speak_v against_o which_o also_o in_o my_o mind_n as_o at_o other_o time_n i_o answer_v no_o no_o not_o for_o thousand_o thousand_o thousand_o at_o least_o twenty_o time_n together_o but_o at_o last_o after_o much_o strive_v even_o until_o i_o be_v almost_o out_o of_o breath_n i_o feel_v the_o thought_n pass_v through_o my_o heart_n let_v he_o go_v if_o he_o will_v and_o i_o think_v also_o that_o i_o feel_v my_o heart_n consent_v thereto_o 112._o now_o be_v the_o battle_n win_v and_o down_o fel●_n i_o as_o a_o bird_n that_o be_v shoot_v from_o the_o top_n of_o a_o tree_n in_o to_o great_a guilt_n and_o fearful_a despair_n thus_o get_v out_o of_o my_o bed_n i_o go_v mope_v into_o the_o field_n but_o god_n know_v with_o as_o heavy_a a_o heart_n as_o mortal_a man_n i_o think_v can_v bear_v where_o for_o the_o space_n of_o two_o hour_n i_o be_v like_o a_o man_n bere_v of_o life_n and_o as_o now_o past_a all_o recovery_n and_o bind_v over_o to_o eternal_a punishment_n 113._o and_o withal_o that_o scripture_n do_v seize_v upon_o my_o soul_n or_o profane_a person_n as_o esau_n who_o for_o one_o morsel_n of_o meat_n sell_v his_o birthright_n for_o you_o know_v how_o that_o afterward_o when_o he_o will_v have_v inherit_v the_o blessing_n he_o be_v reject_v for_o he_o find_v no_o place_n of_o repentance_n though_o he_o seek_v it_o careful_o with_o tear_n heb._n 12.16_o 17._o 114._o these_o word_n be_v to_o my_o soul_n like_o fetter_n of_o brass_n to_o my_o leg_n in_o the_o continual_a sound_n of_o which_o i_o go_v for_o several_a month_n together_o but_o about_o ten_o or_o eleven_o a_o clock_n one_o day_n as_o i_o be_v walk_v under_o a_o hedge_n full_a of_o sorrow_n and_o guilt_n god_n know_v and_o bemoan_v myself_o for_o this_o hard_a hap_n that_o such_o a_o thought_n shall_v arise_v within_o i_o 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