word_n mat._n 12._o the_o unclean_a spirit_n be_v cast_v out_o of_o a_o man_n he_o walk_v about_o seek_v rest_n and_o find_v none_o then_o he_o return_v and_o bring_v 7_o other_o spirit_n with_o he_o worse_o than_o himself_o and_o the_o end_n of_o that_o man_n be_v worse_a than_o his_o beginning_n when_o i_o hear_v this_o my_o heart_n fear_v i_o think_v now_o i_o repent_v of_o my_o many_o sin_n for_o very_o i_o be_o a_o great_a sinner_n and_o i_o have_v offend_v i_o be_o 7_o time_n worse_o than_o before_o i_o pray_v then_o i_o repent_v again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n he_o that_o penitent_o believe_v shall_v be_v save_v and_o then_o my_o heart_n do_v desire_v to_o repent_v and_o believe_v than_o i_o think_v that_o man_n will_v not_o forgive_v i_o and_o therefore_o it_o be_v not_o good_a to_o abide_v in_o this_o place_n but_o i_o remember_v that_o i_o have_v learned_a to_o read_v the_o word_n and_o if_o i_o shall_v forsake_v my_o friend_n i_o shall_v lose_v the_o word_n of_o god_n then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n repent_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n be_v at_o hand_n my_o heart_n say_v o_o let_v it_o be_v so_o and_o then_o my_o heart_n rest_v but_o yet_o quick_o it_o be_v unquiet_a again_o then_o i_o do_v strong_o desire_v to_o repent_v of_o my_o sin_n i_o hear_v that_o word_n that_o god_n sow_a good_a seed_n but_o evil_a seed_n be_v sow_v by_o the_o enemy_n and_o such_o be_v in_o my_o heart_n and_o as_o in_o my_o field_n there_o be_v many_o root_n and_o weed_n which_o spoil_v the_o corn_n and_o i_o pluck_v they_o up_o and_o cast_v they_o out_o my_o heart_n say_v very_o just_a so_o be_v my_o heart_n the_o word_n be_v but_o a_o little_a in_o my_o heart_n and_o there_o be_v many_o ill_a root_n in_o i_o and_o therefore_o god_n may_v just_o cast_v i_o out_o from_o among_o his_o people_n because_o of_o my_o many_o sin_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v and_o now_o i_o forsake_v my_o sin_n who_o have_v be_v a_o great_a sinner_n now_o i_o beg_v of_o christ_n o_o give_v i_o thy_o spirit_n that_o i_o may_v confess_v my_o sin_n before_o god_n and_o not_o only_o before_o man_n again_o i_o remember_v that_o i_o can_v pardon_v or_o help_v myself_o but_o only_o christ_n must_v help_v i_o again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n all_o manner_n of_o sin_n shall_v be_v forgive_v to_o a_o man_n but_o the_o sin_n against_o the_o holy_a ghost_n shall_v not_o be_v forgive_v in_o this_o world_n nor_o in_o the_o world_n to_o come_v then_o my_o heart_n fear_v because_o many_o and_o great_a be_v my_o sin_n since_o i_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n for_o mercy_n and_o pardon_n and_o then_o i_o think_v i_o will_v pray_v to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v but_o very_o i_o be_o a_o sinner_n for_o i_o be_o guilty_a not_o only_o of_o adam_n sin_n but_o of_o my_o own_o sin_n also_o and_o they_o be_v many_o i_o remember_v that_o in_o catechism_n i_o learn_v that_o god_n make_v a_o covenant_n of_o work_n with_o adam_n do_v the_o command_n and_o thou_o shall_v live_v and_o thy_o seed_n also_o but_o if_o thou_o sin_v thou_o shall_v die_v and_o thy_o seed_n also_o therefore_o by_o that_o i_o know_v i_o be_o a_o sinner_n and_o have_v deserve_v to_o die_v then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n o_o god_n have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o and_o pardon_v i_o again_o i_o hear_v of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n but_o i_o be_o forgetful_a and_o can_v remember_v god_n mercy_n to_o i_o god_n make_v a_o covenant_n with_o abraham_n and_o say_v i_o will_v be_v thy_o god_n and_o the_o god_n of_o thy_o seed_n after_o thou_o than_o my_o heart_n say_v o_o let_v it_o be_v so_o to_o i_o o_o lord_n and_o now_o abraham_n be_v in_o heaven_n who_o believe_v and_o keep_v god_n covenant_n so_o i_o if_o i_o believe_v and_o keep_v god_n covenant_n god_n will_v have_v mercy_n on_o i_o i_o remember_v the_o covenant_n of_o circumcision_n to_o he_o