from_o he_o and_o have_v give_v he_o the_o wisdom_n that_o he_o can_v behold_v god_n in_o the_o person_n of_o man_n and_o can_v take_v all_o thing_n from_o his_o hand_n and_o so_o he_o can_v give_v all_o glory_n to_o god_n and_o be_v a_o true_a worshipper_n of_o he_o chap._n xxvi_o all_o fear_n of_o god_n which_o any_o one_o have_v before_o the_o birth_n of_o jacob_n be_v a_o servile_a fear_n and_o the_o filial_a fear_n come_v not_o at_o first_o but_o when_o there_o be_v a_o new_a birth_n the_o servile_a go_v before_o but_o last_v not_o and_o the_o filial_a follow_v and_o abideeth_n when_o esau_n be_v bear_v he_o know_v nothing_o as_o yet_o of_o jacob_n but_o suppose_v that_o the_o inheritance_n of_o the_o blessing_n be_v he_o first_o he_o come_v forth_o but_o in_o part_n and_o in_o time_n be_v put_v further_o out_o till_o also_o his_o foot_n come_v forth_o then_o he_o look_v back_o upon_o jacob_n and_o be_v smite_v with_o grief_n and_o he_o see_v also_o his_o own_o danger_n and_o yet_o he_o contrive_v to_o kill_v he_o and_o to_o take_v he_o out_o of_o the_o way_n but_o the_o more_o he_o endeavour_v to_o suppress_v he_o by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o do_v jacob_n come_v forth_o it_o be_v write_v concern_v esau_n though_o thou_o shall_v build_v thy_o nest_n among_o the_o star_n yet_o i_o will_v pull_v thou_o thence_o betwixt_o esau_n and_o jacob_n there_o be_v no_o die_v for_o jacob_n hold_v esau_n by_o the_o heel_n and_o follow_v he_o esau_n be_v the_o beginning_n that_o which_o follow_v be_v jacob_n the_o habitation_n of_o esau_n be_v in_o the_o desert_n moreover_o concern_v esau_n and_o jacob_n esau_n proceed_v from_o isaac_n which_o be_v a_o divine_a birth_n yet_o the_o judgement_n come_v upon_o he_o such_o a_o thing_n be_v righteousness_n in_o a_o man_n upon_o which_o also_o come_v judgement_n esau_n have_v the_o righteousness_n of_o god_n as_o if_o it_o be_v his_o propriety_n and_o he_o appli_v it_o unto_o his_o delight_n and_o he_o seek_v life_n for_o himself_o therein_o and_o therefore_o the_o judgement_n of_o god_n must_v come_v upon_o esau_n that_o he_o must_v lay_v down_o his_o life_n till_o he_o come_v into_o the_o state_n of_o jacob_n who_o abide_v resign_v up_o unto_o god_n and_o whether_o god_n give_v or_o whether_o god_n take_v away_o any_o thing_n he_o be_v satisfy_v therewith_o so_o soon_o as_o a_o man_n receive_v a_o new_a life_n he_o â—s_v again_o subject_v unto_o judgement_n and_o be_v force_v to_o suffer_v death_n chap._n xxvii_o that_o which_o be_v move_v together_o with_o the_o body_n of_o christ_n that_o be_v a_o member_n in_o the_o body_n of_o christ_n the_o humanity_n of_o christ_n be_v a_o middle_a thing_n between_o god_n and_o we_o and_o god_n can_v come_v into_o we_o but_o by_o mediation_n of_o this_o the_o feed_n on_o the_o most_o pure_a body_n of_o christ_n transfer_v we_o into_o a_o divine_a essence_n and_o that_o food_n consume_v all_o flesh_n christ_n when_o he_o have_v take_v the_o bread_n say_v in_o do_v this_o you_o shall_v declare_v my_o death_n this_o be_v the_o sense_n and_o the_o impression_n of_o the_o death_n of_o christ_n the_o expression_n of_o which_o be_v the_o declaration_n thereof_o hence_o it_o may_v be_v observe_v what_o kind_n of_o food_n it_o be_v to_o eat_v the_o flesh_n of_o christ_n and_o to_o drink_v his_o blood_n viz._n such_o as_o many_o who_o former_o have_v be_v feed_v and_o fill_v by_o christ_n go_v back_o do_v forsake_v he_o when_o they_o shall_v have_v come_v unto_o his_o food_n great_a be_v the_o difference_n betwixt_o the_o essential_a truth_n and_o the_o notional_a truth_n also_o between_o the_o essential_a death_n and_o the_o notional_a death_n there_o be_v also_o great_a difference_n between_o those_o who_o know_v god_n in_o nature_n aâ—â—â—â—cordingly_o do_o possess_v and_o use_v he_o and_o 〈◊〉_d who_o know_v god_n in_o god_n and_o accorâ—â—â—ly_o do_v possess_v and_o use_v he_o for_o purâ—â—â—ture_n such_o as_o be_v create_v from_o god_n â—â—â—â—eth_v into_o god_n without_o all_o adamicaâ—â—â—cidents_n it_o be_v true_a indeed_o that_o the_o israeâ—_n 〈◊〉_d who_o come_v out_o of_o egypt_n do_v eat_v heaâ—â—ly_a bread_n in_o the_o wilderness_n yet_o that_o coâ—â—_n 〈◊〉_d not_o preserve_v they_o so_o as_o that_o they_o shoâ—â—_n abide_v but_o die_v they_o must_v as_o christ_n saâ—â—â—â—_n your_o father_n do_v eat_v the_o bread_n from_o heauâ—â—_n and_o be_v dead_a when_o first_o we_o come_v out_o of_o egypt_n 〈◊〉_d come_v to_o pass_v that_o we_o can_v in_o the_o 〈◊〉_d of_o flesh_n or_o of_o nature_n see_v know_v possete_v and_o use_v god_n yea_o and_o hold_v he_o in_o oâ—_n propriety_n but_o that_o nature_n must_v come_v 〈◊〉_d to_o death_n and_o be_v judge_v of_o god_n anâ—_n than_o we_o possess_v and_o know_v god_n not_o 〈◊〉_d the_o life_n of_o the_o flesh_n or_o of_o nature_n bâ—â—_n in_o the_o death_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o then_o god_n be_v possess_v without_o appropriation_n without_o touch_v or_o handle_v for_o whatever_o feel_v or_o touch_v in_o we_o be_v the_o flesh_n and_o be_v deliver_v up_o into_o death_n from_o god_n but_o afterward_o in_o a_o true_a quiet_a resignation_n god_n behold_v himself_o in_o we_o and_o there_o know_v and_o love_v himself_o and_o although_o former_o we_o know_v and_o apply_v god_n in_o nature_n or_o the_o life_n of_o the_o flesh_n yet_o that_o state_n remain_v no_o long_o but_o by_o and_o through_o judgement_n be_v press_v down_o into_o death_n and_o have_v nothing_o in_o god_n neither_o pleasure_n nor_o joy_n nor_o comfort_n and_o although_o nature_n or_o the_o flesh_n have_v for_o some_o time_n some_o such_o thing_n in_o god_n yet_o now_o it_o have_v it_o no_o more_o whatsoever_o come_v out_o of_o egypt_n and_o do_v rejoice_v to_o go_v forward_o into_o the_o promise_a land_n that_o must_v fall_v in_o the_o wilderness_n and_o die_v but_o the_o child_n spring_v from_o they_o do_v come_v into_o that_o land_n now_o thouâ—â—_n the_o flesh_n be_v thus_o condemn_v unto_o death_n that_o it_o can_v have_v no_o delight_n nor_o joy_n 〈◊〉_d god_n yet_o the_o mind_n be_v and_o rest_v in_o peaâ—â—_n and_o joy_n and_o then_o the_o man_n when_o thâ—_n flesh_n be_v thus_o dead_a be_v like_a to_o wax_v which_o soften_v by_o the_o fire_n and_o be_v make_v fit_n receive_v all_o impression_n as_o often_o as_o a_o 〈◊〉_d be_v willing_a upon_o the_o appearance_n of_o gâ—â—_n to_o gain_v his_o life_n in_o god_n and_o he_o himself_o reprehend_v the_o very_a thing_n he_o ought_v therefore_o again_o to_o be_v judge_v and_o to_o suffer_v a_o new_a death_n it_o behoove_v the_o thief_n to_o remain_v under_o judgement_n upon_o the_o cross_n retain_v no_o life_n either_o in_o god_n or_o in_o the_o creature_n nor_o for_o the_o obtain_n of_o life_n can_v they_o be_v hear_v until_o the_o thief_n on_o the_o right_a hand_n forsake_v all_o accident_n shall_v turn_v himself_o unto_o christ_n it_o also_o behoove_v this_o man_n to_o remain_v in_o judgement_n according_a to_o the_o flesh_n till_o as_o to_o that_o he_o shall_v be_v dead_a nor_o shall_v he_o ever_o be_v raise_v up_o again_o into_o that_o life_n according_a to_o which_o he_o have_v dye_v but_o he_o be_v eternal_o to_o forsake_v it_o out_z of_o or_o from_o that_o just_a judgement_n but_o he_o shall_v be_v raise_v into_o another_o life_n which_o be_v god_n himself_o and_o this_o be_v then_o that_o pure_a nature_n that_o pure_a humanity_n that_o pure_a flesh_n which_o christ_n assume_v as_o it_o be_v write_v zach._n 2.12_o and_o the_o lord_n shall_v possess_v judah_n his_o portion_n in_o the_o sanctify_a earth_n and_o such_o purify_a flesh_n have_v access_n to_o god_n and_o god_n do_v manifest_v himself_o to_o it_o with_o delight_n and_o it_o stand_v give_v up_o under_o god_n and_o possess_v god_n without_o appropriation_n see_v he_o leave_v he_o also_o free_a such_o a_o man_n possess_v god_n no_o more_o in_o nature_n that_o be_v in_o the_o life_n of_o the_o flesh_n but_o possess_v god_n in_o the_o death_n of_o nature_n it_o possess_v god_n in_o god_n it_o know_v god_n in_o god_n it_o see_v god_n in_o god_n it_o know_v christ_n no_o more_o according_a to_o the_o flesh_n as_o former_o but_o according_a to_o the_o spirit_n god_n in_o this_o man_n enjoy_v all_o thing_n and_o do_v with_o he_o according_a to_o his_o pleasure_n both_o in_o time_n and_o in_o eternity_n and_o this_o man_n be_v at_o rest_n in_o god_n but_o the_o anxiety_n which_o he_o suffer_v in_o the_o flesh_n or_o nature_n he_o indeed_o perceive_v that_o sometime_o he_o know_v not_o which_o way_n to_o turn_v he_o but_o he_o so_o be_v at_o rest_n that_o he_o will_v nothing_o but_o what_o god_n will_v if_o therefore_o it_o behoove_v a_o man_n to_o possess_v god_n
for_o where_o the_o virtue_n of_o divine_a will_n be_v feel_v there_o such_o word_n do_v excite_v consternation_n therefore_o it_o be_v not_o for_o he_o to_o say_v i_o hope_v it_o will_v be_v so_o or_o so_o or_o so_o it_o shall_v be_v or_o so_o it_o shall_v not_o be_v and_o the_o like_a but_o he_o say_v thus_o 〈◊〉_d hope_v the_o lord_n will_v do_v it_o christ_n say_v i_o be_o the_o truth_n we_o think_v that_o christ_n be_v with_o we_o and_o that_o he_o be_v such_o a_o one_o as_o we_o be_v by_o nature_n but_o thus_o he_o be_v contrary_a to_o we_o and_o be_v our_o death_n chap._n viii_o all_o ceremony_n conform_v themselves_o according_a to_o god_n and_o be_v a_o representation_n of_o the_o hide_a truth_n but_o they_o do_v not_o conform_v themselves_o unto_o our_o weakness_n as_o some_o say_v yea_o and_o that_o god_n give_v they_o because_o of_o our_o weakness_n when_o as_o other_o wise_a they_o have_v not_o be_v necessary_a to_o which_o opinion_n we_o must_v assent_v yea_o furthermore_o they_o say_v that_o the_o very_a incarnation_n of_o christ_n be_v to_o be_v thus_o adorn_v which_o opinion_n be_v it_o far_o from_o we_o he_o that_o be_v upon_o a_o right_a foundation_n and_o have_v a_o understand_a heart_n will_v be_v whole_o opposite_a to_o these_o opinion_n for_o such_o a_o one_o feel_v and_o know_v that_o without_o the_o incarnation_n of_o christ_n no_o salvation_n can_v be_v find_v on_o the_o earth_n and_o that_o ceremony_n together_o with_o all_o creature_n be_v only_o a_o representation_n of_o the_o heavenly_a truth_n and_o that_o they_o be_v all_o conformeâ—_n according_a to_o god_n but_o not_o according_a to_o we_o and_o so_o also_o they_o ought_v to_o be_v and_o therefore_o they_o judge_v too_o dry_o concern_v they_o who_o say_v they_o be_v toy_n and_o