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ashamed_a to_o be_v so_o much_o attach_v to_o worldly_a thing_n she_o be_v take_v with_o the_o excellency_n of_o this_o admirable_a way_n and_o begin_v to_o be_v mortify_v to_o herself_o and_o the_o world_n aspire_v after_o a_o profound_a oblivion_n and_o contempt_n of_o all_o creature_n and_o desire_v to_o be_v in_o privation_n the_o better_a to_o curb_v her_o sensual_a inclination_n and_o practice_n virtue_n thus_o the_o soul_n proceed_v in_o the_o purgative_a way_n of_o this_o supernatural_a life_n the_o soul_n thus_o purge_v advance_v to_o partake_v of_o the_o divine_a illumination_n of_o this_o life_n and_o become_v in_o a_o manner_n clear-sighted_a thereby_o her_o understanding_n receive_v many_o illustration_n and_o discovery_n of_o its_o excellency_n and_o grandeur_n she_o see_v the_o wonder_v couch_v in_o the_o mystery_n of_o jesus_n poor_a suffer_v and_o annihilate_v she_o perceive_v the_o eminency_n of_o those_o sanctify_a soul_n who_o have_v follow_v jesus_n in_o his_o humiliation_n she_o begin_v to_o apprehend_v that_o a_o soul_n which_o have_v no_o knowledge_n nor_o esteem_n of_o this_o life_n be_v bury_v in_o darkness_n she_o be_v amaze_v at_o the_o blindness_n of_o christian_n in_o be_v besot_v on_o empty_a vanity_n and_o last_o she_o perceive_v that_o there_o be_v enjoyment_n in_o suffering_n and_o that_o by_o cross_n and_o privation_n we_o come_v to_o union_n with_o god_n the_o soul_n thus_o illuminate_v enter_v into_o the_o unitive_a state_n of_o this_o life_n and_o tend_v to_o a_o continual_a union_n with_o god_n who_o she_o see_v present_a in_o her_o interiour_n nothing_o can_v hinder_v this_o union_n as_o long_o as_o the_o soul_n find_v enjoyment_n in_o suffering_n this_o proceed_n of_o grace_n in_o a_o soul_n be_v not_o extraordinary_a god_n behave_v himself_o in_o a_o soul_n as_o a_o king_n in_o a_o kingdom_n new_o conquer_v who_o kill_v and_o destroy_v all_o that_o oppose_v the_o establishment_n of_o his_o dominion_n notwithstanding_o the_o prince_n hereby_o seem_v to_o put_v all_o thing_n in_o disorder_n it_o be_v but_o to_o procure_v peace_n and_o to_o rule_v without_o disturbance_n by_o the_o conquest_n of_o his_o enemy_n god_n proceed_v in_o like_a manner_n as_o soon_o as_o he_o enter_v into_o a_o soul_n to_o set_v up_o his_o kingdom_n he_o make_v a_o havoc_n of_o all_o his_o enemy_n by_o penitential_a rigour_n to_o bring_v the_o soul_n whole_o to_o his_o obedience_n then_o he_o establish_v the_o maxim_n of_o his_o policy_n and_o convince_v the_o soul_n how_o good_a and_o just_a they_o be_v by_o the_o follow_a illustration_n first_o that_o the_o great_a treasure_n on_o earth_n be_v to_o have_v part_n of_o the_o poverty_n of_o jesus_n christ._n second_o that_o the_o great_a glory_n be_v to_o be_v partaker_n of_o his_o abjection_n three_o that_o the_o great_a joy_n be_v to_o suffer_v pain_n with_o he_o four_o that_o the_o life_n of_o christianity_n be_v to_o deny_v ourselves_o take_v up_o our_o cross_n and_o follow_v jesus_n that_o when_o we_o cease_v to_o die_v to_o ourselves_o and_o crucify_v our_o lust_n we_o leave_v off_o to_o be_v christian_n and_o die_v in_o a_o manner_n to_o christianity_n because_o we_o lose_v the_o spirit_n thereof_o five_o that_o there_o be_v nothing_o more_o amiable_a more_o precious_a and_o more_o honourable_a in_o the_o world_n than_o to_o imitate_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a seeino_o this_o state_n be_v most_o precious_a in_o the_o eye_n of_o god_n his_o father_n final_o the_o soul_n be_v persuade_v of_o these_o verity_n which_o be_v in_o a_o manner_n evident_a unto_o she_o though_o by_o the_o obscure_a light_n of_o faith_n have_v no_o love_n for_o any_o thing_n upon_o earth_n nor_o any_o pretension_n but_o those_o of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o these_o be_v only_o to_o suffer_v and_o be_v annihilate_v to_o perfect_a in_o his_o person_n the_o design_n of_o his_o eternal_a father_n by_o die_v on_o the_o cross_n then_o she_o absolute_o forsake_v herself_o to_o give_v herself_o up_o whole_o to_o the_o maxim_n and_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n unite_n and_o conform_v herself_o as_o much_o as_o may_v be_v to_o his_o state_n and_o her_o thought_n be_v far_o different_a from_o other_o sentiment_n and_o this_o be_v not_o to_o be_v wonder_v at_o see_v st._n peter_n say_v of_o christian_n that_o they_o be_v gens_n sancta_fw-la genus_fw-la electum_fw-la regale_n sacerdotium_fw-la a_o holy_a nation_n a_o choose_a people_n a_o royal_a priesthood_n to_o offer_v to_o god_n sacrifice_n of_o good_a odour_n which_o be_v by_o crucify_a themselves_o with_o jesus_n christ_n who_o be_v a_o continual_a sacrifice_n o_o the_o sublime_a state_n of_o a_o soul_n in_o this_o supreme_a degree_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n alas_o the_o sentiment_n of_o nature_n do_v too_o much_o take_v up_o our_o heart_n so_o that_o those_o of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n have_v little_a or_o no_o place_n in_o they_o what_o a_o misery_n be_v this_o chap._n viii_o the_o practice_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n we_o without_o cause_n esteem_v ourselves_o spiritual_a if_o we_o march_v not_o straight_o without_o reserve_n by_o the_o way_n of_o jesus_n christ_n or_o pretend_v to_o any_o thing_n on_o earth_n then_o to_o be_v conformable_a to_o he_o this_o do_v not_o consist_v in_o sole_a speculation_n for_o we_o can_v never_o do_v it_o better_o than_o when_o the_o occasion_n of_o abjection_n and_o contempt_n present_v themselves_o to_o embrace_v they_o hearty_o as_o the_o most_o necessary_a mean_n to_o make_v we_o conformable_a to_o jesus_n christ_n god_n the_o father_n can_v praedestinate_v we_o to_o be_v conform_v to_o the_o image_n of_o his_o son_n but_o he_o must_v prepare_v for_o we_o from_o all_o eternity_n many_o occasion_n of_o contempt_n and_o abjection_n which_o time_n bring_v forth_o our_o fidelity_n lie_v in_o comply_v with_o these_o occasion_n to_o follow_v jesus_n without_o reserve_n by_o his_o light_n and_o power_n i_o will_v tell_v you_o how_o it_o must_v be_v do_v we_o ought_v before_o all_o thing_n to_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o jesus_n abject_a and_o despise_a repose_v ourselves_o in_o his_o bosom_n abide_v there_o with_o delight_n and_o then_o make_v upon_o ourselves_o some_o short_a and_o sharp_a reflection_n reflection_n that_o may_v form_v in_o we_o the_o image_n of_o jesus_n christ_n without_o any_o great_a trouble_n to_o ourselves_o these_o when_o do_v to_o the_o purpose_n be_v as_o so_o many_o powerful_a thunderbolt_n to_o beat_v down_o our_o natural_a inclination_n and_o destroy_v the_o maxim_n of_o human_a prudence_n according_a to_o which_o we_o common_o square_v our_o action_n such_o reflection_n breath_n into_o we_o a_o supernatural_a wisdom_n which_o give_v we_o a_o relish_n of_o the_o proceed_n of_o jesus_n christ_n crucify_v so_o little_o know_v by_o worldly_a man_n but_o perhaps_o it_o will_v be_v better_a to_o regard_v nothing_o but_o the_o infinite_a beauty_n of_o jesus_n in_o the_o state_n of_o his_o abjection_n without_o make_v any_o reflection_n on_o ourselves_o or_o busy_v ourselves_o with_o our_o own_o misery_n consider_v only_o the_o example_n of_o jesus_n expose_v to_o our_o view_n and_o the_o power_n we_o receive_v from_o his_o grace_n to_o follow_v he_o it_o be_v enough_o if_o he_o vouchsafe_v to_o cast_v a_o glance_n of_o his_o divine_a ray_n on_o our_o natural_a repugnance_n to_o quell_v and_o conquer_v they_o o_o my_o jesus_n i_o will_v regard_v you_o in_o your_o humiliation_n and_o then_o you_o will_v look_v propitious_o upon_o i_o and_o that_o be_v