How affable and courteous was he and yet how severe againâ—â— sin What meekness and humility in his own cause and yet what courage and magnanimity in the cause of God shone in him How much holy fear and self-jealousie and yet how much Christian boldness and confidence was he possessed with What an inflexible and strong bent of heart for God against sin seemed he to have and yet how flexible and complying with others for their good was he He did not as some take Christ to ease himself of his work or to secure his lusts His Sincerity but to kill them and to quicken him to dutie His peace of Conscience was maintaned not by peace but war with Sin it was not only from but also in God He had not only form of Christ in his life and Picture of him in his fancy but also the Image of Union with and love for Christ in his heart He affected not so much to entangle his thoughts in disputes about the controversies of Religion as to get the power of it stamped on his soul His faith did not lye level with worldly Interest but oppositie thereto He climbed not as some â—o the top of an high profession without â—â—â—ing a deep foundation in self-denial He borrowed not as to many the Mask of Relâ—gâ—on to conceal a rotten heart but was unsâ—tisfied in his heart-inquiries after grace till he arrived to such a full measure thereof as is 〈◊〉 â—ttainable by any hypocrite Hâ—â— dâ—yly progress in mortification of sin seemed very remarkable His mortification and conspicuous He knew full well that one reigning lust would darken and harden his heart yea bring all into captivity and therefore durst not gratify any lust in the least He was content to give up his lusts to death for Christ who gave up his soul to death for him He thought it not much to part with a beloved sin for a beloved Saviour Yea he seemed to take more pleasure in subduing his unlawful desires then others do in the fulfilling of them And lest his flesh should impose on his more noble part he innured himself to many bodily severities and deprived himself of such natural refreshments which others too much indulge themselves in Yet did he not content himself with external mortification but maintained a daily conflict with the whole body of sin in corrupt nature yea he would oft blame himself much for spiritual sins as Infidelity pride c. Which others could least blame him for His Crucifixion to the world was not less visible His Crucifixion to the world He seemed to have acquired a great indifference of Spirit for things indifferent to give perishing things but perishing affections As our blessed Lord gave his Heaven for him so he thought it not much to give his earth for his Lord He could not part with Christ for any worldly good and therefore was willing to part with all for Christ The believing views he had of future Glories darkned the world glories to him so that he seemed to admire nothing but approching glory or what related thereto Poverty in Christs way was greater riches to him then a flourishing state in the ways of sin He knew how to abound in his wants by contentedly wanting what the Lord thought not fit for him and thereby crucifying his desires he made the Cross of Christ easy to him His desires were low and therefore his spirit high above the frowns and smiles of this lower world He seemed better pleased in his mean condition then worldlings are in the highest His mind was too great to put a great value on the nothings of this life He brought his natural desires into a narrow compass and thence gained a great inlargement of Spirit By his long sufferings he gained a great dexterity and skill in bearing the Cross By starving sin His Art in bearing the Cross and crucifying his heart to the world he took out the stings of his sufferings He knew that the Divine will was more Eligible then his own and therefore he endeavoured to conform unto it as well by passive as active obedience He knew he could not glorifie God more then by being content that Gods Glory should gain by his private losses He durst not make sin a shelter against sufferings or bear false witness against God by repining under the Cross He was not so well pleased with sin as to prefer it before sufferings Or so ill-pleased with sufferings as to fly from them when called thereto He innured himself to the yoke of Christ and so gained the Art of bearing his Cross His Conscience continued under a lively sense of sin and that made him dead and in a measure senseless as to suffering His Will was so far broken as that it could chearfully bend and submit to the Cross yea welcome crosses when in Gods way When God brought him into any affliction or suffering he waited there till God brought him out He knew himself to be nothing and that made him bear any thing from God with contentment And by knowing his own vileness he learnt to justify God in every cross His spirit was generous and noble like that of the Eagle which is not clamorous when it wants food He studied passive obedience as well as active to be well-pleased with what God did as well as to do what was well-pleasing to God He had a fit disposition for the Cross which made that easy to him which seemed into llerable to others As he durst not make men Lords of his faith so neither of his happiness by doting on their smiles or fearing their frowns but as worldly men content themselves with the world without God so he endeavoured to content himself with God without the World He had his present wants supplied by ordinary or extraordinary means and therefore conceived lit his duty to trust God for the future He knew he had more of the creature than he deserved and therefore was not anxious about having more He was