sin_n especial_o of_o lie_v and_o steal_v and_o play_v upon_o the_o sabbath-day_n i_o delight_v to_o read_v the_o word_n of_o god_n and_o good_a book_n to_o other_o but_o i_o do_v not_o apply_v it_o to_o myself_o as_o when_o i_o read_v that_o scripture_n that_o except_o we_o repent_v we_o shall_v all_o perish_v except_o we_o be_v bear_v again_o we_o can_v see_v the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n that_o the_o wicked_a shall_v be_v turn_v into_o hell_n etc._n etc._n i_o think_v these_o do_v not_o concern_v i_o because_o i_o be_v guilty_a of_o no_o gross_a sin_n i_o reckon_v my_o condition_n be_v good_a and_o i_o be_v ready_a to_o pity_v other_o but_o i_o be_v not_o sensible_a of_o the_o corruption_n and_o defilement_n of_o my_o nature_n i_o do_v not_o see_v the_o need_n of_o a_o change_n i_o be_v not_o sensible_a of_o my_o undo_a condition_n without_o christ_n i_o see_v not_o his_o excellency_n nor_o have_v any_o desire_n after_o he_o i_o know_v not_o upon_o what_o term_n i_o must_v take_v he_o if_o i_o will_v be_v save_v as_o to_o the_o outward_a duty_n of_o religion_n i_o live_v in_o the_o performance_n of_o many_o of_o they_o but_o as_o for_o the_o more_o inward_a and_o spiritual_a duty_n of_o christianity_n such_o as_o self-examination_n meditation_n self-denial_n mourn_v for_o sin_n and_o watch_v over_o my_o thought_n word_n and_o action_n strict_a observation_n of_o the_o lord_n day_n etc._n etc._n to_o these_o i_o be_v altogether_o a_o stranger_n thus_o i_o go_v on_o in_o rebellion_n against_o god_n have_v a_o form_n of_o godliness_n but_o deny_v the_o power_n and_o if_o god_n have_v then_o cut_v i_o off_o in_o my_o unregeneracy_n certain_o hellfire_n must_v have_v be_v my_o portion_n he_o may_v have_v swear_v in_o his_o wrath_n that_o i_o shall_v never_o enter_v into_o his_o rest_n o_o the_o wonderful_a patience_n and_o forbearance_n of_o the_o lord_n towards_o such_o a_o sinful_a creature_n it_o be_v a_o miracle_n of_o mercy_n i_o be_o yet_o on_o this_o side_n the_o grave_a and_o hell_n it_o be_v of_o the_o lord_n mercy_n that_o i_o be_o spare_v so_o long_o and_o that_o he_o give_v i_o space_n to_o repent_v that_o he_o shall_v afford_v i_o the_o mean_n of_o grace_n and_o send_v his_o holy_a spirit_n to_o strive_v with_o i_o and_o give_v i_o many_o conviction_n and_o all_o to_o reclaim_v i_o and_o bring_v i_o home_o to_o himself_o and_o that_o he_o shall_v not_o only_o give_v i_o space_n to_o repent_v but_o a_o heart_n to_o repent_v that_o he_o shall_v not_o only_o stand_v wait_v and_o knock_v at_o the_o door_n of_o my_o heart_n so_o many_o year_n call_v on_o i_o to_o repent_v but_o that_o he_o shall_v give_v i_o the_o grace_n of_o repentance_n this_o be_v undeserved_a love_n and_o distinguish_a mercy_n for_o i_o be_v dead_a in_o trespass_n and_o sin_n and_o have_v nothing_o but_o my_o misery_n to_o move_v his_o compassion_n i_o walk_v according_a to_o the_o course_n of_o this_o world_n i_o be_v insensible_a of_o my_o danger_n though_o ready_a to_o drop_v into_o hell_n every_o moment_n and_o i_o shall_v certain_o have_v perish_v have_v not_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o open_v my_o eye_n and_o to_o pluck_v i_o as_o a_o firebrand_n out_o of_o the_o burn_a and_o set_v i_o in_o the_o way_n to_o heaven_n for_o which_o i_o can_v never_o sufficient_o adore_v and_o praise_v his_o glorious_a grace_n in_o christ_n to_o i_o a_o vile_a sinful_a creature_n great_a be_v his_o mercy_n towards_o i_o for_o he_o have_v deliver_v my_o soul_n from_o the_o low_a hell_n which_o make_v i_o say_v with_o david_n come_v and_o hear_v all_o you_o that_o fear_v the_o lord_n and_o i_o will_v declare_v what_o he_o have_v do_v for_o my_o soul_n and_o the_o way_n and_o means_n whereby_o he_o be_v please_v to_o work_v upon_o my_o heart_n the_o manner_n of_o my_o conversion_n which_o i_o hope_n be_v true_a and_o real_a be_v as_o follow_v it_o please_v the_o lord_n by_o a_o sad_a providence_n viz._n the_o sickness_n at_o london_n to_o bring_v my_o uncle_n gearing_n and_o his_o family_n from_o thence_o to_o my_o father_n house_n where_o they_o continue_v about_o half_a a_o year_n my_o uncle_n be_v a_o good_a man_n i_o can_v not_o but_o take_v notice_n of_o his_o strict_a and_o circumspect_a walk_v and_o be_v much_o affect_v with_o it_o and_o i_o begin_v to_o think_v sure_o the_o way_n that_o i_o be_o in_o will_v never_o bring_v i_o to_o heaven_n i_o think_v i_o must_v live_v another_o manner_n of_o life_n if_o ever_o i_o will_v be_v save_v i_o have_v many_o conviction_n but_o there_o i_o stay_v but_o go_v no_o further_o i_o keep_v on_o in_o my_o former_a careless_a course_n when_o it_o please_v god_n to_o put_v a_o stop_n to_o the_o plague_n at_o london_n my_o uncle_n return_v with_o his_o family_n and_o i_o go_v with_o he_o and_o continue_v at_o his_o house_n about_o two_o month_n in_o which_o time_n it_o please_v the_o lord_n to_o follow_v i_o with_o new_a conviction_n partly_o by_o the_o good_a example_n of_o my_o uncle_n partly_o by_o many_o excellent_a sermon_n which_o i_o hear_v when_o i_o be_v there_o so_o that_o i_o begin_v in_o good_a earnest_n to_o look_v after_o the_o salvation_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o to_o say_v with_o the_o gaoler_n what_o must_v i_o do_v to_o be_v save_v i_o begin_v to_o be_v very_o desirous_a to_o hear_v the_o word_n i_o take_v all_o opportunity_n to_o