be_v easy_a in_o the_o middle_n and_o become_v most_o sweet_a in_o the_o end_n 54._o thou_o will_v find_v thyself_o far_o from_o perfection_n if_o thou_o do_v not_o find_v god_n in_o every_o thing_n 55._o know_v that_o pure_a perfect_a and_o essential_a love_n consist_v in_o the_o cross_n in_o self-denial_n and_o resignation_n in_o perfect_a humility_n in_o poverty_n of_o spirit_n and_o in_o a_o mean_a opinion_n of_o thyself_o 56._o in_o the_o time_n of_o strong_a temptation_n desertion_n and_o desolation_n it_o be_v necessary_a for_o thou_o to_o get_v close_o into_o thy_o centre_n that_o thou_o may_v only_o look_v at_o and_o contemplate_v god_n who_o keep_v his_o throne_n and_o his_o abode_n in_o the_o bottom_n of_o thy_o soul._n 57_o thou_o will_v find_v impatience_n and_o bitterness_n of_o heart_n to_o grow_v from_o the_o depth_n of_o sensible_a empty_a and_o mortify_a love_n 58._o true_a love_n be_v know_v with_o its_o effect_n when_o the_o soul_n be_v profound_o humble_v and_o desire_n to_o be_v true_o mortify_v and_o despise_v 59_o many_o there_o be_v who_o however_o they_o have_v be_v dedicate_v to_o prayer_n yet_o have_v no_o relish_n of_o god_n because_o in_o the_o end_n of_o their_o prayer_n they_o be_v neither_o mortify_v nor_o attend_v upon_o god_n any_o long_o for_o obtain_v that_o peaceable_a and_o continual_a attend_v it_o be_v necessary_a to_o get_v a_o great_a purity_n of_o mind_n and_o heart_n great_a peace_n of_o soul_n and_o a_o universal_a resignation_n 60._o to_o the_o simple_a and_o the_o mortify_a the_o recreation_n of_o the_o sense_n be_v a_o sort_n of_o death_n they_o never_o go_v to_o it_o unless_o compel_v by_o necessity_n and_o edification_n of_o their_o neighbour_n 61._o the_o bottom_n of_o our_o soul_n you_o will_v know_v be_v the_o place_n of_o our_o happiness_n there_o the_o lord_n show_v we_o wonder_n there_o we_o ingulf_n and_o lose_v ourselves_o in_o the_o immense_a ocean_n of_o his_o infinite_a goodness_n in_o which_o we_o keep_v fix_v and_o unmoveable_a there_o there_o reside_v the_o incomparable_a fruition_n of_o our_o soul_n and_o that_o eminent_a and_o sweet_a rest_n of_o it_o a_o humble_a and_o resign_v soul_n which_o be_v come_v to_o this_o bottom_n seek_v no_o more_o than_o mere_o to_o please_v god_n and_o the_o holy_a and_o love_a spirit_n teach_v it_o every_o thing_n with_o his_o sweet_a and_o enliven_a unction_n 62._o among_o the_o saint_n there_o be_v some_o gigantic_a one_o who_o continual_o suffer_v with_o patience_n indisposition_n of_o body_n of_o which_o god_n take_v great_a care_n but_o high_a and_o sovereign_a be_v their_o gift_n who_o by_o the_o strength_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n suffer_v both_o internal_a and_o external_a cross_n with_o content_a and_o resignation_n this_o be_v that_o sort_n of_o holiness_n so_o much_o the_o more_o rare_a as_o it_o be_v more_o precious_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o god._n the_o spiritual_a one_o which_o walk_v this_o way_n be_v rare_a because_o there_o be_v few_o in_o the_o world_n who_o do_v total_o deny_v themselves_o to_o follow_v christ_n crucify_v with_o simpleness_n and_o bareness_n of_o spirit_n through_o the_o loansom_n and_o thorny_a way_n of_o the_o cross_n without_o make_v reflection_n upon_o themselves_o 63._o a_o life_n of_o self-denial_n be_v above_o all_o the_o miracle_n of_o the_o saint_n and_o it_o do_v not_o know_v whether_o it_o be_v alive_a or_o dead_a lose_v or_o gain_v whether_o it_o agree_v or_o resist_v this_o be_v the_o true_a resign_v life_n but_o although_o it_o shall_v be_v a_o long_a time_n before_o thou_o come_v to_o this_o state_n and_o thou_o shall_v think_v not_o to_o have_v make_v one_o step_n towards_o it_o yet_o affright_v not_o thyself_o at_o this_o for_o god_n use_v to_o bestow_v upon_o a_o soul_n that_o blessing_n in_o one_o moment_n which_o be_v deny_v it_o for_o many_o year_n before_o 64._o he_o that_o desire_v to_o suffer_v blindfold_a without_o the_o comfort_n of_o god_n or_o the_o creature_n be_v get_v too_o far_o onward_o to_o be_v able_a to_o resist_v unjust_a accusation_n which_o his_o enemy_n make_v against_o he_o even_o in_o the_o most_o dreadful_a and_o interior_a desolation_n 65._o the_o spiritual_a man_n that_o live_v by_o god_n and_o in_o he_o be_v inward_o content_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o his_o adversity_n because_o the_o cross_n and_o affliction_n be_v his_o life_n and_o delight_n 66._o tribulation_n be_v a_o great_a treasure_n wherewith_o god_n honour_v those_o that_o be_v he_o in_o this_o life_n therefore_o evil_a man_n be_v necessary_a for_o those_o that_o be_v good_a and_o so_o be_v the_o devil_n themselves_o which_o by_o afflict_v we_o do_v try_v to_o ruin_v we_o but_o instead_o of_o do_v we_o harm_n they_o do_v we_o the_o great_a good_a imaginable_a 67._o there_o must_v be_v tribulation_n to_o make_v a_o man_n life_n acceptable_a to_o god_n without_o it_o it_o be_v like_o the_o body_n without_o the_o soul_n the_o soul_n without_o grace_n the_o earth_n without_o the_o sun._n 68_o with_o the_o wind_n of_o tribulation_n god_n separate_v in_o the_o floor_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o chaff_n from_o the_o corn._n 69._o when_o god_n crucify_v in_o the_o inmost_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n no_o creature_n be_v able_a to_o comfort_v it_o nay_o comfort_n be_v but_o grievous_a and_o bitter_a cross_n to_o it_o and_o if_o it_o be_v well-instructed_n in_o the_o law_n and_o discipline_n of_o the_o way_n of_o pure_a love_n in_o the_o time_n of_o great_a desolation_n and_o inward_a trouble_n it_o ought_v not_o to_o seek_v abroad_o among_o the_o creature_n for_o comfort_n nor_o lament_v itself_o with_o they_o nor_o will_v it_o be_v able_a to_o read_v spiritual_a book_n because_o this_o be_v a_o secret_a way_n of_o get_v at_o a_o distance_n from_o suffering_n 70._o those_o soul_n be_v to_o be_v pity_v who_o can_v find_v in_o their_o heart_n to_o believe_v that_o tribulation_n and_o suffer_v be_v their_o great_a blessing_n they_o who_o be_v perfect_a aught_o always_o to_o be_v desirous_a of_o die_v and_o suffer_v be_v always_o in_o a_o state_n of_o death_n and_o suffering_n vain_a be_v the_o man_n who_o do_v not_o suffer_v because_o he_o be_v bear_v to_o toil_n and_o suffering_n but_o much_o more_o the_o friend_n and_o elect_a of_o god._n 71._o undeceive_v thyself_o and_o believe_v that_o in_o order_n to_o thy_o soul_n be_v be_v total_o transform_v with_o god_n it_o be_v necessary_a for_o it_o to_o be_v lose_v and_o be_v deny_v in_o its_o life_n sense_n knowledge_n and_o power_n and_o to_o die_v live_v and_o not_o live_v die_v and_o not_o die_v suffer_v and_o not_o suffer_v resign_v up_o and_o not_o resign_v up_o itself_o without_o reflect_v upon_o any_o thing_n 72._o perfection_n in_o its_o follower_n receive_v not_o its_o glory_n but_o by_o fire_n and_o martyrdom_n grief_n torment_n punishment_n and_o contempt_n suffer_v and_o endure_v with_o gallantry_n and_o courage_n and_o he_o that_o will_v have_v some_o place_n to_o set_v his_o foot_n on_o and_o rest_v himself_o and_o do_v not_o go_v beyond_o the_o reason_n of_o reason_n and_o of_o sense_n will_v never_o get_v into_o the_o secret_a cabiner_n of_o knowledge_n though_o by_o read_v he_o may_v chance_v to_o get_v a_o taste_n and_o relish_v the_o understanding_n of_o it_o chap._n viii_o pursue_v the_o same_o matter_n 73._o you_o must_v know_v that_o the_o lord_n will_v not_o manifest_v himself_o in_o thy_o soul_n till_o it_o be_v deny_v in_o itself_o and_o dead_a in_o its_o sense_n and_o power_n nor_o will_v it_o ever_o come_v to_o this_o state_n till_o be_v perfect_o resign_v it_o resolve_v to_o be_v with_o god_n all_o alone_a make_v a_o equal_a account_n of_o gift_n and_o contempt_n light_n and_o darkness_n peace_n and_o war._n in_o sum_n that_o the_o soul_n may_v arrive_v at_o perfect_a quietness_n and_o supreme_a internal_a peace_n it_o ought_v first_o to_o die_v in_o itself_o and_o live_v only_o in_o god_n and_o for_o he_o and_o the_o more_o dead_a it_o shall_v be_v in_o itself_o the_o more_o shall_v it_o know_v god_n but_o if_o it_o do_v not_o mind_n this_o continual_a deny_v of_o itself_o and_o internal_a mortification_n it_o will_v never_o arrive_v at_o this_o state_n nor_o preserve_v god_n within_o it_o and_o than_o it_o will_v be_v continual_o subject_a to_o accident_n and_o passion_n of_o the_o mind_n such_o as_o be_v judge_v murmur_a resent_v excuse_v defend_v to_o keep_v its_o honour_n and_o reputation_n which_o be_v enemy_n to_o perfection_n peace_n and_o the_o spirit_n 74._o know_v that_o the_o diversity_n of_o state_n among_o those_o that_o be_v spiritual_a consist_v only_o in_o die_v all_o alike_o but_o in_o the_o happy_a which_o die_v continual_o god_n have_v his_o honour_n his_o blessing_n and_o delight_n here_o below_o 75._o great_a be_v the_o