and_o all_o his_o family_n and_o such_o a_o covenant_n i_o desire_v for_o i_o and_o i_o again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o in_o those_o day_n john_n baptise_v in_o jordan_n say_v repent_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n be_v at_o hand_n when_o i_o hear_v this_o my_o heart_n say_v the_o same_o be_v now_o with_o we_o not_o abraham_n sign_n but_o baptism_n and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o repent_v and_o confess_v before_o god_n and_o before_o the_o church_n and_o i_o desire_v not_o only_o to_o confess_v but_o to_o have_v repentance_n and_o faith_n that_o i_o may_v have_v grace_n mercy_n and_o pardon_n and_o such_o repentance_n as_o work_n obedience_n again_o the_o same_o word_n say_v vers._n 6._o they_o be_v baptise_v confess_v their_o sin_n so_o i_o desire_v to_o do_v i_o do_v confess_v before_o god_n and_o desire_v to_o cast_v off_o and_o forsake_v my_o sin_n and_o to_o go_v to_o christ_n the_o promise_n of_o pardon_n be_v to_o they_o that_o penitent_o believe_v and_o rest_n on_o christ_n in_o the_o same_o baptism_n of_o john_n he_o say_v i_o baptise_v you_o with_o water_n but_o he_o that_o come_v after_o i_o be_v mighty_a than_o i_o he_o shall_v baptise_v you_o with_o the_o holy_a ghost_n and_o fire_n now_o this_o baptism_n i_o desire_v and_o not_o to_o receive_v the_o sign_n in_o vain_a i_o desire_v to_o purge_v out_o evil_a thought_n and_o therefore_o i_o confess_v these_o sin_n before_o god_n that_o they_o may_v be_v purge_v and_o i_o desire_v the_o spirit_n of_o god_n may_v dwell_v in_o i_o for_o ever_o to_o turn_v i_o to_o christ_n i_o can_v of_o myself_o do_v any_o of_o these_o thing_n but_o only_o christ_n jesus_n can_v by_o his_o spirit_n in_o i_o again_o i_o hear_v another_o word_n as_o the_o eagle_n be_v about_o a_o carcase_n so_o believer_n come_v to_o christ_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v so_o be_v it_o oh_o lord_n when_o i_o receive_v the_o covenant_n of_o god_n i_o be_o like_o the_o eagle_n when_o i_o come_v to_o christ_n i_o desire_v not_o to_o come_v in_o vain_a but_o if_o i_o feed_v not_o i_o shall_v die_v my_o soul_n will_v die_v then_o i_o great_o beg_v that_o i_o may_v feed_v my_o soul_n on_o christ_n and_o oh_o christ_n send_v thy_o spirit_n into_o my_o heart_n that_o i_o may_v not_o only_o know_v but_o do_v the_o word_n of_o god_n again_o christ_n near_o his_o death_n take_v bread_n and_o bless_v it_o and_o break_v it_o and_o give_v it_o to_o his_o disciple_n and_o say_v take_v you_o eat_v you_o this_o be_v my_o body_n which_o be_v break_v for_o you_o and_o so_o also_o he_o do_v the_o cup_n and_o say_v drink_v you_o of_o it_o this_o be_v the_o cup_n of_o my_o blood_n in_o the_o new_a testament_n which_o be_v shed_v for_o the_o remission_n of_o sin_n now_o this_o believer_n in_o christ_n must_v do_v not_o only_o to_o eat_v bread_n and_o to_o take_v the_o sign_n but_o soul_n food_n therefore_o christ_n send_v his_o spirit_n and_o help_v i_o i_o desire_v to_o receive_v the_o sign_n not_o in_o vain_a but_o to_o help_v my_o faith_n when_o i_o have_v read_v this_o confession_n in_o the_o assembly_n we_o call_v upon_o the_o witness_n as_o before_o we_o do_v who_o answer_n be_v to_o the_o like_a purpose_n as_o before_o wutasakompavin_n he_o be_v next_o call_v forth_o who_o thus_o speak_v help_v i_o oh_o jesus_n christ_n to_o confess_v before_o the_o lord_n oh_o i_o be_o full_a of_o sin_n because_o adam_n sin_n make_v i_o and_o so_o be_v a_o sinner_n in_o my_o mother_n womb_n when_o i_o be_v a_o youth_n i_o find_v many_o sin_n and_o after_o i_o be_v grow_v up_o i_o do_v the_o same_o always_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n i_o live_v in_o sin_n after_o the_o english_a come_v i_o go_v to_o their_o house_n they_o will_v teach_v i_o about_o god_n but_o i_o hate_v it_o and_o go_v out_o i_o do_v not_o love_v such_o teach_n afterward_o the_o minister_n teach_v and_o at_o first_o waban_n persuade_v i_o to_o pray_v and_o teach_v we_o i_o do_v not_o at_o first_o like_o it_o yet_o afterward_o i_o do_v four_o year_n the_o minister_n come_v to_o noonantam_n i_o come_v but_o i_o only_o come_v i_o lose_v all_o he_o teach_v after_o i_o consider_v one_o word_n the_o minister_n say_v that_o god_n send_v he_o to_o teach_v we_o then_o i_o think_v sure_o there_o be_v a_o god_n therefore_o i_o must_v believe_v and_o pray_v a_o little_a i_o believe_v but_o when_o i_o hear_v i_o do_v only_o outward_o hear_v after_o my_o wife_n and_o child_n die_v and_o then_o i_o almost_o cast_v off_o pray_v i_o have_v another_o wife_n and_o she_o die_v also_o
