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think_v of_o that_o fearful_a day_n of_o judgement_n and_o judge_v myself_o before_o i_o be_v judge_v that_o â—_o may_v not_o be_v find_v light_n in_o thy_o scale_n when_o i_o shall_v be_v weigh_v let_v i_o o_o let_v i_o think_v how_o there_o be_v a_o hell_n for_o the_o damn_a for_o better_a be_v it_o by_o timely_o fear_v it_o to_o avoid_v it_o then_o by_o never_o dream_v of_o it_o headlong_o to_o fall_v into_o it_o last_o let_v i_o think_v of_o heaven_n how_o it_o be_v the_o place_n of_o the_o bless_a and_o that_o none_o but_o those_o that_o be_v of_o a_o clean_a heart_n shall_v dwell_v in_o it_o o_o cleanse_v thou_o my_o heart_n that_o i_o may_v be_v prepare_v for_o it_o and_o with_o much_o spiritual_a joy_n be_v receive_v in_o it_o chap._n 66._o death_n it_o be_v strange_a that_o death_n shall_v be_v such_o a_o stranger_n to_o thou_o when_o he_o so_o daily_o visit_v those_o that_o neighbour_n near_o thou_o thou_o have_v be_v familiar_o acquaint_v with_o many_o who_o habitation_n 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deceitfulness_n of_o this_o sin_n with_o what_o resolve_v i_o make_v hourly_o to_o become_v a_o true_a and_o unfeigned_a penitent_n never_o to_o return_v to_o my_o vomit_n i_o consider_v how_o a_o continent_n soul_n be_v the_o precioust_a treasure_n how_o god_n will_v not_o dwell_v in_o that_o heart_n that_o be_v infect_v with_o this_o sin_n all_o this_o i_o apply_v to_o my_o heart_n but_o alas_o how_o long_o do_v it_o remain_v uncorrupt_a no_o soon_o be_v there_o a_o occasion_n of_o temptation_n offer_v than_o my_o vain_a heart_n quite_o forget_v what_o she_o have_v resolve_v the_o thought_n of_o eternity_n be_v present_o choke_v with_o a_o hapless_a desire_n of_o enjoy_v what_o be_v light_a than_o vanity_n woe_n be_v i_o that_o any_o reasonable_a soul_n shall_v be_v so_o delude_v that_o neither_o the_o promise_n of_o a_o better_a life_n nor_o the_o shame_n of_o this_o present_a life_n can_v decline_v i_o from_o work_v such_o iniquity_n i_o find_v how_o all_o bread_n be_v sweet_a 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away_o but_o with_o the_o soft_a sponge_n of_o his_o mercy_n i_o have_v often_o think_v out_o of_o the_o foolishness_n of_o my_o heart_n that_o privy_o to_o take_v away_o or_o defeat_v any_o one_o of_o small_a toy_n or_o trifle_n as_o i_o account_v they_o be_v no_o sin_n because_o they_o be_v of_o small_a or_o no_o weight_n whereas_o if_o i_o have_v know_v the_o quality_n of_o sin_n aright_o i_o will_v have_v confess_v that_o it_o be_v not_o the_o value_n of_o the_o thing_n but_o the_o intention_n of_o the_o heart_n that_o make_v the_o sin_n it_o skill_v not_o much_o whether_o the_o substance_n be_v vile_a or_o precious_a which_o be_v unjust_o procute_v 11._o or_o injurious_o require_v so_o as_o the_o affection_n be_v to_o either_o of_o these_o equal_o corrupt_v though_o they_o be_v of_o different_a damage_n in_o respect_n of_o he_o from_o who_o they_o be_v take_v yet_o bring_v they_o equal_a detriment_n to_o he_o by_o who_o they_o be_v take_v o_o with_o what_o sigh_n with_o what_o tear_n do_v that_o devout_a father_n bewail_v his_o break_n into_o a_o orchard_n confess_v though_o he_o be_v then_o a_o boy_n and_o therefore_o pardonable_a these_o be_v now_o so_o easy_o dispense_v with_o as_o they_o be_v hold_v but_o trick_n of_o youth_n but_o he_o can_v cry_v forth_o in_o the_o anguish_n of_o his_o spirit_n i_o have_v have_v a_o desire_n to_o perish_v o_o lord_n i_o have_v have_v a_o desire_n to_o perish_v o_o how_o the_o sense_n of_o sin_n make_v the_o least_o seem_a sin_n appear_v heavy_a o_o what_o may_v i_o think_v of_o myself_o who_o have_v glory_v in_o these_o thing_n a_o grain_n of_o sand_n though_o it_o
