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happiness_n of_o a_o good_a m_o n_z above_o the_o wicked_a that_o the_o lord_n stand_v at_o the_o right_a hand_n of_o the_o one_o and_o the_o devil_n at_o the_o right_n haâ—d_a of_o the_o other_o psal_n 109.31_o compareâ—_n with_o the_o 6._o verse_n this_o day_n i_o be_v learning_n that_o a_o christian_n shall_v endeavour_v to_o perform_v all_o his_o duty_n 1._o more_o entire_o or_o with_o his_o whole_a heart_n psal_n 111.1_o &_o 119._o 2._o 2._o more_o delightful_o psal_n 119.16.53_o 47_o 70._o rom._n 7.22_o 3._o with_o more_o judgement_n and_o discretion_n psal_n 112_o 5._o 4._o with_o perseverance_n col._n 4.2_o this_o morning_n i_o be_v overcome_v with_o passion_n and_o frowardness_n which_o make_v i_o inquire_v into_o the_o reason_n of_o that_o and_o other_o corruption_n i_o be_v observe_v this_o that_o it_o be_v a_o mercy_n to_o have_v the_o soul_n come_v to_o its_o place_n again_o after_o sin_n but_o far_o better_v not_o to_o go_v out_o of_o its_o place_n at_o all_o this_o night_n i_o have_v a_o very_a sore_n and_o strong_a temptation_n but_o be_v through_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n support_v and_o strengthen_v from_o the_o consideration_n of_o christ_n that_o be_v tempt_v who_o consider_v those_o that_o be_v tempt_v also_o from_o his_o prayer_n john_n 17.11_o and_o from_o those_o two_o promise_n isa_n 59.19_o james_n 4.7_o i_o flee_v to_o the_o lord_n by_o prayer_n and_o he_o deliver_v i_o and_o i_o trust_v he_o also_o will_v deliver_v i_o be_v the_o lord_n day_n i_o have_v my_o heart_n in_o a_o reasonable_a good_a frame_n in_o the_o morning_n in_o prayer_n i_o be_v observe_v that_o god_n exalt_v himself_o even_o then_o when_o he_o humble_v himself_o to_o look_v on_o man_n psal_n 113.6_o mark_fw-mi i_o find_v my_o heart_n much_o raise_v and_o enlarge_v in_o prayer_n for_o god_n work_n and_o people_n &_o have_v faith_n therein_o i_o observe_v from_o isa_n 38.17_o for_o peace_n i_o have_v great_a bitterness_n etc._n etc._n i_o learn_v that_o a_o christian_n condition_n be_v murable_a and_o therefore_o he_o shall_v be_v content_v with_o his_o condition_n what_o ever_o it_o be_v and_o whether_o comfortable_a or_o miserable_a he_o shall_v look_v that_o god_n may_v soon_o alter_v it_o and_o he_o shall_v not_o desire_v to_o go_v out_o of_o one_o state_n into_o another_o till_o he_o have_v get_v good_a by_o be_v in_o the_o former_a 2._o that_o god_n love_n be_v not_o only_o see_v in_o the_o remove_a affliction_n from_o we_o but_o in_o afflict_v of_o we_o also_o 3._o that_o god_n people_n shall_v learn_v to_o gain_v assurance_n and_o experience_n by_o affliction_n this_o evening_n i_o be_v much_o refresh_v in_o read_v bains_n upon_o the_o ephes_n especial_o one_o chap._n the_o 1.13_o and_o the_o 4.30_o concern_v the_o seal_n of_o the_o spirit_n this_o day_n i_o observe_v the_o duty_n and_o resolution_n of_o a_o sincere_a christian_a viz._n to_o walk_v before_o the_o lord_n psal_n 116.9_o gen._n 24.40_o i_o be_v also_o think_v how_o necessary_a it_o be_v for_o a_o right_a christian_n that_o desire_v to_o walk_v holy_o to_o observe_v careful_o the_o inward_a working_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n as_o also_o the_o secret_a way_n and_o method_n of_o sin_n i_o be_v convince_v also_o how_o uneffectual_a it_o be_v for_o a_o christian_n to_o promise_v or_o resolve_v any_o thing_n in_o his_o own_o strength_n i_o learn_v from_o david_n that_o he_o oft_o mention_n serve_v and_o seek_v god_n with_o his_o whole_a heart_n which_o dutieâ—_n i_o love_v and_o will_v learn_v more_o experimental_o and_o practical_o according_a to_o psal_n 112.2.10.34.69_o this_o day_n i_o be_v enlarge_v and_o somewhat_o soften_v in_o the_o duty_n of_o prayer_n several_a time_n and_o convince_v what_o a_o evil_a it_o be_v in_o god_n sight_n 1._o to_o be_v long_o under_o affliction_n unhumble_v and_o uncleanse_v jer._n 44.10_o jos_n 22.17_o and_o especial_o to_o sin_v witting_o and_o to_o add_v sin_n to_o sin_n i_o be_v consider_v of_o four_o duty_n to_o repent_v for_o sin_n to_o redeem_v time_n to_o get_v full_a assurance_n and_o to_o prepare_v for_o christ_n i_o be_v also_o affect_v with_o some_o news_n that_o concern_v the_o people_n of_o god_n this_o day_n i_o be_v observe_v that_o though_o a_o true_a christian_a may_v have_v a_o sound_a heart_n and_o faith_n in_o the_o word_n of_o the_o lord_n yet_o he_o may_v be_v as_o a_o bottle_n in_o the_o smoke_n dry_a and_o wither_a yea_o and_o faint_v and_o failâ—ing_v for_o the_o lord_n and_o his_o salvation_n psal_n 119.80_o 81_o 82_o 83._o i_o learn_v this_o also_o that_o disappointment_n â—n_v one_o expectation_n cause_v dejection_n and_o trouble_n this_o day_n have_v have_v a_o long_a and_o serious_a discourse_n with_o a_o know_a gentleman_n i_o observe_v somewhat_o more_o than_o even_o i_o have_v do_v before_o concern_v the_o image_n of_o god_n and_o the_o new_a man_n mention_v in_o ephes_n â—_o 24._o col._n 3.10_o i_o have_v consideration_n