in the right way let me not range out of it any more novv that by the same grace I am vvashed from my sinnes let me not defile my selfe againe now that I am by this grace cured of my disease of sinne let me not fall into it againe novv that my mortall wouÌ„des are healed by this grace let me not renew them For vvhat vvould it auaile to be risen vp if I fall againe the after fall vvould make my rising more difficult What to haue vvalked in the vvayes of thy commaundementes if I loose this vvay againe I shall the more hardlie finde it What to haue been vvashed cleane in the lauer of penance and by thy grace if like a swine I vvallovv my selfe againe in the puddle of sinne the stayne vvill more hardlie be gotten out better it is for me to say vvith the Spouse Cant. 5 I haue washed my feete hovv shall I defile them What vvill it auaile to haue beene cured of the ague of sinne if I admitte an other accesse of it Recidiuation is more dangerous then the former sicknes What to haue been healed of so many mortall vvoundes as mortall sinnes if I renevv them againe the renevving makes them harder to be cured then before Wherefore turne not thy face froÌ„ me by vvithdrawing thy grace for then I shall fall againe into all those miseries to haue vvell begun is a small thing how many good beginners are novv in Hell perseuerance is that vvhich maketh vs goe on to the end and the end crowneth the vvorke And therefore ô Lord take not thy holy spirit from me Take not from me the create spirit of grace by vertue of vvhich I may perseuer to the end yea ô Eternall Father ô Eternall Sonne giue me your increate spirit the holy Ghost vvho proceedeth from you both and vvho is equall coequall and consubstantiall to you both and who is your mutuall loue and eternall knotte of freindship take not froÌ„ me this your increate Spirit So long as this Spirit supporteth me I can not fall Heauen vvill sooner fall then I so supported can fall 4. And thou ô penitent Christian desire almightie God to turne his face from thy sinne but not from thee it being thy onelie comfort in this life to haue its benigne aspect and the light of grace which proceedeth from it and vvhich illuminateth thy vvay vvhich thou art to vvalke Desire him also not to take avvay his holy Spirit from thee vvithout vvhich liuing thou art dead liuing in bodie dead in soule vvhich if thou fall will raise thee if thou stand vvill so direct thy steppes as thou shalt neuer fall againe Ioan. 1. This Spirit houered ouer the waters in the first creation gaue them fecunditie to bring forth fish and fowle The same spirit houered ouer the waters of Baptisme when thou vvast regenerated of water and the holy Ghost Ioan. 3. and gaue it force to this day to bring forth Spirituall fishes to vvitt Christâ—ans who are spawnes and young fishes of the great fish CHRIST IESVS Tertul. lib. de Baptismo Aug li de Ciuit ca. 18. stiled by the Sybille in the first letters of her Greeke verses 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 which signifieth a fish because in the riuer of Iordan vvhere he was Baptized by S. Iohn Baptist he like a fish did as it vvere swimme and thereby gaue vertue to the water of baptisme to regenerat ChristiaÌ„s whereas ChristiaÌ„s haue their origin froÌ„ the water as fishes haue This Spirit againe houered ouer the vvaters of contritioÌ„ the SacrameÌ„t also of penaÌ„ce wheÌ„ it inspired into me the Spirit of coÌ„punction and contrition by which from my sinnes committed after Baptisme I vvas againe vvashed and rose againe from sinne to iustifying grace Let it giue me also ô most mercifull Lord the grace and guift of perseuerance vvhich is all in all and without vvhich all is nothing Do not take this Holie Spirit from me and I shall perseuer to the end against all tentations maugre all the Deuills in Hell 5. S. Peter before he vvas fortified by this Spirit vvas so frayle fearfull and cowardlie that he denied his Master at the voice of a Maide-seruaunt a woeman dashed him out of countenance but after he vvas armed fortified by this Holy Spirit he feared not the Tyrants of the vvorld nor all the tormentes that cruell heartes could deuise but like a rocke vvithstood the boisterous windes of their persecutions vvhich did but breake wast themselues mooued not him And he the rest of the Apostles vvho fled vvhen their Master vvas taken and vvho eueÌ„ after his death and resurrection assembled themselues together and shutte the doores Propter metum Iudaeorum for feare of the Ievves Ioan. 20. after they had receaued this Holy Spirit they feared not the Tyrants of earth nor all the Deuills in Hell Yea they but twelue set vpon all the vvorld and not iointly neither but singlie and made a conquest of a greater world then euer Alexander the Great did subdued not onelie their bodies as he did but their vvilles and vnderstanding subiected the Empire to the Churche the Scepter to the crosse made philosophie stoupe to Christes doctrine Matth. 