trifle_n as_o also_o they_o do_v attribute_v too_o much_o to_o they_o who_o be_v glue_v fast_o unto_o they_o and_o from_o they_o do_v make_v god_n to_o themselves_o and_o set_v they_o in_o the_o place_n of_o the_o true_a substance_n they_o err_v on_o both_o hand_n wherefore_o we_o be_v to_o wait_v for_o a_o right_a judgement_n in_o all_o thing_n from_o the_o lord_n and_z and_z to_o fear_v least_o any_o thing_n be_v rash_o add_v from_o our_o opinion_n for_o opinion_n deceive_v we_o where_o the_o power_n of_o sin_n be_v feel_v and_o be_v conquer_v and_o break_v a_o man_n be_v cast_v into_o great_a affliction_n but_o when_o a_o man_n put_v that_o affliction_n from_o he_o and_o put_v it_o upon_o christ_n as_o if_o he_o have_v satisfy_v for_o it_o and_o that_o that_o satisfaction_n ought_v to_o be_v impute_v to_o a_o man_n and_o to_o be_v fulfil_v in_o he_o so_o as_o that_o sin_n be_v to_o be_v take_v away_o and_o righteousness_n to_o be_v fulfil_v there_o a_o man_n have_v not_o a_o true_a sense_n of_o sin_n but_o neglectâ—th_v it_o with_o a_o light_a mind_n this_o opinion_n also_o be_v contrary_a to_o the_o writing_n of_o the_o prophet_n and_o the_o doctrine_n of_o the_o apostle_n who_o testify_v that_o christ_n must_v snatch_v a_o man_n out_o of_o sin_n and_o let_v up_o righteousness_n and_o break_v the_o serpent_n head_n and_o overcome_v all_o thing_n and_o that_o this_o victory_n ought_v to_o be_v do_v in_o a_o man_n and_o not_o to_o remain_v without_o he_o rom._n 8._o 4._o for_o they_o ought_v to_o be_v a_o people_n in_o who_o all_o thing_n be_v do_v and_o fulfil_v which_o the_o prophet_n and_o the_o apostle_n and_o all_o ceremony_n testify_v let_v no_o man_n therefore_o deceive_v himself_o by_o impose_v upon_o christ_n any_o thing_n without_o himself_o where_o god_n do_v possess_v a_o man_n there_o god_n reign_v and_o keep_v he_o but_o man_n be_v not_o at_o all_o touch_v with_o any_o care_n for_o what_o belong_v to_o god_n but_o a_o man_n be_v not_o to_o eye_v any_o thing_n but_o his_o littleness_n and_o emptyness_n that_o be_v his_o selfishness_n this_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o and_o upon_o that_o account_n he_o bow_v under_o all_o and_o judge_v himself_o to_o be_v worser_o more_o foolish_a and_o more_o unworthy_a than_o all_o man_n all_o the_o rest_n that_o be_v any_o thing_n be_v god_n and_o be_v due_a to_o god_n nor_o do_v it_o concern_v man_n but_o if_o any_o one_o depart_v from_o his_o nothingness_n will_v arrogate_v to_o himself_o the_o thing_n which_o beâ—ong_v unto_o god_n that_o will_v prove_v the_o high_a pride_n and_o the_o most_o heavy_a fall_v chap._n ix_o when_o any_o one_o be_v give_v up_o to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n there_o be_v nothing_o so_o heavy_a nor_o so_o painful_a which_o he_o can_v bear_v in_o the_o will_n of_o god_n without_o election_n but_o as_o god_n will_v so_o be_v a_o thing_n commend_v to_o he_o who_o will_v do_v all_o thing_n and_o where_o that_o be_v there_o be_v peace_n and_o no_o where_o else_o a_o certain_a person_n say_v such_o as_o the_o judgement_n be_v so_o i_o suffer_v under_o a_o heavy_a judgement_n heavy_o under_o a_o light_a judgement_n light_o when_o one_o also_o be_v ashamed_a befote_n his_o neighbour_n because_o of_o that_o for_o who_o sake_n he_o be_v ashamed_a before_o god_n conscience_n be_v more_o at_o quiet_a but_o when_o one_o for_o a_o secret_a hide_a baseness_n blush_v not_o before_o man_n conscience_n be_v burden_v and_o therefore_o here_o we_o must_v be_v bind_v and_o no_o man_n ought_v to_o be_v ashamed_a when_o he_o be_v oblige_v to_o confess_v himself_o guilty_a before_o his_o neighbour_n god_n keep_v his_o promise_n but_o we_o understand_v they_o perverse_o until_o their_o own_o â—ime_n come_v when_o we_o see_v what_o they_o be_v and_o to_o who_o they_o belong_v he_o who_o will_n be_v resign_v he_o want_v appropriation_n and_o its_o the_o same_o to_o he_o whither_o the_o thing_n be_v or_o be_v not_o he_o who_o have_v a_o will_n yield_v up_o to_o god_n he_o esteemâ—â—â—_n for_o heavenly_a whatsoeur_fw-fr happen_v to_o he_o for_o all_o that_o be_v god_n to_o he_o and_o god_n be_v heavenly_a whatsoever_o fall_v out_o to_o he_o be_v 〈◊〉_d advantage_n disadvantage_n peace_n disquiet_a riches_n poverty_n bitter_a sweet_a heat_n cold_a hunger_n thirst_n honour_n dishonour_n yet_o aâ—â—_n all_o these_o god_n to_o he_o and_o consequent_o heaven_n he_o be_v also_o without_o appropriation_n and_o nothing_o else_o please_v he_o as_o if_o 〈◊〉_d be_v heaven_n unless_o that_o god_n will_v it_o but_o before_o any_o one_o come_v thither_o many_o thing_n be_v require_v especial_o time_n he_o who_o want_v this_o resign_v will_n esteem_v all_o that_o be_v against_o his_o own_o will_n for_o torment_n and_o hell_n yea_o even_o those_o thing_n which_o of_o themselves_o be_v pleasant_a out_o proper_a will_n therefore_o be_v to_o be_v discard_v and_o to_o this_o purpose_n serve_v our_o exercise_n o_o how_o bitter_a be_v death_n to_o he_o who_o be_v yield_v up_o to_o life_n all_o thing_n perish_v but_o god_n and_o what_o be_v unite_v to_o he_o the_o voice_n of_o the_o spirit_n be_v such_o a_o terror_n to_o the_o flesh_n that_o when_o any_o thing_n be_v spokâ—en_v to_o it_o of_o the_o spirit_n it_o be_v fright_v and_o tremble_v because_o the_o spirit_n be_v its_o destruction_n they_o who_o aim_v at_o a_o mark_n shut_v one_o eye_n and_o always_o level_a at_o the_o mark_n and_o when_o one_o hit_v the_o mark_n than_o he_o turn_v himself_o and_o look_n upon_o all_o the_o rest_n which_o none_o of_o the_o rest_n do_v because_o they_o have_v not_o yet_o strike_v it_o but_o do_v still_o level_v their_o aim_n by_o the_o cross_n god_n cast_v on_o man_n chain_n and_o a_o bridle_n and_o except_o this_o shall_v be_v so_o he_o will_v wander_v into_o error_n in_o time_n and_o though_o a_o man_n sometime_o may_v think_v that_o he_o shall_v serve_v god_n better_o unless_o this_o or_o that_o happen_v yet_o god_n adjudge_v it_o otherwise_o and_o know_v this_o to_o be_v best_a contrary_a to_o a_o man_n be_v own_o opinion_n chap._n x._o a_o man_n always_o require_v time_n and_o space_n and_o think_v that_o he_o shall_v satisfy_v the_o law_n and_o yet_o it_o can_v be_v do_v and_o he_o must_v die_v and_o god_n must_v fulfil_v the_o law_n in_o his_o stead_n that_o which_o a_o man_n think_v he_o shall_v do_v in_o his_o life_n that_o be_v at_o last_o perform_v in_o his_o death_n when_o the_o passion_n and_o death_n of_o christ_n be_v real_o in_o a_o man_n also_o his_o resurrection_n be_v real_o in_o he_o if_o one_o be_v real_a such_o also_o be_v the_o other_o if_o the_o one_o be_v only_o notional_a so_o also_o be_v the_o other_o for_o there_o be_v divers_a resurrection_n a_o man_n give_v up_o to_o god_n belong_v to_o god_n and_o he_o have_v no_o propriety_n but_o be_v a_o stranger_n to_o himself_o whatever_o therefore_o god_n or_o
when_o a_o man_n stand_v between_o conscience_n and_o flesh_n and_o when_o conscience_n cease_v than_o the_o flesh_n urge_v he_o and_o to_o he_o it_o be_v say_v amend_v thy_o life_n or_o thou_o must_v die_v but_o when_o one_o stand_v between_o life_n and_o conscience_n and_o transgress_v as_o to_o his_o life_n present_o it_o be_v say_v to_o he_o from_o god_n thou_o must_v die_v chap._n fourteen_o the_o will_n of_o god_n be_v the_o death_n of_o the_o flesh_n i'faith_o when_o it_o be_v upon_o trial_n god_n then_o prove_v it_o it_o experience_v the_o great_a misery_n there_o be_v many_o way_n of_o come_v unto_o regeneration_n but_o the_o end_n of_o all_o be_v one_o and_o the_o same_o yet_o one_o ascend_v in_o some_o much_o high_a than_o another_o do_v as_o when_o any_o one_o come_v into_o the_o sunshine_n he_o have_v the_o sun_n yet_o be_v one_o near_a to_o the_o sun_n than_o another_o this_o be_v my_o counsel_n that_o a_o time_n be_v set_v to_o attain_v unto_o god_n the_o inward_a mind_n be_v free_a but_o the_o outward_a humanity_n without_o grace_n be_v exercise_v under_o a_o severe_a judgement_n i_o have_v no_o prop_n under_o i_o whether_o i_o respect_v god_n or_o the_o creature_n or_o heaven_n or_o the_o earth_n and_o i_o have_v nothing_o but_o that_o i_o can_v lay_v myself_o down_o in_o the_o divine_a will_n be_v whole_o set_v down_o under_o god_n the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n be_v present_a but_o i_o can_v enjoy_v it_o the_o sun_n indeed_o have_v shine_v but_o now_o the_o fall_v thereof_o be_v come_v and_o it_o shine_v no_o long_o i_o lie_v down_o in_o darkness_n and_o in_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n nor_o be_v there_o any_o comfort_n leave_v to_o i_o but_o in_o the_o will_n of_o god_n for_o i_o will_v nothing_o but_o only_o what_o he_o will_v into_o which_o state_n if_o any_o one_o real_o come_v he_o be_v of_o all_o man_n the_o most_o miserable_a i_o say_v this_o that_o i_o may_v express_v that_o misery_n in_o which_o i_o lie_v to_o understand_v these_o thing_n be_v pleasant_a but_o real_o to_o feel_v they_o most_o bitter_a when_o the_o spirit_n suffer_v the_o flesh_n ought_v to_o suffer_v with_o it_o but_o when_o the_o flesh_n suffer_v there_o be_v no_o need_n for_o the_o spirit_n to_o suffer_v it_o be_v never_o better_a with_o i_o then_o when_o i_o give_v up_o myself_o into_o death_n the_o flesh_n suffer_v its_o own_o judgement_n when_o the_o spirit_n be_v in_o peace_n but_o when_o the_o spirit_n suffer_v the_o flesh_n must_v suffer_v also_o the_o poor_a animal_n must_v die_v for_o my_o sake_n though_o against_o my_o will_n but_o because_o i_o also_o give_v myself_o up_o to_o death_n i_o do_v not_o refuse_v the_o death_n also_o of_o the_o animal_n he_o that_o give_v not_o himself_o up_o into_o death_n can_v take_v his_o food_n with_o thanksgiving_n he_o that_o be_v to_o exercise_v modesty_n he_o ought_v to_o be_v exercise_v by_o various_a affliction_n otherwise_o he_o will_v wander_v if_o he_o shall_v use_v it_o without_o the_o experience_n of_o the_o cross_n if_o i_o shall_v stand_v betwixt_o two_o thing_n nor_o know_v which_o of_o the_o two_o i_o be_o to_o do_v i_o will_v weigh_v they_o and_o will_v take_v that_o which_o be_v contrary_a to_o my_o flesh_n when_o i_o do_v so_o it_o be_v well_o with_o i_o and_o i_o call_v god_n to_o witness_v say_v thou_o know_v o_o lord_n what_o i_o have_v do_v but_o when_o i_o do_v otherwise_o viz._n that_o which_o be_v grateful_a unto_o nature_n it_o be_v always_o ill_a with_o i_o and_o i_o can_v call_v god_n to_o witness_v conscience_n indeed_o be_v free_a but_o i_o dare_v not_o