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speak_v so_o sublime_o of_o the_o most_o hide_a mystery_n that_o it_o be_v a_o thing_n miraculous_a and_o yet_o further_o while_o she_o be_v speak_v in_o the_o person_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n or_o of_o christ_n or_o of_o herself_o her_o voice_n will_v be_v change_v in_o such_o sort_n that_o even_o without_o understand_v the_o word_n one_o may_v have_v know_v that_o they_o be_v diverse_a person_n which_o discourse_v by_o her_o tongue_n so_o many_o be_v the_o spiritual_a intelligence_n which_o our_o lord_n communicate_v unto_o she_o in_o this_o rapt_v as_o that_o be_v set_v down_o by_o the_o religious_a as_o she_o produce_v they_o they_o make_v a_o just_a volume_n whereof_o be_v compile_v a_o addition_n to_o the_o three_o part_n of_o her_o life_n but_o to_o give_v some_o pattern_n of_o the_o aforesaid_a extasis_fw-la i_o say_v that_o on_o the_o vigil_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n which_o come_v that_o year_n upon_o the_o eight_o of_o june_n she_o be_v call_v by_o the_o eternal_a father_n in_o these_o word_n come_v my_o spouse_n the_o rest_n &_o yet_o the_o impulse_n of_o my_o spirit_n whereupon_o she_o remain_v sudden_o abstract_v from_o her_o sense_n &_o say_v ecce_fw-la venio_fw-la venio_fw-la citò_fw-la citò_fw-la venio_fw-la and_o have_v be_v a_o while_n in_o contemplation_n she_o begin_v thus_o to_o speak_v in_o the_o person_n of_o the_o incarnate_a word_n before_o thou_o enter_v into_o the_o admirable_a knowledge_n of_o my_o holy_a ghost_n i_o will_v make_v know_v to_o thou_o what_o i_o mean_v to_o do_v with_o thou_o therefore_o be_v attentive_a here_o she_o stay_v a_o while_n and_o then_o resume_v the_o discourse_n still_o in_o the_o person_n of_o the_o eternal_a word_n know_v that_o until_o the_o day_n where_o you_o there_o below_o do_v celebrate_v that_o feast_n whereon_o thou_o do_v so_o intrinsical_o knit_v thyself_o to_o i_o and_o i_o in_o so_o great_a abundance_n give_v myself_o to_o thou_o which_o be_v mean_v of_o the_o profession_n which_o the_o 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be_v attentive_a at_o the_o hour_n when_o i_o die_v upon_o the_o cross_n thou_o shall_v receive_v the_o spirit_n which_o i_o render_v to_o my_o eternal_a father_n and_o although_o thou_o feel_v it_o not_o yet_o shall_v it_o ever_o descend_v on_o thou_o and_o as_o the_o creature_n can_v live_v without_o a_o hart_n so_o i_o can_v be_v without_o thou_o whensoever_o thou_o shall_v have_v the_o knowledge_n of_o thy_o being_n nothing_o which_o as_o long_o as_o it_o remain_v in_o thou_o thou_o may_v well_o be_v confident_a that_o thou_o shall_v ever_o be_v unite_v to_o i_o and_o my_o peace_n shall_v be_v with_o thou_o although_o it_o may_v seem_v to_o thou_o that_o thou_o be_v in_o continual_a war_n because_o in_o this_o probation_n which_o i_o will_v make_v of_o thou_o many_o infernal_a lion_n will_v come_v forth_o against_o thou_o beat_v thou_o and_o give_v thou_o torment_n nor_o shall_v they_o only_o strive_v to_o beat_v thou_o exterior_o but_o also_o interior_o with_o great_a fury_n yet_o they_o shall_v not_o be_v permit_v by_o i_o to_o have_v power_n to_o conquer_v thou_o but_o thou_o shall_v ever_o be_v store_v with_o this_o same_o grace_n of_o i_o which_o now_o thou_o have_v nay_o how_o much_o more_o they_o come_v towards_o thou_o with_o violence_n so_o much_o more_o