and_o yet_o be_v far_o from_o the_o wrath_n of_o god_n minist_n 1._o those_o who_o never_o have_v feel_v wrath_n but_o always_o peace_n 2._o those_o who_o have_v feel_v the_o tentation_n of_o despair_n and_o doubt_v yet_o afterward_o have_v obtain_v peace_n 3._o such_o who_o feel_v a_o hardness_n of_o heart_n and_o can_v have_v no_o present_a relief_n schol._n who_o be_v they_o who_o have_v never_o feel_v wrath_n but_o always_o peace_n minister_n those_o who_o god_n at_o their_o first_o conversion_n have_v call_v with_o much_o sweetness_n 16.14.15_o in_o melt_v their_o heart_n by_o little_a and_o little_a for_o their_o sin_n next_o 8.39_o such_o on_o who_o god_n have_v pour_v out_o a_o sense_n of_o his_o love_n work_v in_o they_o a_o persuasion_n of_o mercy_n with_o joy_n renew_v the_o mind_n work_v a_o study_n of_o holiness_n a_o hatred_n of_o sin_n and_o a_o love_n of_o righteousness_n schol._n who_o be_v they_o who_o have_v find_v the_o tentation_n of_o despair_n and_o doubt_v and_o 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present_a feel_n 3._o to_o wait_v until_o he_o come_v though_o we_o can_v feel_v his_o presence_n if_o it_o be_v until_o the_o last_o gasp_n schol._n what_o if_o in_o the_o mean_a time_n there_o be_v no_o other_o sense_n but_o of_o sting_a torment_n and_o wrath_n minist_n yet_o must_v we_o make_v claim_n unto_o his_o promise_n god_n in_o wrath_n beseech_v he_o to_o remember_v mercy_n say_v unto_o he_o with_o job_n lord_n although_o thou_o will_v slay_v we_o yet_o will_v we_o trust_v in_o thou_o thus_o wait_v until_o he_o come_v not_o be_v hasty_a and_o then_o in_o his_o own_o good_a time_n he_o will_v appear_v to_o our_o comfort_n schol._n who_o be_v they_o who_o feel_v no_o wrath_n yet_o remain_v under_o the_o heavy_a wrath_n of_o god_n minist_n first_o such_o as_o have_v no_o effectual_a call_n from_o god_n 2._o such_o as_o have_v never_o have_v any_o true_a sense_n of_o the_o bitterness_n and_o grievousnesse_n of_o sin_n 9_o 3._o such_o as_o be_v not_o move_v with_o the_o love_n 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who_o through_o the_o custom_n of_o sin_n 19_o be_v harden_v so_o as_o with_o greediness_n they_o run_v forward_o in_o all_o outward_a and_o inward_a impiety_n 6.20_o god_n for_o the_o present_a have_v give_v they_o over_o to_o a_o reprobate_a sense_n schol._n how_o far_o may_v one_o proceed_v in_o show_n of_o true_a profession_n and_o yet_o be_v under_o the_o wrath_n of_o god_n minist_n first_o he_o may_v have_v a_o literal_a knowledge_n 2._o a_o temporal_a and_o historical_a faith_n yea_o and_o the_o faith_n of_o miracle_n 3._o he_o may_v have_v a_o sorrow_n for_o sin_n 4._o he_o may_v have_v a_o desire_n of_o heaven_n 5._o he_o may_v taste_v of_o the_o good_a word_n of_o god_n and_o of_o the_o power_n of_o the_o
and_o cherish_v god_n careful_o in_o their_o heart_n 4._o to_o make_v his_o child_n earnest_a in_o beg_v the_o grace_n of_o sanctification_n yea_o above_n the_o grace_n of_o feeling_n that_o their_o election_n may_v be_v confirm_v so_o much_o the_o sure_a unto_o they_o thereby_o scho._n do_v the_o lord_n suffer_v his_o saint_n after_o they_o have_v fall_v to_o sleep_v in_o sin_n minist_n not_o always_o but_o in_o the_o end_n he_o waken_v they_o schol._n what_o be_v the_o first_o thing_n which_o god_n work_v in_o they_o at_o their_o waken_n minist_n 42.21.22_o he_o work_v in_o they_o first_o a_o sight_n second_o a_o sense_n of_o sin_n last_o a_o fear_n of_o punishment_n sc._n what_o manner_n of_o sight_n work_v he_o minist_n 27.28_o first_o he_o let_v they_o see_v the_o heinousness_n of_o their_o sin_n in_o have_v offend_v so_o glorious_a