sufficient_a o_o jesus_n annihilate_v in_o your_o suffering_n make_v i_o as_o it_o be_v lose_v in_o myself_o by_o suffer_v with_o you_o that_o i_o may_v be_v absorb_v in_o you_o and_o by_o you_o in_o god_n shall_v the_o man_n of_o this_o world_n be_v more_o provident_a than_o the_o child_n of_o light_n what_o shall_v they_o have_v a_o care_n of_o their_o affair_n and_o i_o neglect_v my_o business_n i_o will_v enrich_v myself_o as_o well_o as_o they_o with_o my_o own_o ruin_n and_o from_o my_o humiliation_n i_o will_v draw_v great_a aid_n and_o succour_n to_o follow_v jesus_n for_o my_o resolution_n be_v to_o march_v after_o he_o absolute_o without_o reserve_n to_o do_v any_o great_a matter_n in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o world_n we_o must_v have_v much_o wealth_n many_o friend_n and_o good_a success_n to_o do_v great_a matter_n in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n it_o will_v suffice_v to_o be_v poor_a and_o despicable_a to_o have_v enemy_n and_o ill_a success_n for_o the_o more_o a_o soul_n suffer_v the_o more_o she_o do_v great_a matter_n in_o god_n service_n the_o more_o she_o be_v deprive_v of_o the_o creature_n the_o more_o be_v she_o enrich_v with_o the_o creator_n therefore_o she_o must_v work_v as_o hard_o for_o poverty_n of_o spirit_n and_o self-denial_n as_o worldly_a man_n do_v labour_n to_o enrich_v themselves_o
according_a to_o nature_n and_o must_v employ_v all_o mean_n and_o motive_n to_o this_o effect_n i_o will_v set_v down_o some_o of_o they_o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n or_o mean_n to_o renounce_v all_o creature_n and_o ourselves_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o denudation_n say_v with_o great_a fervour_n and_o affection_n away_o creature_n get_v hence_o from_o i_o and_o leave_v a_o place_n in_o my_o heart_n for_o god_n alone_o 2._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o do_v this_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o poverty_n for_o it_o be_v not_o possible_a to_o follow_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a unless_o in_o due_a circumstance_n we_o be_v willing_a to_o leave_v all_o thing_n for_o jesus_n sake_n and_o become_v poor_a to_o follow_v he_o let_v we_o therefore_o be_v content_a to_o quit_v all_o thing_n joyful_o and_o be_v glad_a to_o have_v nothing_o to_o possess_v god_n himself_o alone_o 3._o '_o tisae_n good_a motive_n to_o die_v to_o all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o abjection_n what_o great_a happiness_n be_v there_o o_o my_o soul_n than_o to_o live_v in_o humiliation_n see_v this_o be_v the_o life_n of_o god_n upon_o earth_n to_o be_v despise_v with_o jesus_n be_v a_o state_n of_o beatitude_n worldly_n prosperity_n be_v a_o hindrance_n to_o our_o happiness_n 4._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o abandon_v all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o oblation_n sacrifice_v and_o annihilate_v ourselves_o sincere_o to_o pay_v homage_n to_o the_o infinite_a majesty_n of_o god_n with_o such_o a_o confidence_n in_o he_o so_o as_o to_o rely_v never_o more_o on_o any_o creature_n quid_fw-la enim_fw-la mihi_fw-la est_fw-la in_o caelum_fw-la aut_fw-la à _fw-la te_fw-la quid_fw-la volui_fw-la super_fw-la terram_fw-la deus_fw-la cordis_fw-la mei_fw-la o_o my_o god_n shall_v any_o creature_n take_v part_n of_o my_o heart_n with_o you_o when_o all_o be_v you_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a to_o love_v you_o too_o much_o i_o may_v give_v place_n to_o something_o else_o but_o see_v i_o be_o infinite_o below_o my_o duty_n in_o that_o particular_a what_o creature_n can_v pretend_v to_o have_v the_o least_o part_n with_o you_o chap._n ix_o of_o the_o liberty_n we_o enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n it_o be_v wonderful_a to_o see_v the_o great_a liberty_n which_o a_o soul_n enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n when_o the_o illumination_n of_o this_o state_n irradiate_a a_o soul_n thorough_o she_o enter_v into_o a_o new_a region_n of_o light_n full_a of_o peace_n and_o love_n marvellous_a large_a and_o spacious_a in_o which_o she_o live_v in_o high_a union_n with_o god_n a_o union_n which_o be_v not_o so_o liable_a to_o vicissitude_n and_o disturbance_n as_o former_o because_o accidental_a occurrence_n as_o sickness_n disgrace_n etc._n etc._n do_v not_o hurt_v such_o a_o soul_n by_o reason_n they_o make_v no_o strong_a impression_n in_o she_o and_o by_o consequence_n be_v become_v less_o sensible_a she_o be_v not_o easy_o divert_v from_o the_o supernatural_a object_n of_o her_o love_n yea_o such_o a_o soul_n improve_v hindrance_n and_o divertisement_n to_o her_o great_a recollection_n and_o increase_n of_o divine_a love_n because_o in_o this_o state_n she_o be_v disengaged_a from_o the_o creature_n and_o so_o free_v from_o fear_n of_o misery_n which_o she_o can_v cheerful_o embrace_v as_o the_o occasion_n of_o her_o happiness_n whereby_o she_o enter_v into_o a_o perfect_a liberty_n and_o great_a purity_n of_o virtue_n i_o can_v never_o well_o understand_v what_o that_o be_v which_o be_v call_v purity_n of_o virtue_n but_o now_o i_o see_v it_o be_v the_o state_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n wherein_o the_o soul_n live_v no_o more_o in_o herself_o and_o of_o herself_o and_o for_o herself_o but_o in_o god_n and_o of_o god_n and_o for_o god_n be_v whole_o separate_v from_o the_o creature_n and_o unite_v to_o god_n alas_o how_o be_v this_o poor_a soul_n afflict_v to_o do_v thing_n so_o much_o below_o herself_o in_o this_o high_a condition_n for_o oftentimes_o she_o must_v act_v according_a to_o her_o natural_a inclination_n and_o the_o dictate_v of_o pure_a reason_n which_o afford_v her_o matter_n of_o sigh_n and_o languish_n after_o her_o belove_a this_o be_v that_o which_o kindle_v in_o her_o breast_n a_o ardent_a desire_n to_o be_v dissolve_v and_o leave_v this_o earthly_a tabernacle_n wherein_o by_o the_o common_a misery_n of_o mankind_n she_o live_v a_o life_n displease_v to_o herself_o for_o be_v not_o whole_o for_o god_n as_o she_o desire_v it_o seem_v to_o her_o a_o kind_n of_o death_n and_o see_v she_o can_v continual_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n without_o vicissitude_n it_o be_v as_o it_o be_v a_o death_n unto_o she_o a_o death_n unknown_a to_o sensual_a man_n but_o such_o that_o be_v spiritual_a be_v very_o sensible_a thereof_o o_o jesus_n deliver_v i_o from_o this_o life_n of_o mortality_n see_v here_o i_o can_v live_v your_o life_n of_o purity_n in_o comparison_n of_o which_o all_o other_o life_n be_v but_o death_n and_o corruption_n to_o see_v so_o clear_o the_o excellency_n of_o a_o life_n so_o lovely_a and_o not_o to_o be_v able_a to_o live_v but_o little_a of_o it_o consider_v my_o frailty_n make_v i_o resent_v my_o misery_n and_o acknowledge_v dear_a jesus_n how_o necessary_a your_o grace_n be_v for_o i_o o_o how_o great_a be_v the_o dependence_n which_o my_o soul_n have_v on_o your_o mercy_n it_o be_v so_o mighty_a and_o essential_a dependence_n that_o word_n can_v sufficient_o express_v it_o however_o this_o comfort_v i_o herein_o that_o it_o give_v you_o all_o the_o glory_n of_o the_o interiour_n beauty_n in_o the_o soul_n which_o be_v a_o work_n more_o magnify_v your_o power_n bounty_n and_o wisdom_n than_o the_o whole_a outward_a work_n of_o the_o creation_n your_o great_a wonder_n dear_a saviour_n be_v secret_a and_o hide_a a_o soul_n that_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n above_o her_o inclination_n do_v more_o 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crucify_a life_n be_v in_o a_o manner_n the_o end_n of_o the_o mystic_a life_n who_o gust_n and_o light_n