motions as well carnall as spirituall a constant cleaving in thee the one and true God and a happy consummation of mine end And I beseech thee that thou wouldst vouchsafe to bring mee thy most unworthy â—inner to thatineffable Banquet where thou with thy Sonne and holy Spirit art true light full satiety sempiternall joy consummate gladnesse and perfect felicity to thy Saints Through the same Christ our Lord Amen Another Praier of S. Bonaventure O Most sweet Lord JESU transpierce the marrow and bowels of my soule with the most sweet and wholesome wound of thy love with cleare sincere and most holy Apostolicall Charity that my soule may languish and melt alwayes with the onely love and desire of thee Let her long and faint afâ—er thy Courts Let her desire to be dissolved and to be with thee Grant that my soule may hunger after thee the bread of Angels the repast of holy soules our dayly bread super-substantiall having all pleasantnesse of taste and all delight of sweetnesse May mine heart alwayes hunger and feed on thee on whom the Angels desire to looke and with the sweetnesse of thy taste let the bowels of my soule be filled May shee alwayes thirst after thee the fountaine of life the fountaine of Wisdome and Knowledge the fountaine of eternall Light the streame of pleasure the fulnesse of the house of God May shee alwayes looke about for thee seeke thee finde thee draw towards thee come to thee meditate of thee converse with thee doe all things to the praise and glory of thy name with humility and discretion with love and delectation with facility and affection with perseverance to my dissolution And bee thou alwayes my onely hope my whole trust my riches my delight my joy my gladnesse my quiet and tranquillity my peace my sweetnesse my perfume my solace my meat my repast my refuge my succour my wisdom my portion my possession my treasure wherin my mind and mine heart may be alwayes fixed grounded and unmoveably rooted Amen A PRAYER for all Judges and Justiciaries O Almighty God who judgest iniquity in equity and doest inscrutable things Thou who weighest the mountaines in a balance and wilt bring the Iudges of the Earth to judgement Direct their understandings to discerne what is right give them courage and resolution to doe what is right Give them wisdome in their waies faithfulnesse in their works uprightnesse in their walkes Remove from them covetousnesse and let it bee their ambition to advance thy glory Let neither rewards bee in their hands nor revenge in their hearts Take from them all drousinesse and dulnesse all security and remisnesse Imprint in their hearts a feare of thy name a reverence to thy throne and in all their judgements a sweet attemprature of meâ—cy and judgement Make them tremble when they call to mind whom they personate and imitate thee in being compassionate Let not the Orphans prayers nor the Widowes teares be unremembred seeing these are bottled up by thee let them not bee despised by them that represent thee O let righteousnesse drop upon the Earth that as dew falleth upon the grasse so every flowry border of this thine inclosed garden may bee watred by the dew of thy grace Suffer not this Iland to mourne nor her People to grone because of injustice oppression and wrong Put an hooke in the nostrils of all such imperious Iudges who take thy Law into their mouth and hate to be reformed As for those who turne Iudgement to wormewood and leave of righteousnes in the Earth These who buy the poore for silver and the needy for shoes These that put farre away the evill day and approch to the seâ—te of iniquity The Lord will be avenged of them Hee will mite the great house with breaches and the little house with clefts But remove these judgements from thine Israel O God May no corruption raigne in her Palaces nor iniquity in her pathes May a Zeale of thine house a feare of thy name a love of piety an hate to partiality seize upon the hearts of all Iudges and Iusticiaries in this Kingdome that they may execute their places without respect of persons and afterwards raigne with those three individuate Persons GOD the Father GOD the Sonne and GOD the holy Ghost Trinity in Unity and Unity in Trinity to whom bee all Glorie Amen A Prayer for Peace or tranquillity of Mind GRacious God who art a God of peace and hast pronounced a blessing upon those who make peace give mee that which thou blessest that I may enjoy what thou lovest embrace that which thou approvest affect that which thou commendest possesse that wherin thou delightest Thou knowest that debates variance and contention doe distract our devotion distemper the affection disquiet every good motion disturbe every pious intention Grant therfore I beseech thee that these differences to which I am ingaged or may hereafter bee intangled or inthralled be to the glory of thy great name the preservation of mine honest repute and fame and quiet of my affaires peaceably composed Cut out of mee towards my family all