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she_o shall_v go_v barefoot_a and_o base_o clad_v she_o perform_v it_o all_o and_o in_o the_o bosom_n of_o a_o image_n of_o the_o b._n virgin_n she_o promise_v to_o observe_v it_o she_o be_v prove_v by_o her_o superior_n chap._n 21._o on_o the_o 5._o day_n of_o july_n in_o the_o year_n 1587._o after_o she_o have_v serve_v the_o religious_a at_o the_o table_n as_o she_o go_v towards_o the_o dormitory_n of_o the_o novice_n unto_o the_o government_n of_o who_o mistress_n she_o be_v at_o that_o time_n subject_n she_o be_v rapt_v in_o spirit_n and_o have_v deliver_v a_o few_o word_n sudden_o she_o raise_v herself_o on_o foot_n with_o such_o gravity_n and_o cleerne_n of_o countenance_n that_o she_o seem_v to_o be_v some_o angelical_a spirit_n and_o have_v take_v of_o her_o hose_n and_o shoe_n and_o go_v into_o her_o cell_n she_o remove_v every_o thing_n without_o exception_n from_o of_o the_o little_a altar_n of_o her_o oratory_n save_v only_o a_o crucifix_n nor_o do_v she_o leave_v any_o 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who_o be_v blind_a in_o himself_o true_a in_o speak_v of_o thou_o and_o of_o thy_o creature_n he_o that_o shall_v converse_v with_o the_o creature_n without_o give_v scandal_n or_o impediment_n to_o thy_o love._n the_o meek_a the_o peaceable_a and_o the_o patient_a after_o these_o and_o many_o such_o other_o intercourse_n of_o heavenly_a speech_n which_o as_o have_v be_v say_v be_v note_v in_o a_o book_n apart_o she_o add_v this_o in_o the_o person_n of_o the_o only_o beget_v word_n fear_v nothing_o my_o dear_a child_n for_o i_o will_v ever_o remain_v with_o thou_o and_o this_o probation_n which_o i_o be_o please_v to_o make_v of_o thou_o shall_v be_v a_o evident_a sign_n of_o the_o certainty_n of_o the_o great_a gift_n and_o grace_n which_o i_o have_v grant_v thou_o beside_o it_o shall_v be_v a_o mean_a of_o bring_v thou_o up_o to_o great_a perfection_n if_o thou_o shall_v be_v environ_v by_o great_a battle_n not_o know_v which_o way_n to_o turn_v thyself_o nor_o conceave_a that_o i_o be_o with_o thou_o yet_o know_v indeed_o that_o by_o i_o thou_o shall_v never_o be_v abandon_v to_o these_o word_n she_o answer_v sufficit_fw-la mihi_fw-la gratia_fw-la tua_fw-la &_o in_o excessu_fw-la mentis_fw-la mea_fw-la non_fw-la movebor_fw-la in_o aeternum_fw-la and_o thus_o have_v humble_v herself_o in_o the_o divine_a presence_n after_o many_o other_o discourse_n she_o yield_v herself_o ready_o to_o the_o sovereign_a will_n of_o god_n by_o say_v omnia_fw-la possum_fw-la in_o te_fw-la she_o enter_v into_o the_o lake_n of_o lion_n that_o be_v to_o say_v into_o the_o battle_n against_o the_o devil_n and_o understand_v that_o she_o be_v to_o suffer_v for_o the_o good_a of_o soul_n chap._n 15._o in_o this_o very_a rapt_v upon_o the_o day_n of_o the_o solemnity_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n she_o be_v conduct_v in_o height_n of_o spirit_n and_o the_o lake_n of_o lion_n be_v show_v whereinto_o short_o she_o be_v to_o enter_v this_o be_v easy_o know_v by_o her_o word_n &_o her_o become_v so_o very_o pale_a and_o sad_a as_o it_o move_v every_o one_o to_o compassion_n she_o than_o behold_v a_o number_n of_o devil_n almost_o numberless_a who_o with_o frightful_a tentation_n threaten_v to_o assault_v she_o and_o she_o hear_v most_o horrible_a roar_n as_o of_o the_o fierce_a lion_n whereupon_o with_o the_o very_a anguish_n have_v cast_v herself_o upon_o her_o knee_n she_o deliver_v word_n so_o deserve_v pity_n as_o make_v all_o they_o weep_v who_o be_v present_a but_o because_o she_o speak_v with_o extraordinary_a vehemency_n her_o speech_n can_v not_o be_v take_v but_o a_o little_a at_o the_o first_o which_o be_v thus_o i_o invite_v the_o heaven_n and_o the_o earth_n &_o the_o