hear_v and_o give_v attention_n to_o what_o be_v preach_v after_o another_o manner_n than_o i_o be_v wont_a to_o do_v and_o labour_v to_o make_v application_n of_o it_o to_o myself_o i_o hear_v mr._n vincent_n preach_v upon_o heb._n 12._o 14._o follow_v holiness_n without_o which_o no_o man_n shall_v see_v the_o lord_n urge_v the_o necessity_n of_o it_o as_o the_o only_a way_n to_o heaven_n i_o be_v much_o affect_v therewith_o and_o begin_v to_o think_v i_o must_v set_v about_o the_o work_n of_o a_o thorough_a repentance_n i_o begin_v to_o be_v sensible_a of_o my_o original_a corruption_n and_o that_o i_o have_v be_v guilty_a of_o thousand_o of_o actual_a sin_n those_o which_o before_o i_o count_v small_a i_o now_o look_v upon_o as_o great_a and_o upon_o myself_o by_o reason_n of_o sin_n to_o be_v in_o a_o lamentable_a condition_n i_o know_v not_o how_o to_o get_v out_o of_o this_o sinful_a miserable_a state_n and_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o show_v i_o that_o there_o be_v no_o name_n under_o heaven_n by_o which_o i_o can_v be_v save_v but_o only_o by_o jesus_n christ_n i_o think_v if_o i_o can_v have_v a_o interest_n in_o he_o and_o his_o favour_n i_o shall_v be_v save_v but_o i_o fear_v god_n will_v not_o thus_o have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o because_o i_o have_v go_v on_o so_o long_o in_o sin_n i_o hear_v a_o excellent_a sermon_n upon_o mat._n 11._o 28._o come_v unto_o i_o all_o you_o that_o be_v weary_a and_o heavy_a load_v and_o i_o will_v give_v you_o rest_v prove_v first_o that_o sin_n be_v a_o burden_n and_o second_o that_o burden_a sinner_n be_v invite_v to_o come_v to_o christ_n and_o then_o that_o those_o that_o come_v to_o he_o shall_v find_v rest_n for_o their_o soul_n this_o be_v a_o suitable_a word_n to_o my_o soul_n i_o be_v much_o affect_v in_o the_o hear_n of_o in_o for_o i_o feel_v sin_n to_o be_v a_o burden_n no_o my_o conscience_n and_o i_o will_v fain_o have_v rest_n to_o my_o soul_n i_o be_v sensible_a of_o my_o want_n of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o of_o the_o absolute_a necessity_n to_o be_v interest_v in_o he_o i_o begin_v to_o see_v his_o worth_n and_o excellency_n as_o the_o chief_a of_o ten_o thousand_o altogether_o lovely_a and_o then_o and_o not_o till_o then_o i_o have_v hungering_n and_o thirsting_n after_o he_o so_o that_o i_o can_v say_v none_o but_o christ_n give_v i_o christ_n or_o else_o i_o die_v thus_o it_o please_v the_o lord_n by_o his_o spirit_n to_o work_v upon_o my_o heart_n by_o degree_n to_o open_v my_o eye_n and_o to_o let_v in_o some_o spiritual_a light_n into_o my_o understanding_n which_o be_v dark_a before_o and_o to_o give_v some_o spiritual_a life_n to_o my_o affection_n which_o be_v dead_a before_o but_o o_o the_o enemy_n that_o do_v then_o labour_n to_o hinder_v my_o conversion_n and_o stop_v this_o work_n the_o world_n by_o allurement_n and_o discouragement_n seek_v to_o keep_v i_o off_o from_o christ_n my_o own_o deceitful_a heart_n and_o corrupt_a disposition_n within_o i_o be_v no_o small_a enemy_n and_o hindrance_n to_o the_o work_n of_o grace_n in_o my_o soul_n the_o devil_n the_o great_a adversary_n of_o god_n glory_n and_o our_o happiness_n come_v like_o a_o roar_a lion_n ready_a to_o devour_v i_o so_o that_o i_o
christ_n far_o better_a the_o dress_n for_o the_o sacrament_n lord_n where_o be_o i_o what!_o all_o the_o child_n of_o the_o bride-chamber_n up_o and_o dress_v and_o i_o slumber_v in_o my_o bed_n tell_v i_o you_o fair_o what_o make_v you_o up_o so_o early_o alas_o our_o lord_n be_v up_o before_o we_o all_o he_o call_v we_o up_o by_o break-of-day_n and_o wonder_v that_o we_o be_v not_o trim_v our_o lamp_n know_v with_o who_o we_o be_v to_o feast_v this_o day_n well_o then_o i_o will_v rise_v up_o too_o o_o what_o a_o show_n do_v these_o bright_a and_o glitter_a saint_n make_v in_o my_o eye_n sure_o they_o do_v not_o thus_o dress_v themselves_o it_o be_v my_o father_n make_v they_o thus_o prepare_v to_o entertain_v his_o son_n but_o where_o be_v my_o clothes_n now_o for_o the_o fair_a sweet_a robe_n of_o thought_n and_o wish_n that_o can_v be_v find_v o_o how_o naked_a be_o i_o but_o where_o be_v my_o silken_a golden_a twist_n of_o faith_n to_o hang_v the_o jewel_n of_o joy_n and_o love_n and_o humility_n upon_o i_o be_o never_o dress_v till_o they_o be_v on_o o_o where_o be_v they_o i_o see_v they_o by_o i_o but_o just_a now_o i_o lay_v they_o by_o my_o heart_n before_o i_o go_v to_o bed_n but_o ah_o i_o fear_v this_o envious_a world_n have_v with_o her_o vanity_n steal_v they_o away_o or_o the_o envious_a devil_n or_o unbelief_n have_v be_v ravel_v or_o snarl_v of_o they_o that_o now_o i_o be_o as_o far_o to_o seek_v as_o ever_o whither_o o_o whither_o shall_v i_o go_v to_o find_v they_o out_o now_o will_v the_o bridegroom_n come_v and_o i_o be_o not_o ready_a i_o can_v dare_v not_o go_v to_o day_n now_o will_v my_o lord_n be_v angry_a and_o ask_v i_o why_o i_o come_v not_o and_o i_o have_v no_o answer_n to_o make_v he_o and_o if_o i_o go_v undress_v he_o will_v ask_v i_o where_o be_v my_o wedding-garment_n and_o than_o i_o shall_v be_v speechless_a ah_o foolish_a simple_a heart_n that_o thou_o shall_v let_v these_o thought_n of_o earth_n so_o entangle_v themselves_o with_o thy_o heavenly_a meditation_n how_o to_o get_v they_o loose_v again_o thou_o know_v not_o this_o by_o care_n