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to_o give_v he_o satisfaction_n next_o time_n i_o preach_v on_o the_o weekday_n several_a member_n come_v into_o my_o house_n after_o sermon_n as_o also_o mrs._n mary_n harrison_n i_o then_o break_v the_o business_n to_o they_o and_o desire_v they_o to_o give_v i_o their_o thought_n upon_o it_o every_o one_o speak_v his_o mind_n some_o be_v violent_a against_o it_o other_o more_z moderate_a on_o the_o forego_n consideration_n but_o in_o short_a they_o go_v away_o without_o come_v to_o any_o result_n after_o they_o be_v go_v precious_a mrs._n mary_n i_o shall_v never_o forget_v it_o take_v i_o by_o the_o hand_n and_o with_o tear_n in_o her_o eye_n very_o earnest_o speak_v the_o follow_a word_n good_a dear_a sir_n beat_v off_o my_o brother_n betsworth_n from_o go_v to_o the_o wedding_n and_o i_o will_v do_v what_o i_o can_v to_o make_v up_o his_o loss_n these_o be_v her_o very_a word_n but_o the_o manner_n of_o speak_v they_o and_o the_o agony_n of_o her_o spirit_n in_o speak_v they_o 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