inhabitant_n thereof_o to_o come_v and_o succour_v i_o soon_o after_o turn_v herself_o towards_o god_n where_o be_v say_v she_o o_o my_o god_n that_o sun_n of_o thy_o grace_n to_o i_o it_o seem_v obscure_v thy_o goodness_n seem_v to_o be_v whole_o withdraw_v from_o i_o i_o be_o now_o abandon_v like_o a_o body_n that_o have_v no_o part_n wherewith_o to_o help_v itself_o and_o as_o the_o trunk_n of_o a_o barren_a tree_n for_o hear_v that_o thy_o grace_n be_v retire_v from_o i_o i_o can_v help_v myself_o after_o this_o it_o be_v tell_v she_o by_o almighty_a god_n that_o she_o not_o be_v able_a to_o help_v her_o neighbour_n otherwise_o he_o be_v please_v that_o she_o shall_v do_v it_o by_o support_v of_o pain_n and_o trouble_n for_o they_o whereupon_o she_o add_v the_o curse_a heretic_n nor_o can_v i_o name_v they_o in_o this_o action_n otherwise_o will_v be_v a_o occasion_n to_o i_o of_o most_o bitter_a pain_n for_o although_o they_o do_v once_o receive_v thy_o holy_a ghost_n yet_o have_v they_o not_o continue_v to_o possess_v it_o and_o so_o many_o proud_a spouse_n of_o thy_o which_z have_v rebel_v from_o thou_o will_v provoke_v these_o rage_a lion_n to_o come_v against_o i_o for_o the_o increase_n of_o my_o anguish_n &_o affliction_n but_o at_o last_o o_o word_n if_o those_o wretched_a soul_n will_v return_v to_o thou_o i_o will_v esteem_v myself_o happy_a and_o a_o thousand_o time_n content_v that_o the_o devil_n shall_v come_v unto_o my_o torment_n i_o see_v i_o be_o round_o about_o environ_v with_o such_o cruel_a spectacle_n that_o i_o can_v contain_v myself_o while_o i_o hear_v their_o hideous_a noise_n from_o extend_v also_o my_o own_o voice_n and_o if_o i_o shall_v be_v forbid_v to_o do_v so_o exterior_o yet_o i_o can_v never_o be_v so_o abridge_v interior_o but_o that_o i_o will_v exclaim_v so_o long_o to_o god_n as_o that_o i_o will_v be_v hear_v at_o last_o these_o devilish_a spirit_n o_o my_o jesus_n will_v fain_o abolish_v all_o faith_n annihilate_v humility_n disgrace_n purity_n and_o in_o lieu_n of_o my_o resignation_n unto_o thou_o will_v place_v in_o my_o hart_n a_o will_n pervert_v nor_o do_v i_o marvel_v that_o since_o they_o can_v bring_v this_o to_o pass_v they_o return_v to_o i_o with_o so_o great_a fury_n and_o rage_n and_o strive_v to_o make_v so_o hideous_a noise_n to_o the_o end_n that_o i_o may_v not_o hear_v the_o order_n which_o come_v down_o to_o i_o from_o my_o god_n it_o happen_v to_o i_o as_o to_z one_o that_o expect_v death_n who_o have_v no_o less_o affliction_n when_o he_o see_v the_o instrument_n which_o be_v to_o cut_v off_o his_o head_n than_o he_o have_v while_o he_o be_v in_o the_o act_n of_o suffering_n i_o see_v well_o o_o my_o lord_n that_o if_o thou_o shall_v retire_v the_o power_n of_o thy_o hand_n these_o enemy_n will_v deprive_v i_o of_o life_n they_o will_v fain_o tear_v out_o my_o bowel_n which_o make_v they_o run_v against_o i_o with_o such_o fury_n but_o my_o spouse_n have_v first_o place_v in_o i_o his_o own_o spirit_n and_o his_o hart_n withal_o those_o other_o gift_n and_o grace_n and_o do_v after_o place_v i_o in_o this_o probation_n and_o tentation_n resolve_v that_o i_o shall_v suffer_v for_o the_o creature_n to_o the_o end_n that_o they_o may_v be_v convert_v to_o he_o i_o remember_v well_o o_o word_n of_o certain_a shadow_n which_o be_v give_v i_o by_o thou_o under_o which_o i_o be_v to_o fly_v for_o some_o space_n of_o time_n that_o i_o may_v loose_v the_o hear_n of_o these_o horrible_a roar_n and_o fearful_a noise_n and_o the_o see_v of_o this_o spectacle_n of_o devil_n which_o be_v so_o hideous_a o_o eternal_a word_n thou_o have_v bring_v i_o into_o a_o great_a lake_n wherein_o i_o know_v not_o which_o way_n to_o turn_v myself_o where_o i_o may_v not_o see_v &_o hear_v so_o many_o fierce_a beast_n which_o