come_v it_o natural_o or_o by_o any_o chance_n or_o accident_n 8._o to_o loose_v my_o life_n by_o sudden_a death_n or_o else_o by_o long_a sickness_n as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n 9_o to_o receive_v harm_n in_o my_o imagination_n whereby_o i_o may_v have_v my_o brain_n crack_v or_o become_v a_o very_a fool_n or_o mad_a man_n and_o to_o be_v content_a with_o all_o this_o if_o god_n permit_v the_o case_n to_o befall_v i_o 10._o that_o my_o body_n putrify_v and_o corrupt_v slow_o and_o with_o length_n of_o time_n and_o that_o other_o observe_v and_o take_v notice_n of_o such_o putrifyinge_v and_o in_o their_o nature_n abhor_v it_o and_o i_o for_o itt_n 11._o to_o endure_v and_o suffer_v the_o agonye_n of_o death_n and_o the_o unwillingness_n and_o horror_n that_o nature_n have_v in_o the_o separation_n of_o the_o soul_n from_o the_o body_n iâ—_n be_v continue_v the_o iii_o exercise_n 1._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o die_v a_o natural_a death_n or_o otherwise_o a_o violent_a and_o painful_a 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that_o my_o friend_n and_o kindred_n lover_n and_o well_o wisher_n do_v alienate_v and_o withdraw_v their_o affection_n from_o i_o do_v forget_v and_o neglect_v i_o yea_o and_o come_v to_o be_v avert_v from_o i_o and_o to_o conceive_v and_o speak_v evil_a of_o i_o and_o do_v i_o evil_a office_n yet_o so_o as_o i_o commit_v no_o sin_n or_o give_v no_o just_a occasion_n of_o such_o aversion_n from_o i_o 14._o and_o further_o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o be_v leave_v and_o forsake_v of_o all_o creature_n in_o the_o world_n so_o that_o i_o have_v no_o man_n or_o any_o thing_n to_o cleave_v unto_o save_v thou_o only_o my_o jesus_n who_o will_v abundant_o suffice_v i_o 15._o i_o be_o resign_v and_o indifferent_a in_o what_o place_n and_o in_o what_o company_n i_o live_v and_o in_o particular_a to_o live_v with_o they_o from_o who_o my_o nature_n be_v most_o avert_v and_o to_o live_v with_o stranger_n aswell_o as_o with_o my_o familiar_n 16._o and_o to_o live_v with_o they_o with_o who_o and_o 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i_o have_v know_v to_o have_v fall_v upon_o other_o man_n and_o touch_v not_o i_o be_v a_o sufficient_a argument_n to_o i_o that_o my_o delivery_n from_o every_o one_o of_o they_o be_v a_o peculiar_a benefit_n from_o thou_o 19_o o_o most_o gracious_a lord_n shall_v i_o be_v ungrateful_a for_o these_o benefit_n 20._o if_o the_o fierceness_n and_o cruelty_n of_o lion_n and_o serpent_n be_v assuage_v with_o benefit_n why_o shall_v not_o thy_o benefit_n be_v sufficient_a to_o tame_v and_o assuage_v my_o sinful_a hart_n this_o be_v continue_v in_o the_o follow_v exercise_n the_o iv_o exercise_n 1._o but_o if_o so_o strict_a a_o account_n shall_v be_v demand_v for_o these_o thing_n which_o cost_v thou_o so_o little_a what_o account_n will_v thou_o ask_v of_o those_o which_o thou_o have_v buy_v to_o thyself_o with_o thy_o most_o precious_a blood_n 2._o how_o have_v i_o pervert_v thy_o counsel_n 3._o how_o have_v i_o violate_v the_o mystery_n of_o thy_o incarnation_n 4._o thou_o be_v make_v man_n to_o make_v i_o a_o god_n i_o have_v make_v myself_o a_o beast_n and_o the_o slave_n of_o the_o devil_n 5._o thou_o have_v come_v down_o to_o the_o