severity towards my familiars all disloyalty towards my Neighbours all extremity Grant mee peace of mind in my living peace of conscience at my dying and after death that peace which passeth all understanding Cause all tumults of the flesh to cease in mee all immoderate affections to decrease in mee all inordinate motions to dye in mee Sanctifie my heart purifie my mind direct my spirit erect my faith correct my life Remove from mee all occasions of difference that I may find quietnesse of conscience Grant that I may sow the seed of righteousnesse walke in the wayes of holynesse make profession of my faith with all singlenesse that I may come to the possession of happinesse Let mee seeks peace and ensue it Love thy Law and pursue it reforme thine Image and renue it Suffer not the tempests of this world to dismay mee the errors of this life to perplex mee or the terrors of death to appall mee I know O Lord affliction to bee bitter to him that suffers it impatiently but sweet to him that suffers it constantly Thou provest those thou lovest and afflictest those thou affectest Affliction then cannot be bitter when it maketh us better What though disgrace obscure mee wrongs inure mee reproach impeach mee injuries presse thicke upon mee I am made strong through him to beare them who bore the Crosse for me suffered all dishonour for mee shed his bloud for mee lost himselfe to finde mee became sold to redeeme mee racked upon the Crosse to reach mee a Crowne climing Mount Calvarie to mount mee to glory O make mee then ready in my suffering to imitate thee my Saviour Though warre assaile mee without give mee peace within Humble my Spirit that I may bee of that temper as I may still reflect upon the Image of my Saviour that living in his feare I may dye in his favour
sentence the Sonne for the servant was injuriously cast out of his inheritance by the husbandmen of the Vineyard the Law of Moses Therefore thy Apostle saith That Jesus might sanctifie us hee suffered without the gate And well it was that he suffered without that he might bring us back againe to within for we have entrance by his bloud But I beseech thee most loving Jesu from the very inward affection of mine heart by those paines with which as with most sharp arrowes thy most sweet heart was pierced and those of the Virgin thy blessed Mother at the hearing of that sentence of thycondemnation that I may deserve through thy merits to be delivered in the houre of my death and the last day of judgement from thatsharp and terrible word of the sentence of eternall damnation which thou wilt thunder out against the reprobates Depart from me yee cursed into everlasting fire prepared for the Devill and his angels Christ. Happy is he from whose memory the last judgement never departeth that by the feare thereof hee may preserve his life from naughtinesse and pleasure of the flesh For surely that judgement is highly to be feared wherin all things are made manifest without witnesses where the Hoast of all the Angels and Saints shall stand round about and every creature shall tremble with exceeding feare before my Tribunall seat What will they say then who in this short time have lived negligently and carelesly Meane time I expect you patiently and invite you all to my kingdome lovingly Time will come when I shall require an account of you for this your negligence and shall say unto you For you am I made crooked for you I say am I made crooked upon the earth for you am I scourged for you with spittings defiled for you is my face buffeted for you am I unjustly condemned for you am I crucified for you upon wood am I hanged with gall am I fed and with vinegar quenched that I might make you all Saints eternally crowned I have called you all my Brethren I have offered you to my Father I have sent you my holy Spirit I have promised sed to you Paradise What should I have done more and I have not done it that ye might be saved Tell me ye Sinners What have yee suffered for me your governour who when I was just suffered so great things for your sakes These truly shall bee demands proper for that day of judgement Sinner Alas miserable wretch that I am what shall I say or what shall I doe when I shall not bee able to shew ought that is good before so great a Judge Christ. Amend thy life while time is change thy manners overcome evill temptations by resisting punish sinnes committed by lamenting Let thy sinne find thee here a punisher that thou maist find me there no Judge but a Saviour If thou doest these things faithfully and with constant affiance thou shalt bee secure in the terrible day of vengeance Neither let the greatnesse of thy sinnes terrifie thee for I am much more mercifull than thou art finfull Surely great is thy misery but infinite is my mercy If thou bee asinfull man I am the Lamb of GOD that taketh away the sins of the world who came not to call the just but sinners In a word more mercy and love shalt thou finde in mee than thou darest either