evil_a but_o as_o he_o be_v israel_n so_o his_o day_n be_v many_o and_o good_a he_o have_v two_o name_n jacob_n and_o israel_n genesis_n 49.1_o 2._o both_o give_v he_o from_o his_o wrestle_a the_o farmer_n name_n be_v give_v he_o for_o wrestle_v with_o his_o brother_n for_o the_o birthright_n in_o the_o womb_n wherein_o he_o miscarry_v but_o the_o latter_a for_o his_o wrestle_a with_o his_o god_n for_o the_o blessing_n at_o penuel_n wherein_o his_o valour_n through_o divine_a condescension_n obtain_v the_o victory_n when_o the_o messiah_n see_v jacob_n undaunted_a courage_n in_o resolute_o detain_v he_o ask_v he_o his_o name_n gen._n 32.24_o 26_o 27._o as_o if_o he_o shall_v say_v thou_o be_v such_o a_o fellow_n as_o i_o never_o meet_v with_o who_o though_o thou_o be_v lame_v and_o lay_v hard_o at_o yet_o will_v not_o let_v i_o go_v without_o my_o blessing_n thou_o have_v let_v thy_o flock_n go_v and_o thy_o herd_n go_v thou_o have_v let_v thy_o wife_n go_v and_o thy_o child_n go_v yet_o thou_o will_v not_o let_v i_o go_v nor_o my_o blessing_n go_v i_o will_v not_o let_v thou_o go_v except_o thou_o bless_v i_o say_v jacob_n v._o 26._o hereupon_o he_o honour_n he_o as_o it_o be_v with_o the_o honour_n of_o knighthood_n say_v to_o he_o kneel_v down_n jacob_n rise_v up_o israel_n for_o as_o a_o prince_n thou_o have_v have_v power_n with_o god_n and_o with_o man_n and_o have_v prevail_v gen._n 32.28_o hos_fw-la 12.3_o 4._o now_o jacob_n be_v a_o name_n of_o weakness_n the_o poor_a worm_n jacob_n isa_n 41.14_o trample_v upon_o and_o tread_v under_o foot_n this_o afflict_a state_n make_v jacob_n sigh_v out_o those_o sad_a word_n all_o these_o thing_n be_v against_o i_o gen._n 42.36_o and_o those_o of_o my_o text_n also_o few_n and_o evil_n have_v the_o day_n of_o the_o year_n of_o my_o life_n be_v but_o so_o far_o as_o he_o have_v princely_a power_n as_o israel_n signify_v both_o with_o god_n and_o with_o man_n in_o this_o sense_n his_o day_n be_v many_o and_o good_a one_o day_n with_o god_n be_v a_o thousand_o elsewhere_o use_v hence_o learn_v we_o the_o reason_n why_o the_o church_n be_v call_v jacob_n through_o out_o the_o scripture_n when_o speech_n be_v of_o her_o weakness_n and_o calamity_n but_o she_o be_v frequent_o call_v israel_n to_o signify_v her_o splendour_n and_o glory_n and_o as_o it_o be_v thus_o with_o the_o church_n of_o god_n in_o general_n so_o it_o be_v with_o the_o child_n of_o god_n in_o particular_a some_o time_n they_o be_v run_v down_o with_o strange_a temptation_n and_o with_o strong_a tribulation_n then_o be_v they_o the_o poor_a worm_n jocob_n isa_n 41.14_o the_o shulamite_n find_v two_o army_n warring_n in_o she_o the_o army_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o the_o army_n of_o the_o spirit_n cant._n 6.13_o when_o the_o army_n of_o the_o flesh_n or_o amalek_n prevail_v as_o exod._n 17.11_o then_o the_o seed_n of_o jocob_n droop_v but_o when_o they_o be_v make_v strong_a in_o their_o weakness_n 2_o cor._n 12.9_o strengthen_v with_o all_o may_v col._n 1.11_o and_o make_v able_a through_o the_o supply_n of_o christ_n spirit_n phil._n 1.19_o to_o tread_v down_o