thou_o may_v have_v prevent_v now_o what_o help_n lord_n i_o have_v sin_v o_o holy_a father_n pardon_v this_o time_n and_o i_o will_v take_v more_o heed_n o_o come_v and_o untie_v my_o thought_n from_o this_o earth_n and_o come_v and_o dress_v i_o up_o as_o best_o please_v thou_o come_v be_v not_o discourage_v o_o my_o soul_n let_v but_o thy_o attire_n of_o grace_n be_v whole_a that_o be_v sincere_a and_o thy_o god_n and_o saviour_n will_v accept_v thou_o though_o thy_o garment_n be_v not_o so_o much_o perfume_v with_o heaven_n as_o thy_o brethren_n be_v thy_o lord_n know_v all_o have_v not_o talent_n alike_o and_o where_o he_o give_v but_o little_a he_o expect_v but_o little_a thou_o have_v a_o honest_a willing_a serious_a heart_n that_o think_v it_o do_v despise_v and_o trample_v under_o foot_n the_o near_a dear_a pleasure_n profit_n and_o glory_n in_o the_o world_n compare_v with_o he_o that_o give_v himself_o to_o death_n for_o thou_o and_o have_v rather_o anger_v all_o the_o world_n than_o he_o by_o sin_v against_o he_o in_o the_o least_o if_o this_o he_o true_a fear_v not_o thou_o have_v thy_o wedding-garment_n on_o thou_o be_v well_o clad_v as_o mean_v soever_o as_o it_o be_v it_o be_v such_o a_o one_o as_o heaven_n give_v thou_o and_o such_o a_o one_o as_o thy_o dear_a redeemer_n can_v and_o will_v embrace_v thou_o in_o the_o presence-chamber_n fear_v not_o o_o my_o soul_n i_o charge_v thou_o do_v not_o faint_a let_v not_o thy_o weakness_n and_o the_o poverty_n of_o thy_o grace_n discourage_v thou_o see_v how_o thy_o lord_n draw_v nigh_o o_o he_o come_v and_o it_o be_v but_o to_o welcome_v thou_o and_o fall_v about_o thy_o neck_n and_o kiss_v thou_o and_o bid_v thou_o a_o kind_n welcome_o to_o thy_o bleed_a lord_n the_o bread_n welcome_o fair_a take_v and_o eat_v it_o be_v the_o sweet_a dainty_n dear_a morsel_n heaven_n can_v afford_v thou_o welcome_o my_o dear_a to_o the_o table_n of_o thy_o lord_n welcome_o a_o thousand_o time_n i_o bid_v thou_o yea_o welcomer_n than_o thou_o own_o heart_n can_v wish_v take_v eat_v this_o morsel_n it_o cost_v my_o life_n it_o be_v a_o portion_n thy_o father_n send_v unto_o thou_o by_o i_o and_o bid_v i_o remember_v thou_o of_o his_o love_n to_o thou_o he_o bid_v thou_o remember_v a_o father_n love_n i_o a_o saviour_n he_o have_v a_o heart_n to_o give_v thou_o and_o so_o have_v i_o take_v this_o in_o earnest_n of_o they_o both_o in_o one_o take_v free_o if_o thou_o be_v not_o welcome_a i_o will_v have_v tell_v thou_o i_o will_v have_v ask_v thou_o for_o thy_o wedding-garment_n tell_v i_o o_o tell_v i_o do_v thou_o not_o love_v i_o i_o know_v thou_o do_v and_o will_v not_o thou_o take_v the_o cross_n and_o follow_v i_o i_o know_v thou_o will_v i_o hear_v thou_o and_o have_v compassion_n on_o thy_o groan_n i_o know_v thou_o well_o enough_o thou_o be_v i_o and_o i_o be_o thou_o take_v it_o i_o charge_v thou_o eat_v it_o as_o thou_o love_v i_o and_o while_o thou_o feed_v remember_v the_o love_n of_o thy_o dear_a redeemer_n the_o wine_n come_v my_o dear_a i_o have_v drink_v and_o thou_o shall_v pledge_v i_o i_o have_v broach_v my_o side_n and_o draw_v it_o on_o purpose_n for_o thou_o this_o be_v a_o wine_n of_o my_o own_o make_n when_o i_o tread_v the_o winepress_n of_o my_o father_n wrath_n it_o be_v my_o blood_n take_v and_o drink_v it_o sin_n be_v the_o cause_n of_o my_o wound_n but_o to_o thy_o soul_n it_o shall_v prove_v heal_v i_o die_v and_o bleed_v to_o make_v this_o banquet_n for_o thou_o i_o have_v bring_v thou_o into_o my_o wine-cellar_n and_o my_o banner_n over_o thou_o shall_v be_v love_n fear_v not_o take_v and_o drink_v thou_o have_v a_o ulcer_n in_o thy_o heart_n and_o this_o shall_v cure_v it_o thy_o spirit_n be_v faint_a this_o shall_v revive_v thou_o drink_v i_o charge_v thou_o drink_v on_o thy_o love_n and_o loyalty_n to_o i_o i_o command_v thou_o as_o thou_o will_v have_v thy_o heart_n to_o mend_v thy_o wound_n to_o be_v cure_v thy_o spirit_n to_o revive_v thy_o fear_n to_o scatter_v thy_o soul_n to_o love_n and_o obey_v i_o take_v o_o take_v this_o cup_n into_o thy_o hand_n taste_v it_o and_o praise_v my_o name_n memorable_a say_n and_o passage_n collect_v and_o transcribe_v for_o his_o own_o use_n these_o be_v some_o among_o other_o what_o we_o be_v afraid_a to_o do_v before_o man_n we_o shall_v be_v afraid_a to_o think_v before_o god_n because_o our_o secret_a thought_n be_v as_o obvious_a to_o the_o eye_n of_o god_n as_o our_o action_n to_o the_o eye_n of_o men._n god_n show_v more_o mercy_n in_o save_v some_o when_o he_o may_v have_v condemn_v all_o than_o he_o do_v justice_n in_o leave_v some_o to_o perish_v when_o he_o may_v have_v save_v none_o great_a virtue_n without_o sincerity_n of_o heart_n be_v reject_v when_o great_a infirmity_n without_o hypocrisy_n be_v pardon_v a_o good_a intention_n can_v make_v a_o bad_a action_n good_a though_o a_o ill_a intention_n may_v make_v a_o action_n in_o itself_o good_a to_o be_v evil_a he_o who_o presume_v to_o sin_n in_o hope_n of_o repentance_n shall_v be_v sure_a to_o repent_v because_o he_o presume_v they_o who_o presume_v most_o in_o a_o time_n of_o prosperity_n be_v most_o apt_a to_o despair_v in_o adversity_n repent_v one_o day_n before_o thou_o die_v be_v good_a counsel_n i_o know_v not_o when_o that_o day_n will_v be_v therefore_o i_o will_v repent_v to_o day_n lest_o it_o shall_v be_v too_o late_o to_o morrow_n he_o