hope for or wish for A FAMILIAR Expostulation of the Flesh to GOD the Father â—ouching CHRIST By 〈…〉 Booke enâ—â—â—led Stimulus Amoris Cap. XIV GIve eare how the Flesh lifteth up the Soule against the Spirit contemplatively raised yea even against Christ. For saith the Flesh I preferre my complaint to thee God the Father just and of infinite mercy touching thy Sonne beseeching thee that thy justice would consider the injury done mee and that thy mercy would condescend to my misery This thy Sonne full of knowledge and power hath circumvented me by his wisdome and 〈…〉 violence by his power This thy Sonne by his wisdome cloathing himselfe with flesh became like unto mee and by his too much humilitie and ineffable benignitie craftily entred in upon me He became more humble than all hee became despicable to all hee tooke upon him the necessities of all he bore the infirmities of all he vouchsafed to be most cruelly crucified for all to be afflicted as well with compassion as in his most grievous passion through meere affection to all to expresse the love of his heart by the opening of his side and from thence to derive those Sacraments which gave remedy to all mankinde What should I say more Hee hath ordained his flesh for meat his bloud for drink and promised himselfe for a reward inasmuch as he girded himselfe and being to depart thence ministred to such as eat at thy table By all these meanes and many others which I neither know nor am able to declare hath hee not onely wondrously allured my Soule deputed to the support and comfort of mee but by entring in unto her hath so highly drawne her by his power and so joynd her unto him by his delights as now shee cares not at all for mee but rather afflicts dejects treads downe and vilifies mee and that which seemes grievouser than all things else she loves those that lay this disgrace on me remembring him or them more especially in her prayer who inferre these injuries on me and if none as yet be done mee shee desires that hereafter they may bee done me Thus am I mortified and she cares not Thus lye I grovelling in mud and shee rejoyceth Yea it is the very highest pitch of her desire to see my sorrow with new sorrow multiplied that my sorrow might bee more sensibly conceived This seemes to bee her glorie to bring injuries contumelies and whatsoever is worst upon me Thus leaves shee mee desolate and afflicted meane time it is her desire to remaine still with thy Sonne still to bee fed with his flesh made drunk with his bloud and wheresoever he is to be ever with him Now she appeareth like a small tender infant with him in the manger now she embraceth him in the armes of the blessed Virgin now is she nourished with him with the milke of the Virgin Now she hungers with him now shee thirsts with him now is shee spit upon with him now is shee wounded with him now is shee sorrowfull upon the Crosse with him now with thee in heaven rejoyceth she with him shee is comforted with him wheresoever hee goe shee goes with him shee cannot endure to bee from him shee can intend herselfe to nought without him What shall I say to thee O Father touching thy Sonne who hath made my soule given unto me so drunke with his love and thus estrang'd her from mee If hee hath robb'd mee thou maist command restitution to be made me Neither seemes it to me a small injury thus to deprive me of this precious and inestimable jewell
to goe back Let it not then delight thee to stand in the course of piety but endevour alwaies to walke in the way of the Lord. In thy conversation bee cheerefull to all distastefull to none familiar to few Live to Godward devoutly to thy selfe chastly to thy Neighbour justly Use thy friend as a pledge of affection thine enemy for a triall of thy patience all men to a well-disposed benevolence and wherein thou maist more effectually worke to beneficence While thou livest dye dayly to thy selfe and to thy vices So in thy death maist thou live to God Let meekenesse appeare in thy affection mildnesse in thy countenance humility in thy habit modesty in thy habitation patience in tribulation Let facility be in thine accesse decency in thy dresse humility in thy presence affability in thy discourse benignity in thy wayes charity in thy works Let constancy be in thine eie content in thy chest temperance in thy cup. Observe moderation in thy desires discretion in thy delights Think alwaies of those 3. things past Evil committed Good omitted Time mis-speÌ„ded Think alwaies of these 3. things present â—he shortnes of this present life the difficulty of being saved the fewnesse of those that are to be saved Think alwayes of these three things to come Death than which nothing is more horrible Judgement than which nothing is more terrible the paine of Hell than which nothing more intolerable Let thine Evening Prayers redeeme the sinnes of the forepast day let the last day of the weeke reforme the offences of the dayes gone before Thinke in the Evening how