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content_v she_o command_v she_o to_o do_v all_o by_o holy_a obedience_n and_o it_o can_v be_v express_v with_o how_o great_a devotion_n and_o humility_n she_o answer_v to_o every_o particle_n of_o that_o which_o be_v impose_v in_o these_o word_n benedictus_fw-la deus_fw-la add_v further_o i_o will_v endeavour_n with_o the_o help_n of_o jesus_n to_o do_v all_o that_o you_o have_v impose_v this_o solemn_a sacrifice_n of_o her_o will_n be_v so_o grateful_a to_o god_n that_o afterward_o he_o raise_v she_o to_o many_o rapt_n and_o her_o hart_n become_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o so_o many_o temptation_n to_o be_v full_a of_o tranquillity_n &_o joy_n the_o devil_n afflict_v she_o with_o impure_a temptation_n the_o remedye_n which_o she_o use_v against_o they_o the_o b._n virgin_n cover_v she_o with_o a_o white_a veil_n so_o as_o she_o be_v no_o more_o trouble_v the_o devil_n procure_v to_o delude_v she_o in_o the_o form_n of_o a_o religious_a woman_n chap._n 26._o on_o the_o eight_o of_o 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she_o be_v command_v not_o to_o use_v either_o that_o or_o any_o other_o so_o rigorous_a mortification_n without_o express_a licence_n which_o she_o punctual_o observe_v from_o that_o time_n forward_o in_o exchange_v thereof_o she_o have_v recourse_n by_o ardent_a prayer_n to_o the_o most_o divine_a assistance_n particular_o confide_v in_o the_o intercession_n of_o the_o b._n virgiâ—_n to_o who_o pray_v one_o day_n with_o abundant_a tear_n that_o she_o will_v enable_v she_o to_o overcome_v all_o impure_a tentation_n without_o any_o spot_n to_o her_o virginity_n the_o queen_n of_o heaven_n appear_v to_o her_o all_o environ_v about_o with_o eternal_a glory_n &_o tell_v she_o that_o in_o those_o so_o sharp_a battle_n she_o have_v never_o offend_v his_o divine_a majesty_n nay_o that_o with_o have_v fight_v so_o valiant_o she_o have_v ever_o obtain_v glorious_a victory_n and_o then_o she_o cover_v she_o all_o over_o with_o a_o most_o pure_a white_a veil_n wherewith_o she_o find_v herself_o 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will_n of_o god_n for_o her_o great_a glory_n and_o probation_n the_o devil_n in_o the_o mean_a time_n envy_v she_o so_o great_a good_a and_o be_v enrage_v that_o he_o can_v not_o overcome_v she_o make_v she_o fall_v sometim_n down_o the_o stair_n sometime_o in_o the_o choir_n and_o sometime_o in_o other_o place_n but_o the_o servant_n of_o god_n support_v all_o for_o the_o love_n of_o jesus_n be_v not_o at_o all_o hurt_n by_o it_o but_o take_v courage_n to_o herself_o she_o rise_v up_o fit_a for_o new_a battle_n beside_o this_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o those_o fervent_a prayer_n which_o oftentimes_o he_o send_v up_o to_o heaven_n she_o find_v herself_o to_o be_v much_o bite_v as_o by_o venomous_a serpent_n it_o seem_v unto_o she_o that_o the_o part_n of_o her_o body_n be_v cut_v off_o by_o inch_n and_o be_v force_v by_o these_o accident_n she_o fall_v down_o to_o the_o ground_n where_o it_o be_v necessary_a for_o she_o to_o stay_v a_o good_a while_n with_o much_o pain_n not_o be_v 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a_o contagious_a disease_n and_o cure_v a_o lay_a sister_n of_o who_o the_o one_o half_a be_v senseless_a from_o the_o head_n to_o the_o foot_n chap._n 38._o svor_fw-la barbara_n bassi_n a_o profess_a religious_a have_v be_v subject_a for_o many_o year_n to_o a_o contagious_a disease_n almost_o throughout_o her_o whole_a body_n whereby_o she_o be_v much_o pain_v and_o especial_o when_o she_o take_v her_o food_n and_o the_o remedye_n she_o use_v do_v but_o tend_v to_o the_o increase_n of_o her_o torment_n so_o as_o the_o physician_n allow_v she_o but_o a_o short_a time_n of_o life_n the_o rather_o because_o the_o say_a sickness_n be_v such_o as_o that_o by_o little_a and_o little_a it_o do_v eat_v away_o all_o her_o flesh_n many_o time_n she_o have_v recommend_v herself_o to_o the_o