strength_n as_o judg._n 5.21_o even_o the_o strong_a temptation_n without_o then_o be_v they_o call_v the_o israel_n of_o god_n gal._n 6.16_o for_o their_o princelike_a prevail_a over_o flesh_n world_n and_o devil_n iii_o observation_n from_o the_o circumstance_n of_o the_o text._n the_o three_o observation_n arise_v from_o the_o conjunction_n of_o these_o two_o part_n this_o question_n and_o the_o answer_n to_o it_o which_o be_v it_o be_v a_o duty_n incumbent_n upon_o all_o mankind_n to_o be_v ask_v and_o answer_v how_o the_o day_n of_o the_o year_n of_o their_o life_n do_v pass_v away_o it_o be_v moses_n prayer_n lord_n teach_v we_o to_o number_v our_o day_n that_o we_o may_v apply_v our_o heart_n unto_o wisdom_n psalâ—_n 90.12_o in_o which_o psalm_n it_o be_v â—_o meditation_n of_o man_n mortality_n correspond_v with_o my_o text_n therefore_o mark_v 1._o moses_n mention_n the_o brevity_n and_o uncertainty_n of_o man_n life_n compare_v it_o to_o a_o watch_n v._o 4._o which_o be_v but_o the_o four_o part_n of_o a_o night_n mark_n 13.35_o then_o he_o go_v on_o and_o compare_v it_o to_o a_o sleep_n to_o a_o dream_n all_o vanish_v thing_n and_o to_o a_o tale_n that_o be_v soon_o tell_v and_o be_v as_o soon_o forget_v last_o to_o grass_n which_o we_o well_o know_v if_o it_o be_v not_o cut_v down_o in_o summer_n or_o autumn_n do_v wither_v in_o winter_n so_o such_o mortal_n as_o be_v not_o cut_v down_o with_o the_o scythe_n of_o death_n in_o their_o youth_n do_v yet_o wither_v away_o in_o the_o winter_n of_o old_a age._n quid_fw-la est_fw-la vita_fw-la nisi_fw-la quidam_fw-la cursus_fw-la ad_fw-la mortem_fw-la say_v the_o ancient_a father_n life_n be_v nothing_o but_o a_o post_v to_o death_n the_o second_o occurrence_n in_o this_o meditation_n of_o moses_n upon_o man_n morality_n be_v his_o assign_v the_o proper_a procure_a cause_n of_o this_o humane_a misery_n to_o wit_n divine_a displeasure_n â—gainst_a sin_n which_o cause_v god_n to_o â—urn_v man_n to_o destruction_n ver_fw-la 7_o 8._o man_n at_o the_o first_o be_v make_v immortal_a he_o have_v then_o a_o immortal_a body_n a_o suitable_a companion_n for_o his_o immortal_a soul_n these_o two_o sweet_a associate_n have_v never_o be_v sever_v each_o from_o other_o if_o man_n have_v not_o sin_v against_o his_o maker_n have_v adam_n stand_v on_o his_o state_n of_o innocency_n he_o shall_v then_o have_v render_v to_o the_o lord_n a_o time_n of_o perfect_a obedience_n and_o service_n here_o upon_o earth_n and_o when_o that_o homage_n to_o his_o great_a landlord_n have_v be_v accomplish_v he_o shall_v then_o have_v be_v translate_v from_o earth_n without_o the_o least_o taste_n of_o death_n to_o heaven_n the_o soul_n shall_v never_o have_v be_v separate_v from_o the_o body_n as_o now_o it_o be_v for_o the_o wage_n of_o sin_n be_v death_n rom._n 6.23_o it_o be_v that_o one_o man_n offence_n that_o pull_v up_o the_o sluice_n and_o let_v in_o death_n as_o a_o deluge_n with_o a_o regal_a authority_n over_o all_o the_o world_n rom._n 5.14_o to_o 17._o and_o sin_n do_v not_o only_o let_v in_o death_n but_o also_o all_o sort_n of_o sickness_n sorrow_n and_o suffering_n