run_v with_o open_a mouth_n towards_o the_o devour_a of_o i_o what_o therefore_o shall_v i_o do_v it_o will_v be_v best_o that_o i_o take_v courage_n and_o do_v myself_o honour_v by_o it_o make_v a_o virtue_n of_o necessity_n that_o be_v by_o glory_v in_o the_o pain_n i_o endure_v redimo_fw-la i_o à _fw-la caluminantibus_fw-la me_fw-it generatio_fw-la mea_fw-la ablata_fw-la est_fw-la &_o convoluta_fw-la à _fw-la i_o oportet_fw-la i_o gloriari_fw-la in_o varijs_fw-la tentationibus_fw-la timor_fw-la &_o tremor_n venerunt_fw-la super_fw-la i_o &_o contexerunt_fw-la i_o tenebrae_fw-la aestimata_fw-la sum_fw-la tamquam_fw-la mortuus_fw-la à _fw-la cord_n o_o lord_n cast_v thy_o right_a hand_n over_o i_o and_o give_v i_o strength_n many_o other_o thing_n she_o proceed_v to_o say_v and_o she_o also_o understand_v in_o this_o bapt_n that_o until_o the_o day_n of_o the_o most_o b._n trinity_n the_o feel_n of_o the_o divine_a grace_n shall_v not_o be_v whole_o withdraw_v from_o she_o but_o that_o she_o be_v more_o to_o be_v fortify_v by_o god_n for_o her_o spiritual_a comfort_n of_o five_o tentation_n which_o for_o five_o year_n do_v afflict_v she_o she_o have_v a_o sign_n from_o god_n thaâ—_n she_o be_v not_o delude_v and_o how_o for_o the_o space_n of_o five_o hour_n she_o be_v beat_v by_o devil_n chap._n 16._o after_o that_o the_o omnipotent_a god_n have_v fortify_v this_o true_a servant_n of_o he_o with_o so_o many_o sovereign_a conception_n &_o enrich_v she_o with_o so_o many_o grace_n upon_o the_o day_n of_o the_o most_o holy_a trinity_n be_v the_o 16._o of_o june_n in_o the_o say_a year_n 1585._o when_o she_o return_v from_o that_o rapt_v wherein_o she_o have_v remain_v for_o the_o space_n of_o eight_o day_n and_o night_n successive_o he_o withdraw_v from_o she_o the_o delight_n and_o feel_n of_o his_o grace_n whereupon_o the_o hideous_a sight_n of_o devil_n and_o fierce_a tentation_n do_v at_o that_o time_n begin_v to_o afflict_v and_o fright_v she_o in_o such_o sort_n that_o it_o will_v have_v bring_v terror_n and_o horror_n to_o any_o humane_a creature_n whatsoever_o though_o of_o most_o innocent_a and_o holy_a life_n and_o as_o she_o have_v receive_v from_o her_o
herself_o with_o another_o which_o be_v to_o be_v give_v she_o for_o god_n sake_n if_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o mother_n and_o sister_n shall_v be_v so_o content_v hereupon_o they_o consent_v not_o without_o abundance_n of_o tear_n see_v there_o before_o they_o a_o example_n of_o so_o great_a virtue_n the_o prioress_n make_v she_o put_v off_o her_o coat_n and_o to_o put_v on_o the_o coat_n of_o another_o sister_n affirm_v that_o she_o give_v it_o she_o for_o jesus_n sake_n bid_v she_o keep_v it_o till_o it_o be_v require_v again_o by_o this_o action_n all_o diabolical_a tentation_n which_o vex_v she_o in_o the_o point_n of_o poverty_n be_v much_o weaken_v and_o she_o find_v withal_o so_o great_a contentment_n of_o soul_n that_o be_v rapt_v in_o extasis_fw-la she_o seem_v to_o feel_v part_n of_o the_o joy_n of_o those_o bless_a spirit_n which_o be_v apparel_v in_o heaven_n with_o immortal_a glory_n and_o moreo_fw-la she_o have_v a_o lively_a feel_n of_o how_o much_o the_o virtue_n of_o humility_n and_o poverty_n ought_v to_o be_v esteem_v and_o love_v which_o make_v the_o soul_n in_o heaven_n happy_a and_o amiable_a even_o here_o on_o earth_n god_n show_v she_o the_o glory_n of_o s._n augustine_n and_o he_o help_v she_o to_o say_v her_o office_n chap._n 29._o on_o the_o vigil_n of_o s._n augustine_n in_o the_o same_o year_n of_o 1587._o she_o be_v employ_v about_o some_o business_n of_o the_o monastery_n after_o she_o have_v say_v with_o the_o other_o religious_a as_o many_o psalm_n in_o honour_n of_o that_o saint_n as_o the_o name_n of_o augustine_n contain_v letter_n she_o