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god_n servant_n sept._n 30._o 1666._o i_o consider_v with_o myself_o what_o evidence_n i_o have_v that_o i_o be_v one_o of_o god_n servant_n and_o be_v satisfy_v from_o these_o scripture_n rom._n 6._o 16._o know_v you_o not_o that_o to_o who_o you_o yield_v yourselves_o servant_n to_o obey_v his_o servant_n you_o be_v to_o who_o you_o obey_v whether_o of_o sin_n unto_o death_n or_o of_o obedience_n unto_o righteousness_n i_o find_v god_n have_v give_v i_o a_o heart_n to_o yield_v my_o self_n to_o he_o nehem._n 1._o 11._o o_o lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o let_v now_o thy_o ear_n be_v attentive_a to_o the_o prayer_n of_o thy_o servant_n and_o to_o the_o prayer_n of_o thy_o servant_n that_o desire_v to_o fear_v thy_o name_n here_o i_o see_v that_o such_o as_o desire_v to_o fear_n god_n be_v account_v god_n servant_n which_o through_o grace_n i_o do_v some_o doubt_n arise_v in_o my_o heart_n whether_o i_o be_v one_o of_o god_n servant_n because_o it_o be_v say_v joh._n 8._o 34._o very_o 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conclusion_n that_o he_o be_v one_o of_o god_n servant_n though_o he_o be_v compass_v about_o with_o infirmity_n yea_o even_o at_o such_o time_n as_o he_o be_v under_o a_o sense_n of_o his_o sinful_a infirmity_n ps_n 116._o 11_o 16._o o_o lord_n true_o i_o be_o thy_o servant_n i_o be_o thy_o servant_n yet_o he_o have_v say_v in_o his_o haste_n unbelieve_o all_o man_n be_v liar_n david_n after_o he_o have_v commit_v the_o great_a sin_n of_o number_v the_o people_n against_o the_o counsel_n and_o advice_n of_o his_o friend_n confess_v that_o he_o have_v sin_v great_o and_o do_v very_o foolish_o yet_o call_v himself_o a_o servant_n of_o the_o lord_n 2_o sam._n 24._o 10._o 4._o as_o i_o be_v consider_v
and_o miserable_a to_o die_v in_o sin_n in_o a_o state_n of_o sin_n in_o the_o guilt_n of_o sin_n under_o the_o reign_n and_o power_n of_o sin_n in_o the_o arm_n and_o embrace_n of_o sin_n sin_n be_v the_o transgression_n of_o a_o righteous_a law_n the_o violation_n of_o infinite_a holiness_n and_o justice_n and_o rebellion_n against_o divine_a majesty_n and_o authority_n it_o always_o have_v demerit_n and_o guilt_n consequent_a upon_o it_o which_o oblige_v and_o bind_v the_o sinner_n to_o undergo_v that_o punishment_n which_o be_v natural_o due_a to_o it_o which_o punishment_n be_v death_n rome_n 1._o 32._o they_o which_o commit_v such_o thing_n be_v worthy_a of_o death_n thus_o sin_n become_v the_o weapon_n or_o sting_n of_o death_n by_o which_o it_o have_v power_n to_o destroy_v death_n come_v upon_o the_o sinner_n as_o a_o bailiff_n or_o sergeant_n from_o the_o judge_n with_o warrant_n to_o apprehend_v and_o bring_v the_o sinner_n to_o give_v account_n or_o as_o a_o executioner_n to_o take_v vengeance_n to_o pay_v the_o sinner_n the_o just_a wage_n of_o his_o sin_n for_o the_o reparation_n of_o a_o break_a law_n for_o the_o satisfaction_n of_o offend_a justice_n for_o the_o declaration_n of_o divine_a hatred_n and_o displeasure_n against_o sin_n and_o for_o the_o manifestation_n of_o god_n glorious_a power_n and_o wrath_n against_o the_o guilty_a and_o what_o a_o terror_n must_v death_n needs_o be_v when_o it_o appear_v in_o this_o shape_n and_o arm_v with_o this_o sting_n know_v o_o presumptuous_a and_o secure_a sinner_n though_o wickedness_n be_v now_o sweet_a in_o thy_o mouth_n and_o thou_o hide_v it_o under_o thy_o tongue_n though_o thou_o swallow_a down_n delicious_o thy_o forbid_a morsel_n of_o sensual_a