many soules are that same day thrown head-long into Hell and give thankes unto God for that hee hath given thee time to repent in There be three things above thee which ought never to depart from thy memory That Eye which seeth all things that Eare which heareth all things and those bookes wherein all things are recorded Wholly hath God communicated himselfe to thee communicate thy selfe likewise wholly to thy neighbour That is the best life which is wholly employed to the behoofe and benefit of others Render to thy superiour obedience and reverence to thy equall counsell and assistance to thy inferiour succour supportance Let thy body be subjected to thy mind and thy mind to God Bewaile thy evils past disesteeme thy goods present covet with all the desire of thine heart those goods to come Remember thy sin that thou maist grieve Remember thy death that thou maist cease from sinne Remember Gods justice that thou maist feare Remember Gods mercy lest thou despaire Withdraw thy selfe as much as thou canst from the World and devote thy selfe wholly to the service of God Thinke alwayes how chastity is endangerd by delicacy humility by prosperity and piety by employments transitory Desire to please none but Christ feare to displease none but Christ. Beseech God alwayes that as he bids what he would so he would doe what hee bids that hee would protect what is done and direct in what is to bee done Endevour thy selfe to bee what thou wouldst have thy self thought to be for God judgeth not according to the outward semblance but according to the inward substance In thy discourse beware of much speech because account shall be required of every vaine word Whatsoever thy works bee they passe not away but as certaine seeds of eternity are they bestowed if thou sow according to the flesh from the flesh shalt thou reape corruption if thou sow after the Spirit from the Spirit shalt thou reap the reward of eternall retribution After death neither shall the honours of this World follow thee nor heaps of riches favour thee nor pleasures enjoy thee nor the vanities of this World possesse thee but after the fatall and full period of this life all thy works shall follow thee As then thou desirest to appeare in the day of judgement appeare such in the sight of God at this present Thinke not with thy selfe what thou hast but rather what thou wantst Pride not thy selfe for that which is given thee but rather become humbled for that which is deni'd thee Learne to live now while thou maist live In this time is eternall life either got or lost After death there remains no time for working for then begins the time of rewarding In the life to come is not expected any worke but payment for the worke Holy Meditation may beget in thee knowledge knowledge compunction compunction devotion devotion may produce prayer Great good for peace of the heart is the silence of the mouth By how much more as thou art divided from the World so much more acceptable art thou unto God Whatsoever thou desirest to have aske it of God whatsoever thou already hast attribute it to God He is not worthy to receive more who is not thankfull for what he hath received Then stops the course or current of Gods grace to man when man makes no recourse by thankfulnesse to God Whatsoever befals thee turne it to good so often as prosperity comes upon thee thinke how occasion of blessing and praising God is ministred unto thee againe so often as adversity aâ—â—ayles thee thinke how these are admonitions for the repentance and conversion of thee Shew the force of thy power in helping the force of thy wisdome in instructing the force of thy wealth in releeving Neither let Adversity bruise thee nor Prosperity raise thee Let Christ be thy scope of thy life whom thou art to follow here in the way that thou maist come to him there in thy countrey Amongst all other things let profound humility ardent Charity be thy greatest care Let charity raise thine heart unto God that thou maist cleave unto him Let humility depresse thine heart lesâ— thou becom proud so leave him Esteem God a Father for his clemency a Lord for his discipline a Father for his sweet power a Lord for his severe power Love him as a Father devoutly feare him as a Lord necessarily Love him because he will have mercy Feare him because he will not suffer sin Feare the Lord and trust in him acknowledge thy misery and declare his mercy O God thou who hast given us to will give us likewise to performe THE SORROWFULL Soules solace Gathered from Saint Augustine in his Tract Upon the 62. Psalme Upon these words My Soule thirsteth for thee my Flesh also longeth after thee BEhold here how the Soule thirsteth and see how good it is for the Soule that thirsteth to wit because shee thirsteth after thee There are who thirst but not after God Every one that would in his owne behalfe have ought performed is in heat of desire till he have it effected and this desire is the thirst of the Soule Now see what various desires are in the hearts of men One desireth gold another silver one desireth possessions another inheritances one store of money another stock of cattle one a faire house another a wife one honours another children You see