conduce_v to_o fortify_v the_o soul_n to_o carry_v she_o across_o the_o better_a st._n teresa_n say_v that_o it_o be_v a_o good_a sign_n after_o a_o soul_n have_v be_v in_o a_o ecstasy_n if_o she_o find_v in_o herself_o extraordinary_a desire_n to_o suffer_v in_o that_o she_o can_v return_v from_o those_o holy_a communication_n with_o god_n but_o well_o instruct_v for_o the_o perfection_n of_o love_n here_o consist_v in_o suffer_v for_o the_o love_n of_o jesus_n and_o not_o enjoy_v he_o let_v we_o not_o complain_v then_o if_o we_o be_v not_o elevate_v by_o mystic_a union_n but_o rather_o rejoice_v too_o see_v our_o poor_a soul_n in_o prayer_n among_o the_o thorn_n of_o dryness_n and_o aridity_n than_o the_o rose_n of_o a_o sweet_a and_o gustful_a devotion_n interiour_n as_o well_o as_o exterior_a suffering_n must_v be_v please_v to_o we_o see_v a_o true_a christian_n ought_v to_o glory_n in_o nothing_o but_o the_o cross_n of_o christ_n but_o that_o do_v extend_v itself_o as_o well_o to_o his_o soul_n as_o body_n for_o his_o divine_a soul_n be_v deprive_v of_o sensible_a succour_n in_o this_o dereliction_n on_o the_o cross_n and_o we_o must_v love_v to_o be_v conform_v to_o he_o and_o rest_v content_a happy_a be_v those_o soul_n that_o love_v suffering_n rather_o than_o enjoyment_n and_o complain_v of_o nothing_o soon_o than_o not_o to_o suffer_v a_o soul_n which_o receive_v no_o great_a light_n from_o god_n in_o prayer_n but_o be_v leave_v in_o darkness_n and_o interiour_n suffering_n carry_v in_o reality_n a_o heavy_a cross_n but_o a_o soul_n illuminate_v in_o prayer_n by_o illustration_n from_o heaven_n endure_v another_o cross_n more_o intime_fw-la and_o burdensome_a for_o this_o light_n discover_v to_o her_o the_o great_a merit_n of_o pure_a suffer_v it_o be_v a_o pain_n to_o she_o not_o to_o suffer_v and_o so_o she_o remain_v without_o all_o sort_n of_o consolation_n see_v the_o state_n of_o light_n and_o sweetness_n appear_v to_o she_o not_o preferable_a to_o that_o of_o obscurity_n and_o so_o taste_v of_o those_o sweet_n they_o be_v not_o now_o so_o pleasant_a have_v discover_v that_o the_o bitterness_n of_o aridity_n be_v more_o acceptable_a to_o a_o soul_n that_o desire_v nothing_o but_o the_o pure_a love_n of_o jesus_n christ_n crucify_a and_o that_o thereby_o may_v be_v more_o firm_o unite_v to_o her_o saviour_n when_o i_o be_o in_o darkness_n and_o aridity_n i_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o a_o indifferency_n in_o every_o state_n that_o i_o may_v bear_v with_o patience_n my_o abjection_n and_o poverty_n i_o have_v more_o need_n of_o indifferency_n when_o my_o soul_n be_v enlighten_v which_o irradiation_n god_n vouchsafe_v we_o to_o strengthen_v our_o weakness_n and_o not_o as_o i_o have_v think_v heretofore_o to_o advance_v we_o in_o the_o practice_n of_o divine_a love_n which_o be_v more_o eminent_a in_o the_o contrary_a condition_n i_o have_v stand_v in_o need_n of_o comfort_n in_o my_o suffering_n and_o i_o have_v stand_v more_o in_o need_n of_o it_o in_o a_o state_n of_o joy_n and_o sweetness_n i_o say_v heretofore_o when_o i_o abound_v with_o consolation_n that_o i_o shall_v never_o suffer_v again_o at_o present_a i_o think_v i_o shall_v suffer_v as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v see_v i_o find_v cross_n in_o every_o state_n and_o i_o frame_v myself_o to_o a_o indifferency_n to_o god_n will_v and_o pleasure_n in_o his_o deal_n with_o i_o heretofore_o inebriate_v with_o consolation_n i_o say_v fulcite_fw-la i_o floribus_fw-la stipate_v i_o malis_fw-la quia_fw-la amore_fw-la langueo_fw-la surround_v i_o with_o flower_n and_o apple_n to_o augment_v my_o comfort_n and_o increase_v my_o love_n but_o now_o i_o say_v surround_v i_o with_o cross_n contempt_n and_o suffering_n for_o languish_v with_o love_n i_o desire_v to_o love_n jesus_n better_a than_o ever_o it_o be_v a_o wonderful_a thing_n that_o i_o shall_v be_v more_o poor_a now_o then_o when_o i_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o consolation_n i_o will_v not_o then_o too_o greedy_o seek_v after_o light_n and_o sweetness_n see_v methinks_v they_o make_v i_o poor_a i_o stand_v amaze_v to_o see_v a_o soul_n to_o find_v herself_o desolate_a by_o consolation_n in_o desolation_n the_o inferior_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n suffer_v but_o in_o consolation_n the_o superior_a part_n and_o more_o elevate_v but_o little_o know_v i_o perceive_v that_o the_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n can_v be_v content_a and_o comfort_v but_o by_o the_o death_n of_o the_o sensual_a part_n and_o a_o separation_n from_o all_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o the_o creature_n i_o shall_v therefore_o rather_o desire_v a_o state_n of_o desolation_n and_o fidelity_n therein_o than_o all_o the_o delicious_a gust_n of_o prayer_n though_o so_o elevate_v as_o to_o bring_v the_o soul_n to_o ravish_a ecstasy_n chap._n ii_o of_o the_o different_a sort_n of_o mental_a prayer_n i_o find_v a_o comparison_n which_o explicate_v very_o well_o the_o difference_n of_o ordinary_a prayer_n and_o prayer_n passive_n a_o man_n may_v see_v well_o enough_o the_o furniture_n of_o a_o chamber_n and_o the_o riches_n of_o a_o cabinet_n by_o strike_v fire_n and_o light_v a_o candle_n to_o view_v the_o particular_n or_o by_o the_o light_n of_o the_o sun_n when_o we_o have_v nothing_o to_o do_v but_o to_o open_v our_o eye_n to_o behold_v those_o object_n meditation_n much_o resemble_v the_o first_o way_n of_o see_v with_o a_o candle_n perfect_a contemplation_n the_o second_o way_n of_o see_v by_o the_o sun_n because_o it_o be_v do_v not_o only_o without_o labour_n but_o all_o at_o once_o and_o with_o delight_n when_o the_o light_n of_o the_o sun_n fail_v we_o we_o must_v supply_v it_o with_o a_o lamp_n or_o candle_n when_o god_n do_v not_o communicate_v himself_o by_o contemplation_n we_o must_v seek_v after_o he_o by_o meditation_n and_o be_v content_a with_o god_n gift_n whatever_o they_o be_v with_o peace_n and_o humility_n when_o god_n withdraw_v his_o passive_a light_n it_o be_v in_o vain_a to_o strive_v to_o retain_v it_o we_o must_v acquiess_v in_o his_o pleasure_n till_o it_o return_v again_o as_o he_o think_v good_a if_o god_n please_v to_o leave_v we_o in_o darkness_n without_o sun_n or_o candle_n it_o be_v a_o opportunity_n to_o practice_n humility_n and_o patience_n for_o we_o must_v desire_v nothing_o but_o god_n alone_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n he_o think_v best_o let_v a_o soul_n be_v never_o so_o perfect_a she_o be_v never_o continual_o elevate_v to_o a_o high_a degree_n of_o contemplation_n but_o more_o or_o less_o as_o it_o please_v god_n she_o must_v descend_v to_o the_o practice_n of_o virtue_n and_o exercise_n of_o charity_n or_o to_o discursive_a meditation_n by_o application_n to_o god_n in_o the_o
