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up_o into_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n and_o into_o those_o suffering_n because_o the_o carnal_a affection_n be_v thus_o consume_v in_o this_o purgatory_n so_o that_o there_o be_v nothing_o remain_v but_o spirit_n then_o god_n come_v and_o appli_v himself_o unto_o man_n and_o give_v himself_o to_o be_v know_v of_o man_n and_o so_o this_o man_n come_v at_o length_n to_o arrive_v at_o true_a substance_n or_o essence_n of_o which_o he_o be_v make_v capable_a by_o this_o suffering_n for_o in_o this_o suffering_n or_o purgatory_n he_o be_v full_o purge_v and_o make_v fit_a to_o receive_v god_n when_o god_n be_v willing_a to_o help_v we_o than_o he_o exercise_v we_o with_o this_o suffering_n
when_o all_o exercise_n and_o all_o strength_n of_o our_o own_o fail_v even_o then_o be_v these_o the_o exercise_n of_o god_n and_o his_o strength_n when_o all_o our_o strength_n be_v vanish_v away_o and_o we_o have_v so_o long_o labour_v under_o the_o law_n that_o we_o can_v do_v no_o more_o then_o be_v god_n present_a whether_o we_o will_v or_o no_o for_o here_o a_o man_n must_v go_v on_o nor_o be_v it_o permit_v he_o to_o go_v back_o again_o for_o he_o be_v in_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o lord_n into_o which_o he_o often_o desire_v to_o come_v and_o that_o hand_n will_v not_o then_o let_v he_o go_v till_o it_o have_v right_o break_v he_o in_o piece_n by_o affliction_n and_o have_v tumble_v he_o up_o and_o down_o through_o various_a case_n whence_o it_o come_v that_o healwaye_v more_o and_o more_o lose_v himself_o till_o he_o be_v free_v from_o all_o his_o flesh_n and_o be_v make_v capable_a of_o the_o heavenly_a influence_n whoever_o they_o be_v who_o be_v not_o thus_o exercise_v but_o abide_v in_o their_o own_o labour_n can_v never_o be_v advance_v high_a but_o stand_v at_o a_o stay_n always_o in_o the_o same_o state_n and_o if_o one_o shall_v return_v after_o the_o space_n of_o a_o year_n or_o two_o year_n yea_o of_o ten_o unto_o they_o he_o shall_v find_v they_o still_o as_o he_o former_o leave_v they_o how_o much_o soever_o they_o exercise_v themselves_o under_o the_o law_n and_o severity_n and_o good_a work_n and_o labour_n and_o fasting_n and_o abstinence_n etc._n etc._n yet_o they_o all_o stop_v their_o course_n here_o be_v still_o inward_o unchanged_a and_o unregenerate_v and_o of_o the_o new_a creature_n or_o regeneration_n know_v nothing_o because_o they_o be_v not_o exercise_v in_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o lord_n by_o mean_n of_o the_o aforesaid_a suffering_n for_o affliction_n alone_o be_v this_o way_n to_o the_o new_a generation_n to_o wisdom_n and_o to_o true_a knowledge_n the_o aforesaid_a labour_n also_o must_v be_v under_o the_o law_n yea_o and_o go_v before_o that_o other_o else_o we_o can_v arrive_v at_o the_o say_a state_n of_o suffer_v so_o that_o no_o one_o abide_v therein_o for_o the_o mind_n be_v not_o yet_o so_o purify_v and_o there_o still_o stick_v unto_o its_o bottom_n somewhat_o that_o be_v worldly_a though_o one_o may_v appear_v otherwise_o outward_o consequent_o we_o become_v not_o in_o our_o mind_n partaker_n with_o christ_n until_o be_v purify_v by_o that_o purgatory_n and_o these_o suffering_n we_o be_v make_v capable_a of_o he_o for_o light_n and_o darkness_n christ_n and_o belial_n dwell_v not_o together_o those_o middle_a thing_n which_o be_v interpose_v between_o god_n and_o we_o and_o unto_o which_o we_o always_o remain_v fix_o hold_v our_o eye_n so_o as_o we_o can_v see_v god_n those_o middle_a thing_n i_o say_v be_v to_o be_v remove_v by_o the_o mean_n of_o suffering_n from_o god_n if_o we_o be_v to_o be_v unite_v to_o he_o if_o gold_n can_v be_v sensible_a and_o speak_v it_o will_v certain_o say_v what_o it_o shall_v suffer_v before_o it_o can_v be_v purify_v and_o so_o the_o earth_n will_v say_v how_o much_o it_o must_v suffer_v and_o how_o much_o it_o will_v stand_v in_o need_n of_o