shall_v my_o favourable_a assistance_n towards_o thou_o superabound_v although_o it_o be_v to_o be_v without_o any_o feel_a comfort_n of_o thy_o to_o this_o she_o answer_v cheerful_o sufficit_fw-la mihi_fw-la gratia_fw-la tua_fw-la and_o after_o have_v be_v a_o while_n in_o silence_n the_o discourse_n of_o the_o incarnate_a word_n follow_v on_o with_o great_a earnestness_n and_o abundance_n of_o speech_n to_o this_o effect_n there_o will_v not_o be_v want_v such_o as_o i_o have_v appoint_v to_o favour_v thou_o this_o be_v say_v by_o her_o patron-saint_n in_o bring_v to_o thou_o spiritual_a food_n and_o thou_o shall_v speedy_o fly_v under_o the_o shadow_n of_o my_o purity_n not_o make_v any_o motion_n 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who_o be_v blind_a in_o himself_o true_a in_o speak_v of_o thou_o and_o of_o thy_o creature_n he_o that_o shall_v converse_v with_o the_o creature_n without_o give_v scandal_n or_o impediment_n to_o thy_o love._n the_o meek_a the_o peaceable_a and_o the_o patient_a after_o these_o and_o many_o such_o other_o intercourse_n of_o heavenly_a speech_n which_o as_o have_v be_v say_v be_v note_v in_o a_o book_n apart_o she_o add_v this_o in_o the_o person_n of_o the_o only_o beget_v word_n fear_v nothing_o my_o dear_a child_n for_o i_o will_v ever_o remain_v with_o thou_o and_o this_o probation_n which_o i_o be_o please_v to_o make_v of_o thou_o shall_v be_v a_o evident_a sign_n of_o the_o certainty_n of_o the_o great_a gift_n and_o grace_n which_o i_o have_v grant_v thou_o beside_o it_o shall_v be_v a_o mean_a of_o bring_v thou_o up_o to_o great_a perfection_n if_o thou_o shall_v be_v environ_v by_o great_a battle_n not_o know_v which_o way_n to_o turn_v thyself_o nor_o conceave_a that_o i_o be_o with_o thou_o yet_o know_v indeed_o that_o by_o i_o thou_o shall_v never_o be_v abandon_v to_o these_o word_n she_o answer_v sufficit_fw-la mihi_fw-la gratia_fw-la tua_fw-la &_o in_o excessu_fw-la mentis_fw-la mea_fw-la non_fw-la movebor_fw-la in_o aeternum_fw-la and_o thus_o have_v humble_v herself_o in_o the_o divine_a presence_n after_o many_o other_o discourse_n she_o yield_v herself_o ready_o to_o the_o sovereign_a will_n of_o god_n by_o say_v omnia_fw-la possum_fw-la in_o te_fw-la she_o enter_v into_o the_o lake_n of_o lion_n that_o be_v to_o say_v into_o the_o battle_n against_o the_o devil_n and_o understand_v that_o she_o be_v to_o suffer_v for_o the_o good_a of_o soul_n chap._n 15._o in_o this_o very_a rapt_v upon_o the_o day_n of_o the_o solemnity_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n she_o be_v conduct_v in_o height_n of_o spirit_n and_o the_o lake_n of_o lion_n be_v show_v whereinto_o short_o she_o be_v to_o enter_v this_o be_v easy_o know_v by_o her_o word_n &_o her_o become_v 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a_o body_n that_o have_v no_o part_n wherewith_o to_o help_v itself_o and_o as_o the_o trunk_n of_o a_o barren_a tree_n for_o hear_v that_o thy_o grace_n be_v retire_v from_o i_o i_o can_v help_v myself_o after_o this_o it_o be_v tell_v she_o by_o almighty_a god_n that_o she_o not_o be_v able_a to_o help_v her_o neighbour_n otherwise_o he_o be_v please_v that_o she_o shall_v do_v it_o by_o support_v of_o pain_n and_o trouble_n for_o they_o whereupon_o she_o add_v the_o curse_a heretic_n nor_o can_v i_o name_v they_o in_o this_o action_n otherwise_o will_v be_v a_o occasion_n to_o i_o of_o