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call_v to_o high_a perfection_n page_n 17_o chap._n 4._o his_o virtue_n in_o general_a page_n 24_o chap._n 5._o the_o source_n from_o whence_o those_o virtue_n flow_v page_n 30_o part_n ii_o chap._n 1._o his_o penance_n and_o austerity_n 37_o chap._n 2._o his_o poverty_n of_o spirit_n 47_o sect._n 1._o his_o outward_a poverty_n 48_o chap._n 3._o his_o humility_n 54_o sect._n 1._o his_o humility_n of_o heart_n 58_o sect._n 2._o the_o pursuit_n of_o his_o humility_n of_o heart_n 67_o sect._n 3_o his_o humility_n in_o his_o word_n 77_o sect._n 4._o his_o humility_n in_o his_o action_n 75_o sect._n 5._o his_o love_n of_o a_o private_a and_o retire_a life_n 84_o chap._n 4._o the_o disesteem_v he_o make_v of_o the_o world_n 88_o chap._n 5._o his_o partience_n 94_o sect._n 1._o a_o pursuit_n of_o the_o same_o subject_n 100_o sect._n 2._o his_o domestic_a cross_n 107_o chap._n 6._o his_o mortification_n 112_o part_n iii_o chap._n 1._o his_o application_n to_o our_o saviour_n jesus_n christ_n in_o regard_n of_o his_o neighbour_n 121_o chap._n 2._o his_o charity_n to_o his_o neighbour_n in_o general_a 126_o sect._n 1._o his_o charity_n to_o the_o poor_a 133_o sect._n 2._o his_o charity_n to_o poor_a sick_a man_n 140_o sect._n 3_o more_o concern_v the_o same_o charity_n and_o the_o success_n thereof_o 145_o sect._n 4._o his_o zeal_n for_o the_o salvation_n of_o his_o neighbour_n 150_o sect._n 5._o more_o of_o the_o same_o subject_n 154_o sect._n 6._o a_o continuation_n of_o the_o same_o subject_n 167_o sect._n 7._o certain_a other_o quality_n of_o his_o zeal_n 173_o sect._n 8._o two_o other_o quality_n of_o his_o zeal_n 179_o sect._n 9_o the_o success_n which_o god_n give_v to_o his_o zeal_n 186_o sect._n 10._o his_o grace_n in_o assist_v particular_o certain_a choice_n soul_n 193_o sect._n 11._o his_o great_a skill_n in_o interior_a matter_n of_o the_o soul_n 199_o chap._n 2._o his_o outward_a behaviour_n and_o conversation_n 209_o chap._n 3._o the_o conduct_n of_o his_o 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