dreadful_a and_o terrible_a a_o majesty_n then_o he_o aggravate_v their_o sin_n so_o much_o the_o more_o in_o that_o it_o be_v against_o the_o light_n of_o conscience_n and_o feeling_n after_o their_o effectual_a call_n 19_o therefore_o the_o wrath_n of_o god_n to_o be_v so_o much_o the_o more_o incense_a against_o their_o sin_n last_o he_o show_v they_o to_o be_v guilty_a and_o by_o their_o own_o confession_n 36.31_o judge_n and_o condemn_v they_o to_o be_v worthy_a of_o hell_n fire_n schl._n what_o manner_n of_o sense_n be_v that_o the_o child_n of_o god_n have_v be_v thus_o waken_v 8._o min._n first_o a_o sensible_a torment_n next_o a_o absence_n of_o the_o holy_a spirit_n and_o his_o sin_n stand_v up_o betwixt_o he_o and_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n scho._n what_o manner_n of_o torment_n be_v that_o which_o he_o feel_v min._n the_o torture-racking_a conscience_n draw_v he_o before_o god_n tribunal_n accuse_v convict_a and_o condemn_v he_o begin_v to_o be_v a_o terrible_a executioner_n in_o vex_v and_o toss_v the_o soul_n with_o the_o intolerable_a sting_n of_o a_o unspeakable_a wrath_n schol._n what_o in_o the_o mean_a time_n do_v the_o soul_n in_o such_o a_o estate_n minist_n it_o suffer_v under_o intolerable_a weight_n and_o burden_n doubt_n 88.15.16_o heavy_a and_o conflict_a battle_n not_o be_v able_a to_o find_v any_o issue_n 3.4_o schol._n what_o manner_n of_o fear_n be_v that_o which_o the_o child_n of_o god_n have_v be_v waken_v minist_n 143.7_o a_o fear_n of_o eternal_a rejection_n from_o god_n next_o a_o fear_n that_o his_o effectual_a call_n which_o he_o once_o imagine_v to_o be_v good_a be_v but_o counterfeit_n further_o a_o fear_n that_o the_o holy_a spirit_n will_v never_o come_v again_o either_o to_o comfort_v or_o sanctify_v he_o in_o that_o measure_n he_o former_o enjoy_v it_o 51.11_o last_o a_o fear_n that_o either_o his_o sin_n will_v not_o be_v forgive_v he_o or_o at_o least_o will_v bring_v some_o great_a shame_n and_o punishment_n upon_o he_o scho._n in_o this_o estate_n what_o be_v the_o disposition_n of_o the_o child_n of_o god_n towards_o sin_n minist_n 42.6_o he_o wish_v from_o the_o bottom_n of_o his_o heart_n he_o have_v not_o so_o sin_v next_o he_o have_v indignation_n at_o sin_n not_o so_o much_o for_o the_o torment_n he_o feel_v as_o that_o he_o have_v offend_v so_o good_a and_o gracious_a a_o god_n yea_o he_o abhor_v himself_o for_o his_o sin_n sch._n what_o learn_v we_o from_o this_o manner_n of_o waken_n of_o god_n saint_n minist_n first_o that_o god_n will_v not_o suffer_v his_o child_n to_o sleep_v for_o ever_o in_o their_o sin_n next_o that_o sin_n have_v a_o most_o terrible_a fearful_a countenance_n last_o 42.22_o that_o though_o sin_n lurk_v for_o a_o while_n and_o seem_v pleasant_a to_o the_o taste_n yet_o it_o bring_v with_o it_o the_o extreme_a sorrow_n in_o the_o world_n yea_o if_o god_n but_o waken_v any_o for_o a_o evil_a thought_n it_o prove_v more_o fearful_a than_o all_o the_o torment_n in_o the_o earth_n schol._n which_o be_v the_o sin_n that_o trouble_v the_o child_n of_o god_n most_o min._n those_o sin_n which_o he_o commit_v after_o his_o effectual_a call_n schol._n but_o will_v the_o lord_n suffer_v his_o child_n to_o lie_v still_o thus_o under_o terror_n and_o doubt_v minist_n no._n schol._n what_o and_o how_o work_v he_o in_o his_o saint_n after_o that_o in_o this_o manner_n he_o have_v beat_v they_o down_o minist_n 11.12_o first_o he_o soften_v the_o heart_n in_o a_o bitter_a sorrow_n in_o the_o abundance_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o prayer_n and_o mourning_n to_o pour_v out_o the_o heart_n before_o he_o