also_o that_o child_n of_o god_n may_v easy_o see_v to_o the_o end_n of_o or_o beyond_o all_o that_o the_o man_n of_o the_o world_n can_v do_v to_o he_o i_o have_v some_o inlargedness_n and_o softness_n of_o heart_n in_o prayer_n also_o i_o observe_v several_a thing_n from_o 1._o thess_n 2._o i_o observe_v the_o follow_a lesson_n 1._o that_o by_o gain_v understanding_n from_o and_o delight_v in_o the_o statute_n and_o precept_n of_o the_o lord_n a_o christian_n come_v to_o hate_v every_o false_a and_o wicked_a way_n psal_n 119.97.104_o 2._o to_o seek_v to_o get_v a_o heart_n incline_v always_o to_o perform_v god_n statute_n verse_n 112._o 3._o that_o when_o a_o soul_n have_v a_o intention_n to_o keep_v god_n commandment_n he_o will_v abstain_v from_o the_o company_n of_o evil_a doer_n verse_n 115._o i_o have_v great_a trouble_n and_o sorrow_n in_o my_o heart_n in_o the_o evening_n from_o a_o letter_n i_o have_v from_o a_o brother_n tuâ—ned_v quaker_n but_o my_o heart_n be_v much_o draw_v forth_o to_o to_o pray_v for_o he_o this_o day_n be_v lord_n day_n in_o the_o morning_n i_o have_v my_o heart_n draw_v forth_o again_o to_o pray_v earnest_o for_o that_o brother_n and_o have_v my_o spirit_n several_a time_n somewhat_o revive_v this_o day_n and_o among_o several_a other_o thing_n which_o i_o observe_v 1._o that_o a_o child_n of_o god_n be_v alter_v much_o in_o the_o frame_n of_o his_o spirit_n from_o better_a to_o worse_o as_o baruch_n also_o jonah_n etc._n etc._n 2._o that_o a_o time_n of_o common_a calamity_n it_o will_v be_v a_o mercy_n for_o a_o religious_a man_n to_o have_v his_o life_n as_o baruch_n be_v p_o omise_v to_o have_v jer._n 45.5_o 3._o i_o observe_v how_o god_n may_v punish_v a_o good_a man_n in_o the_o same_o kind_n that_o he_o sin_n as_o asa_n with_o pain_n in_o his_o foot_n aâ—_n he_o have_v put_v the_o prophet_n in_o the_o stock_n before_o 2._o chron._n 16.10_o &_o 12_o compare_v 4._o oh_o what_o a_o evil_a it_o be_v in_o a_o christian_a to_o sin_n david_n be_v tell_v that_o he_o despise_v the_o lord_n and_o his_o commandment_n 2_o samuel_n 12.8.10_o 5._o from_o ezek._n 10.11_o that_o the_o wheel_n that_o be_v either_o they_o angel_n saint_n or_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n they_o follow_v the_o head_n and_o turn_v not_o as_o they_o go_v so_o shall_v we_o follow_v christ_n 6._o it_o be_v observable_a that_o god_n take_v notice_n of_o all_o that_o be_v in_o the_o mind_n of_o man_n ezek._n 11.5_o as_o well_o as_o all_o the_o word_n in_o their_o tongue_n as_o the_o frame_n of_o man_n spirit_n so_o they_o think_v of_o god_n for_o if_o they_o be_v holy_a and_o faithful_a they_o conceive_v so_o of_o god_n this_o day_n also_o i_o find_v the_o evil_a of_o my_o heart_n to_o be_v in_o one_o frame_n when_o it_o shall_v be_v in_o another_o as_o to_o rejoice_v when_o it_o shall_v mourn_v i_o lose_v oppertunity_n this_o day_n to_o serve_v the_o lord_n by_o discourse_n with_o several_a sort_n of_o person_n especial_o some_o that_o pretend_v to_o the_o virgin_n life_n who_o mighty_o sleight_v jesus_n of_o nazareth_n and_o the_o scripture_n which_o make_v i_o strong_o oppose_v they_o and_o do_v with_o they_o as_o the_o apostle_n command_v 2._o john_n 10._o that_o promise_n also_o be_v sweet_a unto_o i_o psal_n 121.3_o he_o will_v not_o suffer_v thy_o foot_n to_o be_v move_v this_o day_n in_o the_o morning_n and_o at_o noon_n i_o have_v my_o heart_n draw_v out_o and_o soften_v more_o than_o ordinary_a in_o prayer_n yet_o i_o find_v my_o heart_n sudden_o move_v to_o anger_n this_o be_v in_o divers_a sense_n a_o day_n of_o great_a kindness_n from_o the_o lord_n i_o be_v observe_v from_o hos_n 12._o 1._o that_o fear_n care_n and_o tremble_a be_v especial_a mean_n to_o keep_v the_o
i_o have_v my_o heart_n several_a time_n in_o a_o good_a frame_n of_o prayer_n five_o i_o learned_a f_o on_fw-we psal_n 149.2.4_o how_o it_o be_v mutual_o between_o god_n and_o his_o people_n they_o joy_v in_o he_o and_o he_o take_v pleasure_n in_o they_o i_o also_o be_v think_v of_o the_o ground_n of_o saint_n doubt_n about_o their_o salvation_n viz._n ignorance_n in_o the_o covenant_n of_o grace_n want_v of_o observe_v their_o heart_n of_o keep_v up_o holiness_n slothfulness_n and_o favour_v some_o secret_a sin_n and_o not_o profit_v by_o ordinance_n i_o be_v nothing_o that_o the_o wicked_a be_v not_o ashamed_a to_o profess_v that_o they_o endeavour_v hurt_v to_o the_o righteous_a without_o a_o cause_n prov._n 1.11_o and_o that_o the_o godly_a shall_v gâ—ow_v more_o bold_a by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o their_o affliction_n increase_n 1._o thess_n 2.2_o i_o have_v my_o heart_n this_o day_n so_o tn_v in_o pâ—â—yer_n i_o be_v this_o day_n convince_v of_o the_o negligence_n in_o that_o duty_n of_o desire_v to_o see_v the_o face_n of_o the_o saint_n as_o paul_n do_v 1._o thess_n 3.11_o i_o receive_v a_o special_a letter_n this_o day_n from_o our_o dear_a brother_n i._o b._n which_o suit_v much_o with_o my_o condition_n and_o judgement_n