you_o shall_v have_v pardon_n and_o be_v save_v and_o therefore_o sometime_o i_o believe_v and_o sometime_o i_o doubt_v again_o afterward_o i_o have_v temptation_n to_o drink_v and_o to_o vain_a course_n nigh_o half_a a_o year_n yet_o when_o sabbath_n come_v my_o heart_n will_v turn_v to_o god_n when_o the_o soldier_n come_v upon_o we_o on_o the_o sabbath_n while_o we_o be_v at_o meeting_n and_o make_v we_o bring_v our_o gun_n hither_o then_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_a god_n have_v not_o say_v keep_v the_o sabbath_n day_n holy_a and_o than_o my_o heart_n cast_v off_o god_n yet_o it_o be_v only_o in_o my_o heart_n when_o we_o come_v to_o the_o magistrate_n and_o cutshamoquin_fw-la ask_v why_o they_o come_v on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v and_o i_o do_v believe_v when_o we_o go_v from_o the_o magistrate_n i_o be_v thirsty_a and_o i_o drink_v a_o great_a deal_n and_o i_o be_v drink_v and_o be_v carry_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o then_o i_o be_v ashamed_a then_o i_o come_v to_o the_o minister_n house_n and_o i_o be_v great_o ashamed_a and_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_o i_o have_v now_o cast_v off_o pray_v to_o god_n but_o i_o repent_v and_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o god_n pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n and_o this_o my_o sin_n for_o my_o sin_n be_v great_a i_o have_v other_o temptation_n to_o drink_v and_o i_o find_v my_o heart_n weak_a and_o doubt_v but_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v and_o i_o be_v ready_a to_o stumble_v like_o a_o little_a weak_a child_n after_o this_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n of_o god_n mat._n 12._o do_v you_o not_o remember_v what_o david_n do_v on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n and_o be_v blameless_a then_o i_o think_v the_o soldier_n do_v not_o sin_n but_o than_o i_o see_v that_o i_o be_v a_o great_a sinner_n and_o that_o i_o have_v break_v the_o sabbath_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 3._o every_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v hew_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n and_o this_o trouble_a i_o because_o i_o have_v evil_a fruit_n again_o mat._n 6._o christ_n say_v be_v you_o not_o like_o hypocrite_n which_o seem_v to_o pray_v before_o man_n i_o think_v this_o be_v my_o case_n i_o do_v only_o pray_v before_o man_n but_o i_o doubt_v of_o christ_n and_o his_o grace_n again_o mat._n 5._o who_o ever_o break_v the_o least_o of_o god_n commandment_n and_o teach_v man_n so_o to_o do_v shall_v be_v least_o in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n then_o i_o be_v trouble_v because_o i_o have_v be_v a_o active_a sinner_n in_o lust_n and_o other_o sin_n and_o i_o be_v worse_a than_o a_o beast_n in_o my_o sin_n then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o christ_n pardon_v all_o my_o great_a sin_n oh_o christ_n have_v mercy_n on_o i_o oh_o god_n remember_v i_o to_o pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n thus_o i_o cry_v and_o desire_v pardon_n but_o i_o be_v weak_a in_o believe_v but_o then_o about_o two_o year_n after_o i_o be_v great_o trouble_v about_o my_o weakness_n i_o desire_v to_o do_v well_o but_o i_o be_v weak_a then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o god_n help_v i_o by_o thy_o spirit_n in_o i_o and_o send_v thy_o spirit_n into_o my_o heart_n sometime_o i_o read_v and_o teach_v