against_o the_o devil_n my_o great_a accuser_n chap._n 11._o he_o disesteem_v of_o the_o six_o and_o last_o in_o covet_v what_o be_v a_o other_o and_o desire_v to_o increase_v his_o own_o with_o the_o loss_n of_o other_o foolish_a wordling_n thy_o own_o experience_n have_v not_o long_o since_o tell_v thou_o and_o thou_o may_v have_v remember_v it_o have_v not_o thy_o folly_n so_o delude_v thou_o how_o touch_v the_o world_n he_o have_v the_o least_o part_n in_o it_o who_o have_v the_o most_o of_o it_o again_o he_o have_v the_o most_o command_n over_o it_o who_o with_o most_o indifferency_n use_v it_o to_o love_v it_o be_v to_o be_v drown_v in_o it_o to_o leave_v it_o be_v brave_o to_o neglect_v it_o and_o in_o that_o neglect_n ample_o to_o be_v supply_v by_o it_o where_o as_o such_o as_o be_v worldly_a be_v ever_o labour_v of_o a_o dropsy_n the_o rich_a they_o be_v in_o estate_n the_o hot_a they_o be_v in_o pursuit_n these_o see_v and_o yet_o they_o will_v not_o credit_v their_o own_o sight_n what_o a_o very_a small_a portion_n of_o earth_n must_v suffice_v they_o how_o their_o thirsty_a and_o unbounded_a desire_n must_v be_v then_o bring_v to_o a_o strait_a a_o very_a straight_a compass_n and_o these_o thing_n i_o oft_o time_n consider_v wonder_v much_o at_o the_o vanity_n of_o man_n that_o know_v how_o their_o mouth_n be_v to_o be_v fill_v with_o gravel_n how_o any_o thing_n can_v in_o reason_n be_v so_o dear_a unto_o they_o which_o shall_v choke_v they_o and_o yet_o cast_v my_o eye_n upon_o myself_o 17._o i_o find_v very_o well_o how_o i_o be_v one_o of_o this_o list._n one_o that_o can_v scatter_v his_o own_o like_o a_o prodigal_a rioter_n and_o catch_v at_o a_o other_o like_o a_o covetous_a miser_n one_o that_o can_v be_v content_a that_o his_o neighbour_n providence_n shall_v maintain_v his_o riot_n one_o that_o have_v a_o dangerous_a leer_a eye_n after_o his_o neighbour_n wife_n or_o more_o than_o a_o month_n mind_n to_o his_o maid_n or_o to_o such_o a_o parcel_n of_o ground_n which_o lie_v fit_v for_o he_o or_o to_o some_o of_o his_o cattle_n and_o these_o even_o any_o of_o these_o can_v he_o find_v in_o his_o heart_n to_o enjoy_v without_o return_v satisfaction_n for_o they_o it_o be_v true_a very_o true_a that_o the_o story_n of_o ahab_n be_v old_a in_o respect_n of_o time_n but_o new_a in_o respect_n of_o daily_a practice_n every_o day_n shall_v we_o find_v a_o ahab_n bear_v every_o day_n a_o naboth_n die_v his_o vine_n yard_n must_v occasion_v a_o breach_n betwixt_o he_o and_o his_o landlord_n he_o must_v forego_v it_o or_o loose_v his_o life_n that_o owe_v it_o the_o anger_n of_o a_o great_a man_n be_v violent_a his_o will_n be_v his_o law_n his_o inferior_a must_v bend_v or_o break_v if_o the_o plot_n lie_v near_o he_o it_o become_v a_o eyesore_n to_o he_o he_o will_v either_o buy_v it_o or_o come_v any_o way_n by_o it_o that_o he_o may_v enjoy_v it_o o_o how_o can_v i_o utter_v this_o without_o remorse_n how_o may_v i_o endure_v myself_o when_o i_o hear_v these_o thing_n these_o be_v they_o which_o wind_v i_o for_o like_v poisonous_a arrow_n they_o stick_v in_o my_o flesh_n neither_o can_v i_o answer_v one_o for_o a_o thousand_o how_o strong_a have_v be_v my_o desire_n in_o shed_v my_o own_o blood_n what_o day_n have_v i_o spend_v in_o careful_a cark_n painful_a toil_a what_o night_n in_o cunning_a compass_n watchful_a contrive_n how_o i_o may_v come_v by_o my_o purpose_n these_o care_n make_v sleep_v many_o night_n a_o stranger_n to_o my_o eye_n and_o yet_o this_o my_o affliction_n seem_v sweet_a unto_o i_o such_o be_v the_o strength_n of_o a_o enure_v misery_n o_o my_o soul_n how_o tedious_a will_v one_o of_o these_o hour_n have_v seem_v have_v it_o be_v employ_v in_o cast_v about_o for_o that_o inheritance_n which_o shall_v never_o perish_v alas_o what_o can_v i_o imagine_v that_o this_o earthly_a tabernacle_n of_o i_o shall_v never_o be_v dissolve_v that_o my_o indirect_a way_n shall_v never_o be_v bring_v to_o judgement_n that_o god_n have_v forget_v the_o poor_a and_o that_o he_o will_v not_o revenge_v their_o wrong_n to_o my_o shame_n yes_o lord_n i_o consider_v this_o and_o the_o more_o my_o sin_n for_o i_o