earth_n to_o bring_v i_o to_o heaven_n and_o i_o have_v not_o hearken_v to_o or_o acknowledge_v this_o high_a vocation_n 6._o but_o have_v persevere_v in_o wickedness_n and_o in_o the_o dirt_n and_o mire_n of_o my_o baseness_n 7._o thou_o have_v deliver_v i_o i_o have_v cast_v myself_o again_o headlong_o into_o my_o old_a bondage_n 8._o thou_o have_v raise_v i_o i_o have_v again_o embrace_v death_n 9_o thou_o have_v make_v i_o one_o body_n with_o thou_o and_o i_o have_v join_v my_o self_n again_o with_o the_o devil_n 10._o so_o many_o and_o so_o great_a benefit_n can_v not_o do_v so_o much_o as_o make_v i_o know_v thou_o 11._o nor_o so_o many_o token_n of_o love_n make_v i_o requite_v thou_o with_o love._n 12._o nor_o so_o many_o desert_n and_o gift_n make_v i_o hope_v in_o thou_o 13._o nor_o such_o a_o strict_a kind_n of_o justice_n as_o appear_v in_o thy_o passion_n make_v i_o fear_v thou_o 14._o thou_o have_v humble_v thyself_o even_o to_o the_o dust_n of_o the_o earth_n i_o puff_n myself_o up_o with_o pride_n 15._o thou_o do_v hang_v naked_a on_o the_o cross_n i_o seek_v the_o world_n &_o worldly_a delight_n 16._o thou_o be_v god_fw-we be_v buffet_v if_o any_o man_n touch_v my_o garment_n who_o be_o only_o a_o most_o vile_a worm_n i_o present_o become_v colericke_a 17._o what_o shall_v i_o say_v my_o sweet_a sawiour_n behold_v how_o great_a thy_o mercy_n and_o charity_n be_v towards_o i_o 18._o thou_o will_v die_v to_o kill_v my_o sin_n and_o â—_o persuminge_v in_o thy_o say_a mercy_n goodness_n and_o love_n have_v â—ot_n fear_v to_o sin_n against_o thou_o what_o great_a impiety_n can_v be_v imagine_v 19_o i_o have_v take_v occasion_n of_o thy_o goodness_n to_o work_v malice_n and_o by_o that_o mean_a which_o thou_o have_v use_v to_o kill_v sin_n i_o have_v take_v occasion_n to_o raise_v again_o sin_n in_o myself_o 20._o because_o thou_o be_v so_o good_a i_o think_v i_o may_v without_o prejudice_n be_v evil_a 21._o and_o because_o thy_o benefit_n be_v so_o many_o i_o think_v i_o may_v without_o punishment_n render_v unto_o thou_o as_o many_o injury_n this_o be_v further_a continue_v in_o the_o ensue_a exercise_n the_o v._o exercise_n 1._o thus_o have_v i_o make_v thy_o medecine_n occasion_n of_o sinneâ—_n and_o i_o have_v turn_v that_o sword_n which_o i_o receive_v of_o thou_o to_o defend_v myself_o from_o my_o enemy_n against_o my_o own_o bowel_n and_o with_o the_o same_o murder_a my_o own_o soul_n 2._o final_o thou_o die_v as_o we_o be_v teach_v by_o the_o apostle_n that_o they_o that_o now_o live_v may_v not_o live_v to_o themselves_o but_o unto_o thou_o 3._o and_o i_o as_o the_o child_n of_o jezable_a have_v make_v thy_o death_n as_o a_o mean_a to_o deprive_v myself_o of_o thy_o blessing_n by_o fly_v from_o thy_o service_n and_o make_v myself_o the_o bondslave_n of_o thy_o enemy_n 4._o alas_o what_o do_v he_o deserve_v who_o commit_v such_o enormity_n 5._o if_o dog_n have_v eat_v the_o flesh_n of_o jezable_a what_o will_v become_v of_o i_o 6._o if_o the_o apostle_n make_v it_o so_o heinous_a a_o matter_n of_o the_o law_n itself_o to_o take_v a_o occasion_n to_o break_v the_o law_n how_o great_a be_v my_o malice_n who_o of_o grace_n &_o mercy_n have_v take_v a_o occasion_n to_o offend_v grace_n and_o mercy_n itself_o 7._o o_o most_o patient_a lord_n who_o for_o sinner_n haste_v