i_o always_o that_o this_o be_v the_o most_o firm_a and_o secure_a disposition_n my_o spirit_n in_o the_o upper_a part_n be_v in_o a_o most_o simple_a unity_n it_o be_v not_o unite_v because_o when_o it_o will_v perform_v act_n of_o union_n which_o it_o often_o set_v about_o it_o find_v difficulty_n and_o clear_o perceive_v that_o it_o can_v unite_v but_o be_v unite_v the_o soul_n will_v make_v use_n of_o this_o union_n for_o the_o service_n of_o matin_n the_o holy_a mass_n preparation_n for_o the_o communion_n and_o thanksgiving_n and_o in_o a_o word_n it_o will_v for_o all_o thing_n be_v always_o in_o that_o most_o simple_a unity_n of_o spirit_n without_o reflect_v on_o any_o thing_n else_o to_o all_o this_o the_o holy_a father_n answer_v with_o approbation_n persuade_v she_o to_o persist_v and_o put_v she_o in_o mind_n that_o the_o repose_n of_o god_n be_v in_o peace_n 91._o another_o time_n she_o write_v to_o the_o same_o saint_n these_o word_n endeavour_v to_o do_v some_o more_o special_a act_n of_o my_o simple_a intuition_n total_a resignation_n and_o annihilation_n in_o god_n his_o divine_a goodness_n rebuke_v i_o and_o give_v i_o to_o understand_v that_o that_o proceed_v only_o from_o the_o love_n of_o myself_o and_o that_o thereby_o i_o offend_v my_o soul._n 92._o by_o this_o thou_o will_v be_v undeceive_v and_o know_v what_o be_v the_o perfect_a and_o spiritual_a way_n of_o pray_v and_o be_v advise_v what_o be_v to_o be_v do_v in_o internal_a recollection_n thou_o will_v know_v that_o to_o the_o end_n love_n may_v be_v perfect_a and_o pure_a it_o be_v expedient_a to_o retrench_v the_o multiplication_n of_o sensible_a and_o fervent_a act_n the_o soul_n continue_v quiet_a and_o rest_v in_o that_o inward_a silence_n because_o tenderness_n delight_n and_o sweet_a sentiment_n which_o the_o soul_n experience_n in_o the_o will_n be_v not_o pure_a spirit_n but_o act_n blend_v with_o the_o sensibilitie_n of_o nature_n nor_o be_v it_o perfect_a love_n but_o sensible_a pleasure_n which_o distract_v and_o hurt_v the_o soul_n as_o the_o lord_n tell_v the_o venerable_a mother_n of_o cantal_n 93._o how_o happy_a and_o how_o well_o apply_v will_v thy_o soul_n be_v if_o retreat_v within_o itself_o it_o there_o shrink_v into_o its_o own_o nothing_o both_o in_o its_o centre_n and_o superior_a part_n without_o mind_v what_o it_o do_v whether_o it_o recollect_v or_o not_o whether_o it_o walk_v well_o or_o ill_o if_o it_o operate_v or_o not_o without_o hee_v think_v or_o mind_v any_o sensible_a thing_n at_o that_o time_n the_o intellect_n believe_v with_o a_o pure_a act_n and_o the_o will_n love_v with_o perfect_a love_n without_o any_o kind_n of_o impediment_n imitate_v that_o pure_a and_o continue_a act_n of_o intuition_n and_o love_n which_o the_o saint_n say_v the_o bless_a in_o heaven_n have_v with_o no_o other_o difference_n than_o that_o they_o see_v one_o another_o there_o face_n to_o face_n and_o the_o soul_n here_o through_o the_o veil_n of_o a_o obscure_a faith._n 94._o o_o how_o few_o be_v the_o soul_n that_o attain_v to_o this_o perfect_a way_n of_o pray_v because_o they_o penetrate_v not_o enough_o into_o this_o internal_a recollection_n and_o mystical_a silence_n and_o because_o they_o strip_v not_o themselves_o of_o imperfect_a reflection_n and_o sensible_a pleasure_n o_o that_o thy_o soul_n without_o thoughtful_a advertency_n even_o of_o itself_o may_v give_v itself_o in_o prey_n to_o that_o holy_a and_o spiritual_a tranquillity_n 10._o in_o bis_fw-la confess_v lib._n 9_o cap._n 10._o and_o say_v with_o st._n austin_n sileat_fw-la anima_fw-la mea_fw-la &_o transeat_fw-la se_fw-la non_fw-la se_fw-la cogitando_fw-la let_v it_o be_v silent_a and_o do_v nothing_o forget_v itself_o and_o plung_v into_o that_o obscure_a faith_n how_o secure_a and_o safe_a will_v it_o be_v though_o it_o may_v seem_v to_o it_o that_o thus_o unactive_a and_o do_v nothing_o it_o be_v undo_v 95._o i_o will_v sum_v up_o this_o doctrine_n with_o a_o letter_n that_o the_o illuminate_v mother_n of_o cantal_n write_v to_o a_o sister_n and_o great_a servant_n of_o god_n diviâ—â—_n bounty_n say_v she_o grant_v i_o this_o way_n of_o prayer_n that_o with_o a_o single_a view_n of_o god_n i_o feel_v myself_o whole_o dedicate_v to_o he_o absorb_v and_o repose_v in_o he_o he_o still_o continue_v to_o i_o that_o grace_n though_o i_o opposâ—â—_n it_o by_o my_o infidelity_n give_v way_n to_o fear_n and_o think_v myself_o unprofitable_a in_o that_o state_n for_o which_o cause_n be_v willing_a to_o do_v something_o on_o my_o part_n 〈◊〉_d quite_o spoil_v all_o and_o to_o this_o present_a i_o find_v my_o seâ—â—_n sometime_o assault_v by_o the_o same_o fear_n though_o 〈◊〉_d in_o prayer_n but_o in_o other_o exercise_n wherein_o i_o be_o always_o willing_a to_o employ_v myself_o a_o little_a though_o i_o know_v very_o well_o that_o in_o do_v such_o act_n i_o come_v oâ—â—_n of_o my_o centre_n and_o see_v particular_o that_o that_o simpâ—â—_n view_v of_o god_n be_v my_o only_a remedy_n and_o help_v still_o 〈◊〉_d all_o trouble_n temptation_n and_o the_o event_n of_o thâ—â—_n life_n 96._o and_o certain_o will_v i_o have_v follow_v my_o internal_a impulse_n i_o shall_v have_v make_v use_n of_o no_o other_o mean_n in_o any_o thing_n whatsoever_o without_o exception_n because_o when_o i_o think_v to_o fortify_v my_o soul_n with_o art_n reason_v and_o resignation_n then_o do_v i_o expose_v myself_o to_o new_a temptation_n and_o strait_n beside_o that_o i_o can_v do_v it_o without_o great_a violence_n which_o leave_v i_o exhaust_v and_o dry_a so_o that_o it_o behoove_v i_o speedy_o to_o return_v to_o this_o simple_a resignation_n know_v that_o god_n in_o this_o manner_n let_v i_o see_v that_o it_o be_v his_o will_n and_o pleasure_n that_o a_o total_a stop_n shall_v be_v put_v to_o the_o operation_n of_o my_o soul_n because_o he_o will_v have_v all_o thing_n do_v by_o his_o own_o divine_a activity_n and_o happy_o he_o expect_v no_o more_o of_o i_o but_o this_o only_a view_n in_o all_o spiritual_a exercise_n and_o in_o all_o the_o pain_n temptation_n and_o affliction_n that_o may_v befall_v i_o in_o this_o life_n and_o the_o truth_n be_v the_o quiet_a i_o keep_v my_o spirit_n by_o this_o mean_n the_o better_a all_o thing_n succeed_v with_o i_o and_o my_o cross_n and_o affliction_n sudden_o vanish_v many_o time_n have_v my_o bless_a father_n st_n francis_n of_o sales_n assure_v i_o of_o this_o 97._o our_o late_a mother_n superior_a encourage_v i_o firm_o to_o persist_v in_o that_o way_n and_o not_o to_o fear_v any_o thing_n in_o this_o simple_a view_n of_o god_n she_o tell_v i_o that_o that_o be_v enough_o and_o that_o the_o great_a the_o nakedness_n and_o quietness_n in_o god_n be_v the_o great_a sweetness_n and_o strength_n receive_v the_o soul_n which_o ought_v to_o endeavour_v to_o become_v so_o pure_a and_o simple_a that_o it_o shall_v have_v no_o other_o support_n but_o in_o god_n alone_o 98._o to_o this_o purpose_n i_o remember_v that_o a_o few_o day_n since_o god_n communicate_v to_o i_o a_o illumination_n which_o make_v such_o a_o impression_n upon_o i_o as_o if_o i_o have_v clear_o see_v he_o and_o this_o it_o be_v that_o i_o shall_v never_o look_v upon_o myself_o but_o walk_v with_o eye_n shut_v lean_v on_o my_o belove_a without_o strive_v to_o see_v nor_o know_v the_o way_n by_o which_o he_o guide_v i_o neither_o fix_v my_o thought_n on_o any_o thing_n nor_o yet_o beg_v favour_n of_o he_o but_o as_o undo_v in_o myself_o rest_v whole_o and_o sincere_o on_o he_o hitherto_o that_o illuminate_v and_o mystical_a mistress_n who_o word_n do_v credit_n and_o authorize_v our_o doctrine_n chap._n fourteen_o declare_v how_o the_o soul_n put_v itself_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n with_o perfect_a resignation_n by_o the_o pure_a act_n of_o faith_n walk_v always_o in_o virtual_a and_o acquire_v contemplation_n 99_o thou_o will_v tell_v i_o as_o many_o soul_n have_v tell_v i_o that_o though_o by_o a_o perfect_a resignation_n thou_o have_v put_v thyself_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n by_o mean_n of_o pure_a faith_n as_o have_v be_v already_o hint_v yet_o thou_o do_v not_o merit_v nor_o emprove_v because_o thy_o thought_n be_v so_o distract_v that_o thou_o can_v not_o be_v fix_v upon_o god._n 100_o be_v not_o disconsolate_a for_o thou_o do_v not_o lose_v time_n nor_o merit_n neither_o desist_v thou_o from_o prayer_n because_o it_o be_v not_o necessary_a that_o during_o that_o whole_a time_n of_o recollection_n thou_o shall_v actual_o think_v on_o god_n it_o be_v enough_o that_o thou_o have_v be_v attentive_a in_o the_o beginning_n provide_v thou_o discontinue_v not_o thy_o purpose_n nor_o revoke_v the_o actual_a attention_n which_o thou_o have_v as_o he_o who_o hear_v mass_n and_o say_v the_o divine_a office_n perform_v