that_o be_v forerunner_n of_o it_o then_o 3_o moses_n condemn_v man_n dulness_n in_o take_v no_o more_o notice_n of_o this_o divine_a displeasure_n ver_fw-la 11._o all_o other_o creature_n know_v their_o time_n and_o their_o season_n jerem._n 8.7_o but_o man_n know_v not_o the_o day_n of_o his_o visitation_n till_o he_o come_v to_o be_v snare_v in_o a_o evil_a net_n etc._n etc._n eccles_n 9.12_o though_o man_n life_n be_v a_o life_n full_a of_o all_o inconvenience_n of_o indignity_n of_o injury_n of_o infirmity_n and_o of_o iniquity_n also_o yet_o such_o be_v the_o stupidity_n of_o the_o fall_v nature_n that_o man_n put_v the_o thought_n of_o these_o thing_n far_o from_o he_o amos_n 6.3_o four_o hereupon_o moses_n beg_v god_n for_o illuminate_v grace_n wherewith_o to_o make_v a_o more_o distinct_a discovery_n of_o all_o humane_a frailty_n lord_n teach_v which_o to_o number_v our_o day_n etc._n etc._n ver_fw-la 12._o and_o the_o sweet-singer_n of_o israel_n david_n will_v be_v of_o the_o same_o chorus_n with_o moses_n sigh_v as_o well_o as_o sing_v out_o these_o synonimical_a sentence_n lord_n make_v i_o â—o_o know_v my_o end_n and_o the_o measure_n of_o my_o day_n what_o it_o be_v that_o i_o may_v know_v how_o frail_a i_o be_o etc._n etc._n psal_n 39.4_o 5._o thus_o likewise_o jacob_n in_o my_o text_n carry_v on_o the_o like_a concord_n and_o consort_n to_o complete_a the_o harmony_n complain_v here_o few_n and_o evil_a have_v the_o day_n of_o the_o year_n of_o my_o life_n be_v etc._n etc._n add_v only_o this_o one_o note_n of_o discord_n for_o make_v better_a music_n that_o god_n have_v teach_v he_o this_o great_a truth_n concern_v his_o own_o frailty_n he_o have_v see_v it_o for_o time_n past_a and_o he_o will_v be_v sensible_a of_o it_o for_o time_n to_o come_v his_o day_n have_v be_v few_o and_o evil_a now_o they_o may_v be_v few_o and_o worse_o see_v he_o and_o all_o his_o be_v famish_v out_o of_o canaan_n the_o land_n of_o promise_n into_o egypt_n the_o place_n where_o his_o posterity_n will_v be_v evil_o entreat_v gen._n 15.13_o use_v moses_n teach_v we_o what_o use_n to_o make_v of_o the_o knowledge_n of_o our_o own_o frailty_n it_o shall_v strong_o stir_v we_o up_o to_o a_o earnest_n implore_v of_o divine_a mercy_n he_o make_v a_o loud_a out_o cry_v after_o mercy_n cry_v return_v o_fw-la lord_n how_o long_o etc._n etc._n oh_o satisfy_v we_o early_o with_o thy_o mercy_n
shall_v eat_v drink_v or_o put_v on_o they_o hunger_n and_o thirst_n no_o more_o they_o be_v then_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d as_o the_o angel_n that_o need_v no_o such_o thing_n mat._n 22.30_o the_o lamb_n there_o lead_v and_o feed_v they_o rev._n 7.16_o 17_o they_o be_v then_o clothe_v with_o glory_n 2_o cor._n 5.2_o &c_n &c_n 2._o from_o labour_n of_o infirmity_n they_o have_v their_o writ_n of_o ease_n no_o more_o pain_n as_o well_o as_o no_o more_o pain_n rev._n 21.4_o no_o grief_n nor_o gripe_v then_o job_n in_o no_o fear_n of_o the_o chaldaean_n there_o job_n 3.17_o 18._o their_o bacah_n be_v then_o turn_v into_o berachah_n their_o sigh_v into_o sing_v misery_n into_o majesty_n all_o tear_n be_v