pleasure_n and_o worldly_a gain_n yet_o this_o meat_n will_v soon_o be_v turn_v in_o thy_o bowel_n and_o become_v the_o gall_n of_o asp_n within_o thou_o at_o last_o at_o death_n it_o will_v bite_v as_o a_o serpent_n and_o sting_v like_o a_o adder_n what_o horror_n will_v fill_v thy_o soul_n when_o approach_a death_n shall_v awaken_v thy_o sleepy_a conscience_n as_o oft_o time_n it_o do_v and_o thy_o awaken_v conscience_n shall_v charge_v thou_o with_o thy_o inexcusable_a transgression_n of_o a_o righteous_a law_n thy_o gross_a neglect_n of_o command_a duty_n thy_o industerious_a provision_n to_o satisfy_v the_o flesh_n thy_o ready_a compliance_n with_o the_o call_n of_o temptation_n thy_o irreparable_a loss_n of_o precious_a time_n thy_o hypocritical_a deal_n with_o god_n in_o covenant_n the_o stop_v of_o thy_o ear_n at_o the_o voice_n of_o conscience_n the_o shut_n of_o thy_o eye_n against_o the_o light_n of_o scripture_n the_o harden_v of_o thy_o heart_n against_o the_o motion_n of_o the_o spirit_n thy_o unbelieve_a refusal_n of_o a_o offer_a saviour_n thy_o unprofitable_a misimprovement_n of_o mean_n of_o grace_n thy_o unthankful_a abuse_n of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n and_o obstinate_a incorrigibleness_n under_o his_o judgement_n with_o many_o other_o instance_n of_o multiply_a and_o aggravate_v sin_n through_o a_o long_a life_n whence_o will_v arise_v dismal_a apprehension_n of_o the_o wrath_n of_o a_o offend_a god_n a_o certain_a fearful_a expectation_n of_o judgement_n to_o come_v and_o a_o pre-occupation_n of_o eternal_a torment_n and_o everlasting_a burn_n this_o be_v that_o sting_n of_o death_n the_o weapon_n wherewith_o it_o be_v arm_v against_o thou_o wherein_o consist_v its_o power_n and_o by_o which_o it_o be_v so_o terrible_a 2._o add_v to_o this_o the_o strength_n which_o this_o sting_n have_v from_o the_o law_n for_o say_v the_o apostle_n the_o strength_n of_o sin_n be_v the_o law_n and_o that_o two_o way_n 1_o sy_n as_o the_o law_n discover_v and_o convince_v of_o sin_n rom._n 5._o 13._o sin_n be_v not_o impute_v where_o there_o be_v no_o law_n man_n be_v not_o prone_a to_o charge_v themselves_o with_o sin_n where_o there_o be_v no_o law_n therefore_o gal._n 3._o 19_o the_o law_n be_v add_v because_o of_o transgression_n that_o be_v to_o make_v transgression_n appear_v hence_o we_o read_v rom._n 3._o 20._o by_o the_o law_n be_v the_o knowledge_n of_o sin_n and_o rom._n 7._o 9_o 13._o i_o be_v alive_a without_o the_o law_n once_o in_o my_o own_o opinion_n but_o when_o the_o commandment_n come_v sin_n revive_v and_o i_o die_v i_o be_v convince_v i_o be_v in_o a_o state_n of_o sin_n and_o death_n and_o v_o 13._o sin_n by_o the_o commandment_n become_v exceed_o sinful_a thus_o sin_n as_o the_o sting_n of_o death_n be_v strengthen_v by_o the_o law_n while_o man_n thereby_o be_v more_o clear_o and_o full_o convince_v of_o it_o and_o the_o great_a the_o conviction_n be_v the_o sharp_a be_v the_o sting_n 2_o lie_n as_o the_o law_n curse_v and_o condemn_v the_o sinner_n gal._n 3._o 10._o curse_a be_v every_o one_o that_o continue_v not_o in_o all_o thing_n which_o be_v write_v in_o the_o book_n of_o the_o law_n to_o do_v they_o hence_o as_o before_o rom._n 7._o 9_o when_o the_o commandment_n came._n i_o die_v and_o 2_o cor._n 3._o 7._o the_o law_n be_v call_v the_o ministration_n of_o death_n the_o law_n bind_v the_o sinner_n over_o to_o the_o judgement_n of_o the_o great_a day_n it_o hold_v he_o fast_o under_o his_o guilt_n without_o hope_n of_o pardon_n pass_v sentence_n