10. and Idolatrie to Christian religion And whereas they were sent as sheepe amongest vvolues yet these sheepe strengthened by this Holy Spirit were to hard for the wolues and as fire coÌ„uerteth all into it so they inflamed vvith this HeaueÌ„lie fire consumed sinne and Idolatrie and like so many walking fiers set all the world on fire conuerted all to Christ and made all like themselues that is Christians 6. I ô Lord request at thy bountifull handes with Dauid a guift of this Holy Spirit Act. 20 and this Heauenlie fire which descended on the first Christians in the forme of fierie tongues corroborate and encourage me by this Holy Spirit inflame me with this heauenlie fire and harden me with it that no assaults of the Deuill world or flesh may be able to ouerthrowe me that for feare of persecution I may not deny thee but as now as I hope I am risen by thy Holy Spirit and grace of iustification so by thy guifte and grace of perseuerance the proper effect of it I may neuer fall againe by mortall sinne from thy grace fauour face and eternall vision the blisse of the blessed which is onelie graunted to them who perseuer to the end Redde mihi letitiam salutaris tui Et spiritu principali confirma me Render vnto me the ioy of thy Saluation and confirme me with thy principall Spirit 1. I Remember ô Lord saith Dauid say the same ô penitent soule with him what ioye peace of conscience and comfort I enioyed in thee and in thy seruice before my sinne and when I was enriched with thy grace the fountaine of true peace and ioye Then I tasted and sawe how sweet thou art then I experienced Psal 33 how great is the multitude of thy
theÌ„ not to be any more displeased with me for theÌ„ nor to thinke of punishing me at least eternallie for theÌ„ but to be haue thy selfe towards me hereafter as though thou diddest no more remeÌ„ber theÌ„ as though thy face eyes wese turned froÌ„ them and so to loue me hereafter so to behold me and with such a mild aspect countenaÌ„ce as though I had neuer sinned for so thou beholdest all truly penitent sinners and turning away thy angrie face from me behoulding me with a mild countenance wype away all my iniquities 3. Thou promisedst ô sweete Lord Ezech. 18. by the Prophet Ezechiel that if the impious shall doe pennance of all his sinnes c. ehou wilt not remember them that is so as to punish them at least eternallie Forget ô Lord my sinnes also in the same manner Thou promisedst by thy Prophet Micheas Michea 7. that thou wilt cast our sinnes into the bottome of the sea that is of the sea of thy mercie that they may be seene no more cast my sinnes into this sea that they may be drowned hidden from thy face Thou dist cast all the sinnes of Ezechias behind thy back Isai 38 cast also myne and turne thy face from them 4. I also ô Lord say so ô penitent sinner haue sinned with Dauid and I feare with him to appeare before thy face or to come in thy sight or presence And therefore as my first Parentes Adam and Eue did Gen. 3. I desire to hyde my selfe from thee if it might be in some bush or thicket Gen. 4. and as Cain had no sooner sinned but his countenance was abated and fallen so I guiltie of many and greeuous sinnes dare not looke thee in the face I count my selfe with Manasses vnworthie to looke vp to the height of Heauen Orat. Manaes Lucae 18. and with the penitent Publican I dare not so much as to lifte vp my eyes tovvards Heauen where thou art Wherefore ô Lord I cry to thee with Dauid to turne thy face from my sinnes It is not conuenient that thy Diuine eyes should cast their light and beames on so vile obiectes It is not conuenient they should looke on such filthines least they prouoke thee to disdaine to Indignation and anger remember them no more so as to be displeased with me for them remember them no more so as to punish me at least eternallie for them but as thou remembrest S. Marie Magdalenes sinnes and yet since her repentaÌ„ce art not depleased with her nor doest punish her for them so deale with me and in this sence turne thy face from my sinnes and behaue thy selfe towards me 5. But let myne owne eyes ô Lord and cogitations be euer fixed on my sinnes not to approue theÌ„ not to take delight in them nor yet thereby to dispaire of thy mercie towards me but as oft as I thinke of them to deteste