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i_o bewail_v my_o unprofitableness_n yet_o go_v unto_o the_o lord_n in_o the_o language_n of_o the_o lepper_n and_o say_v lord_n if_o thâ—u_fw-mi will_v thou_o can_v make_v i_o clean_o who_o be_v not_o deaf_a to_o my_o poor_a request_n but_o in_o some_o small_a time_n be_v gracious_o please_v as_o i_o may_v say_v without_o mean_n whole_o to_o clear_v i_o of_o it_o this_o mercy_n carry_v up_o my_o heart_n more_o to_o praise_v the_o lord_n then_o any_o yet_o i_o have_v receive_v who_o notwithstanding_o all_o my_o weakness_n and_o sinfulness_n be_v gracious_o please_v to_o follow_v i_o with_o many_o mercy_n of_o further_a discovery_n of_o christ_n then_o be_v the_o lord_n please_v in_o his_o gracious_a providence_n to_o remove_v i_o to_o a_o place_n in_o h._n sh._n where_o i_o have_v much_o more_o advantage_n of_o mean_n and_o help_v for_o my_o poor_a soul_n where_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o give_v i_o through_o his_o grace_n a_o little_a more_o insight_n into_o the_o mind_n â—f_n 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my_o petition_n at_o tâ—e_v â—hrone_n of_o grace_n and_o at_o length_n he_o be_v please_v gâ—atiâ—usâ—_n to_o answer_v my_o poor_a prayer_n â—lessâ—d_v be_v â—hy_a name_n o_o lord_n o_o let_v my_o soul_n be_v enlarge_v in_o thy_o pâ—aâ—ses_n one_o day_n the_o lord_n be_v please_v by_o a_o strange_a providence_n to_o cast_v i_o into_o the_o company_n of_o one_o that_o i_o never_o see_v before_o but_o of_o a_o sweet_a and_o free_a disposition_n and_o who_o discourse_n savour_v so_o much_o of_o the_o gospel_n that_o i_o can_v not_o but_o at_o that_o instant_n bless_v god_n for_o his_o goodness_n in_o that_o providence_n it_o please_v the_o lord_n to_o carry_v out_o our_o heart_n much_o towards_o one_o another_o at_o that_o time_n and_o a_o little_a while_n after_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o bring_v we_o together_o again_o for_o the_o space_n of_o three_o day_n in_o which_o time_n it_o please_v god_n by_o our_o much_o converse_n together_o to_o establish_v and_o confirm_v i_o more_o 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please_v to_o show_v i_o but_o in_o a_o instance_n snatch_v it_o from_o i_o again_o at_o which_o i_o begin_v to_o be_v trouble_v but_o aâ—ter_v a_o few_o reflection_n to_o this_o purpose_n why_o do_v i_o not_o patient_o submit_v to_o the_o will_n of_o my_o father_n who_o know_v what_o be_v best_a for_o i_o my_o soul_n be_v again_o fill_v with_o hungring_n and_o thirsting_n after_o god_n for_o a_o more_o clear_a and_o full_a inâ—oyment_n of_o he_o and_o that_o in_o that_o blessed_a ordinance_n appoint_v for_o a_o seal_n to_o confirm_v the_o covenant_n he_o hatâ—_n gracious_o make_v through_o hiâ—_n dear_a son_n with_o aâ—l_a believer_n this_o be_v at_o a_o time_n when_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v as_o to_o
even_o from_o my_o youth_n and_o if_o my_o deceitful_a heart_n deceive_v i_o not_o i_o dare_v appeal_n unto_o thou_o for_o the_o sincerity_n of_o it_o oh_o that_o thou_o will_v make_v i_o useful_a to_o thou_o in_o that_o way_n or_o any_o way_n thou_o shall_v be_v please_v to_o choose_v that_o i_o may_v glorify_v thy_o great_a and_o holy_a name_n sweet_a discovery_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n in_o jesus_n christ_n oh_o how_o good_a a_o god_n have_v i_o who_o be_v please_v every_o day_n to_o bear_v up_o my_o soul_n with_o the_o sweet_a influence_n of_o his_o gracious_a spirit_n and_o precious_a income_n of_o his_o tender_a love_n o_o how_o can_v i_o sit_v and_o meditate_v of_o thy_o love_a kindness_n all_o the_o day_n long_o where_o can_v i_o find_v any_o comfort_n in_o this_o world_n but_o in_o thy_o presence_n there_o have_v i_o lord_n indeed_o through_o thy_o grace_n find_v a_o fullness_n of_o joy_n a_o time_n of_o endless_a pleasure_n o_o what_o be_o i_o or_o what_o be_v my_o 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the_o least_o to_o distrust_v the_o riches_n of_o thy_o grace_n or_o thy_o unspeakable_a goodness_n which_o be_v thy_o glory_n since_o thou_o be_v please_v dear_a lord_n to_o make_v a_o worm_n the_o object_n of_o thy_o grace_n oh_o let_v my_o soul_n enjoy_v these_o sweet_a transcendent_a pleasure_n which_o lie_v discover_v to_o my_o soul_n in_o the_o rich_a treasury_n of_o thy_o unbounded_a love_n whilst_o other_o take_v their_o fill_n of_o worldly_a vanity_n when_o i_o consider_v the_o sinfulness_n of_o my_o nature_n my_o weakness_n my_o frailtye_n and_o my_o many_o infirmity_n oh_o what_o be_v there_o in_o i_o shall_v ever_o cause_v the_o lord_n to_o pity_v i_o or_o yet_o to_o continue_v his_o favour_n to_o i_o in_o so_o â—aspeakable_a a_o manner_n n_n my_o soul_n bless_v thou_o the_o lord_n for_o jesus_n christ_n in_o who_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v rich_o to_o look_v upon_o thou_o o_o happy_a be_v the_o soul_n that_o be_v bear_v up_o by_o such_o a_o support_n how_o wretched_a have_v my_o soul_n be_v have_v not_o the_o lord_n lay_v help_v on_o one_o who_o be_v mighty_a have_v not_o thou_o have_v the_o lord_n to_o be_v thy_o saviour_n christ_n the_o dear_a son_n of_o god_n to_o be_v thy_o redeemer_n o_o bless_a be_v the_o lord_n and_o bless_v be_v my_o rock_n who_o have_v thus_o look_v upon_o sinful_a mankind_n and_o thus_o love_v the_o son_n of_o man_n as_o to_o give_v his_o only_a dear_o belove_a son_n to_o die_v for_o such_o poor_a miserable_a wretch_n as_o i_o o_o the_o wonderful_a goodness_n of_o god_n the_o transcendent_a and_o unspeakable_a riches_n of_o his_o grace_n in_o jesus_n christ_n o_o my_o soul_n can_v thou_o but_o be_v fill_v with_o holy_a admiration_n at_o the_o infiniteness_n of_o his_o glory_n the_o unspeakable_a and_o transcendent_a beauty_n of_o thy_o dear_a redeemer_n this_o indeed_o be_v rich_a mercy_n that_o the_o lord_n shall_v come_v into_o the_o world_n and_o give_v his_o life_n a_o ransom_n for_o poor_a sinner_n but_o that_o 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