i_o learn_v a_o word_n from_o one_o that_o i_o can_v not_o expect_v such_o word_n viz._n i_o do_v not_o heretofore_o prize_v neither_o great_a thing_n that_o be_v temporal_a of_o spiritual_a but_o now_o i_o prize_v the_o least_o thing_n of_o either_o sort_n from_o 2._o cor._n 7._o chap._n 4_o 5_o 6._o i_o observe_v 1._o that_o in_o the_o great_a trouble_n god_n people_n may_v have_v the_o great_a comfort_n 2._o that_o their_o comfort_n be_v original_o from_o god_n 3._o that_o god_n may_v send_v in_o these_o comfort_n at_o such_o time_n and_o in_o such_o a_o manner_n as_o they_o expect_v not_o this_o evening_n my_o soul_n be_v a_o little_a refresh_v by_o divers_a promise_n and_o soften_v in_o prayer_n be_v the_o lord_n day_n i_o observe_v from_o prov._n 3.16_o in_o all_o thy_o way_n acknowledge_v he_o that_o godliness_n be_v a_o eye_v of_o god_n own_v of_o god_n imitate_v of_o god_n and_o respect_v of_o god_n in_o all_o our_o way_n and_o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o these_o two_o follow_a question_n i_o have_v many_o thought_n some_o of_o which_o be_v refresh_v and_o satisfy_v to_o i_o from_o the_o first_o question_n how_o we_o may_v know_v that_o we_o have_v receive_v real_a good_a &_o benefit_n by_o our_o affliction_n second_o how_o we_o may_v know_v when_o god_n do_v afflict_v in_o love_n and_o faithfulness_n psal_n 119.75.71_o also_o divers_a other_o meditation_n from_o rev._n 12.10_o they_o overcome_v by_o the_o word_n of_o their_o testimony_n and_o by_o the_o blood_n of_o the_o lamb_n etc._n etc._n and_o concern_v the_o spiritual_a race_n which_o a_o christian_a be_v to_o run_v i_o have_v some_o enlargedness_n and_o tenderness_n of_o heart_n god_n according_a to_o his_o usual_a way_n and_o deal_n with_o i_o foresee_v what_o i_o can_v not_o to_o wit_n more_o approach_a affliction_n do_v this_o day_n administer_v a_o antidote_n even_o comfort_n by_o letter_n from_o the_o hand_n of_o several_a special_a friend_n also_o those_o word_n keep_v sound_a wisdom_n keep_v my_o say_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o thy_o heart_n and_o keep_v thy_o heart_n with_o all_o diligence_n be_v i_o adjudge_v word_n worthy_a of_o observation_n hear_v this_o evening_n of_o a_o gracious_a brother_n and_o preacher_n sickness_n my_o heart_n be_v move_v earnest_o to_o pray_v for_o he_o i_o observe_v in_o the_o morning_n a_o special_a exhortaion_n out_o of_o prov._n 5.1_o my_o son_n attend_v unto_o my_o wisdom_n and_o bow_v thy_o ear_n unto_o my_o understanding_n also_o verse_n the_o 23._o that_o sin_n be_v a_o great_a folly_n so_o chap._n 18.13_o judg._n 19.23_o this_o day_n i_o receive_v a_o sad_a letter_n from_o a_o brother_n t._n e._n that_o be_v turn_v quaker_n which_o add_v much_o â—o_o my_o affliction_n the_o good_a lord_n show_v he_o the_o eâ—or_n â—or_z of_o his_o way_n and_o humble_a and_o reclaim_v he_o this_o day_n i_o be_v sensible_a of_o my_o aptness_n to_o be_v angry_a and_o be_v put_v serious_o to_o inquire_v into_o the_o voice_n and_o will_v of_o god_n by_o these_o additional_a affliction_n and_o i_o find_v a_o need_n of_o the_o continuance_n of_o they_o and_o my_o heart_n bring_v into_o a_o more_o submissive_a frame_n to_o bear_v and_o suffer_v his_o rod._n this_o day_n i_o bless_v the_o lord_n be_v a_o good_a day_n to_o my_o soul_n i_o have_v enlargedness_n and_o much_o freeness_n with_o some_o measure_n of_o softness_n and_o earnestness_n in_o prayer_n especial_o for_o the_o saint_n of_o god_n and_o particular_o for_o my_o own_o country_n christian_n i_o have_v also_o a_o strong_a resolution_n to_o watch_v myself_o more_o careful_o and_o do_v my_o duty_n more_o diligent_o then_o former_o out_o of_o prov_n 7._o i_o observe_v several_a help_n or_o mean_n to_o prevent_v and_o preserve_v the_o soul_n from_o sin_n viz._n 1._o a_o lay_v up_o the_o commandment_n in_o the_o heart_n 2._o a_o look_v on_o they_o or_o eye_v of_o they_o 3._o get_v endear_v affection_n to_o christ_n 4._o by_o take_v heed_n of_o the_o occasion_n thereof_o this_o day_n be_v but_o a_o flat_a drowsy_a day_n to_o my_o soul_n nor_o great_a good_a gain_v but_o sin_n and_o grace_v not_o discernable_o active_a and_o affection_n unwarmed_a and_o unquicken_v yet_o convince_v of_o lose_a time_n and_o comfort_v a_o little_a from_o 1_o thess_n 4._o with_o thought_n of_o christ_n come_v i_o be_v this_o morning_n instruct_v from_o wisdom_n word_n prov._n 8.8_o all_o the_o word_n of_o my_o mouth_n be_v in_o righteousness_n and_o there_o be_v nothing_o froward_a in_o they_o that_o i_o shall_v take_v more_o heed_n for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v of_o a_o froward_a month_n and_o tongue_n this_o day_n also_o i_o hope_v i_o can_v humble_o say_v it_o i_o enjoy_v the_o lord_n both_o in_o meditation_n and_o prayer_n and_o be_v sensible_a of_o the_o want_n of_o skill_n in_o believe_v and_o more_o diligence_n in_o sanctification_n and_o thereupon_o i_o be_o resolve_v through_o grace_n and_o hope_v to_o be_v enable_v to_o take_v more_o heed_n to_o my_o