a_o mind_n to_o do_v the_o divine_a will_n with_o all_o diligence_n thou_o will_v never_o find_v the_o way_n but_o by_o the_o mean_n of_o obedience_n when_o a_o man_n be_v resolve_v to_o be_v govern_v by_o himself_o he_o be_v lose_v and_o deceive_v although_o the_o soul_n have_v very_o profound_a sign_n that_o it_o be_v a_o good_a spirit_n that_o speak_v to_o it_o yet_o unless_o it_o submit_v to_o the_o judgement_n of_o the_o spiritual_a director_n let_v it_o be_v esteem_v a_o evil_a spirit_n so_o say_v gerson_n tract_n de_fw-mi do_v verar._n num._n 19_o and_o many_o other_o master_n of_o spirit_n 78._o this_o doctrine_n will_v be_v confirm_v by_o that_o case_n of_o st._n teresa_n the_o holy_a mother_n see_v that_o lady_n catherine_n of_o cardona_n lead_v a_o life_n of_o great_a and_o rigid_a penance_n in_o the_o wilderness_n resolve_v to_o imitate_v she_o contrary_a to_o the_o judgement_n of_o her_o spiritual_a father_n who_o forbid_v she_o then_o the_o lord_n tell_v she_o in_o her_o life_n 366._o you_o must_v by_o no_o mean_n do_v this_o daughter_n the_o good_a way_n thou_o have_v secure_a thou_o see_v all_o the_o penance_n that_o catherine_n do_v but_o i_o value_v more_o thy_o obedience_n she_z from_o that_o time_n forward_o vow_v to_o obey_v her_o spiritual_a father_n and_o in_o the_o 26_o chapter_n of_o her_o life_n we_o read_v that_o god_n often_o tell_v she_o that_o she_o must_v not_o omit_v to_o acquaint_v her_o spiritual_a father_n with_o her_o whole_a soul_n and_o the_o grace_n that_o she_o have_v do_v she_o and_o that_o she_o shall_v always_o take_v care_n to_o obey_v he_o in_o every_o thing_n 79._o thou_o see_v how_o god_n have_v be_v willing_a to_o secure_v that_o heavenly_a and_o important_a doctrine_n by_o the_o holy_a scripture_n the_o saint_n the_o doctor_n by_o reason_n and_o by_o example_n a-purpose_n to_o root_n out_o altogether_o the_o deceit_n of_o the_o enemy_n chap._n xi_o when_o and_o in_o what_o thing_n this_o obedience_n do_v most_o concern_v the_o interior_a soul._n 80._o that_o you_o may_v know_v when_o obedience_n be_v most_o necessary_a i_o will_v advise_v thou_o that_o when_o thou_o shall_v find_v the_o horrible_a and_o importunate_a suggestion_n of_o the_o enemy_n great_a upon_o thou_o when_o thou_o shall_v suffer_v most_o darkness_n anguish_n drought_n forsaking_n when_o thou_o shall_v see_v thyself_o most_o beset_v with_o temptation_n wrath_n rage_n blasphemy_n lust_n curse_v tediousness_n despair_n impatience_n and_o desolation_n then_o it_o be_v most_o necessary_a for_o thou_o to_o believe_v and_o obey_v a_o expert_a director_n rest_v thyself_o on_o his_o holy_a counsel_n that_o thou_o may_v not_o suffer_v thyself_o to_o be_v carry_v away_o by_o the_o strong_a persuasion_n of_o the_o enemy_n who_o will_v make_v thou_o believe_v in_o affliction_n and_o heavy_a desertion_n that_o thou_o be_v lose_v and_o abhor_v by_o god_n that_o thou_o be_v out_o of_o his_o favour_n and_o that_o obedience_n be_v pass_v do_v thou_o any_o good_a 81._o thou_o shall_v find_v thyself_o encompass_v with_o troublesome_a scruple_n grief_n anguish_n distress_n martyrdom_n distrust_n forsaking_n of_o the_o creature_n and_o trouble_v so_o bitter_a that_o thy_o affliction_n shall_v seem_v past_a comfort_n and_o thy_o torment_n unconquerable_a o_o bless_a soul_n how_o happy_a will_v thou_o be_v if_o thou_o do_v but_o believe_v thy_o guide_n and_o subject_n thyself_o to_o he_o and_o obey_v he_o then_o will_v thou_o walk_v safe_a by_o the_o secret_a and_o interior_a way_n of_o the_o dark_a night_n although_o thou_o may_v seem_v to_o thyself_o to_o live_v in_o error_n and_o that_o thou_o be_v worse_o than_o ever_o that_o thou_o see_v nothing_o in_o thy_o soul_n but_o abomination_n and_o sign_n of_o condemnation_n 82._o thou_o will_v think_v very_o that_o thou_o be_v possess_v by_o a_o evil_a spirit_n because_o the_o sign_n of_o this_o interior_a exercise_n and_o horrible_a tribulation_n seem_v as_o bad_a as_o the_o invasion_n of_o infernal_a fury_n and_o devil_n then_o take_v care_n to_o believe_v thy_o guide_n firm_o for_o thy_o true_a happiness_n consist_v in_o thy_o obedience_n 83._o you_o must_v consider_v that_o when_o the_o devil_n see_v a_o soul_n total_o deny_v itself_o and_o submit_v to_o the_o obedience_n of_o its_o director_n he_o make_v a_o strange_a uproar_n all_o hell_n over_o to_o hinder_v this_o infinite_a good_a and_o this_o holy_a sacrifice_n full_a of_o envy_n and_o fury_n as_o he_o be_v he_o use_v to_o make_v strife_n between_o the_o two_o inspire_v the_o soul_n with_o wearisomeness_n anger_n aversion_n resistance_n distrust_n and_o hatred_n against_o the_o guide_n and_o sometime_o he_o make_v use_v of_o his_o tongue_n to_o bespatter_v he_o with_o many_o reproach_n but_o if_o this_o director_n be_v a_o expert_a one_o he_o laugh_v at_o these_o subtle_a snare_n and_o diabolical_a craftyness_n and_o however_o the_o devil_n may_v persuade_v the_o soul_n of_o such_o a_o state_n with_o divers_a suggestion_n not_o to_o believe_v their_o director_n that_o they_o may_v not_o obey_v he_o nor_o profit_n under_o he_o yet_o nevertheless_o they_o may_v believe_v and_o they_o do_v believe_v enough_o to_o obey_v though_o it_o be_v without_o their_o own_o satisfaction_n 84._o thou_o will_v ask_v of_o thy_o guide_n some_o liberty_n or_o will_v communicate_v to_o he_o some_o grace_n receive_v if_o in_o deny_v thou_o that_o liberty_n or_o reject_v that_o grace_n that_o thou_o may_v not_o grow_v proud_a thou_o withdrawe_v thyself_o from_o his_o counsel_n and_o leave_v he_o it_o be_v a_o sign_n that_o the_o favour_n be_v false_a and_o that_o thy_o spirit_n walk_v in_o danger_n but_o if_o thou_o do_v believe_v and_o obey_v although_o he_o do_v sound_o displease_v thou_o it_o be_v a_o sign_n that_o thou_o be_v alive_a and_o unmortified_a nevertheless_o thou_o will_v profit_v with_o that_o violent_a and_o work_a medicine_n because_o though_o the_o inferior_a part_n be_v trouble_v and_o do_v resent_v yet_o the_o superior_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n do_v embrace_v he_o and_o will_v be_v humble_v and_o mortify_v because_o it_o know_v that_o this_o be_v the_o divine_a will._n and_o though_o thou_o do_v not_o know_v it_o yet_o satisfaction_n go_v on_o emprove_n in_o thy_o soul_n and_o so_o do_v the_o confidence_n that_o thou_o have_v in_o thy_o guide_n 85._o the_o mean_n of_o deny_v self-love_n and_o of_o lay_v down_o one_o own_o judgement_n you_o must_v know_v be_v subject_v it_o altogether_o with_o true_a submission_n to_o the_o counsel_n of_o the_o spiritual_a physician_n if_o he_o hinder_v you_o your_o pleasure_n or_o demand_n what_o you_o desire_v not_o thousand_o of_o false_a and_o idle_a reason_n do_v present_o get_v about_o his_o holy_a counsel_n where_o it_o be_v present_o know_v that_o the_o spirit_n be_v not_o altogether_o mortify_v nor_o his_o own_o judgement_n blind_v which_o be_v irreconcilable_a enemy_n to_o a_o ready_a and_o blind_a obedience_n and_o the_o peace_n of_o the_o soul._n 86._o then_o it_o be_v necessary_a to_o overcome_v thyself_o and_o thy_o quick_a sentiment_n to_o despise_v those_o false_a and_o lie_a reason_n by_o obey_v hold_v thy_o tongue_n and_o execute_v his_o holy_a counsel_n because_o that_o be_v the_o way_n to_o root_v up_o thy_o appetite_n and_o thy_o own_o judgement_n 87._o for_o this_o reason_n the_o ancient_a father_n as_o expert_a and_o skilful_a master_n of_o spirit_n do_v exercise_v their_o disciple_n in_o divers_a and_o extraordinary_a way_n to_o some_o they_o give_v order_n to_o plant_v lettuce_n with_o the_o leave_v downward_o to_z other_o to_o water_n dry_a and_o wither_a tree_n too_o other_o to_z sew_z and_o unsew_v again_o many_o time_n their_o clothes_n all_o marvellous_a and_o effectual_a stratagem_n to_o make_v trial_n of_o simple_a obedience_n and_o to_o cut_v by_o the_o root_n the_o weed_n of_o their_o own_o will_n and_o judgement_n chap._n xii_o treat_v of_o the_o same_o 88_o know_v that_o thou_o can_v not_o fetch_v one_o step_n in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n till_o thou_o endeavoure_v to_o conquer_v this_o fierce_a enemy_n thy_o own_o judgement_n and_o the_o soul_n that_o will_v not_o know_v this_o hurt_n can_v never_o be_v cure_v a_o sick_a man_n that_o know_v his_o disease_n know_v for_o certain_a that_o although_o he_o be_v adry_n yet_o it_o be_v not_o good_a for_o he_o to_o drink_v and_o that_o the_o physic_n prescribe_v he_o though_o it_o be_v bitter_a yet_o be_v profitable_a for_o he_o therefore_o he_o believe_v not_o his_o appetite_n nor_o trust_v in_o his_o own_o judgement_n but_o yield_v himself_o up_o to_o a_o skilful_a physician_n obey_v he_o in_o every_o thing_n as_o the_o mean_n of_o his_o recovery_n and_o cure_n the_o knowledge_n that_o he_o be_v sick_a help_v he_o not_o to_o trust_v to_o himself_o but_o to_o follow_v the_o wise_a judgement_n of_o
