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of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n we_o without_o cause_n esteem_v ourselves_o spiritual_a if_o we_o march_v not_o straight_o without_o reserve_n by_o the_o way_n of_o jesus_n christ_n or_o pretend_v to_o any_o thing_n on_o earth_n then_o to_o be_v conformable_a to_o he_o this_o do_v not_o consist_v in_o sole_a speculation_n for_o we_o can_v never_o do_v it_o better_o than_o when_o the_o occasion_n of_o abjection_n and_o contempt_n present_v themselves_o to_o embrace_v they_o hearty_o as_o the_o most_o necessary_a mean_n to_o make_v we_o conformable_a to_o jesus_n christ_n god_n the_o father_n can_v praedestinate_v we_o to_o be_v conform_v to_o the_o image_n of_o his_o son_n but_o he_o must_v prepare_v for_o we_o from_o all_o eternity_n many_o occasion_n of_o contempt_n and_o abjection_n which_o time_n bring_v forth_o our_o fidelity_n lie_v in_o comply_v with_o these_o occasion_n to_o follow_v jesus_n without_o reserve_n by_o his_o light_n and_o power_n i_o will_v tell_v you_o how_o it_o 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the_o sweet_a perfume_n of_o a_o sensible_a devotion_n we_o must_v take_v up_o our_o cross_n to_o follow_v christ_n as_o well_o when_o we_o suffer_v in_o soul_n as_o body_n for_o it_o be_v the_o property_n of_o a_o true_a christian_a to_o glory_n in_o the_o cross_n of_o jesus_n christ_n but_o this_o do_v extend_v as_o well_o to_o his_o soul_n as_o to_o his_o body_n the_o divine_a soul_n of_o jesus_n be_v leave_v without_o sensible_a influence_n and_o succour_n from_o the_o superior_a part_n and_o from_o his_o father_n for_o some_o time_n we_o must_v love_v to_o be_v conformable_a to_o he_o herein_o and_o rest_v there_o with_o resignation_n and_o contentment_n let_v our_o affection_n be_v more_o inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o her_o suffering_n here_o than_o of_o enjoyment_n and_o if_o we_o complain_v of_o any_o thing_n let_v it_o be_v when_o we_o do_v not_o suffer_v something_o for_o jesus_n christ_n the_o end_n of_o the_o second_o book_n book_n iii_o of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o divine_a providence_n chap._n i._o our_o first_o thought_n in_o the_o morning_n ought_v to_o be_v that_o god_n be_v present_a as_o soon_o as_o i_o awake_v i_o ought_v to_o consider_v that_o i_o be_o in_o the_o bosom_n of_o god_n for_o in_o he_o we_o live_v move_v and_o have_v our_o be_v we_o live_v and_o be_v indeed_o in_o his_o presence_n and_o yet_o hardly_o think_v of_o he_o i_o be_o surround_v with_o his_o grandeur_n his_o mercy_n his_o riches_n his_o divine_a perfection_n and_o yet_o be_o take_v up_o with_o petty_a matter_n o_o what_o blindness_n what_o darkness_n be_v this_o i_o fall_v from_o one_o sleep_n into_o another_o my_o soul_n be_v no_o more_o awake_a by_o day_n than_o by_o night_n my_o interior_a sense_n be_v then_o bind_v up_o as_o before_o the_o exterior_a i_o be_o like_o a_o blind_a man_n asleep_o double_o blind_a for_o sleep_n take_v away_o his_o sight_n a_o second_o time_n when_o he_o awake_v he_o see_v not_o the_o light_n 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found_v christian_a perfection_n upon_o two_o high_a mountain_n calvary_n and_o tabor_n on_o the_o one_o we_o learn_v perfection_n and_o mortification_n on_o the_o other_o the_o perfection_n of_o prayer_n and_o on_o both_o the_o sublimity_n of_o divine_a love_n to_o follow_v jesus_n christ_n upon_o one_o or_o the_o other_a mountain_n we_o must_v die_v to_o the_o world_n and_o never_o let_v the_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o mortification_n to_o languish_v in_o we_o solitude_n must_v be_v dear_a to_o such_o soul_n and_o they_o must_v take_v not_o employ_v but_o what_o god_n will_v have_v they_o lest_o interess_v themselves_o and_o spend_v their_o spirit_n in_o other_o matter_n they_o make_v themselves_o unable_a to_o follow_v vigorous_o the_o work_n of_o their_o vocation_n my_o soul_n will_v it_o not_o be_v a_o sad_a thing_n to_o quit_v thy_o creator_n
