side_n against_o he_o and_o persecute_v his_o child_n and_o the_o truth_n with_o all_o my_o might_n and_o all_o this_o against_o knowledge_n and_o conscience_n after_o some_o measure_n of_o illumination_n which_o can_v be_v affirm_v of_o the_o jew_n yet_o miserable_a wretch_n that_o i_o be_v if_o i_o can_v have_v give_v he_o my_o body_n and_o soul_n they_o shall_v have_v be_v save_v by_o it_o but_o he_o be_v never_o the_o better_a for_o â—hem_n sect._n xxxiii_o last_o to_o tell_v you_o that_o which_o be_v more_o strange_a notwithstanding_o all_o this_o that_o have_v be_v mention_v and_o much_o more_o yet_o i_o think_v myself_o a_o good_a christian_a forsooth_o yea_o with_o that_o young_a man_n in_o the_o gospel_n i_o think_v i_o have_v keep_v all_o the_o commandment_n nor_o be_v i_o a_o whit_n trouble_v for_o sin_n either_o original_a or_o actâ—al_a but_o my_o conscience_n be_v at_o quiet_a and_o i_o be_v at_o peace_n neither_o do_v any_o sin_n trouble_v i_o yea_o i_o will_v applâ—ud_v 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10._o sect._n xxxiv_o loose_a libertine_n if_o this_o have_v be_v your_o case_n no_o wonder_n it_o have_v startle_v you_o for_o to_o deal_v plain_o with_o you_o as_o you_o have_v do_v with_o i_o what_o i_o have_v hear_v from_o you_o make_v i_o also_o tremble_v for_o if_o such_o honest_a moral_a man_n that_o live_v so_o unreprovable_o as_o you_o have_v do_v go_v not_o to_o heaven_n what_o will_v become_v of_o i_o that_o have_v be_v open_o profane_a and_o notorious_o wicked_a all_o my_o time_n yea_o it_o content_v i_o noâ—_z to_o do_v wicked_o myself_o and_o so_o damn_v my_o own_o soul_n but_o i_o have_v be_v the_o occasion_n of_o draw_v hundred_o to_o hell_n with_o i_o by_o seduce_v some_o and_o give_v ill_a example_n to_o other_o the_o infection_n of_o sin_n beiâ—g_v much_o worse_a than_o the_o act_n as_o how_o many_o have_v i_o draw_v to_o be_v drunkardâ—_z and_o swearer_n and_o who_o emonger_n and_o profane_a person_n insomuch_o that_o the_o blood_n of_o so_o many_o soul_n as_o i_o have_v draw_v away_o will_v be_v require_v at_o my_o hand_n yea_o my_o life_n haâ—h_v be_v so_o debauch_v and_o licentious_a that_o i_o have_v bring_v a_o scandal_n upon_o the_o gospel_n and_o make_v it_o odious_a to_o the_o very_a turk_n and_o infidel_n rom._n 2._o 24._o convert_n alas_o what_o i_o do_v that_o be_v moral_o good_a or_o what_o evil_a i_o refrain_v be_v more_o for_o self_n endâ—_z or_o more_o for_o fear_n of_o man_n law_n then_o for_o love_n of_o christ_n gospel_n true_o i_o go_v under_o the_o notion_n of_o a_o honest_a man_n and_o a_o good_a christian_a i_o be_v baptise_v into_o the_o faith_n and_o make_v a_o member_n of_o christ_n visible_a church_n but_o i_o be_v so_o far_o from_o endeavour_v to_o perform_v what_o i_o then_o promise_v that_o in_o effect_n i_o even_o renounce_v both_o christ_n and_o my_o baptism_n in_o persecute_v he_o and_o all_o that_o sincere_o profess_v his_o name_n think_v i_o do_v god_n good_a service_n therein_o joh._n 16._o 2._o gal._n 1._o 13_o 14._o phil._n 3._o 6._o nor_o be_v it_o for_o want_v of_o ignorance_n that_o you_o think_v so_o of_o i_o for_o by_o nature_n be_v we_o never_o so_o mild_a and_o gentle_a we_o be_v all_o the_o seed_n of_o the_o serpent_n gen._n 3_o 15_o and_o child_n of_o the_o devil_n joh._n 8._o 44._o yea_o the_o very_o best_o moral_a man_n be_v but_o a_o tame_a devil_n as_o athanasius_n well_o note_v but_o it_o be_v a_o true_a proverb_n the_o blind_a eat_v many_o a_o fly_n and_o all_o colour_n be_v alike_o to_o he_o that_o be_v in_o the_o dark_a loose_a libertine_n so_o much_o the_o worse_o be_v my_o condition_n for_o my_o conscience_n tell_v i_o there_o be_v not_o a_o word_n you_o have_v speak_v of_o yourself_o but_o i_o can_v just_o apply_v the_o same_o unto_o my_o own_o soul_n and_o a_o great_a deal_n more_o for_o whereas_o you_o have_v be_v a_o moral_a honest_a man_n so_o that_o none_o except_o yourself_o can_v tax_v you_o for_o break_v either_o god_n law_n or_o man_n i_o have_v be_v so_o 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your_o eye_n to_o see_v all_o this_o in_o yourself_o for_o flesh_n and_o blood_n have_v not_o reveal_v it_o unto_o you_o yea_o we_o be_v natural_o so_o blind_a and_o deaf_a and_o dead_a in_o sin_n and_o in_o soul_n that_o we_o can_v no_o more_o discern_v our_o spiritual_a filthiness_n nor_o feel_v sin_n to_o be_v a_o burden_n than_o a_o blind_a ethiopian_a can_v see_v his_o own_o blackness_n or_o then_o a_o deadman_n can_v feel_v the_o weight_n of_o a_o burden_n when_o it_o be_v lay_v upon_o he_o acts._n 28._o 27._o isay._n 6._o 9_o 10._o and_o this_o common_a experience_n show_v for_o if_o you_o observe_v it_o who_o more_o socond_a confident_a and_o
a_o experimental_a index_n of_o the_o heart_n in_o which_o as_o in_o a_o looking-glass_n both_o profane_a and_o civil_a man_n may_v see_v enough_o to_o make_v they_o in_o love_n with_o religion_n be_v a_o most_o happy_a and_o providential_a conference_n between_o two_o friend_n after_o the_o one_o heart_n be_v change_v the_o which_o may_v both_o provoke_v and_o encourage_v all_o sort_n of_o sinner_n to_o read_v the_o same_o that_o in_o the_o least_o love_v themselves_o draw_v up_o and_o publish_v for_o the_o good_a of_o all_o by_o r._n young_n of_o roxwell_n in_o essex_n florilegus_n add_v this_o as_o a_o second_o part_n to_o those_o three_o fundamental_a principle_n of_o christian_a religion_n entitle_v a_o short_a and_o sure_a way_n to_o grace_n and_o salvation_n sect._n xxvii_o aloof_o libertine_n meet_v with_o his_o friend_n that_o have_v late_o be_v a_o formal_a christian_n he_o greet_v he_o as_o follow_v sir_n methinks_v i_o have_v observe_v in_o you_o a_o strange_a alteration_n since_o our_o last_o meeting_n at_o middleburrough_n nor_o only_a in_o your_o behaviour_n company_n and_o converse_v but_o even_o in_o your_o countenance_n what_o be_v the_o matter_n if_o i_o may_v