allege_v that_o for_o it_o be_v of_o grace_n the_o suffering_n be_v hard_a when_o no_o hope_n be_v leave_v in_o the_o future_a for_o the_o natural_a man_n for_o though_o the_o daybreak_n be_v come_v yet_o there_o be_v no_o redemption_n nor_o comfort_n but_o a_o man_n must_v wait_v without_o hope_n and_o be_v quiet_a in_o death_n and_o though_o all_o the_o joy_n comfort_n and_o refreshment_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n be_v present_a yet_o he_o be_v bind_v as_o it_o be_v with_o cord_n and_o can_v taste_v of_o none_o of_o they_o and_o therefore_o he_o never_o desire_v that_o time_n may_v run_v out_o that_o a_o day_n a_o week_n a_o month_n a_o year_n may_v come_v for_o whatever_o come_v to_o pass_v in_o they_o be_v to_o he_o as_o it_o be_v a_o nonentity_n because_o he_o can_v rest_v no_o where_o nor_o use_v any_o thing_n for_o his_o delight_n for_o he_o be_v make_v bare_a or_o naked_a of_o all_o and_o be_v put_v upon_o the_o cross_v hence_o be_v it_o that_o both_o thing_n present_a and_o to_o come_v be_v indifferent_a to_o he_o when_o even_o then_o he_o shall_v be_v the_o same_o as_o he_o be_v now_o but_o those_o to_o who_o the_o body_n of_o sin_n be_v not_o yet_o crucify_v they_o be_v touch_v with_o the_o desire_n of_o time_n for_o they_o be_v free_a and_o can_v take_v up_o such_o thing_n as_o they_o meet_v with_o but_o this_o state_n can_v last_v long_o for_o judgement_n will_v come_v than_o whatever_o shall_v be_v with_o he_o for_o the_o furture_n he_o can_v take_v it_o up_o and_o that_o which_o be_v contrary_a to_o he_o he_o can_v reject_v for_o he_o be_v impotent_a whilst_o he_o hang_v on_o the_o cross_n nor_o can_v he_o execute_v his_o own_o will_n chap._n xv._o all_o thing_n be_v or_o consist_v in_o order_n &_o order_n must_v be_v keep_v if_o one_o be_v willing_a to_o knit_v together_o superior_a thing_n that_o he_o may_v loosen_v inferior_a thing_n he_o will_v break_v order_n and_o wander_v in_o error_n of_o which_o we_o must_v beware_v the_o lord_n say_v he_o that_o break_v the_o least_a commandment_n and_o shall_v so_o teach_v etc._n etc._n we_o must_v seek_v a_o free_a condion_fw-la in_o god_n in_o which_o one_o be_v free_a from_o himself_o for_o to_o be_v free_a from_o one_o self_n be_v a_o liberty_n which_o be_v to_o be_v attribute_v to_o god_n the_o gross_a and_o the_o low_a thing_n be_v image_n of_o thing_n superior_a which_o be_v to_o be_v understand_v as_o well_o of_o thing_n spiritual_a as_o thing_n corporeal_a for_o we_o ascend_v from_o the_o one_o into_o the_o other_o and_o from_o the_o inferior_a to_o the_o superior_a even_o as_o pleasure_n and_o the_o abuse_n of_o good_a thing_n and_o the_o build_n on_o the_o sand_n be_v image_n when_o thing_n be_v most_o gross_a and_o low_a then_o be_v they_o the_o image_n of_o thing_n superior_a and_o that_o which_o be_v visible_a denote_v that_o that_o be_v invisible_a the_o spirit_n also_o have_v its_o flesh_n in_o which_o it_o dwell_v also_o mystery_n have_v their_o external_a history_n they_o who_o urge_v mystery_n so_o as_o to_o exclude_v history_n disturb_v order_n and_o do_v err_v although_o christ_n the_o bless_a fulfil_v all_o thing_n in_o spirit_n in_o his_o elect_a which_o he_o perform_v coporal_o in_o the_o day_n of_o his_o flesh_n yet_o be_v they_o also_o corporal_o do_v in_o he_o therefore_o the_o historical_a sense_n must_v remain_v but_o also_o it_o behoove_v a_o man_n to_o experience_n in_o his_o own_o self_n the_o mystery_n likewise_o the_o lord_n say_v love_v your_o enemy_n the_o cross_n passion_n adversity_n death_n etc._n etc._n be_v our_o enemy_n which_o we_o be_v to_o love_v and_o embrace_v the_o natural_a man_n be_v surround_v with_o death_n and_o which_o way_n soever_o he_o turn_v himself_o he_o have_v a_o sword_n present_v to_o his_o sight_n just_a as_o when_o one_o turn_n on_o this_o and_o on_o that_o side_n shall_v look_v about_o he_o and_o still_o some_o body_n run_v before_o his_o face_n so_o also_o be_v judgement_n always_o meet_v with_o the_o natural_a man_n ready_a to_o snatch_v away_o his_o life_n which_o way_n soever_o he_o turn_v himself_o at_o last_o he_o yield_v up_o himself_o when_o he_o can_v no_o more_o make_v his_o escape_n but_o the_o spirit_n be_v in_o life_n when_o the_o body_n or_o nature_n hang_v stretch_v out_o upon_o the_o cross_n zeal_n in_o kindle_a with_o divine_a pleasure_n be_v a_o great_a pleasure_n but_o the_o cross_n and_o violent_a plague_n follow_v after_o it_o myrrh_n be_v the_o last_o gift_n for_o it_o be_v write_v they_o offer_v gold_n franckincense_n and_o myrrh_n when_o i_o hear_v the_o scripture_n i_o be_o fright_v for_o it_o denote_v the_o natural_a death_n nature_n will_v have_v a_o appropriation_n therefore_o communion_n be_v a_o death_n to_o it_o at_o which_o it_o be_v affright_v chap._n xvi_o to_o desist_v from_o propriety_n and_o to_o help_v another_o at_o our_o own_o loss_n be_v a_o thing_n true_o pleasant_a to_o find_v gain_n in_o loss_n and_o to_o abstain_v from_o that_o which_o be_v best_a in_o our_o esteem_n and_o to_o prefer_v
for_o real_o it_o be_v without_o judgement_n nor_o have_v it_o any_o need_n of_o any_o mean_n by_o which_o it_o may_v abstain_v from_o judgement_n because_o it_o have_v no_o such_o thing_n in_o itself_o but_o proper_a salvation_n have_v hitherto_o carry_v along_o with_o it_o judgement_n and_o if_o it_o must_v abstain_v from_o they_o it_o must_v do_v it_o by_o some_o mean_n which_o the_o real_a salvation_n want_v now_o those_o mean_n be_v the_o creature_n for_o the_o essence_n be_v god_n himself_o who_o endure_v no_o creature_n before_o the_o essence_n come_v all_o image_n must_v vanish_v real_a salvation_n hide_v or_o withdraw_v itself_o from_o no_o man_n neither_o be_v it_o separate_v nor_o include_v nor_o make_v proper_a but_o if_o any_o one_o seclude_v or_o separate_v himself_o he_o withdraw_v or_o hide_v himself_o from_o it_o than_o the_o blame_n be_v not_o to_o be_v lay_v on_o that_o but_o on_o he_o who_o do_v it_o thus_o be_v the_o man_n who_o be_v in_o this_o salvation_n and_o where_o this_o salvation_n take_v place_n chap._n xv._o the_o chief_a and_o great_a affliction_n of_o all_o the_o damn_a be_v this_o that_o they_o be_v separate_v from_o god_n so_o that_o he_o that_o feel_v that_o separation_n feel_v the_o pain_n of_o hell_n god_n be_v essential_o very_o good_a nor_o be_v there_o any_o good_a but_o god_n he_o therefore_o that_o be_v deprive_v of_o that_o have_v nothing_o whence_o it_o be_v say_v he_o be_v a_o poor_a man_n who_o go_v to_o hell_n for_o some_o year_n together_o all_o thing_n have_v fall_v away_o from_o i_o yet_o hitherto_o the_o chief_a and_o real_a death_n follow_v not_o thereupon_o as_o now_o it_o do_v death_n indeed_o be_v always_o present_a with_o i_o but_o it_o be_v never_o essential_a death_n till_o now_o for_o here_o a_o man_n lie_v in_o death_n and_o destruction_n nor_o can_v he_o take_v or_o use_v any_o discretion_n nor_o think_v this_o or_o that_o nor_o conceive_v image_n unless_o it_o be_v that_o he_o lie_v essential_o in_o death_n and_o that_o death_n be_v real_o present_a and_o when_o in_o this_o misery_n one_o begin_v to_o talk_v of_o these_o or_o the_o other_o divine_a thing_n even_o for_o that_o nature_n be_v to_o be_v punish_v again_o and_o to_o be_v crucify_v with_o yet_o a_o more_o bitter_a death_n nature_n can_v enter_v in_o again_o as_o she_o go_v out_o for_o here_o she_o take_v breath_n again_o and_o be_v recreated_a and_o yet_o there_o belong_v nothing_o to_o she_o but_o destruction_n and_o death_n they_o who_o lie_v in_o this_o affliction_n if_o one_o propound_v to_o they_o any_o comfort_n of_o life_n they_o esteem_v it_o for_o poison_n and_o for_o bitterness_n and_o for_o adversity_n nor_o can_v they_o listen_v to_o it_o even_o as_o if_o one_o who_o be_v lead_v into_o death_n look_v round_o about_o he_o shall_v see_v all_o and_o every_o one_o to_o be_v dead_a all_o whosoever_o he_o behold_v yea_o his_o kindred_n and_o familiar_a friend_n here_o let_v it_o be_v observe_v how_o great_a be_v that_o affliction_n to_o be_v desert_v of_o all_o and_o to_o draw_v life_n no_o where_o and_o to_o be_v a_o captive_a and_o bondslave_n unto_o death_n even_o to_o the_o desertion_n of_o all_o creature_n but_o god_n ennoble_v the_o case_n by_o change_v it_o and_o that_o through_o a_o great_a difficulty_n of_o suffering_n when_o they_o be_v not_o ennoble_v as_o to_o a_o outward_a fair_a show_n before_o the_o flesh_n but_o in_o spirit_n the_o former_a state_n be_v always_o more_o noble_a than_o the_o follow_v but_o not_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n for_o the_o tent_n of_o kedar_n be_v black_a but_o god_n know_v they_o to_o be_v otherwise_o inward_o christ_n come_v not_o as_o it_o be_v expect_v his_o face_n be_v sad_a like_o a_o man_n of_o sorrow_n etc._n etc._n chap._n xvi_o the_o follow_a combat_n be_v always_o terrible_a in_o respect_n of_o the_o forego_n and_o that_o which_o follow_v that_o be_v yet_o more_o terrible_a and_o so_o be_v every_o other_o after_o the_o former_a so_o that_o the_o precede_a conflict_n in_o respect_n of_o the_o follow_a be_v always_o light_a though_o they_o also_o in_o respect_n of_o those_o that_o be_v afore_o they_o be_v heavy_a and_o all_o this_o god_n do_v who_o lead_v a_o man_n by_o and_o through_o these_o hard_a way_n till_o he_o have_v right_o prepare_v he_o and_o render_v he_o purge_v from_o all_o dross_n and_o filâ—h_n and_o this_o a_o man_n suffer_v and_o god_n operate_v a_o man_n be_v overcome_v by_o god_n and_o passive_o lead_v and_o though_o at_o first_o he_o be_v also_o active_a under_o law_n yet_o afterward_o he_o be_v not_o so_o because_o through_o this_o whole_a state_n even_o to_o the_o follow_v he_o suffer_v and_o the_o state_n which_o follow_v in_o respect_n of_o the_o forego_n be_v horrible_a whereas_o before_o that_o it_o do_v seem_v to_o be_v noble_a yet_o in_o respect_n of_o man_n and_o not_o of_o god_n for_o by_o how_o much_o the_o sublime_a be_v the_o corruption_n by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o noble_a will_v be_v the_o fruit_n for_o a_o man_n be_v still_o lead_v more_o deep_o and_o deep_o into_o affliction_n the_o former_a state_n be_v always_o more_o eligible_a in_o respect_n of_o that_o which_o follow_v so_o that_o a_o man_n as_o far_o as_o he_o be_v in_o the_o forego_n can_v account_v of_o himself_o in_o regard_n of_o the_o follow_a a_o heretic_n when_o christ_n say_v if_o they_o shall_v say_v lo_o here_o be_v christ_n go_v not_o forth_o he_o