wipe_v from_o their_o eye_n 3._o from_o the_o labour_n of_o iniquity_n all_o man_n be_v under_o a_o sinful_a necessity_n here_o eccles._n 7.20_o sin_n will_v keep_v house_n with_o we_o whether_o we_o will_v or_o no_o it_o be_v a_o heart-greiving_a inmate_n till_o death_n turn_v it_o out_o of_o door_n as_o sarah_n do_v hagar_n gen._n 21.10_o etc._n etc._n this_o the_o anti-type_n typify_v by_o the_o fret_a leprosy_n that_o can_v not_o be_v scrape_v out_o of_o the_o wall_n of_o the_o house_n infect_v with_o it_o until_o all_o the_o stone_n and_o timber_n thereof_o be_v take_v down_o to_o the_o ground_n levit._fw-la 14.45_o 44_o 45._o as_o vltimus_fw-la morborum_fw-la medice_fw-la est_fw-la mors_fw-la death_n heal_v all_o the_o disease_n of_o the_o body_n so_o peccatum_fw-la erat_fw-la obstetrix_fw-la mortis_fw-la &_o mors_fw-la erit_fw-la sepulchrum_n peccati_fw-la sin_n be_v the._n midwife_n to_o death_n and_o death_n shall_v be_v the_o sepulchre_n of_o sin_n in_o the_o soul_n a_o believe_a soul_n be_v not_o take_v away_o in_o his_o sin_n as_o john_n 8.21_o but_o from_o his_o sin_n till_o then_o we_o be_v all_o bind_v to_o this_o body_n of_o sin_n which_o make_v we_o cry_v out_o o_fw-la wretched_a man_n that_o wc_n be_v etc._n etc._n this_o bring_v down_o with_o sorrow_n to_o the_o grave_a but_o then_o christ_n deliver_v we_o from_o that_o bond_n rom._n 7.24_o 25._o cause_v the_o death_n of_o the_o body_n quite_o to_o destroy_v that_o body_n of_o death_n till_o then_o man_n life_n be_v a_o sore_a travel_n eccles._n 1.13_o &_o 2.23_o while_o the_o plummet_n of_o sin_n hang_v at_o the_o heel_n of_o our_o soul_n we_o be_v restless_a altogether_o restless_a but_o when_o death_n come_v to_o strike_v off_o those_o plummet_n then_o there_o be_v a_o rest_n in_o deed_n the_o three_o and_o last_o resemblance_n in_o job_n 9.26_o be_v from_o the_o eagle_n fly_v the_o climax_n here_o be_v very_o observable_a a_o eagle_n be_v swift_a than_o a_o ship_n as_o a_o ship_n swift_a than_o a_o post_n the_o eagle_n of_o all_o fly_a fowl_n be_v repute_v the_o swift_a flight_n and_o have_v the_o strong_a wing_n habb_n 1.8_o prov._n 30.19_o the_o way_n of_o a_o eagle_n in_o the_o air_n be_v high_a swift_a &_o strong_a thus_o life_n haste_v from_o we_o and_o death_n hasten_v to_o we_o as_o do_v the_o eagle_n to_o the_o carcase_n it_o desire_v to_o devour_v matth._n 24.28_o then_o be_v the_o eagle_n most_o swift_a when_o hunger_n as_o it_o be_v do_v add_v wing_n to_o his_o wing_n then_o come_v he_o upon_o his_o prey_n like_o a_o thunder-bolt_n upon_o the_o earth_n swift_o and_o sudden_o before_o it_o can_v shift_v for_o itself_o thus_o death_n be_v not_o say_v to_o walk_v on_o foot_n but_o be_v mount_v on_o horseback_n rev._n 6.8_o death_n ride_v upon_o the_o pale_a horse_n death_n ride_v post_n as_o above_o upon_o a_o wing_a horse_n to_o we_o as_o life_n do_v the_o like_a in_o post_v from_o we_o oh_o how_o sudden_o some_o person_n be_v surprise_v with_o sudden_a death_n the_o six_o and_o last_o observation_n be_v from_o the_o quality_n of_o it_o man_n life_n be_v also_o a_o most_o miserable_a life_n it_o be_v not_o only_o a_o poor_a