way_n and_o as_o the_o lord_n also_o present_v that_o scripture_n to_o i_o thess_n 5.15_o but_o ever_o follow_v that_o which_o be_v good_a this_o day_n i_o have_v a_o check_n in_o my_o spirit_n for_o lightness_n of_o heart_n and_o beside_o a_o outward_a special_a providence_n i_o observe_v i_o learn_v from_o the_o sin_n i_o see_v and_o hear_v of_o in_o other_o to_o loathe_v or_o at_o least_o desire_a to_o loath_a it_o in_o myself_o i_o also_o observe_v from_o prov._n 9.18_o that_o one_o main_a reason_n why_o people_n do_v not_o leave_v sin_n be_v because_o they_o do_v not_o know_v or_o consider_v the_o punishment_n of_o sin_n also_o what_o a_o commendable_a thing_n it_o be_v for_o christian_n to_o be_v patient_a and_o believe_v in_o all_o persecution_n and_o tribulation_n thess_n 2.1_o chap._n 4._o this_o day_n be_v the_o lord_n day_n through_o god_n grace_n i_o have_v my_o heart_n much_o soften_v and_o enlarge_v to_o call_v upon_o god_n especial_o one_o time_n i_o observe_v also_o that_o that_o want_v of_o the_o love_n to_o the_o truth_n and_o love_n to_o unrighteousness_n be_v the_o cause_n of_o man_n fall_v from_o the_o faith_n 2._o thess_n 2.10.12_o also_o another_o excellent_a lesson_n from_o that_o word_n 2._o thess_n 3_o 1â—_n where_o he_o speak_v of_o busy_a body_n which_o signify_v proper_o to_o be_v too_o intent_n about_o the_o work_n we_o shall_v not_o be_v this_o dâ—â—_n i_o have_v my_o heart_n set_v somewhat_o upon_o the_o consideration_n hâ—_n t_o uâ—_n p_o â—â—â—s_fw-fr pâ—ov_fw-mi 11.2_o 12_o 13._o the_o â—ust_z â—hall_v be_v deliver_v and_o the_o just_a shall_v be_v save_v on_o of_o trouble_n 〈◊〉_d dâ—_n i_o be_v note_v a_o great_a difference_n between_o have_v the_o light_n and_o the_o love_n of_o the_o truth_n this_o day_n i_o receive_v a_o answer_n from_o a_o christian_a friend_n of_o a_o brothers_n business_n of_o concernment_n which_o signify_v his_o love_n and_o care_n and_o increase_v my_o affection_n to_o he_o i_o be_v somewhat_o affect_v also_o with_o the_o sweet_a counsel_n of_o christ_n to_o the_o church_n of_o sardis_n i_o have_v my_o soul_n in_o some_o good_a frame_n especial_o in_o prayer_n and_o comfort_n from_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o promise_n in_o psal_n 1.3_o that_o the_o good_a man_n shall_v bear_v fruit_n and_o that_o his_o fruit_n shall_v not_o wither_v and_o isa_n 49.25_o and_o jer._n 33.20_o from_o the_o stability_n of_o the_o covenant_n i_o likewise_o consider_v 1._o that_o there_o be_v that_o in_o christ_n which_o answer_v
she_o be_v nurse_v her_o whole_a time_n this_o day_n i_o observe_v from_o leu._n 26._o god_n way_n of_o deal_v outward_o with_o his_o people_n either_o in_o mercy_n or_o affliction_n according_a to_o their_o obedience_n or_o disobedience_n but_o though_o they_o have_v sin_v and_o bring_v punishment_n upon_o themselves_o yet_o upon_o their_o confession_n of_o sin_n humble_v of_o their_o heart_n and_o accept_v of_o their_o punishment_n god_n remit_v their_o sin_n and_o remove_v the_o punishment_n this_o day_n god_n in_o his_o providence_n order_v that_o i_o shall_v hurt_v and_o bruise_v my_o leg_n which_o may_v have_v be_v much_o worse_a i_o humble_o praise_v god_n for_o it_o and_o hope_v to_o profit_v by_o it_o this_o day_n my_o heart_n be_v very_o much_o enlarge_v soften_a and_o quicken_v in_o prayer_n twice_o but_o especial_o once_o and_o raise_v through_o the_o power_n of_o god_n exceed_o to_o be_v willing_a to_o suffer_v i_o learn_v 1._o to_o beware_v of_o sleight_n and_o short_a repentance_n a_o thing_n i_o often_o consider_v off_o 2._o to_o fear_v secret_a self_n conceitedness_n after_o the_o well_o perform_v of_o a_o duty_n 3._o to_o take_v heed_n of_o the_o corrupt_a fly_n of_o vain_a thought_n and_o idle_a word_n 4._o from_o pâ—ov_n 24.1_o not_o to_o desire_v the_o company_n of_o evil_a man_n 5._o to_o see_v consider_v look_v and_o receive_v instruction_n from_o the_o evil_a of_o other_o 6._o that_o such_o as_o do_v the_o will_n of_o god_n but_o not_o with_o a_o good_a end_n shall_v be_v punish_v hos_fw-la 1.4_o this_o day_n i_o be_v trouble_v with_o vain_a and_o wander_a thought_n in_o solemn_a duty_n yet_o be_v make_v sensible_a of_o they_o and_o in_o some_o measure_n resist_v they_o effectual_o i_o learned_a from_o prov._n 25.22_o how_o to_o perform_v my_o duty_n towards_o my_o enemy_n and_o from_o chap._n 26._o 26._o the_o danger_n of_o keep_v secret_a sin_n that_o god_n will_v discover_v they_o before_o the_o congregation_n god_n favour_v i_o this_o day_n with_o kindness_n from_o and_o affect_v i_o somewhat_o with_o the_o relation_n and_o read_n of_o god_n wonderful_a and_o strange_a work_n at_o which_o i_o desire_v to_o stand_v in_o admiration_n and_o to_o fear_v and_o tremble_v also_o to_o be_v affect_v with_o the_o suffering_n of_o other_o saint_n that_o differ_v from_o i_o i_o observe_v also_o from_o prov._n 26.23_o how_o a_o wicked_a have_fw-mi it_o may_v be_v cover_v and_o undiscerned_a as_o a_o potshe_n d_o cover_v with_o dross_n also_o from_o chap_n 