will_v say_v this_o we_o must_v not_o depart_v from_o affâ—ition_n into_o they_o who_o lie_v down_o in_o death_n life_n can_v enter_v they_o who_o have_v not_o yet_o lie_v down_o in_o death_n and_o yet_o obey_v the_o governance_n of_o their_o conscience_n stand_v in_o the_o midst_n between_o life_n and_o death_n they_o be_v subject_a to_o great_a labour_n and_o strife_n who_o endeavour_n by_o the_o help_n of_o conscience_n to_o suppress_v that_o life_n which_o they_o have_v in_o themselves_o these_o man_n as_o yet_o can_v know_v no_o death_n until_o they_o come_v into_o that_o state_n but_o yet_o they_o believe_v it_o they_o who_o be_v in_o death_n even_o their_o very_a cogitation_n do_v lie_v in_o death_n that_o they_o can_v be_v delight_v with_o noth_z ng_z neither_o with_o god_n nor_o with_o the_o creature_n for_o if_o they_o can_v still_o be_v delight_v with_o any_o thing_n by_o think_v or_o cogitation_n that_o will_v still_o prove_v to_o be_v a_o life_n which_o can_v be_v in_o this_o case_n it_o one_o place_v under_o a_o naked_a sword_n shall_v be_v ask_v whether_o he_o take_v delight_n at_o that_o time_n in_o any_o thing_n without_o doubt_n he_o will_v answer_v that_o he_o sit_v in_o death_n nor_o can_v possible_o fancy_v to_o himself_o any_o other_o thing_n but_o a_o certain_a and_o a_o real_a death_n if_o such_o a_o one_o shall_v get_v up_o on_o his_o leg_n to_o look_v about_o on_o life_n and_o thing_n temporal_a he_o will_v see_v nothing_o before_o he_o but_o a_o cloud_n that_o be_v judgement_n and_o death_n the_o state_n of_o such_o man_n be_v plain_o miserable_a and_o painful_a nor_o be_v it_o to_o be_v wish_v for_o as_o if_o perhaps_o we_o shall_v say_v o_o will_v to_o god_n we_o be_v like_o such_o or_o such_o but_o this_o be_v to_o be_v wish_v that_o the_o will_n of_o god_n be_v to_o be_v accomplish_v in_o we_o that_o we_o may_v bear_v it_o and_o be_v unite_v with_o it_o moreover_o those_o man_n who_o thus_o lie_v in_o death_n have_v little_a or_o no_o comeliness_n in_o they_o but_o be_v very_o much_o deform_v and_o therefore_o he_o who_o be_v conversant_a with_o they_o must_v beware_v lest_o he_o imitate_v their_o word_n or_o behaviour_n for_o whatsoever_o they_o do_v or_o omit_v to_o do_v be_v silent_a in_o or_o speak_v it_o be_v all_o perform_v in_o death_n nor_o can_v any_o life_n joy_n comfort_n or_o pleasure_n lay_v hold_v of_o they_o in_o this_o state_n they_o be_v untouched_a by_o delectation_n and_o be_v fill_v with_o death_n if_o therefore_o he_o who_o be_v without_o the_o bound_n 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and_o will_v rule_v and_o govern_v in_o the_o man_n not_o only_o by_o pluck_v out_o all_o the_o external_a act_n of_o the_o more_o gross_a sin_n bâ—â—_n also_o in_o the_o very_a bottom_n itself_o of_o the_o heat_n yea_o and_o in_o the_o most_o inward_a faculty_n 〈◊〉_d sensuality_n love_n appetite_n and_o our_o proper_a will_n by_o which_o all_o our_o external_a action_n be_v govern_v if_o this_o thing_n be_v make_v more_o common_o know_v and_o shall_v be_v receive_v by_o many_o in_o good_a earnest_n man_n will_v not_o go_v up_o and_o down_o with_o such_o merry_a gesture_n and_o in_o such_o security_n as_o the_o do_v but_o without_o all_o doubt_n will_v be_v convince_v that_o the_o be_v sinner_n and_o be_v 〈◊〉_d yet_o at_o a_o great_a distance_n from_o the_o son-shâ—â—â—_a of_o god_n although_o now_o they_o think_v themselves_o set_v on_o the_o high_a step_n of_o divine_a grace_n and_o that_o they_o have_v just_a hope_n of_o the_o inheritance_n of_o son_n but_o if_o the_o lord_n shall_v 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unto_o god_n i_o be_v willing_a hearty_a to_o discover_v these_o thing_n to_o thou_o that_o â—he_v true_a difference_n of_o thy_o condition_n may_v according_a to_o my_o small_a judgement_n and_o the_o testimony_n of_o my_o heart_n become_v more_o and_o better_o know_v unto_o thou_o for_o i_o be_o of_o opinion_n that_o thou_o thyself_o if_o the_o lord_n shall_v leave_v thou_o for_o some_o space_n of_o time_n in_o this_o condition_n will_v come_v to_o know_v the_o truth_n of_o the_o matter_n more_o exact_o and_o to_o perceive_v those_o thing_n which_o hitherto_o have_v lie_v hide_v from_o thou_o now_o therefore_o weigh_v all_o thing_n more_o right_o which_o perhaps_o hitherto_o thou_o have_v not_o do_v even_o as_o many_o thing_n be_v wont_a to_o be_v light_o neglect_v yet_o i_o trust_v in_o the_o lord_n that_o he_o will_v stand_v by_o thou_o every_o where_o lest_o thy_o burden_n shall_v be_v too_o heavy_a for_o thou_o to_o bear_v and_o that_o thou_o be_v not_o tempt_v beyond_o what_o be_v meet_v for_o thy_o weakness_n to_o suffer_v according_a to_o his_o mercy_n for_o our_o nature_n be_v not_o fit_a without_o the_o divine_a help_n to_o bear_v these_o burden_n in_o regard_n no_o support_n can_v appear_v to_o it_o now_o from_o any_o where_o else_o because_o in_o whatsoever_o thing_n it_o former_o be_v wont_a to_o rest_v and_o to_o trust_v all_o that_o in_o such_o a_o state_n shrink_v far_o away_o nor_o can_v a_o man_n in_o this_o condition_n be_v better_o advise_v then_o plain_o to_o neglect_v all_o external_a temporary_a mean_n wherewith_o his_o mind_n be_v use_v to_o be_v delight_v and_o to_o renounce_v they_o quite_o inasmuch_o as_o they_o be_v such_o as_o will_v else_o still_o be_v the_o cause_n of_o many_o affliction_n let_v he_o therefore_o do_v this_o viz._n let_v he_o learn_v to_o subject_v his_o whole_a self_n to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n submit_v himself_o to_o all_o that_o god_n shall_v impose_v upon_o he_o in_o this_o his_o tribulation_n with_o a_o firm_a resolution_n of_o mind_n to_o bear_v they_o all_o so_o long_o as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n if_o a_o man_n can_v arrive_v at_o this_o renunciation_n and_o submission_n he_o shall_v sure_o find_v a_o wonderful_a advantage_n and_o a_o strange_a renovation_n of_o heart_n insomuch_o that_o that_o which_o before_o be_v difficult_a and_o hard_a will_v be_v now_o pleasant_a and_o grateful_a to_o he_o and_o that_o which_o before_o be_v mere_a terror_n yea_o as_o death_n to_o he_o will_v now_o be_v as_o a_o sanctuary_n of_o refuge_n yea_o life_n itself_o to_o he_o and_o to_o tell_v it_o in_o short_a all_o thing_n will_v change_v themselves_o in_o a_o man_n when_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n rule_v in_o he_o and_o impel_v he_o to_o the_o obedience_n of_o the_o divine_a will_n whereas_o whilst_o he_o â—s_v miserable_o lead_v by_o the_o conduct_n of_o his_o own_o carnality_n he_o will_v live_v as_o govern_v into_o mere_a disobedience_n under_o his_o own_o proper_a will_n for_o which_o 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place_n in_o our_o heart_n but_o rather_o that_o it_o be_v so_o expulse_v that_o the_o lord_n himself_o may_v possess_v that_o place_n even_o until_o all_o our_o thought_n word_n and_o work_n be_v perform_v only_o according_a to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n and_o may_v grow_v forth_o with_o all_o discipline_n and_o obedience_n under_o the_o most_o mighty_a hand_n of_o god_n and_o that_o we_o may_v with_o all_o patience_n wait_v for_o and_o expect_v his_o come_n unto_o manifestation_n when_o he_o himself_o will_v wipe_v away_o all_o tear_n from_o the_o eye_n of_o he_o â—nd_v give_v they_o eternal_a comfort_n and_o true_a â—â—lvation_n unto_o which_o it_o now_o in_o this_o moment_n of_o time_n behoove_v they_o to_o be_v prepare_v by_o a_o constant_a sorrow_n and_o misery_n
by_o fear_n and_o anxiety_n by_o terror_n and_o by_o death_n for_o they_o can_v like_v the_o common_a sort_n of_o man_n spend_v their_o life_n in_o mere_a pleasure_n but_o he_o do_v always_o detain_v he_o under_o a_o rigid_a discipline_n and_o many_o fright_n and_o make_v they_o drink_v down_o the_o bitter_a potion_n of_o tribulation_n that_o all_o their_o internal_a faculty_n as_o well_o of_o spirit_n as_o of_o soul_n may_v be_v bring_v under_o the_o cross_n nor_o can_v they_o ever_o arrive_v at_o true_a peace_n until_o every_o one_o of_o they_o learn_v naked_o to_o yield_v up_o himself_o into_o the_o will_n of_o god_n and_o content_o to_o take_v of_o the_o potion_n mix_v by_o god_n and_o give_v he_o to_o drink_v out_o of_o mere_a grace_n and_o love_n now_o that_o this_o cup_n be_v bitter_a be_v no_o fault_n of_o god_n but_o our_o own_o and_o that_o because_o we_o be_v contrary_a and_o enemy_n to_o what_o be_v good_a and_o can_v bear_v to_o be_v purge_v just_a like_o the_o vulgar_a people_n who_o trouble_n be_v increase_v by_o a_o mix_a physick-wine_n for_o by_o nature_n a_o man_n fly_v from_o all_o thing_n which_o be_v hard_a and_o produce_v pain_n and_o yet_o there_o be_v no_o other_o way_n to_o be_v recover_v nor_o to_o come_v at_o health_n then_o by_o those_o mean_n by_o which_o we_o be_v always_o more_o and_o more_o adapt_v to_o christ_n our_o head_n by_o a_o similitude_n of_o his_o suffering_n death_n and_o burial_n that_o afterward_o by_o a_o like_a resurrection_n also_o we_o may_v be_v take_v into_o he_o and_o be_v possess_v of_o a_o never-fading_a crown_n of_o glory_n for_o how_o much_o we_o suffer_v together_o with_o christ_n so_o much_o also_o shall_v we_o reign_v with_o â—im_n not_o indeed_o in_o this_o time_n of_o temporary_a abode_n but_o in_o the_o truth_n and_o permanency_n of_o spirit_n and_o life_n in_o which_o we_o â—hall_v arise_v and_o be_v excite_v to_o such_o a_o likeness_n of_o christ_n as_o consist_v not_o with_o depraved_a nature_n but_o be_v lift_v up_o above_o nature_n and_o be_v conform_v into_o a_o spirituâ—â—_n eternal_a and_o immortal_a life_n thus_o therefore_o all_o and_o every_o one_o of_o they_o in_o their_o â—wn_a order_n may_v expect_v it_o will_v be_v accord_v to_o the_o measure_n of_o the_o divine_a gift_n â—â—at_v the_o enemy_n may_v for_o the_o time_n to_o â—â—me_n have_v no_o more_o right_a nor_o power_n â—er_o our_o soul_n by_o reason_n of_o sin_n under_o â—hich_v hitherto_o we_o have_v be_v bind_v use_v captivate_v hope_v for_o salvation_n use_v redemption_n in_o christ_n from_o all_o our_o internal_a enemy_n who_o force_n our_o soul_n into_o slavery_n so_o that_o in_o tract_n of_o time_n we_o may_v in_o all_o holiness_n and_o righteousness_n serve_v the_o lord_n as_o present_v with_o we_o all_o the_o day_n of_o our_o life_n he_o therefore_o that_o have_v appear_v on_o earth_n to_o preach_v the_o gospel_n to_o the_o poor_a and_o to_o the_o desolate_a will_v comfort_v and_o cure_v