suffer_v buffet_n but_o far_o more_o patient_a in_o suffer_v sinner_n will_v this_o thy_o patience_n â—ndure_v for_o ever_o 8._o i_o remember_v what_o thou_o have_v say_v by_o the_o prophet_n i_o have_v hold_v my_o peace_n i_o have_v keep_v silence_n i_o have_v be_v patiint_a as_o one_o that_o have_v be_v labouringe_v with_o child_n i_o will_v speak_v 9_o i_o see_v that_o the_o earth_n that_o yield_v not_o fruit_n after_o rain_n be_v reject_v and_o curse_a 10._o i_o see_v that_o the_o vineyard_n which_o be_v well_o till_v producinge_v no_o grape_n but_o wild_a vine_n by_o thou_o be_v command_v to_o be_v destroy_v 11._o wherefore_o o_o unprofitable_a &_o fruitless_a branch_n do_v thou_o not_o fear_v the_o voice_n of_o that_o potent_a husbandman_n that_o dresser_n of_o the_o vineyard_n who_o as_o truth_n itself_o report_v take_v away_o all_o branch_n not_o bear_v fruit_n and_o cast_v they_o into_o the_o fire_n 12._o what_o shall_v i_o do_v my_o lord_n what_o shall_v i_o do_v i_o confess_v i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o appear_v in_o thy_o sight_n nor_o to_o behold_v thou_o 13._o whither_o shall_v i_o fly_v from_o thy_o face_n 14._o be_v not_o thou_o my_o father_n and_o in_o very_a truth_n a_o father_n of_o mercy_n which_o have_v no_o end_n or_o measure_n 15._o for_o though_o i_o have_v as_o much_o as_o lay_v in_o i_o for_o a_o long_a time_n desist_v to_o be_v thy_o child_n yet_o thou_o even_o to_o this_o present_a do_v not_o desist_v to_o be_v my_o father_n 16._o although_o i_o have_v do_v many_o thing_n worthy_a of_o damnation_n yet_o thou_o have_v not_o desist_v to_o save_v i_o 17._o what_o then_o shall_v i_o do_v but_o cast_v myself_o down_o at_o thy_o foot_n and_o humble_o crave_v mercy_n 18._o be_v not_o thou_o my_o creator_n my_o preserver_n my_o redeemer_n my_o deliverer_n my_o king_n my_o pastor_n my_o priest_n and_o my_o sacrifice_n 19_o whither_o then_o shall_v i_o go_v whither_o then_o shall_v â—_o fly_v but_o unto_o thou_o 20._o if_o thou_o repel_v i_o who_o will_v receive_v i_o 21._o if_o thou_o reject_v i_o of_o who_o shall_v i_o seek_v succour_n 22._o acknowledge_v o_o lord_n and_o receive_v this_o sheep_n that_o have_v run_v a_o stray_n 23._o behold_v i_o come_v full_a of_o wound_n thou_o can_v heal_v i_o 24._o i_o come_v all_o blind_a thou_o can_v give_v i_o sight_n 25._o i_o come_v all_o dead_a thou_o can_v raise_v i_o 26._o i_o come_v all_o full_a of_o leprosy_n thou_o can_v make_v i_o clean_o 27._o thou_o shall_v sprinkle_v i_o o_o lord_n with_o i_o soap_n with_o thy_o precious_a blood_n shed_v for_o i_o and_o i_o shall_v be_v make_v clean_o 28._o thou_o shall_v wash_v i_o and_o i_o shall_v be_v make_v white_a than_o snow_n 29._o thy_o mercy_n be_v great_a than_o my_o iniquity_n thy_o clemency_n exceed_v my_o malice_n and_o thou_o can_v forgive_v more_o than_o i_o can_v sin_v 30._o do_v not_o therefore_o o_o lord_n do_v not_o repel_v and_o reject_v i_o 31._o do_v not_o consider_v the_o multitude_n of_o my_o sin_n but_o thy_o infinite_a mercy_n 32._o i_o resign_v myself_o wholye_a into_o thy_o hand_n 33._o thou_o o_o god_n who_o be_v able_a to_o do_v all_o thing_n convert_v i_o unto_o thou_o renew_v my_o spirit_n 34._o enlighten_v my_o understand_v sanctyfie_v my_o will_n increase_v my_o strength_n of_o body_n and_o soul_n 35._o that_o i_o