it in your Businesse love it in your Wives love it in your Children love it in your Servants love it in your Friends love it in your Enemies This is that peace which Heretiques have not Now what doth peace here amidst the uncertainties of this Region in this Pilgrimage of our mortality where as yet no one is transparent to another none seeth the heart of another what doth peace It judgeth not of things uncertaine it confirmes not things unknowne It is apter to conceit well of man than evilly to suspect him It grieves her not much to have erred in conceiving a good opinion of him that was ill-affected But dangerous it is to conceit ill of him who perchance is good not knowing how hee is disposed whom we so rashly judged What doe I lose if I beleeve such an one is good If it be uncertaine whether he be evill albeit you are to be cautelous whether this be so yet are you not to condemne him as if it were so this Peace commandeth Seeke peace and ensue it Heresie what doth it teach It condemnes those it knowes not it condemnes the whole World We do now desire that peace which we have here in hope For as yet what peace is there in us The flesh lusteth against the Spirit and the Spirit against the flesh Where is there full peace in any one man when shall it be full in any one man Even then when it shall be full in all the citizens of Hierusalem When shall there be full peace When this corruptible hath put on incorruption and this mortall hath put on immortality then shall there be full peace then firme peace Nothing then contesteth against the soule in man shee is not against her selfe nor in any part wounded there is no frailty of the flesh no corporall want no hunger no thirst no heat no cold no wearinesse no want no provoking to wrath nor surely any cautelous care of avoyding a foe or affecting a friend All these things my Brethren fight against us wee have not yet full and perfect peace In that ye have cryed who even now hearing the name of peace out of your desire to peace have cryed this cry of yours proceeded from thirst not from fulnesse THe same Father Augustine a glorious Light of the Church a constant Champion for the truth and a powerfull evincer of all such Errors as opposed the Truth in his love to peace composed likewise this sweet Meditation to beget in every devout heart the like affection Gathered out of his Tract upon the 36. Psal. Upon these words Meeke men shall possesse the Earth and shall have their delight in the multitude of peace Ver. 23. Upon which with a passionate devotion an affectionate passion hee analiseth thus This Earth whereof we have so often spoken is holy Hierusalem The Meeke shall be delivered from this their pilgrimage and shall live for ever with God and of God Therefore shall they possesse the Earth for an inheritance And what shall their riches be They shall be delighted in the multitude of peace For the wicked hee may be delighted in the multitude of Gold in the multitude of Silver in the multitude of Servants lastly in the multitude and store of Wealth of delicious Wines sumptuous and luxurious Feasts But admit hee should be alwayes stored alwayes in these suted were not his case to be lamented But what shall be thy riches what shall bee thy dainties Multitude of peace Thy Gold shall bee peace thy Silver peace thy Farmes peace thy Life peace thy God peace Whatsoever thou desirest shall be to thee peace That which is here Gold cannot be unto thee Silver That which is Wine cannot bee unto thee Bread That which is unto thee Light cannot be drinke whereas thy God shall bee to thee all things Thou shalt eat him and never hunger Drinke him and never thirst Be enlightned by him and never become blind Bee supported by him and never faile Hee wholly shall possesse thee wholly and entirely Thou shalt suffer there no extremities for another have him with whom thou shalt possesse all enjoy all and hee enjoy thee all who is all in all because thou and hee who is joyned in societie with thee shall be one Which one God himself shall wholly enjoy in you who shall possesse you This is the end of a man that loveth peace ☞ Summa â—hilosophia Crucis Scientia ☜ Christi vita Christiani Philosophia Christian Philosophy A Meditation culled out of S. Augustine in his Tract upon the 148. Psalme upon these words His praise is above the earth and the heavens for he hath exalted the horne of his people Ver. 13. WHat is his Praise in Heaven and in Earth Is it because he praiseth No But because all things praise him all things cry unto to him the beauty of all things is in some sort the voyce of those which praise the Lord. The Heaven cryeth to the Lord Thou hast made me not I my selfe The Earth cryeth Thou hast fashioned me not I my selfe How then doe