our_o sorrowful_a heart_n and_o gracious_o set_v the_o captive_n free_a he_o i_o say_v will_v in_o his_o own_o time_n appear_v gracious_a to_o thy_o humane_a weakness_n and_o will_v bless_v thy_o internal_a poverty_n and_o affliction_n with_o a_o greâ—â—_n plenty_n of_o the_o fruit_n of_o holiness_n now_o these_o few_o thing_n i_o be_v willing_a according_a to_o thâ—_n simplicity_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o my_o meaâ—_n gift_n in_o the_o lord_n to_o write_v unto_o thou_o from_o a_o earnest_a desire_n to_o serve_v thou_o that_o 〈◊〉_d perhaps_o some_o mean_n may_v be_v discover_v to_o thy_o heart_n through_o the_o diviâ—â—_n mercy_n lead_v to_o a_o great_a proficiencâ—_n in_o the_o knowledge_n of_o god_n and_o thâ—_n thy_o soul_n may_v be_v seal_v up_o in_o eternal_a peace_n and_o reconciliation_n through_o thâ—_n grace_n of_o god_n and_o by_o his_o spirit_n aâ—â—_n 31._o 1559._o epist._n v._o for_o what_o end_n the_o scripture_n be_v give_v and_o how_o we_o ought_v most_o exact_o to_o satisfy_v conscience_n also_o concern_v the_o difference_n between_o humane_a righteousness_n and_o that_o which_o avail_v before_o god_n to_o u._n of_o w._n most_o dear_a lady_n have_v this_o occasion_n offer_v i_o be_v willing_a to_o write_v a_o few_o line_n unto_o thou_o give_v thanks_o to_o you_o all_o for_o your_o friendly_a inclination_n of_o heart_n towards_o we_o the_o eternal_a god_n grant_v that_o that_o bond_n in_o which_o we_o be_v bind_v together_o in_o he_o and_o do_v profess_v a_o mutual_a union_n to_o the_o true_a member_n may_v become_v more_o firm_a and_o may_v grow_v in_o christ_n our_o lord_n according_a to_o his_o holy_a will_n to_o his_o glory_n and_o our_o death_n as_o to_o what_o concern_v my_o condition_n it_o be_v indeed_o at_o present_a such_o as_o be_v tolerable_a to_o the_o flesh_n as_o long_o as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n for_o the_o bond_n of_o death_n remain_v in_o my_o heart_n and_o in_o my_o member_n and_o all_o the_o rest_n be_v know_v unto_o the_o lord_n 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his_o brother_n d._n john_n w._n dear_a brother_n that_o that_o man_n be_v affect_v with_o such_o strait_n and_o with_o such_o grief_n of_o heart_n that_o we_o also_o must_v suffer_v together_o with_o he_o for_o in_o that_o that_o he_o be_v always_o subject_v to_o suffering_n nor_o can_v come_v at_o any_o peace_n be_v indeed_o not_o the_o work_n of_o man_n but_o the_o gift_n of_o god_n yea_o a_o great_a and_o eminent_a gift_n to_o endure_v the_o folly_n of_o another_o and_o to_o cover_v it_o over_o with_o a_o unvariable_a mind_n towards_o his_o neighbour_n for_o though_o we_o be_v undue_o use_v or_o handle_v by_o our_o neighbour_n yet_o in_o truth_n a_o purify_a heart_n ought_v not_o to_o be_v move_v by_o it_o but_o must_v always_o act_v according_a to_o the_o bond_n of_o charity_n which_o be_v alone_o its_o aim_n for_o in_o that_o there_o arise_v no_o suspicion_n of_o evil_n and_o although_o modest_a reason_n also_o may_v descend_v to_o make_v a_o excuse_n yet_o even_o all_o that_o too_o must_v be_v always_o do_v without_o any_o motion_n of_o mind_n for_o as_o much_o as_o he_o be_v such_o a_o one_o as_o the_o injury_n and_o trouble_n of_o no_o creature_n can_v move_v he_o because_o he_o remain_v confirm_v in_o that_o which_o be_v true_o immovable_a dear_a brother_n i_o therefore_o write_v thus_o that_o if_o that_o same_o trouble_n shall_v be_v reiterated_a thou_o may_v always_o have_v this_o aim_v fix_v in_o thy_o sight_n for_o although_o as_o to_o the_o creature_n the_o justice_n be_v on_o your_o part_n yet_o the_o mind_n ought_v to_o remain_v always_o free_a without_o the_o use_n of_o this_o right_n otherwise_o there_o will_v arise_v a_o enmity_n from_o thence_o and_o a_o bitterness_n of_o heart_n for_o thus_o that_o which_o be_v earthly_a overwhelm_v that_o which_o be_v heavenly_a with_o such_o a_o blindness_n that_o it_o plain_o seem_v to_o a_o man_n that_o he_o have_v some_o divine_a right_n whenas_o yet_o god_n can_v but_o love_n nor_o do_v he_o require_v any_o other_o thing_n of_o we_o according_a to_o the_o measure_n of_o his_o justice_n not_o as_o if_o i_o will_v willing_o lay_v some_o blame_n upon_o thou_o do_v i_o say_v thus_o but_o that_o thy_o heart_n may_v not_o be_v nor_o that_o any_o rule_n shall_v be_v want_v to_o thou_o if_o you_o behave_v yourself_o otherwise_o thou_o will_v be_v obnoxious_a to_o a_o heavy_a judgement_n except_o thou_o proceed_v with_o caution_n my_o brother_n strive_v to_o have_v a_o mind_n unmoved_a which_o can_v be_v hinder_v but_o rather_o promote_v by_o the_o enmity_n of_o the_o creature_n all_o thing_n to_o a_o just_a man_n turn_v to_o good_a whether_o it_o be_v death_n or_o life_n or_o dissension_n or_o love_n for_o such_o a_o one_o overlook_v the_o creature_n
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chap._n xxiiii_o when_o sin_n be_v discover_v to_o a_o man_n than_o it_o seem_v to_o he_o to_o be_v as_o it_o be_v a_o sword_n at_o which_o he_o be_v fright_v and_o flee_v to_o god_n and_o so_o satan_n be_v kill_v by_o his_o own_o sword_n paul_n say_v from_o out_o of_o many_o sin_n righteousness_n be_v manifest_v when_o sin_n be_v multiply_v that_o be_v when_o the_o multitude_n and_o magnitude_n of_o sin_n become_v know_v to_o a_o man_n than_o he_o turn_v his_o back_n at_o last_o upon_o sin_n and_o go_v to_o god_n who_o deliver_v he_o from_o it_o and_o in_o the_o place_n of_o sin_n manife_v to_o he_o his_o own_o righteousness_n for_o as_o sometime_o many_o hound_n pursue_v after_o one_o hare_n when_o the_o dog_n be_v take_v off_o the_o beast_n be_v free_v and_o remain_v alone_o so_o also_o god_n do_v with_o the_o multitude_n of_o sin_n so_o as_o they_o all_o at_o last_o leave_n follow_v a_o man_n therefore_o it_o be_v write_v in_o the_o psalm_n a_o thousand_o shall_v fall_v at_o thy_o 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return_v back_o into_o discretion_n for_o the_o sake_n of_o his_o brethren_n no_o man_n understand_v those_o place_n of_o paul_n sin_n experience_n be_v the_o mother_n of_o understanding_n if_o one_o have_v once_o taste_v honey_n he_o need_v not_o to_o be_v tell_v that_o honey_n be_v sweet_a he_o that_o see_v a_o white_a thing_n there_o be_v no_o need_n to_o say_v unto_o he_o that_o thing_n be_v white_a for_o he_o will_v answer_v what_o need_n be_v there_o to_o tell_v i_o that_o when_o i_o myself_o both_o see_v and_o understand_v the_o very_a thing_n he_o that_o have_v the_o very_a thing_n itself_o stand_v in_o no_o need_n of_o the_o type_n or_o shadow_n of_o that_o thing_n chap._n xxv_o christ_n descend_v so_o low_a as_o we_o also_o be_v to_o come_v down_o he_o go_v no_o low_a but_o he_o arise_v much_o high_a than_o we_o can_v now_o can_v we_o also_o possible_o come_v into_o that_o depth_n unless_o first_o we_o shall_v arrive_v at_o exaltation_n man_n have_v christ_n first_o in_o nature_n and_o always_o receive_v he_o more_o sublime_a yet_o so_o as_o what_o have_v go_v before_o be_v still_o sow_o again_o to_o spring_v up_o into_o a_o more_o noble_a plant_n so_o that_o at_o length_n man_n receive_v christ_n without_o all_o or_o any_o creature_n thus_o man_n be_v always_o ascend_v by_o and_o through_o the_o creature_n until_o he_o have_v find_v christ_n without_o the_o creature_n a_o man_n ascend_v by_o the_o angel_n unto_o the_o son_n who_o give_v he_o up_o unto_o the_o father_n generation_n proceed_v from_o one_o degree_n unto_o another_o until_o one_o climb_v above_o all_o thing_n into_o eternity_n and_o there_o generation_n end_v for_o there_o be_v the_o eternal_a abyss_n in_o which_o he_o be_v whole_o swallow_v up_o and_o he_o who_o arrive_v so_o far_o know_v all_o thing_n in_o a_o constant_a idea_n out_o of_o which_o god_n snatch_v he_o and_o he_o always_o see_v most_o clear_o by_o what_o degree_n god_n be_v present_a with_o he_o and_o therefore_o he_o persi_v in_o a_o perpetual_a give_v of_o thanks_o also_o in_o such_o a_o claritude_n and_o vision_n of_o god_n he_o be_v in_o a_o perpetual_a death_n and_o be_v as_o it_o be_v some_o hunger_a soul_n to_o who_o it_o be_v not_o lawful_a to_o eat_v of_o meat_n set_v before_o he_o but_o if_o he_o do_v throw_v his_o life_n into_o danger_n and_o do_v eat_v then_o must_v he_o again_o die_v a_o new_a death_n therefore_o such_o kind_n of_o man_n be_v both_o poor_a and_o rich_a for_o though_o they_o be_v in_o the_o bosom_n of_o all_o comfort_n yet_o they_o want_v all_o comfort_n so_o also_o they_o in_o joâ—s_n want_v joy_n and_o in_o pleasure_n want_v pleasure_n and_o these_o be_v they_o who_o be_v poor_a in_o spirit_n who_o have_v not_o whereon_o to_o lay_v their_o head_n and_o dare_v touch_v nothing_o and_o stand_v they_o do_v as_o it_o be_v upon_o a_o round_a globe_n yet_o they_o have_v wing_n but_o know_v it_o not_o as_o to_o themselves_o they_o be_v altogether_o destitute_a of_o all_o security_n but_o in_o god_n sight_n they_o be_v secure_a whereas_o they_o who_o be_v secure_a in_o themselves_o want_v security_n before_o god_n this_o state_n be_v not_o the_o state_n of_o esau_n but_o of_o jacob_n for_o esau_n have_v god_n for_o his_o propriety_n but_o god_n have_v jacob_n for_o his_o own_o propriety_n who_o stand_v in_o be_v give_v up_o to_o god_n because_o god_n have_v make_v he_o fit_a and_o capable_a and_o have_v reduce_v he_o to_o obedience_n and_o therefore_o the_o man_n possess_v god_n with_o acquiescence_n and_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o all_o riches_n and_o glory_n he_o account_v himself_o a_o poor_a wretch_n he_o be_v quiet_o satisfy_v in_o all_o thing_n which_o god_n shall_v do_v if_o he_o give_v he_o heaven_n he_o be_v quet_o please_v if_o he_o cast_v he_o into_o hell_n itself_o he_o bear_v it_o patient_o and_o still_o continue_v resign_v up_o to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n also_o what_o thing_n soever_o god_n put_v upon_o he_o by_o other_o man_n he_o 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these_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n alone_o and_o have_v no_o business_n with_o man_n and_o in_o all_o these_o he_o look_v upon_o god_n only_o and_o not_o upon_o man_n he_o renounce_v to_o all_o person_n and_o can_v take_v all_o in_o good_a part_n so_o also_o on_o the_o contrary_a if_o any_o one_o good_a happen_v to_o he_o from_o man_n he_o take_v all_o that_o also_o from_o god_n because_o he_o have_v take_v off_o his_o eye_n from_o all_o mean_n and_o have_v fix_v they_o upon_o god_n alone_o he_o also_o have_v no_o respect_n of_o person_n which_o god_n have_v withdraw_v