that_o delay_v his_o repentance_n one_o day_n have_v another_o day_n more_o to_o repent_v of_o and_o one_o day_n less_o to_o do_v it_o in_o god_n who_o join_v the_o end_n and_o means_n together_o do_v accomplish_v all_o his_o purpose_n of_o good_a to_o we_o by_o work_v in_o we_o desire_n and_o endeavour_n suitable_a to_o those_o purpose_n better_o go_v to_o heaven_n by_o the_o gate_n of_o hell_n than_o to_o hell_n by_o the_o gate_n of_o heaven_n mourning_n to_o the_o heavenly_a glory_n than_o laugh_v to_o the_o place_n of_o torment_n one_o may_v suffer_v and_o not_o sin_n but_o if_o he_o sin_v he_o shall_v be_v sure_a to_o suffer_v herod_n may_v have_v keep_v his_o oath_n and_o not_o have_v cut_v off_o the_o baptist_n head_n he_o only_o promise_v to_o grant_v what_o she_o ask_v to_o the_o half_a of_o his_o kingdom_n whereas_o the_o prophet_n head_n be_v more_o worth_a than_o the_o whole_a such_o be_v the_o infinite_a extent_n and_o value_n of_o our_o saviour_n merit_n that_o
of_o god_n in_o it_o at_o least_o some_o quickning_n and_o drawing_n out_o of_o my_o heart_n after_o he_o in_o earnest_a desire_n and_o long_n and_o pant_n after_o he_o yet_o i_o be_o apt_a to_o be_v cast_v down_o my_o conscience_n be_v apt_a to_o accuse_v i_o that_o i_o do_v not_o my_o duty_n and_o be_o fearful_a lest_o death_n come_v of_o a_o sudden_a and_o find_v i_o unready_a and_o thereupon_o be_o great_o trouble_v and_o not_o know_v what_o to_o do_v methinks_v i_o will_v not_o be_v want_v in_o my_o duty_n and_o often_o pray_v that_o god_n will_v show_v i_o my_o duty_n and_o help_v i_o to_o do_v it_o yet_o when_o i_o think_v to_o go_v about_o any_o thing_n there_o come_v such_o a_o multitude_n of_o thing_n into_o my_o mind_n to_o do_v this_o and_o to_o do_v the_o other_o and_o all_o can_v be_v do_v together_o that_o i_o be_o sometime_o almost_o discourage_v and_o tempt_v to_o let_v all_o alone_a the_o lord_n in_o infinite_a mercy_n look_v upon_o i_o for_o christ_n sake_n and_o help_v i_o against_o this_o temptation_n of_o satan_n and_o my_o own_o wicked_a heart_n and_o enable_v i_o to_o remember_v the_o lord_n be_v gracious_a and_o merciful_a and_o accept_v of_o the_o willing_a mind_n where_o there_o be_v truth_n and_o sincerity_n the_o lord_n help_v i_o also_o to_o remember_v and_o believe_v though_o i_o must_v be_v do_v yet_o i_o be_o not_o justify_v for_o it_o if_o i_o can_v do_v never_o so_o much_o the_o lord_n help_v i_o to_o renounce_v all_o and_o trust_v whole_o to_o jesus_n christ_n for_o acceptance_n for_o justification_n and_o salvation_n now_o this_o morning_n be_v in_o my_o shop_n and_o have_v nothing_o to_o do_v trading_n be_v very_o dead_a i_o think_v with_o myself_o what_o to_o set_v about_o and_o though_o i_o have_v examine_v myself_o before_o yet_o know_v i_o can_v be_v too_o much_o in_o this_o work_n i_o resolve_v to_o go_v to_o it_o again_o and_o although_o i_o can_v so_o solemn_o search_v my_o heart_n as_o if_o i_o be_v in_o secret_a yet_o i_o hope_v i_o find_v something_o of_o mr._n naltion_n character_n which_o i_o shall_v here_o note_v question_n how_o may_v we_o know_v christ_n be_v we_o and_o we_o be_v he_o ans_fw-fr 1._o do_v you_o high_o prize_v jesus_n christ_n 2._o be_v you_o make_v new_a creature_n 3._o do_v you_o find_v the_o power_n of_o corruption_n in_o some_o measure_n abate_v in_o you_o 4._o be_v you_o desirous_a to_o have_v christ_n rule_v over_o you_o as_o well_o as_o save_v you_o 5._o do_v thou_o lament_v after_o the_o lord_n and_o mourn_v over_o a_o crucify_a saviour_n 6._o do_v you_o feel_v sin_n a_o burden_n and_o will_v you_o willing_o be_v rid_v of_o it_o quest_n how_o may_v i_o know_v i_o love_v christ_n answ_n 1._o if_o you_o love_v jesus_n christ_n you_o will_v be_v content_a with_o nothing_o but_o his_o love_n again_o all_o the_o world_n will_v not_o content_v you_o without_o the_o love_n of_o christ_n 2._o if_o you_o love_v jesus_n christ_n you_o will_v delight_v to_o think_v and_o speak_v of_o christ_n 3._o if_o you_o love_v christ_n you_o will_v be_v afraid_a to_o offend_v he_o 4._o you_o will_v love_v the_o saint_n and_o follower_n of_o christ_n 5._o you_o will_v delight_v to_o be_v where_o christ_n be_v in_o his_o ordinance_n and_o rejoice_v in_o his_o presence_n when_o you_o meet_v with_o he_o 6._o love_n to_o christ_n will_v make_v you_o seek_v the_o honour_n of_o christ_n 7._o your_o life_n will_v run_v out_o in_o lively_a act_n and_o exercise_n of_o grace_n upon_o christ_n 8._o if_o you_o love_v christ_n you_o will_v not_o think_v any_o thing_n too_o much_o to_o do_v for_o christ_n or_o to_o part_v with_o he_o if_o you_o love_v i_o keep_v my_o commandment_n say_v christ_n so_o that_o if_o i_o keep_v christ_n commandment_n it_o be_v a_o sign_n that_o i_o love_v he_o now_o follow_v some_o character_n that_o mr._n nalton_n lay_v down_o of_o true_a faith_n in_o jesus_n christ_n but_o before_o these_o he_o give_v some_o rule_n to_o help_v we_o in_o try_v ourselves_o 1._o if_o you_o will_v judge_v aright_o of_o your_o faith_n be_v sure_a you_o do_v not_o trust_v to_o your_o own_o heart_n 2._o examine_v your_o heart_n when_o you_o be_v in_o a_o calm_a quiet_a compose_a frame_n 3._o take_v heed_n you_o do_v not_o err_v in_o the_o nature_n of_o faith_n to_o think_v there_o be_v no_o true_a faith_n where_o there_o be_v no_o assurance_n 4._o judge_v not_o of_o your_o faith_n by_o some_o legal_a trouble_n