these cry When thou considâ—rest these and findest this in these out of thy consideration they cry out of thy voyce they cry His praise is in Heaven and in Earth Consider the Heaven it is beautifull consider the Earth it is beautifull both of them are together very beautifull It is he that made them he that guides them it is his command that governs them It is hee that alters times supplies moments Even Hee of himselfe supplies them All things therefore doe praise him whether they be in station or motion whether they be from Earth below or from Heaven above whether they be in declining or renewing When thou seest these and rejoycest in these and art lifted up in Contemplation to Him that made these and considerest how these invisible things of his are understood by these which are made then is His praise in Heaven and in Earth that is thou praisest him for things earthly thou praisest him for things heavenly And because Hee made all things and that there is nothing better than Him whatsoever He made is below Him and whatsoever seemes pleasing in these is lesse pleasing than Hee is Let nothing then so much please thee in these which he hath made as He himselfe by whom they were made But if so thou love this which He hath made thou art much more to love Him by whom they were made If these be so beautifull which He hath made much more beautifull is Hee by whom they were made His praise is in Heaven and in Earth and he shall exalt the horne of his people Now in this Vale of teares and field of tares is the Horne of his people humbled in threshings tribulations temptations beating of brests When shall the Horne of his people be exalted When the Lord himselfe shall come and our Sun shall arise not this which is seene with our eyes and ariseth on the good and evill but
as they do other most holy things if thou canst have them cause them to be applyed unto thee For even this verie holy persons of both sexes and famous for their miracles have formerly done An Exercise wherein the sick person with sighs and groanes because otherwise it can scarcely be done may resigne himselfe unto God and fervently desire that he may deserve to be joyned unto him O Most faithfull Lover most mercifull Lord Jesu Christ grant unto mee that with heart and mind I may feele what I say As the Hart brayeth for the rivers of water so panteth my Soule after thee ô my God I have chosen to be an Abject in the house of the Lord rather than to dwell in the Tabernacle of sinners Blessed are they that dwell in thy house ô Lord for ever and ever shall they praise thee My Soule hath thirsted after thee ô God when shall I come and appeare before thy face Why art thou sorrowfull ô my Soule and why art thou so disquieted within mee Trust in the Lord therefore will I now confesse my selfe unto him the Salvation of my countenance and my God Shew the light of thy countenance upon thy servant ô Lord save me for thy mercies sake Let me not be confounded for ever for I have called upon thee Be not far from mee ô my God Looke downe upon mee and help mee ô my God The poore is left unto thee Thou wilt be the Orphans helper Thou art my refuge in my tribulation which hath compassed mee O my joy deliver me from these that encompasse mee Make hast to helpe mee ô Lord God of my Salvation For thou art my strength and my refuge my helper and my protector Doe not then leave me nor despise me ô God of my salvation Behold I come unto thee ô my God whom I have despised and offended for the whole earth is full of thy mercie Therefore doe I flie unto thee my most mercifull Father Receive mee according to thy word when thou sayest I WILL NOT THE DEATH OF A SINNER and let mee live and confound mee not in my hope O my God I doe not pray unto thee for a life temporall but I call upon thee for the Salvation of my Soule who art life eternall O my sweet Lover O my Lord God for as much as I have offended thee for that I have neglected thine inspirations and admonitions for that I have at any time loved ought beâ—ide thee or without thee for this O my Lord God for this doe I grieve And I beseech thee that thou wouldest give unto mee so much grace as I may with all mine heart grieve aâ—d lament during everie moment of my life Would to God that I might poure out and offer unto thee everie drop of my bloud with teares for griefe and love into thy most sweet heart O sweet Jesu I neither desire nor expect of thee life nor death but thy good will and pleasure may it be done unto mee according to thy will If it be thy will O my sweet Jesu that I shall dye receive my spirit And although I come in the Evening as the verie last of all grant unto mee that I may receive eternall rest with thee and in thee But if it be thy will that I shall live longer O sweet Jesu I purpose this and I crave the assistance of thy grace for this to amend the rest of my life and to offer my selfe wholly as a burnt Sacrifice unto thee to thy glorie and according to thy good will and pleasure