the_o creature_n shall_v do_v unto_o he_o he_o ought_v not_o to_o entangle_v himself_o with_o they_o because_o they_o be_v all_o of_o god_n who_o he_o be_v when_o one_o run_v so_o long_o that_o for_o want_v of_o breath_n he_o lie_v down_o than_o he_o despise_v whatever_o be_v his_o own_o and_o so_o at_o length_n room_n be_v make_v for_o faith_n to_o stand_v therefore_o in_o faith_n be_v a_o most_o miserable_a thing_n for_o than_o be_v man_n estate_n quite_o consume_v so_o that_o he_o live_v upon_o the_o savour_n of_o another_o from_o who_o he_o expect_v that_o which_o he_o want_v paul_n say_v if_o you_o live_v according_a to_o the_o flesh_n you_o shall_v die_v they_o who_o be_v in_o death_n if_o they_o will_v draw_v life_n from_o else_o where_o yet_o have_v they_o no_o time_n for_o to_o be_v accuse_v because_o judgement_n be_v forthwith_o ready_a at_o hand_n and_o the_o sword_n slay_v they_o but_o other_o who_o be_v yet_o accuse_v be_v not_o yet_o in_o death_n a_o malefactor_n who_o 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what_o will_v it_o profit_v a_o man_n to_o gain_v the_o whole_a world_n and_o to_o lose_v his_o own_o soul_n and_o what_o advantage_n will_v it_o be_v to_o a_o man_n to_o know_v all_o thing_n and_o yet_o he_o experience_v they_o not_o nor_o be_v they_o fulfil_v in_o he_o and_o therefore_o we_o ought_v not_o to_o take_v care_n of_o that_o to_o know_v or_o understand_v much_o but_o that_o we_o may_v sensible_o apprehend_v and_o experience_n much_o knowledge_n puff_v up_o but_o charity_n edifi_v faith_n the_o apostle_n experience_n supply_v all_o thing_n in_o man_n and_o be_v adequate_a to_o knowledge_n and_o thus_o also_o the_o man_n be_v make_v humble_a chap._n xiii_o when_o death_n be_v know_v it_o be_v also_o fear_v and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o profound_o death_n be_v know_v by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o do_v it_o terrify_v and_o be_v it_o fear_v if_o death_n must_v be_v true_a it_o must_v be_v true_a as_o to_o all_o thing_n when_o nature_n be_v once_o dead_a as_o to_o 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our_o sinful_a flesh_n in_o the_o death_n of_o a_o natural_a man_n the_o will_n of_o god_n only_o rule_v viz._n because_o that_o god_n so_o will_v it_o and_o it_o so_o please_v he_o and_o his_o judgement_n thus_o require_v it_o hither_o a_o man_n be_v to_o refer_v himself_o this_o be_v his_o only_a restand_v quiet_a viz._n the_o will_n of_o god_n thing_n plain_o happen_v otherwise_o than_o one_o think_v all_o thing_n observe_v another_o manner_n than_o a_o man_n think_v chap._n xii_o there_o be_v no_o come_n unto_o a_o internal_a state_n or_o spiritual_a exercise_n except_o first_o all_o the_o ceremony_n be_v break_v by_o affliction_n the_o warm_a bed_n be_v to_o be_v leave_v there_o be_v man_n in_o the_o world_n that_o for_o the_o sake_n of_o idolatry_n exceed_v that_o hardship_n and_o patient_o endure_v the_o cold_a and_o incommodity_n why_o may_v not_o the_o same_o be_v do_v for_o the_o sake_n of_o the_o true_a worship_n and_o though_o at_o the_o beginning_n when_o one_o be_v 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world_n and_o lose_v his_o own_o soul_n he_o also_o that_o go_v into_o the_o marriage_n without_o a_o wedding-garment_n be_v cast_v out_o for_o those_o thing_n which_o he_o have_v notional_o by_o knowledge_n and_o in_o the_o understanding_n he_o have_v not_o substantial_o and_o real_o in_o the_o science_n of_o thing_n a_o man_n glori_v and_o be_v glad_a and_o delight_v when_o he_o speak_v or_o write_v of_o they_o all_o thing_n be_v do_v with_o joy_n but_o when_o the_o substance_n or_o essence_n of_o thing_n come_v he_o lie_v down_o in_o death_n nor_o can_v he_o rejoice_v or_o be_v delight_v because_o he_o partake_v nothing_o and_o have_v no_o thing_n therein_o but_o his_o death_n and_o destruction_n the_o science_n or_o knowledge_n of_o they_o can_v no_o more_o make_v he_o merry_a because_o they_o be_v contrary_a unto_o he_o and_o whatever_o he_o know_v read_v hear_v oâ—_n think_v concern_v they_o that_o all_o make_v against_o he_o because_o all_o these_o thing_n aâ—_n contrary_a or_o adverse_a unto_o he_o chap._n xiii_o when_o a_o man_n lie_v in_o death_n he_o no_o long_o his_o own_o for_o he_o plain_o alienate_v from_o his_o own_o self_n her_o therefore_o he_o cease_v from_o labour_n neither_o do_v he_o act_v any_o more_o and_o god_n stanâ—_n in_o the_o stead_n of_o himself_o and_o fulfil_v and_o erect_v that_o in_o his_o death_n which_o have_v not_o be_v do_v in_o his_o life_n for_o whatever_o he_o handle_v in_o his_o life_n he_o do_v it_o at_o all_o by_o image_n but_o here_o in_o death_n god_n have_v establish_v the_o very_a substance_n itself_o and_o this_o be_v a_o grace_n and_o the_o generation_n which_o be_v make_v in_o death_n that_o which_o christ_n denote_v can_v be_v fulfil_v for_o it_o be_v a_o generation_n which_o be_v of_o itself_o passive_a in_o the_o destruction_n and_o death_n of_o a_o man_n it_o be_v impossible_a to_o man_n therefore_o god_n himself_o do_v it_o whence_o it_o be_v that_o to_o he_o alone_o the_o glory_n be_v due_a a_o man_n who_o be_v in_o death_n be_v not_o afflict_v by_o the_o delay_n of_o time_n but_o he_o who_o yet_o hope_v for_o joy_n and_o pleasure_n he_o be_v afflict_v with_o every_o delay_n until_o that_o come_v which_o be_v hope_v for_o but_o the_o dead_a lie_n down_o without_o hope_n nor_o be_v there_o any_o thing_n which_o they_o expect_v for_o they_o be_v forsake_v and_o strip_v of_o all_o but_o in_o these_o thing_n they_o acknowledge_v the_o will_n of_o god_n and_o comfort_v themselves_o that_o god_n so_o will_v the_o will_n of_o god_n be_v their_o couch_n when_o a_o man_n give_v himself_o up_o to_o one_o lust_n than_o one_o follow_v another_o but_o then_o a_o man_n have_v to_o do_v as_o it_o be_v with_o a_o lion_n who_o if_o any_o one_o lay_v hold_v on_o one_o paâ—â—_n of_o any_o thing_n he_o ever_o draw_v it_o near_o so_o also_o if_o one_o yield_v himself_o up_o to_o one_o lust_n he_o also_o quick_o yield_v to_o another_o and_o so_o the_o world_n gain_v he_o again_o tâ—â—_n he_o be_v whole_o swallow_v up_o therein_o but_o then_o at_o last_o the_o man_n true_o neglect_v himself_o and_o expect_v the_o severe_a judgement_n of_o god_n chap._n fourteen_o when_o a_o man_n perceive_v that_o he_o be_v willing_a to_o abide_v in_o his_o present_a state_n and_o to_o be_v at_o rest_n and_o to_o subsist_v in_o it_o than_o the_o spirit_n cease_v and_o the_o man_n slip_v down_o out_o of_o the_o spirit_n into_o the_o flesh_n there_o the_o rule_n or_o government_n of_o the_o spirit_n be_v hinder_v and_o the_o literal_a kingdom_n be_v set_v up_o there_o than_o be_v no_o long_o a_o spiritual_a kingdom_n nor_o a_o increase_n nor_o proficiency_n but_o a_o go_v backward_o and_o a_o leap_v back_o again_o into_o the_o flesh_n and_o into_o the_o creature_n and_o then_o begin_v hatred_n and_o persecution_n towards_o the_o adverse_a part_n that_o they_o will_v not_o so_o much_o as_o receive_v they_o into_o their_o house_n that_o be_v they_o will_v by_o no_o mean_n come_v near_o they_o for_o the_o sake_n of_o that_o and_o thus_o these_o must_v suffer_v by_o and_o from_o they_o for_o the_o sake_n of_o the_o name_n of_o christ_n even_o as_o also_o they_o suffer_v in_o their_o flesh_n for_o the_o sake_n of_o sin_n by_o the_o law_n of_o sin_n for_o the_o flesh_n of_o these_o person_n together_o with_o its_o lust_n and_o affection_n be_v by_o the_o law_n lift_v up_o from_o the_o earth_n upon_o the_o cross_n and_o the_o lust_n and_o appetite_n of_o nature_n be_v cut_v off_o and_o reject_v by_o their_o object_n that_o they_o can_v no_o long_o use_v they_o nor_o draw_v life_n from_o they_o the_o universal_a increated_a salvation_n have_v in_o itself_o no_o judgement_n concern_v other_o
they_o who_o be_v in_o death_n do_v utter_o want_v chap._n xvii_o they_o who_o be_v not_o yet_o dead_a aught_o with_o great_a diligence_n and_o severity_n to_o abstain_v from_o lust_n whereas_o they_o who_o be_v dead_a have_v no_o such_o matter_n for_o those_o mean_n in_o which_o lust_n do_v make_v their_o abode_n be_v by_o the_o good_a help_n of_o judgement_n so_o shatter_v and_o break_v that_o delectation_n whole_o cease_v in_o they_o because_o these_o man_n be_v dead_a as_o to_o these_o matter_n and_o whatsoever_o they_o do_v whether_o they_o eat_v or_o drink_v or_o speak_v etc._n etc._n they_o do_v all_o in_o death_n and_o with_o affliction_n also_o this_o death_n be_v a_o sensible_a death_n nor_o be_v it_o like_o that_o in_o a_o post_n that_o want_v sense_n neither_o also_o be_v it_o such_o a_o death_n which_o be_v once_o accomplish_v then_o cease_v but_o it_o be_v a_o incessant_a death_n every_o day_n for_o they_o sensible_o die_v every_o particular_a day_n but_o for_o the_o other_o who_o still_o abide_v only_o in_o continency_n they_o as_o i_o say_v have_v not_o this_o death_n but_o be_v still_o alive_a for_o those_o mean_n in_o which_o lust_n do_v abide_v be_v not_o in_o these_o man_n as_o yet_o condemn_v to_o death_n and_o therefore_o they_o ought_v to_o abstain_v under_o the_o labour_n of_o the_o law_n and_o sedulous_o to_o beware_v because_o they_o can_v scarce_o do_v any_o thing_n which_o be_v not_o do_v by_o the_o use_n or_o help_v of_o life_n but_o they_o who_o be_v dead_a do_v the_o same_o thing_n in_o death_n with_o misery_n and_o affliction_n and_o therefore_o as_o be_v say_v above_o he_o who_o live_v must_v not_o regard_v he_o that_o be_v dead_a to_o imitate_v he_o until_o he_o himself_o also_o be_v arrive_v at_o this_o state_n of_o death_n then_o be_v those_o thing_n grant_v unto_o he_o and_o be_v become_v pure_a unto_o he_o which_o whilst_o he_o be_v alive_a be_v impure_a yet_o be_v it_o not_o here_o so_o to_o be_v understand_v that_o one_o may_v therefore_o think_v that_o unjust_a thing_n be_v lawful_a for_o he_o or_o be_v pure_a as_o at_o this_o day_n some_o erroneous_a spirit_n david_n george_n and_o henry_n nicholas_n do_v profess_v who_o think_v such_o thing_n be_v lawful_a for_o they_o which_o be_v not_o of_o themselves_o lawful_a but_o be_v wicked_a and_o unjust_a before_o god_n and_o the_o elect_a by_o which_o they_o demonstrate_v that_o they_o sals_o boast_v themselves_o of_o their_o die_a and_o death_n let_v all_o those_o who_o desire_v to_o find_v out_o god_n beware_v of_o these_o kind_n of_o man_n in_o the_o