that_o have_v be_v in_o your_o spirit_n as_o a_o forerunner_n of_o faith_n but_o judge_n by_o the_o consequent_n of_o these_o trouble_n whether_o they_o bring_v christ_n and_o your_o soul_n near_o together_o 5._o though_o you_o must_v judge_v your_o faith_n by_o the_o fruit_n of_o it_o yet_o they_o be_v in_o some_o of_o a_o high_a degree_n some_o of_o a_o low_a degree_n joy_n in_o tribulation_n be_v a_o high_a fruit_n of_o faith_n that_o every_o man_n can_v attain_v unto_o let_v not_o a_o man_n say_v i_o have_v no_o faith_n because_o i_o can_v sing_v in_o a_o prison_n but_o if_o there_o be_v but_o any_o fruit_n of_o faith_n that_o discover_v to_o thou_o thou_o be_v a_o believer_n though_o not_o a_o strong_a believer_n thou_o have_v cause_n ro_o rejoice_v now_o i_o hope_v my_o desire_n be_v to_o try_v myself_o by_o these_o mark_n of_o true_a faith_n follow_v the_o lord_n grant_v i_o may_v find_v they_o in_o my_o soul_n for_o christ_n sake_n one_a true_a faith_n may_v be_v know_v by_o the_o efficient_a or_o principal_a cause_n of_o it_o which_o be_v no_o other_o but_o the_o holy_a spirit_n of_o god_n all_o the_o angel_n in_o heaven_n and_o saint_n on_o earth_n can_v persuade_v my_o heart_n to_o believe_v till_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n draw_v my_o soul_n to_o jesus_n christ_n now_o have_v the_o spirit_n of_o god_n draw_v thou_o to_o christ_n have_v you_o find_v the_o mighty_a power_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n overcome_v the_o pride_n and_o stubbornness_n of_o your_o will_n to_o make_v you_o willing_a to_o accept_v of_o christ_n on_o his_o own_o term_n then_o you_o have_v a_o true_a faith_n two_o true_a faith_n may_v be_v know_v by_o the_o manner_n of_o production_n the_o spirit_n of_o god_n have_v a_o previous_a or_o forego_v work_n upon_o the_o soul_n 1._o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n convince_v the_o sinner_n this_o go_v before_o believe_v the_o spirit_n of_o god_n let_v a_o sinner_n see_v the_o inside_n of_o himself_o thou_o be_v a_o sinner_n say_v the_o spirit_n of_o god_n so_o that_o the_o poor_a sinner_n see_v himself_o in_o a_o lose_a and_o undo_v condition_n in_o himself_o by_o reason_n of_o sin_n 2._o after_o convince_a the_o spirit_n of_o god_n humble_v the_o sinner_n he_o be_v humble_v to_o the_o dust_n this_o sorrow_n and_o humiliation_n be_v in_o some_o more_o in_o some_o less_o but_o in_o all_o there_o be_v so_o much_o sense_n of_o sin_n and_o misery_n as_o to_o drive_v the_o sinner_n out_o of_o himself_o and_o to_o let_v he_o see_v he_o must_v perish_v for_o ever_o without_o christ_n 3._o there_o be_v also_o a_o encourage_v work_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n have_v convince_v and_o humble_v the_o sinner_n he_o revive_v he_o by_o some_o heart-chearing_a consideration_n as_o 1._o that_o there_o be_v a_o christ_n a_o all-sufficient_a saviour_n by_o who_o he_o may_v be_v deliver_v from_o wrath_n to_o come_v 2._o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n make_v a_o particular_a proffer_n of_o christ_n and_o pardon_v and_o grace_n to_o he_o and_o tell_v he_o the_o promise_v of_o the_o gospel_n be_v make_v to_o he_o as_o well_o as_o other_o and_o that_o god_n invite_v he_o poor_a sinner_n and_o that_o there_o be_v mercy_n for_o he_o if_o he_o accept_v it_o 3._o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n do_v sometime_o secret_o whisper_v to_o the_o soul_n of_o a_o sinner_n by_o a_o voice_n within_o he_o invite_v he_o and_o draw_v he_o to_o come_v to_o christ_n come_v to_o i_o all_o you_o that_o labour_n and_o be_v heavy_a lade_v and_o i_o will_v give_v you_o rest_v ho_o every_o one_o that_o thirst_v come_v to_o the_o water_n be_v thou_o a_o thirsty_a soul_n thou_o be_v he_o that_o be_v invite_v say_v the_o spirit_n of_o god_n therefore_o stand_v out_o no_o long_o 4._o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n do_v work_v faith_n by_o bow_v the_o will_n make_v it_o pliable_a to_o come_v and_o taste_v how_o good_a christ_n be_v well_o say_v the_o soul_n i_o be_o resolve_v to_o come_v to_o christ_n though_o i_o know_v not_o how_o i_o shall_v speed_v i_o will_v cast_v my_o soul_n into_o the_o arm_n of_o christ_n and_o if_o i_o sink_v i_o will_v sink_v with_o a_o saviour_n in_o my_o
will_v go_v mourning_n in_o this_o world_n while_o i_o have_v a_o day_n to_o live_v till_o christ_n shall_v please_v to_o cast_v a_o eye_n of_o grace_n and_o mercy_n on_o i_o nay_o let_v it_o come_v to_o this_o i_o can_v live_v if_o god_n be_v not_o reconcile_v if_o christ_n be_v not_o i_o my_o spirit_n fail_v if_o the_o lord_n do_v not_o relieve_v i_o there_o be_v nothing_o no_o abide_n for_o i_o unless_o he_o speak_v a_o word_n of_o peace_n when_o the_o soul_n be_v bring_v to_o this_o i_o must_v have_v a_o interest_n in_o christ_n or_o nothing_o will_v satisfy_v i_o such_o a_o one_o shall_v find_v acceptance_n therefore_o be_v in_o good_a earnest_n and_o let_v the_o desire_n of_o the_o soul_n rise_v up_o to_o a_o holy_a restlessness_n o_o wretched_a negligence_n that_o we_o can_v let_v the_o great_a concern_v of_o our_o soul_n lie_v at_o hazard_n all_o our_o day_n ten_o question_n to_o ask_v our_o heart_n thus_o mr._n steel_v advise_v we_o shall_v often_o commune_v with_o our_o heart_n i._o what_o have_v i_o be_v if_o now_o i_o be_o change_v i_o be_v a_o wretched_a sinner_n ii_o what_o good_a have_v i_o do_v that_o