little_a or_o no_o service_n but_o i_o rest_v content_v herein_o see_v god_n hereby_o do_v magnify_v his_o goodness_n and_o mercy_n to_o i_o i_o doubt_v not_o but_o there_o be_v many_o soul_n in_o heaven_n who_o have_v in_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o world_n do_v little_a service_n for_o god_n as_o solitare_v in_o the_o desert_n and_o many_o person_n without_o talent_n and_o yet_o have_v high_a place_n in_o the_o mansion_n of_o eternity_n they_o spend_v all_o their_o time_n to_o purify_v their_o interiour_n by_o be_v faithful_a to_o the_o grace_n they_o have_v receive_v from_o the_o infinite_a bounty_n of_o god_n and_o the_o service_n they_o render_v he_o to_o the_o glory_n of_o his_o name_n be_v only_o write_v in_o his_o omniscience_n but_o will_v be_v lay_v open_a to_o the_o world_n at_o the_o great_a day_n of_o manifestation_n chap._n v._o of_o the_o impediment_n of_o prayer_n i_o clear_o see_v and_o know_v by_o experience_n that_o the_o temporal_a affair_n of_o our_o oeconomy_n do_v not_o a_o little_a take_v we_o off_o from_o god_n we_o do_v ill_o in_o it_o yea_o it_o be_v our_o obligation_n it_o be_v please_v to_o god_n to_o manage_v our_o temporal_n with_o a_o good_a intention_n though_o it_o will_v be_v better_o if_o we_o can_v to_o lay_v aside_o these_o worldly_a distraction_n to_o spend_v our_o time_n only_o in_o god_n service_n and_o those_o who_o have_v a_o call_v from_o god_n to_o attend_v on_o he_o alone_o in_o a_o state_n of_o prayer_n and_o contemplation_n can_v without_o be_v unfaithful_a to_o his_o grace_n continue_v in_o the_o solicitous_a distraction_n of_o worldly_a affair_n i_o must_v needs_o say_v that_o worldly_a business_n darken_v and_o hinder_v my_o soul_n in_o her_o spiritual_a exercise_n and_o i_o will_v never_o spend_v time_n therein_o upon_o humane_a consideration_n but_o pure_o because_o god_n have_v so_o order_v it_o however_o it_o must_v be_v our_o care_n not_o to_o spend_v more_o time_n therein_o than_o necessity_n require_v too_o delicate_a diet_n though_o it_o may_v strengthen_v nature_n yet_o it_o weaken_v grace_n when_o the_o body_n be_v bring_v down_o by_o abstinence_n the_o soul_n be_v more_o vigorous_a in_o her_o elevation_n to_o god_n i_o find_v this_o true_a in_o i_o by_o experience_n a_o soul_n must_v be_v very_o well_o ground_v in_o grace_n that_o among_o temporal_a employment_n and_o worldly_a care_n can_v keep_v herself_o up_o in_o fervour_n and_o purity_n she_o meet_v with_o a_o thousand_o occasion_n to_o move_v she_o to_o anger_n impatience_n sadness_n and_o vain_a joy_n and_o though_o she_o do_v not_o give_v way_n to_o they_o yet_o she_o be_v sensible_a of_o they_o and_o this_o must_v needs_o more_o or_o less_o disturb_v she_o interiour_n peace_n whereby_o she_o be_v unite_v to_o god_n her_o happiness_n a_o little_a thing_n will_v hinder_v a_o soul_n from_o raise_v herself_o to_o contemplation_n and_o a_o less_o matter_n will_v somewhat_o darken_v she_o when_o elevate_v because_o the_o least_o emotion_n of_o spirit_n will_v indispose_v she_o to_o receive_v divine_a impression_n therefore_o a_o man_n of_o prayer_n must_v be_v a_o man_n dead_a and_o mortify_v for_o that_o be_v not_o pure_a prayer_n which_o do_v not_o work_v in_o we_o a_o victory_n over_o our_o passion_n and_o vicious_a inclination_n and_o bring_v we_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o all_o christian_a virtue_n i_o see_v now_o more_o clear_o than_o ever_o that_o the_o spirit_n of_o prayer_n do_v not_o persevere_v and_o gather_v strength_n but_o in_o those_o who_o be_v dead_a to_o sensuality_n austere_a to_o themselves_o penitent_a and_o disengage_v from_o whatsoever_o be_v not_o god_n it_o be_v true_a as_o for_o corporal_a austerity_n a_o tender_a complexion_n must_v follow_v the_o council_n of_o a_o director_n but_o common_o we_o be_v too_o indulgent_a to_o ourselves_o and_o far_o from_o the_o practice_n of_o great_a penitent_n who_o be_v very_o severe_a to_o themselves_o and_o also_o great_a contemplative_n we_o deceive_v ourselves_o if_o we_o think_v to_o enter_v into_o a_o state_n of_o prayer_n and_o take_v delight_n in_o worldly_a thing_n though_o in_o rigour_n this_o may_v in_o some_o sort_n be_v permit_v to_o candidate_n of_o devotion_n yet_o not_o to_o proficient_n in_o who_o the_o spirit_n of_o prayer_n and_o conformity_n to_o jesus_n christ_n crucify_a aught_o to_o be_v whole_o predominant_a for_o it_o be_v our_o duty_n to_o live_v conformable_o to_o that_o state_n where_o god_n have_v put_v we_o gerson_n say_v very_o well_o if_o we_o refuse_v exterior_a consolation_n we_o shall_v receive_v interiour_n the_o reason_n hereof_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o be_v this_o because_o interiour_n consolation_n participate_v of_o the_o purity_n of_o their_o source_n which_o be_v the_o union_n of_o god_n with_o the_o soul_n and_o will_v not_o permit_v any_o mixture_n with_o impurity_n and_o imperfection_n for_o sensual_a joy_n and_o consolation_n be_v earthly_a impure_a and_o imperfect_a and_o consequent_o be_v contrary_a to_o the_o spirit_n of_o grace_n which_o make_v the_o soul_n pure_a and_o penitent_a and_o mortify_v to_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n moreover_o interiour_n consolation_n be_v slender_a participation_n of_o those_o infinite_a delight_n which_o god_n have_v in_o himself_o of_o himself_o and_o he_o be_v jealous_a of_o such_o favour_n not_o communicate_v they_o but_o to_o a_o soul_n entire_o belove_v that_o take_v no_o delight_n but_o in_o he_o alone_o but_o when_o earthly_a consolation_n enter_v into_o a_o soul_n they_o draw_v she_o partly_o from_o god_n and_o so_o god_n withdraw_v his_o favour_n from_o she_o for_o this_o reason_n the_o saint_n who_o will_v be_v whole_o for_o god_n mortify_v themselves_o without_o reserve_n as_o much_o as_o humane_a weakness_n will_v permit_v that_o no_o sensual_a or_o worldly_a pleasure_n may_v have_v any_o part_n in_o their_o affection_n but_o god_n alone_o take_v courage_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o embrace_v the_o cross_n and_o follow_v jesus_n christ_n who_o will_v conduct_v we_o through_o the_o garden_n of_o his_o delight_n let_v we_o not_o trouble_v ourselves_o with_o worldly_a affair_n unless_o we_o know_v it_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n for_o otherwise_o we_o shall_v find_v affliction_n of_o spirit_n and_o decay_v in_o spirituality_n thrice_o happy_a be_v he_o who_o shun_v multiplicity_n for_o this_o will_v dispose_v he_o to_o pure_a love_n many_o thing_n seem_v to_o we_o necessary_a which_o serve_v but_o to_o entertain_v the_o corruption_n of_o nature_n still_o work_v in_o we_o if_o god_n shall_v severe_o examine_v all_o our_o action_n perhaps_o he_o will_v hardly_o find_v one_o in_o all_o respect_n well_o please_v to_o he_o we_o too_o much_o follow_v nature_n and_o our_o humane_a inclination_n if_o grace_n set_v we_o a_o work_n we_o hardly_o go_v through_o with_o it_o but_o nature_n creep_v in_o some_o way_n or_o other_o to_o sully_v our_o action_n what_o be_v pure_o natural_a can_v be_v meritorious_a all_o merit_n proceed_v from_o a_o principle_n of_o grace_n and_o therefore_o no_o action_n but_o what_o have_v a_o influence_n from_o grace_n can_v dispose_v we_o to_o a_o union_n with_o god_n o_o how_o rare_a a_o thing_n be_v pure_a virtue_n that_o which_o seem_v best_a be_v not_o for_o the_o most_o part_n without_o some_o blemish_n those_o who_o have_v illustration_n from_o heaven_n discover_v these_o impurity_n other_o in_o the_o dark_a see_v nothing_o but_o grosser_n fault_n and_o imperfection_n from_o all_o this_o we_o may_v conclude_v that_o there_o be_v principal_o four_o great_a obstacle_n which_o hinder_v for_o the_o most_o part_n the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n 1._o to_o engage_v ourselves_o in_o worldly_a affair_n more_o than_o the_o order_n of_o god_n require_v 2._o to_o be_v too_o delicate_a and_o use_v very_o little_a corporal_a austerity_n 3._o to_o practise_v little_a either_o interiour_n or_o exterior_a retreat_n and_o to_o have_v no_o love_n for_o recollection_n and_o for_o solitude_n 4._o want_v of_o zeal_n and_o courage_n in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n and_o so_o live_v a_o life_n mere_o humane_a by_o follow_v our_o naetural_a inclination_n but_o he_o shall_v never_o be_v a_o man_n of_o prayer_n who_o do_v not_o live_v a_o supernatural_a life_n and_o practise_v all_o christian_a virtue_n with_o a_o faithful_a and_o generou_n resolution_n and_o bless_a be_v he_o who_o by_o his_o constancy_n in_o spiritual_a exercise_n have_v bring_v his_o soul_n to_o such_o a_o temper_n that_o it_o be_v in_o a_o manner_n as_o easy_a for_o he_o to_o pray_v as_o breath_n hic_fw-la accipiet_fw-la benedictionem_fw-la à _fw-la domino_fw-la &_o misericordiam_fw-la à _fw-la deo_fw-la salutari_fw-la svo_fw-la quia_fw-la haec_fw-la est_fw-la generatio_fw-la quaerentium_fw-la dominum_fw-la he_o that_o thus_o seek_v god_n while_o he_o may_v be_v find_v shall_v enjoy_v he_o there_o where_o he_o can_v never_o be_v lose_v chap._n