book_n of_o psalm_n it_o be_v say_v thou_o shall_v change_v they_o but_o thou_o thyself_o be_v still_o the_o same_o and_o thy_o year_n shall_v not_o fail_v etc._n etc._n he_o who_o feel_v this_o mutation_n for_o his_o part_n and_o a_o permanency_n on_o the_o part_n of_o god_n that_o man_n feel_v somewhat_o let_v no_o man_n so_o much_o esteem_v of_o the_o suffering_n of_o the_o soul_n as_o to_o contemn_v the_o affliction_n of_o nature_n for_o the_o matter_n upon_o examination_n be_v otherwise_o find_v when_o a_o man_n stand_v in_o the_o trial_n between_o god_n and_o nature_n and_o be_v equal_o on_o both_o side_n grievous_o afflict_v so_o as_o that_o he_o must_v deny_v one_o or_o the_o other_o let_v i_o pray_v that_o man_n bear_v up_o and_o let_v he_o deny_v nature_n and_o not_o god_n let_v he_o i_o pray_v bear_v up_o vigorous_o and_o not_o shrink_v for_o god_n help_v he_o chap._n xviii_o when_o a_o man_n prop_n fall_v from_o under_o he_o by_o which_o he_o be_v bear_v up_o it_o be_v a_o sign_n that_o he_o himself_o will_v quick_o fall_v into_o ruin_n and_o then_o it_o be_v say_v alas_o how_o long_o will_v this_o endeavour_n of_o appropriation_n last_o shall_v this_o my_o meity_n or_o mineness_n always_o endure_v and_o then_o misery_n and_o affliction_n rush_v in_o when_o that_o net_n of_o propriety_n be_v to_o be_v unloosen_v because_o that_o be_v to_o do_v by_o the_o mean_n of_o many_o suffering_n he_o who_o know_v grace_n right_o be_v in_o great_a affliction_n for_o he_o be_v whole_o make_v sin_n and_o have_v nothing_o in_o which_o he_o can_v be_v at_o rest_n by_o how_o much_o the_o less_o one_o have_v of_o grace_n glory_n illumination_n devotion_n and_o of_o strength_n when_o he_o suffer_v the_o mortification_n of_o nature_n by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o excellent_a and_o worthy_a be_v that_o esteem_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n but_o when_o one_o suffer_v with_o the_o glory_n of_o a_o exceed_a high_a grace_n with_o devotion_n and_o with_o virtue_n etc._n etc._n the_o thing_n be_v easy_a nor_o be_v it_o so_o high_o esteem_v as_o when_o one_o labour_n under_o want_n of_o all_o those_o excellency_n and_o yet_o be_v afflict_v yet_o be_v not_o one_o better_a than_o another_o for_o he_o that_o lie_v in_o the_o sun_n how_o i_o pray_v be_v he_o better_o than_o another_o who_o do_v not_o lie_v in_o the_o sun_n except_o it_o be_v because_o he_o have_v need_n of_o great_a humiliation_n which_o must_v be_v do_v for_o he_o by_o and_o through_o so_o much_o mercy_n so_o that_o he_o must_v bow_v himself_o down_o under_o the_o foot_n of_o all_o man_n and_o submit_v himself_o unto_o they_o conscience_n be_v our_o next_o neighbour_n with_o who_o we_o be_v to_o be_v reconcile_v before_o god_n will_v accept_v our_o offering_n therefore_o we_o ought_v rather_o to_o suffer_v the_o loss_n of_o our_o own_o self_n then_o to_o keep_v a_o evil_a conscience_n yea_o all_o adversity_n be_v rather_o to_o be_v accept_v than_o that_o conscience_n shall_v torment_v we_o he_o that_o have_v a_o evil_a conscience_n can_v be_v advance_v forward_o a_o evil_a conscience_n be_v a_o great_a burden_n we_o must_v therefore_o use_v all_o diligence_n that_o our_o conscience_n be_v bring_v into_o a_o innocency_n but_o that_o can_v never_o be_v effect_v without_o affliction_n and_o without_o the_o want_n of_o all_o thing_n pleasant_a he_o who_o be_v full_a of_o lust_n be_v often_o afflict_a when_o those_o thing_n be_v not_o do_v which_o he_o desire_v it_o be_v not_o wisdom_n to_o reveal_v the_o folly_n of_o another_o unless_o one_o have_v a_o very_a lawful_a cause_n else_o the_o business_n of_o another_o be_v not_o to_o be_v discover_v the_o art_n of_o god_n be_v god_n himself_o and_o it_o be_v teach_v by_o god_n and_o infuse_v without_o any_o mean_n although_o some_o certain_a thing_n shall_v precede_v which_o have_v be_v useful_a so_o to_o dispose_v a_o man_n that_o god_n can_v immediate_o touch_v he_o it_o be_v no_o art_n to_o have_v no_o care_n in_o great_a abundance_n but_o by_o care_n to_o abstain_v in_o want_n come_v to_o this_o at_o length_n not_o to_o be_v solicitous_a if_o the_o eye_n be_v shut_v to_o lust_n and_o appetite_n we_o may_v endure_v much_o affliction_n can_v bring_v it_o so_o to_o pass_v as_o any_o one_o can_v deny_v himself_o in_o great_a thing_n which_o without_o affliction_n he_o can_v never_o have_v renounce_v he_o that_o be_v free_a from_o many_o have_v need_n also_o to_o be_v set_v free_a from_o himself_o not_o that_o he_o be_v a_o captive_a to_o himself_o but_o be_v free_v from_o himself_o many_o think_v that_o they_o have_v discretion_n which_o notwithstanding_o they_o have_v not_o yet_o he_o in_o who_o discretion_n be_v to_o be_v find_v both_o bitter_a and_o sweet_a thing_n must_v have_v be_v taste_v by_o he_o to_o be_v free_a in_o conscience_n from_o those_o accusation_n which_o be_v wont_a to_o be_v make_v daily_o be_v a_o great_a gift_n of_o god_n and_o that_o liberty_n can_v advance_v a_o man_n unto_o a_o notable_a growth_n if_o he_o can_v use_v it_o right_o no_o man_n know_v what_o he_o have_v but_o when_o he_o have_v lose_v the_o thing_n then_o at_o length_n a_o man_n acknowledge_v what_o he_o once_o have_v a_o man_n be_v full_a of_o the_o study_n of_o appropriation_n so_o that_o he_o always_o think_v that_o this_o or_o that_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o and_o to_o be_v his_o and_o that_o he_o have_v a_o right_a unto_o that_o he_o that_o stand_v in_o god_n walk_n speaks_z think_v and_o operate_v as_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n nor_o be_v he_o solicitous_a how_o man_n do_v receive_v it_o man_n be_v willing_a to_o hide_v under_o a_o evil_a and_o false_a worship_n those_o defect_n in_o which_o they_o be_v therefore_o involve_v because_o they_o have_v not_o satisfy_v their_o conscience_n and_o that_o false_a worship_n be_v therefore_o account_v for_o the_o true_a and_o remain_v unknown_a but_o when_o one_o satisfi_v his_o conscience_n than_o it_o be_v detect_v to_o be_v a_o false_a worship_n for_o when_o one_o satisfi_v conscience_n there_o conscience_n be_v clear_v and_o illuminate_v and_o there_o a_o man_n be_v
advancement_n and_o then_o also_o that_o which_o be_v evil_a in_o we_o be_v feel_v and_o for_o its_o fake_n we_o can_v be_v affect_v with_o sorrow_n and_o can_v confess_v it_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n therefore_o prosperous_a thing_n be_v not_o to_o be_v seek_v nor_o adversity_n to_o be_v avoid_v for_o adversity_n be_v always_o safe_a and_o do_v advance_v we_o in_o the_o knowledge_n of_o ourselves_o and_o it_o behoove_v a_o man_n to_o be_v wary_a and_o to_o be_v in_o perpetual_a exercise_n and_o trial_n sweetness_n be_v deceitful_a and_o nature_n desire_v it_o bitterness_n be_v a_o medicine_n and_o nature_n hate_v it_o and_o therefore_o we_o must_v do_v not_o that_o which_o we_o will_v but_o that_o which_o we_o hate_v chap._n xxi_o to_o abstain_v from_o inordinate_a and_o unprofitable_a word_n make_v a_o man_n as_o if_o he_o be_v dumb_a and_o cause_v he_o to_o be_v silent_a in_o many_o case_n which_o else_o he_o will_v talk_v of_o a_o lascivious_a tongue_n extinguish_v zeal_n and_o render_v a_o man_n inordinate_a and_o weak_a and_o unfit_a to_o overcome_v temptation_n in_o which_o way_n soever_o i_o be_o willing_a to_o go_v forward_o according_a to_o life_n the_o gate_n be_v shut_v against_o i_o and_o then_o death_n be_v my_o refuge_n i_o must_v therefore_o shut_v the_o eye_n of_o life_n and_o rest_v quiet_a in_o death_n if_o i_o have_v beforehand_o know_v this_o affliction_n in_o which_o i_o now_o lie_v i_o have_v dye_v for_o mere_a grief_n but_o now_o when_o i_o be_o in_o it_o god_n keep_v i_o in_o it_o and_o i_o can_v bear_v it_o i_o never_o before_o have_v believe_v that_o the_o case_n will_v be_v thus_o as_o now_o i_o find_v it_o judgement_n do_v so_o drive_v i_o that_o i_o can_v have_v neither_o comfort_n nor_o hope_n nor_o faith_n either_o in_o god_n or_o in_o the_o creature_n thus_o the_o natural_a man_n be_v suppress_v by_o judgement_n and_o thus_o the_o rod_n hang_v over_o he_o and_o which_o way_n soever_o he_o look_v death_n meet_v he_o but_o the_o mind_n be_v free_a i_o have_v no_o torture_n of_o soul_n and_o such_o suffering_n as_o francis_n spira_n endure_v i_o be_o ignorant_a of_o they_o adam_n be_v create_v pure_a in_o spirit_n soul_n and_o body_n but_o by_o his_o fall_n he_o depart_v from_o god_n and_o tumble_v down_o into_o his_o ownself_n he_o become_v estrange_v from_o god_n and_o be_v make_v his_o own_o propriety_n and_o a_o servant_n of_o the_o creature_n and_o this_o same_o growth_n of_o self_n be_v nothing_o else_o but_o our_o desire_n endeavour_n or_o study_v of_o appropriate_v to_o ourselves_o which_o afterward_o be_v so_o subject_v unto_o judgement_n that_o it_o can_v have_v no_o comfort_n or_o life_n either_o in_o god_n or_o in_o the_o creature_n therefore_o it_o behoove_v we_o to_o be_v reduce_v again_o into_o nothing_o in_o respect_n of_o all_o thing_n about_o which_o we_o be_v make_v somewhat_o and_o then_o at_o length_n god_n will_v be_v all_o himself_o in_o the_o man_n himself_o and_o that_o instead_o 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all_o flesh_n we_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o offer_v to_o the_o lord_n our_o heart_n empty_v and_o set_v free_a by_o a_o mere_a and_o pure_a submission_n unto_o and_o a_o firm_a purpose_n of_o remain_v and_o persevere_v in_o his_o will_n so_o will_v the_o thing_n prosper_v and_o our_o work_n will_v more_o happy_o succeed_v but_o why_o this_o work_n will_v succeed_v with_o so_o much_o difficulty_n and_o with_o such_o a_o length_n of_o time_n this_o be_v the_o reason_n because_o somewhat_o still_o will_v stick_v close_o to_o the_o heart_n which_o we_o can_v whole_o renounce_v for_o when_o but_o one_o half_a of_o the_o heart_n be_v yield_v up_o the_o offering_n remain_v impure_a nor_o be_v it_o accept_v whence_o it_o be_v that_o the_o scripture_n command_v we_o to_o have_v a_o great_a care_n of_o or_o to_o watch_v such_o a_o heart_n which_o seek_v double_a way_n and_o carry_v upon_o either_o shoulder_n and_o halt_v on_o either_o leg_n etc._n etc._n for_o we_o can_v at_o the_o same_o time_n satisfy_v the_o flesh_n conscience_n hinder_v we_o and_o conscience_n too_o the_o flesh_n hinder_v we_o therefore_o it_o be_v necessary_a that_o we_o yield_v ourselves_o up_o whole_o as_o a_o pure_a offering_n and_o grateful_a to_o the_o lord_n for_o