be_v so_o bold_a convert_n true_o sir_n you_o be_v not_o at_o all_o mistake_a nor_o be_o i_o unwilling_a to_o acquaint_v you_o with_o the_o cause_n if_o you_o can_v afford_v to_o hear_v it_o soon_o after_o my_o return_n into_o england_n i_o be_v carry_v by_o a_o friend_n to_o hear_v a_o sermon_n where_o the_o minister_n so_o represent_v the_o very_a thought_n secret_n and_o deceitfulness_n of_o my_o heart_n unto_o my_o conscience_n that_o i_o can_v not_o but_o say_v of_o he_o as_o the_o woman_n of_o samaria_n once_o speak_v of_o our_o saviour_n he_o have_v tell_v i_o all_o thing_n that_o ever_o i_o do_v which_o make_v i_o conclude_v with_o that_o unbeliever_n 1_o cor._n 14._o 24_o 25._o that_o god_n be_v in_o he_o of_o a_o truth_n nor_o can_v he_o ever_o have_v so_o do_v if_o he_o be_v not_o of_o god_n as_o the_o youngman_n in_o the_o gospel_n reason_v with_o the_o pharisee_n touch_v jesus_n when_o he_o have_v open_v his_o eye_n that_o have_v be_v blind_a from_o his_o birth_n joh._n 9_o 32_o 33._o whereupon_o i_o can_v have_v no_o peace_n nor_o rest_n until_o i_o have_v further_o commâ—â—ed_v with_o he_o about_o my_o estate_n for_o i_o find_v myself_o in_o a_o lose_a condition_n touch_v eternity_n it_o fare_v with_o i_o as_o it_o do_v with_o those_o jew_n act_n 2._o when_o peter_n by_o his_o search_a sermon_n have_v convince_v they_o that_o christ_n who_o tâ—ey_n have_v by_o wicked_a hand_n crucify_v and_o slay_v be_v the_o only_a son_n of_o god_n and_o lord_n of_o glory_n ver._n 36._o 37._o and_o have_v have_v the_o happiness_n to_o enjoy_v the_o benefit_n of_o his_o â—â—ge_a advice_n as_o i_o stand_v in_o need_n thereof_o god_n have_v give_v he_o the_o tongue_n of_o the_o learnâ—d_fw-mi to_o administer_v a_o word_n in_o season_n to_o they_o that_o be_v weaâ—y_o isâ—_z 50._o 4._o i_o bless_v god_n his_o word_n and_o spirit_n have_v wrought_v in_o i_o such_o a_o change_n and_o strange_a alteration_n â—hat_o it_o have_v open_v my_o eye_n that_o be_v 〈◊〉_d before_o incline_v my_o will_n to_o obedience_n which_o before_o be_v rebelliâ—us_fw-la soften_v my_o heart_n sanctify_v and_o quite_o change_v my_o â—ffections_n so_o that_o i_o now_o love_v that_o good_a which_o before_o i_o hate_v and_o hate_v that_o evil_n which_o before_o i_o love_v and_o 〈◊〉_d deliâ—â—ted_v with_o â—hose_v holy_a exercise_n which_o heretofore_o do_v most_o displease_v i_o and_o be_o displease_v wiâ—h_n â—hose_v vain_a plâ—asâ—â—es_n and_o filtâ—â—e_n sin_n which_o in_o time_n pâ—st_a do_v most_o delight_v i_o which_o be_v such_o a_o mercy_n that_o no_o tongue_n â—s_n able_a to_o express_v for_o till_o that_o hour_n i_o go_v on_o in_o the_o broad_a way_n and_o world_n road_n to_o destruction_n without_o any_o mist_n ust_o whereas_o now_o god_n have_v be_v please_v to_o take_v i_o into_o his_o kingdom_n of_o grace_n here_o and_o wâ—l_n never_o leave_v i_o until_o he_o have_v bring_v i_o to_o his_o kingdom_n of_o glory_n hereafter_o loose_a libertine_n what_o you_o speak_v make_v i_o wonder_v for_o i_o ever_o heâ—d_fw-mi you_o the_o complete_a man_n of_o my_o acquaintance_n just_a in_o all_o your_o deal_n temperate_a and_o civil_a in_o your_o depoâ—tment_n yea_o i_o have_v never_o see_v you_o exceed_v in_o the_o least_o nor_o hear_v you_o swear_v a_o oath_n â—xcâ—pt_a faith_n and_o troth_n and_o that_o veâ—y_v rare_o beside_o you_o have_v be_v a_o good_a protestant_a and_o go_v to_o church_n all_o your_o day_n convert_n what_o you_o speak_v none_o that_o know_v i_o can_v contradict_v nor_o can_v they_o ever_o accuse_v i_o of_o any_o scandalous_a crime_n or_o unjust_a act_n yea_o i_o have_v the_o same_o thought_n of_o myself_o and_o shall_v any_o one_o have_v tell_v i_o former_o that_o i_o be_v such_o a_o great_a sinner_n such_o a_o devil_n incarnate_a as_o i_o be_v i_o shall_v have_v reply_v as_o hazael_n do_v to_o the_o prophet_n tell_v he_o of_o the_o abominable_a wickedness_n he_o will_v ever_o long_o commit_v what_o be_o i_o a_o dâ—_z etc._n etc._n 2_o king_n 8._o 12_o 13._o and_o no_o wonder_n for_o as_o every_o man_n in_o his_o natural_a condition_n be_v stark_o blind_a to_o spiritual_a object_n 1_o cor._n 2._o 14._o so_o the_o heart_n of_o man_n be_v deceitful_a above_o all_o thing_n even_o so_o deceitful_a that_o none_o but_o god_n alone_o can_v know_v it_o as_o the_o prophet_n show_v jer._n 17._o 10._o but_o because_o this_o be_v a_o truth_n that_o transcend_v your_o belief_n and_o because_o it_o may_v be_v of_o singular_a use_n to_o you_o also_o to_o know_v the_o same_o i_o will_v give_v you_o a_o short_a character_n of_o my_o former_a condition_n the_o which_o do_v i_o doubt_v not_o but_o you_o will_v assent_v unto_o what_o i_o have_v â—itherto_o say_v or_o shall_v further_o relate_v sect._n xxviii_o first_o touch_v my_o knowledge_n i_o mean_v save_a knowledge_n without_o which_o the_o soul_n can_v be_v good_a as_o wise_a solomon_n witness_v prov._n 19_o 2._o it_o be_v such_o though_o i_o think_v myself_o wise_a than_o to_o make_v scruple_n of_o or_o perplex_v myself_o about_o matter_n of_o religion_n as_o do_v the_o religious_a even_o as_o the_o king_n of_o tyrus_n think_v himself_o wise_a than_o daniel_n ezek._n 28._o 3._o that_o spiritual_a thing_n be_v most_o represent_v to_o my_o understanding_n false_a and_o clean_o contrary_a to_o what_o they_o be_v indeed_o like_o corporal_a thing_n in_o a_o looking-glass_n wherein_o those_o that_o be_v on_o the_o right_a hand_n seem_v to_o be_v on_o the_o left_a and_o those_o that_o be_v on_o the_o left_a hand_n seem_v to_o be_v on_o the_o right_a as_o it_o fare_v with_o saint_n paul_n while_o he_o be_v in_o his_o natural_a condition_n act_n 26._o 9_o which_o make_v i_o think_v and_o call_v evil_a good_a and_o good_a evil_a bitter_a sweet_a and_o sweet_a bitter_a to_o justify_v the_o wicked_a and_o condemn_v the_o just_a as_o the_o prophet_n complain_v isa._n 5._o 20_o 23._o as_o for_o instance_n i_o most_o sottish_o