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philotheas_n pilgrimage_n to_o perfection_n describe_v in_o a_o practice_n of_o ten_o day_n solitude_n by_o brother_n john_n of_o the_o holy_a cross_n friar_n minour_n ih_n bruges_n print_v by_o luke_n kerchove_v 1668._o to_o the_o right_n honourable_a and_o most_o virtuous_a lady_n the_o countess_n dowager_n of_o sussex_n madam_n divine_a thing_n become_v generous_a &_o noble_a spirit_n who_o be_v the_o more_o refine_a image_n of_o god_n above_o the_o vulgar_a have_v by_o their_o noble_a descent_n à _fw-fr large_a capacity_n to_o great_a matter_n &_o by_o their_o most_o careful_a education_n a_o clear_a aptness_n to_o sublime_a thought_n &_o action_n your_o honour_n have_v by_o the_o excellent_a conduct_n of_o your_o life_n give_v the_o world_n so_o ample_a a_o proof_n of_o your_o eminent_a perfection_n befit_v the_o greatness_n of_o your_o name_n that_o none_o may_v reflect_v thereon_o but_o must_v admire_v both_o the_o fortunate_a disposition_n of_o your_o original_a inclination_n 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a_o more_o than_o ordinary_a retirement_n that_o reflect_v on_o the_o holiness_n of_o their_o vocation_n &_o the_o duty_n thereof_o they_o may_v repair_v what_o be_v decay_v of_o their_o first_o fervour_n &_o secure_v their_o claym_v to_o heaven_n aim_v at_o by_o their_o divine_a choice_n and_o indeed_o this_o great_a work_n be_v to_o all_o of_o that_o high_a concernment_n that_o what_o ever_o account_v some_o loose_a spirit_n may_v make_v of_o it_o it_o will_v one_o day_n extreme_o justify_v the_o child_n of_o light_n &_o crown_v their_o hope_n in_o my_o preface_n to_o philothea_n a_o heaven-aspiring_a soul_n who_o conduct_n in_o her_o pilgrimage_n to_o god_n be_v here_o intend_a i_o have_v at_o large_a discourse_v on_o the_o dignity_n profit_n aim_n &_o use_v of_o spiritual_a retreat_n wherefore_o i_o need_v not_o further_o dilate_v myself_o on_o that_o subject_n my_o wish_n be_v it_o be_v practice_n may_v make_v thou_o &_o all_o true_o happy_a farewell_n approbation_n librum_fw-la hunc_fw-la anglicè_fw-la conscriptum_fw-la à _fw-la v._o adm._n p._n fr._n joanne_n à _fw-fr s._n cruse_n s._n th._n lect._n ac_fw-la conventus_fw-la fr_n minor_n anglo-duacen_a vicario_n cvi_fw-la titulus_fw-la philothea_n pilgrimage_n to_o perfection_n etc._n etc._n diligenter_n perlegi_fw-la nihilque_fw-la in_o eo_fw-la deprehendi_fw-la fidei_fw-la vel_fw-la bonis_fw-la moribus_fw-la contrarium_fw-la sed_fw-la omne_fw-la devotionem_fw-la spirantia_fw-la &_o quae_fw-la perigrinantes_fw-la ad_fw-la beatitudinem_fw-la animas_fw-la in_fw-la itinere_fw-la promovere_fw-la poterunt_fw-la in_o cujus_fw-la rei_fw-la fidem_fw-la subscripsi_fw-la kalend_n septembr_n anno_fw-la 1664._o georgius_n leyburnus_n sacr._n theol._n doct._n &_o coll._n anglo-duacen_a praeses_fw-la mandatum_fw-la ordinis_fw-la commendetur_fw-la praelo_fw-la tractatus_fw-la v._n adm._n f._n joannis_n à _fw-fr s._n cruse_n confessarii_fw-la monialium_fw-la nostrarum_fw-la brugensium_fw-la etc._n etc._n de_fw-fr recessu_fw-la spirituali_fw-la actum_fw-la londini_fw-la in_o congregatione_fw-la intermedia_fw-la 15._o nou._n 1666._o erat_fw-la subscriptum_fw-la fr._n thomas_n à _fw-fr s._n anna_n secret_n prov._n &_o notar._n ap._n locus_n ✚_o sigilli_fw-la i_o underwritten_a have_v diligent_o read_v over_o philothea_n pilgrimage_n to_o perfection_n etc._n etc._n compose_v by_o the_o rev._n father_n bro_n john_n of_o the_o holy_a cross_n reader_n of_o divinity_n etc._n etc._n wherein_o holy_a solitude_n be_v high_o commend_v the_o prerogative_n motive_n &_o effect_n thereof_o be_v declare_v instruction_n &_o mean_n for_o attain_v it_o with_o the_o duty_n