vi_o of_o the_o mean_n that_o facilitate_v the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n whosoever_o be_v resolve_v to_o undertake_v the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n must_v expect_v to_o suffer_v all_o sort_n of_o temptation_n from_o satan_n who_o above_o all_o other_o hate_v the_o pray_v nation_n and_o no_o less_o from_o nature_n which_o have_v strange_a repugnance_n to_o so_o crucify_a a_o life_n and_o such_o exercise_n as_o elevate_v she_o above_o all_o her_o natural_a inclination_n and_o also_o from_o the_o world_n which_o do_v not_o relish_v at_o all_o so_o much_o solitude_n and_o mortification_n but_o we_o can_v be_v true_a servant_n of_o jesus_n christ_n crucify_a without_o take_v up_o our_o cross_n to_o follow_v he_o a_o poor_a abject_a despise_a suffer_v life_n content_v with_o pure_a necessity_n for_o food_n and_o clothing_n be_v a_o good_a disposition_n to_o prayer_n it_o will_v very_o much_o dispose_v we_o to_o this_o holy_a exercise_n to_o keep_v ourselves_o in_o a_o conformity_n to_o the_o state_n of_o the_o suffer_a life_n of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o in_o the_o practice_n of_o pure_a virtue_n on_o all_o occasion_n to_o esteem_v the_o sacred_a folly_n of_o the_o cross_a the_o great_a wisdom_n and_o correspond_v to_o the_o inspiration_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n against_o all_o opposition_n whatsoever_o that_o thwart_a the_o design_n of_o god_n and_o hinder_v the_o operation_n of_o his_o grace_n in_o we_o it_o be_v a_o great_a help_n to_o prayer_n to_o make_v it_o our_o sole_a and_o only_a business_n and_o doubtless_o of_o high_a concern_v see_v it_o be_v to_o do_v that_o on_o earth_n which_o the_o saint_n do_v in_o heaven_n to_o contemplate_v and_o love_v the_o beauty_n of_o god_n however_o if_o we_o have_v other_o affair_n at_o least_o we_o must_v make_v this_o the_o principal_a to_o which_o the_o rest_n ought_v to_o give_v place_n and_o not_o as_o alas_o too_o many_o do_v regulate_v our_o devotion_n by_o our_o secular_a affair_n why_o shall_v we_o overcharge_v ourselves_o with_o employment_n by_o offer_v our_o service_n to_o other_o on_o the_o pretence_n of_o charity_n martha_n who_o be_v very_o busy_a about_o the_o corporal_a service_n of_o jesus_n christ_n be_v reprove_v for_o trouble_v herself_o with_o so_o many_o distract_n office_n and_o her_o sister_n commend_v for_o attend_v to_o the_o only_a thing_n necessary_a the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o contemplation_n it_o be_v a_o good_a help_n to_o prayer_n not_o to_o engage_v ourselves_o in_o worldly_a concern_v nor_o in_o give_v or_o receive_v visit_n without_o necessity_n such_o as_o the_o oblation_n of_o charity_n or_o of_o our_o place_n and_o condition_n require_v of_o we_o if_o we_o be_v free_a to_o shun_v all_o entertainment_n that_o be_v dangerous_a or_o unprofitable_a and_o choose_v to_o converse_v with_o such_o who_o common_o discourse_v about_o the_o one_o thing_n necessary_a which_o consist_v in_o the_o service_n of_o god_n and_o the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n but_o all_o this_o must_v be_v so_o do_v as_o our_o discretion_n may_v not_o be_v call_v in_o question_n nor_o charity_n wound_v it_o be_v a_o important_a help_n to_o prayer_n to_o stand_v always_o upon_o our_o guard_n in_o the_o time_n of_o sickness_n or_o indisposition_n of_o health_n so_o as_o not_o whole_o to_o leave_v off_o our_o usual_a exercise_n of_o devotion_n under_o pretence_n to_o cherish_v the_o body_n we_o common_o yield_v too_o much_o to_o nature_n and_o so_o sometime_o in_o a_o short_a sickness_n we_o lose_v long_a habit_n of_o mortification_n which_o cost_v we_o dear_a in_o their_o acquisition_n prayer_n be_v not_o to_o be_v lay_v aside_o at_o such_o a_o time_n but_o we_o must_v endeavour_v to_o keep_v up_o our_o union_n with_o god_n by_o interiour_n act_n of_o virtue_n which_o require_v no_o strength_n of_o body_n nor_o gust_n of_o devotion_n but_o agree_v well_o enough_o with_o a_o state_n of_o trouble_n and_o dereliction_n it_o be_v asleep_o very_o profitable_a help_n to_o prayer_n to_o accustom_v ourselves_o to_o do_v nothing_o of_o concern_v without_o a_o motion_n from_o god_n the_o holy_a spirit_n be_v in_o we_o to_o conduct_v we_o and_o we_o may_v safe_o follow_v such_o a_o leader_n this_o keep_v the_o soul_n in_o great_a purity_n which_o know_v the_o inspiration_n of_o grace_n by_o the_o internal_a peace_n sweetness_n and_o liberty_n that_o always_o more_o or_o less_o attend_v they_o and_o if_o she_o quit_v they_o to_o follow_v nature_n the_o secret_a sting_n of_o conscience_n tell_v she_o she_o have_v be_v unfaithful_a to_o god_n grace_n and_o retard_v her_o progress_n towards_o perfection_n it_o be_v a_o very_a necessary_a help_n to_o prayer_n for_o a_o soul_n to_o get_v a_o habit_n of_o be_v so_o dead_a to_o the_o world_n as_o to_o live_v only_o to_o god_n and_o in_o god_n her_o only_a centre_n and_o true_a repose_n this_o be_v the_o end_n of_o our_o creation_n and_o if_o she_o deviate_v therefrom_o to_o take_v a_o complacency_n in_o herself_o or_o any_o creature_n she_o fall_v short_a of_o the_o design_n of_o god_n i_o know_v well_o enough_o that_o in_o the_o begin_n of_o a_o spiritual_a life_n it_o be_v very_o hard_a to_o bring_v our_o mind_n off_o from_o think_v on_o vain_a and_o worldly_a matter_n and_o to_o habituate_v the_o soul_n to_o strive_v against_o imperfection_n and_o adorn_v herself_o with_o all_o christian_a virtue_n however_o she_o must_v then_o reflect_v on_o her_o imperfection_n her_o good_a and_o evil_a inclination_n as_o she_o find_v the_o motion_n of_o grace_n to_o dictate_v to_o she_o she_o be_v not_o as_o yet_o capable_a of_o a_o more_o elevate_a degree_n of_o prayer_n and_o so_o her_o thought_n be_v profitable_o employ_v in_o this_o low_a exercise_n but_o when_o god_n be_v please_v to_o enter_v into_o she_o as_o to_o make_v she_o enter_v into_o he_o by_o a_o more_o intimate_a union_n her_o thought_n then_o must_v be_v all_o upon_o god_n and_o for_o he_o see_v he_o be_v only_o her_o true_a rest_n and_o repose_v many_o spiritual_a person_n fail_v herein_o not_o well_o observe_v the_o method_n and_o way_n of_o god_n in_o the_o conduct_n of_o soul_n they_o have_v not_o a_o eye_n severe_a enough_o on_o their_o interiour_n to_o discover_v all_o the_o motion_n of_o the_o heart_n to_o examine_v and_o search_v and_o find_v out_o the_o least_o root_n of_o their_o imperfection_n this_o must_v be_v do_v and_o be_v good_a and_o profitable_a in_o its_o season_n but_o when_o god_n call_v we_o to_o high_a elevation_n in_o prayer_n we_o must_v follow_v the_o conduct_n of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n or_o we_o shall_v never_o advance_v in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n chap._n vii_o that_o we_o must_v not_o presume_v of_o ourselves_o to_o attempt_v any_o manner_n of_o prayer_n but_o what_o be_v ordinary_a in_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n we_o must_v ordinary_o prepare_v the_o subject_a of_o our_o prayer_n and_o converse_n with_o god_n this_o be_v the_o practice_n of_o all_o holy_a person_n and_o to_o do_v otherwise_o be_v to_o fail_v