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the_o force_n of_o my_o affection_n in_o the_o pursuit_n of_o they_o as_o if_o there_o be_v no_o future_a life_n happiness_n or_o eternity_n let_v i_o esteem_v they_o according_a to_o their_o true_a value_n but_o let_v i_o place_v my_o affection_n only_o upon_o that_o solid_a good_a where_o true_a joy_n be_v to_o be_v find_v for_o how_o can_v any_o real_a contentment_n proceed_v from_o such_o empty_a trifle_n how_o can_v any_o last_a satisfaction_n be_v build_v upon_o such_o fade_a enjoyment_n which_o make_v themselves_o wing_n and_o fly_v away_o when_o we_o think_v we_o have_v the_o sure_a possession_n of_o they_o last_o let_v i_o contemplate_v thy_o work_n in_o the_o government_n of_o the_o world_n in_o which_o as_o in_o the_o scene_n of_o a_o comedy_n providence_n order_v the_o person_n dispose_v the_o riches_n and_o honour_n and_o lull_v asleep_o the_o generality_n of_o mankind_n who_o be_v rouse_v up_o at_o the_o end_n of_o the_o act_n stand_v amaze_v that_o they_o have_v be_v 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i_o a_o hearty_a sorrow_n for_o my_o past_a offence_n and_o a_o holy_a fear_n of_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n that_o it_o may_v take_v possession_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o not_o endure_v the_o most_o darling_a lust_n to_o lurk_v therein_o o_o that_o my_o love_n to_o my_o neighhour_n may_v in_o some_o measure_n answer_v thy_o love_n to_o i_o that_o i_o may_v love_v his_o soul_n above_o my_o own_o life_n and_o never_o be_v prevail_v upon_o for_o the_o gain_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n to_o wound_v my_o conscience_n by_o injure_v he_o either_o in_o estate_n or_o good_a name_n but_o since_o general_o nothing_o be_v esteem_v a_o breach_n of_o charity_n towards_o our_o neighbour_n but_o such_o open_a violence_n or_o abusive_a language_n as_o a_o sober_a heathen_a will_v blush_v at_o since_o few_o person_n make_v a_o conscience_n of_o those_o jeer_n which_o touch_v a_o man_n to_o the_o quick_a those_o genteel_a way_n of_o less'n_v his_o reputation_n by_o insinuate_v his_o frailty_n and_o ridicul_v his_o humour_n because_o it_o be_v do_v in_o sport_n and_o for_o diversion_n of_o the_o company_n therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o o_o lord_n open_v my_o eye_n and_o convince_v i_o that_o these_o sin_n which_o i_o be_o apt_a to_o call_v pardonable_a infirmity_n displease_v thou_o the_o more_o in_o that_o they_o be_v agreeable_a to_o our_o corrupt_a nature_n and_o the_o genuine_a off_o spring_n of_o self-love_n let_v i_o hearty_o detest_v this_o mischievous_a diversion_n to_o which_o i_o have_v be_v too_o much_o give_v up_o let_v my_o sorrow_n for_o this_o sin_n in_o some_o measure_n equal_a the_o pleasure_n i_o take_v in_o it_o and_o let_v that_o which_o be_v the_o great_a incentive_a of_o my_o gild_n produce_v a_o fountain_n of_o tear_n to_o blot_v it_o out_o for_o be_v it_o not_o high_o reasonable_a o_o lord_n that_o i_o shall_v bewail_v that_o mirth_n whereby_o i_o have_v injure_v my_o neighbour_n and_o undo_v myself_o and_o that_o laughter_n which_o have_v cost_v i_o my_o soul_n and_o the_o favour_n of_o my_o god_n be_v it_o not_o just_a that_o see_v i_o can_v make_v any_o extraordinary_a demonstration_n of_o my_o repentance_n and_o love_n to_o thou_o i_o shall_v testify_v the_o sincerity_n of_o my_o intention_n by_o abstain_v from_o every_o thing_n which_o gratify_v my_o natural_a corruption_n that_o by_o a_o discreet_a reservedness_n in_o my_o discourse_n for_o the_o future_a i_o shall_v endeavour_v to_o make_v amends_o for_o the_o former_a lavishness_n of_o my_o tongue_n and_o by_o cast_v out_o all_o those_o sin_n which_o have_v offend_v thou_o invite_v thy_o return_n into_o the_o temple_n of_o my_o soul_n whensoever_o therefore_o o_o my_o god_n i_o have_v any_o desire_n to_o conform_v myself_o to_o the_o world_n to_o gratisie_n my_o deprave_a appetite_n or_o to_o show_v the_o gaiety_n of_o my_o humour_n whensoever_o these_o sinful_a delight_n come_v into_o my_o mind_n and_o begin_v to_o blow_v up_o the_o spark_n of_o my_o corruption_n whensoever_o i_o perceive_v these_o motion_n of_o complacency_n towards_o myself_o and_o envy_v against_o my_o neighbour_n these_o ferment_n of_o my_o passion_n and_o melancholy_a distemper_n of_o my_o mind_n which_o if_o in_o the_o least_o encourage_v will_v easy_o get_v the_o better_a of_o i_o then_o let_v i_o consider_v o_o lord_n that_o if_o i_o do_v not_o careful_o suppress_v these_o first_o motion_n to_o sin_n i_o resign_v up_o my_o soul_n to_o its_o most_o inveterate_a enemy_n and_o on_o the_o contrary_a if_o i_o nip_v they_o in_o the_o bud_n if_o i_o sacrifice_v my_o passion_n and_o my_o pleasure_n unto_o thou_o i_o shall_v incline_v thou_o to_o have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o and_o to_o blot_v out_o my_o offence_n i_o shall_v give_v thou_o the_o homage_n of_o a_o contrite_a and_o penitent_a heart_n in_o which_o thou_o be_v well_o please_v show_v i_o therefore_o