and abhorre them to humble my selfe and to take notice of myne owne frayltie by theÌ„ to thinke into what danger of damnation they brought me how gratefull I should be to thee who hast deliuered me from this daunger To take heed hereafter least I fall againe into them to weepe for them and to crye thee mercie for them so oft as I thinke on them and by so fixing myne eyes and cogitations on them to cause thee to turne thy face and Diuine eyes from them and by thy grace and mercie to vvipe avvaye all myne iniquities Cor mundum crea in me Deus Spiritum rectum innoua in visceribus meis Create a cleane heart in me ô God and renevv a right Spirit in my bovvels 1. THere is no merit or desert in me ô Lord sayth Dauid on which as on a subiect thou maist worke my Iustification from sinne and cleanenesse of heart but as thou createdst the whole world of nothing so thou must create a cleane right and iust heart in me of nothing that is myne that is of no precedent merite of myne because the grace of iustification by which my heart is to be cleaÌ„sed from sinne is not giuen for any precedent good worke or deserte of myne For if by grace Rom. 11 I be Iustified then not by vvorkes othervvise grace vvere not grace no free guift but a reward 2. The almes I gaue to the poore the fasting wherewith I chastised my bodie my many prayers then made to thee ô Lord and whatsoeuer good worke I did whilest I was in the state of mortall sinne were dead workes the workes of a dead man dead in soule by sinne and so could not merite my Iustification and therefore hauing nothing in me which could merite my Iustification cleanenesse of heart thou ô Lord out of thy mercie for the merite of thy sacred passion must iustifie me and not for any thing in me and so thou must create my heart thou must create me a new creature of nothing of myne but onelie of thine that is of thy grace and mercie A sinner as a sinner is no creature of God and therefore in the Canticle Benedicite where all creatures euen to windes tempests dew snow yea and brute beastes are inuited to prayse blesse God the sinner is not inuited because he as a sinner is no creature of God but a moÌ„ster of his owne peruerse will yea a nothing sinne being no reall thing if it be true as it is most true which the wiseman saieth feare God and obserue his commandementes â—cclesiastes 12. for this is euery man then a sinner who is not this because he nether feareth God nor obserueth his commaundementes must be no man nothing and consequentlie if God will make him of a sinner iust and an obseruer of his commaundementes he must make him of nothing and therefore Dauid vseth the vvord create which signifieth a productioÌ„ of nothing as when God created the world of nothing And seeing that as cold is not expelled but by heate nor darkenes but by light nor any contrarie but by its contrarie my heart sayth Dauid can not be freed from the darkenes of sinne but by the light of grace nor from the filth of sinne but by the cleane and cleansing qualitie of grace and therefore I desire thee ô Lord sayth he to create in me this grace of nothing of myne that thereby my heart may be muÌ„dified and renewed 3. A peruerse heart is abominable to our Lord saith the vviseman Prou. 11. and therefore ô Lord create in me a new heart which shall be cleane and pleasing vnto thee my old heart was become by sinne old was clothed in the old habit of the old man the first Adam and the first sinner of meÌ„ take this oldnesse of sinne from me and from my heart and create in me a new heart a cleane heart 4. O Lord thou promisedst that thou wouldst giue to thy people a new heart Ezech. 36. and wouldst put a new spirit in the middest of them
and wouldst take away the stony heart out of their flesh and giue them a fleshy heart This promise I challenge ô Lord and this heart I desire myne old heart hetherto was by sinne fowle and vncleane giue me a cleane heart It was by sinne become as hard as a stone not apte to receaue thy good inspirations nor plyable to any good giue me for hereafter a fleshie heart a softe heart mollified by thy bloud and by the waters of contrition an heart as softe as waxe easie to be formed and figured by thy Diuine hand and to be framed to what thou wilt apt to receaue thy Diuine inspirations apt to melte in thy loue apt to be mooued passionatlie for myne owne sinnes and compassionatlie for the sinnes miseries of others Giue me a new heart a cleane heart cleane washed from the abominable filth of sinne by the water of grace which floweth from thy holie passio through the channelles of the Sacramentes 5. Demaund thou also with Dauid ô