in_o our_o respect_n to_o the_o majesty_n of_o heaven_n if_o we_o be_v to_o speak_v to_o a_o king_n or_o any_o person_n of_o quality_n we_o think_v thereon_o aforehand_o and_o shall_v we_o not_o have_v consideration_n of_o what_o we_o have_v to_o say_v to_o the_o king_n of_o glory_n this_o prepare_v of_o the_o matter_n of_o prayer_n must_v be_v do_v some_o little_a time_n before_o we_o set_v upon_o the_o duty_n then_o we_o must_v lift_v up_o our_o heart_n to_o god_n and_o desire_v he_o to_o put_v into_o our_o mind_n what_o may_v be_v most_o please_v to_o he_o in_o our_o recollection_n and_o what_o ever_o it_o be_v to_o entertain_v it_o in_o our_o thought_n and_o dwell_v upon_o it_o unless_o god_n inspire_v we_o with_o some_o other_o matter_n that_o call_v upon_o we_o for_o our_o attention_n and_o fidelity_n for_o to_o comply_v with_o this_o we_o ought_v to_o quit_v the_o subject_a we_o have_v prepare_v for_o our_o exercise_n let_v we_o not_o soar_v above_o our_o ability_n but_o make_v choice_n of_o such_o matter_n for_o prayer_n as_o be_v most_o suitable_a to_o our_o spiritual_a state_n and_o we_o find_v by_o our_o interiour_n to_o be_v most_o agreeable_a to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n let_v we_o never_o begin_v our_o prayer_n without_o ask_v god_n pardon_v of_o our_o sin_n and_o implore_v his_o mercy_n for_o to_o put_v ourselves_o into_o his_o sacred_a presence_n and_o to_o converse_v with_o he_o without_o a_o detestation_n of_o these_o imperfection_n wherewith_o we_o have_v displease_v he_o be_v to_o make_v ourselves_o unworthy_a of_o his_o grace_n and_o favour_n it_o be_v of_o very_o great_a importance_n to_o know_v how_o god_n usual_o conduct_n soul_n to_o perfection_n that_o we_o may_v the_o better_o comply_v with_o the_o design_n of_o his_o grace_n all_o be_v not_o call_v
this_o interiour_n poverty_n and_o dereliction_n find_v that_o she_o have_v a_o call_n to_o interiour_n suffering_n she_o ought_v not_o to_o seek_v after_o sensible_a thing_n to_o raise_v she_o to_o god_n but_o courageous_o bear_v this_o interiour_n cross_n as_o long_o as_o it_o please_v her_o divine_a bridegroom_n to_o continue_v her_o trial_n this_o state_n be_v bitter_a indeed_o but_o withal_o purify_n and_o make_v a_o soul_n capable_a of_o more_o intimate_a union_n with_o god_n chap._n x._o of_o the_o sacred_a darkness_n of_o prayer_n on_o st._n mary_n magdalen_n day_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o my_o prayer_n change_v and_o become_v more_o simple_a more_o strong_a and_o elevate_v my_o spirit_n go_v on_o know_v god_n not_o by_o light_n or_o gust_n of_o devotion_n but_o by_o a_o certain_a darkness_n wherewith_o god_n be_v surround_v as_o with_o a_o cloud_n this_o darkness_n make_v i_o see_v that_o god_n can_v be_v know_v but_o be_v infinite_o above_o our_o understanding_n which_o can_v better_v know_v he_o then_o by_o acknowledge_v we_o can_v know_v he_o as_o he_o be_v at_o other_o time_n gust_n and_o light_n be_v instrumental_a to_o unite_v i_o to_o god_n but_o now_o this_o darkness_n only_o be_v my_o guide_n and_o my_o soul_n find_v herself_o lose_v in_o a_o profound_a ignorance_n of_o god_n yet_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o know_v he_o better_o than_o ever_o and_o i_o have_v no_o difficulty_n to_o contemplate_v god_n in_o this_o manner_n which_o leave_v in_o i_o deep_a impression_n of_o the_o divinity_n do_v also_o augment_v my_o interiour_n disposition_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n hatred_n of_o sin_n and_o such_o like_a matter_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o at_o this_o time_n my_o prayer_n become_v more_o continual_a and_o i_o be_v much_o encourage_v with_o that_o say_n of_o st._n denis_n that_o this_o ignorance_n be_v the_o best_a and_o high_a knowledge_n we_o have_v here_o of_o god_n i_o therefore_o ready_o make_v my_o address_n to_o god_n in_o the_o aforesaid_a manner_n understand_v well_o that_o the_o knowledge_n we_o have_v of_o god_n by_o this_o way_n be_v great_a than_o that_o we_o learn_v by_o discourse_n or_o light_n or_o gust_n in_o prayer_n to_o know_v we_o can_v know_v god_n be_v to_o know_v he_o as_o much_o as_o he_o can_v be_v know_v in_o this_o life_n his_o grandeur_n be_v infinite_o above_o our_o understanding_n and_o that_o our_o understanding_n may_v live_v whole_o to_o god_n it_o must_v die_v to_o whatsoever_o be_v not_o god_n who_o we_o see_v by_o naked_a faith_n in_o a_o luminous_a obscurity_n by_o this_o way_n god_n be_v more_o know_v and_o love_v than_o by_o many_o light_n and_o affection_n all_o which_o be_v lose_v in_o the_o obscurity_n of_o this_o sacred_a darkness_n which_o make_v a_o soul_n see_v that_o the_o perfection_n of_o god_n be_v incomprehensible_a many_o good_a effect_n arise_v from_o hence_o as_o a_o profound_a joy_n and_o peace_n of_o conscience_n a_o firmness_n in_o our_o good_a resolution_n and_o practice_n of_o virtue_n a_o great_a love_n of_o self-denial_n in_o imitation_n of_o the_o unspeakable_a humiliation_n of_o jesus_n christ_n one_o of_o the_o sure_a mark_n to_o know_v whether_o this_o prayer_n of_o darkness_n come_v from_o god_n be_v to_o see_v whether_o it_o leave_v in_o the_o soul_n the_o knowledge_n of_o our_o misery_n and_o infidelity_n for_o the_o more_o we_o possess_v god_n the_o better_a we_o see_v the_o least_o imperfection_n as_o for_o example_n whether_o our_o intention_n be_v pure_a or_o nature_n have_v some_o interest_n with_o grace_n whether_o we_o too_o easy_o leave_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n for_o other_o thing_n whether_o we_o comply_v with_o god_n inspiration_n or_o commit_v infidelity_n these_o and_o such_o like_o be_v clear_o see_v by_o this_o mean_n do_v much_o humble_v we_o and_o make_v we_o careful_a to_o amend_v they_o the_o soul_n in_o this_o disposition_n know_v nothing_o of_o god_n but_o that_o he_o be_v incomprehensible_a and_o lose_v herself_o in_o this_o darkness_n that_o surround_v his_o grandeurs_n this_o view_n with_o a_o view_n see_v nothing_o distinct_o of_o god_n in_o particalar_n but_o be_v a_o know_a ignorance_n of_o what_o god_n be_v in_o himself_o for_o though_o the_o excessive_a glory_n of_o this_o divine_a sun_n make_v his_o light_n inaccessible_a to_o our_o weak_a eye_n yet_o this_o darkness_n pierce_v our_o interiour_n and_o we_o know_v god_n in_o a_o transcendent_a manner_n by_o strong_a impression_n of_o the_o divinity_n and_o be_v raise_v to_o a_o most_o intimate_a union_n with_o he_o god_n require_v of_o a_o soul_n great_a purity_n in_o this_o state_n this_o then_o be_v a_o excellent_a manner_n to_o take_v up_o our_o thought_n with_o god_n in_o our_o address_n to_o he_o by_o annihilate_v all_o our_o light_n and_o knowledge_n to_o get_v into_o this_o sacred_a darkness_n that_o surround_v his_o glory_n that_o be_v thus_o dead_a to_o our_o own_o ability_n we_o may_v confess_v that_o god_n be_v as_o much_o above_o our_o understanding_n as_o he_o be_v amiable_a above_o our_o affection_n thus_o to_o know_v god_n and_o confess_v he_o be_v above_o our_o understanding_n and_o to_o love_n god_n and_o acknowledge_v we_o can_v love_v he_o according_a to_o his_o perfection_n be_v to_o live_v dead_a to_o ourselves_o and_o our_o ability_n and_o such_o god_n love_v best_a and_o know_v with_o approbation_n chap._n xi_o of_o the_o light_n of_o prayer_n god_n sometime_o in_o prayer_n discover_v himself_o to_o a_o soul_n as_o the_o sun_n fill_v she_o with_o light_n by_o which_o and_o in_o which_o he_o be_v know_v and_o all_o other_o thing_n she_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o or_o which_o the_o omniscient_a be_v please_v to_o manifest_v to_o she_o we_o see_v well_o enough_o this_o light_n by_o