with_o many_o tear_n and_o strong_a cry_n next_o by_o degree_n in_o process_n of_o time_n he_o pour_v out_o first_o a_o hope_n than_o a_o sense_n and_o persuasion_n of_o the_o remission_n of_o sin_n cleanse_v the_o soul_n from_o guiltiness_n through_o his_o most_o precious_a blood_n all-sufficient_a merit_n and_o satisfaction_n be_v apprehend_v and_o apply_v by_o faith_n which_o he_o then_o increase_v and_o strengthen_v to_o see_v and_o lay_v hold_v upon_o the_o promise_n of_o life_n 143.8.9.10.11_o then_o hereupon_o he_o bring_v comfort_n and_o more_o assure_a persuasion_n unto_o the_o soul_n confirm_v and_o settle_v the_o weary_a and_o trouble_a heart_n with_o the_o spirit_n of_o peace_n last_o he_o give_v the_o tremble_a soul_n a_o free_a access_n unto_o his_o countenance_n 4.5.6_o with_o boldness_n to_o draw_v near_o unto_o the_o throne_n of_o grace_n and_o cry_v abba_n father_n so_o that_o mark_v how_o fearful_a it_o be_v before_o of_o his_o dreadful_a majesty_n and_o how_o it_o be_v perplex_v in_o doubt_v of_o his_o love_n it_o will_v now_o find_v he_o a_o thousand_o time_n more_o comfortable_a and_o more_o sweet_a in_o pour_v out_o of_o his_o love_n and_o the_o sense_n thereof_o by_o the_o spirit_n of_o adoption_n and_o joy_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n sch._n what_o fruit_n bring_v this_o forth_o mini._n in_o respect_n of_o god_n the_o child_n of_o god_n will_v love_v he_o better_o than_o ever_o he_o do_v before_o etc._n the_o lord_n will_v also_o be_v most_o precious_a in_o his_o eye_n and_o the_o promise_n will_v be_v as_o meat_n and_o drink_v unto_o the_o soul_n next_o in_o regard_n of_o sin_n he_o will_v hate_v and_o abhor_v it_o more_o than_o ever_o he_o do_v and_o will_v be_v very_o wary_a of_o the_o deceitfulness_n thereof_o that_o it_o snare_n and_o entice_v he_o not_o in_o the_o like_a manner_n again_o 42.6_o further_o he_o will_v abhor_v himself_o in_o regard_n of_o sin_n account_v of_o himself_o as_o of_o the_o most_o base_a and_o miserable_a wretch_n in_o the_o world_n last_o he_o will_v labour_v instant_o 31.1_o in_o season_n and_o out_o of_o season_n to_o make_v a_o covenant_n with_o the_o eye_n the_o tongue_n and_o all_o the_o member_n of_o the_o body_n watch_v also_o diligent_o over_o the_o heart_n and_o affection_n that_o as_o in_o former_a time_n they_o riot_n not_o in_o licentiousness_n schol._n yet_o i_o will_v know_v whether_o one_o feel_v the_o bitterness_n of_o his_o sin_n and_o mourning_n for_o the_o same_o &_o have_v a_o sense_n of_o the_o forgiveness_n thereof_o with_o a_o full_a purpose_n never_o to_o do_v so_o anymore_o by_o god_n grace_n if_o yet_o for_o all_o this_o he_o can_v fall_v into_o the_o same_o sin_n again_o minist_n yea_o certain_o in_o some_o sort_n schol_n how_o so_o minist_n first_o because_o in_o man_n there_o be_v a_o predominant_a sin_n of_o natural_a inclination_n which_o have_v more_o power_n over_o a_o man_n 12.1_o than_o any_o other_o sin_n which_o cleave_v as_o close_v unto_o he_o as_o the_o skin_n of_o his_o body_n this_o sin_n for_o the_o most_o part_n lead_v and_o over-ruleth_a a_o man_n well_o it_o may_v be_v that_o with_o much_o strife_n sorrow_n mourning_n and_o with_o many_o tear_n he_o may_v obtain_v grace_n to_o see_v hate_v strive_v against_o it_o 7.25_o and_o in_o part_n to_o slay_v it_o but_o do_v what_o he_o can_v he_o will_v hardly_o get_v it_o altogether_o abolish_v again_o because_o satan_n the_o cruel_a enemy_n of_o our_o salvation_n still_o provoke_v the_o child_n of_o god_n chief_o with_o the_o enticement_n of_o that_o overrule_a sin_n work_v after_o this_o manner_n first_o he_o watch_v diligent_o for_o a_o