much taken up about the weighty things of Eternity and therefore little concerned about these lower things He had many generous and noble dispositions but no one appeared more illustrious and visible in him His zeal for God after his conversion than zeal for his Masters service and the good of Souls Oh! what a rare and excellent Quality is a publick Spirit for God And how much was this holy man invested herewith How little did his flamin zeal care to live when the honour of his great Lord seemed to bleed and die What a meek and patient Spirit had he as to injury done unto himself and yet how impatient and zealous was he as to injury done unto his Lord How modest and backward was he in his own cause and yet how magnanimous and forward in the cause of God How little was it in the power of the greatest men to frown him out of duty or flatter him into Sin What a masculine courage
and night to the utmost allowing his body no more then extreme necessity required that so he might follow all advantages for the advance of his Masters service The Bill preferred against him at Exeter necessitated him to attend the two following Assizes where he was at last freed by Proclamation but mean while his return into those parts was of no small advantage for the propagation of the Gospel Some of those persons who discovered their malice against Mr. Tregosse for preaching at Torrington were shortly taken away by unnatural deaths not without signal marks of Gods displeasure against them as it appears by his following Letter Sept. 16. 1670. Not long before his death he was strangely he knew not how taken up in conversing with the state of departed Saints martyred for the Testimony of Jesus as he himself acquaints you in his following Letter to his friend Octob. 7th 1670. Which indeed was a prophetick intimation of the nearness of his Dissolution and entrance on that life which he was immediately more fully to partake of Which brings to my remembrance an old observation which I had from a great * Padre Paul Histor Trent Master of Wisdom That it is natural for men near their grave from some intrinsick cause unknown to themselves to be distasted with humane affairs c. What this wise man observed of men in general I think is most true of many holy Christians who a little before their dissolution are frequently called off and seperated from humane affairs to a fiducial converse with coming Glories and the Life of just men made perfect which was the frame of Mr. Tregosse's Spirit not long before his death though he himself was not apprehensive that his change was so near SECT IV. Mr Tregosse's last Tryals and dying Speech to his Friends AFter Mr. Tregoss came to reside at Penryn he hired a House for a Meeting on the Lords day in the Parish of Mabe where he exercised without interruption from Midsomer 1669 to the 10th of May 1670. After which day there were two debauch'd persons turned Informers hoping thereby to get fuel for their lusts who having obtained a Warrant required the Officers to attend them every Lords-day and made oath against Mr. Tregosse and others for a breach of the Statute then in force against Conventicles This sacred away most of his Hearers especially those who had any considerable Estates Though there were divers Fines laid on him which amounted to 220 l. yet the Lord so ordered things as nothing he had was seized upon This Meeting being thus broken he resolved to drive the nail that would go and to preach the oftner unto a Statute number herein his labours were so many and great as if his body were of Steel he could not hold out long He preached five times every Lords-day and in the evening made repetition of some part He also continued the Tuesday and Thursday duties besides other Exercises He was often advised by his friends to favour himself and moderate his pains but the great zeal he had for the keeping on and advancing the work of God did stop his ears against all dissusives of this kind Having at last worn out himself and exhausted his Spirits he fell into a griping of the Bowels occasioned by a Flatus hypochondriacus as his Physician affirmed which brought him so weak as his friends suspected him to be past recovery and he himself expressed a longing desire to be dissolved But the Lord was pleased to reprieve him a little longer and put him once more upon his feet though he took not the air As soon as he perceived a small recruit of strength he began to fall upon his work again this continued but a very short time till a Fever seized on him and in a few days did set and end to all his Labours and troubles His his deportment during both his sicknesses was like his life very sweet and heavenly Upon the 18th of January observing the hour of his dissolution at hand he took his farewell of his friends in a long speech whereof you have a part as followeth I though I should have had some more turns with my Lord in his Gallery but he hoth turned his back and is gone and calls me to come after him Indeed though I had some distemper of Body yet I did not think death was so nigh till putting my hand on my brow I felt the tokens thereof Think think not therefore 't is a foolish phantasie that moves me to speak for I know it to be right reason And seeing the Lord hath left with me a few mouthfuls of breath Let me who am your faithful Pastor at the taking my farewell of you drop a few words among you before he calls away this breath of mine and say breath no more through that body but lay it in the dust O my friends my friends you know that I have often warned you of an evil day and now I must once more tell you that there is a dead day a dark day coming O! what will this poor people