to_o remain_v thus_o unite_v be_v to_o do_v nothing_o for_o it_o be_v the_o do_n of_o all_o that_o god_n demand_v of_o we_o and_o the_o cooperate_a with_o he_o in_o the_o great_a work_n of_o grace_n which_o be_v the_o union_n of_o a_o soul_n with_o the_o divinity_n this_o union_n be_v a_o repose_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o it_o be_v find_v in_o several_a and_o different_a manner_n sometime_o it_o be_v diffuse_v through_o all_o the_o soul_n sometime_o it_o be_v only_o in_o the_o superior_a part_n thereof_o other_o while_o it_o restrain_v itself_o to_o the_o supreme_a point_n of_o the_o will_n and_o if_o the_o soul_n be_v faithful_a she_o do_v not_o considerable_o interrupt_v this_o union_n for_o the_o trouble_n of_o the_o interiour_n part_n or_o distraction_n of_o the_o imagination_n may_v indeed_o lessen_v the_o tranquillity_n thereof_o but_o can_v destroy_v it_o the_o thing_n that_o weaken_v it_o the_o most_o and_o as_o it_o be_v smother_v it_o be_v the_o passion_n when_o violent_a care_n that_o touch_v one_o to_o the_o quick_a trouble_v of_o mind_n pleasure_n of_o sense_n wherefore_o one_o must_v be_v dead_a to_o all_o these_o and_o endeavour_v to_o die_v perpetual_o to_o they_o another_o time_n jesus_n enter_v into_o my_o soul_n in_o communion_n do_v not_o impart_v to_o it_o this_o union_n so_o desirable_a but_o deprive_v it_o of_o it_o whether_o it_o be_v in_o punishment_n for_o her_o imperfection_n or_o that_o he_o design_v she_o at_o that_o time_n for_o other_o employment_n and_o require_v exterior_a duty_n from_o she_o for_o the_o good_a of_o her_o neighbour_n her_o business_n be_v then_o to_o remain_v in_o peace_n and_o to_o make_v a_o free_a offering_n of_o the_o most_o noble_a thing_n in_o the_o world_n to_o wit_n the_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n to_o god_n himself_o who_o take_v a_o infinite_a delight_n to_o see_v himself_o thus_o honour_v by_o his_o creature_n and_o he_o be_v often_o please_v to_o be_v glorify_v in_o this_o manner_n by_o perfect_a soul_n and_o the_o soul_n find_v themselves_o raise_v to_o a_o very_a sublime_a purity_n by_o these_o sort_n of_o sacrifice_n wherein_o they_o renounce_v the_o most_o dear_a caress_n of_o god_n to_o abandon_v themselves_o more_o pure_o to_o god_n and_o to_o adhere_v to_o he_o only_o o_o how_o true_a be_v it_o that_o in_o the_o fund_z of_o the_o heart_n the_o most_o noble_a operation_n of_o love_n be_v perform_v hide_a from_o all_o the_o world_n and_o know_v to_o god_n alone_o even_o the_o soul_n itself_o do_v not_o know_v the_o interiour_n communication_n of_o god_n till_o after_o long_a experience_n which_o render_v herself_o skilful_a in_o the_o secret_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n whether_o neither_o sense_n nor_o reason_n can_v penetrate_v chap._n vii_o the_o first_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o beget_v in_o we_o the_o love_n of_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n god_n in_o himself_o and_o in_o his_o eternity_n do_v nothing_o but_o love_n himself_o in_o contemplate_v his_o divine_a perfection_n for_o it_o be_v his_o essential_a occupation_n and_o he_o can_v but_o love_v himself_o and_o desire_v to_o be_v belove_v wherefore_o since_o by_o the_o hypostatical_a union_n man_n be_v become_v god_n he_o take_v upon_o he_o the_o same_o sentiment_n the_o same_o inclination_n as_o god_n and_o by_o consequence_n jesus_n love_v god_n as_o god_n love_v himself_o and_o as_o he_o clear_o see_v that_o there_o be_v no_o way_n whereby_o god_n can_v be_v more_o love_v or_o more_o honour_a out_o of_o himself_o than_o by_o cross_n and_o annihilation_n which_o pay_v homage_n to_o the_o grandeur_n of_o his_o infinite_a be_v he_o apply_v himself_o to_o love_n cross_n suffering_n and_o contempt_n with_o all_o the_o power_n of_o his_o soul_n never_a man_n so_o passionate_o in_o love_n with_o these_o thing_n as_o jesus_n christ_n because_o never_o any_o one_o be_v transport_v with_o such_o zeal_n as_o he_o to_o love_n and_o glorify_v god_n his_o father_n when_o therefore_o jesus_n enter_v into_o we_o by_o the_o holy_a communion_n he_o bring_v with_o he_o all_o his_o sentiment_n &_o all_o his_o inclination_n particular_o those_o which_o he_o affect_v most_o and_o desire_n to_o imprint_v they_o in_o our_o soul_n for_o which_o purpose_n he_o give_v himself_o to_o we_o under_o the_o form_n of_o nourishment_n because_o as_o the_o meat_n we_o take_v communicate_v to_o the_o body_n all_o its_o principal_a quality_n so_o he_o inspire_v the_o soul_n withal_o its_o principal_a motion_n and_o operation_n and_o this_o be_v the_o reason_n that_o the_o often_o one_o communicate_v the_o more_o one_o ought_v to_o be_v penetrate_v with_o the_o sentiment_n and_o inclination_n of_o jesus_n that_o be_v to_o say_v so_o much_o more_o one_o ought_v to_o love_n suffering_n and_o humiliation_n the_o property_n of_o the_o communion_n which_o be_v the_o live_a bread_n which_o descend_v from_o heaven_n be_v not_o to_o be_v change_v into_o we_o as_o the_o inanimate_a bread_n that_o come_v from_o the_o earth_n be_v but_o to_o change_v we_o into_o himself_o and_o the_o holy_a communion_n shall_v raise_v man_n above_o his_o natural_a love_n to_o lift_v he_o up_o to_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o to_o a_o perfect_a union_n with_o his_o will_n by_o mortification_n