seek_v to_o put_v away_o thy_o judgement_n far_o from_o my_o memory_n not_o to_o think_v of_o they_o lest_o they_o shall_v startle_v i_o thus_o be_v their_o doctrine_n dear_a unto_o i_o who_o seek_v to_o sow_v pillow_n under_o my_o elbow_n to_o fatten_v i_o in_o my_o transgression_n with_o a_o tush_o god_n see_v not_o but_o o_o lord_n holy_a and_o just_a thy_o eye_n be_v ever_o over_o i_o and_o thy_o câ—are_n be_v not_o shut_v from_o i_o nor_o from_o those_o who_o cry_v for_o vengeance_n against_o i_o this_o it_o be_v which_o cause_v i_o to_o walk_v heavy_o all_o the_o day_n long_o to_o chatter_v like_o a_o craine_n and_o with_o much_o affliction_n of_o spirit_n to_o pour_v forth_o my_o complaint_n to_o thou_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n o_o when_o i_o remember_v how_o cunning_o i_o seek_v to_o wind_v i_o into_o the_o acquaintance_n of_o my_o neighbour_n how_o smooth_o i_o gloze_v with_o he_o what_o courtesy_n i_o offer_v he_o mere_o to_o surprise_v he_o &_o make_v myself_o a_o gainer_n by_o he_o how_o i_o seem_v to_o esteem_v least_o what_o i_o prize_v most_o that_o so_o my_o practice_n may_v be_v suspect_v less_o how_o i_o can_v easy_o dispense_v with_o any_o indirect_a way_n so_o i_o may_v by_o it_o be_v bring_v to_o my_o own_o end_n how_o i_o neglect_v no_o time_n to_o fit_v my_o own_o turn_n o_o while_o i_o remember_v these_o thing_n i_o be_o utter_o cast_v down_o there_o be_v no_o breath_n in_o i_o my_o flesh_n fail_v i_o and_o my_o strength_n decay_v within_o i_o for_o i_o know_v lord_n how_o thou_o have_v these_o thing_n in_o thy_o remembrance_n and_o if_o thou_o deal_v with_o i_o according_a to_o thy_o justice_n there_o be_v no_o hope_n for_o such_o a_o incorrigible_a sinner_n he_o be_v lose_v he_o be_v lose_v for_o ever_o and_o yet_o lord_n there_o be_v a_o little_a zacheus_n who_o thou_o call_v from_o the_o receipt_n of_o custom_n and_o no_o doubt_n who_o know_v the_o world_n and_o how_o to_o make_v gain_n in_o the_o world_n who_o leave_v his_o call_v for_o thou_o climb_v up_o into_o a_o figtree_n to_o see_v thou_o and_o come_v down_o speedy_o from_o thence_o to_o receive_v thou_o and_o that_o he_o may_v more_o full_o confirm_v his_o love_n unto_o thou_o divide_v his_o good_n that_o he_o may_v whole_o reserve_v himself_o for_o thou_o o_o deal_v so_o with_o i_o my_o sweet_a saviour_n that_o of_o a_o covetous_a sinner_n i_o may_v become_v a_o true_a penitent_a convert_n in_o bestow_v the_o small_a remainder_n of_o my_o day_n to_o thy_o honour_n chap._n 23._o he_o take_v a_o view_n of_o those_o seven_o spiritual_a work_n of_o mercy_n and_o acknowledgetle_v his_o fail_n in_o each_o of_o they_o thou_o have_v take_v now_o a_o full_a view_n of_o those_o two_o table_n deliver_v by_o god_n unto_o moses_n by_o he_o to_o we_o and_o thou_o can_v not_o to_o thy_o great_a grief_n find_v one_o the_o breach_n whereof_o may_v not_o just_o accuse_v nay_o convict_v thou_o go_v on_o yet_o a_o little_a further_o and_o thou_o will_v find_v thyself_o ever_o worse_a and_o worser_o tell_v i_o do_v thou_o hope_v to_o receive_v mercy_n thou_o do_v well_o to_o hope_n for_o without_o hope_n the_o heart_n will_v break_v but_o what_o have_v thou_o do_v that_o may_v become_v so_o acceptable_a in_o his_o sight_n as_o may_v bring_v thou_o in_o a_o full_a hope_n or_o assurance_n of_o receive_v this_o mercy_n at_o his_o hand_n thou_o know_v well_o that_o we_o be_v to_o work_v out_o our_o salvation_n with_o fear_n and_o tremble_a that_o not_o unto_o he_o that_o cry_v lord_n lord_n but_o for_o he_o that_o do_v the_o will_n of_o his_o father_n which_o be_v in_o heaven_n be_v the_o place_n of_o bliss_n prepare_v for_o if_o work_v be_v the_o fruit_n of_o faith_n to_o make_v a_o fruitful_a faith_n thou_o shall_v apply_v thyself_o to_o be_v plenteous_a in_o good_a work_n thou_o know_v how_o the_o barren_a fig_n tree_n become_v accurse_v how_o the_o barren_a womb_n in_o the_o old_a law_n be_v hold_v accurse_v the_o pharisee_n prayer_n because_o it_o bear_v more_o leaf_n than_o fruit_n be_v reject_v the_o publican_n prayer_n because_o it_o bear_v more_o fruit_n than_o leaf_n be_v accept_v love_n be_v the_o fulfil_n of_o the_o law_n now_o what_o argument_n be_v there_o of_o the_o love_n we_o bear_v he_o if_o we_o have_v not_o a_o long_a desire_n to_o do_v that_o which_o may_v please_v he_o the_o proof_n of_o