do O my Friends did we think that after so many Fasting and Humiliation days after so many Thanksgiving days after so many Sacrament days we should see such a day as this O but it may be you will ask me this question Do you really believe that you shall dye Indeed friends there is nothing but Omnipotence can bear me up And if you ask me what I think of my self Truly friends I can say that I have walked among you by the pure copy of the Holy Scriptures and Life of Christ and through the Grace of God in Christ Jesus I shall be presented spotless to the Father Indeed when I was young I had my youthful vanities but in the year 1664 upon a New-years day the Lord was pleased to meet with me and then even then did he set all my sins in order before me And theose very sins which were small to me before were by the Spirit of the Lord in that Rod made as bitter as death it self My sleight childhood-sins my slender youthful sins were to me very hainous and abominable Wherefore my friends I charge you to make a conscience of those sins yea of the least of them which I have warned you of Some may think me passionate and some may think me severe and uncharitable but now I repent that I had not dealt more plainly with you However in the truth of the Lord according to mine ability I have walked among you and I hope you will not think it tedious if I drop a few words upon my grave before I dy Then the Physician steeping to him with an intent to desire him to leave off speaking lest he should spend his spirits too much M. Tregosse said Give me leave to speak for I am upon the borders of eternity and I think you all look upon me as a dying man therefore may suffer me to speak as much as I can Then he
had he with a fixed resolution not to displease God to please men Yea how much vigor and strength did his zeal gain by opposition He seemed indeed naturally to have a Heroick spirit But how much did Grace transform this natural quality into a Divine zeal How much of divine flame and how little of wildfire or carnal wrath was there in his zele Notwithstanding his ardent zeal for God yet was he of a very peaceable and quiet spirit His Catholick Charity He did not Salamander-like delight to live in the fire of contention but was of an uniting healing spirit He was not only a Patient but also an Agent in seeking after peace He judged our Church divisions one of our greatest plagues He had a Catholick universal charity and love for all and albeit he hated the vices of wicked men yet he loved their persons But he had a particular affection for all Saints and that as Saints making their graces not their opinions the measure of his love His spirit and principles were so peaceable as that he desired to avoid all needless disputes that might breed strife But when he was called to dispute or confer with those of different judgements he evidenced much modesty and meekness arguing not for glory and victory but to inquire into truth Wherein he affirmed nothing but what he endeavoured to prove out of the Scriptures And when he could not fully comply with other mens perswasions yet he would not impose his own on them as the rule of their faith or communion And although he could forbear and bear with all for their good yet could he not bear with sin in any His dexterity in Admonitions and reproofs but was a severe Admonitor and Reprover thereof Yea his very presence was a powerful and perswasive Admonition to such as he reproved for there was so much gravity and sweetness mixed in his countenance that one word from him would oft effect more then many from some others Especially by his holy conversation exemplifying what he urged on others from the word of God he much convinced such as were defective and subdued their wills to the will of God I my self once heard him in the presence of several Ministers sharply reproving the sin of Ministers in mispending their time whiles together in frothy or unprofitable conference Which reproof he managed with so much majesty and yet with so much humility and submission confirming all that he pressed from the word of God that I must confess I could not but conclude that there was much of God in his so seasonable Admonition and Reproof Neither did his severity extend to the sins of others only His vigilance and heart examens but also to his own He was a curious observer of his own spirit its ends intentions inclinations motions risings and fallings as to Sin or Grace He always kept a vigilant eye on his heart and every night made particular reflexions on the passages of the day past with a strict examen how it had been spent what his conversation had been towards others and how he had demeaned himself in his private duties towards God He examined not only what he had done but also from what principles he had done it and thus by the knowledge of what he had done he came the better to know what he was to do by studdying well the book of his own heart and life he became a good student and proficient in the mystery of godliness and of sin He was a man of great observation and of nothing more than of his own spirit its various vicissitudes turnings and windings c. Thus he came to have an intimate and deep acquaintance with his own heart and an experimental sense of the holy spirits working in him Hence also he came to know what sins he had to confess and humble himself for what mercies to bless God or petition for what burdens to grone under At some times he found himself under great deadnesses and distractions at other times under sweet inspiration of the holy Spirit and enlargements Sometimes he sighed under sinking despondences black unbelief and hase fears at other times he