whence_o spring_v all_o my_o misery_n it_o be_v from_o this_o that_o instead_o of_o serve_v thou_o in_o spirit_n and_o in_o truth_n instead_o of_o make_v thy_o glory_n the_o end_n of_o all_o my_o thought_n word_n and_o action_n i_o pursue_v after_o nothing_o but_o the_o gratification_n of_o my_o irregular_a lust_n let_v i_o be_v never_o so_o rash_a and_o so_o ungrateful_a unto_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n as_o to_o fancy_v myself_o the_o author_n of_o those_o reflection_n which_o i_o sometime_o make_v when_o i_o retire_v myself_o from_o the_o hurry_n of_o this_o world_n wherein_o a_o unquencheable_a appetite_n torment_v the_o most_o happy_a person_n and_o render_v they_o miserable_a slave_n even_o by_o the_o accomplishment_n of_o their_o most_o earnest_a desire_n reflect_v v._o the_o thought_n of_o a_o penitent_a soul_n fearful_a of_o be_v deceive_v by_o the_o appearance_n of_o a_o false_a conversion_n what_o be_o i_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n what_o be_o i_o but_o a_o proud_a atom_n a_o poor_a blind_a creature_n who_o continual_o go_v astray_o when_o thou_o withhold_v the_o ray_n of_o thy_o grace_n i_o deserve_v to_o be_v annihilate_v if_o at_o any_o time_n i_o shall_v attempt_v the_o conversion_n of_o myself_o by_o my_o own_o power_n without_o the_o assistance_n of_o thy_o grace_n mortify_v in_o my_o soul_n all_o vain_a glory_n every_o thing_n that_o tempt_v i_o to_o too_o good_a a_o opinion_n of_o myself_o but_o chief_o that_o frothiness_n of_o humour_n which_o serve_v only_o to_o divert_v i_o from_o thy_o way_n to_o deprive_v i_o of_o the_o benefit_n of_o my_o affliction_n and_o the_o sweet_a comfort_n â—f_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n give_v i_o humility_n and_o distrust_n â—f_o my_o own_o reason_n let_v i_o thirst_v â—fter_o do_v good_a more_o and_o carâ—al_a knowledge_n less_o lest_o value_v 〈◊〉_d more_o than_o thy_o grace_n i_o lose_v my_o â—elf_n and_o instead_o of_o become_v a_o â—ood_a christian_a become_v a_o philosopher_n better_a acquaint_v â—ith_n the_o 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from_o love_a thâ—_n creature_n because_o my_o diversionâ—_n be_v innocent_a let_v i_o not_o flatter_v myself_o thaâ—_n i_o have_v mortify_v my_o passion_n foâ—_n i_o find_v they_o revive_v with_o moâ—â—_n strength_n then_o ever_o and_o incline_v i_o to_o self-love_n which_o be_v thâ—_n more_o dangerous_a decause_n by_o jâ—â—_n stify_v these_o irregular_a motion_n it_n render_v i_o deaf_a to_o the_o dictateâ—_n of_o my_o reason_n and_o the_o holy_a in_o spiration_n of_o thy_o grace_n let_v i_o not_o fancy_v myself_o to_o bâ—_n without_o pride_n ambition_n self-love_n because_o i_o despise_v the_o world_n use_v scorn_v to_o owe_v those_o honour_n â—ortune_n have_v strip_v i_o of_o to_o â—â—ything_v else_o but_o my_o own_o desert_n let_v i_o not_o so_o much_o deceive_v my_o â—â—lf_n as_o to_o think_v i_o be_o thorough_o convert_v when_o indeed_o i_o have_v â—â—ly_o change_v the_o sin_n of_o sense_n â—â—r_a those_o of_o the_o mind_n a_o profane_a proud_a and_o fensual_a life_n 〈◊〉_d 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death_n and_o incarnation_n be_v not_o to_o instate_v we_o in_o so_o delicate_a and_o effeminate_a a_o life_n as_o may_v gratify_v sense_n and_o indulge_v the_o flesh_n and_o that_o all_o moral_a virtue_n be_v but_o dead_a work_n unless_o enliven_v by_o the_o merit_n and_o virtue_n of_o jesus_n christ_n that_o unless_o the_o inclination_n of_o our_o heart_n be_v change_v it_o will_v nothing_o avail_v a_o sinner_n to_o reform_v his_o outward_a conversation_n to_o â—ate_z the_o world_n without_o love_n to_o god_n to_o do_v work_n of_o justice_n without_o sincere_a repentance_n and_o as_o the_o royal_a psalmist_n have_v it_o â—o_z cease_z from_o evil_a without_o do_v good_a at_o the_o same_o time_n o_o lord_n that_o thou_o destroy_v my_o sinful_a habit_n plant_v in_o my_o soul_n such_o grace_n as_o may_v be_v fruitful_a to_o good_a work_n grant_v that_o by_o a_o lively_a faith_n i_o may_v meditate_v on_o the_o mystery_n of_o thy_o life_n and_o passion_n that_o my_o soul_n may_v be_v 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