you_o up_o into_o heaven_n consider_v it_o well_o and_o fail_v not_o to_o become_v religious_a in_o this_o monastery_n if_o you_o will_v accomplish_v the_o will_n of_o god_n she_o afterward_o go_v forth_o of_o the_o monastery_n be_v so_o divert_v by_o her_o parent_n &_o friend_n that_o be_v one_o evening_n in_o her_o chamber_n alone_o she_o resolve_v to_o go_v to_o her_o father_n and_o ready_o yield_v herself_o to_o his_o direction_n and_o very_o it_o be_v a_o wonderful_a thing_n that_o be_v even_o go_v out_o of_o her_o chamber_n she_o find_v herself_o to_o be_v hold_v so_o fast_o that_o she_o be_v not_o able_a to_o stir_v any_o further_o and_o although_o she_o much_o endeavour_v to_o go_v forth_o she_o be_v not_o possible_o able_a to_o effect_v it_o in_o the_o end_n reflect_v upon_o the_o tentation_n she_o change_v her_o purpose_n and_o remain_v superior_a in_o that_o conflict_n of_o the_o devil_n by_o mean_n of_o the_o prayer_n of_o suor_n maria_n maddalena_n who_o at_o the_o self_n same_o time_n see_v in_o rapt_v that_o the_o soul_n of_o that_o creature_n still_o in_o the_o form_n of_o a_o dove_n be_v strive_v to_o get_v out_o of_o her_o hand_n she_o beg_v of_o god_n both_o with_o sigh_n &_o teaâ—es_n that_o he_o will_v preserve_v she_o but_o the_o religious_a be_v desirous_a to_o satisfy_v themselves_o of_o the_o truth_n hereof_o the_o very_a next_o day_n send_v to_o speak_v with_o the_o young_a maid_n and_o ask_v what_o have_v pass_v with_o she_o in_o the_o night_n before_o she_o relate_v the_o whole_a story_n to_o they_o and_o in_o all_o the_o part_n thereof_o it_o be_v agreeable_a to_o that_o which_o suor_n maria_n maddalena_n have_v see_v at_o the_o self_n same_o tyme._n of_o the_o zeal_n which_o she_o have_v towards_o the_o save_n of_o soul_n chap._n 50._o this_o singular_a spirit_n have_v such_o a_o ardent_a charity_n towards_o the_o good_a of_o soul_n that_o it_o exceed_v all_o humane_a conceit_n our_o lord_n have_v once_o show_v she_o a_o soul_n adorn_v with_o his_o grace_n wherewith_o she_o be_v so_o strike_v in_o love_n that_o from_o thenceforth_o she_o do_v even_o melt_v with_o the_o desire_n she_o have_v of_o reduce_v soul_n to_o god_n and_o she_o ardent_o pray_v he_o that_o he_o will_v grant_v she_o many_o soul_n and_o in_o the_o fervour_n of_o her_o spirit_n she_o will_v say_v o_o that_o it_o be_v lawful_a for_o i_o to_o go_v into_o the_o indies_n or_o among_o the_o turk_n i_o will_v take_v those_o little_a child_n note_n note_n and_o with_o so_o great_a affection_n teach_v they_o all_o that_o belong_v to_o our_o holy_a religion_n that_o whatsoever_o pain_n i_o may_v endure_v shall_v be_v of_o much_o comfort_n to_o i_o but_o because_o she_o can_v not_o perform_v this_o she_o will_v often_o take_v occasion_n to_o speak_v with_o some_o of_o the_o simple_a sort_n of_o the_o religious_a and_o be_v ever_o instruct_v they_o about_o heavenly_a thing_n and_o about_o the_o perfection_n of_o a_o religious_a life_n and_o so_o great_a delight_n she_o take_v herein_o that_o for_o this_o she_o will_v forget_v both_o her_o food_n and_o her_o rest_n moreover_o to_o the_o end_n that_o god_n may_v be_v please_v for_o her_o sake_n to_o draw_v sinful_a soul_n unto_o himself_o she_o will_v in_o the_o horror_n of_o the_o night_n take_v severe_a discipline_n and_o imprison_v her_o flesh_n within_o pierce_a hair_n clothes_n sometime_o in_o the_o most_o secret_a place_n of_o the_o covent_n she_o will_v pray_v most_o ardent_o sometime_o she_o will_v exhibit_v