opportunity_n to_o catch_v we_o 22.31_o when_o we_o be_v not_o upon_o our_o guard_n or_o when_o be_v careless_a we_o think_v and_o forth_o ourselves_o that_o we_o have_v sufficient_o overcome_v and_o master_v such_o a_o sin_n and_o that_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v trouble_v therewith_o any_o more_o then_o 2.11_o have_v thus_o at_o unaware_o surprise_v we_o we_o be_v unarm_v and_o not_o able_a to_o resist_v his_o enticement_n aid_v by_o our_o inward_a foe_n reenter_v into_o we_o again_o by_o degree_n so_o cause_v we_o to_o fall_v by_o little_a and_o little_a for_o first_o he_o cast_v a_o fair_a smooth_a veil_n over_o
7.9_o yet_o that_o in_o his_o own_o good_a time_n he_o will_v come_v again_o so_o that_o as_o true_o as_o i_o feel_v a_o absence_n desire_v his_o presence_n he_o will_v as_o sure_o satisfy_v our_o desire_n let_v we_o feel_v his_o bless_a presence_n last_o 42.3_o though_o we_o be_v but_o as_o bruise_a reed_n and_o smoke_a flax_n have_v nothing_o to_o boast_v of_o either_o of_o holiness_n or_o feeling_n as_o the_o least_o of_o all_o saint_n yet_o that_o god_n will_v neither_o break_v off_o our_o longing_n nor_o quench_v out_o desire_n and_o so_o that_o final_o we_o be_v in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n notwithstanding_o all_o hellish_a tentation_n scholar_n how_o shall_v we_o try_v whether_o that_o be_v the_o true_a light_n or_o not_o which_o in_o the_o time_n of_o feeling_n be_v feel_v minister_n if_o we_o mark_v in_o the_o time_n of_o feeling_n wherewith_o the_o soul_n be_v fill_v schol._n what_o then_o fill_v the_o soul_n minister_n a_o unspeakable_a power_n which_o transform_v the_o 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5._o a_o sin_n against_o knowledge_n and_o conscience_n in_o great_a light_n in_o despite_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o grace_n 6._o a_o sin_n unto_o death_n schol._n why_o be_v it_o so_o diverse_o name_v mi._n because_o god_n in_o his_o word_n have_v be_v please_v so_o to_o express_v the_o same_o unto_o we_o yet_o if_o we_o list_v to_o look_v more_o near_o into_o the_o same_o we_o shall_v find_v sundry_a cause_n 1._o it_o be_v call_v 11.31_o a_o sin_n against_o the_o holy_a ghost_n not_o in_o respect_n of_o the_o substance_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n for_o the_o essence_n of_o the_o three_o person_n be_v all_o in_o one_o and_o the_o same_o god_n nor_o yet_o in_o respect_n of_o the_o person_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n for_o whatsoever_o be_v do_v against_o any_o one_o of_o the_o person_n be_v do_v against_o all_o three_o but_o it_o be_v say_v to_o be_v do_v against_o the_o holy_a spirit_n because_o do_v against_o the_o immediate_a effect_n work_n and_o office_n of_o the_o holy_a spirit_n to_o wit_n against_o the_o shine_a light_n of_o the_o say_a spirit_n this_o light_n be_v indeed_o a_o effect_n of_o the_o father_n and_o of_o the_o son_n as_o well_o as_o of_o the_o holy_a spirit_n yet_o it_o be_v say_v to_o be_v against_o the_o holy_a ghost_n only_o because_o it_o fight_v against_o a_o special_a immediate_a work_n of_o he_o against_o that_o light_n and_o work_v of_o grace_n kindle_v by_o he_o 2._o it_o be_v call_v a_o blasphemy_n a_o impious_a blasphemy_n extreme_o wicked_a 1.13_o there_o be_v diverse_a blasphemy_n a_o blasphemy_n of_o man_n a_o blasphemy_n direct_o against_o the_o son_n of_o man_n a_o blasphemy_n impious_a wicked_a such_o as_o be_v paul_n blasphemy_n