27.12_o the_o character_n and_o care_n of_o a_o prudent_a man_n viz._n to_o foresee_v the_o evil_a and_o hide_v himself_o and_o from_o 2._o tim._n 1._o to_o learn_v to_o partake_v of_o suffering_n and_o not_o to_o be_v ashamed_a of_o sufferer_n this_o day_n though_o i_o rise_v early_o than_o ordinary_a yet_o through_o the_o multiplicity_n and_o continuance_n of_o company_n i_o make_v not_o such_o good_a improvement_n thereof_o i_o can_v say_v i_o profit_v much_o or_o gain_v or_o learn_v any_o thing_n unless_o it_o w_z re_z from_z p_o ov_n 27.12_o that_o a_o prudent_a man_n forsee_v the_o evil_a and_o hide_v himself_o also_o from_o 2._o tim._n 2.11.12_o iwyse_o â—â—se_z ve_v great_a encouragement_n to_o suffer_v for_o christ_n because_o we_o shall_v live_v and_o reign_v with_o he_o also_o to_o labour_v to_o be_v pure_a fit_a vessel_n for_o the_o lord_n to_o follow_v aâ—ter_a righteousness_n faith_n peace_n charity_n etc._n etc._n i_o be_v convince_v this_o day_n of_o four_o thing_n i_o be_v too_o negligent_a in_o viz._n study_v the_o scripture_n send_v to_o the_o christian_n especial_o those_o to_o who_o i_o relate_v finish_v somewhat_o i_o intend_v and_o begin_v and_o improve_n my_o talon_n in_o this_o place_n more_o to_o the_o benefit_n of_o other_o poor_a soul_n i_o have_v my_o heart_n soften_v and_o in_o some_o measure_n enlarge_v this_o day_n in_o prayer_n and_o true_o affect_v with_o some_o christian_n that_o come_v to_o see_v i_o i_o have_v some_o comfortable_a consideration_n from_o three_o promise_n prov._n 28.10_o 20_o 26._o the_o upright_a shall_v have_v good_a thing_n in_o possession_n who_o so_o walk_v â—prightly_a shall_v be_v save_v and_o who_o so_o walk_v wise_o shall_v be_v deliver_v i_o have_v also_o comfortable_a from_o host_n 3_o 4.5_o compare_v together_o and_o be_v put_v to_o consider_v those_o in_o 2._o tim._n 3.2_o etc._n etc._n this_o morning_n though_o too_o slothful_a i_o have_v some_o bâ—eathings_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o kindle_v affection_n in_o pâ—ayer_n those_o word_n in_o prov._n 29.25_o be_v some_o comfort_n and_o support_v to_o i_o the_o fear_n of_o man_n bring_v a_o sâ—aâ—e_n but_o who_o so_o put_v his_o trust_n in_o the_o lord_n shall_v be_v safe_a among_o other_o consideration_n i_o have_v this_o day_n 1._o i_o consider_v that_o it_o be_v the_o needful'st_a thing_n in_o a_o dangerous_a time_n to_o get_v assurance_n of_o god_n favour_n and_o salvation_n and_o to_o make_v haste_n to_o repent_v and_o return_v to_o the_o lord_n 2._o to_o consider_v our_o spiritual_a warfare_n and_o to_o qâ—iâ—_n ourselves_o like_a christian_n in_o strive_v for_o victory_n over_o our_o spiritual_a enemy_n i_o have_v comfort_n from_o that_o bless_a promise_n jer._n the_o 33.7_o 8._o thâ—s_n dâ—y_v i_o have_v no_o great_a benefit_n to_o my_o soul_n only_o from_o host_n 4_o 8.10_o 12._o i_o observe_v 1._o that_o to_o have_v the_o heart_n set_v on_o iniquity_n 2._o to_o leave_v off_o take_v need_n to_o the_o lord_n 3._o to_o lose_v the_o heart_n or_o have_v it_o indispose_v to_o good_a 4._o to_o go_v from_o under_o god_n 5._o to_o be_v leave_v â—o_o â—â—n_fw-la oâ—_n igno_fw-la ant_n of_o the_o mind_n of_o the_o loâ—d_n be_v most_o sad_a thing_n alâ—o_v from_o the_o 2._o tim._n 4._o 1._o to_z watch_z 〈◊〉_d all_o â—hiâ—g_n 2._o endure_v 3._o to_o be_v do_v our_o pâ—esâ—nâ—_n duty_n 4._o look_v for_o our_o cha_z ge_o and_o dâ—â—_n nâ—â—ng_v oâ—_n god_n to_o be_v keep_v â—â—om_o evil_a be_v mâ—â—â—asoâ—â—â—e_o preâ—â—nt_a lâ—ssons_n inound_v â—ound_z some_o softness_n &_o â—â—nâ—eâ—ity_n of_o heart_n thiâ—_n daâ—_n and_o h_z d_o tâ—re_o speâ—â—â—â—â—d_v 〈◊〉_d in_o thing_n in_o my_o hea_z t_z to_o deâ—iâ—e_v â—â—om_n coâ—â—_n 1_o 〈◊〉_d a_o the_o ough_a repentance_n 〈◊〉_d recovery_n 〈◊〉_d of_o foâ—mer_a sin_n 2._o to_o be_v perfect_o preserve_v â—o_o the_o â—â—â—e_a to_o come_v from_o evil_n 3._o to_o be_v 〈◊〉_d or_o my_o dissolution_n or_o suffering_n i_o receive_v much_o kindness_n from_o the_o lord_n this_o day_n the_o word_n in_o hos_n 5.15_o till_o they_o acknowledge_v their_o iniquity_n or_o be_v guilty_a i_o consider_v and_o think_v i_o câ—â—e_v short_a thereof_o yet_o those_o word_n prov._n 28.13_o he_o that_o confess_v and_o forsake_v his_o sin_n shall_v find_v mercy_n this_o day_n i_o enjoy_v some_o measure_n of_o the_o spirit_n in_o soften_a and_o draw_v out_o of_o my_o heart_n in_o prayer_n and_o somewhat_o in_o believe_v and_o tenderness_n towards_o other_o and_o those_o word_n eccles_n 3_o 18._o of_o god_n manifest_v unto_o man_n that_o they_o be_v but_o beast_n i_o desire_v to_o apply_v and_o to_o take_v heed_n of_o be_v guilty_a of_o any_o of_o those_o sin_n mention_v hos_fw-la 4._o 1._o of_o set_v the_o heart_n upon_o any_o iniquity_n verse_n the_o 8._o 2._o of_o leave_v to_o take_v heed_n to_o the_o lord_n 3._o of_o lose_v the_o heart_n or_o grow_v heartless_a in_o good_a 4._o of_o go_v from_o under_o god_n also_o from_o titus_n the_o 1.14_o not_o to_o give_v heed_n to_o the_o commandment_n of_o man_n this_o