refuse_v the_o seal_n thereof_o i_o know_v i_o be_o vile_a i_o be_o vile_a but_o thou_o have_v pardon_v i_o lord_n i_o have_v abuse_v thy_o love_n a_o thousand_o time_n refuse_v thy_o offer_a self_n and_o withstand_v the_o tender_n of_o thy_o grace_n but_o thou_o have_v cover_v all_o my_o sin_n thou_o have_v free_o justify_v i_o by_o thy_o grace_n and_o make_v a_o full_a atonement_n for_o i_o by_o thy_o blood_n this_o be_v that_o thou_o free_o bid_v i_o take_v and_o i_o have_v free_o drink_v it_o never_o be_v wine_n so_o full_a as_o this_o be_v never_o be_v bowl_n so_o full_a of_o pleasure_n as_o this_o i_o have_v swallow_v down_o my_o life_n and_o pardon_n at_o one_o draught_n i_o take_v it_o from_o my_o saviour_n hand_n it_o be_v a_o cup_n of_o his_o own_o prepare_v if_o ever_o drink_n be_v sugar_a this_o be_v i_o never_o taste_v better_o relish_v wine_n in_o all_o my_o life_n the_o rich_a cordial_n can_v match_v this_o draught_n divine_a spirit_n of_o pearl_n dissolve_v will_v but_o 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of_o sorrow_n death_n hell_n that_o i_o must_v have_v take_v and_o can_v thou_o mourn_v methinks_v if_o thou_o do_v love_v thy_o heart_n shall_v rather_o sympathize_v with_o his_o he_o be_v sing_v and_o shall_v thou_o be_v sigh_v he_o be_v joy_v that_o his_o work_n be_v do_v and_o now_o be_v welcome_v into_o heaven_n by_o god_n his_o father_n and_o shout_v up_o by_o angel_n voice_n as_o the_o great_a conqueror_n of_o the_o heart_n of_o man_n on_o earth_n and_o that_o now_o in_o triumph_n he_o be_v return_v and_o will_v a_o mournful_a weed_n a_o wet_a eye_n and_o a_o cloudy_a brow_n become_v thou_o at_o these_o time_n of_o festival_n shall_v the_o heavenly_a angel_n be_v joyful_a and_o thou_o sad_a how_o strange_o will_v this_o be_v construe_v will_v it_o not_o be_v say_v thou_o do_v not_o love_v he_o or_o thou_o do_v envy_v his_o recover_a glory_n that_o he_o have_v leave_v and_o now_o again_o have_v take_v or_o that_o thou_o can_v not_o endure_v to_o see_v he_o wear_v his_o prince_n crown_n in_o heaven_n that_o for_o a_o time_n he_o have_v lay_v aside_o to_o come_v down_o to_o the_o earth_n to_o fetch_v thou_o thence_o to_o heaven_n but_o ah_o my_o lord_n thou_o will_v not_o sure_o interpret_v sorrow_n thus_o thou_o have_v not_o sure_o forget_v to_o give_v a_o meaning_n unto_o tear_n to_o teach_v a_o sigh_n to_o speak_v and_o then_o to_o know_v its_o language_n have_v my_o lord_n forget_v so_o sudden_o that_o he_o be_v on_o earth_n and_o that_o he_o sweat_v and_o groan_v and_o weep_v and_o bleed_v as_o well_o as_o i_o do_v now_o what_o though_o now_o all_o tear_n and_o sorrow_n and_o sigh_v be_v do_v away_o and_o he_o cease_v to_o be_v any_o long_a subject_n to_o our_o infirmity_n yet_o sure_o he_o know_v it_o be_v not_o thus_o with_o we_o i_o be_o not_o yet_o in_o heaven_n nor_o be_o i_o yet_o quite_o past_o the_o vale_n of_o sorrow_n and_o it_o can_v then_o be_v strange_a to_o he_o if_o he_o see_v sometime_o our_o face_n look_v of_o a_o sad_a hue_n than_o 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in_o several_a particular_n 1._o sorrow_n be_v the_o proper_a consequent_a of_o sin_n christian_n therefore_o so_o far_o as_o free_v from_o sin_n be_v necessary_o in_o a_o state_n of_o freedom_n from_o sinful_a sorrow_n slavish_a fear_n etc._n etc._n that_o liberty_n 2_o cor._n 3._o latter_a end_n be_v fix_v to_o joy_n nothing_o so_o genuine_a and_o characteristical_o appendant_a to_o the_o state_n of_o a_o adopt_a child_n of_o god_n as_o joy_n because_o have_v the_o spirit_n he_o ought_v to_o rejoice_v evermore_o and_o