and_o destruction_n of_o himself_o the_o most_o inward_a and_o most_o perfect_a of_o all_o the_o union_n that_o a_o creature_n can_v have_v with_o his_o god_n be_v the_o personal_a or_o hypostratical_a one_o which_o produce_v in_o the_o sacred_a humanity_n of_o jesus_n a_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o of_o the_o poverty_n insomuch_o that_o it_o be_v no_o soon_o divine_o assume_v but_o it_o be_v inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o suffer_v and_o esteem_v nothing_o next_o to_o the_o divinity_n so_o worthy_a a_o bbject_n of_o love_n as_o the_o cross_n now_o it_o be_v evident_a that_o we_o can_v arrive_v to_o any_o union_n with_o god_n so_o much_o resemble_v the_o hypostatical_a union_n as_o that_o which_o we_o obtain_v by_o the_o holy_a communion_n whence_o it_o follow_v that_o it_o ought_v to_o produce_v in_o we_o such_o inclination_n as_o very_o much_o resemble_v those_o which_o the_o union_n hypostatical_a produce_v in_o the_o sacred_a humanity_n that_o be_v to_o say_v it_o shall_v incline_v we_o to_o love_v the_o cross_n poverty_n humiliation_n and_o all_o other_o manner_n of_o suffering_n o_o my_o soul_n where_o be_v we_o how_o come_v it_o about_o that_o we_o communicate_v so_o often_o and_o feel_v still_o such_o repugnance_n to_o suffer_v jesus_n christ_n come_v into_o we_o and_o as_o i_o may_v say_v again_o incarnate_a in_o we_o will_v not_o he_o confer_v the_o most_o signal_n grace_n of_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n if_o he_o find_v we_o well_o dispose_v to_o receive_v it_o he_o that_o communicate_v often_o and_o yet_o be_v unwilling_a to_o suffer_v without_o doubt_n communicate_v but_o imperfect_o for_o he_o do_v not_o receive_v the_o principal_a effect_n of_o the_o divine_a union_n which_o be_v to_o make_v we_o love_v what_o jesus_n love_v the_o most_o of_o any_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n o_o my_o god_n how_o long_o shall_v we_o live_v in_o the_o low_a sentiment_n of_o nature_n give_v i_o to_o suffer_v or_o to_o die_v o_o my_o soul_n be_v ashamed_a to_o live_v without_o suffer_v for_o that_o methinks_v be_v to_o live_v without_o love_n the_o fruit_n which_o we_o gather_v from_o the_o holy_a communion_n be_v not_o discern_v by_o abundance_n of_o sensible_a sweetness_n or_o by_o reception_n of_o much_o light_n in_o the_o understanding_n but_o by_o a_o firm_a and_o vigorous_a resolution_n of_o the_o will_v to_o suffer_v and_o to_o mortify_v itself_o and_o the_o more_o one_o advance_n in_o mortification_n the_o more_o one_o also_o increase_v in_o purity_n of_o love_n jesus_n who_o be_v the_o nourishment_n of_o our_o love_n in_o heaven_n where_o love_n will_v be_v infinite_o pure_a be_v likewise_o the_o nourishment_n of_o our_o love_n upon_o earth_n in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n which_o by_o consequence_n ought_v to_o be_v sovereign_o pure_a i_o mean_v without_o any_o mixture_n of_o any_o thing_n that_o be_v not_o god_n but_o this_o can_v be_v without_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n and_o even_o to_o ourselves_o and_o this_o death_n be_v not_o compass_v but_o by_o mortification_n and_o all_o that_o which_o crucify_v nature_n chap._n viii_o continuation_n of_o the_o same_o subject_a after_o holy_a communion_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o as_o jesus_n receive_v of_o his_o divine_a father_n the_o fullness_n of_o light_n and_o true_a love_n in_o the_o hypostatical_a union_n so_o he_o make_v his_o friend_n partaker_n thereof_o in_o the_o sacramental_a union_n and_o thereby_o lay_v a_o obligation_n upon_o they_o to_o live_v by_o the_o same_o life_n to_o guide_v themselves_o by_o the_o light_n and_o to_o enter_v into_o a_o
the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n do_v not_o at_o all_o hinder_v her_o co-operation_n whether_o it_o be_v to_o act_v with_o god_n in_o prayer_n or_o exterior_a employment_n god_n by_o this_o mean_n work_n in_o the_o soul_n a_o disposition_n to_o enjoy_v or_o suffer_v of_o action_n or_o contemplation_n of_o darkness_n or_o light_n as_o he_o please_v for_o than_o she_o desire_v to_o do_v nothing_o of_o herself_o but_o to_o follow_v entire_o the_o attract_v and_o motion_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n a_o soul_n that_o set_v herself_o a_o work_n without_o a_o eye_n to_o god_n and_o her_o interiour_n be_v imprudent_a for_o what_o she_o so_o undertake_v be_v of_o no_o value_n in_o that_o she_o do_v not_o the_o will_n of_o god_n but_o withdraw_v herself_o from_o her_o necessary_a dependence_n endeavour_n as_o it_o be_v to_o conduct_v god_n when_o she_o ought_v only_o to_o be_v conduct_v by_o he_o if_o we_o be_v sensible_a of_o our_o