think_v that_o i_o both_o love_v and_o serve_v god_n as_o i_o ought_v yea_o i_o shall_v have_v take_v it_o in_o four_o scorn_n if_o any_o one_o have_v question_v the_o same_o when_o indeed_o i_o be_v a_o traitor_n to_o god_n and_o take_v up_o arm_n against_o all_o that_o worship_v he_o in_o spirit_n and_o in_o truth_n i_o be_v so_o far_o from_o love_v and_o serve_v he_o that_o i_o hate_v those_o that_o do_v it_o and_o that_o for_o their_o so_o do_v i_o can_v also_o hear_v he_o blaspheme_v reproach_v and_o dishonour_v without_o be_v once_o stir_v or_o move_v at_o it_o i_o love_v he_o dear_o but_o i_o can_v never_o afford_v to_o speak_v a_o word_n for_o he_o and_o likewise_o his_o child_n entire_o but_o instead_o of_o justify_v they_o or_o speak_v in_o their_o defence_n when_o i_o hear_v they_o scoff_v scorn_v and_o abuse_v by_o wicked_a and_o ungodly_a man_n all_o my_o delight_n be_v to_o jeer_v at_o flight_n and_o slander_v they_o where_o ever_o i_o come_v i_o more_o fear_v the_o magistrate_n than_o i_o fear_v god_n and_o more_o regard_v the_o blast_n of_o man_n breath_n than_o the_o fire_n of_o god_n wrath_n i_o choose_v rather_o to_o disobey_v god_n then_o to_o displease_v great_a one_o and_o fear_v more_o the_o world_n scorn_n than_o his_o anger_n and_o the_o like_a of_o christ_n that_o die_v for_o i_o a_o strong_a argument_n that_o i_o love_v christ_n when_o i_o hate_v all_o that_o resemble_v he_o in_o holiness_n yea_o i_o so_o hate_v holiness_n that_o i_o most_o bitter_o hate_v man_n for_o be_v holy_a insomuch_o that_o my_o
filial_a fear_n idâ—e_n thought_n for_o holy_a thought_n vaiâ—_z word_n for_o holy_a and_o wholesome_a word_n flâ—shly_a work_n for_o work_n of_o righteousness_n even_o hate_v what_o i_o former_o love_v and_o love_v what_o i_o former_o hate_v but_o alas_o i_o have_v hear_v the_o gospel_n day_n after_o day_n and_o year_n after_o year_n which_o be_v the_o strong_a arm_n of_o the_o loâ—d_fw-mi and_o the_o mighty_a power_n of_o god_n to_o salvation_n that_o be_v quick_a and_o powerful_a and_o sharp_a than_o any_o two-edged-sword_n and_o yet_o stand_v it_o out_o and_o resist_v instead_o of_o submit_v to_o christ_n call_n even_o refuse_v the_o free_a offer_n of_o grace_n and_o salvation_n i_o have_v hear_v the_o word_n faithful_o and_o powerful_o preach_v for_o forty_o year_n yet_o remain_v in_o my_o natural_a condition_n unregenerate_a without_o which_o new_a birth_n there_o be_v no_o be_v save_v as_o our_o saviour_n affirm_v john_n 3._o 5._o i_o have_v not_o tread_v one_o step_n in_o the_o way_n to_o conversion_n for_o the_o first_o part_n of_o conversion_n be_v to_o love_v they_o that_o love_n god_n 1_o john_n 3._o 10_o 11_o 14._o i_o shall_v daily_o have_v grow_v in_o grace_n and_o in_o the_o knowledge_n of_o our_o lord_n and_o saviour_n jesus_n christ_n but_o i_o be_v so_o far_o from_o grow_v in_o grace_n that_o i_o have_v not_o one_o 〈◊〉_d of_o grace_n or_o holiness_n without_o which_o 〈◊〉_d man_n shall_v see_v the_o lord_n heb._n â—2_a 14._o i_o be_v all_o for_o observe_v the_o second_o table_n without_o respect_n to_o the_o first_o or_o all_o for_o outward_a conformity_n not_o at_o all_o for_o spiritual_a and_o inward_a holiness_n of_o the_o heart_n sect._n xxxi_o either_o what_o i_o do_v be_v not_o moral_o good_a for_o the_o matter_n or_o not_o well_o do_v for_o the_o manner_n nor_o to_o any_o right_a end_n as_o out_o of_o duty_n and_o thankfulness_n to_o god_n and_o my_o redeemer_n and_o out_o of_o love_n to_o my_o fellow_n member_n without_o which_o the_o most_o glorious_a performance_n and_o rare_a virtue_n be_v buâ—shining_a sin_n or_o beautiful_a abomination_n god_n glory_n be_v not_o my_o principal_a end_n nor_o to_o be_v save_v my_o great_a care_n i_o be_v a_o good_a civil_a moral_a honest_a hypocrite_n or_o infidel_n but_o none_o of_o these_o grace_n grow_v in_o the_o garden_n of_o my_o heart_n i_o do_v not_o shine_v out_o as_o a_o light_n by_o a_o holy_a conversation_n to_o glorify_v god_n and_o win_v other_o now_o only_o to_o refrain_v evil_a except_o a_o man_n hate_v it_o also_o and_o do_v the_o contrary_a good_a be_v to_o be_v evil_a still_o because_o honesty_n without_o piety_n be_v but_o a_o body_n without_o a_o soul_n all_o my_o religion_n be_v either_o superstition_n or_o formality_n or_o hypocrisy_n i_o have_v a_o form_n of_o godliness_n but_o deny_v the_o power_n thereof_o i_o often_o draw_v near_o unto_o god_n with_o my_o mouth_n and_o honour_v he_o with_o my_o lip_n but_o my_o heart_n be_v far_o from_o he_o isay._n 29._o 13._o mark_n 7._o 2._o to_o 14._o matth._n 15._o 7_o to_o 10._o all_o which_o consider_v viz._n the_o mean_n which_o god_n have_v afford_v i_o and_o the_o little_a use_n i_o have_v make_v thereof_o leave_v i_o in_o a_o far_o worse_a condition_n than_o the_o very_a heathen_a that_o never_o hear_v of_o christ_n so_o that_o it_o be_v god_n unspeakable_a mercy_n that_o i_o be_o not_o at_o this_o present_a fry_v in_o hell_n flame_n never_o to_o be_v free_v god_n have_v send_v unto_o we_o all_o his_o servane_n the_o prophet_n rise_v up_o early_o and_o they_o have_v be_v instant_a in_o preach_v the_o gospel_n both_o in_o season_n and_o out_o of_o season_n but_o my_o carnal_a heart_n have_v ever_o be_v flint_n unto_o god_n wax_v to_o satan_n you_o shall_v die_v if_o you_o continue_v in_o the_o practice_n of_o sin_n i_o hear_v but_o you_o shall_v not_o die_v as_o say_v the_o devil_n i_o believe_v sect._n xxxii_o beside_o all_o this_o suppose_v i_o have_v none_o of_o these_o to_o answer_v for_o neither_o sin_n of_o commission_n nor_o sin_n of_o omission_n yet_o original_a sin_n be_v enough_o to_o damn_v i_o no_o need_n of_o any_o more_o and_o yet_o my_o actual_a transgression_n have_v be_v such_o and_o so_o many_o and_o my_o ingratitude_n therein_o so_o great_a that_o it_o may_v have_v sink_v i_o down_o with_o shame_n and_o leave_v i_o hopeless_a of_o ever_o obatain_v pardon_n for_o they_o as_o