be_v a_o day_n wherein_o god_n abound_v in_o kindness_n towards_o i_o yet_o i_o be_v convince_v that_o i_o be_v not_o guilty_a enough_o or_o sensible_a enough_o of_o my_o iniquity_n as_o god_n require_v hos_n 5.15_o and_o from_o titus_n 2._o i_o learn_v that_o a_o true_a christian_a especial_o a_o minister_n of_o the_o gospel_n shall_v be_v 1._o sound_v in_o doctrine_n 2._o sound_v in_o faith_n and_o sound_v in_o speech_n and_o concernine_v believe_v i_o have_v three_o thing_n 1._o to_o study_v more_o the_o ground_n of_o faith_n and_o the_o reason_n induce_v thereto_o 2._o not_o to_o give_v way_n to_o any_o thing_n against_o believe_v 3._o to_o maintain_v faith_n by_o holiness_n this_o day_n god_n be_v please_v to_o enlarge_v my_o heart_n in_o good_a and_o to_o weaken_v corruption_n make_v i_o sensible_a also_o of_o the_o present_a evil_n both_o of_o sin_n and_o suffering_n i_o learn_v from_o titus_n 3.8.9_o that_o regeneration_n justification_n and_o adoption_n be_v of_o god_n love_n pity_v mercy_n and_o mere_a grace_n also_o to_o be_v ready_a to_o diligent_a in_o and_o profit_v by_o every_o good_a work_n and_o to_o be_v angry_a with_o myself_o for_o sinful_a thing_n and_o deny_v myself_o in_o lawful_a thing_n oh_o my_o trouble_n
first_o conviction_n upon_o i_o by_o another_o they_o be_v so_o much_o the_o more_o observable_a and_o as_o a_o second_o wedge_n cleave_v my_o heart_n somewhat_o more_o make_v deep_a entrance_n and_o cause_v further_a resolution_n in_o i_o to_o seek_v to_o perform_v those_o particular_n and_o to_o that_o end_n i_o begin_v to_o read_v the_o bible_n to_o pray_v often_o in_o private_a and_o to_o hear_v the_o strict_a preacher_n and_o to_o leave_v off_o my_o old_a companion_n and_o to_o choose_v other_o who_o profess_v religion_n with_o who_o i_o go_v to_o private_a and_o public_a fast_n hold_v christian_a conference_n etc._n etc._n upon_o further_o hear_v concern_v the_o old_a heart_n and_o body_n of_o corruption_n and_o that_o every_o man_n have_v some_o master_n and_o belove_a sin_n and_o that_o there_o be_v a_o necessity_n of_o have_v the_o heart_n change_v and_o corruption_n mortify_v and_o subdue_v the_o lord_n show_v i_o hereby_o the_o sad_a and_o lose_v estate_n my_o soul_n be_v in_o for_o want_v thereof_o and_o now_o the_o work_n of_o compunction_n and_o contrition_n begin_v in_o i_o with_o many_o deep_a sigh_n and_o bitter_a tear_n self-loathing_a and_o self-abasing_a confess_v of_o former_a sin_n sorrow_v and_o judgeing_a myself_o for_o they_o and_o strive_v against_o they_o and_o seek_v to_o kill_v they_o by_o long_a abstinence_n from_o meat_n by_o much_o watchfulness_n by_o drink_v cold_a water_n only_o many_o month_n together_o by_o tie_v up_o myself_o to_o eat_v so_o many_o bit_n of_o meat_n and_o that_o of_o the_o course_v sort_n too_o at_o every_o meal_n some_o time_n six_o some_o time_n eight_o and_o twelve_o be_v a_o great_a meal_n with_o i_o and_o by_o this_o mean_v i_o think_v to_o overcome_v the_o flesh_n and_o fly_v sometime_o to_o the_o holy_a command_n of_o god_n against_o sin_n by_o which_o i_o find_v no_o other_o relief_n than_o a_o schoolboy_n do_v who_o complain_v to_o his_o master_n against_o the_o hardness_n of_o his_o lesson_n rom._n 7.9_o for_o the_o commandment_n come_v stir_v and_o revive_v sin_n and_o so_o i_o begin_v to_o die_v and_o despair_n the_o law_n tell_v i_o i_o be_v a_o condemn_a sinner_n the_o justice_n and_o terror_n of_o god_n do_v seize_v upon_o my_o conscience_n and_o the_o spirit_n of_o fear_n and_o bondage_n as_o the_o fruit_n of_o the_o law_n and_o a_o effect_n of_o god_n wrath_n do_v bind_v i_o like_o a_o prisoner_n to_o answer_v every_o breach_n of_o the_o law_n rom._n 11.32_o not_o lead_v i_o to_o christ_n but_o restrain_v i_o from_o he_o and_o shut_v i_o up_o in_o unbelief_n and_o when_o sometime_o through_o energy_n and_o earnestness_n of_o spirit_n in_o prayer_n i_o call_v god_n father_n have_v check_n upon_o my_o conscience_n for_o my_o over-confidence_n and_o presumption_n and_o to_o pacify_v and_o silence_v this_o charge_n i_o be_v force_v to_o confess_v my_o sin_n of_o misbelief_n or_o false_a faith_n and_o watch_v my_o tongue_n from_o utter_v any_o such_o boldness_n for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v thus_o find_v no_o relief_n from_o the_o law_n or_o command_v of_o god_n but_o the_o threat_n and_o judgement_n thereof_o scorch_a whip_a and_o wound_v my_o soul_n i_o look_v out_o for_o some_o suitable_a promise_n not_o any_o promise_n of_o justification_n but_o of_o sanctification_n as_o ezek._n 36.26.18_o mich._n 7.19_o that_o god_n will_v give_v a_o new_a heart_n and_o will_v subdue_v iniquity_n so_o i_o fall_v a_o pray_n over_o these_o and_o the_o like_a promise_n but_o find_v no_o answer_n of_o prayer_n my_o heart_n no_o more_o sanctify_v nor_o my_o corruption_n subdue_v the_o next_o work_n at_o the_o instigation_n of_o satan_n be_v to_o conclude_v that_o i_o have_v no_o right_n to_o any_o promise_n be_v out_o of_o christ_n and_o that_o all_o my_o