before_o the_o seed_n be_v produce_v out_o of_o its_o bowel_n when_o a_o man_n have_v bring_v all_o his_o labour_n to_o a_o end_n nor_o can_v go_v on_o further_a then_o be_v the_o chief_a and_o high_a work_n yet_o before_o his_o hand_n lie_v as_o undo_v if_o this_o must_v be_v perfect_v and_o do_v it_o must_v be_v do_v by_o god_n for_o it_o behoove_v that_o he_o shall_v accomplish_v these_o thing_n which_o be_v impossible_a for_o a_o man_n to_o do_v chap._n xxxii_o a_o man_n who_o have_v beg_v help_n from_o the_o lord_n judge_n other_o man_n honest_a than_o himself_o for_o he_o confess_v that_o if_o other_o have_v have_v this_o grace_n which_o be_v do_v to_o he_o that_o they_o have_v be_v more_o faithful_a and_o more_o honest_a by_o much_o than_o himself_o be_v whence_o also_o he_o abstain_v from_o rash_a judgement_n and_o commiserate_v poor_a man_n because_o he_o behold_v their_o future_a misery_n out_o of_o which_o he_o himself_o through_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n without_o any_o merit_n of_o his_o own_o be_v snatch_v and_o therefore_o he_o can_v extol_v himself_o above_o other_o nor_o tax_v they_o or_o delude_v they_o but_o rather_o humble_v himself_o beneath_o all_o and_o burn_v with_o a_o universal_a charity_n moreover_o he_o will_v willing_o renounce_v his_o own_o salvation_n that_o other_o might_n but_o be_v save_v nor_o can_v he_o do_v otherwise_o because_o this_o be_v the_o property_n of_o regeneration_n he_o who_o have_v regeneration_n and_o be_v arrive_v at_o the_o true_a substance_n adher_v to_o no_o thing_n whatsoever_o he_o do_v or_o omit_v to_o do_v or_o eat_v or_o drink_v or_o go_v or_o stand_v whether_o he_o be_v with_o other_o or_o whether_o he_o be_v alone_o but_o he_o always_o be_v free_a from_o all_o and_o uncessant_o behold_v god_n who_o he_o be_v proper_o and_o for_o who_o sake_n he_o use_v all_o thing_n at_o what_o time_n he_o be_v rapt_v upward_o he_o be_v put_v beyond_o himself_o and_o be_v without_o all_o discretion_n and_o when_o he_o be_v let_v down_o again_o from_o that_o same_o mountain_n he_o incessant_o look_v back_o upward_o again_o the_o new_a man_n by_o a_o continual_a ascent_n every_o hover_v and_o moment_n go_v away_o unto_o god_n nor_o do_v he_o ever_o stop_v his_o course_n because_o god_n be_v unsearchable_a and_o past_o find_v out_o he_o regard_v not_o temporal_n though_o he_o may_v seem_v so_o and_o though_o he_o do_v eat_v drink_v sleep_n and_o be_v clothe_v for_o if_o he_o shall_v regard_v they_o he_o will_v still_o stand_v in_o time_n but_o all_o the_o aforementioned_a thing_n be_v snatch_v from_o he_o by_o fire_n that_o he_o may_v ascend_v above_o time_n and_o stand_v in_o god_n he_o die_v and_o rise_v again_o in_o god_n he_o fall_v oil_n from_o all_o thing_n and_o perish_v both_o in_o body_n soul_n and_o spirit_n at_o first_o every_o one_o be_v a_o infant_n than_o a_o youth_n and_o thence_o he_o go_v into_o manhood_n and_o at_o length_n into_o old_a age_n than_o we_o falter_v and_o can_v no_o long_o enjoy_v the_o pleasure_n of_o youth_n and_o at_o last_o we_o say_v i_o remember_v that_o i_o have_v be_v a_o young_a man_n but_o time_n be_v go_v when_o young_a man_n rejoice_v i_o be_o in_o sadness_n and_o whilst_o they_o live_v i_o die_v chap._n xxxiii_o there_o be_v not_o a_o letter_n in_o the_o holy_a scripture_n which_o ought_v not_o to_o be_v understand_v and_o interpret_v concern_v the_o body_n of_o christ_n now_o there_o be_v many_o member_n of_o christ_n body_n that_o which_o be_v not_o in_o one_o member_n be_v in_o another_o the_o whole_a scripture_n of_o the_o old_a and_o new_a testament_n with_o all_o figure_n and_o ceremony_n prefigure_v the_o very_a substance_n of_o the_o matter_n and_o be_v a_o type_n of_o the_o internal_a truth_n as_o the_o image_n in_o the_o glass_n be_v the_o representation_n of_o the_o face_n and_o as_o the_o image_n can_v be_v in_o the_o glass_n of_o who_o there_o be_v no_o truth_n or_o substance_n so_o there_o be_v no_o representation_n