see_v but_o some_o small_a part_n of_o my_o monstrous_a and_o devilish_a ingratitude_n to_o so_o good_a a_o god_n so_o love_v and_o merciful_a a_o saviour_n and_o redeemer_n that_o have_v do_v and_o suffer_v so_o much_o for_o i_o even_o more_o than_o can_v either_o be_v express_v or_o conceive_v by_o any_o heart_n be_v it_o as_o deep_a as_o the_o sea_n touch_v what_o god_n and_o christ_n have_v do_v for_o i_o in_o the_o first_o place_n he_o give_v i_o my_o self_n and_o all_o the_o creature_n to_o serve_v for_o my_o use_n yea_o he_o create_v i_o after_o his_o own_o image_n in_o righteousness_n and_o holiness_n and_o in_o perfect_a knowledge_n of_o the_o truth_n with_o a_o power_n to_o stand_v and_o for_o ever_o to_o continue_v in_o a_o most_o bless_a and_o happy_a condition_n but_o this_o be_v nothing_o in_o comparison_n for_o when_o i_o be_v in_o a_o sad_a condition_n when_o i_o have_v forfeit_v all_o this_o and_o myself_o when_o by_o sin_n i_o have_v turn_v that_o image_n of_o god_n into_o the_o image_n of_o satan_n and_o wilful_o plunge_v my_o soul_n and_o body_n into_o eternal_a torment_n when_o i_o be_v become_v his_o enemy_n mortal_o hate_v he_o and_o to_o my_o utmost_a fight_n against_o he_o and_o take_v part_n with_o his_o only_a enemy_n sin_n and_o satan_n not_o have_v the_o least_o thought_n or_o desire_n of_o reconcilement_n but_o a_o perverse_a and_o obstinate_a will_n to_o resist_v all_o mean_n tend_v thereunto_o he_o do_v redeem_v i_o not_o only_o without_o ask_v but_o even_o against_o my_o will_n so_o make_v of_o i_o his_o curse_a enemy_n a_o servant_n of_o a_o servant_n a_o son_n of_o a_o son_n a_o heir_n and_o coâ—-hâ—ir_a with_o christ_n gal._n 4._o 7._o but_o how_o have_v i_o requite_v this_o so_o great_a so_o superlative_a a_o mercy_n all_o my_o recompense_n of_o god_n lâ—ve_v unto_o i_o have_v be_v to_o do_v that_o which_o he_o hate_v and_o to_o hate_v those_o who_o he_o love_v christ_n the_o fountain_n of_o all_o good_a be_v my_o lord_n by_o a_o manifold_a right_n and_o i_o his_o servant_n by_o all_o manner_n of_o obligation_n first_o he_o be_v my_o lord_n by_o the_o right_n of_o creation_n as_o be_v his_o woâ—kmanship_n make_v by_o he_o second_o by_o the_o right_n of_o redemption_n be_v his_o purchase_n buy_v by_o he_o three_o of_o preservation_n be_v keep_v uphold_v and_o maintain_v by_o he_o four_o his_o by_o vocation_n even_o of_o his_o family_n have_v admit_v i_o a_o member_n of_o his_o visible_a church_n five_o his_o also_o have_v it_o not_o be_v my_o own_o fault_n by_o sanctification_n whereby_o to_o possesâ—_n i_o last_o he_o will_v have_v i_o of_o his_o couâ—t_n by_o glorification_n that_o he_o may_v crown_v i_o so_o that_o i_o be_v every_o way_n his_o god_n have_v raise_v i_o from_o a_o beggar_n to_o a_o great_a estate_n but_o how_o do_v i_o require_v he_o i_o will_v not_o if_o possible_a suffer_v a_o godly_a and_o conscientious_a minister_n to_o be_v choose_v or_o to_o abide_v where_o i_o have_v to_o do_v but_o to_o bring_v in_o one_o that_o will_v flatter_v sin_n and_o flout_v holiness_n discouraâ—e_n the_o godly_a and_o encourage_v the_o wicked_a i_o use_v both_o my_o own_o and_o all_o my_o friend_n utmost_a ability_n much_o more_o may_v be_v mention_v buâ—_z i_o fear_v to_o be_v tedious_a now_o argue_v with_o all_o the_o world_n and_o they_o will_v conclude_v that_o there_o be_v no_o vice_n like_o ingratitude_n but_o i_o have_v be_v more_o ingraceful_a to_o god_n then_o can_v be_v express_v by_o the_o best_a orator_n alive_a it_o be_v horrible_a ingratitude_n in_o the_o jew_n to_o scouâ—ge_n and_o crucify_v christ_n who_o do_v they_o good_a every_o way_n for_o he_o heal_v their_o disease_n feed_v theiâ—_z body_n enlighten_v their_o mind_n of_o god_n become_v man_n and_o live_v miserable_o among_o they_o many_o year_n that_o he_o may_v save_v their_o soul_n but_o they_o fall_v short_a of_o my_o ingratitude_n to_o god_n in_o that_o most_o of_o they_o be_v not_o in_o the_o least_o convince_v that_o he_o be_v the_o mâ—ssias_n send_v from_o god_n and_o promise_v from_o the_o beginning_n but_o i_o have_v not_o only_o deny_v this_o lord_n that_o buy_v i_o but_o i_o hate_v he_o yea_o most_o spiâ—efully_o and_o malicious_o fight_v on_o satan_n and_o sin_n
blood_n will_v rise_v at_o the_o sight_n of_o a_o good_a man_n as_o some_o stomach_n will_v rise_v at_o the_o fight_n of_o sweetmeat_n i_o be_v a_o christian_a in_o name_n but_o i_o can_v scoff_n at_o a_o christian_a indeed_o i_o can_v honour_v the_o dead_a saint_n in_o a_o formal_a profession_n while_o i_o worry_v the_o live_a saint_n in_o a_o cruel_a persecution_n i_o condemn_v all_o for_o roundhead_n that_o have_v more_o religion_n than_o a_o heathen_a or_o knowledge_n of_o heavenly_a thing_n than_o a_o child_n in_o the_o womb_n have_v of_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n or_o conscience_n than_o a_o atheist_n or_o care_n of_o his_o soul_n than_o a_o beast_n i_o have_v always_o the_o base_a thought_n of_o the_o best_a man_n make_v ill_a construction_n of_o whatsoever_o they_o do_v or_o speak_v as_o the_o scribe_n and_o pharisee_n deal_v by_o our_o saviour_n sect._n xxix_o as_o o_o what_o a_o poor_a slave_n do_v i_o hold_v the_o man_n of_o a_o tender_a conscience_n to_o be_v yea_o how_o do_v i_o applaud_v myself_o for_o be_v zeallesse_a and_o fearless_a together_o with_o my_o great_a discretion_n and_o moderation_n when_o i_o see_v this_o man_n vex_v for_o his_o zeal_n that_o other_o hate_a for_o his_o knowledge_n a_o three_o persecute_v for_o the_o profession_n of_o his_o faith_n etc._n etc._n for_o be_v like_o cain_n ishmael_n eliab_n michol_n pharaoh_n and_o festus_n i_o think_v their_o religion_n puritanism_n their_o conscience_n of_o sin_n hypocrisy_n their_o profession_n â—issimulâ—tion_n their_o prudence_n policy_n their_o faith_n and_o confidence_n presumption_n their_o zeal_n of_o god_n glory_n to_o be_v pâ—ide_n and_o maâ—ice_n their_o