prayer_n be_v a_o abomination_n to_o god_n and_o so_o i_o begin_v to_o question_v whether_o it_o be_v best_a for_o i_o to_o continue_v in_o prayer_n or_o to_o forbear_v but_o i_o be_v not_o long_o under_o that_o temptation_n consider_v that_o prayer_n be_v a_o moral_a duty_n and_o to_o be_v perform_v by_o all_o and_o that_o the_o sin_n of_o or_o in_o a_o duty_n shall_v not_o make_v a_o man_n neglect_v his_o duty_n for_o upon_o the_o same_o account_n a_o man_n must_v leave_v plough_v because_o the_o scripture_n say_v the_o plough_v of_o the_o wicked_a be_v sin_n prov._n 21.4_o hereupon_o i_o purpose_v to_o be_v more_o diligent_a to_o get_v into_o christ_n and_o to_o have_v a_o new_a heart_n that_o so_o i_o may_v perform_v my_o duty_n acceptable_o i_o also_o resolve_v to_o prepare_v myself_o more_o for_o prayer_n to_o search_v and_o keep_v my_o heart_n more_o careful_o and_o close_o in_o my_o duty_n to_o god_n and_o if_o vain_a thought_n hardness_n or_o straightness_n of_o my_o heart_n etc._n etc._n do_v prevail_v then_o after_o the_o duty_n i_o have_v as_o the_o apostle_n say_v heb._n 10.2_o conscience_n of_o sin_n or_o my_o conscience_n smite_v condemn_v and_o disquiet_v i_o send_v and_o 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2.7_o hebrew_n 2.14_o 17._o 2_o cor._n 5.21_o col._n 3.13_o matthew_z 26._o &_o 27_o etc._n etc._n 4._o the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n by_o die_v and_o offer_v up_o himself_o as_o a_o sacrifice_n to_o god_n the_o father_n through_o the_o eternal_a spirit_n have_v perfect_o satisfy_v for_o the_o sin_n of_o all_o that_o be_v save_v before_o his_o come_n in_o the_o flesh_n or_o that_o shall_v be_v save_v hereafter_o have_v also_o reconcile_v they_o to_o god_n his_o father_n and_o procure_v everlasting_a redemption_n for_o they_o rom._n 5.9_o col._n 1.21_o 22._o heb._n 9.12_o 14_o etc._n etc._n 5._o all_o those_o for_o who_o christ_n die_v for_o they_o he_o rise_v again_o appear_v in_o heaven_n and_o continual_o make_v intercession_n for_o which_o he_o do_v not_o do_v for_o all_o but_o for_o those_o that_o god_n the_o father_n choose_v in_o he_o and_o give_v unto_o he_o to_o be_v his_o body_n his_o church_n his_o child_n friend_n and_o flock_n john_n 10._o &_o 15._o &_o 17_o heb._n 2._o 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john_n 3.14_o and_o the_o 11.10_o as_o be_v observe_v a_o write_v down_o in_o both_o those_o margin_n clear_a then_o eveâ—_n bâ—_n o_o e_o also_o i_o observe_v where_o the_o word_n soul_n nephesh_n be_v take_v for_o â—_o dead_a body_n number_n the_o 9.6_o the_o 6._o chap_n 6._o alâ—o_v two_o other_o necessary_a and_o seasonable_a lessoâ—s_n from_o prov._n 14.8.15_o viz._n to_o understand_v the_o way_n and_o to_o look_v well_o to_o my_o go_n also_o this_o evening_n i_o have_v my_o heart_n a_o little_a more_o than_o ordinary_a soften_v and_o enlarge_v in_o prayer_n this_o day_n i_o experience_v but_o little_a good_a or_o gain_v get_v to_o my_o soul_n and_o find_v my_o heart_n but_o in_o a_o flat_a frame_n yet_o i_o be_v affect_v a_o little_a with_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o great_a honour_n give_v by_o the_o elder_n and_o other_o to_o jesus_n christ_n rev._n 5.13_o and_o i_o perceive_v more_o desire_n after_o true_a sincerity_n of_o heart_n and_o observe_v a_o good_a providence_n of_o god_n this_o day_n i_o observe_v a_o remarkable_a passage_n in_o a_o great_a man_n suffer_a death_n that_o he_o vow_v and_o wish_v that_o if_o ever_o he_o do_v game_n again_o he_o may_v be_v hang_v and_o hang_v he_o be_v a_o warning_n to_o look_v to_o our_o wish_n than_o i_o mark_v those_o two_o word_n prov._n 15.4_o that_o perverseness_n in_o the_o tongue_n be_v or_o make_v a_o breach_n in_o the_o spirit_n i_o be_v smite_v in_o my_o conscience_n for_o a_o evil_a thought_n and_o convince_v for_o my_o unconstancy_n in_o good_a and_o want_v of_o more_o sense_n of_o my_o own_o and_o other_o sin_n and_o slackness_n in_o some_o service_n but_o i_o have_v comfort_n from_o the_o 1._o thess_n 5.24_o that_o god_n faithfulness_n engage_v he_o to_o perfect_v his_o work_n in_o his_o people_n and_o to_o preserve_v they_o to_o the_o end_n this_o day_n be_v the_o lord_n day_n i_o learn_v among_o many_o other_o lesson_n from_o ezek._n 20._o 1._o that_o when_o god_n people_n do_v come_v to_o ordinance_n yet_o they_o shall_v expect_v good_a only_o from_o god_n the_o people_n sit_v before_o ezekiel_n but_o inquire_v of_o god_n verse_n 1_o 2._o that_o when_o people_n abuse_v their_o gift_n god_n will_v pollute_v they_o therein_o and_o thereby_o verse_n 26._o 3._o that_o those_o that_o go_v on_o in_o sin_n can_v expect_v to_o find_v god_n when_o they_o call_v upon_o he_o 4._o that_o god_n may_v sometime_o return_v the_o captivity_n of_o his_o people_n before_o they_o repent_v verse_n 42_o 43_o i_o be_v convince_v that_o it_o be_v my_o duty_n 1._o to_o study_v my_o duty_n more_o 2._o to_o strive_v to_o do_v my_o duty_n better_o this_o whole_a day_n i_o be_v trouble_v with_o the_o headache_n