of_o knowledge_n and_o wisdom_n and_o from_o who_o be_v all_o the_o counsel_n of_o the_o wise_a direct_v i_o in_o the_o way_n of_o life_n remove_v from_o i_o the_o way_n of_o death_n give_v i_o a_o soft_a and_o meek_a spirit_n that_o i_o may_v use_v all_o good_a mean_n to_o bring_v home_o those_o that_o be_v wander_v to_o strengthen_v those_o that_o be_v stand_v to_o help_v the_o succourless_a comfort_v the_o comfortless_a and_o to_o afford_v my_o best_a counsel_n unto_o all_o according_a to_o their_o several_a necessity_n o_o my_o dear_a lord_n pardon_v i_o for_o the_o neglect_n of_o this_o duty_n and_o make_v i_o to_o redeem_v the_o time_n with_o a_o cheerful_a constancy_n chap._n 27._o comfort_v the_o afflict_a as_o affliction_n be_v the_o mean_n to_o bring_v man_n to_o the_o knowledge_n of_o himself_o so_o give_v it_o occasion_n of_o try_v the_o charity_n of_o a_o other_o who_o be_v he_o that_o be_v afflict_v and_o i_o comfort_v he_o not_o now_o answer_n poor_a pilgrim_n if_o thou_o can_v to_o this_o intergatorie_n have_v thou_o at_o any_o time_n apply_v comfort_n to_o the_o afflict_a nay_o rather_o haste_v thou_o not_o rejoice_v in_o his_o affliction_n or_o with_o one_o of_o job_n miserable_a comforter_n increase_v his_o affliction_n have_v thou_o play_v the_o part_n of_o the_o levite_n or_o samaritan_n when_o thou_o find_v he_o wound_v do_v thou_o pour_v the_o balm_n of_o thy_o best_a comfort_n into_o he_o do_v thou_o support_v he_o in_o his_o weakness_n solace_n he_o in_o his_o heaviness_n o_o no_o though_o before_o the_o time_n of_o his_o affliction_n i_o profess_v myself_o his_o friend_n and_o upon_o all_o occasion_n will_v be_v near_o he_o yet_o when_o he_o fall_v from_o what_o he_o be_v i_o shrink_v from_o what_o i_o profess_v my_o countenance_n begin_v to_o be_v change_v towards_o he_o and_o be_v this_o to_o comfort_v the_o afflict_a be_v this_o to_o bind_v up_o his_o wound_n be_v this_o perform_v the_o office_n of_o a_o friend_n do_v i_o to_o this_o afflict_a soul_n as_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v do_v unto_o have_v i_o not_o sometime_o feel_v the_o bitterness_n of_o a_o afflict_a spirit_n even_o in_o my_o own_o bowel_n and_o then_o i_o roar_v out_o o_o a_o trouble_a spirit_n who_o can_v heal_v and_o yet_o god_n in_o his_o due_a time_n comfort_v i_o expect_v that_o the_o like_a shall_v be_v do_v by_o i_o but_o no_o soon_o be_v i_o set_v on_o my_o foot_n than_o my_o corporal_a cure_n strip_v i_o of_o all_o spiritual_a care_n i_o drink_v wine_n in_o bowl_n and_o apply_v my_o care_n to_o the_o sound_n of_o the_o harp_n i_o stretch_v myself_o on_o bed_n of_o ivory_n fatten_v myself_o with_o the_o delight_n of_o vanity_n but_o never_o sorry_a for_o the_o affliction_n of_o my_o brother_n joseph_n o_o my_o dear_a lord_n deal_v not_o thus_o with_o i_o for_o i_o perish_v if_o thou_o turn_v away_o thy_o face_n from_o i_o i_o have_v be_v in_o heaviness_n and_o thou_o do_v comfort_v i_o bring_v i_o to_o a_o fellow-feeling_n of_o a_o other_o misery_n that_o i_o may_v mourn_v with_o those_o that_o mourn_n and_o partake_v with_o they_o in_o their_o affliction_n for_o so_o shall_v i_o receive_v comfort_n in_o the_o day_n of_o my_o visitation_n chap._n 28._o suffer_v injury_n patient_o i_o have_v often_o think_v with_o myself_o how_o i_o never_o more_o near_o resemble_v my_o saviour_n than_o that_o very_a day_n wherein_o i_o become_v a_o sufferer_n and_o yet_o so_o strong_o have_v flesh_n and_o blood_n wrought_v upon_o i_o as_o i_o find_v nothing_o more_o hard_a to_o digest_v then_o a_o injury_n i_o leave_v my_o pattern_n and_o