in_o their_o sorrow_n 88.31_o miniis_fw-la bitterness_n and_o a_o terror_n sch._n whence_o proceed_v this_o fearful_a estate_n to_o their_o sense_n minist_n partly_o from_o a_o feel_n of_o the_o absence_n of_o god_n 32.3_o and_o hardness_n of_o their_o heart_n and_o partly_o in_o feel_v the_o sting_n of_o a_o guilty_a conscience_n schol._n how_o may_v one_o know_v himself_o to_o be_v in_o a_o good_a estate_n under_o such_o a_o disposition_n 23.24_o minister_n first_o by_o his_o former_a experience_n that_o once_o he_o do_v feel_v the_o sweetness_n of_o god_n favour_n next_o if_o in_o some_o measure_n how_o small_a soever_o he_o desire_v above_o all_o thing_n in_o the_o earth_n the_o wont_a presence_n of_o god_n last_o if_o he_o wait_v and_o hope_n above_o hope_n that_o he_o who_o have_v once_o begin_v will_v never_o repent_v he_o resolve_v that_o though_o god_n shall_v slay_v he_o yet_o he_o will_v trust_v in_o he_o schol._n what_o may_v we_o learn_v from_o this_o sort_n of_o disposition_n minister_n first_o that_o by_o nature_n we_o be_v separate_v from_o god_n and_o god_n from_o us._n next_o that_o all_o god_n child_n until_o grace_n make_v a_o difference_n be_v as_o hard_o heart_a as_o any_o reprobat_n schol._n see_v the_o wicked_a you_o say_v may_v have_v a_o desire_n of_o heaven_n what_o difference_n be_v there_o betwixt_o the_o desire_n of_o the_o elect_a and_o reprobate_a minist_n the_o desire_n of_o the_o reprobat_fw-la or_o of_o those_o in_o the_o state_n of_o reprobation_n before_o call_v 23.10_o be_v mere_o natural_a such_o as_o be_v esaw_n desire_v of_o the_o birth_n right_a and_o balaams_n desire_n of_o the_o death_n of_o the_o righteous_a but_o the_o desire_n of_o the_o elect_n be_v spiritual_a and_o heavenly_a schol._n 63.6_o how_o may_v we_o know_v when_o our_o desire_n be_v spiritual_a min._n first_o by_o the_o acknowledge_v of_o that_o which_o we_o chief_o desire_v next_o of_o the_o end_n wherefore_o we_o desire_v it_o schol._n what_o be_v that_o which_o chief_o we_o must_v desire_v minister_n 3.16.17_o god_n in_o christ_n to_o dwell_v in_o our_o soul_n here_o by_o his_o spirit_n to_o sanctify_v and_o quicken_v we_o to_o raise_v we_o up_o again_o in_o the_o great_a day_n 3.21_o transform_v and_o make_v our_o vile_a body_n like_v unto_o christ_n glorious_a body_n to_o reign_v with_o he_o for_o ever_o schol._n for_o what_o end_n shall_v we_o desire_v this_o minist_n even_o for_o god_n himself_o the_o end_n of_o all_o 116.1_o schol._n in_o desire_v heaven_n what_o shall_v we_o chief_o respect_v minister_n not_o so_o much_o our_o own_o ease_n 23._o as_o that_o be_v free_v from_o sin_n in_o holiness_n and_o joy_n with_o unspeakable_a love_n as_o a_o vessel_n full_a of_o glory_n we_o may_v praise_v and_o magnify_v god_n for_o evermore_o schol._n see_v the_o reprobate_n may_v have_v a_o certain_a sort_n of_o feeling_n how_o may_v we_o discern_v whether_o our_o feeling_n be_v that_o sense_n which_o be_v peculiar_a to_o the_o child_n of_o god_n or_o not_o minist_n by_o the_o spirit_n of_o adoption_n schol._n which_o be_v the_o sure_a mark_n and_o fruit_n of_o adoption_n in_o we_o min._n 14.7_o persuasion_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n towards_o we_o of_o our_o election_n redemption_n and_o glorification_n joy_n flow_v from_o this_o feel_n with_o increase_n of_o persuasion_n and_o peace_n which_o pass_v all_o understanding_n schol._n yet_o what_o if_o the_o soul_n have_v no_o such_o disposition_n minist_n yet_o must_v we_o look_v back_o unto_o what_o we_o have_v feel_v next_o we_o must_v see_v what_o we_o desire_v to_o feel_v and_o further_o what_o we_o hope_v to_o feel_v scho._n how_o may_v one_o know_v whether_o as_o yet_o he_o have_v ever_o have_v any_o feel_n minist_n 36.7.8.9_o he_o must_v look_v if_o ever_o in_o lay_v sure_a hold_n of_o christ_n his_o