of_o a_o solitary_a soul_n be_v prescribe_v by_o which_o at_o length_n he_o conduct_n she_o to_o the_o high_a pitch_n of_o solitude_n contemplation_n &_o union_n with_o god_n possible_a in_o this_o life_n in_o who_o he_o leave_v she_o firm_o fix_a by_o a_o perfect_a resignation_n humility_n &_o abnegation_n &_o consequent_o perfect_a in_o a_o solitary_a way_n see_v therefore_o that_o this_o treatise_n tend_v to_o the_o instruction_n &_o consolation_n of_o such_o soul_n &_o to_o the_o advancement_n of_o that_o happy_a end_n &_o more_o over_o contain_v nothing_o contrary_a to_o the_o canon_n of_o the_o church_n i_o judge_v that_o it_o may_v happy_o see_v light_n give_v in_o our_o english_a convent_n of_o friar_n minour_n in_o douai_n this_o 3._o of_o may_n 1668._o bro._n bernard_n elston_n ord._n ff_n min._n s._n th._n doctor_n approbatio_fw-la ordinarii_fw-la libre_fw-la hic_fw-la anglicè_fw-la conscriptus_fw-la &_o à _fw-la patribus_fw-la ordinis_fw-la examinatus_fw-la de_fw-la licentiâ_fw-la ordinarii_fw-la poterit_fw-la imprimi_fw-la actum_fw-la hâc_fw-la 8._o maii_n 1668._o n._n gerseken_n archid._n brug_n &_o libr._n censor_n the_o table_n of_o content_n the_o preface_n to_o philothea_n contain_v instruction_n for_o solitude_n §_o 1._o excellency_n of_o holy_a solitude_n pag._n 1._o §_o 2._o preparation_n for_o solitude_n p._n 6._o §_o 3._o abstraction_n from_o usual_a care_n p._n 9_o §_o 4._o choice_n of_o place_n p._n 12._o §_o 5._o due_a time_n of_o solitude_n p._n 14._o §_o 6._o posture_n of_o body_n p._n 24._o §_o 7_o subject_n of_o solitary_a thought_n p._n
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whereby_o our_o spirit_n be_v strong_o wean_v from_o the_o love_n of_o perish_v &_o transitory_a thing_n &_o soar_v up_o to_o the_o contemplation_n &_o love_n of_o her_o almighty_a creator_n before_o who_o in_o silence_n &_o hope_n she_o humble_o discover_v her_o want_n &_o earnest_a desire_n embrace_v he_o with_o the_o arm_n of_o a_o innocent_a &_o reverential_a love_n &_o in_o a_o manner_n enter_v into_o the_o possession_n of_o the_o sweet_n of_o a_o never_o end_a felicity_n amid_o the_o heavy_a press_n of_o worldy_a trial_n if_o therefore_o my_o philothea_n thou_o do_v earnest_o thirst_n after_o the_o delight_n of_o a_o spiritual_a retreat_n thou_o must_v serious_o apply_v thyself_o to_o the_o use_n of_o it_o for_o howsoever_o strong_a thou_o find_v thyself_o in_o resist_a temptation_n &_o in_o the_o practice_n of_o virtue_n without_o a_o retirement_n of_o thy_o spirit_n yet_o will_v the_o great_a fervour_n soon_o slacken_v &_o become_v faint_a without_o the_o supply_n of_o 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grace_n forfeit_v what_o punishment_n deserve_v &_o after_o this_o in_o the_o evening_n before_o thou_o enterest_n thy_o solitude_n make_v a_o humble_a &_o cordial_a confession_n of_o what_o thou_o find_v thyself_o faulty_a since_o thy_o last_o examine_v for_o since_o thy_o understanding_n be_v not_o yet_o enough_o clear_v nor_o thy_o affection_n sufficient_o inflame_v for_o a_o general_n confession_n i_o shall_v advise_v thou_o to_o defer_v it_o till_o the_o four_o day_n where_o i_o shall_v say_v more_o of_o the_o profit_n thereof_o &_o how_o it_o be_v to_o be_v perform_v this_o do_v trouble_v not_o thyself_o if_o thou_o findse_v in_o thy_o soul_n some_o ill_a inclination_n yet_o live_v there_o this_o exercise_n require_v not_o absolute_a perfection_n but_o be_v a_o mean_n to_o attain_v to_o it_o be_v we_o all_o saint_n there_o will_v be_v no_o need_n to_o use_v the_o solitude_n i_o speak_v of_o content_v thyself_o that_o thou_o be_v not_o conscious_a of_o any_o mortal_a offence_n 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