be_v rapt_v in_o extasis_fw-la &_o instant_o begin_v with_o great_a fervour_n to_o beg_v of_o god_n that_o he_o will_v show_v she_o the_o glory_n of_o that_o saint_n and_o that_o through_o his_o merit_n he_o will_v impart_v some_o grace_n to_o the_o religious_a of_o that_o monastery_n her_o prayer_n be_v not_o make_v in_o vain_a for_o instant_o she_o see_v as_o may_v be_v understand_v by_o her_o manner_n of_o speech_n that_o our_o lord_n god_n for_o the_o merit_n of_o that_o saint_n impart_v to_o they_o many_o spiritual_a gift_n the_o evening_n after_o she_o be_v in_o the_o choir_n at_o complyn_n while_o the_o salue_fw-la regina_fw-la be_v sing_v she_o see_v s._n augustine_n environ_v with_o eternal_a glory_n &_o then_o fasten_v her_o eye_n on_o heaven_n be_v fill_v with_o divine_a splendour_n she_o begin_v to_o discourse_v with_o that_o saint_n with_o such_o admirable_a fervour_n of_o spirit_n and_o with_o so_o great_a vehemency_n of_o speech_n that_o it_o be_v impossible_a for_o the_o religious_a to_o note_v her_o word_n but_o the_o night_n follow_v say_v her_o matin_n with_o the_o rest_n when_o she_o be_v come_v to_o the_o midst_n thereof_o retire_v herself_o a_o little_a aside_o she_o be_v again_o alienate_v from_o her_o sense_n and_o s._n augustine_n do_v in_o like_a manner_n appear_v to_o she_o who_o make_v a_o end_n of_o say_v the_o office_n with_o heâ—_n as_o may_v easy_o be_v know_v by_o she_o recite_v of_o one_o verse_n and_o not_o the_o other_o she_o hear_v that_o the_o saint_n do_v utter_v it_o at_o the_o same_o time_n she_o also_o hear_v the_o angelical_a melodye_n whereupon_o she_o say_v yea_o this_o be_v other_o manner_n of_o music_n then_o that_o which_o be_v make_v below_o on_o earth_n have_v end_v the_o office_n she_o begin_v to_o beg_v of_o jesus_n with_o most_o devout_a word_n that_o he_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o come_v and_o unite_v himself_o to_o she_o in_o the_o b._n sacrament_n and_o remain_v yet_o still_o in_o rapt_v she_o go_v to_o the_o usual_a place_n of_o the_o communion_n &_o be_v upon_o her_o knee_n she_o remain_v there_o till_o the_o ghostly_a father_n come_v to_o communicate_v the_o religious_a &_o she_o be_v also_o commumnicate_v without_o ever_o go_v out_o of_o the_o rapt_v whereby_o she_o be_v so_o much_o kindle_v with_o the_o love_n of_o god_n that_o she_o seem_v even_o with_o excess_n of_o tenderness_n to_o faint_v and_o she_o utter_v word_n so_o fervent_a &_o affectuous_a as_o will_v have_v mollify_v any_o perverse_a and_o stony_a hart_n and_o thus_o pass_v she_o that_o night_n in_o these_o devout_a contemplation_n she_o be_v tempt_v that_o for_o the_o benefit_n of_o soul_n she_o will_v leave_v that_o religious_a state_n and_o afterward_o she_o be_v tempt_v with_o pride_n &_o proper_a estimation_n and_o of_o the_o remedye_n which_o she_o use_v that_o she_o may_v not_o be_v overcome_v chap._n 30._o howsoever_o the_o enemy_n of_o mankind_n see_v that_o he_o labour_v in_o vain_a in_o strive_v to_o remove_v this_o spouse_n of_o christ_n from_o her_o holy_a life_n yet_o he_o cease_v not_o with_o new_a assault_n to_o afflict_v &_o tempt_v she_o for_o under_o the_o shadow_n of_o good_a he_o be_v desirous_a to_o persuade_v she_o note_n note_n that_o more_o quiet_o she_o may_v serve_v god_n if_o put_v of_o the_o habit_n of_o religion_n for_o the_o benefit_n of_o soul_n she_o will_v return_v into_o the_o world_n but_o find_v she_o still_o more_o and_o more_o stable_n in_o her_o holy_a purpose_n he_o begin_v again_o to_o appear_v to_o she_o in_o fearful_a shape_n threaten_v that_o he_o will_v destroy_v she_o if_o she_o consent_v not_o to_o his_o wicked_a suggestion_n but_o she_o contemn_v his_o threat_n and_o rage_n be_v inflame_v with_o desire_n to_o serve_v god_n to_o free_v herself_o from_o the_o tentation_n