of_o scripture_n or_o of_o ceremony_n or_o of_o figure_n to_o which_o there_o belong_v not_o some_o truth_n and_o substance_n when_o therefore_o a_o representation_n or_o image_n be_v true_a there_o be_v also_o a_o true_a essence_n or_o substance_n there_o be_v no_o shadow_n without_o a_o body_n nor_o figure_n or_o image_n without_o a_o essence_n the_o book_n of_o psalm_n begin_v mature_o with_o man_n and_z continues_z with_o he_o unto_o old_a age_n and_o even_o to_o his_o end_n and_o with_o man_n it_o rise_v up_o from_o bottom_n to_o top_n no_o christian_n transcend_v the_o exercise_n of_o the_o psalm_n nor_o can_v he_o get_v so_o high_a but_o the_o psalm_n accompany_v he_o still_o and_o express_v his_o mind_n how_o long_o do_v the_o faithful_a man_n wait_v for_o god_n till_o he_o come_v and_o when_o he_o be_v come_v he_o depart_v again_o and_o hide_v himself_o that_o a_o man_n can_v find_v he_o and_o by_o this_o very_a thing_n god_n will_v purge_v a_o man_n that_o he_o may_v learn_v true_o to_o possess_v he_o without_o appropriation_n for_o at_o first_o he_o assume_v god_n with_o appropriation_n and_o this_o than_o be_v that_o same_o subtle_a flesh_n of_o hiâ—_n which_o ought_v to_o be_v consume_v chap._n xxxiiii_o faith_n be_v a_o most_o desolate_a thing_n juâ—â—_n as_o when_o many_o thing_n be_v reach_v out_o to_o any_o one_o and_o he_o catch_v at_o theâ—_n but_o then_o they_o be_v pull_v away_o again_o but_o at_o last_o a_o door_n of_o escape_n be_v open_v 〈◊〉_d he_o which_o then_o
most_o bitter_a affliction_n so_o as_o his_o heart_n become_v as_o it_o be_v ground_n to_o powder_n for_o he_o that_o be_v not_o yet_o come_v to_o this_o poverty_n but_o be_v still_o rich_a can_v hold_v his_o tongue_n he_o that_o handle_v himself_o severe_o that_o he_o may_v break_v his_o nature_n and_o become_v harsh_a to_o his_o own_o selâ—_n can_v difficult_o compassionate_v other_o who_o he_o see_v not_o to_o be_v as_o severe_a as_o he_o be_v himself_o and_o therefore_o he_o so_o drive_v other_o that_o they_o may_v be_v like_o he_o in_o state_n or_o condition_n and_o he_o be_v unmerciful_a nor_o also_o can_v he_o be_v silent_a although_o sometime_o he_o have_v his_o conscience_n press_v down_o with_o solicitous_a care_n because_o his_o heart_n be_v not_o yet_o pierce_v quite_o through_o nor_o be_v dig_v down_o to_o its_o very_a bottom_n nor_o utter_o break_v with_o bitter_a affliction_n but_o he_o that_o have_v hâ—s_a heart_n ground_n to_o power_n and_o deep_o wound_v with_o great_a and_o bitter_a misery_n he_o can_v hold_v his_o tongue_n yea_o he_o choose_v rather_o to_o be_v silent_a although_o sometime_o necessity_n shall_v require_v it_o otherwise_o then_o to_o speak_v unless_o god_n shall_v compel_v he_o thereunto_o for_o such_o a_o one_o can_v so_o ready_o convert_v himself_o towards_o outward_a thing_n but_o what_o thing_n soever_o be_v in_o such_o a_o man_n be_v turn_v to_o the_o affliction_n of_o his_o heart_n and_o all_o thing_n be_v fill_v with_o sorrow_n chap._n xxxiii_o i_o never_o find_v so_o clear_a a_o understanding_n nor_o so_o great_a experience_n as_o in_o grief_n sorrow_n misery_n affliction_n and_o in_o the_o death_n and_o destruction_n of_o the_o flesh_n that_o time_n which_o be_v spend_v in_o the_o cross_n pain_n grief_n misery_n and_o strait_n be_v gain_v but_o that_o which_o be_v spend_v in_o pleasure_n joy_n delight_n and_o play_n be_v lose_v the_o mind_n of_o a_o man_n that_o be_v still_o float_v up_o and_o down_o and_o can_v still_o be_v move_v at_o thing_n pleasant_a or_o painful_a or_o in_o joy_n or_o in_o grief_n do_v not_o yet_o belong_v unto_o god_n for_o in_o god_n there_o be_v no_o mutation_n because_o he_o be_v unchangeable_a now_o when_o the_o mind_n of_o man_n can_v be_v move_v by_o the_o aforesaid_a thing_n then_o be_v god_n present_a in_o that_o soul_n and_o it_o be_v he_o who_o work_v that_o in_o the_o man_n those_o six_o gift_n of_o the_o holy_a spirit_n must_v first_o be_v accomplish_v then_o at_o length_n follow_v