god_n may_v have_v the_o glory_n and_o i_o the_o comfort_n iii_o how_o have_v i_o do_v it_o iu._n what_o have_v i_o neglect_v the_o slothful_a servant_n be_v condemn_v who_o have_v talent_n but_o do_v no_o good_a with_o they_o what_o duty_n have_v i_o neglect_v and_o how_o many_o opportunity_n of_o do_v good_a omit_v v._o what_o state_n be_o i_o in_o be_o i_o in_o a_o gracious_a or_o sinful_a state_n in_o christ_n or_o in_o my_o sin_n if_o i_o be_o in_o christ_n he_o rule_v if_o in_o sin_n that_o reign_v vi_o what_o frame_n be_o i_o in_o be_o i_o in_o a_o gracious_a or_o worldly_a frame_n of_o heart_n vii_o what_o do_v i_o be_o i_o in_o my_o call_v and_o in_o the_o way_n of_o my_o duty_n be_o i_o now_o do_v the_o will_n of_o god_n viii_o whither_o be_o i_o go_v towards_o heaven_n or_o hell_n every_o moment_n i_o take_v a_o step_n to_o one_o of_o they_o ix_o how_o far_o be_o i_o on_o my_o way_n to_o heaven_n x._o what_o shall_v i_o do_v to_o be_v save_v salvation_n be_v to_o be_v have_v how_o shall_v i_o attain_v it_o his_o covenant_n with_o god_n o_o most_o dreadful_a god_n for_o the_o passion_n of_o thy_o son_n i_o beseech_v thou_o accept_v of_o thy_o poor_a prodigal_n now_o prostrate_v himself_o at_o thy_o door_n i_o have_v fall_v from_o thou_o by_o my_o iniquiry_n and_o be_o by_o nature_n a_o son_n of_o death_n 〈◊〉_d a_o thousand-fold_n more_o the_o child_n of_o hell_n by_o 〈◊〉_d wicked_a practice_n but_o of_o thy_o infinite_a grace_n thou_o have_v promise_v mercy_n to_o i_o in_o christ_n if_o i_o will_v but_o turn_v to_o thou_o with_o all_o my_o heart_n therefore_o upon_o the_o call_v of_o thy_o gospel_n i_o be_o now_o come_v in_o and_o throw_v down_o my_o weapon_n submit_v myself_o to_o thy_o mercy_n and_o because_o thou_o require_v as_o the_o condition_n of_o my_o peace_n with_o thou_o that_o i_o shall_v put_v away_o my_o idol_n and_o be_v at_o defiance_n with_o all_o thy_o enemy_n which_o i_o acknowledge_v i_o have_v wicked_o side_v with_o against_o thou_o i_o here_o from_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o heart_n renounce_v they_o all_o firm_o covenant_v with_o thou_o not_o to_o allow_v myself_o in_o any_o know_a sin_n but_o to_o use_v conscientious_o all_o the_o mean_n that_o i_o know_v thou_o have_v prescribe_v for_o the_o death_n and_o utter_a destruction_n of_o all_o my_o corruption_n and_o whereas_o i_o have_v former_o inordinate_o and_o idolatrous_o let_v out_o my_o affection_n upon_o the_o world_n i_o do_v here_o resign_v my_o heart_n to_o thou_o that_o make_v it_o humble_o protest_v before_o thy_o glorious_a majesty_n that_o it_o be_v the_o firm_a resolution_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o that_o i_o do_v unfeigned_o desire_v grace_n from_o thou_o that_o when_o thou_o shall_v call_v i_o hereunto_o i_o may_v practice_v this_o my_o resolution_n through_o thy_o assistance_n to_o forsake_v all_o that_o be_v dear_a unto_o i_o in_o this_o world_n rather_o than_o to_o turn_v from_o thou_o to_o the_o way_n of_o sin_n and_o that_o i_o will_v watch_v against_o all_o its_o temptation_n whether_o of_o prosperity_n or_o adversity_n lest_o they_o shall_v withdraw_v my_o heart_n from_o thou_o beseech_v thou_o also_o to_o help_v i_o against_o the_o temptation_n of_o satan_n to_o who_o wicked_a suggestion_n i_o resolve_v by_o thy_o grace_n never_o to_o yield_v myself_o a_o servant_n and_o because_o my_o own_o righteousness_n be_v but_o menstruous_a rag_n i_o renounce_v all_o confidence_n therein_o and_o acknowledge_v that_o i_o be_o of_o myself_o a_o hopeless_a helpless_a undo_v creature_n without_o righteousness_n or_o strength_n and_o for_o as_o much_o as_o thou_o have_v of_o thy_o bottomless_a mercy_n offer_v most_o gracious_o to_o i_o wretched_a sinner_n to_o be_v again_o my_o god_n through_o christ_n if_o i_o will_v accept_v of_o thou_o i_o call_v heaven_n and_o earth_n to_o record_v this_o day_n that_o i_o do_v here_o solemn_o avouch_v thou_o for_o the_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o with_o all_o possible_a veneration_n bow_v the_o neck_n of_o my_o soul_n under_o the_o foot_n of_o thy_o most_o sacred_a majesty_n i_o do_v here_o take_v thou_o the_o lord_n jehovah_n father_n son_n and_o holy_a ghost_n for_o my_o portion_n and_o chief_a good_a and_o do_v give_v up_o myself_o body_n and_o soul_n for_o thy_o servant_n promise_v and_o vow_v to_o serve_v thou_o in_o holiness_n and_o righteousness_n all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n and_o since_o thou_o have_v appoint_v the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n the_o only_a mean_n of_o come_v unto_o thou_o i_o do_v here_o upon_o the_o bend_a knee_n of_o my_o soul_n accept_v of_o he_o as_o the_o only_a new_a and_o live_a way_n by_o which_o sinner_n may_v have_v access_n to_o thou_o and_o do_v here_o solemn_o join_v myself_o in_o a_o marriage-covenant_n to_o he_o o_o bless_a jesus_n i_o come_v to_o thou_o hungry_a and_o hardly_o bestead_v poor_a and_o wretched_a and_o miserable_a and_o blind_a and_o naked_a a_o most_o loathsome_a pollute_a wretch_n a_o guilty_a condemn_a malefactor_n unworthy_a for_o ever_o to_o wash_v the_o foot_n of_o the_o servant_n of_o my_o lord_n much_o more_o to_o be_v solemn_o marry_v to_o the_o king_n of_o glory_n but_o since_o such_o be_v thy_o unparalleled_a love_n i_o do_v here_o with_o all_o my_o power_n accept_v thou_o and_o do_v take_v thou_o for_o