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prejudice_v he_o and_o the_o cause_n of_o god_n reprove_v he_o severe_o and_o round_o he_o put_v a_o great_a difference_n betwixt_o christian_a patience_n in_o our_o own_o concernment_n and_o fortitude_n requisite_a in_o the_o thing_n of_o god_n and_o the_o good_a of_o our_o neighbour_n and_o for_o the_o worthy_a preserve_n of_o our_o just_a authority_n sect_n 8._o two_o other_o quality_n of_o his_o zeal_n these_o two_o quality_n likewise_o accompany_v his_o zeal_n freedom_n and_o prudence_n for_o although_o his_o great_a humility_n of_o which_o we_o have_v former_o speak_v have_v rob_v we_o of_o the_o knowledge_n of_o many_o and_o most_o profitable_a thing_n he_o do_v and_o cause_v he_o to_o conceal_v many_o of_o his_o inward_a grace_n and_o outward_a action_n yet_o do_v his_o zeal_n bring_v many_o of_o they_o to_o light_n and_o compel_v he_o to_o manifest_v they_o in_o a_o sincere_a charitable_a and_o holy_a simplicity_n where_o he_o see_v it_o necessary_a for_o the_o glory_n of_o 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improve_n they_o like_o good_a seed_n sow_o in_o good_a ground_n bring_v forth_o abundance_n of_o fruit_n i_o wish_v that_o we_o will_v consider_v ourselves_o set_v in_o this_o world_n as_o a_o crystal_n which_o place_v in_o the_o middle_n of_o the_o universe_n will_v give_v free_a passage_n to_o all_o that_o light_v it_o receive_v from_o above_o and_o that_o by_o good_a example_n by_o a_o high_a estimate_n set_v of_o virtue_n by_o discountenance_v of_o vice_n by_o comfort_v other_o by_o pious_a convease_n we_o will_v impart_v those_o talent_n we_o have_v receive_v from_o heaven_n to_o all_o creature_n and_o this_o without_o disguisement_n or_o the_o least_o claim_n of_o propriety_n give_v obedience_n and_o passage_n to_o they_o as_o the_o crystal_n to_o light_v furthermore_o that_o all_o those_o honour_n and_o commendation_n which_o we_o receive_v from_o below_o shall_v free_o pass_v through_o we_o again_o up_o to_o god_n without_o make_v any_o stay_n with_o we_o no_o otherwise_o 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