may_v depend_v only_o on_o thou_o fear_v and_o love_v thou_o above_o all_o thing_n and_o serve_v thou_o feruentlye_o 36._o and_o in_o all_o my_o action_n hereafter_o to_o conform_v myself_o to_o thy_o blissed_a will_n and_o pleasure_n 37_o i_o beseech_v thou_o finallye_o to_o impart_v unto_o i_o thy_o abundant_a effectual_a grace_n by_o which_o i_o may_v be_v able_a to_o begin_v to_o lead_v a_o perfect_a and_o holy_a life_n and_o to_o serve_v thou_o perfect_o and_o thorough_o even_o to_o the_o end_n here_o end_v the_o 5._o exercise_n of_o contrition_n the_o vi_o exercise_n 1._o take_v pity_n o_o lord_n take_v pity_n o_o merciful_a sawiour_n of_o i_o most_o miserable_a sinner_n do_v thing_n worthy_a of_o blame_n and_o worthylye_o suffer_v for_o the_o same_o 2._o be_v
do_v threaten_v i_o may_v eschape_n by_o fear_v thou_o 12._o and_o give_v i_o again_o the_o joy_n of_o thy_o salvation_n that_o those_o thing_n which_o thou_o do_v promise_v i_o may_v receive_v by_o love_v thou_o 13._o o_o lord_n my_o strength_n my_o force_n my_o god_n my_o refuge_n and_o my_o deliverer_n instruct_v i_o what_o i_o ought_v to_o think_v and_o conceive_v of_o thou_o 14._o teach_v i_o with_o what_o word_n i_o be_o to_o call_v upon_o thou_o 15._o make_v know_v unto_o i_o which_o way_n i_o may_v please_v thou_o 16._o one_o thing_n doubtless_o i_o know_v with_o which_o thou_o be_v appease_v and_o another_o which_o thou_o do_v not_o despise_v very_o a_o penitent_a spirit_n be_v to_o thou_o a_o sacrifice_n acceptable_a so_o likewise_o a_o hart_n that_o be_v contrite_a and_o humble_a 17._o with_o these_o gift_n o_o my_o god_n &_o my_o aid_n do_v thou_o enrichmee_o 18._o barricade_n i_o with_o these_o bulwark_n against_o my_o enemy_n 19_o grant_v i_o this_o refreshinge_v against_o the_o flame_n of_o my_o vicious_a inclination_n 20._o set_a open_v this_o pious_a place_n of_o refuge_n to_o which_o i_o may_v fly_v from_o the_o tumult_n of_o my_o inordinate_a affection_n amen_n the_o xvii_o exercise_n 1._o graunt_n o_o lord_n that_o i_o be_v not_o of_o the_o number_n of_o those_o who_o for_o a_o time_n believe_v and_o in_o time_n of_o temptation_n do_v depart_v and_o leave_v thou_o 2._o cover_v my_o head_n in_o the_o day_n of_o battle_n thou_o o_o lord_n who_o be_v my_o hope_n in_o the_o day_n of_o affliction_n and_o my_o safeguard_n in_o the_o time_n of_o tribulation_n 3._o behold_v o_o lord_n my_o light_n and_o my_o life_n i_o have_v ask_v those_o thing_n which_o i_o wanâ—_n i_o have_v make_v know_v those_o thing_n which_o i_o fear_v my_o conscience_n nevertheless_o torment_v i_o the_o secret_n of_o my_o hart_n do_v reprehénd_v i_o 4._o and_o what_o love_n afford_v fear_n disperse_v zeal_n encourage_v i_o dread_n daunt_v i_o 5._o my_o action_n cause_v i_o to_o fear_v but_o thy_o pity_n give_v i_o cause_n of_o hope_n 6._o thy_o mercy_n embolden_v i_o my_o naughtiness_n with_o hold_v i_o 7._o and_o to_o speak_v the_o truth_n their_o occur_v to_o my_o memory_n many_o sinful_a imagination_n which_o reprehend_v the_o boldness_n of_o my_o presume_v affection_n 8._o he_o therefore_o who_o deserve_v anger_n with_o what_o face_n can_v he_o demand_v favour_n 9_o he_o who_o merit_v to_o be_v punish_v how_o can_v he_o be_v so_o fool_n hardy_a as_o to_o ask_v to_o be_v reward_v 10._o he_o incense_v the_o judge_n who_o neglect_v