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be_v in_o heaven_n make_v thou_o not_o less_o like_o thy_o father_n or_o thyself_o bless_v god_n i_o do_v beseech_v thou_o i_o do_v beseech_v thou_o to_o give_v i_o to_o give_v i_o thy_o poor_a hard-hearted_a servant_n a_o soft_a heart_n lord_n jesus_n i_o beseech_v thou_o thou_o see_v my_o hard_a my_o poor_a heart_n desire_v as_o imperfect_o as_o cold_o to_o make_v intercession_n for_o i_o i_o for_o who_o thou_o have_v pay_v a_o dear_a price_n as_o one_o that_o have_v be_v so_o long_o from_o his_o friend_n that_o he_o can_v hardly_o call_v to_o remembrance_n what_o countenance_n he_o have_v so_o i_o poor_a i_o that_o can_v choose_v but_o pity_v the_o sad_a condition_n of_o my_o own_o heart_n which_o though_o it_o do_v not_o incessant_o and_o importunate_o desire_v grace_n as_o it_o shall_v yet_o methinks_v it_o be_v a_o sad_a thing_n to_o see_v it_o in_o such_o a_o careless_a temper_n i_o be_o such_o a_o stranger_n to_o thou_o that_o i_o have_v much_o a_o do_v to_o make_v one_o 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who_o my_o soul_n i_o doubt_v not_o but_o will_v love_v if_o he_o discover_v his_o beauty_n and_o love_n unto_o i_o and_o work_v they_o on_o my_o heart_n i_o seek_v for_o one_o who_o i_o can_v tell_v who_o he_o be_v before_o i_o find_v he_o than_o i_o shall_v know_v and_o shall_v tell_v to_o all_o who_o he_o be_v and_o set_v forth_o his_o excellency_n though_o they_o shall_v as_o little_o understand_v i_o as_o i_o do_v they_o who_o declare_v the_o thing_n that_o god_n have_v wrought_v for_o they_o meditat._v xxxv_o there_o be_v not_o such_o a_o one_o in_o the_o world_n as_o i_o be_o that_o i_o know_v publican_n and_o harlot_n i_o justify_v they_o i_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o mean_n of_o ordinance_n and_o mercy_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o the_o flame_n of_o love_n nay_o when_o thou_o lay_v on_o i_o that_o affliction_n that_o be_v now_o fresh_a bleed_v in_o my_o eye_n or_o rather_o despise_v and_o forget_v i_o shall_v have_v learn_v obedience_n by_o thing_n i_o suffer_v and_o i_o have_v do_v as_o if_o i_o be_v to_o learn_v to_o sin_n by_o they_o thou_o have_v chastise_v i_o with_o rod_n and_o i_o have_v put_v the_o sting_n of_o sin_n into_o they_o and_o have_v make_v they_o scorpion_n thou_o send_v they_o for_o antidote_n and_o i_o have_v turn_v they_o into_o poison_n lord_n teach_v i_o what_o it_o be_v wherein_o thou_o be_v so_o offend_v to_o leave_v i_o thus_o lord_n i_o believe_v thou_o have_v pardon_v i_o but_o small_a be_v my_o comfort_n when_o thou_o pardone_v sin_n but_o subdue_v it_o not_o meditat._n xxxvi_o lord_n i_o do_v so_o evident_o find_v myself_o unable_a to_o judge_v of_o truth_n or_o to_o resist_v temptation_n that_o i_o almost_o nay_o altogether_o lie_v at_o the_o mercy_n of_o every_o temptation_n and_o to_o be_v carry_v about_o with_o the_o wind_n of_o every_o vain_a doctrine_n if_o thou_o do_v not_o stand_v by_o i_o what_o shall_v i_o tell_v thou_o the_o secret_a puddle_n of_o my_o heart_n i_o be_o weary_a of_o the_o stench_n and_o filthiness_n 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thou_o do_v not_o usual_o discover_v thy_o thought_n of_o love_n to_o a_o soul_n before_o she_o have_v make_v over_o her_o love_n and_o her_o self_n unto_o thou_o then_o i_o think_v thou_o can_v by_o the_o power_n of_o thy_o spirit_n bring_v in_o my_o heart_n my_o soul_n and_o my_o love_n and_o that_o usual_o ere_o thou_o do_v ravish_v the_o soul_n with_o the_o discovery_n of_o thy_o love_n this_o i_o know_v and_o let_v all_o the_o world_n know_v it_o that_o whatsoever_o wicked_a thought_n arise_v in_o my_o weak_a heart_n which_o i_o can_v answer_v i_o know_v that_o all_o thy_o way_n be_v holy_a just_a and_o good_a lord_n what_o shall_v i_o give_v for_o the_o shedding_n abroad_o of_o love_n in_o my_o heart_n that_o which_o shall_v be_v give_v for_o it_o be_v it_o at_o the_o utmost_a part_n of_o the_o world_n i_o can_v fetch_v it_o thence_o but_o lord_n the_o price_n of_o it_o be_v already_o pay_v it_o be_v near_o unto_o thou_o even_o at_o thy_o right_a hand_n o_o thou_o most_o high_a he_o have_v pay_v for_o this_o mercy_n by_o his_o blood_n long_o ago_o and_o my_o prayer_n thou_o require_v not_o as_o a_o price_n lord_n fill_v i_o with_o these_o spiritual_a supplication_n that_o i_o may_v give_v thou_o no_o rest_n nor_o take_v any_o rest_n myself_o until_o i_o have_v find_v he_o who_o my_o soul_n love_v come_v lord_n jesus_n come_v quick_o meditat._n xxxvii_o o_o lord_n beat_v i_o and_o drive_v i_o with_o storm_n and_o tempest_n i_o be_o come_v unto_o thou_o like_o the_o prodigal_a son_n for_o all_o but_o that_o which_o most_o of_o all_o i_o shall_v have_v a_o spiritual_a sorrow_n ragged_a and_o totter_a and_o undo_v my_o sin_n and_o misery_n be_v like_o he_o not_o my_o sorrow_n for_o i_o to_o see_v myself_o languish_v my_o grace_n daily_o grow_v weak_a my_o love_n cold_o and_o even_o almost_o to_o be_v speechless_a in_o prayer_n alas_o the_o sorrow_n that_o i_o have_v be_v rather_o bewail_v my_o misery_n then_o my_o sin_n i_o know_v not_o what_o it_o be_v lord_n but_o thou_o do_v sure_a i_o be_o my_o condition_n be_v sad_a and_o i_o be_o sad_a and_o my_o sadness_n be_v all_o the_o poor_a remain_v of_o comfort_n that_o i_o have_v and_o yet_o i_o no_o soon_o begin_v to_o take_v any_o comfort_n in_o my_o grief_n but_o i_o perceive_v so_o much_o hypocrisy_n in_o my_o grief_n that_o the_o poor_a spark_n of_o comfort_n that_o i_o have_v be_v put_v out_o alas_o tear_n of_o blood_n be_v fit_a for_o i_o then_o dry_a eye_n o_o lord_n must_v every_o trifle_n steal_v away_o my_o heart_n from_o thou_o
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