O most desired Jesu for as much as I have consumed my life in sin to the reproch of thy glorious name nor to this day have begun to serve thee grant unto mee that I may now at last perfectly begin and employ all the powers of my Soule anâ— Body and all the remainder of my time given mee by thee to thy glorie and according to thy best and most perfect will O most mercifull Jesu be thou neare mee in these my paines and miseries with which I am straitened and iâ— any more grievous than these shall come upon mee for that I have deserved not onely more grievous but most grievous by reason of my sins grant that I may patiently beare them O sweet Jesu if I had never at any time sinned nor at thine hand evilly deserved notwithstanding to thy glorie and for thy love good will and pleasure I offer and resigne my selfe unto thee either in these or any other punishments to deale with mee according to thy will not my worth but in the multitude of thy mercies on which I relye and on which I call that by thy power thou wouldest raise and rouze up the frailtie of my flesh and strengthen with longanimitie and confirme with patience the pusillanimitie and instabilitie of my Spirit that I may not â—all downe as one either vanquished with tentation or faint through pusillanimitie but swallowed up with the most burning heat of thy love I may onely sigh after thee onely desire thee and leave loath and contemne the world with all that is in it giving thee thanks with all mine heart for all things whether ministring unto me occasion of joy or sorrow O most loving Jesu I chuse thee I wish thee I desire thee I meet thee and I renounce whatsoever thou art not in mee what thou willest I will what thou nillest I nill whatsoever thou abhorrest I abjure And though sometimes that 〈◊〉 is contrarie to this will in mee may be incident unto mee I beseech thee O my God that thou wouldst not impute it unto mee nor judge mee according to that depravednesse of Will in mee but according to this Election of my mind by thy grace wrought in mee Because I contradict all those things which I ought not to will yea though which for thy mercie sake avert I hereafter vanquished should consent unto yet now doe I accurse and abjure them O most loving Jesu if it please thee and redound to thy glorie grant unto mee that I may be preâ—erved in this life from all sins and punishments into which after death I ought otherwiâ—â— to come to which I am subject or may possibly come and that thou wouldst receive my Soule by the hand of thy mercie immediately from this life to eternall joyes O Lord Iesu Christ receive my Spirit c. A CHRISTIANS LAST-WILL OR TESTAMENT Containing A PROTESTATION or Testament not unprofitable to be repeated or meditated of everie Christian at the point of death Composed as may be probably gathered by JOANNES LANSPER GENSIS and faithfully rendred according to the Originall A CHRISTIANS LAST-WILL OR TESTAMENT Containing A Protestation or Testament not unprofitable to be repeated or meditated of everie Christian at the point of death Composed as may be probably gathered by JOANNES LANSPER GENSIS and faithfully rendred according to the Originall IN the name of the Father and the Son and Holy Ghost I. M. an unhappie Sinner redeemed with
I can by no meanes nor measure compare mine understanding to it yet I desire in some sort to understand thy truth which mine heart beleeveth and loveth Neither doe I beleeve to understand that I may beleeve but I beleeve that I may understand For this likewise I beleeve that unlesse I beleeve I shall not understand Therefore O Lord thou who givest understanding to faith give unto mee that I may understand so much as thou knowest to be expedient for mee for thou art as wee beleeve and this thou art which wee beleeve true God who livest and reignest world without end DEAHTS Memoriall The Child of God thinkes willingly of death To rest with Him who after death gives breath NOw to shut up all with that which closeth all by imposing a Period upon all We are to consider now when the sinfull soule beginneth to be loosened from these bonds of flesh with what bitter terror shee is afflicted with what stings of a biting conscience shee is distracted Shee remembers the things forbidden her which shee hath committed Shee considers the things commanded her which shee hath negligently contemned she bemoanes those opportunate times of repentance offer'd her and which shee so fruitlesly apprehended shee bewailes that immoveable article of strict revenge inevitably approching her She h 'as had sufficient time of sojourning here shee is now compelled to goe hence Shee would regaine that which shee h'as lost but she is not heard Behind her shee beholds the whole course of her forepast life all which shee accounts as one short pace She casts her eyes upon her selfe and collects the space of an infinite perpetuity She laments therefore in that she h'as lost what in so short a space she might have got the joy