was on the wing of faith and full of courage He had his stated times for private and family duties Faith and prayr were his chief refuse in his troubles His private duties And indeed he seemed to drive a great trade with Heaven by prayer wherein he was very powerful and prevalent He had a very strngling wrestling spirit in Prayer bottomed on a deep sense of his own need large desires and lively workings of faith What strength he gained by prayer he lost not by neglects after prayer but improved for God His Spirit seemed unsatisfied in duties till he had met with God or something from God Sometimes he was dull and indisposed in the beginning of a duty but before he came off he oft found great Assistances when he found weaknesses the Lord gave in unexpected supplies of strength when he was cast down under any perplexing disturbing fears or difficulties from within or without he had recourse to his Bible and thence received frequently such sweet and encouraging promises set home by the spirit of God as afforded abundance of refreshing relief to him His Family Exercises and Discipline deserve a particular Remark He gave no Toleration to any known sin His Family Discipline or omission of Duty He was very diligent in preventing or reproving the Prophanation of the Lords day even to idle words Neither was he less careful for the pious Education and Instruction of those under his domestick charge Every morning and evening for the most part he read and expounded a part of the Scriptures sung a Psalm and prayed with them Every Friday night he examined their proficience in the Assemblies lesser Catechisme explaining some part thereof to them Every Lords day at night besides other Duties he repeated the substance of what was delivered that day in the Sermons Preached And after such Exercises he examined his Servants and such Children as were capable what they remembred not suffering any to live under his Charge who would not give account of their Faith When he did not read a Chapter his course was to examine and instruct his Servants concerning the Fundamentals of Religion which was a great means for the improving their knowledge Besides his private Retirements and Family-duties he had his set times every day to spend with his Wife in private prayer Neither was this his religious care for instructing Souls confined onely to his Family His holy Conserence but extended unto others He was invested with a singular Gist of Personal Conference which Talent he employed for the good of Souls being ready to take yea to seek all convenient opportun ties to treat with them about their eternal state He was much in pressing men to Holiness He was wont to propose questions to those he conversed with and desired the like of them
that Town depending much upon the Pilchard trade Mr. Tregosse advised them to joyn in a day of Prayer and Humiliation which being performed the next day appeared a great shole of Fish whereof a considerable quantity of them were taken The other accident which deserves a particular remarque was this the next Summer the Fisher-men taking a great number of Pilchards on a Saturday all that night was spent in saving of them and the Seamen were very intent in drying their Nets the Lords day This Mr. Tregrosse rebuked them for withal giving them to understand that they provoked the Lord deservedly to withdraw his blessings from them which happened accordingly For from that time to the end of the Fishing season they had not another opportunity of imploying their Nets He removed hence Octob. 1659. to the Vicarage of Milar and Mabe where he continued his constant course of study and preaching till he was silenced by the Act of Uniformity Aug. 24. 1662. Being prohibited the publick place of preaching he ceased not to preach in his own Family twice every Lords day Which being known in the neighbourhood divers who had tasted of his Ministry in publick could not but desire to partake thereof in private This being divulg'd notice was given thereof to the Lord Lieutenant who upon his refusal to take the Oath appointed for the Militia committed him to the custody of the Mareschal where he continued obout three Months space not ceasing to preach to his fellow prisoners besides others who came to hear him but at last he was released by order from the Deputy Lieutenants SECT II. Mr. Tregosse's Conversion and several Accidents that attended the same SEptember 1663. Mr. Tregosse removed his habitation to the Baron of Kigilliack in the Parish of Badock near Penryn where he kept up his Lords days meetings many flocking to him About the begining of October 1664. he and his Wife lying awake in their bed they felt a great Earth-quake which made the room to tremble and quake under them as they aphrehended and that which gave them the greater cause of admiration was that no one else felt the same But this was but a Prognostick and symbolick Image of that dreadful Tremblement or Earth-quake which not long after Mr. Tregosse felt in his Conscience For on the first of January following it being the Lords-day the Lord led him to preach on that Text Luke 12.47 And that Servant which knew his Lords will and prepared not himself neither did according to his will shall be beaten with many stripes On which he shewed what a dangerous sin it is to sin against knowledge The duties of the day being finished his old sins were livelily presented to him especially one among the rest Hereupon he betook himself to his Duties but drove on very heavily yet the Lord by an omnipotent pull drew him on In one one Duty among the rest he was assaulted with that Scripture Heb 12.17 For ye know how that afterward when he would have