which_o we_o know_v god_n but_o god_n himself_o be_v inaccessible_a as_o we_o behold_v the_o light_n of_o the_o natural_a sun_n and_o not_o the_o body_n thereof_o which_o blind_v our_o eye_n and_o by_o 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the_o soul_n but_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o these_o verity_n namely_o we_o must_v slay_v from_o evil_a and_o do_v good_a hate_v sin_n and_o embrace_v virtue_n and_o such_o like_a as_o consider_v bare_o in_o themselves_o have_v no_o particular_a light_n in_o they_o to_o manifest_v their_o goodness_n but_o their_o beauty_n and_o excellency_n be_v discover_v to_o we_o by_o help_n of_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n as_o those_o body_n which_o be_v out_o of_o the_o sun_n see_v not_o themselves_o but_o by_o the_o light_n thereof_o for_o this_o reason_n i_o believe_v it_o be_v best_a for_o a_o soul_n to_o take_v up_o her_o thought_n with_o god_n and_o those_o verity_n that_o regard_v he_o or_o with_o jesus_n and_o christian_a truth_n as_o resident_a in_o this_o sacred_a breast_n by_o this_o mean_v the_o heart_n and_o affection_n will_v be_v much_o inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o god_n to_o adore_v and_o serve_v he_o and_o imitate_v the_o perfection_n of_o jesus_n christ_n this_o sort_n of_o prayer_n be_v simple_a and_o do_v not_o put_v the_o soul_n to_o the_o labour_n of_o much_o discourse_n for_o any_o divine_a perfection_n and_o the_o exterior_a effect_n thereof_o be_v see_v by_o she_o at_o once_o by_o a_o singular_a act_n of_o the_o understanding_n as_o she_o may_v consider_v the_o omnipotency_n by_o its_o self_n or_o together_o with_o the_o creation_n of_o the_o world_n she_o may_v behold_v and_o adore_v the_o divine_a providence_n by_o itself_o together_o with_o its_o admirable_a effect_n in_o the_o government_n of_o the_o universe_n the_o soul_n herein_o need_v not_o multiply_v discourse_n but_o may_v behold_v all_o this_o at_o one_o prospect_n when_o we_o meditate_v on_o any_o christian_a verity_n as_o for_o example_n the_o excellency_n of_o poverty_n without_o the_o relation_n it_o
nothing_o to_o work_v this_o amorous_a tendency_n towards_o god_n not_o but_o that_o sometime_o it_o present_v some_o excellent_a truth_n to_o quicken_v love_n but_o yet_o that_o truth_n be_v there_o without_o it_o i_o admire_v that_o after_o the_o visit_n of_o friend_n i_o always_o find_v my_o will_n convert_v to_o god_n the_o only_a centre_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o i_o know_v not_o how_o this_o amorous_a inclination_n be_v entertain_v and_o preserve_v in_o i_o i_o find_v by_o experience_n that_o in_o this_o state_n my_o soul_n be_v well_o dispose_v to_o practice_v all_o sort_n of_o virtue_n though_o she_o make_v thereof_o no_o formal_a resolution_n after_o the_o exercise_n of_o this_o prayer_n the_o soul_n be_v extreme_o in_o love_n with_o mortification_n and_o self-denial_n desire_v nothing_o but_o god_n alone_o she_o understand_v also_o that_o she_o can_v persevere_v in_o this_o happy_a state_n without_o a_o constant_a love_n of_o the_o cross_n of_o which_o she_o daily_o become_v 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grace_n they_o will_v quick_o loose_v courage_n in_o this_o attempt_n the_o three_o trial_n be_v yet_o more_o laborious_a for_o we_o must_v mortify_v the_o operation_n of_o our_o spiritual_a faculty_n the_o memory_n understanding_n and_o will_v than_o which_o nothing_o be_v more_o difficult_a it_o be_v a_o long_a time_n before_o the_o soul_n can_v understand_v how_o this_o must_v be_v do_v and_o long_o before_o she_o can_v bring_v it_o about_o and_o except_o god_n be_v please_v to_o withdraw_v from_o the_o soul_n those_o help_v she_o receive_v from_o she_o own_o light_n and_o affection_n she_o will_v never_o compass_v it_o in_o this_o combat_n the_o soul_n meet_v with_o a_o thousand_o temptation_n as_o that_o we_o do_v but_o loose_v our_o time_n that_o it_o be_v no_o better_o than_o pure_a idleness_n and_o much_o hindrance_n sometime_o from_o director_n who_o have_v no_o experience_n of_o this_o way_n can_v understand_v it_o much_o less_o approve_v it_o happy_a be_v the_o soul_n that_o meet_v with_o a_o director_n to_o strenghthen_v and_o encourage_v she_o in_o the_o difficulty_n of_o this_o passage_n otherwise_o she_o will_v never_o arrive_v to_o this_o sacred_a silence_n unless_o by_o some_o extraordinary_a grace_n and_o favour_n the_o soul_n then_o thus_o dead_a and_o annihilate_v enter_v into_o this_o sacred_a silence_n the_o beginning_n whereof_o be_v somewhat_o bitter_a though_o with_o a_o mixture_n of_o sweetness_n by_o a_o certain_a experience_n of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n which_o be_v elevate_v above_o all_o natural_a light_n to_o behold_v god_n by_o the_o single_a light_n of_o faith_n be_v assist_v by_o another_o light_n that_o seem_v to_o participate_v of_o faith_n and_o glory_n for_o it_o have_v something_o of_o the_o ray_n of_o glory_n not_o that_o it_o be_v real_o either_o this_o or_o that_o but_o a_o resemblance_n of_o they_o wonderful_n be_v the_o effect_n which_o god_n produce_v in_o the_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n of_o interiour_n silence_n for_o he_o deal_v with_o she_o as_o a_o painter_n do_v with_o a_o blank_a prepare_v for_o his_o work_n where_o he_o draw_v divers_a line_n as_o seem_v best_a to_o he_o god_n sometime_o make_v a_o silence_n in_o all_o the_o power_n of_o the_o soul_n keep_v they_o bind_v in_o the_o dark_a but_o in_o a_o disposition_n to_o do_v whatsoever_o he_o please_v with_o they_o the_o spirit_n be_v a_o little_a busy_a to_o see_v what_o be_v do_v but_o be_v check_v be_v quiet_a and_o the_o soul_n have_v nothing_o to_o rely_v upon_o be_v annihilate_v in_o herself_o rest_v sole_o on_o god_n repose_v herself_o in_o he_o with_o patience_n and_o humility_n otherwhile_o god_n put_v the_o soul_n without_o any_o operation_n of_o her_o own_o in_o great_a repose_n and_o quiet_a neither_o willing_a nor_o apply_v herself_o to_o any_o thing_n in_o particular_a but_o in_o a_o readiness_n to_o do_v whatsoever_o god_n manifest_v to_o be_v his_o will._n and_o this_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o be_v the_o most_o usual_a disposition_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o the_o state_n of_o interiour_n silence_n at_o other_o time_n the_o soul_n feel_v such_o a_o fullness_n of_o god_n that_o she_o seem_v whole_o to_o possess_v he_o insomuch_o that_o the_o sense_n be_v partaker_n of_o the_o gust_n and_o sweetness_n communicate_v to_o they_o the_o soul_n in_o the_o interim_n whole_o mortify_v by_o a_o constant_a readiness_n to_o be_v sacrifice_v to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n at_o other_o time_n the_o soul_n be_v whole_o take_v captive_a by_o divine_a love_n which_o give_v she_o a_o relish_n of_o her_o sovereign_a good_a all_o other_o thing_n how_o excellent_a soever_o they_o may_v seem_v be_v but_o bitter_a to_o she_o the_o understanding_n here_o make_v no_o use_n of_o the_o light_n of_o reason_n but_o god_n be_v please_v to_o infuse_v certain_a manifestation_n quick_a and_o sudden_a which_o work_n so_o secret_o such_o change_n in_o the_o soul_n that_o she_o can_v perceive_v till_o they_o be_v do_v at_o other_o time_n when_o the_o soul_n be_v in_o doubt_n or_o trouble_v with_o some_o disorder_n or_o discourage_v by_o she_o own_o weakness_n she_o find_v god_n show_v himself_o present_a with_o she_o to_o instruct_v to_o quicken_v to_o strengthen_v to_o succour_v she_o according_a to_o her_o present_a necessity_n the_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n be_v dispose_v to_o whatsoever_o god_n please_v desire_v nothing_o