misery_n herein_o we_o will_v be_v afraid_a of_o ourselves_o self-confidence_n be_v a_o thing_n so_o formidable_a and_o we_o shall_v discover_v a_o continual_a disorder_n in_o all_o proceed_n except_o in_o those_o wherein_o we_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o god_n and_o be_v industrious_a to_o conform_v ourselves_o to_o his_o divine_a pleasure_n when_o a_o soul_n have_v full_o give_v up_o herself_o to_o god_n she_o receive_v interiour_n irradiation_n from_o heaven_n by_o which_o she_o discover_v what_o she_o ought_v to_o do_v and_o what_o god_n require_v of_o she_o and_o so_o be_v not_o disquiet_v with_o solicitous_a thought_n but_o walk_v on_o secure_o in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n for_o this_o abandonment_n preserve_v this_o interiour_n light_n which_o daily_o direct_v she_o in_o the_o knowledge_n of_o god_n will_n to_o do_v her_o action_n with_o interiour_n purity_n as_o the_o light_n of_o the_o sun_n guide_v we_o in_o our_o way_n without_o which_o we_o shall_v take_v one_o thing_n for_o another_o so_o the_o ray_n of_o grace_n discover_v to_o we_o what_o god_n will_v have_v we_o do_v and_o if_o the_o soul_n shall_v not_o be_v thus_o enlighten_v she_o will_v wander_v in_o the_o dark_a and_o our_o poor_a life_n go_v on_o without_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n in_o mist_n of_o misery_n and_o infidelity_n the_o common_a life_n of_o christian_n be_v more_o guide_v by_o the_o light_n of_o reason_n than_o the_o light_n of_o grace_n but_o those_o that_o live_v by_o faith_n be_v interiour_n christian_n chap._n iu._n we_o ought_v to_o make_v it_o our_o business_n to_o be_v content_a to_o suffer_v if_o we_o will_v follow_v the_o way_n of_o virtue_n in_o this_o earthly_a pilgrimage_n we_o must_v be_v content_a to_o suffer_v continual_a mortification_n lead_v what_o life_n we_o will_v be_v it_o active_a or_o contemplative_a in_o the_o active_a life_n spend_v ourselves_o for_o the_o good_a of_o other_o if_o we_o be_v not_o in_o a_o disposition_n to_o sacrifice_v our_o own_o will_n with_o a_o spirit_n of_o resignation_n while_o we_o will_v profit_v other_o we_o shall_v endammage_n ourselves_o for_o we_o must_v expect_v to_o meet_v with_o cross_n and_o occasion_n of_o patience_n for_o which_o if_o we_o be_v not_o prepare_v we_o shall_v without_o doubt_n fall_v into_o many_o imperfection_n yea_o in_o the_o sweet_n of_o contemplation_n we_o shall_v find_v some_o thorn_n as_o well_o as_o rose_n to_o put_v we_o in_o mind_n of_o our_o suffer_a condition_n in_o a_o word_n the_o union_n with_o jesus_n christ_n crucisy_v be_v the_o perfect_a union_n we_o can_v attain_v in_o this_o life_n when_o jesus_n christ_n conduct_n his_o saint_n to_o mount_n tabor_n they_o in_o a_o manner_n be_v out_o of_o themselves_o be_v ravish_v with_o the_o glimmering_n of_o glory_n but_o upon_o mount_n calvary_n they_o receive_v the_o best_a impression_n of_o perfection_n it_o be_v requisite_a a_o soul_n shall_v have_v a_o view_n of_o the_o beauty_n of_o jesus_n before_o she_o see_v and_o feel_v the_o horror_n of_o the_o cross_n lest_o she_o shall_v be_v scandalize_v at_o this_o last_o state_n and_o her_o palate_n shall_v not_o relish_v the_o bitterness_n thereof_o spiritual_a infant_n stand_v in_o as_o much_o need_n of_o milk_n as_o corporal_n our_o heavenly_a father_n do_v not_o take_v his_o child_n from_o the_o breast_n till_o he_o see_v they_o strong_a enough_o and_o capable_a of_o more_o solid_a food_n he_o lay_v the_o first_o disposition_n of_o a_o spiritual_a life_n in_o the_o sweetness_n of_o enjoyment_n but_o he_o complete_v it_o in_o the_o bitterness_n of_o suffering_n that_o which_o make_v we_o profess_v christian_n be_v faith_n and_o baptism_n but_o the_o cross_n and_o suffering_n make_v we_o practical_a christian_n and_o the_o great_a they_o be_v be_v bear_v with_o the_o christian_a patience_n and_o resignation_n they_o advance_v we_o high_o in_o perfection_n we_o ought_v not_o then_o to_o fear_v cross_n and_o suffering_n but_o rather_o embrace_v they_o with_o peace_n and_o affection_n and_o we_o must_v hold_v this_o 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the_o annihilation_n which_o so_o much_o elevate_v and_o exalt_v the_o christian_a reliligion_n to_o these_o she_o owe_v her_o grandeur_n and_o excellence_n o_o amiable_a eminent_a and_o excellent_a religion_n how_o unknown_a be_v thou_o to_o worldly_a man_n who_o taste_v no_o sweetness_n but_o in_o sensual_a pleasure_n o_o christian_n religion_n how_o be_v thou_o admirable_a how_o be_v thou_o ineffable_a who_o chief_a business_n be_v to_o employ_v your_o child_n with_o the_o divine_a traffic_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n