of_o leave_v the_o religious_a habit_n she_o take_v one_o day_n the_o key_n of_o the_o monastery_n and_o place_v they_o in_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o crucifix_n to_o show_v that_o she_o shall_v yield_v obedience_n only_o to_o he_o in_o the_o observation_n of_o her_o enclosure_n the_o night_n after_o be_v of_o s._n andrew_n the_o apostle_n say_v matin_n with_o the_o rest_n of_o her_o sister_n she_o be_v trouble_v with_o a_o most_o grievous_a tentation_n to_o make_v herself_o away_o she_o go_v from_o thence_o to_o the_o refectory_n where_o she_o take_v up_o a_o knife_n and_o 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religious_a of_o endure_v any_o pain_n for_o the_o reduction_n of_o soul_n to_o god_n and_o because_o jesus_n have_v show_v sometime_o to_o she_o in_o rapt_v how_o hideous_o deform_v a_o soul_n be_v which_o live_v in_o darkness_n of_o sin_n she_o will_v say_v sometime_o that_o she_o see_v no_o difference_n in_o the_o uglines_n thereof_o from_o that_o of_o the_o infernal_a spirit_n she_o say_v she_o will_v willing_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o the_o extraordinary_a gift_n which_o she_o have_v receive_v of_o god_n note_n note_n that_o they_o may_v be_v grant_v to_o her_o neighbour_n &_o that_o for_o her_o part_n it_o will_v suffice_v if_o she_o may_v keep_v her_o good_a desire_n of_o be_v able_a to_o love_n and_o serve_v his_o divine_a majesty_n for_o this_o cause_n she_o will_v also_o deprive_v herself_o sometime_o of_o her_o dear_a discourse_n with_o god_n that_o she_o may_v be_v a_o help_n to_o her_o sister_n for_o as_o she_o often_o say_v she_o make_v great_a account_n of_o be_v able_a to_o assist_v other_o then_o of_o all_o the_o excess_n of_o mind_n that_o she_o may_v have_v for_o in_o these_o excess_n say_v she_o i_o be_o holpen_v by_o god_n but_o by_o assist_v my_o neighbour_n i_o help_v god_n beside_o she_o consider_v so_o earnest_o â—he_v creature_n in_o their_o spiritual_a part_n that_o â—he_v name_v they_o not_o otherwise_o then_o by_o â—he_n name_n of_o soul_n not_o regard_v any_o â—hing_n in_o they_o but_o the_o participation_n which_o they_o have_v with_o god_n in_o be_v creâ—ted_v after_o his_o image_n she_o obtain_v of_o god_n by_o her_o prayer_n the_o conversion_n of_o many_o sinful_a soul_n chap._n 51._o but_o great_a sign_n of_o her_o zeal_n towards_o the_o salvation_n of_o other_o be_v then_o see_v when_o be_v in_o prayer_n she_o be_v kindle_v with_o such_o desire_n as_o make_v she_o say_v once_o i_o find_v that_o now_o the_o world_n be_v grow_v to_o be_v in_o worse_a state_n than_o ever_o for_o now_o there_o be_v no_o more_o to_o be_v find_v any_o charity_n i_o have_v envy_n against_o the_o bird_n of_o the_o air_n who_o can_v fly_v up_o and_o down_o where_o they_o will_v and_o make_v every_o body_n hear_v their_o sweet_a note_n &_o they_o can_v every_o where_o renew_v their_o delightful_a music_n without_o ever_o rest_v o_o thou_o word_n so_o will_v i_o be_v able_a to_o do_v i_o will_v fly_v through_o out_o the_o world_n and_o make_v myself_o to_o be_v heaâ—_n by_o every_o one_o that_o so_o i_o may_v imprint_v this_o loâ—_n and_o this_o delight_n in_o the_o heart_n of_o thy_o creature_n after_o this_o she_o show_v by_o her_o wordâ—_n that_o she_o see_v a_o priest_n far_o of_o from_o thâ—_n way_n of_o god_n whereupon_o she_o give_v herself_o to_o pray_v unto_o the_o divin_v majesty_n with_o sucâ—_n fervour_n of_o spirit_n with_o word_n so_o affectuous_a and_o with_o such_o abundance_n of_o tear_n for_o the_o reduction_n of_o that_o person_n that_o she_o obtain_v to_o see_v he_o in_o good_a estate_n be_v for_o this_o reason_n grow_v as_o cheerful_a as_o may_v be_v imagine_v she_o break_v forth_o into_o this_o speech_n at_o last_o o_o word_n my_o prayer_n have_v obtain_v