on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n but_o weak_o then_o i_o hear_v mat._n 23._o christ_n bid_v the_o people_n do_v what_o the_o scribe_n and_o pharisee_n say_v but_o not_o do_v as_o they_o do_v i_o say_v lord_n that_o be_v my_o case_n i_o teach_v better_o than_o i_o do_v and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v repentance_n for_o my_o sin_n and_o to_o forsake_v my_o sin_n then_o mat._n 7._o christ_n say_v thou_o hypocrite_n first_o cast_v the_o beam_n out_o of_o thy_o own_o eye_n and_o then_o thou_o may_v see_v clear_o to_o cast_v the_o mote_n out_o of_o thy_o brother_n eye_n my_o heart_n say_v true_o it_o be_v so_o i_o teach_v other_o but_o i_o do_v not_o well_o myself_o i_o reprove_v sin_n and_o yet_o i_o do_v it_o then_o be_v my_o heart_n weary_a and_o i_o desire_v again_o to_o do_v well_o and_o amend_v but_o i_o find_v myself_o very_o weak_a sometime_o my_o heart_n hate_v pray_v to_o god_n and_o meet_v on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n and_o therefore_o i_o see_v i_o deserve_v hell_n torment_n and_o then_o i_o cry_v oh_o christ_n pardon_v all_o these_o my_o sin_n then_o afterward_o my_o heart_n desire_v strong_o to_o pray_v unto_o god_n but_o i_o see_v i_o deserve_v misery_n and_o punishment_n and_o i_o be_v weak_a then_o i_o desire_v my_o heart_n may_v be_v make_v strong_a by_o church-covenant_n baptism_n and_o the_o lord_n supper_n which_o may_v be_v as_o a_o fort_n to_o keep_v i_o from_o enemy_n as_o a_o fort_n keep_v we_o from_o our_o outward_a enemy_n yet_o my_o heart_n be_v sometime_o backward_o and_o say_v no_o matter_n do_v it_o not_o but_o still_o do_v what_o thy_o heart_n will_v have_v thou_o and_o i_o see_v satan_n do_v thus_o follow_v i_o with_o these_o temptation_n to_o misbelief_n and_o doubt_v but_o now_o i_o see_v satan_n tempt_v i_o because_o he_o desire_v i_o shall_v be_v ever_o torment_v with_o he_o then_o i_o learn_v that_o in_o john_n 6._o i_o be_o the_o true_a bread_n and_o he_o that_o eat_v i_o shall_v live_v for_o ever_o and_o he_o that_o drink_v my_o blood_n shall_v have_v life_n but_o he_o that_o do_v not_o eat_v my_o flesh_n and_o drink_v my_o blood_n shall_v not_o have_v life_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v truth_n lord_n that_o be_v my_o case_n again_o i_o learn_v john_n 3._o he_o that_o believe_v shall_v not_o perish_v but_o have_v eternal_a life_n and_o my_o heart_n say_v yea_o lord_n let_v it_o be_v so_o again_o mat._n 16._o christ_n say_v thou_o be_v peter_n a_o rock_n and_o on_o this_o rock_n i_o will_v build_v my_o church_n and_o the_o gate_n of_o hell_n shall_v not_o prevail_v against_o it_o therefore_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o desire_v this_o because_o christ_n dwell_v in_o the_o church_n and_o be_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o they_o where_o two_o or_o three_o be_v meet_v together_o in_o my_o name_n oh_a i_o do_v therefore_o desire_v church_n ordinance_n that_o i_o may_v be_v with_o christ_n and_o that_o i_o may_v have_v the_o seal_n mat._n 3._o christ_n say_v let_v it_o be_v for_o it_o be_v necessary_a that_o i_o shall_v fulfil_v all_o righteousness_n my_o heart_n say_v oh_o that_o i_o may_v also_o so_o do_v o_o lord_n now_o my_o heart_n desire_v and_o thirst_v oh_o god_n have_v mercy_n on_o i_o and_o pity_v my_o weakness_n that_o i_o may_v have_v pardon_n in_o christ_n and_o strength_n from_o christ_n in_o all_o his_o ordinance_n and_o that_o i_o may_v leave_v all_o my_o sin_n and_o oh_o god_n pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n i_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v i_o be_o so_o weak_a oh_o god_n help_v and_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o and_o the_o same_o i_o desire_v of_o you_o before_o who_o i_o be_o in_o this_o house_n help_v i_o for_o mat._n 16._o who_o you_o bind_v on_o earth_n be_v bind_v in_o heaven_n and_o who_o you_o lose_v on_o earth_n be_v loose_v in_o heaven_n and_o my_o desire_n be_v that_o christ_n will_v pardon_v all_o 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