with_o his_o son_n incarnate_a when_o thy_o heavenly_a light_n shine_v upon_o a_o soul_n she_o see_v the_o deceit_n the_o vanity_n and_o pitiful_a baseness_n of_o the_o thought_n of_o those_o man_n who_o love_v not_o god_n nor_o aim_n at_o his_o glory_n o_o my_o soul_n how_o wretched_a will_v thou_o make_v thyself_o if_o thou_o follow_v thy_o sensual_a appetite_n and_o walk_v not_o in_o the_o way_n of_o jesus_n christ_n but_o this_o we_o can_v do_v of_o ourselves_o but_o by_o grace_n and_o power_n of_o the_o same_o jesus_n who_o be_v our_o hope_n and_o only_a helper_n we_o ought_v to_o bear_v no_o less_o respect_n to_o the_o maxim_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n than_o to_o jesus_n christ_n who_o have_v establish_v they_o see_v we_o ought_v to_o believe_v that_o they_o be_v full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n and_o ineffable_a sanctity_n to_o have_v no_o esteem_n for_o poverty_n contempt_n and_o humiliation_n be_v to_o undervalue_v the_o wisdom_n of_o jesus_n christ_n some_o be_v so_o brutish_a as_o to_o be_v lead_v only_o by_o sensuality_n other_o follow_v only_o the_o light_n of_o reason_n and_o human_a prudence_n but_o neither_o of_o they_o know_v the_o excellency_n of_o christianity_n but_o such_o only_a who_o be_v conduct_v by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n o_o life_n supernatural_a how_o sublime_a be_v thou_o how_o do_v thou_o so_o elevate_v a_o soul_n as_o to_o become_v blind_a to_o thing_n here_o below_o yea_o to_o herself_o and_o to_o see_v 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behold_v whither_o a_o soul_n be_v conduct_v who_o many_o think_v good_a for_o nothing_o o_o how_o the_o judgement_n of_o man_n be_v different_a from_o the_o thought_n of_o god_n let_v then_o every_o one_o honour_v god_n by_o the_o way_n and_o life_n that_o be_v proper_a for_o they_o otherwise_o they_o will_v fall_v into_o perturbation_n of_o spirit_n and_o be_v disquiet_v will_v become_v troublesome_a to_o themselves_o and_o other_o but_o this_o be_v not_o the_o work_n of_o a_o day_n we_o shall_v find_v it_o a_o hard_a task_n to_o become_v dead_a to_o the_o world_n and_o ourselves_o every_o state_n be_v good_a yea_o the_o most_o abject_a all_o grace_n be_v excellent_a yea_o the_o least_o and_o mean_a there_o be_v many_o sort_n of_o grace_n which_o we_o perhaps_o do_v not_o much_o value_n and_o yet_o be_v real_o to_o be_v more_o esteem_v than_o vision_n rapt_n or_o revelation_n to_o labour_v and_o suffer_v for_o god_n be_v of_o great_a worth_n than_o ecstasy_n it_o be_v a_o truth_n well_o enough_o know_v by_o many_o though_o practise_v but_o by_o few_o that_o a_o little_a matter_n hinder_v the_o operation_n of_o god_n grace_n in_o we_o one_o only_o small_a natural_a inclination_n unmortified_a suffice_v to_o retard_v our_o progress_n to_o perfection_n for_o this_o reason_n we_o must_v exact_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n annihilate_v in_o we_o every_o motion_n that_o tend_v not_o to_o god_n some_o way_n or_o other_o as_o for_o example_n to_o give_v no_o refreshment_n to_o the_o body_n by_o meat_n drink_z or_o sleep_v &c_n &c_n but_o for_o necessity_n we_o must_v also_o mortify_v in_o we_o the_o desire_n of_o honour_n and_o temporal_a commodity_n yea_o love_v abjection_n pain_n and_o poverty_n will_v nothing_o but_o what_o may_v conduce_v to_o advance_v god_n glory_n i_o more_o value_v the_o union_n of_o a_o soul_n with_o god_n in_o humiliation_n and_o suffering_n than_o in_o consolation_n chap._n xiii_o some_o maxim_n concern_v a_o supernatural_a life_n o_o god_n 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supernatural_a life_n 1._o we_o must_v accustom_v our_o body_n to_o austerity_n exercise_v it_o with_o love_a chastisement_n for_o our_o own_o transgression_n and_o the_o sin_n of_o other_o 2._o we_o can_v never_o attain_v to_o contemplation_n and_o a_o perfect_a love_n of_o the_o divinity_n but_o by_o pass_v first_o by_o jesus_n crucify_v poor_a and_o abject_a we_o see_v he_o poor_a and_o despise_a attend_v with_o few_o follower_n because_o we_o refuse_v to_o walk_v in_o those_o rough_a path_n he_o have_v set_v before_o we_o 3._o we_o must_v have_v a_o ardent_a love_n for_o solitude_n and_o recollection_n to_o the_o end_n we_o may_v be_v whole_o for_o god_n and_o correspond_v faithful_o to_o the_o inspiration_n of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n and_o although_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v a_o general_a indifferency_n to_o all_o state_n and_o call_v of_o god_n yet_o it_o be_v better_a to_o incline_v rather_o to_o retirement_n and_o solitude_n not_o mere_o to_o enjoy_v the_o sweetness_n thereof_o but_o that_o