affection_n be_v not_o perfect_a and_o ordinary_o it_o be_v give_v to_o weak_a and_o nice_a soul_n 103._o thou_o will_v say_v that_o thou_o feel_v thyself_o indispose_v without_o devotion_n without_o fervour_n without_o the_o desire_n of_o this_o divine_a food_n so_o as_o to_o ask_v how_o thou_o must_v frequent_v it_o believe_v for_o certain_a that_o none_o of_o these_o thing_n do_v hinder_v or_o hurt_v thou_o whilst_o you_o preserve_v this_o purpose_n firm_a not_o to_o sin_n and_o your_o will_n determine_v to_o avoid_v every_o offence_n and_o if_o thou_o have_v confess_v all_o those_o that_o thou_o can_v remember_v doubt_v not_o but_o that_o thou_o be_v well_o prepare_v to_o come_v to_o this_o heavenly_a and_o divine_a table_n chap._n fourteen_o pursue_v the_o same_o matter_n 104._o thou_o must_v know_v that_o in_o this_o unspeakaable_a sacrament_n christ_n be_v unite_v with_o the_o soul_n be_v make_v one_o thing_n with_o it_o who_o fineness_n and_o purity_n be_v the_o most_o profound_a and_o admirable_a and_o the_o most_o worthy_a of_o consideration_n and_o thanks_o great_a be_v the_o pureness_n of_o he_o in_o be_v make_v man_n great_a that_o of_o die_v ignominious_o on_o the_o cross_n for_o our_o sake_n but_o the_o give_v of_o himself_o whole_a and_o entire_a to_o man_n in_o this_o admirable_a sacrament_n admit_v no_o comparison_n this_o be_v singular_a favour_n and_o infinite_a pureness_n because_o there_o be_v no_o more_o to_o give_v no_o more_o to_o receive_v o_o that_o we_o can_v but_o comprehend_v he_o o_o that_o we_o can_v but_o know_v he_o 105._o that_o god_n be_v what_o he_o be_v shall_v be_v communicate_v to_o my_o soul_n that_o god_n shall_v be_v willing_a to_o make_v a_o reciprocal_a thy_fw-mi of_o union_n with_o it_o which_o of_o itself_o be_v mere_a misery_n o_o soul_n if_o we_o can_v but_o feed_v ourselves_o at_o this_o heavenly_a table_n o_o that_o we_o can_v scorch_v ourselves_o at_o this_o burn_a fire_n o_o that_o we_o can_v become_v one_o and_o the_o same_o spirit_n with_o this_o sovereign_a lord_n who_o withhold_v we_o who_o deceive_v we_o who_o take_v we_o off_o from_o burn_v like_o salamander_n in_o the_o divine_a fire_n of_o this_o holy_a table_n 106._o it_o be_v true_a o_o lord_n that_o thou_o enterest_n into_o i_o a_o miserable_a creature_n but_o true_a also_o it_o be_v that_o thou_o at_o the_o same_o time_n remain_v in_o thy_o glory_n and_o brightness_n and_o in_o thyself_o receive_v i_o therefore_o o_o my_o jesus_n in_o thyself_o in_o thy_o beauty_n and_o majesty_n i_o be_o infinite_o glad_a that_o the_o vileness_n of_o my_o soul_n can_v prejudice_v thy_o beautyâ—_n thou_o interest_n therefore_o into_o i_o without_o go_v out_o of_o thyself_o thou_o live_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o thy_o brightness_n and_o magnificence_n though_o thou_o be_v in_o my_o darkness_n and_o misery_n 107._o o_o my_o soul_n how_o great_a be_v thy_o vileness_n job_n 7_o chap._n how_o great_a thy_o poverty_n what_o be_v man_n lord_n that_o thou_o be_v so_o mindful_a of_o he_o that_o thou_o visite_a he_o and_o make_v he_o great_a what_o be_v man_n that_o thou_o put_v such_o a_o esteem_n upon_o he_o be_v willing_a to_o have_v thy_o delight_n with_o he_o and_o dwell_v personal_o with_o thy_o greatness_n in_o he_o how_o o_o lord_n can_v a_o miserable_a creature_n receive_v a_o infinite_a majesty_n humble_a thyself_o o_o my_o soul_n to_o the_o very_a depth_n of_o nothing_o confess_v thy_o unworthiness_n look_v upon_o thy_o misery_n and_o acknowledge_v the_o wonder_n of_o the_o divine_a love_n which_o suffer_v itself_o to_o be_v mean_a in_o this_o incomprehensible_a mystery_n that_o it_o may_v be_v communicate_v and_o unite_v with_o thou_o 108._o o_o the_o greatness_n of_o love_n which_o the_o amiable_a jesus_n be_v in_o a_o small_a host_n who_o be_v there_o subject_a in_o some_o manner_n to_o man_n give_v himself_o whole_a and_o sacrifice_a himself_o for_o he_o to_o the_o eternal_a father_n o_o sovereign_a lord_n keep_v back_o my_o heart_n strong_o that_o it_o may_v never_o more_o return_v to_o its_o imperfect_a liberty_n but_o all_o annihilate_v may_v die_v to_o the_o world_n and_o remain_v unite_v with_o thou_o 109._o if_o thou_o will_v get_v all_o virtue_n in_o the_o high_a degree_n come_v bless_a soul_n come_v with_o frequency_n to_o this_o most_o holy_a table_n for_o there_o they_o do_v all_o dwell_v eat_v o_o my_o soul_n of_o this_o heavenly_a food_n eat_v and_o continue_v come_v with_o humility_n come_v with_o faith_n to_o feed_v of_o this_o white_a and_o divine_a bread_n for_o this_o be_v the_o mark_n of_o soul_n and_o from_o hence_o love_n draw_v its_o arrow_n say_v come_v o_o soul_n and_o eat_v this_o savoury_a food_n if_o thou_o will_v get_v purity_n charity_n chastity_n light_n strength_n perfection_n and_o peace_n chap._n xv._o declare_v when_o spiritual_a and_o corporal_a penance_n ought_v to_o be_v use_v and_o how_o hurtful_a they_o be_v when_o they_o be_v do_v indiscreet_o according_a to_o one_o own_o judgement_n and_o opinion_n 110._o it_o be_v to_o be_v know_v that_o there_o be_v some_o soul_n who_o to_o make_v too_o great_a advance_n in_o holiness_n become_v much_o behindhand_o in_o it_o by_o do_v indiscreet_a penance_n like_o those_o who_o will_v sing_v more_o than_o their_o strength_n allow_v they_o who_o strain_n themselves_o till_o they_o be_v tire_v and_o instead_o of_o do_v better_a do_v worse_o 111._o many_o have_v fall_v into_o this_o precipice_n for_o want_v of_o subject_v their_o judgement_n to_o their_o spiritual_a father_n while_o they_o have_v imagine_v that_o unless_o they_o give_v themselves_o up_o to_o rigid_a penance_n they_o never_o can_v be_v saint_n as_o if_o sanctity_n do_v only_o consist_v in_o they_o they_o say_v that_o he_o that_o sow_v little_a reap_v little_a but_o they_o sow_v no_o other_o seed_n with_o their_o indiscreet_a penance_n than_o self-love_n instead_o of_o root_n of_o it_o up_o 112._o but_o the_o worst_a of_o these_o indiscreet_a penance_n be_v that_o by_o the_o use_n of_o these_o dry_a and_o barren_a severity_n be_v beget_v and_o naturalize_v a_o certain_a bitterness_n of_o heart_n towards_o themselves_o and_o their_o neighbour_n which_o be_v a_o great_a stranger_n to_o the_o true_a spirit_n towards_o themselves_o because_o they_o do_v not_o feel_v the_o sweetness_n of_o christ_n yoke_n the_o sweetness_n of_o charity_n but_o only_o the_o asperity_n of_o penance_n whereby_o their_o nature_n become_v imbitter_v and_o hence_o it_o follow_v that_o such_o man_n become_v exasperate_v with_o their_o neighbour_n to_o the_o mark_v and_o reprove_v much_o their_o fault_n and_o hold_v of_o they_o for_o very_o defective_a for_o the_o same_o reason_n that_o they_o see_v they_o go_v a_o less_o rigorous_a way_n than_o themselves_o hence_o they_o grow_v proud_a with_o their_o exercise_n of_o penance_n see_v few_o that_o do_v after_o they_o and_o think_v themselves_o better_a than_o other_o folk_n whereupon_o they_o much_o fall_v in_o the_o account_n of_o their_o virtue_n hence_o come_v the_o envy_n of_o other_o to_o see_v they_o less_o penitent_a and_o great_a favourite_n of_o god_n a_o clear_a proof_n that_o they_o fix_v their_o confidence_n in_o their_o own_o proper_a diligence_n 113._o prayer_n be_v the_o nourishment_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o the_o soul_n of_o prayer_n be_v internal_a mortification_n for_o however_o bodily_a penance_n and_o all_o other_o exercise_n chasten_v the_o flesh_n be_v good_a and_o holy_a and_o praiseworthy_a so_o as_o they_o be_v moderate_v by_o discretion_n according_a to_o the_o state_n and_o quality_n of_o every_o one_o and_o by_o the_o help_n of_o the_o spiritual_a director_n judgement_n yet_o thou_o will_v never_o gain_v any_o virtue_n by_o these_o mean_n but_o only_a vanity_n and_o the_o wind_n of_o vainglory_n if_o they_o do_v not_o grow_v from_o within_o wherefore_o now_o thou_o shall_v know_v when_o thou_o be_v to_o use_v most_o chief_o external_n penance_n 114._o when_o the_o soul_n begin_v to_o retire_v from_o the_o world_n and_o vice_n it_o ought_v to_o tame_v the_o body_n with_o rigour_n that_o it_o may_v be_v subject_a to_o the_o spirit_n and_o follow_v the_o law_n of_o god_n with_o ease_n than_o it_o concern_v you_o to_o manage_v the_o weapon_n of_o haircloth_n fast_v and_o discipline_n to_o take_v from_o the_o flesh_n the_o root_n of_o sin_n but_o when_o the_o soul_n enter_v into_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n embrace_v internal_a mortification_n corporal_a chastisement_n ought_v to_o be_v relax_v because_o there_o be_v trouble_n enough_o in_o the_o spirit_n the_o heart_n be_v weaken_v the_o breast_n suffer_v the_o brain_n be_v weary_a the_o whole_a body_n grieve_v and_o disable_v for_o the_o function_n of_o the_o soul._n 115._o the_o wise_a and_o skilful_a director_n therefore_o must_v consider_v not_o to_o give_v way_n to_o these_o soul_n to_o