of_o condemnation_n upon_o he_o and_o begin_v the_o execution_n by_o wound_v the_o spirit_n terrify_v the_o soul_n with_o pre-apprehension_n and_o foreta_v of_o the_o wrath_n to_o come_v the_o sum_n of_o the_o terror_n of_o death_n be_v this_o approach_v death_n awaken_v the_o secure_a conscience_n awaken_v conscience_n charge_v with_o the_o guilt_n of_o sin_n this_o sin_n be_v strengthen_v with_o a_o convince_v curse_a law_n the_o die_a wretch_n see_v his_o day_n of_o sensual_a delight_n and_o pleasure_n his_o day_n of_o worldly_a gain_n and_o purchase_n his_o day_n of_o carnal_a fellowship_n with_o man_n and_o especial_o his_o day_n of_o grace_n and_o mercy_n with_o god_n pass_v away_o find_v his_o spirit_n faint_v his_o heart_n and_o flesh_n fail_v anguish_n and_o pang_n take_v hold_v of_o he_o and_o his_o soul_n forthwith_o to_o be_v require_v apprehend_v arrest_v summon_v and_o hale_v out_o of_o his_o body_n from_o all_o friend_n mean_n help_n and_o hope_n to_o appear_v naked_a before_o god_n the_o judge_n of_o all_o man_n to_o give_v a_o account_n of_o a_o sinful_a life_n and_o to_o receive_v a_o righteous_a doom_n viz._n depart_v from_o i_o you_o curse_v into_o everlasting_a fire_n prepare_v for_o the_o devil_n and_o his_o angel_n and_o then_o to_o go_v away_o into_o everlasting_a punishment_n at_o this_o what_o heart_n of_o man_n can_v contain_v and_o possess_v himself_o without_o fear_n who_o but_o must_v be_v appall_v confound_v amaze_a terrify_v know_v the_o terror_n say_v st._n paul_n 2_o cor._n 5._o 1._o speak_v of_o this_o appearance_n and_o account_n felix_n tremble_v say_v st._n luke_n act._n 24._o 25._o when_o he_o hear_v of_o judgement_n to_o come_v it_o be_v a_o fearful_a look_v for_o of_o judgement_n and_o fiery_a indignation_n say_v the_o author_n to_o the_o hebrew_n chap._n 10._o 27._o and_o a_o fearful_a thing_n to_o fall_v into_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o live_n god_n ver_fw-la 31._o thus_o have_v we_o represent_v the_o enemy_n death_n in_o its_o power_n and_o pomp_n as_o it_o reign_v over_o the_o fall_v son_n and_o daughter_n of_o adam_n which_o appear_v so_o terrible_a that_o woe_n be_v to_o those_o that_o fall_v under_o the_o power_n of_o it_o 2._o we_o will_v now_o show_v you_o this_o enemy_n fall_v and_o overcome_v before_o believer_n believer_n be_v victorious_a over_o death_n object_n but_o say_v natural_a carnal_a reason_n be_v not_o this_o a_o great_a paradox_n who_o will_v believe_v it_o one_o enoch_n indeed_o be_v translate_v that_o he_o shall_v not_o see_v death_n and_o elijah_n go_v up_o to_o heaven_n in_o a_o fiery_a chariot_n but_o else_o the_o patriarch_n and_o prophet_n and_o apostle_n and_o all_o the_o saint_n in_o their_o successive_a generation_n have_v yield_v up_o to_o death_n and_o do_v not_o every_o day_n bear_v witness_n be_v we_o not_o all_o here_o this_o day_n lament_v a_o very_a holy_a and_o eminent_a saint_n and_o servant_z of_o jesus_n christ_n fall_v by_o the_o stroke_n of_o death_n where_o then_o be_v the_o victory_n and_o how_o be_v death_n overcome_v answ_n notwithstanding_o all_o this_o yet_o very_o death_n be_v overcome_v not_o ut_fw-la ne_fw-la sit_fw-la but_o ut_fw-la ne_fw-la obsit_fw-la not_o that_o it_o shall_v not_o be_v but_o that_o it_o shall_v not_o be_v hurtful_a to_o believer_n and_o this_o victory_n consist_v in_o four_o thing_n 1._o death_n be_v disarm_v to_o believer_n that_o it_o can_v sting_v they_o when_o death_n come_v it_o find_v no_o sin_n in_o they_o unpardoned_a no_o guilt_n remain_v as_o a_o obligation_n