penitent sinner a cleane a new heart Say vnto thy God Thou commandest me ô mercifull God by the vvise Salomon Prou. 4 with all garde to keepe my heart because life proceedeth from it but because I haue not well looked to it nor haue set a watch or garde ouer it by continuall vigilancie I desire thee to take it to thy care Psalm 126. for vnlesse thou keepest this Citie he watcheth in vaine that keepeth it not to permit any vncleane thing to enter into it It hath hetherto lodged the world the flesh and the Deuil by inordinate affection expelle them I beseech thee out of it It is or ought to be thy mansion place thy cabinet thy Temple let none else enter into it Giue me grace to adorne this Temple with chast and holie cogitations that thou onelie in it maist be loued thou onelie worshiped thy prayses onelie may be daylie sung in it to thee onelie the sacrifice of a contrite harte of prayse and thankesgiuing may be offered And seeing my old vncleane heart is not fit for this create in me a cleane and a new heart 6. Thou commandest me to giue my heart vnto thee and thou beggest it of me in those enchanting wordes Praebe filâ—mi Prou. 23. cortuum mihi my sonne giue me thy heart And if thou please to create it new for else it is not worth the giuing nor vvorthie the acceptance I giue it thee frankelie and freelie and in so doeing I shall but giue thee that vvhich is thyne ovvne by creatioÌ„ redemption for to redeeme this heart thou dyedst sanctification I doe not onelie lend it thee for a tyme as I did heretefore when I liued well for a tyme but after by sinne vvrested this my heart out of thy possession and gaue the Deuill the keyes of this Citie but I giue it thee for euer neuer intending by thy grace to take it from thee againe 7. O Eternall Father thou gauest vnto me by Incarnation thy litle one Isaie 9. so stiled by the Prophet Esaie litle in his temporall birth and as litle as a sucking babe but greate in his eternall natiuitie litle in his humane nature greate and immense in his Diuinitie vveake as a child in his litle bodie but omnipotent and of infinite povver in his Diuinitie contained and restrained in a narrovv crib in respecte of his bodie but filling Heauen and earth containing all thinges contained of nothing in regard of his Diuine nature I giue also vnto thee my litle one my heart one of the least members of my bodie in quantitie greatest in vigour force and vertue as vvhich is the fountaine of life imparting motion life ad vitall spirites to the rest of the membres Thou gauest vnto me by Incarnation thy sonne the middle personne in Trinitie I giue vnto thee my heart vvhich is my middle because it is placed in the middest of my bodie that it may the better imparte heate life to all the other partes thereof Thou gauest vnto me by Incarnation thy first and onelie begotten sonne I giue vnto thee my first borne that is my heart which is the first liuing and last dying in me And this I hope vvill be pleasing vnto thee thou like the Eagle desiring to feed on the heart by a complacence vvhich thou takest in it and thou esteeming the heart if it be cleane and Sanctified aboue all the mansion places in earth and desiring rather to dvvell in it by charitie 1. Ioan. 4. for God is charitie he that abydeth in charitie abydeth in God and God in him then in the richest Pallace on earth yea then in Salomons Temple 8. And hauing giuen this my heart vnto thee henceforth it shall not be myne but thine thou shalt possesse it thou shalt gouerne it thou onelie shalt rule it I vvill not meddle with the gouernemeÌ„t of it but vnder thee according to thy commaundements counsell and direction And although this heart heretofore hath beene the rendeuous and Receptacle of the Deuill the world flesh thy svvorn enemies yet if thou please by thy grace to cleanse it and adorne it they shall be sent packing thou onelie shalt be entertained and it shall be at thy disposition readie to beleeue in thee to hope in thee and to loue thee aboue all thinges and to doe thy will and pleasure in all thinges For all this my old harte was altogether vnapt create then in me a new heart by the nevvnes of grace 9. To this nevv heart sayth Dauid giue for hereafter a new spirit renew a right spirit in my bowelles After the earth and vvorld vvas drovvned and ouerflovved vvith that Deluge and generall inundation of Noes fludde Gen. 2. thou broughtst a Spirit or winde vpon the earth to drye it Giue to the litle vvorld and land of my soule and heart a spirit of grace vvhich may dry it from all concupiscence and from the Deluge of sinne for that Osea 4. 