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will_v for_o ever_o trust_v in_o he_o and_o rely_v upon_o he_o as_o the_o life_n of_o my_o life_n and_o as_o to_o i_o both_o in_o life_n and_o death_n advantage_n and_o have_v such_o a_o proof_n of_o the_o infinite_a love_n of_o god_n to_o i_o in_o not_o spare_v his_o own_o son_n but_o give_v he_o up_o to_o death_n for_o i_o shall_v i_o ever_o doubt_v of_o my_o freedom_n from_o condemnation_n such_o a_o price_n be_v pay_v for_o the_o discharge_n of_o my_o debt_n by_o such_o a_o surety_n i_o do_v believe_v that_o christ_n overcome_v sin_n death_n the_o grave_n and_o hell_n and_o rise_v again_o from_o the_o dead_a ascend_v into_o heaven_n and_o sit_v on_o the_o right_a hand_n of_o god_n in_o majesty_n rom._n 1._o 4._o and_o that_o he_o have_v purchase_v his_o church_n by_o his_o blood_n and_o that_o he_o be_v a_o lawgiver_n to_o his_o church_n jam._n 4._o 12._o which_o be_v gather_v by_o his_o voice_n joh._n 17._o 9_o separate_v from_o sinful_a society_n with_o the_o world_n for_o she_o 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constant_o endeavour_v to_o be_v more_o and_o more_o holy_a what_o thanks_o shall_v i_o give_v unto_o god_n who_o have_v call_v i_o out_o of_o darkness_n into_o his_o marvellous_a light_n and_o save_v i_o from_o the_o common_a condemnation_n of_o the_o world_n o_o the_o depth_n of_o the_o love_n of_o christ_n unto_o i_o i_o do_v believe_v that_o there_o shall_v be_v a_o general_a judgement_n psal._n 9_o 8._o that_o christ_n shall_v be_v the_o judge_n a_o visible_a judge_n in_o his_o humane_a nature_n act._n 17._o 13._o that_o it_o shall_v be_v at_o the_o last_o day_n but_o the_o precise_a day_n and_o hour_n be_v not_o know_v to_o any_o man_n or_o angel_n mat._n 24._o
36._o that_o then_o every_o man_n shall_v be_v judge_v judas_n 15._o and_o every_o secret_a thing_n shall_v be_v bring_v to_o light_v rom._n 2._o 16._o and_o that_o the_o judgement_n will_v be_v most_o just_a and_o so_o confess_v by_o all_o rom._n 2._o 5_o 6._o why_o then_o shall_v i_o fear_v the_o last_o judgement_n see_v he_o shall_v be_v my_o judge_n who_o be_v my_o brother_n advocate_n and_o redeemer_n he_o that_o be_v willing_o judge_v for_o i_o will_v give_v no_o hard_a sentence_n against_o i_o yea_o he_o have_v already_o absolve_v i_o from_o my_o sin_n and_o give_v i_o the_o earnest_n of_o his_o spirit_n and_o the_o seal_n of_o the_o sacrament_n and_o i_o have_v judge_v myself_o that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v condemn_v with_o the_o world_n 1_o cor._n 11._o 32._o i_o do_v believe_v that_o the_o glory_n of_o heaven_n be_v unspeakable_a and_o incomprehensible_a by_o we_o here_o on_o earth_n 1_o cor._n 2._o 9_o that_o be_v it_o eternal_a matth._n 25._o 45._o and_o that_o it_o be_v the_o gift_n of_o god_n proceed_v only_o from_o his_o free_a grace_n not_o our_o merit_n luke_n 12._o 32._o his_o free_a gift_n bestow_v only_o upon_o the_o elect_n rev._n 21._o 27._o o_o that_o i_o can_v by_o the_o effectualness_n of_o contemplation_n behold_v the_o greatness_n of_o this_o felicity_n which_o be_v provide_v for_o i_o yet_o as_o i_o can_v conceive_v it_o i_o can_v choose_v but_o long_o to_o be_v absent_a from_o hence_o that_o i_o may_v be_v present_a with_o the_o lord_n 2_o cor._n 5._o 8._o who_o be_v admirable_a beauty_n i_o shall_v clear_o see_v and_o know_v as_o i_o be_o know_v and_o that_o with_o a_o perfection_n both_o of_o holiness_n and_o happiness_n such_o holiness_n as_o will_v not_o only_o free_v i_o from_o all_o sin_n but_o from_o all_o possibility_n of_o sin_v such_o happiness_n as_o that_o cease_v from_o all_o labour_n and_o sorrow_n i_o shall_v enjoy_v a_o eternal_a sabbath_n and_o shall_v be_v free_a to_o all_o the_o treasure_n of_o heaven_n and_o with_o 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at_o hand_n commit_v thy_o way_n unto_o the_o lord_n trust_v also_o in_o he_o and_o he_o shall_v bring_v it_o to_o pass_v psal._n 37._o 5._o if_o at_o any_o time_n she_o be_v sinister_o censure_v by_o any_o one_o her_o faith_n apply_v that_o promise_n to_o her_o heart_n he_o shall_v bring_v forth_o thy_o righteousness_n as_o the_o light_n and_o thy_o judgement_n as_o the_o noon_n day_n psal._n 35._o 6._o and_o whatsoever_o it_o be_v that_o come_v upon_o she_o as_o a_o cross_n her_o faith_n be_v either_o as_o a_o wreath_n betwixt_o her_o shoulder_n and_o it_o that_o it_o do_v not_o pinch_v she_o or_o a_o remover_n of_o it_o from_o herself_o to_o he_o who_o be_v best_o able_a to_o bear_v it_o by_o virtue_n of_o that_o warrant_n psal._n 55._o 22._o cast_v thy_o burden_n upon_o the_o lord_n and_o he_o shall_v sustain_v thou_o and_o that_o do_v her_o faith_n which_o teach_v to_o keep_v a_o even_a pace_n with_o the_o promise_n not_o make_v haste_n isa._n 28._o 16._o by_o anticipate_v the_o 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