difference_n which_o be_v between_o do_v suffer_v and_o die_v do_v be_v delightful_a and_o belong_v to_o beginner_n suffer_v with_o desire_n belong_v to_o those_o who_o be_v proficient_o die_v always_o in_o themselves_o belong_v to_o those_o who_o be_v accomplish_v and_o perfect_a of_o which_o number_n there_o be_v very_o few_o in_o the_o world_n 76._o how_o happy_a will_v thou_o be_v if_o thou_o have_v no_o other_o thought_n but_o to_o die_v in_o thyself_o thou_o will_v then_o become_v not_o only_o victorious_a over_o thy_o enemy_n but_o also_o over_o thyself_o in_o which_o victory_n thou_o will_v certain_o find_v pure_a love_n perfect_a peace_n and_o divine_a wisdom_n 77._o it_o be_v impossible_a for_o a_o man_n to_o be_v able_a to_o think_v and_o live_v mystical_o in_o a_o simple_a understanding_n of_o the_o divine_a and_o infuse_a wisdom_n if_o he_o do_v not_o first_o die_v in_o himself_o by_o the_o total_a deny_v of_o sense_n and_o the_o reasonable_a appetite_n 78._o the_o true_a lesson_n of_o the_o spiritual_a man_n and_o that_o which_o thou_o ought_v to_o learn_v be_v to_o leave_v all_o thing_n in_o their_o place_n and_o not_o meddle_v with_o any_o but_o what_o thy_o office_n may_v bind_v thou_o to_o because_o the_o soul_n which_o leave_v every_o thing_n to_o find_v god_n do_v then_o begin_v to_o have_v all_o in_o the_o eternity_n iâ—_n seek_v 79._o some_o soul_n there_o be_v who_o seek_v repose_v other_o without_o seek_v have_v the_o pleasure_n of_o it_o other_o have_v a_o pleasure_n in_o pain_n and_o other_o seek_v it_o the_o first_o do_v as_o good_a as_o nothing_o the_o second_o be_v in_o the_o way_n towards_o it_o the_o three_o run_v and_o the_o last_o fly_v 80._o the_o disesteem_a of_o delight_n and_o the_o count_a of_o they_o torment_n be_v the_o property_n of_o a_o true_o mortify_v man._n 81._o enjoyment_n and_o internal_a peace_n be_v the_o fruit_n of_o the_o spirit_n divine_a and_o no_o man_n get_v they_o into_o his_o possession_n if_o in_o the_o closet_n of_o his_o soul_n he_o be_v not_o a_o resign_v man._n 82._o thou_o see_v that_o the_o displeasure_n of_o the_o good_a pass_v present_o away_o but_o for_o all_o that_o endeavour_n never_o to_o have_v they_o nor_o to_o stop_v in_o they_o for_o they_o damnify_v thy_o health_n disturb_v thy_o reason_n and_o disquiet_v thy_o spirit_n 83._o among_o other_o holy_a counsel_n which_o thou_o must_v observe_v remember_v well_o this_o that_o follow_v look_v not_o upon_o other_o man_n fault_n but_o thy_o own_o keep_v silence_n with_o a_o continue_a internal_a conversation_n mortify_v thyself_o in_o all_o thing_n and_o at_o all_o hour_n and_o by_o this_o mean_v thou_o will_v get_v free_a from_o many_o imperfection_n and_o make_v thyself_o commander_n of_o great_a virtue_n 84._o mortify_v thyself_o in_o not_o judge_v ill_a of_o any_o body_n at_o any_o time_n because_o the_o suspicion_n of_o thy_o neighbour_n disturb_v the_o purity_n of_o heart_n discompose_v it_o bring_v the_o soul_n out_o and_o take_v away_o its_o repose_n 85._o never_o will_v thou_o have_v perfect_a resignation_n if_o thou_o mind_v humane_a respect_n and_o reflect_a upon_o the_o little_a idol_n of_o what_o people_n say_v the_o soul_n that_o go_v by_o the_o inward_a way_n will_v soon_o lose_v itself_o if_o once_o it_o come_v to_o look_v at_o reason_n among_o the_o creature_n and_o in_o commerce_n and_o conversation_n with_o with_o they_o there_o be_v no_o other_o reason_n than_o not_o to_o look_v at_o reason_n but_o to_o imagine_v that_o god_n permit_v grievance_n to_o fall_v on_o we_o to_o humble_a and_o annihilate_v we_o and_o make_v we_o live_v whole_o resign_v 86._o behold_v how_o god_n make_v great_a account_n of_o a_o soul_n that_o live_v internal_o resign_v than_o of_o another_o that_o do_v miracle_n even_o to_o the_o raise_n of_o the_o dead_a 87._o many_o soul_n there_o be_v which_o though_o they_o exercise_v prayer_n yet_o because_o they_o be_v not_o mortify_v be_v always_o imperfect_a and_o full_a of_o self-love_n 88_o hold_v it_o for_o a_o true_a mixim_n that_o no_o body_n can_v do_v a_o grievance_n or_o injury_n to_o a_o soul_n despise_v by_o itself_o and_o one_o that_o be_v nothing_o in_o its_o own_o account_n 89._o final_o be_v of_o hope_n suffer_v be_v silent_a and_o patient_a let_v nothing_o affright_v thou_o all_o of_o it_o will_v have_v a_o time_n to_o end_v god_n only_o be_v he_o that_o be_v unchangeable_a patience_n bring_v a_o man_n in_o every_o thing_n he_o that_o have_v god_n have_v all_o thing_n and_o he_o that_o have_v he_o not_o have_v nothing_o chap._n ix_o for_o the_o obtain_n of_o internal_a peace_n it_o be_v necessary_a for_o the_o soul_n to_o know_v its_o misery_n 90._o if_o the_o soul_n shall_v not_o fall_v into_o some_o fault_n it_o will_v never_o come_v to_o understand_v its_o own_o misery_n though_o it_o hear_v man_n speak_v and_o read_v spiritual_a book_n nor_o can_v it_o ever_o obtain_v precious_a peace_n if_o it_o do_v not_o first_o know_v its_o own_o miserable_a weakness_n because_o there_o the_o remedy_n be_v difficult_a where_o there_o be_v no_o clear_a knowledge_n of_o the_o defect_n god_n will_v suffer_v in_o thou_o sometime_o one_o fault_n sometime_o another_o that_o by_o this_o knowledge_n of_o thyself_o see_v thou_o so_o often_o fall_v thou_o may_v believe_v that_o thou_o be_v a_o mere_a nothing_o in_o which_o knowledge_n and_o belief_n true_a peace_n and_o perfect_a humility_n be_v found_v and_o that_o thou_o may_v the_o better_o search_v into_o thy_o mystry_n and_o see_v what_o thou_o be_v i_o will_v try_v to_o undeceive_v thou_o in_o some_o of_o thy_o manifold_a imperfection_n 91._o thou_o be_v so_o quick_a and_o nice_a that_o it_o may_v be_v if_o thou_o do_v but_o trip_v as_o thou_o walk_v or_o find_v thy_o way_n molest_v thou_o feel_v even_o hell_n itself_o if_o thou_o be_v deny_v thy_o due_a or_o thy_o pleasure_n oppose_v thou_o present_o brisk_v up_o with_o a_o warm_a resentment_n of_o it_o if_o thou_o spy_v a_o fault_n in_o thy_o neighbour_n instead_o of_o pity_v he_o and_o think_v that_o thou_o thyself_o be_v liable_a to_o the_o same_o fail_v thou_o indiscreet_o reprove_v he_o if_o thou_o see_v a_o thing_n convenient_a for_o thou_o and_o can_v not_o compass_v it_o thou_o grow_v sad_a and_o full_a of_o sorrow_n if_o thou_o receive_v a_o slight_a injury_n from_o thy_o neighbour_n thou_o chide_v at_o he_o and_o complain_v for_o it_o insomuch_o that_o for_o any_o trifle_n thou_o be_v inward_o and_o outward_o discompose_v and_o lose_v thyself_o 92._o thou_o will_v be_v penitent_a but_o with_o another_o patience_n and_o if_o the_o impatience_n still_o continue_v thou_o lay_v the_o fault_n with_o much_o pain_n upon_o thy_o companion_n without_o consider_v that_o thou_o be_v intolerable_a to_o thyself_o and_o when_o the_o rancour_n be_v over_o thou_o cunning_o do_v return_v to_o make_v thyself_o virtuous_a give_v document_n and_o relate_v spiritual_a saying_n with_o artifice_n of_o wit_n without_o mend_v thy_o past-fault_n although_o thou_o willing_o do_v condemn_v thyself_o reprove_v thy_o fault_n before_o other_o yet_o this_o thou_o do_v more_o to_o justify_v thyself_o with_o he_o that_o see_v thy_o fault_n that_o thou_o may_v return_v again_o afresh_o to_o the_o former_a esteem_n of_o thyself_o than_o through_o any_o effect_n of_o perfect_a humility_n 93._o other_o time_n thou_o do_v subtle_o allege_v that_o it_o be_v not_o through_o fault_n but_o zeal_n of_o justice_n that_o thou_o complain_v of_o thy_o neighbour_n thou_o believe_v for_o the_o most_o part_n that_o thou_o be_v virtuous_a constant_a and_o courageous_a even_o to_o the_o give_v up_o thy_o life_n into_o the_o tyrant_n hand_n sole_o for_o the_o sake_n of_o divine_a love_n yet_o thou_o can_v scarce_o hear_v the_o least_o word_n of_o anger_n but_o present_o thou_o do_v afflict_v and_o trouble_v and_o disquiet_v thyself_o these_o be_v all_o industrious_a engine_n of_o self-love_n and_o the_o secret_a pride_n of_o thy_o soul_n know_v therefore_o that_o self-love_n reign_v in_o thou_o and_o that_o from_o purchase_v this_o precious_a peace_n that_o be_v thy_o great_a hindrance_n chap._n x._o in_o which_o be_v show_v and_o discover_v what_o be_v the_o false_a humility_n and_o what_o the_o true_a with_o the_o effect_n of_o of_o they_o 94._o thou_o must_v know_v that_o there_o be_v two_o sort_n of_o humility_n one_o false_a and_o counterfeit_a the_o other_o true_a the_o false_a one_o be_v they_o who_o like_o water_n which_o must_v mount_v upward_o receive_v a_o external_a fall_n and_o artificial_a submission_n to_o rise_v up_o again_o immediate_o these_o avoid_a esteem_n and_o honour_n that_o so_o they_o may_v be_v take_v to_o be_v humble_a they_o say_v of_o themselves_o that_o they_o be_v very_o evil_a that_o they_o may_v be_v think_v good_a