that_o seven_o gift_n viz._n the_o spirit_n of_o fear_n of_o the_o lord_n which_o put_v a_o man_n into_o a_o sweet_a calm_a because_o this_o spirit_n of_o fear_n preserve_v all_o the_o former_a gift_n that_o they_o may_v remain_v pure_a and_o than_o it_o be_v that_o a_o man_n be_v in_o all_o respect_n strike_v with_o a_o great_a fear_n and_o tremble_a that_o he_o may_v right_o use_v they_o and_o keep_v they_o pure_a it_o be_v this_o last_o gift_n of_o the_o fear_n of_o god_n that_o keep_v steady_a in_o all_o thing_n that_o man_n that_o have_v receive_v it_o we_o be_v therefore_o earnest_o to_o endeavour_v to_o act_v right_o in_o all_o concern_v and_o to_o walk_v before_o god_n with_o holy_a fear_n our_o conscience_n be_v our_o book_n into_o which_o we_o ought_v every_o day_n to_o look_v and_o in_o which_o to_o diligent_o and_o serious_o read_v and_o study_v that_o we_o may_v most_o exact_o perform_v that_o which_o it_o witness_v conscience_n be_v a_o thousand_o witness_n about_o which_o the_o old_a and_o new_a testament_n be_v our_o rule_n of_o direction_n chap._n xxxiv_o this_o year_n prove_v more_o difficult_a or_o hard_o to_o i_o than_o it_o be_v ever_o before_o in_o all_o my_o life_n and_o yet_o i_o do_v most_o accurate_o weigh_v and_o ponder_v on_o that_o same_o time_n for_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o sublime_a any_o one_o ascend_v in_o affliction_n by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o accurate_o do_v he_o weigh_v and_o count_v his_o time_n and_o it_o prove_v thereby_o more_o profitable_a to_o he_o all_o the_o forego_n time_n of_o i_o which_o i_o have_v spend_v before_o this_o year_n vanish_v away_o and_o come_v to_o nothing_o even_o as_o this_o my_o present_a time_n also_o shall_v vapour_n away_o into_o nothing_o because_o my_o body_n be_v annihilate_v i_o have_v no_o support_n hence_o be_v it_o that_o time_n become_v so_o tedious_a to_o i_o but_o when_o time_n be_v spend_v in_o labour_n it_o produce_v no_o difficulty_n but_o when_o i_o be_o deprive_v of_o all_o my_o strength_n i_o can_v neither_o pray_v nor_o desire_n nor_o lift_v up_o one_o thought_n to_o god_n yea_o here_o i_o lie_v and_o corrupt_v in_o body_n mind_n and_o spirit_n as_o long_o as_o breath_n remain_v in_o i_o yea_o as_o to_o my_o understanding_n also_o and_o my_o reason_n i_o be_o reduce_v to_o nothing_o as_o for_o my_o understanding_n i_o know_v nothing_o of_o it_o whither_o viz._n i_o have_v a_o understanding_n or_o not_o for_o in_o this_o great_a gulf_n of_o misery_n all_o thing_n be_v reduce_v to_o dust_n and_o ash_n here_o i_o lie_v and_o be_o sensible_a of_o nothing_o but_o judgement_n death_n and_o condemnation_n and_o when_o one_o say_v to_o he_o be_v it_o so_o that_o when_o thou_o be_v accuse_v present_o judgement_n be_v at_o hand_n he_o answer_v be_o i_o accuse_v not_o as_o though_o i_o be_v so_o perfect_a as_o that_o i_o can_v not_o be_v accuse_v but_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a for_o i_o to_o take_v up_o life_n in_o such_o a_o moment_n of_o time_n as_o that_o accusation_n may_v assault_v i_o in_o even_o in_o that_o very_a moment_n shall_v i_o be_v blow_v into_o mere_a atom_n but_o i_o have_v not_o so_o much_o time_n leave_v i_o because_o as_o many_o moment_n of_o my_o life_n as_o yet_o remain_v so_o many_o judgement_n and_o death_n do_v i_o suffer_v i_o lie_v as_o it_o be_v in_o a_o thick_a dark_a cloud_n and_o see_v nothing_o oh_o how_o very_a small_a weak_a and_o dim_a be_v that_o poor_a ray_n of_o light_n that_o be_v round_o about_o i_o i_o can_v see_v far_o before_o i_o yea_o neither_o do_v my_o way_n and_o path_n appear_v to_o my_o sight_n yea_o i_o be_o lead_v on_o where_o no_o way_n be_v and_o that_o which_o be_v life_n to_o another_o that_o be_v death_n to_o i_o and_o contrary_o that_o which_o be_v another_o death_n be_v my_o life_n judgement_n be_v so_o sharp_a to_o i_o as_o it_o be_v when_o one_o not_o think_v any_o thing_n lay_v his_o hand_n upon_o some_o place_n and_o