run_v into_o the_o worldâ—_n where_o i_o find_v revenge_n play_v her_o part_n crying_z no_o peace_n no_o peace_n and_o i_o become_v one_o of_o her_o follower_n offence_n receive_v i_o weigh_v above_o their_o quality_n but_o do_v i_o can_v lessen_v they_o smooth_o so_o partial_a a_o friend_n be_v i_o to_o myself_o so_o violent_a a_o foe_n unto_o other_o we_o usual_o account_v that_o beast_n the_o strong_a that_o can_v bear_v the_o great_a burden_n mean_v time_n we_o hold_v he_o the_o weak_a that_o have_v a_o back_n to_o bear_v the_o great_a injury_n but_o alas_o what_o matter_n make_v it_o what_o foolish_a flesh_n account_v he_o he_o be_v not_o for_o god_n presence_n who_o will_v not_o possess_v his_o soul_n in_o patience_n and_o can_v thou_o speak_v this_o proud_a pilgrim_n and_o not_o tremble_v do_v thou_o call_v to_o mind_n what_o unsufferable_a dishonour_n the_o lord_n of_o lord_n suffer_v for_o thy_o sake_n what_o mock_n what_o spitting_n what_o buffet_n what_o whip_n what_o reproachful_a torment_n he_o suffer_v that_o thou_o may_v be_v free_a yet_o what_o do_v his_o innocence_n answer_v for_o itself_o but_o in_o silence_n and_o yet_o for_o all_o this_o thy_o blood_n must_v be_v inflame_v if_o the_o least_o occasion_n of_o distaste_n be_v offer_v thy_o reputation_n can_v bear_v it_o thy_o spirit_n must_v not_o so_o be_v baffalt_n poor_a passionate_a worm_n what_o a_o stir_n be_v this_o thou_o make_v with_o thyself_o pray_v thou_o tell_v i_o who_o make_v thou_o thou_o own_o revenger_n o_o do_v not_o rob_v he_o who_o make_v thou_o of_o what_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o and_o what_o be_v estrange_v from_o thou_o oh_o but_o this_o revenge_n have_v be_v no_o stranger_n to_o i_o that_o day_n nor_o night_n pass_v not_o over_o i_o wherein_o she_o keep_v i_o not_o company_n and_o with_o her_o press_n urge_v i_o to_o requite_v a_o injury_n she_o dictate_v to_o i_o what_o a_o disgrace_n it_o be_v for_o a_o man_n of_o quality_n to_o bear_v a_o affront_n from_o any_o how_o these_o will_v live_v when_o i_o be_v dead_a and_o leave_v a_o aspersion_n on_o my_o grave_n these_o and_o such_o as_o these_o make_v i_o forget_v god_n and_o to_o take_v out_o of_o his_o hand_n what_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o o_o thou_o avenger_n of_o the_o needy_a raiser_n of_o the_o humble_a and_o puller_n down_o of_o the_o mighty_a let_v it_o be_v never_o say_v of_o i_o that_o i_o have_v seek_v to_o rob_v thou_o of_o thy_o glory_n revenge_n be_v thou_o and_o thou_o will_v repay_v it_o be_v it_o so_o lord_n and_o may_v he_o be_v take_v in_o his_o own_o sâ—are_n who_o seek_v to_o prevent_v thou_o in_o it_o o_o may_v the_o presence_n of_o my_o crucify_a saviour_n make_v i_o become_v a_o patient_a sufferer_n chap._n 29._o forgive_a offence_n hearty_o what_o a_o dangerous_a thing_n the_o memory_n be_v when_o make_v a_o reteiner_n of_o injury_n this_o cause_v that_o noble_a heathen_a to_o desire_v rather_o how_o to_o learn_v the_o art_n of_o forgetfulness_n than_o the_o art_n of_o memory_n because_o he_o remember_v more_o thing_n mean_v of_o offence_n do_v he_o which_o he_o desire_v to_o forget_v than_o ever_o he_o forget_v what_o he_o desire_v to_o remember_v this_o very_a case_n be_v i_o i_o have_v suffer_v but_o not_o comparable_o to_o what_o i_o have_v make_v other_o suffer_v i_o hold_v the_o offence_n do_v i_o so_o unsupportable_a as_o they_o be_v above_o the_o power_n of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n to_o bear_v reconcile_v i_o will_v not_o be_v unto_o death_n for_o death_n i_o pretend_v easy_a to_o such_o a_o injury_n so_o as_o though_o by_o continuance_n of_o time_n and_o intercede_v of_o friend_n i_o may_v seem_v in_o some_o sort_n to_o cool_v all_o that_o their_o persuasion_n can_v bring_v i_o to_o be_v this_o i_o will_v forgive_v he_o but_o never_o forget_v he_o i_o will_v ever_o have_v a_o eye_n on_o he_o nay_o rather_o if_o i_o at_o any_o time_n meet_v he_o i_o will_v ever_o have_v