we_o may_v not_o be_v want_v to_o cooperate_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n vouchsafe_v unto_o we_o holy_a solitude_n be_v the_o region_n of_o divine_a communication_n ducam_fw-la eam_fw-la in_o solitudinem_fw-la &_o loquar_fw-la ad_fw-la cor_fw-la ejus_fw-la say_v god_n by_o the_o prophet_n i_o will_v lead_v a_o soul_n into_o solitude_n and_o speak_v interior_o to_o her_o heart_n 4._o the_o reason_n why_o we_o see_v so_o few_o even_o devout_a christian_n make_v progress_n in_o perfection_n be_v because_o they_o limit_v the_o grace_n they_o have_v receive_v hinder_v its_o enlargement_n by_o natural_a argument_n and_o human_a prudence_n they_o say_v it_o be_v enough_o for_o i_o to_o do_v this_o or_o that_o i_o ought_v not_o to_o aspire_v to_o so_o high_a perfection_n those_o who_o live_v in_o the_o world_n can_v be_v so_o elevate_v in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n these_o and_o suchlike_a excuse_n they_o make_v which_o hinder_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n from_o work_v full_o what_o he_o intend_v if_o we_o do_v but_o consider_v the_o ardent_a desire_n that_o jesus_n have_v to_o advance_v soul_n in_o the_o way_n of_o divine_a love_n and_o how_o ready_a he_o be_v to_o bestow_v on_o we_o new_a grace_n upon_o our_o faithful_a correspond_v with_o the_o former_a we_o will_v be_v both_o ravish_v and_o ashamed_a also_o to_o be_v so_o backward_o in_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n who_o desire_v nothing_o so_o much_o as_o that_o we_o may_v love_v he_o perfect_o and_o enjoy_v he_o eternal_o but_o as_o while_o jesus_n be_v on_o earth_n it_o be_v say_v of_o he_o that_o the_o world_n know_v he_o not_o and_o his_o own_o receive_v he_o not_o for_o see_v he_o bear_v in_o a_o stable_a circumcise_a as_o a_o sinner_n live_v poor_o as_o a_o carpenter_n persecute_v accuse_v condemn_v to_o die_v a_o infamous_a death_n on_o the_o cross_n they_o will_v not_o take_v he_o for_o the_o promise_a messiah_n so_o as_o yet_o he_o be_v not_o well_o know_v and_o many_o christian_n themselves_o do_v not_o receive_v he_o nor_o let_v his_o spirit_n and_o maxim_n reign_v in_o their_o heart_n yea_o some_o who_o profess_v the_o way_n of_o perfection_n do_v not_o as_o they_o ought_v esteem_n and_o embrace_v his_o humiliation_n and_o abjection_n for_o we_o too_o much_o desire_v honour_n and_o preferment_n and_o too_o much_o fear_v abjection_n and_o suffering_n o_o my_o soul_n what_o have_v thou_o do_v hitherto_o not_o to_o have_v as_o yet_o begin_v this_o life_n crucify_v and_o annihilate_v i_o confess_v my_o folly_n and_o blindness_n o_o my_o god_n make_v i_o present_o to_o set_v upon_o it_o and_o let_v not_o any_o day_n pass_v over_o without_o the_o happiness_n of_o suffer_v something_o for_o your_o love_n chap._n fourteen_o what_o content_a a_o soul_n receive_v in_o a_o supernatural_a life_n we_o have_v oftentimes_o no_o need_n of_o any_o other_o care_n than_o to_o be_v faithful_a to_o a_o ordinary_a way_n of_o devotion_n without_o pretend_v to_o what_o be_v extraordinary_a and_o we_o have_v reason_n to_o fear_v that_o motion_n now_o and_o then_o to_o undertake_v a_o life_n of_o great_a perfection_n may_v proceed_v rather_o from_o a_o seek_n of_o our_o own_o excellency_n than_o a_o true_a desire_n of_o please_a god_n among_o these_o danger_n blindness_n and_o obscurity_n we_o stand_v in_o great_a need_n of_o the_o light_n of_o grace_n and_o conduct_v of_o some_o holy_a person_n who_o be_v able_a to_o discern_v what_o be_v best_a for_o we_o however_o put_v our_o confidence_n in_o god_n and_o live_v in_o a_o entire_a dependence_n on_o he_o we_o shall_v find_v peace_n and_o quiet_a of_o mind_n if_o we_o have_v desire_n for_o any_o thing_n let_v it_o be_v for_o such_o thing_n as_o jesus_n crucify_v desire_v for_o they_o be_v contrary_a to_o our_o natural_a inclination_n and_o though_o there_o may_v possible_o occur_v some_o self-seeking_a yet_o this_o be_v the_o way_n of_o grace_n inasmuch_o as_o the_o find_a of_o our_o soul_n be_v 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communion_n be_v to_o produce_v in_o we_o a_o intimate_a union_n with_o jesus_n this_o union_n be_v a_o perfect_a assimulation_n to_o his_o state_n and_o mystery_n and_o this_o assimulation_n be_v the_o same_o thing_n which_o they_o call_v a_o transformation_n into_o god_n and_o render_v a_o person_n whole_o divine_a and_o devote_v to_o the_o interest_n of_o god_n insomuch_o that_o by_o grace_n he_o become_v divine_a as_o have_v no_o other_o inclination_n than_o those_o of_o god_n live_v by_o the_o life_n of_o god_n and_o desire_v nothing_o but_o the_o love_n and_o glory_n of_o god_n in_o this_o sight_n which_o appear_v to_o