their_o end_n yet_o do_v not_o this_o qualify_v the_o burn_a fire_n of_o her_o great_a charity_n but_o do_v rather_o kindle_v it_o so_o much_o the_o more_o for_o not_o content_a with_o this_o she_o begin_v to_o pray_v our_o lord_n for_o the_o conversion_n of_o other_o priest_n who_o she_o see_v defile_v with_o diverse_a sin_n and_o this_o she_o urge_v by_o so_o devout_a reason_n as_o seem_v after_o a_o sort_n even_o to_o convince_v and_o oblige_v almighty_a god_n to_o infuse_v divine_a grace_n into_o those_o sinful_a soul_n whereby_o they_o may_v be_v illuminate_v for_o
wont_a to_o say_v with_o humiâ—â—ty_n if_o god_n shall_v withdraw_v his_o hand_n from_o â—e_n there_o be_v not_o a_o sin_n so_o odious_a and_o so_o enormous_a which_o i_o shall_v not_o commit_v when_o she_o hear_v of_o the_o grievous_a sin_n â—f_a man_n she_o will_v examine_v she_o own_o deâ—â—cts_n though_o they_o be_v never_o so_o small_a use_v then_o make_v a_o comparison_n between_o â—â—e_z two_o esteem_v she_o to_o be_v much_o great_a through_o the_o continual_a grace_n which_o she_o receive_v from_o god_n therefore_o will_v she_o retire_v into_o the_o most_o hide_a place_n of_o the_o monastery_n &_o there_o with_o bitter_a tearâ—_n and_o severe_a discipline_n afflict_v herself_o be_v ask_v upon_o a_o time_n in_o discreet_a manner_n by_o one_o of_o the_o religious_a if_o so_o many_o grace_n as_o she_o have_v receive_v from_o god_n have_v never_o give_v her_o occasion_n of_o take_v pleasure_n in_o herself_o do_v you_o not_o know_v sayâ—_n she_o that_o none_o be_v to_o take_v the_o glory_n of_o thaâ—_n which_o be_v none_o of_o their_o own_o how_o then_o can_v 〈◊〉_d take_v pleasure_n in_o myself_o for_o the_o favour_n grant_v i_o by_o god_n they_o be_v all_o of_o god_n and_o with_o these_o holy_a cogitation_n she_o greâ—_n great_o in_o humility_n how_o in_o a_o rapt_v she_o wrought_v with_o the_o needle_n and_o make_v picture_n and_o other_o thing_n without_o the_o help_n of_o any_o light_n chap._n 57_o so_o great_a be_v the_o union_n which_o this_o devout_a mother_n have_v with_o jesus_n that_o whâ—_n she_o be_v do_v the_o ordinary_a exercise_n oâ—_n the_o monastery_n it_o happen_v very_o often_o â—hat_n she_o be_v abstract_v from_o her_o sense_n â—nd_v fasten_v her_o eye_n upon_o heaven_n her_o â—ace_n will_v remain_v extaticall_a so_o as_o whenâ—he_v fow_v or_o be_v cut_v of_o gold_n or_o â—aking_v in_o paper_n any_o image_n of_o devotion_n 〈◊〉_d by_o have_v her_o mind_n so_o accustom_v to_o â—hose_v divine_a contemplation_n she_o will_v â—emaine_v in_o rapt_v even_o when_o she_o be_v perform_v the_o thing_n aforesaid_a and_o yet_o withal_o she_o will_v proceed_v in_o sow_v &_o â—utting_v and_o paint_v &_o so_o will_v continue_v very_o many_o hour_n together_o wherâ—pon_o the_o religious_a see_v these_o strange_a â—uents_n make_v often_o trial_n whether_o she_o serve_v herself_o of_o her_o own_o sight_n or_o no_o â—nd_v sometime_o they_o shut_v the_o window_n â—nd_v at_o other_o time_n they_o bind_v her_o eye_n â—bout_o with_o a_o cloth_n but_o she_o be_v transform_v in_o god_n see_v these_o rochet_n and_o picture_n many_o of_o our_o nation_n have_v see_v proceed_v to_o sow_v and_o to_o â—ake_v most_o rare_a work_n and_o almost_o all_o â—hey_n which_o she_o wrought_v be_v make_v in_o â—apt_a and_o they_o be_v 3._o rochet_n which_o â—e_v so_o curious_a as_o whosoever_o see_v they_o â—ay_v wonder_v at_o they_o in_o like_a manner_n use_v she_o make_v many_o devout_a image_n and_o cut_v gold_n without_o employ_v any_o sight_n aâ—_n all_o thereunto_o and_o it_o happen_v once_o while_o she_o exercise_v herself_o in_o the_o common_a â—_z of_o the_o monastery_n that_o she_o be_v make_v the_o bread_n of_o the_o community_n and_o when_o her_o hand_n be_v all_o full_a of_o past_a she_o hear_v the_o