impossible_a thing_n to_o be_v sesparate_v from_o its_o belove_a and_o his_o infinite_a treasure_n 145._o there_o be_v six_o other_o step_n of_o contemplation_n which_o be_v these_o fire_n union_n elevation_n illumination_n pleasure_n and_o repose_v with_o the_o first_o the_o soul_n be_v enkindle_v and_o be_v enkindle_v be_v anoint_v be_v anoint_v be_v raise_v be_v raise_v contemplate_v contemplate_v it_o receive_v pleasure_n and_o receive_v pleasure_n it_o find_v repose_v by_o these_o step_v the_o soul_n rise_v high_a be_v abstract_v and_o experience_v in_o the_o spiritual_a and_o internal_a way_n 146._o in_o the_o first_o step_n which_o be_v fire_n the_o soul_n be_v illustrate_v by_o the_o mean_n of_o a_o divine_a and_o ardent_a ray_n in_o kindle_v the_o affection_n divine_a and_o dry_v up_o those_o which_o be_v but_o humane_a the_o second_o be_v the_o unction_n which_o be_v a_o sweet_a and_o spiritual_a liquor_n which_o diffuse_v itself_o all_o the_o soul_n over_o teach_v it_o strengthen_v it_o and_o dispose_v it_o to_o receive_v and_o contemplate_v the_o divine_a truth_n and_o sometime_o it_o extend_v even_o to_o nature_n itself_o corroborate_n it_o by_o patience_n with_o a_o sensible_a pleasure_n that_o seem_v celestial_a 147._o the_o three_o be_v the_o elevation_n of_o the_o inner_a man_n over_o itself_o that_o it_o may_v get_v fit_a to_o the_o clear_a fountain_n of_o pure_a love_n 148._o the_o four_o step_n which_o be_v illumination_n be_v a_o infuse_a knowledge_n whereby_o the_o soul_n contemplate_v sweet_o the_o divine_a truth_n rise_v still_o from_o one_o clearness_n to_o another_o from_o one_o light_n to_o another_o from_o knowledge_n to_o knowledge_n be_v guide_v by_o the_o spirit_n divine_a 149._o the_o five_o be_v a_o savoury_a pleasure_n of_o the_o divine_a sweetness_n issue_v forth_o from_o the_o plentiful_a and_o precious_a fountain_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n 150._o the_o six_o be_v a_o sweet_a and_o admirable_a tranquillity_n arise_v from_o the_o conquest_n of_o fight_n within_o and_o frequent_a prayer_n and_o this_o very_o very_o few_o have_v experience_n of_o here_o the_o abundance_n of_o joy_n and_o peace_n be_v so_o great_a that_o the_o soul_n seem_v to_o be_v in_o a_o sweet_a sleep_n solace_v and_o repose_v itself_o in_o the_o divine_a breast_n of_o love_n 151._o many_o other_o step_n of_o contemplation_n there_o be_v as_o ecstasy_n rapture_n melt_v deliquium_n glee_n kiss_v embrace_n exultation_n union_n transformation_n espouse_v and_o matrimony_n which_o i_o omit_v to_o explain_v to_o give_v no_o occasion_n to_o speculation_n and_o because_o there_o be_v whole_a book_n which_o treat_v of_o these_o point_n though_o they_o be_v all_o for_o he_o who_o find_v nothing_o of_o they_o any_o more_o than_o a_o blind_a man_n do_v of_o colour_n or_o a_o deaf_a man_n of_o music_n in_o a_o word_n by_o these_o step_n we_o get_v up_o to_o the_o chamber_n and_o repose_n of_o the_o pacific_a king_n and_o the_o true_a solomon_n chap._n xvi_o sign_n to_o know_v the_o inner_a man_n and_o the_o mind_n that_o be_v purge_v 152._o the_o sign_n to_o know_v the_o inner_a man_n by_o be_v four_o the_o first_o if_o the_o understanding_n produce_v no_o other_o thought_n than_o those_o which_o stir_v up_o to_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n and_o the_o will_n be_v so_o habituate_v that_o it_o beget_v no_o other_o act_n of_o love_n than_o of_o god_n and_o in_o order_n to_o he_o the_o second_o if_o when_o he_o cease_v from_o a_o external_n work_n in_o which_o he_o be_v employ_v the_o understanding_n and_o the_o will_v be_v present_o and_o easy_o turn_v to_o god._n the_o three_o if_o in_o enter_v upon_o prayer_n he_o forget_v all_o outward_a thing_n as_o if_o he_o have_v not_o see_v nor_o use_v use_v they_o the_o four_o if_o he_o carry_v himself_o orderly_o towards_o outward_a thing_n as_o if_o he_o be_v enter_v into_o the_o world_n again_o fear_v to_o embroil_v himself_o in_o business_n and_o natural_o abhor_v it_o unless_o when_o charity_n require_v it_o of_o he_o 153._o such_o a_o soul_n as_o this_o be_v free_a from_o the_o outward_a man_n and_o easy_o enter_v into_o the_o interior_a solitude_n where_o it_o see_v none_o but_o god_n and_o itself_o in_o he_o love_v he_o with_o quiet_a and_o peace_n and_o true_a love_n there_o in_o that_o secret_a centre_n god_n be_v kind_o speak_v to_o it_o teach_v it_o a_o new_a kingdom_n and_o true_a peace_n and_o joy._n 154._o this_o spiritual_a abstract_a and_o retire_a soul_n have_v its_o peace_n no_o more_o break_v though_o outward_o it_o may_v meet_v with_o combat_n because_o through_o the_o infinite_a distance_n tempest_n do_v never_o reach_v to_o that_o serene_a heaven_n within_o where_o pure_a and_o perfect_a love_n reside_v and_o though_o sometime_o it_o may_v be_v naked_a forsake_a fight_v against_o and_o desolate_a this_o be_v only_o the_o fury_n of_o the_o storm_n which_o threaten_v and_o rage_v no_o where_o but_o without_o 155._o this_o secret_a love_n within_o have_v four_o effect_n the_o first_o be_v call_v illumination_n which_o be_v a_o savoury_a and_o experimental_a knowledge_n of_o the_o greatness_n of_o god_n and_o of_o its_o own_o nothing_o the_o second_o be_v inflammation_n which_o be_v a_o ardent_a desire_n of_o be_v burn_v like_o the_o salamander_n in_o this_o kind_n and_o divine_a fire_n the_o three_o be_v sweetness_n which_o be_v a_o peaceable_a joyful_a sweet_a and_o intimate_a fruition_n the_o four_o be_v a_o swallow_v up_o of_o the_o power_n in_o god_n by_o which_o immersion_n the_o soul_n be_v so_o much_o drench_v and_o fill_v with_o god_n that_o it_o can_v any_o long_o seek_v desire_v or_o will_v any_o thing_n but_o it_o be_v great_a and_o infinite_a good_a 156._o from_o this_o full_a satiety_n two_o effect_n arise_v the_o first_o be_v a_o great_a courage_n to_o suffer_v for_o god._n the_o second_o be_v a_o certain_a hope_n or_o assurance_n that_o it_o can_v never_o lose_v he_o nor_o be_v separate_v from_o he_o 157._o here_o in_o this_o internal_a retirement_n the_o belove_a jesus_n have_v his_o paradise_n to_o who_o we_o may_v go_v up_o standing_z and_o converse_v on_o the_o earth_n and_o if_o thou_o desire_v to_o know_v who_o he_o be_v who_o be_v altogether_o draw_v to_o this_o inward_a retirement_n with_o enlighten_v exemplification_n in_o god_n i_o tell_v thou_o it_o be_v he_o that_o in_o adversity_n in_o discomfort_n of_o spirit_n and_o in_o the_o want_n of_o necessary_n stand_v firm_a and_o unshaken_a these_o constant_a and_o inward_a soul_n be_v outward_o naked_a and_o whole_o diffuse_v in_o god_n who_o they_o continual_o do_v contemplate_v they_o have_v no_o spot_n they_o live_v in_o god_n and_o of_o he_o himself_o they_o shine_v bright_a than_o a_o thousand_o sun_n they_o be_v belove_v by_o the_o son_n of_o god_n they_o be_v the_o darling_n of_o god_n the_o father_n and_o elect_a spouse_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n 158._o by_o three_o sign_n be_v a_o mind_n that_o be_v purge_v to_o be_v know_v as_o st._n thomas_n say_v in_o a_o treatise_n of_o he_o the_o first_o sign_n be_v diligence_n which_o be_v a_o strength_n of_o mind_n which_o banish_v all_o neglect_n and_o sloth_n that_o it_o may_v be_v dispose_v with_o earnestness_n and_o confidence_n to_o the_o pursuit_n of_o virtue_n the_o second_o be_v severity_n which_o likewise_o be_v a_o strength_n of_o mind_n against_o concupiscence_n accompany_v with_o a_o ardent_a love_n of_o roughness_n vileness_n and_o holy_a poverty_n the_o three_o be_v benignity_n and_o sweetness_n of_o mind_n which_o drive_v away_o all_o rancour_n envy_n aversion_n and_o hatred_n against_o one_o neighbour_n 159._o till_o the_o mind_n be_v purge_v the_o affection_n purify_v the_o memory_n naked_a the_o understanding_n brighten_v the_o will_v deny_v and_o set_v afire_o the_o soul_n can_v never_o arrive_v at_o the_o intimate_a and_o affective_a union_n with_o god_n and_o therefore_o because_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n be_v purity_n itself_o and_o light_n and_o rest_n the_o soul_n where_o he_o intend_v to_o make_v his_o abode_n must_v have_v great_a purity_n peace_n attention_n and_o quiet_a final_o the_o precious_a gift_n of_o a_o purge_v mind_n those_o only_o have_v who_o with_o continual_a diligence_n do_v seek_v love_n and_o retain_v it_o and_o desire_v to_o be_v repute_v the_o most_o vile_a in_o the_o world._n chap._n xvii_o of_o divine_a wisdom_n 160._o divine_a wisdom_n be_v a_o intellectual_a and_o infuse_a knowledge_n of_o the_o divine_a perfection_n and_o thing_n eternal_a which_o ought_v rather_o to_o be_v call_v contemplation_n than_o speculation_n science_n be_v acquire_v and_o beget_v the_o knowledge_n of_o nature_n wisdom_n be_v infuse_v and_o beget_v the_o knowledge_n of_o the_o divine_a goodness_n that_o desire_v to_o know_v what_o be_v not_o to_o be_v attain_v unto_o without_o pain_n and_o sweat_n this_o desire_v not_o to_o know_v