present_o some_o body_n knock_v he_o on_o the_o finger_n when_o any_o will_v reply_v upon_o he_o that_o this_o case_n be_v a_o certain_a kind_n of_o preservation_n from_o god_n because_o he_o lay_v his_o hand_n so_o faithful_o upon_o thou_o he_o still_o answer_v true_a indeed_o this_o condition_n be_v the_o most_o safe_a before_o the_o eye_n of_o god_n but_o the_o most_o afflict_v one_o in_o my_o sight_n for_o if_o i_o shall_v acknowledge_v this_o state_n to_o be_v safe_a forthwith_o another_o judgement_n be_v to_o be_v undergo_v by_o i_o for_o plain_o i_o be_o lead_v without_o knowledge_n without_o be_v acquaint_v or_o understand_v the_o way_n for_o he_o who_o have_v experience_v the_o thing_n its_o self_n and_o he_o that_o have_v be_v lead_n in_o this_o way_n only_o notional_o be_v vast_o differ_v because_o true_a knowledge_n and_o understanding_n be_v such_o a_o life_n such_o a_o prop_n that_o a_o man_n come_v then_o only_o to_o know_v they_o when_o god_n withdraw_v they_o from_o he_o just_o as_o when_o one_o labour_v with_o great_a thirst_n and_o see_v a_o pot_n stand_v before_o he_o yet_o for_o all_o that_o his_o thirst_n can_v but_o afflict_v he_o still_o but_o than_o if_o there_o shall_v come_v one_o who_o shall_v take_v the_o pot_n quite_o away_o then_o remain_v no_o hope_n of_o ever_o attain_v to_o drink_v thereof_o all_o the_o elect_n be_v bring_v unto_o god_n through_o affliction_n but_o all_o do_v not_o tread_v this_o same_o path_n of_o the_o cross_n by_o which_o i_o be_o to_o pass_v chap._n xxxv_o all_o thing_n be_v transform_v and_o change_v whence_o i_o observe_v that_o ere_o long_o many_o wonderful_a thing_n will_v happen_v and_o the_o strange_a thing_n of_o god_n will_v spring_v forth_o i_o indeed_o have_v desire_v to_o see_v they_o but_o i_o shall_v not_o arrive_v at_o they_o for_o i_o see_v my_o end_n before_o my_o eye_n yet_o i_o rejoice_v because_o of_o the_o time_n to_o come_v which_o now_o be_v ready_a at_o the_o door_n and_o i_o rejoice_v concern_v that_o time_n when_o i_o look_v upon_o child_n remember_v i_o my_o mind_n presage_v not_o as_o if_o all_o i_o say_v be_v gospel_n it_o will_v be_v that_o the_o glory_n and_o the_o knowledge_n of_o
make_v themselves_o more_o assure_v or_o may_v expect_v or_o receive_v it_o from_o any_o creature_n whatsoever_o but_o feel_o live_o and_o internal_o be_v convince_v in_o their_o own_o heart_n do_v true_o become_v sensible_a of_o the_o high_a love_n in_o the_o deep_a enmity_n of_o the_o great_a riches_n in_o the_o extreme_a poverty_n of_o the_o profound_a joy_n in_o the_o most_o press_a strait_n and_o misery_n and_o in_o the_o fierce_a combat_n the_o sweet_a peace_n and_o in_o a_o word_n in_o the_o low_a despondency_n and_o weakness_n yea_o desperation_n and_o inconstancy_n the_o high_a faithfulness_n and_o constancy_n ought_v to_o be_v find_v in_o god_n here_o faith_n come_v to_o be_v try_v whether_o it_o be_v of_o man_n or_o whether_o it_o be_v of_o god_n for_o if_o it_o be_v of_o man_n it_o refuse_v to_o choose_v for_o itself_o true_a poverty_n of_o spirit_n together_o with_o the_o abnegation_n of_o proper_a happiness_n which_o it_o elect_v for_o itself_o for_o it_o deni_v to_o assume_v for_o its_o conservation_n and_o happiness_n any_o thing_n but_o what_o be_v before_o its_o own_o eye_n and_o be_v promise_v in_o word_n gross_o understand_v from_o the_o scripture_n and_o acquiesce_n in_o the_o do_n of_o they_o only_o that_o the_o soul_n may_v be_v save_v but_o if_o some_o thing_n seem_v to_o it_o to_o be_v impossible_a to_o be_v perform_v it_o lay_v all_o that_o upon_o the_o shoulder_n of_o christ_n as_o without_o and_o beyond_o itself_o and_o so_o quiet_v its_o own_o conscience_n in_o the_o best_a manner_n it_o can_v be_v possible_o perform_v when_o as_o if_o from_o the_o most_o inward_a secret_n of_o its_o own_o soul_n it_o will_v confess_v the_o truth_n it_o will_v indeed_o tell_v you_o of_o a_o conscience_n not_o sound_o pacify_v but_o rather_o of_o one_o that_o gnaw_v and_o