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that_o they_o can_v not_o see_v that_o they_o have_v but_o for_o want_v of_o some_o deny_v all_o a_o remedy_n against_o which_o temptation_n be_v not_o to_o deceive_v ourselves_o any_o long_o with_o a_o imagination_n of_o such_o a_o measure_n of_o assurance_n of_o salvation_n ordinary_o in_o the_o child_n of_o god_n which_o shall_v be_v without_o all_o waver_a or_o doubt_v or_o such_o a_o measure_n of_o feel_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o joy_n therein_o as_o shall_v abandon_v all_o distrustfulnes_n and_o sorrow_n this_o be_v not_o to_o be_v look_v for_o in_o this_o world_n 16.11_o psal_n 16.11_o the_o fullness_n of_o joy_n be_v in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o at_o his_o right_a hand_n only_o be_v pleasure_n for_o evermore_o here_o we_o have_v they_o but_o in_o measure_n there_o indeed_o be_v joy_n unspeakable_a and_o most_o glorious_a without_o all_o interruption_n when_o we_o shall_v see_v god_n face_n to_o face_n 13.12_o 1._o cor._n 13.12_o and_o know_v he_o as_o we_o 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