my_o eye_n from_o he_o my_o heart_n be_v not_o with_o he_o neither_o can_v i_o with_o patience_n such_o be_v my_o malice_n speak_v unto_o he_o and_o be_v this_o to_o forgive_v offence_n hearty_o o_o how_o can_v i_o look_v upon_o the_o image_n of_o god_n in_o he_o and_o forget_v myself_o so_o much_o towards_o he_o as_o not_o to_o vouchsafe_v to_o cast_v a_o good_a countenance_n upon_o he_o vile_a wretch_n what_o may_v become_v of_o thou_o if_o god_n in_o his_o justice_n shall_v so_o deal_v with_o thou_o be_v there_o ever_o offence_n do_v by_o the_o most_o profess_a enemy_n that_o may_v be_v compare_v to_o those_o which_o we_o daily_o do_v to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n o_o no_o how_o be_v it_o then_o must_v he_o both_o forget_v and_o forgive_v and_o thy_o rancour_n such_o as_o thou_o will_v only_o forgive_v but_o not_o forget_v o_o pour_v thyself_o forth_o into_o a_o sea_n of_o tear_n be_v so_o far_o from_o not_o forgive_a offence_n when_o thy_o enemy_n do_v beg_v it_o as_o thou_o do_v hearty_o forgive_v he_o before_o he_o beg_v it_o dear_a lord_n this_o i_o resolve_v
ground_n where_o no_o water_n be_v so_o have_v she_o thirst_v after_o thou_o and_o now_o lord_n that_o i_o may_v present_v myself_o before_o thou_o with_o more_o humility_n i_o will_v ever_o set_v my_o imperfection_n before_o i_o remember_v what_o good_a i_o have_v omit_v when_o i_o have_v opportunity_n to_o do_v it_o again_o what_o evil_a i_o have_v commit_v when_o the_o remembrance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n may_v have_v decline_v i_o frâ—_n it_o among_o which_o let_v i_o now_o call_v to_o mind_v those_o blessing_n thy_o gracious_a goodness_n have_v pronounce_v to_o every_o faithful_a follower_n and_o then_o examine_v myself_o whether_o i_o deserve_v or_o no_o to_o be_v list_v in_o that_o number_n chap._n 40._o bless_a be_v the_o poor_a in_o spirit_n for_o for_o they_o be_v the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n hvmility_n be_v the_o path_n that_o lead_v to_o glory_n there_o be_v no_o virtue_n that_o can_v subsist_v without_o it_o this_o may_v be_v one_o reason_n why_o the_o very_a first_o beatitude_n be_v ground_v on_o it_o but_o what_o be_v we_o to_o learn_v from_o hence_o not_o to_o be_v high-minded_a but_o of_o a_o humble_a and_o meek_a spirit_n in_o suffer_v dishonour_n for_o the_o honour_n of_o our_o saviour_n in_o possess_v our_o soul_n with_o patience_n in_o mitigate_a wrath_n with_o mildness_n in_o relinquish_a himself_n in_o prefer_v other_o before_o himself_o in_o judge_v well_o of_o other_o but_o worst_a of_o himself_o in_o wish_v unto_o other_o as_o to_o himself_o in_o rejoice_v in_o nothing_o but_o in_o the_o cross_n of_o christ_n yet_o unfeigned_o suffer_v with_o those_o who_o suffer_v for_o christ._n now_o return_v and_o account_n proud_a pilgrim_n whether_o there_o appear_v any_o token_n of_o this_o poor_a spirit_n in_o thou_o have_v thou_o not_o ever_o retain_v a_o good_a opinion_n of_o thy_o own_o worthless_a worth_n have_v thou_o not_o be_v of_o a_o contentious_a spirit_n have_v thou_o not_o answer_v reproach_n with_o reproach_n have_v thou_o not_o be_v more_o ready_a in_o defend_v thy_o own_o honour_n then_o advance_v the_o honour_n of_o thy_o saviour_n have_v thou_o not_o be_v so_o far_o from_o possess_v thy_o soul_n in_o patience_n as_o thou_o can_v not_o endure_v the_o least_o affront_n without_o much_o violence_n have_v thou_o with_o soft_a word_n mitigate_v wrath_n nay_o have_v thou_o never_o suffer_v the_o sun_n to_o set_v upon_o thy_o wrath_n have_v thou_o in_o a_o humble_a contempt_n of_o thyself_o prefer_v other_o before_o thyself_o nay_o rather_o haste_v thou_o not_o with_o the_o spirit_n of_o contradiction_n oppose_v thy_o judgement_n against_o other_o and_o out_o of_o a_o foolish_a presumption_n make_v a_o idol_n of_o thyself_o have_v thou_o in_o the_o scale_n of_o charity_n prefer_v other_o before_o thyself_o or_o rather_o have_v thou_o not_o rash_o