5. this is a right Spirit Ridde me of the vvrong spirit of fornication and of all carnall delightes free me from the vncleane spirit of lust from the spirit of lying and dissembling from the Spirit of pride and enuie for that these are not right spirites and renevv in me the right spirit of charitie chastitie humilitie pouertie renevv in me and create a nevv those seuen graces and spirites of the Holie Ghost the spirit of wisedome and vnderstanding the spirit of counsell and strengh Isa 11. the spirit of knovvledge and pietie the spirit of the feare of our Lord of vvhich euerie one is a right Spirit is thy good spirit Psalm 142. which will conduct me into the right vvay to saluation The former spirit wherewith I was lead heretofore was not a right spirit because it ledde me out of the way it was a crooked spirit because though my bodie be made to looke vp to heauen yet the euill spirit vvhich before ruled
me did crooken my soule made it looke dovvne to the earthlie pleasurs not vpward to thee and to the blisse of Heauen Giue me therefore ô Lord the former seuen Spirites and guiftes of the Holie Ghost vvhich are right Spirites and vvhich doe put my soule in a right posture tovvards thee Heauen and doe make my soule in all her actions to ayme principallie at thee and thy honour and doe eleuate her to Heauen by contemplation by which shee conuerseth in Heauen with thee and thy-Angelles and Saints Engraft this Spirit in me ô Lord and then as the graft of a peare tree grafted on a thorne tree beareth not thornes but peares so this spirit grafted on the thorne of my carnall and corrupte nature vvill make me henceforth to beare not the fruites of the flesh but of the spirit This is the right spirit I desire to haue for my guide and conductour and directour in all my actions In this thy spirit now is all my delight not in the spirit of the vvord or flesh and how good and sweete is this thy spirit Sap. 12. ô Lord in all 10. And I beseech thee sweet Lord to renew and innouate this spirit this right spirit in my bowels Permit not the spirit of Hypocrisie to dominere in me because that spirit doth all to the outward shewe and hath a faire outside but a fowle and filthie inside That spirit mooueth to fast to seeme holy to pray to seeme deuout to giue almes to seeme charitable but I desire a spirit which may worke inwardlie vvhat it sheweth outwardlie and therefore I desire it maybe innouated in my entralls in my heart that vvhen I pray it may not be with lippes onelie but vvith heart also vvhē I giue almes it may not be out of a desire to please men but out of charitie and compassion to please God O Lord giue me this right heart this right and invvard spirit for if the spirit of my heart be right all my actions vvill be vpright not crooked nor bēding to the world If my heart be cleane all my cogitations purposes and euen my outvvard actiōs will be cleane but if the hearte be crooked or vncleane all my actions vvill be crooked and vncleane because if the fountayne be muddie the riuer can not runne cleare if the roote be poysoned the bowes and fruites vvill be infected will infect If my heart be dead all my actions euen the best vvill be dead and not meritorious of life euerlasting but if my heart be liuing by the life of grace all my good vvorkes vvill be liuing and meritorious And seeing my former heart ô Lord was vncleane by sinne crooked by a crooked spirit tending to earthlie thinges yea vvas dead by mortall sinne which depriued it of the life of grace giue me a cleane heart fit for thee to dvvell in giue me a right heart vvhich may allvvaies ayme at thy glorie giue me a liuing heart vvhich liuing here by grace may liue in Heauen by glorie the fruite and haruest of the seed of grace Ne proijcias me à facie tua Spiritum Sanctum tuum ne auferas à me Cast me not avvay from thy face and thy holy Spirit take not from me Aug. l. 1. de libero ar cap. 16. lib. 2. c. 19. lib. contra Socundinum Manich c. 15. 1. SInne if it be mortall is an auersion of our vvill from God the Creatour and an inordnate conuersion of the same to the Creature it is a scornefull turning of the backe to God and a loving turning of the face to the creature it is a disdainfull farewell to the creatour a freindlie vvellcome to the creature And this vvere enough to cause God to turne his face from vs because vve by sinne doe turne our faces from him and our backes to him I ô Lord saith Dauid in a former verse desired thee to turne thy face from my sinnes that is so as not to be displeased with them novv I desire thee not to turne thy face from my selfe my person My sinnes are no creatures of thine but vglie monsters of my peruerse