inherited the blessing he was rejected For he found no place for repentance though he sought it carefully with tears He frequently assayed to shake off the chains and cords of the Spirit grieving that he was bound up from the world his performance of duties was not without much deadness and unbelief But the Lord bound him fast to his work forcing him to follow on in a way of seeking Sometimes he feared God would leave him to run into his former courses yea that he should not persevere to the end of one day But the Lord magnifyed his power and grace above and beyond his fears Sometimes in reading the Lord would set home threatning then comforting Scriptures to keep him equally ballanced between hopes that he might not sink and fears that he might nor presume He was detained for about 5 weeks space under much bondage and afflictive terrours with little or no discoveries of Gods gracious disposition till about the beginning of February being under a resolution to reveal some sins which burdened his Conscience he met with a passage in an English Divine touching the greatness and freeness of Christs love and purchase which the Lord setting home he was a little quieted and refreshed by The next day being the Lords-day he had a sweet heart-melting consideration of his sins together with a lively contemplation of Christ pierced to whom he directed an eye of Faith And now he who thought it an hard matter to shed one tear drops many the Spirit of the Lord also bringing to his heart that promise I will pardon their iniquity and remember their sin no more and that of Christ to Thomas Jo. 20.27 Reach hither thy finger and behold mine hands and reach hither thine hand and thrust it into my side and be not faithless but believing and this was promoted by reading the history of Christs Passion Yet was he not without some doubtings still yea at times all these his encouragements signifyed no more than nothing After this he was carryed on in Duties with more enlargement and affectionate workings especially at times And from this time he dated his conversion For albeit his conversion for some considerable time before was irreproachable and his labours in the work of the Ministry indefatigable yea and his Zeal for Non conformity remarkable yet he judged the whole of his foregoing life zeal and labour in the Ministry to be no other then a continued series of Formality and hypocrisie And because some of his friends who knew his former conversation well could not but conceive that he had sincere Grace before this great turn A friend of his discoursing with him on this point he peremptorily affirmed That he assuredly knew that he had nothing of sincerity before this great work and withall he bewailed the Church of England in that generally men were made Ministers before they were made Christians Yea he was not without great fears that many who in humane estimation now pass for able and good Ministers will one day be found to be according to Divine estimation not so much as good or sincere Christians These fears we may presume he grounded on his own experience of himself besides other common observations who had the vogue of being a faithful Minister before he was a faithful Christian And that which yet adds further weight is this that though he was before this time a constant and faithful Preacher yet he could not say the Lord had given him any Covenant as the fruit of his Ministry though he received many Seals thereof afterward Some short while after these great which he strongly concluded were the first sincere turnings of his Soul to God being brought very low in his Body and Spirits he conjectured his death was near Then was that Scripture cast in Psal 118. I shall not die but live and declare the works of the Lord. And being again under a return of strong perswasions and fear that he should die looking into his Bible
which the Lord made very successful He esteemed it no small burden to be cast on any society where his time was spent in unprofitable discourse and when he was cast on such his ordinary practice was to put a stop to such unedifying conference by spiritual divertisement or turning it to some holy discourse When he intended to visit any Christian Family his method was first to call his Wife and Mother that they might joyn with him in prayer for a blessing on his intended undertakement and being greatly sensible of the advantages that are acquired by personal Conference he gave those of his hearers whom he judged most judicious divers directions for the right management thereof on all occasions He had a great Tenderness and regard towards such as were sick When he understood of their sickness His Visitation of the Sick he waited not till he was invited neither did he rudely intrude where he might not be welcome but first employed a Friend to shew his willingness and then where he might be received he failed not to visit them and to adminster such spiritual advice as he conceiv'd most proper for the state of their Souls And to those who wanted a competent supply of conveniences he imparted not only of his spiritual but also temporal Gifts according to what God had blessed him with He failed not to pray with them before his departure nor to spare any labour or trouble in the difcharge of this Christian Office As for other more extensive parts of his Ministerial Gifts His Ministerial Gifts and Labours and Labours they were also very remarkable His Preaching was solid and practical he had a great Pathos and vehemence in setting home Truths on Conscience His Sermons were full of plainnss and yet clothed with a sacred Majesty His words were familiar and yet very efficacious He dwelt