â—ertaine_a act_n of_o humility_n to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n whereby_o he_o may_v be_v please_v with_o the_o lightning_n of_o his_o love_n to_o pierce_v â—he_v stony_a hart_n of_o sinner_n reduce_v they_o â—t_z last_o to_o penance_n but_o especial_o in_o the_o time_n of_o shroâ—etide_n when_o the_o divine_a goodness_n be_v most_o offend_v she_o will_v redouble_v those_o holy_a exercise_n consume_v sometime_o the_o whole_a night_n in_o prayer_n and_o continual_a lamentation_n oftentimes_o she_o be_v hear_v to_o say_v these_o word_n i_o beseech_v thou_o o_o my_o jesus_n that_o thou_o will_v grant_v i_o so_o many_o soul_n as_o i_o be_o to_o move_v pace_n in_o this_o day_n sometim_n be_v set_v on_o fire_n by_o this_o flame_n of_o charity_n she_o will_v leave_v exercise_n wherein_o she_o be_v &_o cast_v herself_o upon_o her_o knee_n will_v with_o sigh_n and_o tear_n desire_v of_o jesus_n christ_n that_o sinner_n may_v be_v convert_v to_o he_o at_o other_o time_n she_o will_v take_v a_o crucifix_n into_o her_o hand_n and_o after_o have_v whole_o offer_v herself_o to_o god_n she_o will_v discharge_v herself_o further_o in_o these_o word_n thou_o o_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o die_v upon_o the_o cross_n and_o to_o bestow_v all_o thy_o blood_n upon_o sinner_n and_o i_o also_o o_o lord_n will_v be_v glad_a to_o give_v my_o blood_n and_o be_v depriveâ—_n of_o life_n that_o they_o may_v be_v convert_v by_o this_o mean_n she_o give_v desire_n to_o the_o religious_a of_o endure_v any_o pain_n for_o the_o reduction_n of_o soul_n to_o god_n and_o because_o jesus_n have_v show_v sometime_o to_o she_o in_o rapt_v how_o hideous_o deform_v a_o soul_n be_v which_o live_v in_o darkness_n of_o sin_n she_o will_v say_v sometime_o that_o she_o see_v no_o difference_n in_o the_o uglines_n thereof_o from_o that_o of_o the_o infernal_a spirit_n she_o say_v she_o will_v willing_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o the_o extraordinary_a gift_n which_o she_o have_v receive_v of_o god_n note_n note_n that_o they_o may_v be_v grant_v to_o her_o neighbour_n &_o that_o for_o her_o part_n it_o will_v suffice_v if_o she_o may_v keep_v her_o good_a desire_n of_o be_v able_a to_o love_n and_o serve_v his_o divine_a majesty_n for_o this_o cause_n she_o will_v also_o deprive_v herself_o sometime_o of_o her_o dear_a discourse_n with_o god_n that_o she_o may_v be_v a_o help_n to_o her_o sister_n for_o as_o she_o often_o say_v she_o make_v great_a account_n of_o be_v able_a to_o assist_v other_o then_o of_o all_o the_o excess_n of_o mind_n that_o she_o may_v have_v for_o in_o these_o excess_n say_v she_o i_o be_o holpen_v by_o god_n but_o by_o assist_v my_o neighbour_n i_o help_v god_n beside_o she_o consider_v so_o earnest_o â—he_v creature_n in_o their_o spiritual_a part_n that_o â—he_v name_v they_o not_o otherwise_o then_o by_o â—he_n name_n of_o soul_n not_o regard_v any_o â—hing_n in_o they_o but_o the_o participation_n which_o they_o have_v with_o god_n in_o be_v creâ—ted_v after_o his_o image_n she_o obtain_v of_o god_n by_o her_o prayer_n the_o conversion_n of_o many_o sinful_a soul_n chap._n 51._o but_o great_a sign_n of_o her_o zeal_n towards_o the_o salvation_n of_o other_o be_v then_o see_v when_o be_v in_o prayer_n she_o be_v kindle_v with_o such_o desire_n as_o make_v she_o say_v once_o i_o find_v that_o now_o the_o world_n be_v grow_v to_o be_v in_o worse_a state_n than_o ever_o for_o now_o there_o be_v no_o more_o to_o be_v find_v any_o charity_n i_o have_v envy_n against_o the_o bird_n of_o the_o air_n who_o can_v fly_v up_o and_o down_o where_o they_o will_v and_o make_v every_o body_n hear_v their_o sweet_a note_n &_o they_o can_v every_o where_o renew_v their_o delightful_a