vvill and therefore thou hast cause to turne thy face from them and not to daine these viperous broods thy good looke or fauorable countenance but I my selfe though I be a sinner by myne owne malice yet I am thy creature by thy goodnes and seeing Thou louest all thinges that are Sap. 11. hatest nothing of those thinges which thou hast made yea thou sparest all because they are thine And especially thou louest soules reasonable creatures I hope thou vvilt not turne thy face from me but looke on me vvith a louinge aspect Thou hatest not the Diuell but for his sinne and vvere it not for that thou vvouldst loue him Hate then ô Lord my sinnes for I also doe hate and detest them with thee auert thy fauorable countenāce from them for I also through thy grace can not afford them a good looke But hate not me I am thy handworke and thy master-peece after the Angells hate not me I beare thy liuelie image which thou canst not hate it so liuelie representing thy selfe Hate then my creature my sinne but not thy creature auert thy face from my sinnes but cast me not from thy face conuert thy selfe to me that I may be conuerted to thee I could of my selfe auert my selfe from thee but I can not conuert my selfe to thee vnlesse thou by thy grace conuert me 2. Heretofore it vvas a pleasure to me but ô the novv displeasing pleasure to be auerted from thee and conuerted to thy creatures vvhich I loued in ordinatlie because aboue thee aboue thee because against thy commaundements but novv thy grace hath made a great mutatiō in me Psa 76 this is mutatio dexterae excelsi the change of the right hand of the Highest novv it is the greatest corrosiue to my heart to be auerted from thy face in vvhich the Angells take delight and it will be my greatest comfort if thou vouchsafe to turne thy benigne countenance to me and not to cast me away from thy face The aspect of thy countenance the verie turning and cōuersion of thy glorious face to me is a torch and light vvhich illuminateth my way and keepeth me from stumbling and falling it is the sea starre which directeth my nauigation it is the piller of fire vvhich leadeth me by night the cloud vvhich guideth me by day through the desertes of this life Gen. 13 to Heauen the land of promise 3. I heretofore vvhich now I rue tooke a fall by sinne from thee ô God from thy grace fauour frō Heauen into the depth of sinne and if thy mercifull hand had not holden me into the pit of Hell but now that by thy grace the effect of thy benigne coūtenance I am risen let me not fall againe now that by the light of thy face which is thy grace I am directed
the spirituall and inward sacrifice is more pleasing to God then are externall sacrifices yea in respect and comparisons of the inward sacrifice God as it were dispiseth the externall sacrifices as we haue seene aboue 7. And hence it is that in the nevv lavv vvhich is of Christ all those externall sacrifices of the Jewes are abrogated vvith their lavv now there is no proper externall sacrifice but the bloodie sacrifice of christ offered on the crosse for our Redemption and the vnbloodie sacrifice of the same christ which he offered at his last supper for applicatiō of that Matth. 26. and vvhich is repeated daylie in the office of the church and at the Altar of vvhich also Malachie prophecied vvhen he saith that instead of the sacrifice of the Ievves a cleane oblation should be offered in all places Malac. 1. vvhich prophecie can not be vnderstood of the sacrifice of the Crosse that beeing offered but once and in one place nor of anie externall sacrifice of the Iewes such sacrifices beeing in that place of Malachie reiected nor of improper sacrifices of prayer good vvorkes c. they being many this sacrifice mētioned by Malachie being one and they being improper sacrifices this of which Malachie speaketh being proper as vvhich is by him opposed to the Ievves proper sacrifices but of the sacrifice vnbloodie offered at the Altar which is a cleane oblation vnbloodie whether we regard the externall signes the accidentes of bread and wine or that vvhich they cōtaine which is the bodie blood of Christ offered in them by the Priest in an vnbloody manner and vvhich by ancient fathers councelles is called a sacrifice and euer in the church hath beene esteemed and offered on an Altar as a sacrifice 8. Wherefore now we are not to sacrifice oxen and calues or lambes as the Iewes did now we are sayde to immolat the calfe whē we sacrifice by austeritie our ovvne flesh now we sacrifice the lambe when we suppresse our ovvne furie and anger and shevv our selues meeke gentle to those who haue wronged or