much on awakening Truths such as might pierce and sting the Consciences of secure sinners and yet to such as needed Consolation he was another Barnabas full of sweetness He had much of Divine assistance as well in the composing as in the hearing of Sermons He oft said that usually his Sermons were given him on his knees His practice was when he had pitcht on a Text to apply himself to Prayer and whilst he was on that duty he oft had the Heads of his Discourse give in unto him As for his enlargements he was never barren having a memory to treasure up all that he read and an Elocution apt to deliver what he had treasured up on all occasions Those who knew him much admired how he could preach so oft and yet so well He was likewise endued with a large gift of prayer which he alwayes expressed in Scriptural language wherein he seemed to have much communion with God In brief he was one of Divine Lights and Heats for God His zeal in promoting the ways of God A Summaris of his Character was flaming and ardent He was affable in his Speech serious and grave in his Carriage invincible in his courage Charitable to such as differed from in persuasions so long as he saw their design was to promote Godliness temperate in the use of the Creature Frugal in the husbanding of his time spending his spare hours in walking meditating Praying or conversing with Christians about Soul-affairs And indeed he was of so holy a disposition and heavenly temper as that all good Men who knew him reverenced him To conclude his greatest ambition seemed this to act and suffer somewhat more then ordinary for God that so he might by a singular exemplary conversation silence the reproaches of ungodly men and give check to the Pride Formality Vanity and Carnality of too many Professors in these wanton days which he sadly bewailed as sad prognosticks of great Desolations Only he hoped there were some and the Lord would raise up more young Converts who should be furnished with Spirits and conversations for the enlargement of Christs Kingdom But more of his Spirit Fears and hopes will appear in and by his following Letters Penryn Octob. 5. 1669. My Dear and Respected Brother I May tell you sad stories of my heart O! how unbelieving fearful and faint found I it on those short views I took of it But that God on whom my scandalous heart hath raised so many false stories heretofore and then gave my fears the lie and yet continue I untoucht and undisturbed to this hour I do cast my self on the disposing hand of God to live or die in my liberty according to his pleasure When I go forth not expecting to see my Family again and my frequent escapes fill me with pleasing admirations of love that through Grace I return triumphing in his goodness How long this liberty may be indulged I know not but I know he will be a good God when he seizeth our freedom in the Gospel and it will be the Rod of a Father and may tend to our increase settlement I have had one very strange raising from the Grave since I saw you the circumstances whereof compelled me and others to own a very visible finger of God But a Narrative of this would be too tedious I desire you would be importunate with God that I might eye the approaching Glory and the return of that great Shepheard and might feed in hope singly aiming at the Lords blessed Interest being contented with my own greatest decreases might that be increased and enlarged Gods waterings and blessigs must give life and fruit to all our poor and defective labourings O! Beg that these may be eminently with me poor England I think is near heavy strokes for her barrenness sensuality and enmity against the power of holiness the Lord grant this may not come as a snare on you and me but that we may be sober and watchful unto Prayer The gracious Lord who dwelt in the bush be with you to teach strengthen and warn you that in his hand you may be serviceable and glorious In him I am and ever shall be Your unfeigned friend yet unworthy servant T. T. Penryn Jan. 12. 1669. My Dear Brother I Should rejoyce to hear how God is dealing with your inward man and what measures of success you are crowned with in your labours of the Gospel and interest of the Son of God in the world We may justly guess â—hâ—t God will do with us in the Land by his breathings with his truths I desire with much earnestness to know seeing you have so many advantages beyond us in these poor corners how the Spirits of Professors stand qualifyed so far as a conjecture may be made by the visible tenure of their carriages I generally find a very secure earthly laizy frame hath seized those among whom I occasionally fall abroad I hope better things with you and that a more engaging rellish and taste of God Glory is fallen on their hearts and a more refined pure lip seconded by more humble self-denying converses before the
