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lie_n a_o holy_a fear_n of_o god_n and_o hope_n in_o his_o mercy_n ps_n 147._o 11._o 10_o lie_n fruitfulness_n cant._n 4._o 16_o 5._o 1._o but_o though_o god_n gracious_o assist_v i_o in_o preparation_n yet_o in_o the_o time_n of_o receive_v my_o heart_n be_v flat_a and_o dead_a as_o soon_o as_o the_o sacrament_n be_v end_v i_o retire_v to_o my_o chamber_n to_o to_o pray_v and_o as_o i_o be_v pray_v that_o scripture_n be_v bring_v to_o my_o remembrance_n rom._n 3._o 3_o 4._o shall_v their_o unbelief_n make_v the_o faith_n of_o god_n of_o none_o effect_v god_n forbid_v i_o argue_v thence_o that_o the_o sin_n of_o my_o holy_a thing_n my_o deadness_n and_o want_n of_o holy_a and_o due_a affection_n in_o time_n of_o receive_v shall_v not_o make_v void_a what_o god_n have_v promise_v in_o and_o by_o this_o ordinance_n but_o that_o the_o cup_n be_v to_o i_o the_o communion_n of_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n and_o the_o new_a testament_n in_o his_o blood_n and_o the_o breed_v the_o 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christ_n keep_v we_o â—o_o firm_o in_o the_o love_n of_o god_n that_o nothing_o can_v be_v able_a to_o separate_v we_o from_o it_o rom._n 8._o 34._o 35_o 38_o 39_o i_o consider_v further_a that_o the_o person_n for_o who_o he_o intercede_v be_v such_o as_o come_v to_o god_n by_o he_o and_o that_o he_o intercede_v for_o they_o at_o all_o time_n when_o they_o be_v fall_v as_o well_o as_o when_o they_o stand_v when_o they_o be_v dead_a as_o well_o as_o when_o in_o a_o lively_a frame_n for_o he_o ever_o live_v to_o make_v intercession_n after_o these_o meditation_n my_o spirit_n revive_v and_o notwithstanding_o i_o be_v before_o bow_v down_o under_o the_o sense_n of_o guilt_n i_o go_v with_o boldness_n to_o god_n lean_v upon_o the_o merit_n and_o intercession_n of_o jesus_n christ_n oct._n 13._o my_o spirit_n be_v bow_v down_o with_o the_o sense_n of_o guilt_n because_o i_o be_v foil_v by_o a_o sin_n against_o which_o i_o have_v pray_v many_o year_n i_o be_v revive_v in_o read_v in_o my_o course_n 2_o cor._n 12._o 7_o 8_o 9_o whence_o i_o observe_v 1_o st_z god_n see_v it_o needful_a for_o some_o of_o his_o servant_n to_o meet_v with_o buffet_n 2_o lie_n when_o god_n le_fw-fr we_o loose_v any_o corruption_n a_o thorn_n in_o the_o flesh_n or_o a_o temptation_n a_o messenger_n of_o satan_n to_o buffet_v we_o it_o be_v to_o keep_v we_o humble_a and_o from_o be_v exalt_v 3_o lie_n god_n suffer_v his_o faithful_a servant_n sometime_o to_o pray_v long_o against_o corruption_n or_o temptation_n and_o yet_o can_v get_v it_o remove_v 4_o lie_n though_o my_o strength_n be_v not_o
and_o miserable_a to_o die_v in_o sin_n in_o a_o state_n of_o sin_n in_o the_o guilt_n of_o sin_n under_o the_o reign_n and_o power_n of_o sin_n in_o the_o arm_n and_o embrace_n of_o sin_n sin_n be_v the_o transgression_n of_o a_o righteous_a law_n the_o violation_n of_o infinite_a holiness_n and_o justice_n and_o rebellion_n against_o divine_a majesty_n and_o authority_n it_o always_o have_v demerit_n and_o guilt_n consequent_a upon_o it_o which_o oblige_v and_o bind_v the_o sinner_n to_o undergo_v that_o punishment_n which_o be_v natural_o due_a to_o it_o which_o punishment_n be_v death_n rome_n 1._o 32._o they_o which_o commit_v such_o thing_n be_v worthy_a of_o death_n thus_o sin_n become_v the_o weapon_n or_o sting_n of_o death_n by_o which_o it_o have_v power_n to_o destroy_v death_n come_v upon_o the_o sinner_n as_o a_o bailiff_n or_o sergeant_n from_o the_o judge_n with_o warrant_n to_o apprehend_v and_o bring_v the_o sinner_n to_o give_v account_n or_o as_o a_o executioner_n to_o take_v vengeance_n to_o pay_v the_o sinner_n the_o just_a wage_n of_o his_o sin_n for_o the_o reparation_n of_o a_o break_a law_n for_o the_o satisfaction_n of_o offend_a justice_n for_o the_o declaration_n of_o divine_a hatred_n and_o displeasure_n against_o sin_n and_o for_o the_o manifestation_n of_o god_n glorious_a power_n and_o wrath_n against_o the_o guilty_a and_o what_o a_o terror_n must_v death_n needs_o be_v when_o it_o appear_v in_o this_o shape_n and_o arm_v with_o this_o sting_n know_v o_o presumptuous_a and_o secure_a sinner_n though_o wickedness_n be_v now_o sweet_a in_o thy_o mouth_n and_o thou_o hide_v it_o under_o thy_o tongue_n though_o thou_o swallow_a down_n delicious_o thy_o forbid_a morsel_n of_o sensual_a pleasure_n and_o worldly_a gain_n yet_o this_o meat_n will_v soon_o be_v turn_v in_o thy_o bowel_n and_o become_v the_o gall_n of_o asp_n within_o thou_o at_o last_o at_o death_n it_o will_v bite_v as_o a_o serpent_n and_o sting_v like_o a_o adder_n 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