require_v of_o she_o god_n work_v his_o will_n in_o she_o and_o she_o be_v humble_a and_o faithful_a and_o altogether_o submissive_a and_o pliable_a to_o his_o operation_n thus_o the_o soul_n must_v stand_v affect_v in_o respect_n of_o god_n but_o she_o can_v never_o come_v to_o this_o without_o great_a combat_n continual_a death_n and_o long_a suffering_n however_o all_o the_o cross_n can_v be_v endure_v in_o this_o world_n be_v but_o a_o cheap_a rate_n to_o purchase_v the_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n but_o for_o a_o moment_n in_o this_o state_n of_o interiour_n silence_n the_o soul_n can_v prescribe_v any_o law_n to_o herself_o in_o her_o spiritual_a exercise_n but_o wait_v with_o all_o humility_n to_o receive_v what_o god_n shall_v give_v she_o and_o be_v faithful_a in_o correspond_v thereto_o sometime_o she_o suffer_v sometime_o she_o act_v either_o in_o this_o or_o that_o manner_n according_a to_o the_o nature_n of_o the_o divine_a impression_n chap._n xiii_o of_o most_o purify_a contemplation_n on_o st._n alexius_n day_n our_o saviour_n give_v i_o knowledge_n of_o a_o state_n of_o prayer_n wherein_o at_o present_a i_o must_v constant_o exercise_v myself_o as_o some_o servant_n of_o god_n advise_v i_o but_o the_o reason_n they_o tell_v i_o i_o understand_v not_o my_o prayer_n then_o be_v a_o denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n where_o the_o soul_n as_o it_o seem_v to_o she_o do_v nothing_o but_o enter_v into_o possession_n of_o god_n in_o a_o peculiar_a manner_n who_o work_v in_o she_o what_o
he_o please_v without_o her_o knowledge_n or_o discovery_n before_o the_o soul_n can_v fix_v in_o this_o state_n she_o must_v suffer_v much_o from_o her_o imagination_n which_o will_v be_v still_o propose_v her_o representation_n light_n and_o sentiment_n according_a to_o her_o usual_a practice_n but_o the_o soul_n must_v quit_v all_o these_o to_o yield_v herself_o passive_a to_o the_o operation_n of_o god_n yea_o even_o spiritual_a lecture_n at_o this_o time_n prove_v hurtful_a because_o it_o keep_v up_o the_o ordinary_a way_n of_o work_v in_o the_o soul_n neither_o be_v this_o to_o tempt_v god_n see_v he_o will_v have_v the_o soul_n to_o treat_v with_o he_o in_o this_o manner_n and_o her_o present_a disposition_n thus_o require_v she_o ought_v to_o be_v faithful_a in_o comply_v with_o it_o there_o be_v many_o degree_n of_o this_o denudation_n whereof_o i_o speak_v the_o first_o take_v from_o the_o soul_n what_o light_n and_o affection_n she_o get_v discursive_a meditation_n to_o give_v she_o in_o lieu_n thereof_o a_o more_o noble_a knowledge_n and_o love_n of_o god_n the_o second_o evacuate_v this_o knowledge_n by_o infuse_v particular_a and_o distinct_a notion_n of_o god_n the_o three_o after_o our_o way_n of_o conception_n be_v a_o pure_a and_o general_a knowledge_n of_o god_n by_o faith_n the_o soul_n must_v pass_v through_o these_o several_a disposition_n as_o it_o please_v god_n to_o conduct_v she_o therein_o and_o remain_v in_o a_o perfect_a denudation_n adhere_v only_o to_o god_n and_o his_o good_a pleasure_n we_o must_v not_o be_v discourage_v at_o the_o difficulty_n we_o shall_v meet_v with_o in_o this_o sublime_a exercise_n but_o prepare_v ourselves_o to_o bear_v the_o cross_n they_o must_v endure_v who_o be_v call_v to_o this_o state_n and_z content_o loose_a ourselves_o to_o be_v find_v in_o god_n doubt_v frequent_o arise_v for_o although_o the_o soul_n in_o this_o prayer_n have_v often_o assurance_n of_o she_o well_o do_v yet_o this_o sometime_o do_v not_o appear_v and_o the_o humane_a spirit_n which_o be_v whole_o blind_a herein_o be_v much_o terrify_v but_o when_o the_o soul_n thus_o die_v to_o herself_o and_o the_o world_n not_o by_o she_o own_o but_o the_o operation_n of_o god_n in_o she_o she_o be_v not_o idle_a as_o she_o may_v fear_v but_o dispose_v herself_o to_o receive_v the_o divine_a enaction_n altogether_o extraordinary_a and_o supernatural_a which_o be_v hinder_v in_o she_o by_o her_o own_o operation_n for_o the_o humane_a spirit_n must_v die_v before_o a_o new_a supernatural_a life_n can_v arise_v in_o she_o the_o soul_n begin_v this_o passive_a prayer_n by_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o god_n in_o himself_o confuse_v and_o general_a after_o which_o she_o receive_v divine_a infusion_n as_o god_n see_v good_a or_o remain_v suffer_v in_o a_o total_a denudation_n desire_v nothing_o else_o but_o to_o suffer_v see_v she_o find_v at_o present_a that_o this_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n the_o soul_n can_v well_o give_v a_o account_n of_o what_o pass_v in_o she_o in_o this_o state_n of_o passivity_n god_n work_v in_o she_o and_o by_o she_o what_o she_o know_v not_o only_o she_o see_v obscure_o that_o all_o go_v well_o with_o she_o in_o her_o interiour_n and_o that_o god_n be_v she_o and_o that_o suffice_v and_o indeed_o she_o need_v not_o fear_n see_v a_o soul_n thus_o passive_a and_o give_v up_o total_o into_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n be_v more_o under_o the_o sacred_a wing_n of_o his_o protection_n than_o ever_o and_o belong_v in_o a_o singular_a manner_n to_o his_o providence_n nor_o be_v it_o expedient_a the_o soul_n shall_v always_o know_v this_o work_n of_o god_n in_o she_o who_o will_v but_o hinder_v it_o by_o her_o reflection_n and_o complacence_n and_o therefore_o god_n keep_v often_o from_o her_o knowledge_n for_o her_o good_a this_o passive_a contemplation_n can_v be_v understand_v but_o by_o experience_n for_o god_n take_v posseossin_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o a_o much_o other_o manner_n than_o in_o active_a prayer_n it_o be_v god_n that_o work_v his_o wonder_n as_o he_o please_v and_o the_o soul_n receive_v the_o divine_a operation_n cooperate_a therewith_o in_o a_o sort_n very_o sublime_a and_o spiritual_a for_o the_o soul_n be_v not_o idle_a but_o act_n with_o a_o real_a activity_n elevate_v above_o her_o ordinary_a manner_n of_o work_v this_o be_v possible_a for_o the_o bless_a in_o heaven_n be_v perfect_o passive_a and_o yet_o very_o active_a their_o power_n work_v in_o a_o most_o sublime_a manner_n by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o our_o prayer_n be_v pure_a it_o appear_v more_o passive_a in_o respect_n of_o we_o who_o apprehend_v not_o thing_n spiritual_a but_o by_o the_o service_n of_o our_o sense_n the_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n have_v daily_a experience_n of_o divine_a impression_n not_o only_o in_o prayer_n but_o in_o many_o other_o matter_n according_a to_o that_o of_o st._n paul_n spiritualis_fw-la homo_fw-la judicat_fw-la omne_fw-la the_o spiritual_a man_n discern_v all_o thing_n and_o this_o be_v wrought_v in_o a_o different_a manner_n for_o sometime_o god_n immediate_o infuse_v his_o light_n and_o love_n into_o the_o soul_n without_o any_o previous_a disposition_n sometime_o by_o the_o look_n on_o a_o image_n sometime_o by_o bring_v to_o mind_n some_o passage_n in_o scripture_n we_o have_v read_v before_o sometime_o by_o a_o sermon_n sometime_o by_o conference_n etc._n etc._n but_o it_o be_v god_n always_o who_o work_v powerful_o in_o the_o soul_n these_o exterior_a thing_n be_v only_a subservient_fw-fr to_o his_o grace_n the_o soul_n than_o make_v no_o act_n but_o be_v whole_o take_v up_o with_o god_n and_o his_o perfection_n or_o with_o jesus_n and_o his_o state_n or_o the_o subject_n give_v she_o in_o prayer_n i_o understand_v not_o this_o before_o this_o light_n be_v infuse_v into_o i_o and_o now_o my_o former_a exercise_n in_o prayer_n seem_v nothing_o in_o comparison_n what_o be_v it_o that_o the_o soul_n pretend_v to_o by_o 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