soul_n have_v be_v fill_v with_o a_o spiritual_a sweetness_n above_o all_o the_o pleasure_n of_o nature_n which_o in_o some_o measure_n have_v leave_v a_o seal_n and_o stamp_n of_o heaven_n in_o the_o soul_n that_o have_v thus_o enable_v he_o to_o discern_v betwixt_o a_o absence_n and_o a_o presence_n of_o god_n so_o that_o he_o be_v always_o joyful_a 88.14_o when_o he_o have_v any_o feel_n of_o god_n love_n by_o the_o contrary_a ever_o sad_a and_o heavy_a for_o his_o absence_n schol._n yet_o see_v the_o wicked_a may_v have_v a_o inward_a restrain_v virtue_n to_o curb_v sin_n and_o a_o outward_a conformity_n with_o the_o law_n of_o god_n how_o may_v it_o be_v know_v whether_o one_o have_v a_o restrain_v virtue_n only_o 29.9_o or_o the_o renew_v virtue_n of_o the_o holy_a spirit_n min._n this_o be_v most_o easy_a to_o discern_v scho._n explain_v your_o meaning_n minist_n the_o first_o internal_a work_n of_o the_o spirit_n be_v a_o sight_n of_o sin_n which_o offend_v the_o majesty_n of_o god_n a_o sight_n also_o of_o god_n who_o have_v be_v offend_v next_o a_o secret_a sorrow_n proceed_v from_o a_o hatred_n to_o sin_n with_o a_o love_n of_o that_o glorious_a offend_a majesty_n provoke_v then_o a_o true_a desire_n to_o be_v free_v of_o sin_n with_o a_o love_a heart_n and_o earnest_a desire_n to_o love_n god_n for_o himself_o further_o also_o a_o purpose_n and_o resolution_n to_o consecrate_v our_o secret_a thought_n will_n 39.1_o and_o affection_n unto_o his_o holiness_n as_o a_o live_a sacrifice_n a_o strife_n also_o against_o all_o the_o pleasure_n and_o occasion_n of_o sin_n 7.11_o with_o a_o endeavour_n to_o keep_v our_o thought_n and_o affection_n steadfast_o upon_o god_n and_o his_o will_n last_o as_o the_o mind_n natural_o strais_fw-fr from_o god_n the_o will_n be_v perverse_a and_o the_o affection_n disorder_v if_o there_o be_v then_o a_o sting_n in_o the_o conscience_n bring_v true_a remorse_n these_o be_v sign_n of_o the_o operation_n of_o the_o true_a spirit_n by_o his_o renew_v grace_n schol._n see_v the_o work_n of_o the_o spirit_n be_v a_o thing_n sensible_a which_o be_v feel_v in_o his_o renew_v virtue_n in_o the_o slaughter_n of_o sin_n and_o reformation_n unto_o newness_n of_o life_n what_o if_o all_o this_o while_n one_o feel_v nothing_o but_o the_o growth_n of_o sin_n hardness_n of_o heart_n and_o blindness_n of_o mind_n min._n 7.14_o first_o he_o must_v see_v if_o he_o be_v able_a to_o discern_v his_o sin_n blindness_n and_o hardness_n of_o heart_n 2._o look_v if_o he_o secret_o mislike_v the_o same_o 3._o mark_v if_o he_o will_v willing_o wish_v it_o remove_v 1.4_o 4._o consider_v if_o he_o have_v desire_v to_o use_v or_o any_o way_n wish_v he_o may_v use_v the_o mean_n though_o to_o his_o feel_n he_o be_v no_o way_n able_a to_o use_v the_o same_o 3.26.32.33_o 5._o look_v back_o if_o at_o any_o time_n god_n former_o do_v ever_o give_v he_o grace_n to_o believe_v in_o he_o for_o that_o present_a without_o any_o sense_n or_o feeling_n even_o when_o not_o be_v able_a to_o pray_v in_o languor_n patience_n and_o hope_n he_o wait_v for_o god_n presence_n 6._o consider_v if_o after_o earnest_a prayer_n and_o sorrow_n for_o sin_n at_o any_o time_n he_o have_v find_v light_n joy_n peace_n a_o persuasion_n of_o mercy_n with_o some_o softness_n of_o heart_n the_o power_n of_o sin_n abate_v last_o if_o he_o find_v this_o continual_o before_o his_o eye_n the_o good_a which_o i_o will_v i_o do_v not_o 7.19_o but_o the_o evil_n which_o i_o will_v not_o that_o do_v i._n scholar_n declare_v unto_o i_o then_o some_o mark_n of_o the_o renew_v spirit_n min._n a_o love_n of_o god_n and_o his_o image_n for_o his_o own_o