do_v not_o seek_v themselves_o nor_o set_v any_o great_a value_n upon_o their_o own_o artificial_a knowledge_n but_o more_o if_o they_o can_v forget_v it_o as_o if_o they_o never_o have_v it_o and_o only_o make_v use_n of_o it_o â—n_v its_o own_o proper_a place_n and_o time_n for_o preach_v and_o dispuce_v when_o their_o turn_n come_v and_o afterward_o give_v their_o mind_n to_o the_o simple_a and_o naked_a contemplation_n of_o god_n without_o form_n figure_n or_o consideration_n 181._o the_o study_n which_o be_v not_o order_v for_o god_n glory_n only_o be_v but_o a_o short_a way_n to_o hell_n â—ot_n through_o the_o study_n but_o the_o wind_n of_o pride_n which_o beget_v it_o miserable_a be_v the_o great_a part_n of_o man_n at_o this_o time_n who_o only_a study_n be_v to_o satisfy_v the_o unsatisfiable_a curiosity_n of_o nature_n 182._o many_o seek_v god_n and_o find_v he_o not_o because_o they_o be_v more_o move_v by_o curiosity_n than_o sincere_a pure_a and_o upright_a intention_n they_o rather_o desire_v spiritual_a comfort_n than_o god_n himself_o and_o â—s_v they_o seek_v he_o not_o with_o truth_n they_o neither_o find_v god_n nor_o spiritual_a pleasure_n 183._o he_o that_o do_v not_o endeavour_v the_o total_a deâ—ying_n of_o himself_o will_v not_o be_v true_o abstract_v â—nd_v so_o can_v never_o be_v capable_a of_o the_o truth_n and_o the_o â—â—ght_n of_o the_o spirit_n to_o go_v towards_o the_o mystical_a science_n a_o man_n must_v never_o meddle_v with_o â—hings_n which_o be_v without_o but_o with_o prudence_n and_o in_o that_o which_o his_o office_n call_v he_o to_o rare_a be_v the_o man_n who_o set_v a_o high_a price_n upon_o hear_v than_o speak_v but_o the_o wise_a and_o pure_o mystical_a man_n never_o speak_v but_o when_o he_o can_v help_v â—t_a nor_o do_v he_o concern_v himself_o in_o any_o thing_n but_o what_o belong_v to_o his_o office_n and_o then_o he_o carry_v himself_o with_o great_a prudence_n 184._o the_o spirit_n of_o divine_a wisdom_n fill_v man_n with_o sweetness_n govern_v they_o with_o courage_n and_o inlighten_v those_o with_o excellence_n who_o be_v subject_a to_o its_o direction_n where_o the_o divine_a spirit_n dwell_v there_o be_v always_o simplicity_n and_o a_o holy_a liberty_n but_o craft_n and_o double-mindedness_a fiction_n artifices_fw-la policy_n and_o worldly_a respect_n be_v hell_n itself_o to_o wise_a and_o sincere_a man_n 185._o know_v that_o he_o who_o will_v attain_v to_o the_o mystical_a sceince_n must_v be_v deny_v and_o take_v off_o from_o five_o thing_n first_o from_o the_o creature_n two_o from_o temporal_a thing_n three_o from_o the_o very_a gift_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n 4_o from_o himself_o 5_o he_o must_v be_v lose_v in_o god._n this_o last_o be_v the_o compleat_a of_o all_o because_o that_o soul_n only_o that_o know_v how_o to_o be_v so_o take_v off_o be_v that_o which_o attain_v to_o be_v lose_v in_o god_n and_o only_o know_v where_o to_o be_v in_o safety_n 186._o god_n be_v more_o satisfy_v with_o the_o affection_n of_o the_o heart_n than_o that_o of_o worldly_a science_n it_o be_v one_o thing_n to_o cleanse_v the_o heart_n of_o all_o that_o which_o captivate_v and_o pollute_v it_o and_o another_o thing_n to_o do_v a_o thousand_o thing_n though_o good_a and_o holy_a without_o mind_v that_o purity_n of_o heart_n which_o be_v the_o main_a of_o all_o for_o attain_v of_o divine_a wisdom_n 187._o never_o will_v thou_o get_v to_o this_o sovereign_a and_o divine_a wisdom_n if_o thou_o have_v not_o strength_n when_o god_n cleanse_v thou_o in_o his_o own_o time_n not_o only_o of_o thy_o adherency_n to_o temporal_a and_o natural_a blessing_n but_o further_o to_o supernatural_a and_o sublime_a one_o such_o as_o internal_a communication_n ecstasy_n rapture_n and_o other_o gratuitous_a grace_n whereon_o the_o soul_n rest_v and_o entertain_v itself_o 188._o many_o soul_n come_v short_a of_o arrive_v to_o quiet_a contemplation_n to_o divine_a wisdom_n and_o true_a knowledge_n notwithstanding_o that_o they_o spend_v many_o hour_n in_o prayer_n and_o receive_v the_o sacrament_n every_o day_n because_o they_o do_v not_o subject_a and_o submit_v themselves_o whole_o and_o entire_o to_o he_o that_o have_v light_a nor_o deny_v and_o conquer_v themselves_o nor_o give_v up_o themselves_o total_o to_o god_n with_o a_o perfect_a divest_v and_o disintere_v of_o themselves_o in_o a_o word_n till_o the_o soul_n be_v purify_v in_o the_o fire_n of_o inward_a pain_n it_o will_v never_o get_v to_o a_o state_n of_o renovation_n of_o transformation_n of_o perfect_a contemplation_n of_o divine_a wisdom_n and_o affective_a union_n chap._n xix_o of_o true_a and_o perfect_a annihilation_n 189._o thou_o must_v know_v that_o all_o this_o fabric_n of_o annihilation_n have_v its_o foundation_n but_o in_o two_o principle_n the_o first_o be_v to_o keep_v one_o self_n and_o all_o worldly_a thing_n in_o a_o low_a esteem_n and_o value_n from_o whence_o the_o put_n in_o practice_n of_o this_o self-devesting_a and_o of_o self-renunciation_n and_o forsake_v all_o create_a thing_n must_v have_v its_o rise_n and_o that_o with_o the_o affection_n and_o in_o deed_n 190._o the_o second_o principle_n must_v be_v a_o great_a esteem_n of_o god_n to_o love_v adore_v and_o follow_v he_o without_o the_o least_o interest_n of_o one_o own_o let_v it_o be_v never_o so_o holy_a from_o these_o two_o principle_n will_v arise_v a_o full_a conformity_n to_o the_o divine_a will._n this_o powerful_a and_o practical_a conformity_n to_o the_o divine_a will_n in_o all_o thing_n lead_v the_o soul_n to_o annihilation_n and_o transformation_n with_o god_n without_o the_o mixture_n of_o rapture_n or_o external_a ecstasy_n or_o vehement_a affection_n this_o way_n be_v liable_a to_o many_o illusion_n with_o the_o danger_n of_o weakness_n and_o anguish_n of_o the_o understanding_n by_o which_o path_n there_o be_v seldom_o any_o that_o get_v up_o to_o the_o top_n of_o perfection_n which_o be_v acquire_v by_o other_o safe_a firm_a and_o real_a way_n though_o not_o without_o a_o weighty_a cross_n because_o therein_o the_o highway_n of_o annihilation_n and_o perfection_n be_v found_v which_o be_v second_v by_o many_o gift_n of_o light_n and_o divine_a effect_n and_o infinite_a other_o grace_n gratis_o datae_fw-la yet_o the_o soul_n that_o be_v annihilate_v must_v be_v unclothe_v of_o it_o all_o if_o it_o will_v not_o have_v they_o be_v a_o hindrance_n to_o it_o in_o its_o way_n to_o deification_n 191._o as_o the_o soul_n make_v continual_a progress_n from_o its_o own_o meanness_n it_o ought_v to_o walk_v on_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o annihilation_n which_o consist_v in_o the_o abhor_v of_o honour_n dignity_n and_o praise_n there_o be_v no_o reason_n that_o dignity_n and_o honour_n shall_v be_v give_v to_o vileness_n and_o a_o mere_a nothing_o 192._o to_o the_o soul_n that_o be_v sensible_a of_o its_o own_o vileness_n it_o appear_v a_o impossible_a thing_n to_o deserve_v any_o thing_n it_o be_v rather_o confound_v and_o know_v itself_o unworthy_a of_o virtue_n and_o praise_n it_o embrace_v with_o equal_a courage_n all_o occasion_n of_o contempt_n persecution_n infamy_n shame_n and_o affront_v and_o as_o true_o deserve_v of_o such_o reproach_n it_o render_v the_o lord_n thanks_o when_o it_o light_v upon_o such_o occasion_n to_o be_v treat_v as_o it_o deserve_v and_o know_v itself_o also_o unworthy_a that_o he_o shall_v use_v his_o justice_n upon_o it_o but_o above_o all_o it_o be_v glad_a of_o contempt_n and_o affront_n because_o its_o god_n get_v great_a glory_n by_o it_o 193._o such_o a_o soul_n as_o this_o always_o choose_v the_o low_a the_o vile_a and_o the_o most_o despise_a degree_n as_o well_o of_o place_n as_o of_o clothing_n and_o of_o all_o other_o thing_n without_o the_o least_o affectation_n of_o singularity_n be_v of_o the_o opinion_n that_o the_o great_a vileness_n be_v beyond_o its_o desert_n and_o acknowledge_v itself_o also_o unworthy_a even_o of_o this_o this_o be_v the_o practice_n that_o bring_v the_o soul_n to_o a_o true_a annihilation_n of_o itself_o 194._o the_o soul_n that_o will_v be_v perfect_a begin_v to_o mortify_v its_o passion_n and_o when_o it_o be_v advance_v in_o that_o exercise_n it_o deny_v itself_o then_o with_o the_o divine_a aid_n it_o pass_v to_o the_o state_n of_o nothing_o where_o it_o despise_v abhor_v and_o plunge_v itself_o upon_o the_o knowledge_n that_o it_o be_v nothing_o that_o it_o can_v do_v nothing_o and_o that_o it_o be_v worth_a nothing_o from_o hence_o spring_v the_o die_a in_o itself_o and_o in_o its_o sense_n in_o many_o way_n and_o at_o all_o hour_n and_o final_o from_o this_o spiritual_a death_n the_o true_a and_o perfect_a annihilation_n derive_v its_o original_n insomuch_o that_o when_o the_o soul_n be_v once_o dead_a to_o its_o will_n and_o understanding_n it_o be_v proper_o say_v to_o be_v arrive_v at_o the_o perfect_a and_o