pilgrimage_n but_o it_o be_v also_o a_o short_a and_o miserable_a one_o it_o be_v call_v here_o a_o pilgrimage_n and_o that_o make_v up_o of_o a_o few_o day_n and_o those_o evil_a one_o also_o when_o man_n come_v first_o out_o of_o god_n mint_n in_o his_o state_n of_o innocency_n he_o be_v a_o curious_a silver-peice_a which_o shine_v most_o glorious_o psal_n 8.5_o eccles._n 7.29_o etc._n etc._n but_o now_o since_o the_o fall_n he_o be_v become_v a_o poor_a thin_a wear_v lose_v groat_n luke_n 15.8_o 9_o which_o have_v lose_v its_o lustre_n weight_n the_o sound_n of_o silver_n and_o its_o image_n and_o superscription_n he_o be_v now_o the_o prodigal_n lose_v and_o a_o pilgrim_n wander_v in_o the_o wilderness_n of_o sin_n when_o cast_v out_o of_o the_o garden_n of_o god_n man_n be_v now_o become_v miserable_a every_o way_n miserable_a in_o his_o name_n enosh_n which_o signify_v mere_a misery_n and_o in_o his_o nature_n but_o a_o bag_n of_o dung_n a_o lump_n not_o only_o of_o vanity_n but_o of_o misery_n also_o man_n be_v miserable_a 1._o at_o his_o birth_n antequam_fw-la natus_fw-la est_fw-la damnatus_fw-la say_v ambrose_n he_o be_v condemn_v as_o he_o be_v conceive_v his_o birth_n be_v pollute_v psal_n 51.5_o and_o ezek._n 16.4_o 5._o &_o job_n 14.12_o he_o come_v cry_v into_o the_o world_n prophesy_v as_o it_o be_v that_o he_o be_v now_o launch_v out_o of_o the_o haven_n of_o the_o womb_n into_o the_o wide_a ocean_n of_o care_n and_o calamity_n so_o 2._o he_o be_v miserable_a in_o his_o life_n a_o life_n full_a of_o trouble_n job_n 14.1_o he_o be_v bear_v to_o misery_n job_n 5.7_o his_o childhood_n and_o youth_n be_v not_o only_a vanity_n eccles._n 11.10_o but_o if_o not_o villainy_n it_o be_v yet_o misery_n yea_o his_o middie-age_n be_v make_v miserable_a by_o grasp_a too_o greedy_o of_o that_o bundle_n of_o thorn_n the_o world_n etc._n etc._n much_o more_o his_o old-age_n which_o be_v express_o call_v a_o evil_a age_n eccles._n 12.1_o thus_o in_o these_o four_o respect_n man_n be_v more_o than_o thrice_o miserable_a as_o to_o his_o life_n 3._o at_o his_o death_n most_o of_o all_o if_o not_o bornagain_o before_o he_o dye_v than_o he_o do_v but_o begin_v his_o endless_a misery_n use_v i._o oh_o that_o i_o can_v be_v a_o boanerges_n or_o son_n of_o thunder_n to_o awaken_v soul_n out_o of_o the_o fleep_n of_o sin_n what_o mean_v thou_o o_o thou_o sleeper_n arise_v etc._n etc._n jon._n 1.6_o awake_v awake_a why_o sleep_v thou_o etc._n etc._n eph._n 5.14_o call_v upon_o thy_o god_n and_o be_v not_o still_o fast_o lull_v asleep_v by_o a_o soul-undoing_a devil_n in_o the_o bewitch_a cradle_n of_o carnal_a security_n know_v thou_o not_o that_o upon_o this_o moment_n and_o god_n only_o know_v how_o short_a it_o may_v be_v depend_v no_o less_o than_o thy_o eternity_n of_o woe_n or_o weal_n as_o the_o tree_n fall_v so_o it_o lie_v and_o so_o it_o rise_v again_o what_o way_n the_o tree_n lean_v that_o way_n it_o fall_v either_o to_o south_n or_o north_n and_o it_o lean_v that_o way_n it_o have_v most_o bough_n on_o o_o then_o inquire_v on_o what_o side_n most_o 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