cause_n be_v goodness_n and_o love_n itself_o 51.19_o then_o a_o unfeigned_a hatred_n of_o that_o which_o offend_v god_n last_o a_o mislike_v of_o our_o own_o evil_a heart_n with_o a_o true_a thirst_n and_o hunger_n to_o have_v it_o make_v better_a sc._n can_v a_o reprobat_fw-la have_v these_o mark_n minist_n no._n scholar_n how_o so_o minist_n because_o they_o be_v the_o mark_n of_o election_n and_o be_v wrought_v by_o the_o spirit_n of_o adoption_n which_o a_o reprobate_n can_v receive_v schol._n who_o be_v they_o who_o feel_v the_o wrath_n of_o god_n and_o shall_v also_o perish_v in_o the_o same_o wrath_n minist_n those_o who_o god_n in_o his_o judgement_n wake_v give_v the_o conscience_n over_o to_o find_v the_o deluge_n of_o torment_n 2.16_o the_o sting_n of_o reprobation_n withdraw_v from_o they_o his_o spirit_n either_o to_o seek_v mercy_n true_o or_o to_o believe_v that_o there_o be_v any_o mercy_n for_o they_o so_o despair_v schol._n when_o do_v the_o lord_n waken_v such_o wicked_a man_n to_o feel_v these_o horror_n of_o conscience_n minist_n some_o soon_o some_o late_a 27.4_o some_o long_o before_o their_o death_n as_o cain_n some_o again_o immediate_o before_o their_o death_n as_o judas_n scho._n what_o kind_n of_o sense_n
and_o rise_v again_o 10.9_o confess_v he_o also_o with_o his_o mouth_n shall_v be_v save_v schol._n what_o manner_n of_o work_v be_v that_o which_o the_o lord_n work_v with_o the_o soul_n when_o he_o reveal_v himself_o unto_o it_o mini._n first_o he_o remove_v darkness_n etc._n terror_n and_o that_o which_o press_v down_o and_o doubt_v next_o he_o pour_v forth_o upon_o the_o soul_n 1._o a_o sensible_a light_n 2._o a_o persuade_a light_n 3._o a_o comfortable_a light_n schol._n explain_v your_o meaning_n in_o so_o say_v minister_n i_o mean_v this_o 5.5_o that_o when_o god_n work_v with_o the_o soul_n he_o will_v pour_v out_o the_o light_n of_o his_o spirit_n upon_o the_o same_o show_v clear_o unto_o the_o party_n that_o he_o love_v he_o and_o through_o love_n have_v choose_v redeem_v and_o in_o heaven_n will_v crown_v he_o this_o light_n bring_v joy_n unspeakable_a and_o glorious_a 2.9.10_o this_o light_n bring_v that_o peace_n of_o god_n which_o pass_v all_o understanding_n and_o during_o this_o light_n we_o feel_v that_o which_o the_o eye_n never_o see_v the_o ear_n hear_v neither_o can_v enter_v into_o the_o heart_n of_o man_n to_o think_v of_o schol._n how_o shall_v we_o try_v in_o such_o a_o experience_n whether_o that_o light_n we_o feel_v be_v the_o true_a light_n or_o not_o minister_n first_o we_o must_v try_v how_o the_o soul_n be_v dispose_v before_o that_o light_n come_v next_o try_v what_o sort_n of_o feeling_n we_o have_v in_o that_o light_n last_o we_o must_v mark_v what_o stamp_n it_o leave_v in_o the_o heart_n and_o how_o we_o be_v dispose_v after_o feeling_n schol._n what_o manner_n of_o disposition_n shall_v be_v in_o the_o soul_n before_o that_o light_n come_v minist_n a_o darkness_n deadness_n 28.65.66_o and_o senslesnes_n with_o torment_n at_o sometime_o doubt_v and_o terror_n a_o sensible_a absence_n of_o the_o power_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n either_o to_o comfort_n or_o sanctify_v schol._n do_v every_o man_n feel_v this_o estate_n minist_n no._n schol._n who_o then_o be_v they_o who_o feel_v this_o miserable_a estate_n of_o the_o soul_n minist_n none_o in_o a_o manner_n but_o the_o child_n of_o god_n schol._n how_o may_v one_o know_v when_o the_o sight_n of_o his_o misery_n be_v wrought_v by_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n minist_n because_o it_o be_v a_o effect_n of_o his_o work_n 2.37_o schol._n show_v i_o that_o