sign_n give_v of_o go_v to_o receive_v the_o holy_a communion_n hereby_o she_o waâ—_n raise_v into_o extasis_fw-la and_o be_v inflameâ—_n with_o a_o desire_n to_o unite_v herself_o to_o god_n iâ—_n the_o b._n sacrament_n instant_o as_o she_o waâ—_n with_o her_o sleeve_n thrust_v up_o towards_o thâ—_n elbow_n and_o with_o her_o hand_n full_a of_o past_a she_o present_v herself_o at_o the_o place_n to_o receive_v that_o divine_a food_n with_o the_o rest_n oâ—_n the_o religious_a without_o ever_o observe_v that_o her_o hand_n have_v be_v employ_v iâ—_n that_o business_n in_o like_a manner_n it_o happen_v to_o heâ—_n although_o she_o be_v then_o in_o the_o refectory_n with_o the_o other_o religious_a to_o take_v heâ—_n food_n that_o she_o hear_v the_o sign_n give_v oâ—_n go_v to_o the_o confessarius_fw-la be_v alienate_v from_o her_o sense_n run_v even_o with_o the_o forkâ—_n in_o her_o hand_n &_o the_o meat_n upon_o it_o whicâ—_n she_o be_v to_o take_v without_o ever_o reflect_v thereupon_o and_o yet_o dispatch_v with_o the_o confessarius_fw-la that_o which_o she_o desire_v all_o the_o religious_a be_v fill_v thereby_o with_o amazement_n and_o all_o they_o who_o be_v then_o present_a and_o do_v yet_o live_v affirm_v all_o these_o thing_n upon_o their_o oath_n of_o the_o great_a purity_n of_o her_o intention_n and_o mind_n chap._n 58._o how_o great_a the_o purity_n of_o her_o mind_n be_v most_o evident_a sign_n be_v give_v throughout_o the_o whole_a course_n of_o her_o life_n for_o she_o never_o desire_v any_o thing_n more_o then_o to_o make_v herself_o grateful_a to_o god_n by_o this_o virtue_n and_o when_o any_o occasion_n be_v offer_v she_o inflame_v the_o religious_a by_o lively_a speech_n to_o the_o purchase_n of_o this_o heavenly_a jewel_n and_o she_o say_v that_o they_o be_v to_o respect_v it_o in_o all_o occasion_n for_o it_o have_v power_n to_o make_v our_o very_a defect_n become_v virtue_n acceptable_a in_o the_o eye_n of_o god_n and_o she_o will_v thus_o express_v herself_o note_n note_n o_o purity_n how_o great_a wonder_n will_v thou_o discover_v to_o we_o in_o the_o other_o life_n which_o be_v whole_o unknown_a to_o creature_n but_o yet_o not_o to_o such_o as_o seek_v thou_o for_o than_o will_v there_o be_v find_v person_n who_o be_v much_o esteem_v of_o to_o have_v be_v yet_o so_o much_o inferior_a in_o this_o world_n to_o many_o other_o as_o to_o have_v compare_v they_o together_o will_v have_v give_v occasion_n for_o man_n to_o laugh_v at_o they_o but_o because_o they_o be_v rich_a with_o this_o precious_a treasure_n and_o those_o other_o poor_a our_o lord_n will_v exalt_v these_o and_o abase_v those_o often_o she_o use_v to_o say_v with_o abundance_n of_o sigh_n and_o tear_n according_a to_o the_o weight_n of_o our_o purity_n our_o lord_n will_v reward_v we_o in_o the_o next_o life_n and_o for_o the_o great_a estimation_n wherein_o she_o have_v this_o virtue_n spirit_n o_o admirable_a spirit_n she_o affirm_v many_o time_n if_o i_o think_v that_o with_o the_o say_n of_o one_o word_n for_o any_o other_o end_n then_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n although_o it_o be_v without_o offence_n of_o he_o i_o may_v become_v a_o ardent_a seraphim_n i_o will_v never_o say_v it_o if_o it_o happen_v at_o any_o time_n that_o she_o have_v begin_v any_o action_n for_o humane_a respect_n she_o will_v instan_o give_v it_o over_o unperfect_a nor_o will_v she_o ever_o have_v accomplish_v it_o till_o first_o she_o have_v reduce_v it_o to_o a_o pure_a and_o perfect_a end_n and_o sometime_o she_o wonder_v that_o there_o can_v be_v a_o gesture_n a_o motion_n a_o stir_v of_o a_o eye_n of_o such_o soul_n as_o be_v consecrate_v to_o god_n which_o be_v not_o ordain_v to_o that_o high_a &_o divine_a purity_n again_o be_v with_o her_o sister_n she_o will_v say_v