that_o with_o joy_n unspeakable_a and_o full_a of_o glory_n 2._o i_o grant_v also_o that_o saint_n ought_v to_o joy_n in_o one_o another_o society_n with_o a_o spiritual_a delight_n consider_v the_o wiseman_n saying_n prov._n 15.16_o better_a be_v little_a with_o the_o fear_n of_o the_o lord_n than_o great_a treasure_n and_o trouble_v therewith_o the_o company_n of_o such_o shall_v be_v all_o their_o delight_n psal_n 16.3_o christ_n himself_o speak_v of_o his_o rejoice_v in_o the_o habitable_a part_n of_o his_o earth_n and_o his_o delight_n with_o the_o son_n of_o man_n prov._n 8.31_o this_o may_v be_v more_o at_o large_a evidence_v from_o scripture_n 3._o i_o must_v as_o i_o have_v have_v too_o sad_a a_o cause_n put_v in_o this_o much_o that_o as_o christian_a liberty_n in_o other_o thing_n through_o satan_n policy_n be_v abuse_v too_o too_o much_o for_o a_o occasion_n to_o the_o gratify_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o vanity_n of_o heart_n which_o shall_v not_o be_v gal._n 5.13_o so_o in_o this_o which_o i_o account_v if_o it_o be_v bring_v to_o the_o face_n vain_a laughter_n which_o i_o shall_v describe_v in_o brief_a and_o then_o leave_v to_o spiritual_a judgement_n there_o be_v such_o a_o frame_n of_o heart_n in_o many_o precious_a saint_n as_o this_o viz._n ascertain_v sudden_a indeliberate_a and_o rash_a leap_v of_o heart_n careless_o blind_o and_o unadvised_o transport_v with_o fleshly_a apprehension_n of_o some_o sensual_a 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the_o careless_a son_n the_o bane_n of_o reason_n and_o poison_n of_o religion_n carnality_n therefore_o and_o vanity_n be_v the_o formal_a constitutives_n of_o this_o distemper_n vanity_n i_o say_v and_o lightness_n in_o a_o untameable_a predominancy_n the_o internal_a cause_n of_o it_o be_v the_o looseness_n and_o rottenness_n of_o such_o a_o soul_n as_o be_v void_a of_o the_o actual_a exercise_n or_o power_n of_o reason_n discretion_n and_o judgement_n but_o it_o be_v promote_v cherish_v and_o enlarge_v from_o some_o particular_a circumstance_n in_o the_o object_n ab_fw-la extra_fw-la let_v into_o the_o unsettle_a mind_n and_o indispose_a heart_n by_o the_o quick_a convoy_n of_o the_o brutish_a sense_n which_o cause_v this_o lightness_n i_o speak_v of_o or_o a_o unaccountable_a or_o overpowerful_a frame_n of_o laugh_v upon_o the_o presentation_n of_o the_o imagination_n or_o understanding_n either_o of_o a_o very_a serious_a thing_n grace_n or_o carriage_n of_o a_o person_n 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that_o meditation_n pag._n 6_o etc._n etc._n a_o colloquy_n betwixt_o the_o judge_n sinner_n and_o saviour_n pag._n 14_o etc._n etc._n objection_n about_o god_n love_n etc._n etc._n answer_v pag._n 20_o etc._n etc._n the_o sacrament_n particular_o the_o dress_n pag._n 31_o etc._n etc._n the_o presence-chamber_n pag._n 33_o the_o communion_n plate_n and_o the_o bread_n pag._n 35_o the_o wine_n pag._n 37_o the_o conclusion_n pag._n 40_o a_o meditation_n on_o christ_n death_n preparatory_a to_o the_o sacrament_n for_o private_a use_n pag._n 42_o three_o pious_a letter_n to_o his_o sister_n when_o he_o be_v but_o a_o young_a student_n at_o christ_n college_n pag._n 50_o a_o sermon_n on_o rev._n 12.1_o of_o the_o church_n compare_v to_o a_o woman_n pag._n 58_o a_o sermon_n on_o amos_n 3.6_o preach_v sept._n 2._o 1673._o pag._n 81_o a_o meditation_n for_o raise_v his_o heart_n under_o slight_n pag._n 123_o poem_n hymn_n 1._o on_o the_o soul_n love-sickness_n pag._n 126_o hymn_n 2._o the_o 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