mini._n it_o be_v a_o light_n which_o must_v show_v unto_o we_o our_o darkness_n 5.13_o and_o it_o be_v a_o presence_n which_o make_v we_o to_o feel_v and_o see_v a_o absence_n scholar_n yet_o go_v on_o persuade_v i_o i_o entreat_v a_o you_o more_o full_o thereof_o minist_n 3.6_o look_v then_o first_o into_o the_o experience_n of_o the_o saint_n of_o god_n saint_n paul_n see_v not_o himself_o until_o god_n call_v he_o yea_o he_o think_v himself_o without_o reproof_n next_o let_v any_o one_o who_o be_v call_v look_v unto_o his_o own_o experience_n 7.9_o and_o he_o shall_v see_v there_o be_v a_o time_n when_o he_o have_v no_o feel_n of_o that_o miserable_a estate_n now_o when_o we_o shall_v find_v a_o change_n nature_n can_v be_v the_o worker_n thereof_o for_o nature_n have_v not_o that_o light_n to_o discover_v unto_o we_o our_o misery_n 1._o we_o be_v dead_a in_o sin_n by_o nature_n and_o blind_a also_o how_o be_v it_o then_o possible_a for_o a_o dead_a man_n to_o see_v or_o feel_v so_o that_o it_o must_v needs_o be_v a_o light_n surpass_v a_o natural_a light_n which_o show_v unto_o we_o our_o misery_n again_o if_o it_o be_v only_a nature_n which_o discover_v unto_o we_o our_o misery_n see_v nature_n retain_v still_o her_o own_o natural_a operation_n what_o be_v the_o cause_n that_o there_o be_v a_o time_n when_o we_o do_v neither_o see_v ourselves_o nor_o our_o misery_n for_o if_o the_o sight_n of_o our_o misery_n be_v natural_a we_o ever_o will_v have_v see_v the_o same_o so_o because_o it_o be_v of_o grace_n blind_a nature_n can_v never_o show_v the_o same_o 8.26_o therefore_o the_o sight_n of_o our_o misery_n be_v by_o the_o special_a work_n of_o the_o holy_a spirit_n scholller_n but_o cain_n and_o diverse_a other_o wicked_a man_n do_v feel_v their_o own_o misery_n how_o may_v we_o discern_v betwixt_o their_o sight_n and_o that_o of_o god_n child_n minister_n the_o sight_n which_o wicked_a man_n have_v of_o themselves_o and_o their_o misery_n it_o come_v after_o some_o evil_a deed_n do_v be_v guilty_a and_o thus_o convict_v of_o the_o crime_n by_o their_o natural_a conscience_n next_o 4.13.14_o they_o see_v the_o punishment_n and_o only_a therefore_o tremble_v further_o their_o fear_n be_v for_o the_o punishment_n only_o as_o cain_n be_v as_o also_o they_o feel_v not_o with_o any_o continuance_n the_o miserable_a state_n of_o their_o soul_n to_o strive_v against_o it_o to_o subdue_v it_o unto_o true_a remorse_n neither_o can_v they_o see_v the_o wickedness_n of_o their_o heart_n or_o true_o desire_v to_o have_v it_o renew_v or_o bring_v under_o a_o heavenly_a sense_n of_o god_n love_n and_o favour_n scho._n show_v unto_o i_o also_o how_o see_v the_o child_n of_o god_n his_o miserable_a heart_n minister_n the_o chief_a thing_n the_o child_n of_o god_n look_v into_o 51.10_o be_v the_o heart_n next_o he_o feel_v the_o evil_a disposition_n thereof_o further_o he_o be_v grieve_v with_o the_o sense_n of_o the_o same_o then_o he_o thirst_v to_o have_v it_o make_v better_a rather_o than_o to_o obtain_v the_o whole_a world_n and_o all_o the_o pleasure_n thereof_o 3.17_o there_o will_v also_o be_v still_o a_o strife_n at_o the_o least_o in_o his_o desire_n and_o will_n last_o at_o sometime_o god_n child_n will_v feel_v his_o heart_n make_v better_a than_o usual_a that_o be_v 61.10_o he_o will_v feel_v the_o hardness_n blindness_n unquietness_n thereof_o somewhat_o abate_v and_o light_n softness_n and_o peace_n in_o place_n thereof_o so_o that_o when_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n be_v in_o the_o heart_n god_n child_n feel_v it_o when_o it_o 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