most_o bitter_a pain_n for_o although_o they_o do_v once_o receive_v thy_o holy_a ghost_n yet_o have_v they_o not_o continue_v to_o possess_v it_o and_o so_o many_o proud_a spouse_n of_o thy_o which_z have_v rebel_v from_o thou_o will_v provoke_v these_o rage_a lion_n to_o come_v against_o i_o for_o the_o increase_n of_o my_o anguish_n &_o affliction_n but_o at_o last_o o_o word_n if_o those_o wretched_a soul_n will_v return_v to_o thou_o i_o will_v esteem_v myself_o happy_a and_o a_o thousand_o time_n content_v that_o the_o devil_n shall_v come_v unto_o my_o torment_n i_o see_v i_o be_o round_o about_o environ_v with_o such_o cruel_a spectacle_n that_o i_o can_v contain_v myself_o while_o i_o hear_v their_o hideous_a noise_n from_o extend_v also_o my_o own_o voice_n and_o if_o i_o shall_v be_v forbid_v to_o do_v so_o exterior_o yet_o i_o can_v never_o be_v so_o abridge_v interior_o but_o that_o i_o will_v exclaim_v so_o long_o to_o god_n as_o that_o i_o will_v be_v hear_v at_o last_o these_o devilish_a spirit_n o_o my_o jesus_n will_v fain_o abolish_v all_o faith_n annihilate_v humility_n disgrace_n purity_n and_o in_o lieu_n of_o my_o resignation_n unto_o thou_o will_v place_v in_o my_o hart_n a_o will_n pervert_v nor_o do_v i_o marvel_v that_o since_o they_o can_v bring_v this_o to_o pass_v they_o return_v to_o i_o with_o so_o great_a fury_n and_o rage_n and_o strive_v to_o make_v so_o hideous_a noise_n to_o the_o end_n that_o i_o may_v not_o hear_v the_o order_n which_o come_v down_o to_o i_o from_o my_o god_n it_o happen_v to_o i_o as_o to_z one_o that_o expect_v death_n who_o have_v no_o less_o affliction_n when_o he_o see_v the_o instrument_n which_o be_v to_o cut_v off_o his_o head_n than_o he_o have_v while_o he_o be_v in_o the_o act_n of_o suffering_n i_o see_v well_o o_o my_o lord_n that_o if_o thou_o shall_v retire_v the_o power_n of_o thy_o hand_n these_o enemy_n will_v deprive_v i_o of_o life_n they_o will_v fain_o tear_v out_o my_o bowel_n which_o make_v they_o run_v against_o i_o with_o such_o fury_n but_o my_o spouse_n have_v first_o place_v in_o i_o his_o own_o spirit_n and_o his_o hart_n withal_o those_o other_o gift_n and_o grace_n and_o do_v after_o place_v i_o in_o this_o probation_n and_o tentation_n resolve_v that_o i_o shall_v suffer_v for_o the_o creature_n to_o the_o end_n that_o they_o may_v be_v convert_v to_o he_o i_o remember_v well_o o_o word_n of_o certain_a shadow_n which_o be_v give_v i_o by_o thou_o under_o which_o i_o be_v to_o fly_v for_o some_o space_n of_o time_n that_o i_o may_v loose_v the_o hear_n of_o these_o horrible_a roar_n and_o fearful_a noise_n and_o the_o see_v of_o this_o spectacle_n of_o devil_n which_o be_v so_o hideous_a o_o eternal_a word_n thou_o have_v bring_v i_o into_o a_o great_a lake_n wherein_o i_o know_v not_o which_o way_n to_o turn_v myself_o where_o i_o may_v not_o see_v &_o hear_v so_o many_o fierce_a beast_n which_o run_v with_o open_a mouth_n towards_o the_o devour_a of_o i_o what_o therefore_o shall_v i_o do_v it_o will_v be_v best_o that_o i_o take_v courage_n and_o do_v myself_o honour_v by_o it_o make_v a_o virtue_n of_o necessity_n that_o be_v by_o glory_v in_o the_o pain_n i_o endure_v redimo_fw-la i_o à _fw-la caluminantibus_fw-la me_fw-it generatio_fw-la mea_fw-la ablata_fw-la est_fw-la &_o convoluta_fw-la à _fw-la i_o oportet_fw-la i_o gloriari_fw-la 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