i_o very_o clear_a i_o behold_v the_o lowness_n and_o imperfection_n of_o such_o sentiment_n and_o action_n as_o be_v mere_o natural_a i_o wonder_v at_o the_o blindness_n of_o man_n who_o set_v such_o a_o value_n upon_o a_o operation_n of_o nature_n though_o it_o be_v of_o itself_o so_o infinite_o vile_a and_o contemptible_a it_o seem_v they_o never_o understand_v 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perfect_a resignation_n to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n to_o do_v with_o she_o what_o he_o please_v what_o she_o fear_v most_o be_v least_o for_o her_o infidelity_n god_n shall_v leave_v she_o for_o another_o lover_n when_o thou_o feel_v o_o my_o soul_n god_n thus_o work_v in_o thou_o infuse_v his_o sweetness_n in_o a_o plentiful_a manner_n dilate_v thy_o heart_n to_o receive_v it_o and_o be_v respectful_o attentive_a to_o his_o operation_n in_o thou_o for_o it_o be_v then_o he_o be_v please_v to_o treat_v thou_o magnificent_o and_o of_o thy_o misery_n to_o make_v a_o throne_n for_o his_o goodness_n and_o mercy_n the_o sensual_a man_n have_v no_o experience_n of_o these_o mercy_n he_o may_v indeed_o have_v some_o idea_n of_o they_o in_o his_o fancy_n but_o they_o be_v real_a thing_n in_o a_o well_o dispose_v soul_n and_o
nothing_o to_o work_v this_o amorous_a tendency_n towards_o god_n not_o but_o that_o sometime_o it_o present_v some_o excellent_a truth_n to_o quicken_v love_n but_o yet_o that_o truth_n be_v there_o without_o it_o i_o admire_v that_o after_o the_o visit_n of_o friend_n i_o always_o find_v my_o will_n convert_v to_o god_n the_o only_a centre_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o i_o know_v not_o how_o this_o amorous_a inclination_n be_v entertain_v and_o preserve_v in_o i_o i_o find_v by_o experience_n that_o in_o this_o state_n my_o soul_n be_v well_o dispose_v to_o practice_v all_o sort_n of_o virtue_n though_o she_o make_v thereof_o no_o formal_a resolution_n after_o the_o exercise_n of_o this_o prayer_n the_o soul_n be_v extreme_o in_o love_n with_o mortification_n and_o self-denial_n desire_v nothing_o but_o god_n alone_o she_o understand_v also_o that_o she_o can_v persevere_v in_o this_o happy_a state_n without_o a_o constant_a love_n of_o the_o cross_n of_o which_o she_o daily_o become_v 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secret_a communication_n between_o god_n and_o the_o soul_n except_o we_o pass_v through_o three_o trial_n wherein_o we_o find_v much_o trouble_n and_o bitterness_n the_o first_o be_v the_o death_n of_o the_o exterior_a sense_n whereby_o all_o sensible_a object_n become_v in_o a_o manner_n distasteful_a to_o the_o soul_n for_o as_o long_o as_o she_o do_v amuse_v herself_o with_o any_o sensual_a delight_n she_o can_v never_o arise_v to_o this_o elevation_n this_o general_a mortification_n be_v so_o difficult_a that_o the_o great_a part_n of_o devotee_n suffer_v themselves_o to_o be_v conquer_v herein_o and_o pass_v no_o further_o the_o second_o be_v the_o annihilation_n of_o the_o working_n of_o their_o interiour_n sense_n wherein_o we_o have_v such_o difficulty_n to_o conquer_v that_o unless_o god_n who_o conduct_n soul_n by_o his_o divine_a motion_n do_v strengthen_v they_o in_o this_o combat_n and_o bring_v about_o this_o interiour_n death_n by_o the_o secret_a working_n of_o his_o grace_n they_o will_v quick_o loose_v courage_n in_o this_o attempt_n the_o three_o trial_n be_v yet_o more_o laborious_a for_o we_o must_v mortify_v the_o operation_n of_o our_o spiritual_a faculty_n the_o memory_n understanding_n and_o will_v than_o which_o nothing_o be_v more_o difficult_a it_o be_v a_o long_a time_n before_o the_o soul_n can_v understand_v how_o this_o must_v be_v do_v and_o long_o before_o she_o can_v bring_v it_o about_o and_o except_o god_n be_v please_v to_o withdraw_v from_o the_o soul_n those_o help_v she_o receive_v from_o she_o own_o light_n and_o affection_n she_o will_v never_o compass_v it_o in_o this_o combat_n the_o soul_n meet_v with_o a_o thousand_o temptation_n as_o that_o we_o do_v but_o loose_v our_o time_n that_o it_o be_v no_o better_o than_o pure_a idleness_n and_o much_o hindrance_n sometime_o from_o director_n who_o have_v no_o experience_n of_o this_o way_n can_v understand_v it_o much_o less_o approve_v it_o happy_a be_v the_o soul_n that_o meet_v with_o a_o director_n to_o strenghthen_v and_o encourage_v she_o in_o the_o difficulty_n of_o this_o passage_n otherwise_o she_o will_v never_o arrive_v to_o this_o sacred_a silence_n unless_o by_o some_o extraordinary_a grace_n and_o favour_n the_o soul_n then_o thus_o dead_a and_o annihilate_v enter_v into_o this_o sacred_a silence_n the_o beginning_n whereof_o be_v