judge_v other_o in_o thy_o heart_n and_o in_o thy_o too_o strict_a examination_n of_o he_o conclude_v with_o that_o proud_a pharisee_fw-mi i_o be_o not_o as_o this_o man_n be_v in_o a_o word_n have_v thou_o judge_v well_o of_o other_o but_o worst_a of_o thy_o self_n or_o wish_v unto_o other_o as_o to_o thy_o self_n or_o rejoice_v like_o a_o faithful_a champion_n in_o the_o cross_n of_o christ_n or_o like_o a_o compassionate_a member_n suffer_v with_o those_o who_o suffer_v for_o christ_n o_o no_o nothing_o less_o can_v i_o find_v in_o myself_o unhappy_a pilgrim_n i_o have_v ever_o hold_v a_o poor_a spirit_n in_o contempt_n and_o a_o unfit_a companion_n to_o take_v acquaintance_n of_o in_o this_o world_n how_o then_o dear_a saviour_n may_v i_o expect_v a_o inheritance_n in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n who_o be_o so_o far_o estrange_v from_o a_o mild_a spirit_n on_o earth_n o_o my_o lord_n incline_v thy_o ear_n to_o my_o petition_n renew_v a_o right_a spirit_n within_o i_o so_o shall_v i_o be_v endow_v with_o what_o delight_v thou_o by_o account_v a_o meek_a spirit_n a_o spiritual_a beauty_n and_o after_o this_o life_n through_o thy_o mercy_n become_v inheritor_n of_o that_o kingdom_n which_o thou_o have_v prepare_v for_o those_o that_o love_v thou_o chap._n 41._o bless_a be_v the_o meek_a for_o they_o shall_v possess_v the_o earth_n here_o be_v a_o promise_n that_o the_o meek_a shall_v possess_v the_o earth_n and_o yet_o be_v it_o hard_o to_o find_v a_o spirit_n true_o meek_a upon_o the_o earth_n by_o which_o thou_o may_v gather_v poor_a pilgrim_n that_o there_o be_v another_o earth_n beside_o this_o earth_n we_o here_o tread_v on_o which_o shall_v be_v give_v for_o a_o possession_n to_o the_o meek_a that_o desire_a earth_n prepare_v only_o for_o such_o who_o have_v wain_v their_o desire_n from_o earth_n this_o be_v a_o land_n which_o flow_v with_o better_a thing_n than_o milk_n and_o honey_n a_o heavenly_a havilah_n where_o the_o pure_a gold_n be_v to_o be_v find_v nay_o where_o the_o very_a street_n be_v pave_v with_o gold_n the_o wall_n be_v of_o precious_a stone_n the_o gate_n be_v make_v of_o the_o best_a margarite_n those_o many_o mansion_n found_v of_o square_a 25._o stone_n build_v of_o saphire_n arch_v over_o with_o golden_a brick_n which_o none_o must_v enter_v but_o he_o that_o be_v clean_o none_o must_v inhabit_v that_o be_v defile_v where_o then_o must_v thy_o possession_n be_v in_o this_o land_n of_o promise_n what_o mansion_n may_v thou_o expect_v in_o this_o holy_a city_n woe_n be_v i_o i_o be_o unclean_a i_o be_o unclean_a from_o head_n to_o foot_n there_o be_v nothing_o in_o i_o but_o boil_v sore_n and_o run_n how_o may_v i_o then_o look_v there_o to_o receive_v any_o mansion_n see_v to_o a_o clean_a lord_n be_v require_v a_o clean_a habitation_n how_o may_v i_o think_v that_o my_o master_n will_v look_v on_o i_o who_o all_o my_o life_n time_n have_v observe_v lest_o what_o he_o command_v most_o practise_v nothing_o more_o than_o what_o he_o prohibit_v neglect_v nothing_o more_o than_o what_o he_o command_v how_o may_v i_o expect_v from_o his_o hand_n a_o blessing_n or_o this_o promise_a possession_n of_o that_o earth_n who_o never_o show_v so_o much_o as_o the_o least_o meekness_n upon_o earth_n yet_o do_v that_o meek_a lamb_n who_o become_v a_o offering_n for_o i_o leave_v such_o a_o pattern_n unto_o i_o that_o if_o i_o be_v not_o whole_o unmindful_a of_o my_o soul_n honour_n nor_o whole_o forgetful_a of_o the_o love_n of_o such_o a_o master_n i_o can_v not_o choose_v but_o after_o his_o example_n become_v his_o meek_a and_o obedient_a follower_n for_o his_o whole_a life_n be_v a_o mirror_n of_o meekness_n see_v from_o the_o cratch_n to_o the_o cross_n he_o suffer_v all_o thing_n patient_o bear_v all_o reproach_n meek_o to_o reach_v unto_o thou_o from_o the_o tree_n of_o his_o cross_n a_o crown_n of_o glory_n o_o my_o redeemer_n imprint_v this_o meekness_n of_o thou_o in_o my_o memory_n