torment_v unless_o it_o strive_v of_o set_a purpose_n to_o hide_v the_o true_a state_n of_o the_o matter_n but_o if_o such_o a_o one_o be_v about_o to_o object_n and_o say_v this_o be_v the_o devil_n that_o thus_o accuse_v and_o blame_v a_o man_n in_o his_o conscience_n from_o which_o notwithstanding_o any_o one_o may_v be_v free_v by_o and_o through_o christ_n well_o then_o it_o this_o be_v the_o devil_n that_o thus_o accuse_v he_o without_o any_o lie_n and_o yet_o by_o this_o accusation_n keep_v he_o still_o captive_a in_o his_o chain_n for_o he_o have_v not_o as_o yet_o forsake_v he_o than_o christ_n dwell_v in_o he_o also_o have_v not_o as_o yet_o set_v he_o thus_o at_o liberty_n from_o the_o devil_n hell_n and_o sin_n that_o his_o freedom_n and_o reconciliation_n may_v be_v true_o find_v to_o be_v in_o christ_n himself_o because_o for_o he_o for_o who_o christ_n die_v in_o he_o also_o he_o ought_v to_o rise_v again_o so_o as_o death_n sin_n the_o devil_n and_o hell_n may_v have_v no_o just_a right_n over_o he_o yea_o not_o so_o much_o as_o to_o touch_v he_o with_o the_o least_o finger_n because_o that_o he_o be_v plain_o free_v from_o all_o these_o by_o christ_n dwell_v in_o he_o he_o be_v become_v a_o member_n of_o his_o body_n against_o which_o can_v no_o accusation_n or_o condemnation_n be_v bring_v for_o even_o as_o the_o head_n be_v find_v blameless_a in_o innocency_n so_o also_o be_v the_o whole_a body_n with_o all_o its_o member_n let_v every_o one_o narrow_o prove_v himself_o before_o he_o boast_v himself_o to_o be_v a_o member_n of_o this_o body_n for_o christ_n be_v not_o so_o vile_a in_o we_o as_o we_o may_v think_v he_o to_o be_v nor_o be_v the_o imitation_n of_o he_o so_o small_a a_o thing_n that_o it_o can_v be_v comprehend_v and_o know_v by_o our_o gross_a natural_a reason_n because_o as_o he_o be_v supernatural_o conceive_v and_o bear_v so_o in_o like_a manner_n do_v he_o operate_v and_o speak_v yea_o whatever_o be_v manifest_v concern_v christ_n aught_o to_o be_v most_o exact_o express_v in_o we_o in_o spirit_n and_o life_n and_o in_o divine_a truth_n therefore_o he_o that_o will_v glory_v that_o he_o understand_v and_o know_v christ_n and_o be_v a_o partaker_n of_o he_o it_o behoove_v he_o in_o the_o same_o manner_n with_o christ_n to_o be_v regenerate_v in_o spirit_n so_o 〈◊〉_d that_o it_o be_v no_o long_o he_o but_o christ_n who_o live_v in_o he_o and_o then_o indeed_o no_o devil_n nor_o any_o accusation_n can_v touch_v he_o moreover_o he_o also_o will_v himself_o judge_v of_o all_o far_o otherwise_o then_o by_o the_o light_a judgement_n of_o a_o natural_a man_n see_v all_o the_o mysterye_n of_o the_o scripture_n be_v to_o all_o that_o iâ—_n of_o nature_n leave_v in_o he_o occult_a and_o hide_a until_o the_o man_n be_v transplant_v into_o thâ—_n likeness_n of_o christ_n where_o not_o the_o leasâ—_n room_n be_v leave_v for_o nature_n inasmuch_o as_o she_o be_v condemn_v already_o as_o be_v at_o enmity_n even_o with_o god_n himself_o thus_o i_o have_v brief_o and_o succinct_o lay_v before_o thou_o those_o thing_n which_o be_v ordinary_o meet_v with_o in_o they_o who_o conceive_v a_o zeal_n for_o god_n that_o thou_o may_v learn_v cautious_o to_o proceed_v in_o these_o matter_n and_o that_o thou_o be_v not_o drive_v hither_o and_o thither_o by_o every_o wind_n of_o doctrine_n but_o that_o thou_o may_v finish_v thy_o combat_n with_o a_o serious_a and_o most_o arden_n zeal_n until_o the_o lord_n shall_v guide_v thou_o aâ—_n last_o unto_o the_o regeneration_n which_o be_v doâ—â—_n in_o spirit_n be_v frequent_o invoke_v bâ—_n prayer_n and_o sigh_n after_o many_o adversity_n and_o both_o inward_a and_o outward_a sorrow_n by_o which_o a_o man_n be_v wonderful_o put_v forward_o towards_o that_o which_o he_o aim_v at_o the_o lord_n grant_v to_o thou_o his_o grace_n in_o his_o own_o time_n that_o thou_o may_v at_o last_v become_v joyful_o sensible_a in_o the_o secret_a of_o thy_o heart_n of_o those_o most_o excellent_a help_n