music_n without_o ever_o rest_v o_o thou_o word_n so_o will_v i_o be_v able_a to_o do_v i_o will_v fly_v through_o out_o the_o world_n and_o make_v myself_o to_o be_v heaâ—_n by_o every_o one_o that_o so_o i_o may_v imprint_v this_o loâ—_n and_o this_o delight_n in_o the_o heart_n of_o thy_o creature_n after_o this_o she_o show_v by_o her_o wordâ—_n that_o she_o see_v a_o priest_n far_o of_o from_o thâ—_n way_n of_o god_n whereupon_o she_o give_v herself_o to_o pray_v unto_o the_o divin_v majesty_n with_o sucâ—_n fervour_n of_o spirit_n with_o word_n so_o affectuous_a and_o with_o such_o abundance_n of_o tear_n for_o the_o reduction_n of_o that_o person_n that_o she_o obtain_v to_o see_v he_o in_o good_a estate_n be_v for_o this_o reason_n grow_v as_o cheerful_a as_o may_v be_v imagine_v she_o break_v forth_o into_o this_o speech_n at_o last_o o_o word_n my_o prayer_n have_v obtain_v their_o end_n yet_o do_v not_o this_o qualify_v the_o burn_a fire_n of_o her_o great_a charity_n but_o do_v rather_o kindle_v it_o so_o much_o the_o more_o for_o not_o content_a with_o this_o she_o begin_v to_o pray_v our_o lord_n for_o the_o conversion_n of_o other_o priest_n who_o she_o see_v defile_v with_o diverse_a sin_n and_o this_o she_o urge_v by_o so_o devout_a reason_n as_o seem_v after_o a_o sort_n even_o to_o convince_v and_o oblige_v almighty_a god_n to_o infuse_v divine_a grace_n into_o those_o sinful_a soul_n whereby_o they_o may_v be_v illuminate_v for_o
more_o inflame_a â—owardes_n the_o purchase_n of_o virtue_n with_o â—hese_n profitable_a and_o laudable_a direction_n â—he_n go_v through_o her_o office_n in_o such_o sort_n â—hat_n she_o be_v account_v by_o all_o the_o religious_a to_o be_v the_o very_a rule_n itself_o of_o live_v well_o of_o the_o zeal_n which_o she_o have_v to_o god_n honour_n and_o the_o hatred_n which_o she_o bear_v to_o sin_n chap._n 55._o the_o zeal_n which_o she_o have_v of_o god_n honour_n be_v so_o ardent_a that_o as_o she_o often_o say_v she_o will_v be_v glad_a to_o give_v her_o life_n for_o it_o a_o thousand_o time_n in_o a_o day_n and_o she_o will_v often_o affirm_v with_o tear_n to_o i_o it_o seem_v a_o strange_a thing_n and_o for_o my_o part_n i_o can_v comprehend_v it_o how_o there_o shall_v be_v so_o few_o soul_n in_o the_o world_n note_n note_n which_o hold_v the_o honour_n of_o god_n in_o the_o true_a account_n of_o greatness_n that_o it_o deserve_v but_o especial_o consider_v how_o little_a diligence_n there_o be_v use_v in_o frequent_v the_o b._n sacrament_n of_o the_o altar_n she_o will_v be_v so_o oppress_v with_o sorrow_n anâ—_n pain_n as_o if_o with_o a_o sharp_a knife_n she_o haâ—_n be_v strike_v to_o the_o hart_n &_o she_o woulâ—_n often_o say_v well_o i_o be_o sure_a that_o one_o communion_n make_v with_o true_a spirit_n and_o feeling_n be_v apâ—_n to_o procure_v that_o a_o soul_n may_v come_v to_o great_a perfection_n of_o life_n at_o other_o time_n be_v full_a of_o these_o celestial_a thought_n she_o call_v somâ—_n one_o of_o the_o religious_a to_o she_o &_o say_v thus_o with_o sigh_n and_o tear_n let_v we_o pray_v unto_o our_o lord_n o_o my_o sister_n that_o he_o will_v grant_v uâ—_n light_n and_o that_o we_o may_v not_o be_v so_o frozen-cold_a in_o his_o service_n and_o especial_o in_o frequent_v that_o food_n of_o life_n which_o since_o it_o be_v all_o fire_n and_o love_n o_o let_v we_o even_o now_o constreyne_v jesus_n by_o our_o prayer_n to_o grant_v we_o ever_o in_o this_o place_n 〈◊〉_d pastor_n who_o may_v be_v zealous_a of_o god_n honour_n and_o who_o may_v have_v such_o light_n as_o wherewithal_o to_o admit_v we_o worthy_o to_o this_o celestial_a table_n she_o have_v moreover_o a_o most_o fervent_a zeal_n in_o say_v the_o divine_a office_n &_o when_o she_o