nakedness_n find_v in_o its_o superior_a part_n a_o profound_a peace_n and_o a_o sweet_a rest_n which_o bring_v it_o to_o such_o a_o perfect_a union_n of_o love_n that_o it_o be_v joyful_a all_o over_o and_o such_o a_o soul_n as_o this_o be_v already_o arrive_v to_o such_o a_o happiness_n that_o it_o neither_o will_n nor_o desire_v any_o thing_n but_o what_o its_o belove_a will_n it_o conform_v itself_o to_o this_o will_n in_o all_o emergency_n as_o well_o of_o comfort_n as_o anguish_n and_o rejoice_v also_o in_o every_o thing_n to_o do_v the_o divine_a good_a pleasure_n 207._o there_o be_v nothing_o but_o what_o comfort_v it_o nor_o do_v it_o want_v any_o thing_n but_o what_o it_o can_v well_o want_v to_o die_v be_v enjoyment_n to_o it_o and_o to_o live_v be_v its_o joy_n it_o be_v as_o content_v here_o upon_o earth_n as_o it_o can_v be_v in_o paradise_n it_o be_v as_o glad_a under_o privation_n as_o it_o can_v be_v in_o possession_n in_o sickness_n as_o it_o can_v be_v in_o health_n because_o it_o know_v that_o this_o be_v the_o will_n of_o its_o lord_n this_o be_v its_o life_n this_o its_o glory_n its_o paradise_n its_o peace_n its_o repose_n its_o rest_n its_o consolation_n and_o high_a happiness_n 208._o if_o it_o be_v necessary_a to_o such_o a_o soul_n as_o this_o which_o be_v get_v up_o by_o the_o step_n of_o annihilation_n to_o the_o region_n of_o peace_n to_o make_v its_o choice_n it_o will_v choose_v desolation_n before_o comfort_n contempt_n before_o honour_n because_o the_o love_a jesus_n make_v great_a esteem_n of_o reproach_n and_o pain_n if_o it_o first_o endure_v the_o hunger_n of_o the_o blessing_n of_o heaven_n if_o it_o thirst_v for_o god_n if_o it_o have_v the_o fear_n of_o lose_v he_o the_o lamentation_n of_o heart_n and_o the_o fight_n of_o the_o devil_n now_o thing_n be_v alter_v and_o hunger_n be_v turn_v into_o satisfy_v the_o thirst_n into_o satiety_n the_o fear_n into_o assurance_n the_o sadness_n into_o joy_n the_o weep_a into_o merriment_n and_o the_o fierce_a fight_v into_o the_o great_a peace_n o_o happy_a soul_n that_o enjoy_v here_o on_o earth_n so_o great_a a_o felicity_n thou_o must_v know_v that_o these_o kind_n of_o soul_n though_o few_o they_o be_v be_v the_o strong_a pillar_n which_o support_v the_o church_n and_o such_o as_o abate_v the_o divine_a indignation_n 209._o and_o now_o this_o soul_n that_o be_v enter_v into_o the_o heaven_n of_o peace_n acknowledge_v itself_o full_a of_o god_n and_o his_o supernatural_a gift_n because_o it_o live_v ground_v in_o a_o pure_a love_n receive_v equal_a pleasure_n in_o light_n and_o darkness_n in_o night_n and_o day_n in_o affliction_n and_o consolation_n through_o this_o holy_a and_o heavenly_a indifference_n it_o never_o lose_v its_o peace_n in_o adversity_n nor_o its_o tranquillity_n in_o tribulation_n but_o see_v itself_o full_a of_o unspeakable_a enjoyment_n 210._o and_o although_o the_o prince_n of_o darkness_n make_v all_o the_o assault_n of_o hell_n against_o it_o with_o horrible_a temptation_n yet_o it_o make_v head_n against_o they_o and_o stand_v like_o a_o strong_a pillar_n no_o more_o happen_v to_o it_o by_o they_o than_o happen_v to_o a_o high_a mountain_n and_o a_o deep_a valley_n in_o the_o time_n of_o storm_n and_o tempest_n 211._o the_o valley_n be_v darken_v with_o thick_a cloud_n fierce_a tempest_n of_o hail_n thunder_n lightning_n and_o hailstone_n which_o look_v like_o the_o picture_n of_o hell_n at_o the_o same_o time_n the_o lofty_a mountain_n glitter_v by_o the_o bright_a beam_n of_o the_o sun_n in_o quietness_n and_o serenity_n continue_v clear_a like_a heaven_n immovable_a and_o full_a of_o light_n 212._o the_o same_o happen_v to_o this_o bless_a soul_n the_o valley_n of_o the_o part_n below_o be_v suffer_v tribulation_n combat_n darkness_n desolation_n torment_n martyrdom_n and_o suggestion_n and_o at_o the_o same_o time_n on_o the_o lofty_a mountain_n of_o the_o high_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o true_a sun_n cast_v its_o beam_n it_o inflame_v and_o enlighten_v it_o and_o so_o it_o become_v clear_a peaceable_a resplendent_a quiet_a serene_a be_v a_o mere_a ocean_n of_o joy_n 213._o so_o great_a therefore_o be_v the_o quiet_a of_o this_o pure_a foul_a which_o be_v get_v up_o the_o mountain_n of_o tranquillity_n so_o great_a be_v the_o peace_n of_o its_o spirit_n so_o great_a the_o serenity_n and_o cheerfulness_n that_o be_v within_o that_o a_o remnant_n and_o glimmer_n of_o god_n do_v redound_v even_o to_o the_o outside_n of_o it_o 214._o because_o in_o the_o throne_n of_o quiet_a be_v manifest_v the_o perfection_n of_o spiritual_a beauty_n here_o the_o true_a light_n of_o the_o secret_a and_o divine_a mystery_n of_o our_o holy_a faith_n here_o perfect_a humility_n even_o to_o the_o annihilation_n of_o itself_o the_o ample_a resignation_n chastity_n poverty_n of_o spirit_n the_o sincerity_n and_o innocence_n of_o the_o dove_n external_a modesty_n silence_n and_o internal_a solitude_n liberty_n and_o purity_n of_o heart_n here_o the_o forgetfulness_n of_o every_o create_a thing_n even_o of_o itself_o joyful_a simplicity_n heavenly_a indifference_n continual_a prayer_n a_o total_a nakedness_n perfect_a disinterestedness_n a_o most_o wise_a contemplation_n a_o conversation_n of_o heaven_n and_o last_o the_o most_o perfect_a and_o serene_a peace_n within_o of_o which_o this_o happy_a soul_n may_v say_v what_o the_o wise_a man_n say_v of_o wisdom_n that_o all_o other_o grace_n come_v along_o in_o company_n with_o she_o venerunt_fw-la mihi_fw-la omne_fw-la bona_fw-la paritur_fw-la cum_fw-la illa_fw-la wisd_v 7.11_o 215._o this_o be_v the_o rich_a and_o hide_a treasure_n this_o the_o lose_a groat_n of_o the_o gospel_n this_o be_v the_o bless_a life_n the_o happy_a life_n the_o true_a life_n and_o the_o blessedness_n here_o below_o o_o thou_o lovely_a greatness_n that_o pass_v the_o knowledge_n of_o the_o son_n of_o man_n o_o excellent_a supernatural_a life_n how_o admirable_a and_o unspeakable_a be_v thou_o for_o thou_o be_v the_o very_a draught_n of_o blessedness_n o_o how_o much_o do_v thou_o raise_v a_o soul_n from_o earth_n which_o lose_v in_o its_o view_n all_o thing_n of_o the_o vileness_n of_o earth_n thou_o be_v poor_a to_o look_v upon_o but_o inward_o thou_o be_v full_a of_o wealth_n thou_o seem_v low_a but_o art_n exceed_v high_a in_o a_o word_n thou_o be_v that_o which_o make_v man_n live_v a_o life_n divine_a here_o below_o give_v i_o o_o lord_n thou_o great_a goodness_n give_v i_o a_o good_a portion_n of_o this_o heavenly_a happiness_n and_o true_a peace_n that_o the_o world_n sensual_a as_o it_o be_v be_v neither_o capable_a of_o understanding_n nor_o receive_v quem_fw-la mundus_fw-la non_fw-la potest_fw-la accipere_fw-la chap._n xxii_o a_o mournful_a exclamation_n and_o lamentable_a moan_n to_o god_n for_o the_o small_a company_n of_o soul_n that_o arrive_v at_o perfection_n the_o love_a union_n and_o the_o divine_a transformation_n 216._o o_o divine_a majesty_n in_o who_o presence_n the_o pillar_n of_o heaven_n do_v quake_v and_o tremble_v o_o thou_o goodness_n more_o than_o infinite_a in_o who_o love_n the_o seraphin_n burn_v give_v i_o leave_v o_o lord_n to_o lament_v our_o blindness_n and_o ingratitude_n we_o all_o live_v in_o mistake_n seek_v the_o foolish_a world_n and_o forsake_v thou_o who_o be_v our_o god._n we_o all_o forsake_v thou_o the_o fountain_n of_o live_v water_n for_o the_o stink_a dirt_n of_o the_o world_n 217._o o_o we_o child_n of_o man_n how_o long_o shall_v we_o follow_v after_o lie_v and_o vanity_n who_o be_v it_o that_o have_v thus_o deceive_v we_o that_o we_o shall_v forsake_v god_n our_o great_a good_n who_o be_v it_o that_o speak_v the_o most_o truth_n to_o we_o who_o be_v it_o that_o love_v we_o most_o who_o defend_v we_o most_o who_o be_v it_o that_o do_v more_o to_o show_v himself_o a_o friend_n who_o more_o tender_a to_o show_v himself_o a_o spouse_n and_o more_o good_a to_o be_v a_o father_n that_o our_o blindness_n shall_v be_v so_o great_a that_o we_o shall_v all_o forsake_v this_o great_a and_o infinite_a goodness_n 218._o o_o divine_a lord_n what_o a_o few_o soul_n be_v there_o in_o the_o world_n which_o do_v serve_v thou_o with_o perfection_n how_o small_a be_v the_o number_n of_o those_o who_o be_v willing_a to_o suffer_v that_o they_o may_v follow_v christ_n crucify_v that_o they_o may_v embrace_v the_o cross_n that_o they_o may_v deny_v and_o contemn_v themselves_o o_o what_o a_o scarcity_n of_o soul_n be_v there_o which_o be_v disintere_v and_o total_o naked_a how_o few_o be_v those_o soul_n which_o be_v dead_a to_o themselves_o and_o alive_a to_o god_n which_o be_v total_o resign_v to_o his_o divine_a good_a pleasure_n how_o few_o those_o who_o be_v adorn_v with_o simple_a obedience_n profound_a knowledge_n of_o themselves_o and_o true_a humility_n how_o few_o those_o