somewhat_o bitter_a though_o with_o a_o mixture_n of_o sweetness_n by_o a_o certain_a experience_n of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n which_o be_v elevate_v above_o all_o natural_a light_n to_o behold_v god_n by_o the_o single_a light_n of_o faith_n be_v assist_v by_o another_o light_n that_o seem_v to_o participate_v of_o faith_n and_o glory_n for_o it_o have_v something_o of_o the_o ray_n of_o glory_n not_o that_o it_o be_v real_o either_o this_o or_o that_o but_o a_o resemblance_n of_o they_o wonderful_n be_v the_o effect_n which_o god_n produce_v in_o the_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n of_o interiour_n silence_n for_o he_o deal_v with_o she_o as_o a_o painter_n do_v with_o a_o blank_a prepare_v for_o his_o work_n where_o he_o draw_v divers_a line_n as_o seem_v best_a to_o he_o god_n sometime_o make_v a_o silence_n in_o all_o the_o power_n of_o the_o soul_n keep_v they_o bind_v in_o the_o dark_a but_o in_o a_o disposition_n to_o do_v whatsoever_o he_o please_v with_o they_o the_o spirit_n be_v a_o little_a busy_a to_o see_v what_o be_v do_v but_o be_v check_v be_v quiet_a and_o the_o soul_n have_v nothing_o to_o rely_v upon_o be_v annihilate_v in_o herself_o rest_v sole_o on_o god_n repose_v herself_o in_o he_o with_o patience_n and_o humility_n otherwhile_o god_n put_v the_o soul_n without_o any_o operation_n of_o her_o own_o in_o great_a repose_n and_o quiet_a neither_o willing_a nor_o apply_v herself_o to_o any_o thing_n in_o particular_a but_o in_o a_o readiness_n to_o do_v whatsoever_o god_n manifest_v to_o be_v his_o will._n and_o this_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o be_v the_o most_o usual_a disposition_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o the_o state_n of_o interiour_n silence_n at_o other_o time_n the_o soul_n feel_v such_o a_o fullness_n of_o god_n that_o she_o seem_v whole_o to_o possess_v he_o insomuch_o that_o the_o sense_n be_v partaker_n of_o the_o gust_n and_o sweetness_n communicate_v to_o they_o the_o soul_n in_o the_o interim_n whole_o mortify_v by_o a_o constant_a readiness_n to_o be_v sacrifice_v to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n at_o other_o time_n the_o soul_n be_v whole_o take_v captive_a by_o divine_a love_n which_o give_v she_o a_o relish_n of_o her_o sovereign_a good_a all_o other_o thing_n how_o excellent_a soever_o they_o may_v seem_v be_v but_o bitter_a to_o she_o the_o understanding_n here_o make_v no_o use_n of_o the_o light_n of_o reason_n but_o god_n be_v please_v to_o infuse_v certain_a manifestation_n quick_a and_o sudden_a which_o work_n so_o secret_o such_o change_n in_o the_o soul_n that_o she_o can_v perceive_v till_o they_o be_v do_v at_o other_o time_n when_o the_o soul_n be_v in_o doubt_n or_o trouble_v with_o some_o disorder_n or_o discourage_v by_o she_o own_o weakness_n she_o find_v god_n show_v himself_o present_a with_o she_o to_o instruct_v to_o quicken_v to_o strengthen_v to_o succour_v she_o according_a to_o her_o present_a necessity_n the_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n be_v dispose_v to_o whatsoever_o god_n please_v desire_v nothing_o require_v of_o she_o god_n work_v his_o will_n in_o she_o and_o she_o be_v humble_a and_o faithful_a and_o altogether_o submissive_a and_o pliable_a to_o his_o operation_n thus_o the_o soul_n must_v stand_v affect_v in_o respect_n of_o god_n but_o she_o can_v never_o come_v to_o this_o without_o great_a combat_n continual_a death_n and_o long_a suffering_n however_o all_o the_o cross_n can_v be_v endure_v in_o this_o world_n be_v but_o a_o cheap_a rate_n to_o purchase_v the_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n but_o for_o a_o moment_n in_o this_o state_n of_o interiour_n silence_n the_o soul_n can_v prescribe_v any_o law_n to_o herself_o in_o her_o spiritual_a exercise_n but_o wait_v with_o all_o humility_n to_o receive_v what_o god_n shall_v give_v she_o and_o be_v faithful_a in_o correspond_v thereto_o sometime_o she_o suffer_v sometime_o she_o act_v either_o in_o this_o or_o that_o manner_n according_a to_o the_o nature_n of_o the_o divine_a impression_n chap._n xiii_o of_o most_o purify_a contemplation_n on_o st._n alexius_n day_n our_o saviour_n give_v i_o knowledge_n of_o a_o state_n of_o prayer_n wherein_o at_o present_a i_o must_v constant_o exercise_v myself_o as_o some_o servant_n of_o god_n advise_v i_o but_o the_o reason_n they_o tell_v i_o i_o understand_v not_o my_o prayer_n then_o be_v a_o denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n where_o the_o soul_n as_o it_o seem_v to_o she_o do_v nothing_o but_o enter_v into_o possession_n of_o god_n in_o a_o peculiar_a manner_n who_o work_v in_o she_o what_o