obedience_n to_o god_n law_n rebellion_n to_o pâ—iaces_n their_o execution_n of_o juâ—ice_n cruelty_n etc._n etc._n if_o they_o be_v any_o thing_n devouâ—_z or_o forward_o to_o admonish_v other_o â—hat_o so_o they_o may_v pluck_v they_o out_o of_o the_o fiâ—e_n i_o conceive_v they_o to_o be_v beside_o themselves_o as_o our_o saviour_n be_v thoughâ—_z to_o be_v by_o his_o kinsfolk_n and_o saint_n paul_n by_o festus_n mark_n 3_o 1._o john_n 10._o 20._o act_n 26._o 24._o 1_o cor._n 1._o 18._o my_o religion_n be_v to_o oppose_v the_o power_n of_o religion_n and_o my_o knowledge_n of_o the_o truth_n to_o know_v how_o to_o argue_v against_o the_o truth_n i_o never_o affect_v christ_n ambassador_n that_o preach_v the_o glad_a tiding_n of_o salvation_n but_o have_v a_o spleen_n against_o they_o yea_o i_o hate_v a_o minister_n for_o be_v a_o minister_n especial_o if_o a_o godâ—y_n and_o zealâ—us_fw-la one_o that_o spâ—ke_a home_n to_o my_o conscience_n and_o tell_v i_o of_o my_o sin_n much_o more_o if_o he_o will_v not_o admit_v i_o to_o the_o lord_n â—able_a without_o trial_n and_o examination_n yea_o then_o like_o ahab_n to_o eliah_n i_o become_v his_o enemy_n and_o hate_v he_o ever_o after_o will_v impeach_v his_o credit_n and_o detain_v from_o he_o his_o due_n and_o be_v not_o all_o these_o strong_a evidence_n thaâ—_z i_o love_v and_o serve_v god_n and_o my_o redeemer_n as_o i_o ought_v but_o to_o make_v it_o more_o manifest_a what_o a_o rare_a christian_a i_o be_v i_o think_v myself_o a_o believer_n yea_o i_o can_v boast_v of_o a_o strong_a faith_n when_o yet_o i_o fall_v short_a of_o the_o very_a devil_n in_o believe_v for_o they_o believe_v the_o threat_n and_o judgement_n contain_v in_o the_o word_n and_o tremble_v thereat_o james_n 2._o 19_o wheâ—eas_n i_o think_v they_o but_o scarecrow_n to_o fâ—ight_v the_o simple_a withal_o yea_o i_o hold_v hell_n itself_o but_o a_o fancy_n not_o worth_a the_o fear_v because_o i_o be_v not_o notorious_o wicked_a but_o have_v a_o form_n of_o godliness_n be_v civil_a etc._n etc._n i_o be_v able_a to_o delude_v my_o own_o soul_n and_o put_v off_o all_o reproof_n and_o threaten_n by_o compare_v myself_o with_o those_o that_o i_o presume_v be_v worse_a than_o myself_o as_o drunkard_n adulterer_n blasphemer_n oppressor_n shedder_n of_o blood_n and_o the_o like_a count_v none_o wicked_a but_o such_o yea_o look_v upon_o these_o i_o admire_v my_o own_o holiness_n and_o think_v my_o moral_a honesty_n will_v be_v sufficient_a to_o save_v i_o nor_o do_v i_o know_v wherein_o i_o have_v offend_v and_o whereas_o the_o law_n be_v spirâ—tual_a and_o bind_v the_o heart_n from_o affect_v no_o less_o than_o the_o hand_n from_o act_v i_o be_v so_o blind_a and_o ignorant_a that_o i_o think_v the_o commandment_n be_v not_o break_v if_o the_o outward_a gross_a sin_n be_v forbear_v whence_o these_o be_v my_o thought_n i_o never_o break_v the_o first_o commandment_n of_o have_v many_o god_n for_o i_o be_v no_o papist_n nor_o idolater_n nor_o the_o second_o for_o i_o worship_v god_n aright_o nor_o the_o three_o for_o i_o have_v be_v no_o common_a sweaâ—er_fw-la only_o a_o few_o petâ—y_n oath_n not_o the_o four_o for_o i_o have_v every_o sabbath_n go_v due_o to_o church_n not_o the_o five_o for_o i_o ever_o honour_v my_o parent_n and_o have_v be_v a_o loyal_a subject_n not_o the_o six_o seven_o eight_o nine_o or_o ten_o for_o i_o never_o commiâ—ted_v murder_n or_o adultery_n never_o steal_v ouâ—hâ—_z never_o bear_v false_a witness_n nor_o can_v i_o call_v to_o mind_n that_o i_o have_v at_o any_o time_n covet_v my_o neighbour_n wise_a servant_n estate_n etc._n etc._n and_o nothing_o more_o common_a with_o i_o then_o to_o brag_v of_o a_o good_a heart_n and_o meaning_n of_o the_o strength_n of_o my_o faith_n and_o hope_n of_o my_o just_a and_o upright_a deal_n etc._n etc._n and_o because_o i_o abstain_v from_o notorious_a sin_n i_o think_v myself_o a_o excellent_a christian_n if_o god_n be_v not_o behold_v to_o i_o for_o not_o wound_v his_o name_n with_o oath_n for_o not_o drink_v and_o play_v out_o his_o sabbath_n for_o not_o rail_v on_o his_o minister_n for_o not_o oppress_v and_o persecute_v his_o poor_a member_n etc._n etc._n sect._n xxx_o and_o yet_o have_v it_o be_v so_o as_o i_o imagine_v admit_v i_o have_v never_o offend_v in_o the_o least_o all_o my_o life_n either_o in_o thought_n word_n or_o deed_n yet_o this_o be_v but_o one_o haâ—f_n of_o what_o i_o owe_v to_o god_n this_o be_v but_o to_o observe_v the_o negative_a part_n of_o his_o law_n stâ—ll_v the_o affirmative_a part_n thereof_o i_o have_v be_v so_o far_o from_o perform_v that_o i_o have_v not_o so_o much_o as_o thâ—ught_v of_o it_o and_o to_o be_v just_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n and_o gracious_o accept_v of_o he_o these_o two_o thing_n be_v require_v the_o satisfâ—ctory_n part_n to_o escape_v hell_n and_o the_o meritorious_a part_n to_o get_v heaven_n and_o the_o true_a method_n of_o grace_n be_v cease_v to_o do_v evil_a learn_v to_o do_v well_o isa._n 1â—_z 1â—_z 17._o the_o figtree_n be_v curse_v not_o for_o bear_v evil_a fruit_n but_o because_o it_o bear_v no_o good_a the_o evil_a servant_n be_v not_o bind_v hand_n and_o foot_n and_o cast_v into_o prison_n for_o waste_v his_o master_n good_n but_o for_o not_o gain_v with_o â—hem_n and_o those_o reprobate_n at_o the_o last_o day_n shall_v be_v bid_v depart_v into_o eveâ—lasting_a fire_n not_o for_o wrong_v or_o robâ—ing_v of_o any_o but_o for_o not_o give_v for_o not_o comfort_v christ_n poor_a member_n mâ—th._n 25._o so_o that_o my_o case_n be_v most_o desperate_a for_o though_o with_o that_o pharisee_n luke_n 18._o 11._o i_o be_v apt_a to_o thank_v god_n and_o brag_v that_o i_o be_v just_a and_o pay_v every_o man_n his_o due_a yet_o i_o never_o think_v of_o be_v holy_a and_o of_o pay_v god_n his_o due_n as_o his_o due_a of_o believe_v or_o repent_v of_o new_a obedience_n his_o due_a of_o