and_o pain_n in_o my_o stomach_n but_o i_o find_v the_o lord_n enable_v i_o with_o much_o patience_n &_o move_v my_o heart_n to_o praise_v he_o that_o affliction_n be_v not_o far_o great_a calm_a joy_n and_o ease_n come_v this_o morning_n from_o the_o presence_n of_o the_o lord_n after_o trouble_n and_o pain_n with_o a_o resolution_n to_o prize_v time_n and_o mercy_n and_o to_o walk_v better_a and_o more_o diligent_o before_o the_o lord_n who_o direct_v the_o step_n prov._n 16.9_o and_o he_o that_o keep_v his_o way_n preserve_v his_o soul_n which_o scripture_n i_o observe_v this_o morning_n this_o evening_n i_o have_v some_o communion_n with_o the_o lord_n in_o prayer_n i_o be_v lead_v to_o look_v upon_o that_o duty_n 1._o tim._n 2.2.13_o of_o pray_v for_o all_o man_n and_o from_o what_o i_o hear_v of_o another_o to_o praise_n god_n for_o his_o goodness_n to_o i_o this_o morning_n i_o observe_v a_o special_a providence_n by_o the_o come_n of_o a_o friend_n to_o visit_v i_o and_o observe_v further_o from_o prov._n 17.5_o howbeit_o god_n affliction_n be_v compare_v to_o a_o fine_v pot_n or_o furnace_n to_o try_v and_o purge_v the_o heart_n also_o what_o a_o sad_a thing_n it_o be_v to_o have_v good_a oppertunity_n and_o prize_n put_v into_o our_o hand_n but_o to_o want_v improve_n heart_n or_o to_o have_v corruption_n hinder_v good_a verse_n 16_o 20._o i_o find_v no_o especial_a enlargement_n nor_o communion_n with_o the_o lord_n this_o day_n but_o rather_o a_o provocation_n to_o pride_n yet_o of_o that_o good_a word_n in_o tim._n 1.3_o chap._n 2.6_o meet_v with_o i_o this_o day_n be_v willing_a to_o wait_v upon_o god_n i_o find_v he_o good_a to_o i_o in_o soften_a and_o enlarge_n and_o draw_v out_o my_o heart_n in_o prayer_n and_o i_o have_v some_o comfort_n from_o those_o word_n psal_n 9.9_o the_o lord_n will_v be_v a_o refuge_n for_o the_o oppress_a a_o refuge_n in_o time_n of_o trouble_n and_o verse_n the_o 18._o the_o needy_a shall_v not_o always_o be_v forget_v yet_o this_o evening_n i_o be_v set_v upon_o by_o temptation_n which_o in_o part_n prevail_v and_o in_o part_n be_v resist_v in_o the_o morning_n fowl_n and_o and_o sinful_a thought_n come_v into_o my_o heart_n but_o god_n make_v they_o bitter_a and_o burdensome_a to_o i_o and_o now_o little_a sin_n begin_v like_a fly_n to_o be_v more_o troublesome_a to_o i_o yet_o i_o much_o suspect_v myself_o if_o the_o loâ—d_v leave_v i_o to_o myself_o never_o so_o little_a and_o short_a a_o time_n i_o have_v some_o joy_n and_o strength_n from_o prov._n 20.21_o wait_v on_o the_o lord_n and_o he_o shall_v save_v thou_o this_o day_n my_o heart_n be_v somewhat_o melt_v and_o warm_v in_o duty_n and_o i_o find_v power_n to_o resist_v temptation_n i_o have_v also_o my_o heart_n in_o a_o reasonable_a good_a measure_n bring_v to_o consider_v why_o the_o lo_o d_o afflict_v i_o and_o add_v affliction_n and_o be_v thorough_o resoluâ—d_v in_o two_o thing_n that_o i_o will_v do_v what_o i_o can_v to_o pacificy_n god_n and_o to_o please_v he_o and_o to_o believe_v in_o his_o free_a grace_n through_o christ_n let_v he_o do_v what_o he_o will_v with_o i_o i_o be_v observe_v three_o comfort_n to_o the_o righteous_a from_o prov._n 21.18.28.31_o this_o day_n be_v a_o good_a day_n both_o inward_o and_o outward_o especial_o outward_o i_o have_v some_o thought_n of_o god_n judgement_n to_o fear_v they_o and_o to_o endeavour_v to_o shun_v they_o and_o to_o entreat_v the_o lord_n not_o to_o let_v i_o share_v with_o the_o wicked_a in_o their_o punishment_n much_o less_o their_o sin_n i_o observe_v from_o prov_n 22.14_o that_o it_o be_v a_o sign_n of_o hatred_n to_o be_v leave_v to_o sin_n a_o excellent_a promise_n in_o verse_n 23._o also_o twelve_o lesson_n paul_n teach_v 1._o tim._n 4._o this_o day_n be_v the_o lord_n day_n i_o have_v some_o enjoyment_n of_o the_o lord_n presence_n as_o i_o observe_v and_o among_o other_o thing_n i_o observe_v fiâ—st_a fâ—om_n ezek._n 39_o 26._o that_o the_o first_o thing_n that_o thâ—_n loâ—d_v dâ—th_n in_o the_o redemption_n oâ—_n his_o people_n be_v to_o b_o ing_z they_o to_o remember_v theiâ—_n sin_n and_o to_o repent_v for_o they_o â—nd_v so_o have_v cleanse_v and_o save_v they_o from_o their_o iniquty_n jer._n 33.8_o ezek._n 36_o 29._o he_o woe_n k_v thâ—n_v â—â—eir_n temporal_a and_o outward_a deliverance_n 2._o fâ—om_o the_o fâ—st_n verse_n that_o when_o the_o lord_n have_v give_v his_o â—piâ—â—â—_n to_o 〈◊〉_d people_n he_o never_o forsake_v they_o more_o 3._o from_o psal_n 80.5_o 17._o i_o have_v consideration_n of_o the_o great_a suffering_n of_o the_o church_n of_o god_n of_o old_a and_o the_o ground_n of_o their_o comfort_n which_o be_v christ_n 4._o from_o rev._n 12._o be_v much_o refresh_v to_o consider_v that_o the_o church_n when_o she_o go_v to_o the_o wilderness_n yet_o that_o be_v by_o wing_n that_o god_n give_v she_o and_o likewise_o in_o the_o wilderness_n there_o be_v a_o place_n prepare_v by_o god_n for_o she_o and_o there_o
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