go_v towards_o the_o choir_n she_o feel_v such_o joy_n of_o hart_n that_o she_o seem_v as_o one_o invite_v to_o a_o sumptuous_a banquet_n she_o endeavour_v always_o that_o those_o divine_a laudes_fw-la shall_v be_v say_v devout_o and_o when_o she_o hear_v any_o of_o the_o religious_a make_v a_o little_a more_o than_o ordinary_a haste_n she_o suffer_v much_o affliction_n thereby_o and_o she_o will_v often_o say_v to_o they_o that_o she_o have_v not_o the_o hart_n to_o post_v over_o the_o divine_a laudes_fw-la like_a to_o the_o other_o external_a exercise_n of_o the_o monastery_n note_v note_v offence_n make_v against_o god_n do_v â—o_o displease_v she_o and_o cause_v in_o she_o such_o grief_n that_o hear_v sometime_o but_o these_o word_n mortal_a sin_n she_o can_v hardly_o contain_v herself_o through_o the_o vehemency_n of_o her_o affliction_n from_o cry_v out_o with_o 〈◊〉_d loud_a voice_n give_v a_o evident_a sign_n of_o â—he_n offence_n which_o in_o her_o hart_n she_o feel_v be_v able_a as_o she_o be_v to_o penetrate_v the_o deformity_n of_o sin_n even_o to_o the_o quick_a so_o much_o she_o abhor_v it_o and_o such_o horror_n â—he_v have_v thereat_o that_o to_o she_o it_o will_v seem_v impossible_a to_o find_v a_o christian_a so_o wicked_a â—s_n deliberate_o to_o offend_v god_n and_o 15._o â—ayes_v before_o she_o depart_v this_o life_n i_o goeâ—sayd_v â—sayd_z she_o out_o of_o the_o world_n with_o this_o incapacity_n above_o all_o the_o rest_n that_o i_o can_v devise_v â—ow_o to_o understand_v by_o what_o mean_v a_o creature_n â—an_v be_v induce_v to_o consent_n and_o resolve_v to_o commit_v a_o mortal_a sin_n against_o the_o creator_n whereby_o it_o may_v be_v well_o see_v how_o much_o she_o be_v illuminate_v by_o god_n who_o have_v make_v she_o so_o zealous_a of_o his_o honour_n of_o her_o great_a humility_n chap._n 56._o this_o servant_n of_o god_n be_v moreover_o a_o bright_a example_n of_o perfect_a humility_n and_o she_o ever_o have_v herself_o in_o so_o base_a conceit_n that_o she_o think_v herself_o good_a for_o nothing_o and_o will_v often_o say_v thaâ—_n therefore_o it_o seem_v to_o she_o that_o her_o superior_a shall_v speak_v to_o she_o in_o this_o sort_n get_v you_o out_o of_o this_o holy_a place_n for_o you_o be_v nâ—â—_n worthy_a to_o remain_v in_o the_o company_n of_o thâ—_n spouse_n of_o christ_n therefore_o will_v she_o bâ—_n turn_v towards_o the_o prioress_n with_o such_o a_o tremble_a as_o if_o she_o have_v commit_v somâ—_n grievous_a fault_n sometym_v she_o will_v caâ—â—_n herself_o upon_o her_o knee_n at_o the_o foot_n of_o heâ—_n sister_n &_o beseech_v they_o that_o they_o will_v let_v she_o know_v her_o fault_n 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she_o do_v beat_v herself_o grievous_o for_o the_o space_n of_o a_o whole_a hour_n with_o a_o discipline_n of_o iron_n because_o it_o seem_v unto_o she_o that_o she_o have_v use_v negligence_n in_o perform_v the_o will_n of_o god_n of_o the_o fervent_a zeal_n she_o have_v towards_o religion_n observance_n chap._n 60._o she_o bear_v not_o less_o affection_n towards_o the_o observance_n of_o her_o rule_n &_o therefore_o when_o she_o see_v they_o neglect_v even_o in_o the_o least_o thing_n she_o present_o make_v it_o know_v to_o the_o superior_n without_o all_o humane_a respect_n &_o earnest_o pray_v the_o more_o venerable_a mother_n of_o the_o monastery_n that_o they_o will_v have_v vigilant_a care_n over_o all_o the_o rule_n of_o holy_a religion_n for_o say_v she_o by_o neglect_v the_o least_o point_n of_o the_o holy_a rule_n not_o only_o the_o order_n of_o religion_n be_v offend_v but_o even_o the_o apple_n of_o the_o eye_n of_o god_n this_o be_v the_o house_n of_o our_o lord_n and_o 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