pray_v hear_v confer_v meditate_v on_o his_o word_n and_o work_n sanctify_v his_o sabbath_n and_o instruct_v my_o child_n and_o servant_n teach_v they_o to_o fear_v the_o lord_n his_o due_a of_o love_n fear_v thankfulness_n zeal_n for_o his_o glory_n charity_n and_o mercy_n to_o christ_n poor_a member_n and_o the_o like_a i_o shall_v have_v serve_v god_n in_o spiâ—it_n and_o according_a to_o christ_n gospel_n as_o all_o that_o be_v wise_a heaâ—ted_v do_v live_v and_o believe_v and_o hear_v and_o invocate_v and_o hope_n and_o fear_n and_o love_n and_o worship_n god_n in_o such_o manner_n as_o his_o word_n prescribe_v i_o shall_v have_v be_v effectual_o call_v and_o become_v a_o new_a creature_n by_o regeneration_n be_v beget_v and_o bear_v a_o new_a by_o the_o immortal_a seed_n of_o the_o word_n i_o shall_v have_v find_v a_o apparent_a change_n wrought_v in_o my_o judgement_n affâ—ctions_n and_o action_n to_o what_o they_o be_v former_o the_o old_a man_n shall_v have_v change_v with_o the_o new_a man_n worldly_a wisdom_n with_o heavenly_a wisdom_n carnal_a love_n for_o spiritual_a love_n servile_a fear_n for_o christian_a and_o
secure_a than_o the_o worst_a of_o sinner_n they_o can_v strut_v it_o under_o a_o unsupportable_a mass_n â—f_fw-mi oath_n blasphemy_n theft_n murder_n adultery_n drunkenness_n and_o other_o the_o like_a sin_n yea_o can_n easy_o swallow_v these_o spider_n with_o mithridates_n and_o digest_v they_o too_o when_o one_o that_o be_v regenerate_v shrink_v under_o the_o burden_n of_o wander_a thought_n and_o want_v of_o proficiency_n but_o why_o be_v it_o they_o be_v dead_a in_o sin_n ephes._n 2._o 1._o revel._n 3._o 1._o now_o lay_v a_o mountain_n upon_o a_o deadman_n he_o feel_v not_o once_o the_o weight_n to_o a_o christian_n that_o have_v the_o life_n of_o grace_n the_o least_o sin_n lie_v heavy_a upon_o the_o conscience_n but_o to_o he_o that_o be_v dead_a let_v his_o sin_n be_v as_o heavy_a as_o a_o mountain_n of_o lâ—â—d_fw-mi he_o feel_v in_o they_o no_o weight_n at_o all_o again_o they_o be_v insensible_a of_o their_o fin_n and_o danger_n because_o ignorant_a for_o for_o what_o the_o 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that_o all_o will_v be_v welâ—_z the_o diuâ—l_n and_o the_o flesh_n prophesy_v prosperity_n to_o sin_n yea_o life_n and_o salvation_n as_o the_o pope_n promise_v the_o powder-traitor_n but_o death_n and_o damnation_n which_o god_n spirit_n threaâ—eâ—s_v will_v prove_v the_o crop_n they_o will_v reap_v for_o god_n be_v true_a the_o devil_n and_o all_o flesh_n be_v liar_n when_o we_o become_v regenerate_v and_o forsake_v sin_n then_o the_o devil_n strong_o and_o strange_o assault_v we_o as_o he_o do_v christ_n when_o he_o be_v new_o baptise_v and_o pharaoh_n the_o child_n of_o israel_n when_o they_o will_v forsake_v egypt_n and_o herod_n the_o child_n when_o christ_n be_v come_v to_o deliver_v his_o people_n whence_o common_o it_o come_v to_o pass_v that_o those_o think_v best_a of_o themselves_o that_o have_v least_o cause_n yea_o the_o true_a christian_n be_v as_o fearful_a to_o entertain_v a_o good_a opinion_n of_o himself_o as_o the_o false_a be_v unwilling_a to_o he_o drive_v from_o it_o they_o that_o have_v store_n of_o grace_n mourn_v for_o the_o want_n of_o it_o and_o they_o that_o indeed_o want_v it_o chant_v their_o abundance_n none_o so_o apt_a to_o doubt_v their_o adoption_n as_o they_o that_o may_v be_v assure_v of_o it_o nor_o none_o more_o usual_o fear_v than_o they_o that_o have_v the_o great_a cause_n to_o hope_n we_o feel_v corruption_n not_o by_o corruption_n but_o by_o grace_n and_o therefore_o the_o more_o we_o feel_v our_o inward_a corruption_n the_o more_o grace_n we_o have_v contrary_n the_o near_o they_o be_v to_o one_o another_o the_o sharp_a be_v the_o conflict_n betwixt_o they_o now_o of_o all_o enemy_n the_o spirit_n and_o the_o flesh_n be_v near_o one_o to_o another_o be_v both_o in_o the_o soul_n of_o a_o regenerate_a man_n and_o in_o all_o faculty_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o in_o every_o action_n that_o spring_v from_o those_o faculty_n the_o more_o grace_n the_o more_o spiritual_a life_n and_o the_o more_o spiritual_a life_n the_o more_o antipathy_n to_o the_o contrary_a whence_o none_o be_v so_o sensible_a of_o corruption_n as_o those_o that_o have_v the_o most_o live_a soul_n sect._n xxxvi_o now_o for_o remedy_n of_o the_o contrary_a there_o can_v be_v a_o better_a lesson_n for_o carnal_a man_n to_o learn_v then_o this_o all_o the_o promise_n of_o god_n be_v conditional_a to_o take_v place_n if_o we_o repent_v as_o all_o the_o threaten_n of_o god_n be_v conditional_a to_o take_v place_n if_o we_o repent_v not_o but_o wicked_a man_n as_o they_o believe_v without_o repent_v their_o faith_n be_v mere_a presumption_n so_o they_o repent_v without_o believe_v their_o repentance_n be_v indeed_o desperation_n and_o this_o observe_v we_o be_v cast_v down_o in_o the_o disappoint_n of_o our_o hope_n in_o the_o same_o measure_n as_o we_o be_v too_o much_o list_v up_o in_o expectation_n of_o good_a from_o they_o whence_o these_o perremptory_a presumer_n if_o ever_o they_o repent_v it_o be_v common_o as_o francis_n spira_n a_o advocate_n of_o padua_n do_v and_o never_o do_v any_o man_n plead_v so_o well_o for_o himself_o as_o he_o do_v against_o himself_o one_o star_n be_v much_o big_a than_o the_o earth_n yet_o it_o seem_v many_o degree_n less_o it_o be_v the_o nature_n of_o fear_n to_o make_v danger_n great_a help_v less_o than_o they_o be_v christ_n have_v promise_v peace_n and_o rest_n unto_o their_o soul_n that_o labour_n and_o be_v heavy_a lade_v and_o to_o those_o that_o walk_v according_a to_o rule_v matth._n 11._o 29._o gal._n 6._o 16._o even_o peace_n celestial_a in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n and_o peace_n eternal_a in_o the_o state_n of_o glory_n such_o therefore_o as_o never_o be_v distress_v in_o conscience_n