such_o a_o one_o be_v receive_v by_o the_o lord_n and_o bless_v of_o he_o that_o thenceforth_o he_o may_v bring_v forth_o fruit_n and_o at_o length_n that_o thence_o may_v arise_v the_o righteousness_n that_o be_v available_a before_o god_n unto_o which_o may_v the_o lord_n promote_v we_o and_o keep_v we_o by_o his_o infinite_a mercy_n in_o christ_n our_o lord_n and_o saviour_n the_o lord_n preserve_v we_o that_o we_o may_v persevere_v in_o his_o grace_n according_a to_o the_o tenor_n of_o his_o most_o holy_a will._n epist._n vi_o be_v a_o christian_a exhortation_n which_o contain_v many_o point_n very_o useful_a and_o profitable_a to_o all_o christian_n to_o the_o same_o lady_n most_o belove_a lady_n see_v that_o there_o remain_v no_o more_o time_n to_o i_o in_o this_o life_n as_o far_o as_o by_o my_o uttmost_a capacity_n of_o sense_n and_o reason_n i_o be_o able_a to_o judge_v or_o be_v to_o i_o know_v i_o be_o constrain_v of_o myself_o free_o to_o open_v and_o more_o and_o more_o to_o unfold_v my_o mind_n to_o you_o yet_o the_o true_a fruit_n of_o proficiency_n in_o the_o lord_n be_v not_o attain_v to_o by_o my_o leter_n nor_o by_o our_o mutual_a converse_n appoint_v in_o the_o lord_n of_o purpose_n but_o only_o and_o alone_o by_o the_o grace_n and_o mercy_n of_o god_n for_o that_o the_o same_o depend_v only_o on_o the_o meet_a divine_a commiseration_n he_o best_a know_v yet_o only_o in_o soul_n and_o conscience_n who_o himself_o be_v exercise_v in_o the_o very_a work_n oâ—_n the_o lord_n in_o the_o first_o place_n therefore_o it_o behoof_n be_v diligent_o to_o beware_v that_o we_o be_v not_o 〈◊〉_d our_o lust_n drive_v to_o that_o pass_n as_o to_o think_v that_o god_n be_v the_o cause_n of_o sin_n whereas_o the_o night_n can_v soon_o be_v make_v the_o day_n than_o he_o be_v any_o such_o thing_n because_o in_o god_n there_o be_v no_o darkness_n at_o all_o but_o mere_a light_n and_o whosoever_o will_v come_v to_o know_v this_o work_n of_o god_n through_o his_o mercy_n they_o must_v begin_v this_o knowledge_n with_o sincerity_n of_o mind_n which_o seek_v nothing_o else_o but_o god_n alone_o whosoever_o proceed_v with_o a_o double_a heart_n be_v a_o abomination_n to_o the_o lord_n now_o doubleness_n of_o heart_n consist_v in_o this_o when_o we_o be_v not_o with_o out_o whole_a heart_n soul_n and_o thought_n give_v up_o and_o whole_o leave_v to_o the_o lord_n also_o when_o we_o pour_v out_o our_o prayer_n before_o he_o with_o a_o heart_n divide_v in_o two_o whence_o also_o it_o be_v that_o we_o be_v not_o hear_v according_a â—o_o our_o desire_n for_o the_o lord_n love_v we_o â—ore_o than_o we_o ourselves_o do_v love_v our_o â—elves_n inasmuch_o as_o he_o be_v averse_a to_o our_o estruction_n and_o always_o free_o bestow_v 〈◊〉_d we_o that_o which_o be_v most_o useful_a and_o â—ost_o profitable_a for_o our_o happiness_n which_o â—â—deed_o be_v that_o which_o at_o first_o be_v unâ—â—own_v 〈◊〉_d we_o but_o be_v at_o length_n make_v know_v 〈◊〉_d we_o though_o by_o and_o through_o great_a affliction_n because_o that_o we_o be_v so_o far_o fall_v into_o our_o desire_n and_o into_o that_o evil_n which_o we_o call_v our_o propriety_n that_o we_o must_v first_o be_v subject_v to_o great_a anguish_n and_o grief_n before_o we_o can_v become_v submit_v to_o the_o will_n and_o obedience_n of_o god_n which_o be_v that_o which_o can_v be_v never_o do_v without_o a_o spiritual_a death_n and_o the_o
desire_n as_o also_o that_o i_o place_v more_o confidence_n in_o the_o lord_n then_o in_o my_o own_o letter_n be_v fix_v in_o this_o firm_a hope_n that_o he_o will_v direct_v all_o thing_n to_o the_o best_a end_n and_o that_o he_o will_v apply_v a_o remedy_n to_o all_o distraction_n of_o thy_o heart_n and_o that_o he_o will_v thrust_v they_o all_o under_o his_o obedience_n for_o even_o as_o i_o myself_o according_a to_o my_o simple_a way_n do_v confide_v in_o the_o lord_n alone_o in_o all_o my_o necessity_n wait_v for_o help_v from_o he_o only_o so_o also_o i_o judge_v the_o like_a of_o thou_o with_o firm_a belief_n that_o the_o lord_n will_v out_o of_o his_o compassion_n behold_v and_o look_v upon_o thy_o case_n and_o will_v deliver_v thou_o from_o all_o thy_o trouble_n of_o heart_n although_o this_o thy_o state_n may_v press_v thou_o to_o so_o much_o the_o more_o diligent_a and_o fervent_a and_o more_o continual_a call_n upon_o god_n and_o to_o a_o great_a abode_n in_o his_o fear_n because_o else_o it_o a_o be_v no_o otherwise_o do_v but_o that_o all_o labour_n glory_n cogitation_n fruit_n and_o pleasure_n of_o the_o flesh_n with_o all_o those_o thing_n which_o belong_v unto_o the_o world_n and_o have_v communion_n therewith_o do_v all_o at_o last_o together_o tend_v to_o eternal_a destruction_n nor_o can_v they_o by_o any_o hope_n of_o life_n be_v firm_o fix_v to_o eternity_n for_o death_n and_o a_o eternal_a blot_n out_o do_v pass_v upon_o all_o thing_n which_o be_v without_o god_n but_o the_o faithful_a and_o merciful_a god_n will_v have_v compassion_n on_o we_o that_o we_o may_v be_v subject_v to_o his_o chastisement_n with_o a_o continual_a meditation_n on_o the_o divine_a judgement_n under_o which_o it_o behoove_v all_o flesh_n to_o tremble_v and_o to_o give_v glory_n to_o god_n alone_o that_o thus_o be_v yield_v up_o unto_o god_n we_o may_v be_v whole_o govern_v by_o he_o and_o that_o we_o may_v serve_v he_o in_o all_o righteousness_n and_o holiness_n as_o it_o become_v the_o son_n of_o god_n god_n grant_v this_o to_o thou_o which_o i_o wish_v from_o the_o very_a bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n as_o the_o lord_n also_o know_v that_o we_o may_v together_o remain_v give_v up_o to_o the_o lord_n both_o in_o body_n and_o soul_n o_o will_v to_o god_n that_o our_o heart_n can_v be_v always_o mindful_a of_o that_o misery_n destruction_n and_o eternal_a death_n which_o hang_v over_o all_o flesh_n and_o where_o it_o be_v true_o make_v manifest_a how_o far_o all_o joy_n be_v distant_a from_o we_o as_o also_o the_o pleasure_n in_o this_o earth_n together_o with_o all_o the_o advantage_n pride_n and_o other_o vanity_n that_o be_v please_v to_o our_o flesh_n and_o all_o the_o other_o motion_n tend_v thereunto_o nevertheless_o from_o the_o lord_n i_o always_o hope_v that_o which_o be_v best_a viz._n that_o it_o wilâ—_n come_v to_o pass_v that_o he_o will_v purify_v we_o miserable_a creature_n even_o as_o gold_n be_v purge_v by_o the_o fire_n and_o that_o he_o will_v wash_v we_o from_o all_o impurity_n the_o lord_n grant_v that_o our_o familiarity_n which_o we_o have_v in_o divine_a love_n may_v not_o by_o these_o suffering_n be_v diminish_v or_o decrease_v but_o rather_o be_v comfirm_v by_o the_o divine_a benediction_n which_o be_v fertile_a in_o all_o who_o be_v patient_a and_o who_o in_o goliness_n and_o the_o fear_n of_o the_o lord_n do_v constant_o persevere_v even_o to_o the_o end_n of_o the_o fight_n although_o they_o be_v vex_v with_o all_o manner_n of_o trial_n the_o lord_n of_o all_o grace_n have_v mercy_n on_o we_o all_o that_o we_o may_v never_o but_o be_v proficient_o and_o serious_o and_o diligent_o walk_v in_o the_o way_n of_o his_o fear_n that_o we_o may_v always_o be_v more_o and_o more_o endow_v with_o his_o grace_n epist._n fourteen_o a_o brief_a instruction_n how_o any_o one_o may_v in_o due_a order_n arrive_v at_o regeneration_n and_o whence_o it_o be_v the_o new_a creature_n may_v have_v its_o original_a to_o the_o same_o person_n dearest_n n._n i_o can_v not_o withhold_v my_o hand_n but_o must_v send_v this_o letter_n to_o thou_o see_v i_o be_o not_o at_o leisure_n to_o come_v unto_o thou_o therefore_o this_o epistle_n shall_v supply_v the_o want_n of_o my_o presence_n for_o i_o be_o whole_o persuade_v in_o the_o lord_n that_o thy_o heart_n yea_o when_o not_o admonish_v by_o i_o will_v not_o yet_o be_v tire_v out_o of_o the_o continuance_n in_o the_o work_n begin_v and_o in_o the_o growth_n in_o the_o fear_n of_o god_n our_o saviour_n lest_o that_o any_o one_o haply_o shall_v disturb_v &_o confound_v thou_o by_o these_o or_o any_o other_o persuasion_n for_o to_o come_v at_o the_o very_a thing_n its_o self_n there_o be_v no_o need_n of_o many_o rule_n and_o exhortation_n search_v narrow_o into_o thy_o own_o self_n and_o if_o thou_o can_v find_v any_o thing_n for_o who_o sake_n thy_o conscience_n shall_v accuse_v thou_o than_o it_o concern_v thou_o to_o desist_v from_o that_o and_o to_o die_v thereunto_o this_o therefore_o be_v requlsit_fw-la that_o thou_o learn_v to_o examine_v thyself_o whether_o thou_o suffer_v any_o thing_n against_o thy_o will_n and_o with_o a_o certain_a kind_n of_o indignation_n nor_o be_v thou_o willing_o subject_v with_o humility_n to_o all_o other_o for_o its_o necessary_a that_o in_o all_o resepect_n thou_o shall_v account_v of_o thyself_o from_o the_o very_a bottom_n of_o thy_o heart_n for_o the_o least_o and_o the_o most_o despicable_a and_o that_o thou_o willing_o submit_v thyself_o to_o every_o body_n yea_o to_o he_o that_o injure_v thou_o if_o thou_o will_v endeavour_v this_o thou_o will_v soon_o find_v in_o thyself_o a_o great_a defect_n nor_o will_v thou_o willing_o perform_v that_o but_o will_v be_v move_v to_o indignation_n and_o to_o impatience_n but_o if_o thou_o be_v never_o look_v back_o and_o be_v subdue_a the_o flesh_n with_o a_o just_a and_o true_a zeal_n and_o will_v accomplish_v the_o root_n out_o from_o thyself_o the_o 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spirit_n so_o also_o be_v all_o the_o true_a spiritual_a circumcision_n of_o all_o thing_n internal_a in_o our_o soul_n where_o it_o be_v also_o promise_v to_o we_o that_o by_o the_o holy_a spirit_n the_o eternal_a god_n the_o saviour_n shall_v be_v raise_v up_o in_o we_o out_o of_o his_o own_o seed_n who_o shall_v abolish_v all_o enmity_n which_o still_o lie_v between_o god_n and_o the_o inward_a man_n himself_o and_o will_v eternal_o unite_v we_o with_o god_n and_o will_v bring_v we_o to_o our_o original_a which_o be_v god_n himself_o dearest_n n._n i_o shall_v indeed_o write_v more_o of_o this_o to_o thou_o for_o i_o further_a desire_n that_o thou_o will_v thyself_o set_v too_o thy_o hand_n to_o the_o performance_n of_o these_o thing_n and_o that_o thou_o will_v get_v a_o live_a sense_n in_o thy_o heart_n of_o all_o these_o for_o in_o thy_o own_o self_n thou_o will_v find_v a_o true_a monitor_n who_o will_v more_o right_o than_o i_o can_v observe_v thy_o defect_n neglect_v he_o 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