world O! What a blessed Omen would this be that God is on healing tearms of Grace with England I must confess in the place where I now labour God is travelling forth with a measure of the greatness of his might Some most stubborn and obstinate wretches attend the means and our meetings grow the Spirit of Jesus hath made some to fall under him and our hopes of greater things are increasing if the Lord for our unfruitful walkings blast not all My Dear Brother I need not tell you how sweet it is to be tabernacling in Mount Tabor by close believing Meditation to see your Lord and mine and on those views to rejoyce with joy unspeakable and full of Glory and by the stme also to mourn over unkindness with bitterness as for an only Son Your received anointings lead me and keep you there Only I must tell you Sermons much watered in the Closet and steep'd in fervent Prayer will ordinarily prove most quickening to the dead and consolating to the Saints and a heart dropt upon by such views will lay a more then usual tincture of Heaven upon the mouth which will have a choice influence in a Teachers treating with Souls I must commit you to Israels Keeper in whom you may repute me Your unfeigned well-wishing friend and engaged Brother T. T. Jan. 28. 1669. My dear Brother I See you have taken up a more than ordinary care for me the ground of which I suppose is somewhat of God you conjecture is upon me In which I beg the Lord you may not be mistaken If I should confess the truth to my bosom Brother my Heart is such a confused disorder'd piece its Principles and ends lying so viel'd and hidden from my self that most frequently I am mine own stranger I know not who or what I am whether God or self swayes me Only this stayes me that were the eye of my heart levelled as directly and in as much singleness at the glory of God in Christ as I would have it be in my greatest strangeness to him and my self I think I should be sincere This therefore being much my state I may admire at the touch of Gods Finger on your heart to turn it to such a worm I had no sooner the Letter but I saw much of God by it and in such providences through the Redeemer I desire to hold some communion with him I shall hint at a footstep of the blessed walks of God to me so far as your Lines may require Seven or eight years since I found amongst the writings of a deceased friend two Bonds belonging to a poor Ophan on the finding of which I sent word to the Orphan of them who came to the House where I dwelt and gave order that one of her Debtors should be sued for the calling in her Money Accordingly that Bond was sent to a Lawyer and the Debtor sued But it being out of the way of my imployment to attend such a business I acquainted the Orphan I should not follow that affair but leave it to a Kinsman of hers to manage it and accordingly regarded it no further he promising to shew all fidelity for the bringing in from the Debtor the Money to the Orphan In process of time not having heard of the business either from the Orphan or her Kinsman and therefore concluding all matters were regularly managed and in equity between them As I was alone in my imprisonment I had a thought that stuck upon me I must needs enquire what issue of the Orphans affair in her Kinsmans hand had attained and on an inquiry found out that the Orphan was abused and damnified 14 l. by this Kinsman who yet had so saved himself that no Justice could be gaind against him On which I was under many disputes with my self whether I were not obliged to take care the Orphan might be satisfied I did propose the case but was informed in the Negative However because I entrusted it in his hand I could not so clearly discharge my self and therefore lately borrowed the money and paid it to the Orphan resolving notwithstanding my present condition rather to be the sufferer my self then that the fatherless Child by the others injustice should be injured and was determined to eye the Lord for a way to discharge that money so borrowed Within a very little time I had borrowed the 14. l. yours came and within a little season from another and now you write me of more which makes up the sum I have been somewhat moved under the graciousness of God the Lord make me fruitful in my seasonable improvement of this dispensation I should be very glad might I see you at Crediton in my passing up to the Assizes Many things I have to say which I must silence till God open a door for a more satisfactory converse You are minded by us here and I desire to live on your thoughts when nearest God I am yours in unfeignedness T. T. May 11. 1670. My Dear Brother YOurs of the 16th of April I received not till the 7th instant Your long silence I confess much amazed me but now in your lines and the reason by them given me of the suspence in those paper-enter courses I rejoyce Since my last lines to you according to my engagement by recognizance I had an opportunity to spend some time with your friends at Crediton Chimly and Southmoulton and am sorry where there is an appearance of so encouraging an harvest so little stomack and spirit is found in adjacent Labourers It hath been long my thought that God hath yet a great controversie with the Non-conforming though the best part of the English Ministry among whom how few are there who naturally care for the state of the poor perishing Countrey and what their hands find to do do it with their might This with that levity of Spirit unholiness of Lip Reigning Selfishness Earthly mindedness Formality Lukewarmness in Worship Security c. visible upon the professing body doth as apparently and dangerously threaten England as the more branded Dâ—baucheries I could heartily wish had the wise Lord seen it fit your station had been fixed in your native Soil that you might be to the quickning of Brethren and professing Saints and also ready at hand to succour those poor corners which seem to cry as the Macedonian in the vision Come over and help us But you know your proper gift and I presume will carefully study and answer your calls I did contract friendship in that journey with Mr. Stucley whom I find of another Spirit in whose society my Soul was refreshed And Mr. Flavel of Dartmouth I find a well tempered Man whom else I met with to rejoyce in of my Brethren I scarce know any The times are now very black and clouds are gathering in every quarter what the issue of our storms may be a little time will much indicate I wish I could say Nubecula cito transibit To give you my fears I think