we_o fail_v of_o work_v with_o purity_n because_o we_o want_v the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o once_o be_v demand_v by_o one_o of_o her_o sister_n how_o she_o may_v do_v to_o get_v that_o virtue_n if_o in_o all_o thing_n answer_v she_o you_o will_v endeavour_v not_o to_o execute_v your_o own_o will_n note_n note_n but_o rather_o choose_v the_o way_n of_o suffer_v then_o enjoy_v you_o will_v find_v in_o the_o end_n that_o you_o have_v wrought_v pure_o because_o indeed_o therein_o we_o have_v no_o interest_n of_o our_o own_o therefore_o the_o way_n of_o suffering_n be_v a_o safe_a way_n and_o very_o dear_a to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n many_o other_o noble_a advice_n do_v she_o give_v unto_o her_o sister_n concern_v this_o virtue_n whereby_o much_o more_o she_o manifest_v she_o own_o mind_n to_o be_v most_o pure_a she_o be_v ever_o desirous_a to_o accomplish_v the_o will_n of_o god_n and_o while_o she_o hear_v speech_n thereof_o be_v often_o abstract_v from_o her_o sense_n chap._n 59_o she_o have_v ever_o a_o marvellous_a desire_n to_o perform_v the_o will_n of_o god_n and_o the_o first_o grace_n which_o she_o demand_v of_o our_o lord_n most_o instant_o be_v as_o herself_o confess_v to_o have_v punctual_o fullfil_v the_o divin_v will_n when_o she_o shall_v be_v come_v to_o the_o last_o point_n of_o her_o life_n and_o cast_v her_o eye_n often_o up_o to_o heaven_n she_o say_v these_o word_n o_o my_o lord_n thou_o well_o know_v that_o even_a from_o my_o infancy_n i_o have_v desire_v to_o please_v thou_o and_o if_o now_o i_o think_v thy_o will_n be_v that_o i_o shall_v suffer_v eternal_o in_o hell_n i_o will_v of_o myself_o precipitate_v myself_o into_o those_o flame_n to_o accomplish_v
it_o shall_v cost_v i_o my_o life_n unless_o the_o ghostly_a father_n shall_v impose_v it_o upon_o mâ—ly_a obedience_n for_o i_o think_v that_o i_o be_o â—urâ—_n that_o if_o i_o have_v not_o the_o daily_a help_n of_o this_o most_o holy_a communion_n i_o can_v not_o support_v the_o continual_a pain_n of_o my_o infirmity_n together_o with_o the_o great_a desolation_n of_o my_o spirit_n but_o after_o i_o have_v receive_v this_o food_n of_o life_n i_o feel_v much_o vigour_n towards_o the_o endure_a of_o my_o affliction_n among_o the_o rest_n one_o of_o the_o thing_n that_o much_o pain_v she_o be_v the_o be_v continual_o in_o her_o bed_n for_o in_o that_o she_o be_v of_o a_o active_a nature_n she_o feel_v extreme_a mortification_n thereby_o and_o she_o be_v wont_a to_o say_v that_o our_o lord_n can_v not_o send_v she_o a_o pain_n to_o which_o natural_o she_o may_v have_v more_o repugnance_n then_o to_o this_o but_o yet_o because_o she_o know_v for_o certain_a that_o such_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n it_o can_v be_v express_v how_o much_o contentment_n she_o find_v even_o in_o her_o great_a dolour_n eight_o day_n before_o she_o fall_v sick_a hear_v the_o life_n of_o a_o saint_n read_v in_o the_o refectory_n who_o have_v suffer_v much_o for_o god_n she_o do_v yet_o still_o kindle_v herself_o so_o much_o towards_o suffer_v that_o she_o earnest_o again_o desire_a occasion_n of_o our_o lord_n to_o suffer_v agreable_o to_o his_o will_n have_v entire_o forget_v all_o the_o affliction_n that_o she_o have_v endure_v before_o to_o this_o purpose_n one_o of_o her_o sister_n once_o say_v to_o she_o mother_n do_v not_o that_o seem_v to_o you_o a_o great_a affliction_n which_o you_o suffer_v in_o those_o five_o year_n of_o your_o probation_n but_o the_o mother_n quick_o answer_v that_o she_o will_v never_o account_v that_o to_o have_v be_v a_o time_n of_o pure_a suffering_n because_o therein_o she_o have_v taste_v of_o certain_a celestial_a delight_n which_o be_v able_a to_o 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