my_o head_n and_o husband_n for_o better_a for_o worse_o for_o rich_a for_o poor_a for_o all_o time_n and_o condition_n to_o love_v and_o honour_n and_o obey_v thou_o before_o all_o other_o and_o this_o to_o the_o death_n i_o embrace_v thou_o in_o all_o thy_o office_n i_o renounce_v my_o own_o worthiness_n and_o do_v here_o avow_v thou_o for_o the_o lord_n my_o righteousness_n i_o renounce_v my_o own_o wisdom_n and_o do_v here_o take_v thou_o for_o my_o only_a guide_n i_o renounce_v my_o own_o will_n and_o take_v thy_o will_n for_o my_o law_n and_o since_o thou_o have_v tell_v i_o that_o i_o must_v suffer_v if_o i_o will_v reign_v i_o do_v here_o covenant_n with_o thou_o to_o take_v my_o lot_n as_o it_o fall_v with_o thou_o and_o by_o thy_o grace_n assist_v to_o run_v all_o hazard_n with_o thou_o very_o purpose_v that_o neither_o life_n nor_o death_n shall_v part_v between_o thou_o and_o i_o and_o because_o thou_o have_v be_v please_v to_o give_v i_o thy_o holy_a law_n as_o the_o rule_n of_o my_o life_n and_o the_o way_n in_o which_o i_o shall_v walk_v to_o thy_o kingdom_n i_o do_v here_o willing_o put_v my_o neck_n under_o thy_o yoke_n and_o set_v my_o shoulder_n to_o thy_o burden_n and_o subscribe_v to_o all_o thy_o law_n as_o holy_a just_a and_o good_a i_o solemn_o take_v they_o as_o the_o rule_n of_o my_o word_n thought_n and_o action_n promise_v that_o though_o my_o flesh_n contradict_v and_o rebel_v yet_o i_o will_v endeavour_v to_o order_n and_o govern_v my_o whole_a life_n according_a to_o thy_o direction_n and_o will_v not_o allow_v myself_o in_o the_o neglect_n of_o any_o thing_n that_o i_o know_v to_o be_v my_o duty_n only_o because_o through_o the_o frailty_n of_o my_o flesh_n i_o be_o subject_a to_o many_o fail_n i_o be_o bold_a humble_o to_o protest_v that_o unallow_v miscarriage_n contrary_a to_o the_o settle_a bent_n and_o resolution_n of_o my_o heart_n shall_v not_o make_v void_a this_o covenant_n for_o so_o thou_o have_v say_v now_o almighty_a god_n searcher_n of_o all_o heart_n thou_o know_v that_o i_o make_v this_o covenant_n with_o thou_o this_o day_n without_o any_o know_a guile_n or_o reservation_n beseech_v thou_o that_o if_o thou_o espie_v any_o flaw_n
thankful_a it_o be_v not_o grace_n that_o be_v deny_v thou_o but_o only_a comfort_n she_o that_o mourn_v that_o her_o belove_a be_v go_v and_o have_v withdraw_v himself_o be_v a_o spouse_n still_o she_o have_v a_o interest_n in_o the_o bridegroom_n though_o she_o see_v he_o not_o disease_n feel_v in_o the_o soul_n seldom_o prove_v mortal_a desire_v after_o christ_n and_o sanctification_n be_v a_o sign_n of_o no_o utter_a rejection_n the_o soul_n that_o can_v true_o desire_v mercy_n be_v not_o total_o exclude_v mercy_n o_o let_v tempt_v trouble_v soul_n then_o be_v comfort_v the_o bless_a god_n have_v a_o compassionate_a open_a ear_n to_o all_o sensible_a self-bemoaning_a sinner_n jer._n 31._o 18._o i_o have_v sure_o hear_v ephraim_n be_v moan_v himself_o there_o be_v none_o such_o but_o shall_v be_v hear_v of_o god_n they_o shall_v be_v love_v of_o god_n that_o loath_a themselves_o they_o shall_v be_v acquit_v of_o god_n that_o condemn_v themselves_o his_o merciful_a ear_n be_v still_o open_a to_o self-bemoaning_a sinner_n when_o once_o a_o sinner_n come_v to_o himself_o he_o be_v not_o far_o from_o god_n isa_n 40._o 27._o why_o say_v thou_o o_o jacob_n and_o speak_v o_o israel_n my_o way_n be_v hide_v from_o the_o lord_n and_o my_o judgement_n be_v pass_v over_o from_o my_o god_n the_o inward_a thought_n of_o many_o sensible_a sinner_n be_v that_o god_n have_v cast_v they_o off_o and_o shut_v his_o door_n of_o mercy_n upon_o they_o and_o will_v never_o concern_v himself_o more_o in_o their_o salvation_n such_o unkind_a thought_n we_o be_v apt_a to_o have_v of_o a_o good_a god_n when_o conscience_n bring_v our_o sin_n to_o a_o bitter_a remembrance_n well_o now_o say_v god_n why_o say_v thou_o o_o jacob_n the_o word_n be_v a_o reproof_n for_o distrust_n of_o god_n why_o do_v thou_o think_v and_o speak_v so_o unkind_o of_o i_o as_o that_o i_o shall_v cast_v thou_o out_o of_o my_o care_n and_o thought_n my_o way_n be_v hide_v from_o the_o lord._n what_o be_v the_o meaning_n of_o that_o why_o god_n take_v no_o notice_n of_o my_o wretchedness_n to_o commiserate_v my_o condition_n and_o relieve_v i_o he_o care_v not_o what_o become_v of_o i_o or_o my_o way_n and_o my_o way_n be_v hide_v that_o he_o can_v help_v i_o and_o my_o judgement_n be_v pass_v from_o my_o god_n that_o be_v there_o be_v a_o sentence_n of_o death_n pass_v on_o i_o there_o be_v no_o escape_n but_o see_v how_o compassionate_a the_o lord_n speak_v why_o do_v thou_o say_v so_o poor_a soul_n i_o be_o not_o thoughtless_a and_o regardless_o of_o thou_o as_o thou_o say_v v._n 28_o 29._o have_v thou_o not_o know_v and_o hear_v the_o everlasting_a god_n give_v power_n to_o the_o faint_a and_o to_o they_o that_o have_v no_o might_n increase_v strength_n such_o as_o be_v despond_v and_o hopeless_a in_o themselves_o god_n raise_v they_o up_o they_o that_o wait_v on_o the_o lord_n shall_v renew_v their_o strength_n god_n in_o his_o time_n will_v refresh_v every_o weary_a soul_n iii_o the_o covenant_n of_o grace_n be_v god_n free_a offer_n and_o promise_v of_o life_n and_o salvation_n by_o christ_n to_o all_o sinner_n that_o shall_v believe_v in_o he_o it_o be_v a_o gracious_a and_o firm_a obligation_n in_o