of all ages She bemoanes her selfe in that for so short a pleasure of fleshly delight she h'as lost the unspeakable sweetnesse of perpetuall solace Shee blusheth in that for this substance which is subject to wormes shee h'as neglected that which was to have beene ranked amongst Quires of Angels Now she lifteth up the beames of her minde and no sooner beholdeth the glory of immortall riches than shee becomes confounded for that she h'as lost them for the poverty of this life Againe when shee casteth her eyes under her in a despicable reflex upon the valley of this world and eying it to be nothing but darknesse but above her wonders at the beautie of that eternall light she clearly sees that it was night and darknesse which shee loved O that shee might but purchase some small remainder of time for repentance what a sharp course of conversation would she take upon her what and how great things would shee promise with what vows of devotioÌ„ would shee enwreath her In the meane time while her divine eyes grow darke while her heart beats while her hoarse throat gaspes her teeth grow by little and little black and draw as it were unto them a certaine rust her countenance becomes pale and all her members stiffe While these then and such like as forerunning offices of approching death attend her all her works and words present themselves before her nay not her very thoughts are absent and all these bring in bitter testimony against their author All these are heaped together before the eyes of her viewing them so as even those things which she shunneth to behold she is inforced though against her will to take notice of Besides all this there is here an horrid troupe of Devils and there a glorious traine of Angels By that which appears betwixt them may be clearly perceived which of them h'as most property in her For if tokens of piety bee discovered in her shee is cheared with the delights of an angelick invitation and allured with the sweetnesse of an harmonious melodie to go forth But if the blacknesse of her merits and the impurity of her foule and filthy life adjudge her to the left hand presently with an intolerable terrour shee becomes surprized with the violence of a sudden force she is disturbed dejected invaded and from the prison of miserable flesh violently haled that to eternall torments with bitternesse shee may be tugged Now after her departure from the body who can utter what armed troopes or Squadrons of wicked Spirits lye in ambush for her what treacherous traines furnished with cruell tortures besiege the way that receives her And lest the soule should escape theÌ„ legions of furies as it were in military rankes or battalions inclose her This and â—uâ—h like frequently to meditate of in thine heart what else is it than to shunne delightfull blandishments to be divorc'd from the world and to shake off unlawfull motions of the flesh and constantly to retaine the sole purpose of attaining perfection Which that wee may doe God for his mercy grant us Amen Sedeo Sileo Signo Deaths distinction O My soule good is the death of the just in respect of tranquillity better in respect of novelty best in respect of security Contrariwise the death of sinners is the worst and rightly the worst evill in losing the world worse in parting from the flesh but worst in that twofold anâ— guish of a worme never dying and a fire ever burning and which is worst of all in being deprived of divine contemplation HOLY MEMORIALS Or Heavenly Memento's Memor fui Domini Delectatus sum A bono die bonum opus suscipiamus ab illo die in quo veluti Christus ascenderit piis desideriis ascendamus Of his Conception MEMORIALL I. I Was not and thou didst make mee I had no being and thou gave it mee I was conceived in sinne before I conceived what was Sin Nature laid on mee a staine before she brought mee to a visible state My bloud was corrupted before ever I entred Tainted it was when Eve was tempted and weakely consented Thus did my parents make mee forlorne before ever I was borne Even then wheÌ„ the second skin was my coat was Sin my Cognizance Seeds of sin sprung in mee before the Light tooke notice of mee And these had their rooting from those that bred mee Long before I had abilitie to sin were all my members made instruments of sinne Before I had the use of any sense sin had made a slave of every sense For mine eyes while they were as yet sealed sights of sin had enter'd theÌ„ For mine eares though they were as then closed ayres of sin had pierced them For my taste before I enjoy'd it an Apple had poyson'd it For my Touch before I employ'd it had Eves pulse soiled it For my Smell before I knew how to use it had the steames of earth choaked it I was shut up as one in darknesse and darke I was within as well as without by means of mine originall uncleanenesse I conversed with none none with mee my mothers wombe was that living tombe which inclosed mee Thus before ever I saw the Sun became I a growing lump of sin