or_o live_v loose_o never_o have_v true_a peace_n peace_n be_v the_o daughter_n of_o righteousness_n rom._n 5._o 1._o be_v justify_v by_o faith_n we_o have_v peace_n with_o god_n but_o he_o who_o make_v a_o bridge_n of_o his_o own_o shadow_n will_v be_v sure_a to_o fall_v into_o the_o water_n those_o block_n that_o never_o in_o their_o life_n be_v move_v with_o god_n threaten_n never_o in_o any_o straight_a of_o conscience_n never_o groan_v under_o the_o burden_n of_o god_n anger_n they_o have_v not_o so_o much_o as_o enter_v into_o the_o porch_n of_o this_o house_n or_o lift_v a_o foot_n over_o the_o threshold_n of_o this_o school_n of_o repentance_n oh_a that_o we_o can_v but_o so_o much_o fear_v the_o eternal_a pain_n as_o we_o do_v the_o temporary_a and_o be_v but_o so_o careful_a to_o save_v our_o soul_n from_o torment_n as_o our_o body_n in_o the_o mean_a time_n the_o case_n of_o these_o man_n be_v so_o much_o the_o worse_o by_o how_o much_o there_o fear_n be_v the_o less_o it_o fare_v with_o the_o soul_n as_o with_o the_o body_n those_o disease_n which_o do_v take_v away_o all_o sense_n of_o pain_n be_v of_o all_o other_o most_o desperate_a as_o the_o dead_a palsy_n the_o fall_a sickness_n the_o sleepy_a lethargy_n etc._n etc._n and_o the_o patient_n be_v most_o dangerous_o sick_a when_o he_o have_v no_o feeling_n thereof_o in_o like_a manner_n whilst_o they_o suppose_v themselves_o to_o be_v free_a from_o judgement_n they_o be_v already_o smite_v with_o the_o heavy_a of_o god_n judgement_n a_o heart_n that_o can_v repent_v rom._n 2._o 5._o in_o a_o lethargy_n it_o be_v needful_a the_o patient_n shall_v be_v cast_v into_o a_o burn_a fever_n because_o the_o sense_n be_v benumb_v and_o this_o will_v waken_v they_o and_o dry_v up_o the_o besot_a humour_n so_o in_o our_o dead_a securety_n before_o our_o conversion_n god_n be_v fain_o to_o let_v the_o law_n sin_n conscience_n and_o satan_n lose_v upon_o we_o and_o to_o kindle_v the_o very_a fire_n of_o hell_n in_o our_o soul_n that_o so_o we_o may_v be_v rouse_v out_o of_o our_o security_n but_o thousand_o of_o these_o block_n both_o live_v and_o depart_v with_o as_o great_a hope_n as_o man_n go_v to_o a_o lottery_n even_o dream_v of_o heaven_n until_o they_o awakein_n hell_n for_o they_o too_o often_o die_v without_o any_o remorse_n of_o conscience_n like_o block_n or_o as_o a_o ox_n die_v in_o a_o ditch_n yea_o thousand_o that_o live_v like_o laban_n die_v like_o nabal_n which_o be_v but_o the_o same_o word_n invert_v while_o other_o the_o dear_a child_n of_o god_n die_v in_o distress_n of_o conscience_n for_o it_o be_v not_o every_o good_a man_n hap_n to_o die_v like_o antonius_n pius_n who_o death_n be_v after_o the_o fashion_n and_o semblance_n of_o a_o kindly_a and_o pleasant_a sleep_n however_o saint_n austin_n rule_n will_v be_v sure_a to_o hold_v he_o can_v die_v ill_a that_o have_v live_v well_o and_o for_o the_o most_o part_n he_o that_o live_v conscionable_o die_v comfortable_o and_o depart_v rich_a and_o so_o you_o see_v how_o it_o fare_v with_o the_o wicked_a and_o
worst_a of_o man_n wherefore_o if_o you_o be_v true_o sensible_a of_o your_o wretchedness_n it_o be_v a_o good_a sign_n that_o you_o be_v in_o some_o forwardness_n to_o be_v recover_v and_o real_o to_o become_v so_o good_a as_o former_o you_o but_o dream_v or_o imagine_v yourself_o to_o be_v and_o indeed_o the_o very_a first_o step_n to_o grace_n be_v to_o feel_v the_o want_n of_o grace_n and_o the_o next_o way_n to_o receive_v mercy_n be_v to_o see_v yourself_o miserable_a therefore_o our_o constant_a and_o most_o diligent_a search_n shall_v be_v to_o find_v out_o the_o naughtiness_n of_o our_o own_o heart_n and_o to_o get_v strength_n from_o god_n against_o our_o prevail_a corruption_n sect._n xxxvii_o loose_a libertine_n but_o be_v there_o any_o hope_n for_o one_o so_o wicked_a as_o i_o who_o have_v turn_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n into_o wantonness_n apply_v christ_n passion_n as_o a_o warrant_n for_o my_o licentiousness_n not_o as_o a_o remedy_n and_o take_v his_o death_n as_o a_o licence_n to_o sin_n his_o â—ross_n as_o a_o letter_n patent_n to_o do_v mischief_n as_o if_o a_o man_n shall_v head_n his_o dâ—um_fw-la of_o rebellion_n with_o his_o pardon_n for_o i_o have_v most_o spiâ—efuâ—ly_o and_o malicious_o take_v up_o arm_n against_o my_o maker_n and_o fight_v against_o my_o redeemer_n all_o my_o day_n convert_n do_v but_o unfeigned_o repent_v you_o of_o your_o sin_n and_o forsake_v your_o former_a evil_a way_n and_o lie_v hold_v upon_o christ_n by_o a_o trueâ—_z and_o lively_a â—aith_o my_o soul_n for_o you_o god_n iâ—_z very_o â—eady_a to_o forgive_v they_o be_v they_o neveâ—_z so_o many_o and_o innumerable_a for_o multitude_n never_o so_o haâ—nous_a for_o quality_n and_o magâ—itude_n yea_o i_o can_v show_v you_o your_o pardon_n from_o the_o great_a king_n of_o heaven_n for_o all_o that_o be_v past_a the_o which_o you_o may_v read_v at_o large_a isai._n 55_o 7._o ezek._n 18._o 21._o to_o 29._o and_o 33._o 11._o jo_n l._n 2._o 12_o 13_o 14._o yea_o read_v 1_o cor._n 6._o 10_o 11._o together_o with_o the_o story_n of_o manâ—sses_n mary_n mâ—gdelen_fw-mi the_o thief_n and_o the_o prodigal_a son_n and_o you_o shall_v see_v precedent_n thereof_o yea_o the_o very_a murderer_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n upon_o their_o serious_a and_o unfeigned_a repentance_n and_o steadfast_a believe_n in_o he_o receive_v pardon_n and_o salvation_n and_o indeed_o dispaiâ—_z be_v a_o sin_n which_o never_o knâ—w_v jesus_n true_o every_o sin_n deserve_v damnation_n but_o no_o sin_n shall_v condemn_v but_o the_o â—â—ing_v and_o contiâ—uing_v in_o it_o true_a repentance_n be_v ever_o bless_v with_o forgiveness_n and_o know_v this_o that_o god_n mercy_n be_v great_a than_o thy_o sin_n what_o ever_o it_o be_v you_o can_v be_v so_o infiâ—ite_a in_o sin_v as_o he_o be_v infinite_a