let_v it_o never_o depart_v from_o i_o put_v a_o meek_a and_o mild_a answer_n into_o my_o mouth_n when_o any_o one_o shall_v revile_v i_o let_v i_o refer_v my_o cause_n unto_o thou_o and_o that_o with_o such_o christian_a charity_n as_o i_o may_v sincere_o pray_v for_o my_o enemy_n and_o in_o meekness_n of_o spirit_n to_o imitate_v the_o example_n of_o that_o meek_a lamb_n who_o with_o so_o resign_v a_o will_n become_v a_o sacrifice_n for_o i_o chap._n 42._o bless_a be_v they_o that_o mourn_v for_o they_o shall_v be_v comfort_v that_o wise_a preacher_n can_v say_v it_o be_v better_a go_v to_o the_o house_n of_o mourning_n then_o to_o the_o house_n of_o rejoice_v and_o yet_o how_o little_a do_v this_o admonition_n work_v upon_o thy_o thought_n how_o pleasant_a have_v those_o consort_n of_o death_n those_o brethren_n in_o evil_n seem_v unto_o thou_o how_o merry_o the_o hour_n go_v away_o nothing_o be_v want_v to_o make_v your_o delight_n more_o complete_a but_o that_o you_o want_v time_n to_o make_v your_o folly_n more_o complete_a full_a cup_n merry_a song_n profane_a oath_n be_v the_o only_a actor_n that_o present_v themselves_o in_o this_o expense_n of_o time_n a_o long_a night_n soon_o pass_v over_o but_o not_o so_o easy_o account_v for_o but_o tell_v i_o thou_o misguide_a pilgrim_n be_v it_o thou_o as_o quick_a in_o thy_o visit_n to_o the_o house_n of_o mourning_n do_v thou_o labour_v to_o comfort_v the_o comfortless_a do_v thou_o mourn_v with_o those_o that_o mourn_v or_o with_o a_o tender_a christian_a heart_n suffer_v with_o those_o that_o suffer_v o_o no_o shall_v i_o rather_o tell_v thou_o what_o thou_o have_v do_v thou_o have_v rejoice_v when_o other_o mourn_v take_v content_a when_o other_o suffer_v nay_o if_o at_o any_o time_n thou_o mourned'_v it_o be_v such_o as_o god_n himself_o be_v provoke_v with_o it_o for_o thou_o either_o immoderate_o mourned'_v for_o the_o loss_n of_o thy_o friend_n and_o so_o
at_o first_o it_o dista_v i_o for_o how_o can_v it_o sound_v well_o in_o the_o ear_n of_o reason_n to_o hear_v one_o break_v forth_o into_o the_o immerited_a praise_n of_o a_o immoderate_a passion_n yet_o the_o conceit_n of_o revenge_n wrought_v so_o strong_o on_o my_o affection_n that_o howsoever_o i_o oppose_v the_o premise_n i_o approve_v well_o of_o his_o conclusion_n o_o lord_n terrible_a and_o just_a what_o will_v become_v of_o i_o if_o thou_o shall_v have_v my_o sin_n in_o thy_o remembrance_n or_o shall_v punish_v i_o in_o thy_o wrathful_a displeasure_n and_o yet_o bear_v i_o a_o malicious_a heart_n to_o my_o brother_n he_o many_o time_n with_o many_o tear_n have_v beseech_v my_o pardon_n yet_o will_v not_o all_o these_o work_n in_o i_o any_o remorse_n or_o compassion_n o_o look_v down_o upon_o i_o with_o the_o eye_n of_o thy_o mercy_n remove_v from_o i_o the_o spirit_n of_o fury_n and_o arm_v i_o with_o the_o shield_n of_o patience_n and_o lenity_n i_o know_v lord_n thou_o have_v command_v we_o not_o to_o suffer_v the_o sun_n to_o go_v down_o upon_o our_o wrath_n and_o yet_o many_o sun_n nay_o many_o season_n have_v go_v down_o on_o my_o wrath_n i_o sleep_v secure_o while_o wrath_n encompass_v my_o bed_n and_o revenge_n lay_v a_o pillow_n for_o my_o head_n o_o thou_o mild_a lamb_n imprint_v the_o memory_n of_o thy_o example_n in_o the_o tablet_n of_o my_o heart_n make_v i_o to_o love_v my_o enemy_n and_o with_o a_o wise_a virgin_n lamp_n feed_v with_o the_o oil_n of_o charity_n follow_v thou_o my_o sweet_a spouseâ—_n unto_o the_o heavenly_a city_n chap._n 55._o sloath._n but_o among_o all_o other_o who_o have_v liberal_o partake_v of_o my_o bounty_n there_o be_v one_o who_o so_o little_o deserve_v it_o that_o in_o a_o careless_a security_n as_o one_o respectless_a of_o any_o courtesy_n he_o will_v all_o the_o day_n long_o take_v his_o rest_n and_o scarce_o rise_v without_o much_o ado_n to_o take_v his_o necessary_a repast_n and_o one_o day_n i_o chance_v 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