and_o victory_n which_o be_v attain_v to_o through_o the_o cross_n suffering_n and_o pain_n epist._n ii_o concern_v the_o most_o subtle_a craftiness_n of_o humane_a nature_n to_o the_o same_o lady_n the_o lord_n multiply_v unto_o thou_o the_o benediction_n of_o internal_a grace_n and_o the_o right_a understanding_n of_o his_o will_n inasmuch_o as_o his_o will_n can_v be_v acknowledge_v by_o nature_n leave_v to_o herself_o see_v she_o be_v plain_o contrary_a thereunto_o although_o sometime_o she_o may_v seem_v to_o be_v thorough_o unite_v unto_o it_o for_o all_o man_n do_v with_o open_a mouth_n boast_v of_o the_o knowledge_n of_o god_n and_o no_o man_n will_v be_v want_v in_o that_o every_o body_n cry_v that_o he_o be_v arrive_v thereat_o and_o that_o he_o have_v full_o obtain_v it_o i_o speak_v oâ—_n those_o who_o study_v their_o own_o righteousness_n and_o give_v up_o themselves_o to_o god_n and_o trusâ—_n confident_o before_o god_n that_o they_o arâ—_n make_v free_a through_o jesus_n christ_n wherâ—_n notwithstanding_o such_o a_o man_n never_o yeâ—_n arrive_v in_o the_o least_o to_o true_o know_v himself_o and_o have_v never_o as_o yet_o observe_v the_o most_o crafty_a temptation_n and_o the_o seducement_n of_o his_o own_o nature_n because_o he_o esteem_v that_o for_o good_a which_o on_o the_o quite_o contrary_a do_v draw_v he_o far_o away_o from_o god_n and_o his_o motion_n and_o come_v quite_o opposite_a to_o all_o those_o thing_n which_o god_n will_v and_o desire_v here_o thou_o must_v diligent_o have_v a_o care_n right_o to_o understand_v the_o nature_n and_o desire_n of_o that_o propriety_n which_o give_v i_o leave_v to_o call_v tuity_n or_o thiness_n which_o dwell_v in_o the_o flesh_n and_o yet_o bear_v before_o it_o a_o certain_a appearance_n of_o some_o spiritual_a quality_n for_o all_o man_n be_v lead_v captive_a by_o this_o enemy_n none_o except_v though_o he_o be_v the_o most_o devout_a yea_o though_o he_o may_v seem_v to_o live_v the_o life_n of_o a_o angel_n and_o may_v bring_v to_o light_v wonderful_a secret_n yet_o will_v he_o be_v no_o less_o than_o the_o rest_n catch_v and_o bind_v in_o these_o most_o subtle_a fetter_n and_o although_o some_o begin_v to_o be_v aware_a of_o these_o snare_n yet_o for_o all_o that_o some_o other_o such_o like_a trap_n be_v lay_v more_o fineâ—y_n and_o secret_o which_o the_o fall_n into_o sometimes_o which_o afterward_o do_v afresh_o â—â—â—rify_v they_o when_o as_o before_o they_o seemâ—â—_n to_o themselves_o to_o have_v obtain_v illumination_n salvation_n yea_o even_a god_n himself_o now_o this_o a_o man_n can_v know_v unless_o 〈◊〉_d be_v lead_v through_o they_o and_o try_v all_o 〈◊〉_d god_n for_o in_o such_o a_o man_n these_o matâ—ers_n can_v be_v more_o plain_o or_o deep_o â—â—planted_v so_o as_o to_o abide_v in_o that_o presence_n of_o god_n true_a indeed_o they_o may_v partly_o be_v comprehend_v by_o nature_n but_o when_o nature_n be_v withdraw_v
from_o we_o we_o be_v â—â—und_v stark_o naked_a because_o these_o thing_n â—ere_z not_z at_o the_o first_o own_v in_o spirit_n beâ—â—re_v god_n who_o only_o remain_v constant_a use_v immutable_a to_o all_o eternity_n for_o god_n be_v a_o spirit_n and_o he_o that_o will_v â—ow_o he_o in_o truth_n and_o see_v his_o brighton_n and_o adore_v he_o it_o behoove_v this_o â—â—n_fw-la to_o endeavour_n after_o all_o this_o in_o spirit_n use_v into_o this_o state_n or_o condition_n it_o be_v necessary_a that_o a_o man_n be_v true_o and_o proper_o lead_v by_o god_n in_o his_o own_o time_n yea_o and_o that_o it_o also_o be_v not_o of_o he_o that_o will_v nor_o of_o he_o that_o run_v but_o if_o so_o be_v any_o one_o be_v faithful_a in_o that_o wherein_o he_o stand_v then_o shall_v much_o more_o be_v give_v unto_o he_o concern_v all_o these_o thing_n thou_o will_v find_v most_o full_a instruction_n in_o those_o two_o treatise_n entitle_v the_o german_a divinity_n and_o that_o of_o the_o imitation_n of_o christ_n the_o author_n of_o which_o have_v experience_v