which_o god_n do_v make_v over_o himself_o and_o all_o his_o goodness_n in_o christ_n to_o all_o believer_n it_o be_v a_o great_a matter_n for_o god_n to_o be_v our_o god_n in_o special_a covenant_n when_o he_o say_v i_o will_v be_v your_o god_n it_o be_v as_o if_o he_o shall_v have_v say_v i_o will_v bestow_v my_o self_n upon_o you_o what_o i_o be_o i_o be_o for_o thou_o my_o spirit_n my_o comfort_n my_o son_n my_o love_n my_o goodness_n my_o assistance_n my_o happiness_n it_o be_v thou_o my_o holiness_n shall_v make_v you_o holy_a my_o wisdom_n shall_v make_v you_o wise_a my_o righteousness_n shall_v make_v you_o righteous_a whatsoever_o a_o god_n can_v do_v for_o his_o people_n i_o will_v do_v for_o you_o you_o shall_v have_v all_o thing_n needful_a for_o you_o all_o thing_n desirable_a all_o that_o you_o can_v expect_v from_o a_o god_n expect_v it_o from_o i_o i_o will_v be_v gracious_a to_o pass_v by_o thy_o unworthiness_n i_o will_v be_v merciful_a to_o pardon_v thy_o sin_n i_o will_v be_v holiness_n to_o change_v thy_o nature_n i_o will_v be_v assistance_n to_o thou_o in_o duty_n i_o will_v be_v comfort_n to_o thou_o in_o trouble_n i_o will_v be_v wisdom_n to_o cure_v thy_o folly_n i_o will_v be_v plenty_n to_o thy_o want_n i_o will_v be_v strength_n to_o thy_o weakness_n i_o will_v give_v a_o blessing_n to_o your_o estate_n i_o will_v be_v providence_n as_o to_o your_o danger_n i_o will_v be_v preservation_n as_o to_o your_o person_n i_o will_v be_v salvation_n to_o your_o soul_n i_o will_v be_v your_o sun_n and_o shield_n i_o will_v be_v your_o recompense_n and_o exceed_v great_a reward_n i_o will_v be_v a_o god_n unto_o you_o i_o will_v be_v your_o god_n and_o guide_v unto_o death_n and_o your_o portion_n for_o ever_o this_o be_v for_o god_n to_o be_v our_o god_n in_o special_a covenant_n iv._o there_o may_v be_v faith_n where_o there_o be_v no_o assurance_n remember_v it_o o_o my_o soul_n for_o thy_o comfort_n and_o make_v a_o right_a use_n of_o it_o thou_o may_v be_v a_o true_a believer_n though_o thou_o be_v but_o a_o weak_a believer_n nay_o though_o thou_o be_v ready_a to_o think_v thyself_o no_o believer_n it_o be_v one_o thing_n to_o have_v a_o interest_n in_o christ_n and_o salvation_n and_o another_o to_o know_v it_o it_o be_v possible_a for_o many_o a_o good_a christian_a to_o trust_v in_o god_n and_o believe_v in_o jesus_n christ_n and_o yet_o in_o time_n of_o desertion_n and_o temptation_n he_o may_v not_o know_v it_o a_o soul_n under_o the_o eclipse_n of_o god_n countenance_n may_v think_v himself_o in_o a_o lose_a condition_n as_o david_n do_v i_o say_v i_o be_o cut_v off_o from_o before_o thy_o eye_n psal_n 31._o 22._o but_o it_o be_v not_o so_o for_o god_n then_o hear_v the_o voice_n of_o his_o supplication_n a_o man_n may_v true_o fear_v the_o lord_n and_o obey_v the_o voice_n of_o his_o servant_n and_o yet_o may_v walk_v in_o darkness_n and_o see_v no_o light_n isa_n 50._o 10._o zion_n say_v the_o lord_n have_v forsake_v i_o my_o god_n have_v forget_v i_o isa_n 49._o 14._o but_o it_o be_v not_o so_o there_o may_v be_v faith_n of_o adherence_n where_o there_o be_v not_o faith_n of_o evidence_n the_o soul_n may_v cleave_v fast_o to_o christ_n and_o say_v if_o i_o perish_v i_o will_v perish_v at_o thy_o foot_n hope_v wait_a trust_v though_o thou_o kill_v i_o yet_o i_o will_v trust_v in_o thou_o though_o i_o know_v not_o whether_o thou_o love_v i_o yet_o i_o will_v endeavour_v to_o love_v thou_o there_o may_v be_v faith_n without_o assurance_n otherways_o true_a justify_v faith_n may_v be_v lose_v for_o assurance_n be_v with_o some_o quite_o lose_v at_o least_o for_o a_o time_n but_o true_a faith_n can_v be_v lose_v it_o may_v decay_v but_o not_o fail_v i_o have_v pray_v for_o thou_o that_o thy_o faith_n fail_v not_o say_v christ_n to_o peter_n this_o prayer_n he_o make_v for_o all_o believer_n they_o also_o that_o have_v some_o assurance_n of_o their_o salvation_n have_v it_o not_o in_o the_o same_o measure_n there_o may_v be_v a_o good_a measure_n of_o assurance_n though_o not_o full_a assurance_n there_o be_v a_o probable_a assurance_n i_o mean_v when_o a_o christian_a compare_v his_o heart_n and_o life_n with_o the_o example_n of_o christ_n and_o rule_n of_o the_o word_n find_v that_o though_o he_o have_v some_o reason_n to_o fear_v lest_o he_o shall_v be_v a_o hypocrite_n yet_o he_o see_v more_o cause_n to_o hope_v than_o to_o fear_n when_o after_o he_o have_v search_v himself_o make_v a_o impartial_a trial_n of_o himself_o he_o come_v to_o this_o conclusion_n though_o i_o be_o not_o as_o confident_a i_o shall_v go_v to_o heaven_n as_o i_o be_o that_o there_o be_v a_o heaven_n yet_o i_o bless_v god_n i_o see_v more_o ground_n to_o hope_v that_o my_o sin_n be_v pardon_v and_o that_o i_o be_o in_o a_o state_n of_o salvation_n than_o to_o fear_v it_o be_v otherwise_o when_o i_o reason_v the_o case_n with_o my_o soul_n i_o have_v more_o argument_n for_o i_o than_o against_o i_o and_o can_v say_v if_o i_o die_v this_o moment_n it_o be_v not_o only_o possible_a but_o probable_a that_o i_o shall_v be_v save_v this_o i_o call_v a_o probable_a assurance_n there_o may_v be_v doubt_n and_o fear_n where_o there_o be_v this_o assurance_n because_o doubt_n and_o fear_n do_v not_o always_o proceed_v from_o the_o weakness_n of_o grace_n but_o sometime_o from_o the_o strength_n of_o temptation_n a_o man_n that_o have_v