offended vs novv vve sacrifice the goate vvhen vve represse lasciuiousnes now the turtle vvhen vve keepe our chastite vndefiled novv the young pigeon vvhen vve liue in charitie vvith all God novv vvill not haue vs sacrifice brute beastes but our brutish passions and sensualities not other liuing creatures but our selues so that God novv taketh no pleasure in the externall and carnall Iewish sacrifice but in the inward and spirituall sacrifices of Christians and as I sayd in the externall sacrifice of his sonnes sacred bodie and blood on the Altar 9. And amongest all the inward and spirituall sacrifices the afflicted spirit a contrit humbled heart is that which especiallie pleaseth God When Dauid considered his sinnes against God his heart vvas contrit that is rent broken with sorrowe and vvhen he considered that his sinne vvas not onelie an offence of God but also a miserie to himselfe vvhich made him more odious to God his Angells then the vilest toade or serpent then it humbled his heart and at the same time made it Cor contritum humiliatum a contrit or broken and humbled heart His heart vvas broken with sorrow vvhen he considered how good a God how clement a Prince how tender a Father hovv great a benefactour hovv louing a friend he had offended it humbled his heart vvhen by his sinne he experienced his ovvne frayltie savv into vvhat danger of eternall damnation he was fallen it brake his heart whē he considered that sinne is the greatest disease that is greater then any ague palsey or leprosie for that these are but diseases of the body sinne of the soule And it humiliated his heart to see himselfe become by sinne a Lazar and a foule leper it brake his heart when he considered that sinne is the greatest wound that is greater then a stabb through the bovvelles of the body for that onelie woundeth killeth the bodie sinne stobbeth vvoundeth yea killeth the soule by depriuing it of the life of grace therefore the vviseman biddeth vs to flye from sinne as from the face of a serpent Eccl. 21. because saith he the teeth of a Lion are his teeth killing the soules of mē It humiliated him to see himselfe thus vvounded and by so base a thing as his sinne vvas a filthie brutish pleasure and a traiterous murder It brake his heart vvith sorrovv vvhen he considered that sinne especiallie if it be mortall is a greater euill then Hell it selfe for that hell is onelie malum paenae the euill of payne sinne is malum culpae the euill of fault offence of God vvhich is the greatest euill Hell is but malum poenae an euill of paine it is an effect of God his iustice inflicted by God sinne is no effect of God nor creature of God but onelie a bastardly Impe of the sinners peruerse vvill It humiliated him vvhen he considered that he vvas oppressed vvith the greatest euill that is that God could not lay so great an euill on him though he should heape vpon him all the paynes in Hell as he layde on himselfe by his sinne It brake his heart to consider that he had sinned it humbled his heart in that he vvas sure he had sinned and had wepte for his sinnes and yet vvithout reuelation he could not tell whether his sinne was forgiuen or no Eccl. 9. whether he was worthie hatred or loue and though it was reuealed to him that his sinne vvas forgiuen 2. Reg. 12. by Nathan the Prophet yet it was sufficient matter of humilitie to haue sinned and therefore S. Paule though he vvas sure his sinne of persecuting the first Christians vvas forgiuen him 1. Tim. 1. and that he had obtayned the mercie of God because he did it beeing ignorant in incredulitie yet because he had persecuted the church of God he thought it a sufficiēt matter of humilitie 1. Co. 15 and a motiue euer after to thinke himselfe an Abortiue and the least of the Apostles not worthy to be called an Apostle onelie because he had heretofore persecuted the church of God And therefore Dauid not content that the Prophet Nathan told him 2. Reg. 12. that God had taken away his sinne weepeth still bevvayleth and lamēteth that he did sinne breaketh his heart with sorrovv humbleth it knowing that a contrite and humbled heart God vvill not despise 10. O Dauid vvho art thou vvho thus filleth the aire with cryes throbbes sobbes and lamētations vvho art thou vvho fetchest from thy heart so deepe and so dolefull sighes vvherevvith thy heart is broken rent and humbled I am a criminall saith he and a guiltie person condemned by God and by his Prophet Nathan yea and by myne owne conscience vvhich forceth me to crye peccaui of no lesse sinnes then murder and adulterie vvhat meruaile then if my heart breake vvith sorrovv my mouth sound it out