in_o pardon_v if_o you_o repent_v yea_o sin_n upon_o repentance_n be_v so_o remit_v as_o if_o they_o have_v never_o be_v commit_v i_o will_v put_v away_o thy_o transgression_n as_o a_o cloud_n and_o thy_o sin_n as_o a_o mâ—â—t_v isay._n 44._o 22._o and_o what_o by_o corruption_n have_v be_v do_v by_o repentance_n be_v undo_v as_o the_o former_a example_n witness_v come_v and_o let_v we_o reason_n togâ—ther_o say_v the_o lord_n though_o your_o sin_n be_v as_o scarlet_a they_o shall_v be_v as_o white_a as_o snow_n isai_n 1._o 18._o yea_o white_a than_o snow_n for_o the_o prophet_n david_n lay_v open_a his_o blood_n guilâ—inâ—ss_n and_o his_o original_a impurity_n use_v these_o word_n puâ—geme_n with_o hyssop_n and_o i_o shall_v be_v clean_o wash_v i_o and_o i_o shall_v be_v white_a than_o snow_n psal._n 51._o 7._o and_o in_o reason_n do_v christ_n come_v to_o call_v sinner_n to_o repentance_n and_o shall_v he_o not_o show_v mercy_n to_o the_o penitent_a o_o who_o will_v not_o cast_v his_o burden_n upon_o he_o that_o desire_n to_o give_v ease_n as_o i_o live_v say_v the_o lord_n i_o will_v not_o the_o death_n of_o a_o sinner_n ezek._n 18._o 32._o and_o 33._o 11._o only_o apply_v not_o this_o sâ—lve_n before_o the_o ulcer_n be_v searcb_v to_o the_o bottom_n lay_v not_o hold_v upon_o mercy_n until_o you_o be_v thorough_o humble_v the_o only_a way_n to_o become_v good_a be_v first_o to_o believe_v that_o you_o be_v evil_a and_o by_o accuse_v ourselves_o we_o prevent_v satan_n by_o judge_v ourselves_o we_o prevent_v god_n be_v we_o as_o sick_a of_o sorrow_n as_o we_o be_v of_o sin_n then_o may_v we_o hopeful_o go_v to_o the_o physician_n of_o our_o soul_n who_o come_v into_o the_o world_n only_o to_o cure_v the_o sick_a and_o to_o give_v light_n to_o they_o only_o who_o sit_v in_o darkness_n and_o in_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n god_n do_v not_o power_n the_o oil_n of_o grace_n but_o into_o a_o break_a and_o contrite_a heart_n will_v thou_o get_v out_o of_o the_o miserable_a estate_n of_o nature_n into_o the_o bless_a estate_n if_o grace_n and_o of_o satan_n bondslave_n become_v the_o child_n of_o god_n and_o a_o member_n of_o christ_n will_v thou_o true_o kâ—ow_o thy_o own_o heart_n and_o he_o very_o sensible_a how_o evil_a and_o wicked_a it_o be_v that_o so_o thou_o may_v have_v a_o more_o humble_a conceit_n of_o thyself_o lie_v to_o heart_n these_o three_o particular_n 1._o the_o corruption_n of_o our_o nature_n by_o reason_n of_o original_a sin_n 2_o our_o manifold_a breach_n of_o god_n righteous_a law_n by_o actual_a sin_n 3._o the_o guilt_n and_o punishment_n due_a to_o we_o for_o they_o both_o this_o be_v do_v thou_o will_v see_v and_o find_v thy_o necessity_n of_o a_o redeemer_n and_o it_o be_v thirst_n only_o that_o make_v we_o relish_v our_o drink_n hunger_n our_o meat_n the_o full_a stomach_n of_o a_o pharisee_n surcharge_v with_o the_o superfluity_n of_o his_o own_o merit_n will_v loathe_v the_o honeycomb_n of_o christ_n righteousness_n this_o be_v it_o which_o make_v the_o young_a prodigâ—l_n to_o relish_v even_o servant_n fare_v though_o before_o wanton_a when_o full_o feed_v at_o home_n no_o more_o relish_n feel_v the_o pharisaical_a heart_n in_o christ_n blood_n then_o in_o a_o chip_n but_o o_o how_o acceptable_a be_v the_o fountain_n of_o live_a water_n to_o the_o chase_a hart_n pant_v and_o bray_a the_o blood_n of_o christ_n to_o the_o weary_a and_o tire_a soul_n to_o the_o thirsty_a conscience_n scorch_v with_o the_o sense_n of_o god_n wrath_n he_o that_o present_v he_o with_o it_o how_o welcome_a be_v he_o even_o as_o a_o special_a choice_n man_n one_o of_o a_o thousand_o and_o the_o deep_a the_o sense_n of_o misery_n be_v the_o sweet_a the_o sense_n of_o mercy_n be_v sect._n xxxviii_o then_o if_o you_o will_v be_v satisfy_v for_o time_n to_o come_v whether_o your_o repentance_n and_o conversion_n be_v true_a and_o sound_a these_o particular_n will_v infallible_o inform_v you_o if_o you_o shall_v persevere_v when_o this_o trouble_n for_o sin_n be_v over_o in_o do_v that_o which_o now_o you_o purpose_n it_o be_v a_o infallible_a sign_n your_o repentance_n be_v find_v otherwise_o not_o if_o thou_o do_v call_v to_o mind_n the_o vow_n which_o thou_o make_v in_o baptism_n and_o do_v thy_o endeavour_n to_o perform_v that_o which_o then_o thou_o do_v promise_v if_o thou_o do_v square_v thy_o life_n according_a to_o the_o rule_n of_o god_n word_n and_o not_o after_o the_o rudiment_n of_o the_o world_n if_o thou_o be_v willing_a to_o forsake_v all_o sin_n without_o reserve_v one_o for_o otherwise_o that_o one_o sin_n may_v prove_v the_o bane_n of_o all_o thy_o grace_n even_o as_o gidion_n have_v seventy_o son_n and_o but_o one_o bastard_n and_o yet_o that_o bastard_n destroy_v all_o the_o rest_n that_o be_v legitimate_a judg._n 9_o 5._o sin_n be_v like_o the_o ivy_n in_o the_o wall_n cut_v off_o bow_v branch_n body_n stump_n yet_o some_o string_n or_o other_o will_v sprout_v out_o again_o till_o the_o root_n be_v pluck_v up_o or_o the_o wall_n be_v pull_v down_o and_o ruin_v it_o will_v never_o utter_o die_v regeneration_n or_o new_a birth_n be_v a_o creation_n of_o new_a quality_n in_o the_o soul_n as_o be_v by_o nature_n only_o evil_a dispose_v god_n child_n be_v know_v by_o this_o mark_n they_o walk_v not_o after_o the_o flesh_n but_o after_o the_o spirit_n rom._n 8._o 1._o if_o christ_n have_v call_v you_o to_o his_o service_n your_o life_n will_v appear_v more_o spiritual_a and_o excellent_a than_o other_o as_o for_o your_o fail_n it_o be_v a_o sign_n that_o sin_n have_v not_o gain_v your_o consent_n but_o commit_v a_o rape_n upon_o your_o soul_n when_o you_o cry_v out_o to_o god_n if_o the_o ravish_a virgin_n under_o the_o law_n cry_v out_o she_o be_v pronounce_v guiltless_a a_o sheep_n may_v fall_v into_o the_o mire_n but_o a_o swine_n delight_v to_o wallow_v in_o the_o mire_n great_a difference_n between_o a_o