these_o thing_n in_o god_n and_o do_v give_v concern_v they_o a_o true_a guidance_n and_o information_n which_o we_o be_v to_o find_v in_o our_o own_o self_n although_o they_o do_v not_o put_v into_o our_o hand_n the_o very_a thing_n itself_o yet_o be_v the_o world_n deceive_v in_o this_o very_a particular_a viz._n that_o it_o can_v account_v of_o some_o certain_a semblance_n of_o a_o thing_n for_o the_o very_a thing_n itself_o for_o the_o flesh_n or_o nature_n in_o we_o be_v never_o willing_a to_o sit_v down_o in_o a_o inferior_a seat_n and_o if_o it_o but_o begin_v to_o reject_v somewhat_o that_o be_v false_a yet_o by_o and_o by_o it_o lean_v upon_o some_o other_o such_o like_a prop_n be_v confident_o persuade_v she_o be_v act_v by_o a_o divine_a spirit_n when_o indeed_o all_o this_o notwithstanding_o spring_v out_o of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n 〈◊〉_d little_o heighten_v out_o of_o their_o natural_a propriety_n such_o be_v the_o cunning_a of_o we_o all_o â—one_n except_v it_o behoove_v we_o therefore_o to_o apprehend_v and_o learn_v all_o these_o thing_n in_o god_n that_o the_o light_n may_v be_v separate_v from_o the_o darkness_n and_o that_o that_o notable_a difference_n and_o distinction_n in_o this_o very_a point_n be_v well_o know_v to_o we_o lest_o we_o take_v one_o thing_n for_o another_o viz._n flesh_n for_o spirit_n death_n for_o life_n slavery_n for_o liberty_n and_o for_o the_o free_a flow_a grace_n of_o divine_a power_n these_o thing_n because_o a_o man_n in_o his_o life_n time_n be_v always_o willing_a to_o get_v and_o keep_v reconciliation_n and_o eternal_a salvation_n be_v plain_o know_v to_o a_o few_o inasmuch_o as_o a_o man_n esteem_v those_o thing_n in_o the_o place_n of_o god_n and_o for_o thing_n divine_a which_o indeed_o do_v but_o hold_v he_o bind_v in_o a_o perpetual_a imprisonment_n be_v that_o which_o be_v his_o own_o nature_n and_o propriety_n viz._n the_o fear_n of_o eternal_a damnation_n by_o mean_n of_o which_o he_o abstain_v from_o all_o external_a and_o carnal_a filthiness_n and_o impurity_n and_o cut_v off_o those_o thing_n from_o himself_o be_v then_o full_o persuade_v that_o now_o he_o be_v true_o at_o liberty_n so_o that_o he_o will_v not_o proceed_v further_o on_o and_o refuse_v to_o deny_v and_o resign_v up_o both_o the_o proper_a and_o the_o imaginary_a salvation_n of_o his_o soul_n although_o he_o shall_v experience_n or_o feel_v in_o himself_o that_o the_o true_a righteousness_n which_o be_v acceptable_a before_o god_n be_v that_o very_a circumcision_n that_o be_v do_v in_o spirit_n and_o thence_o spring_v up_o the_o new-creature_n of_o god_n however_o it_o be_v necessary_a that_o every_o one_o shall_v first_o satisfy_v in_o all_o respect_v his_o own_o proper_a righteousness_n holiness_n and_o imaginary_a salvation_n that_o in_o the_o end_n he_o may_v right_o understand_v the_o difference_n of_o both_o viz._n of_o light_n and_o darkness_n and_o of_o the_o holiness_n that_o be_v from_o man_n and_o that_o which_o be_v from_o god_n for_o if_o he_o be_v not_o faithful_a in_o the_o small_a thing_n how_o shall_v he_o arrive_v at_o great_a which_o certain_o be_v impossible_a therefore_o it_o behoove_v every_o one_o to_o satisfy_v his_o own_o conscience_n and_o with_o all_o moderation_n and_o discretion_n to_o obey_v the_o testimony_n of_o his_o own_o heart_n that_o be_v raise_v up_o through_o all_o the_o degree_n of_o holiness_n and_o be_v enrich_v with_o all_o the_o affluence_n riches_n and_o imaginary_a good_n of_o his_o own_o spirit_n he_o may_v at_o length_n be_v bring_v to_o the_o divine_a poverty_n of_o spirit_n by_o the_o manifestation_n in_o he_o of_o the_o divine_a righteousness_n and_o of_o that_o degree_n which_o be_v by_o far_o the_o most_o excellent_a and_o exalt_a as_o be_v that_o which_o throw_v down_o all_o the_o rest_n so_o as_o there_o remain_v nothing_o that_o can_v stand_v before_o it_o which_o be_v not_o its_o 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