to_o make_v satisfaction_n for_o his_o offence_n and_o yet_o make_v mean_n to_o obtain_v a_o recompense_n 11._o that_o malefactor_n mock_v and_o deride_v his_o king_n and_o lord_n who_o earnest_o require_v the_o prize_n and_o honour_n which_o he_o never_o deserve_v 12._o that_o foolish_a son_n likewise_o provoke_v to_o anger_v the_o sweet_a affection_n of_o his_o father_n who_o upon_o reproach_n offer_v without_o repentance_n dare_v usurp_v and_o lay_v title_n to_o his_o inheritance_n 13._o what_o be_v this_o o_o father_n that_o i_o recompt_n of_o myself_o i_o have_v deserve_v death_n yet_o beg_v for_o life_n 14._o i_o have_v move_v my_o king_n to_o anger_n who_o aid_n notwithstanding_o i_o impudentlye_o implore_v 15._o i_o have_v despise_v my_o judge_n who_o boldlye_o i_o beg_v to_o be_v my_o helper_n 16._o i_o have_v insolentlye_o refuse_v to_o hear_v he_o as_o a_o father_n who_o now_o i_o presume_v to_o choose_v as_o my_o defender_n 17._o woe_n be_v i_o for_o not_o come_v so_o soon_o as_o i_o ought_v alas_o alas_o how_o little_o have_v do_v i_o make_v 18._o i_o neglect_v to_o beware_v of_o the_o weapon_n which_o wound_v i_o behore_n hand_n and_o now_o i_o be_o trouble_v through_o the_o apprehension_n of_o death_n at_o hand_n this_o be_v continue_v in_o the_o follow_v exercise_n the_o xviii_o exercise_n 1._o i_o have_v make_v my_o former_a scar_n to_o fester_v with_o new_a sore_n since_o i_o have_v renew_v my_o former_a fault_n by_o new_a iniquity_n 2._o and_o those_o which_o the_o divine_a salve_n have_v make_v sound_a my_o phrenetical_a itchinge_v have_v again_o unbound_v 3._o the_o skin_n which_o be_v grow_v over_o my_o wound_n have_v hide_v my_o malady_n by_o reason_n of_o corruption_n breakinge_v forth_o have_v grow_v to_o purify_v because_o my_o iniquity_n be_v reiterated_a have_v bereave_v i_o of_o mercy_n which_o before_o be_v grant_v 4._o for_o that_o i_o know_v it_o be_v write_v in_o what_o hour_n soever_o a_o just_a man_n shall_v sin_v all_o his_o good_a deed_n shall_v be_v forget_v 5._o if_o the_o righteousness_n of_o a_o good_a man_n be_v abolish_v when_o he_o fall_v into_o sin_n 6._o by_o how_o much_o more_o be_v the_o penance_n of_o a_o sinner_n deface_v if_o he_o return_v to_o the_o same_o 7._o how_o often_o like_o a_o dog_n have_v i_o return_v to_o that_o which_o i_o have_v vomit_v up_o before_o 8._o and_o as_o a_o sow_n have_v wallow_v again_o in_o the_o mire_n 9_o i_o confess_v that_o it_o be_v impossible_a for_o i_o to_o remember_v how_o many_o simple_a and_o ignorant_a person_n through_o my_o mean_n have_v sin_v 10._o how_o many_o that_o be_v desirous_a to_o cease_v from_o sin_n have_v i_o persuade_v to_o sin_n 11._o how_o many_o that_o have_v withstand_v i_o have_v i_o constrain_v 12._o to_o how_o many_o that_o be_v willinge_v have_v i_o consent_v 13._o to_o how_o many_o walk_a in_o the_o right_a way_n have_v i_o prepare_v a_o gin_n or_o snare_n 14._o to_o how_o many_o that_o have_v seek_v the_o right_a way_n have_v i_o uncover_v the_o pit_n that_o they_o may_v fall_v in_o 15._o and_o that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v frighten_v with_o committinge_n still_o the_o like_a i_o easy_o put_v those_o past_a out_o of_o my_o mind_n 16._o but_o thou_o in_o the_o mean_a while_n be_v a_o just_a judge_n have_v observe_v and_o record_v and_o do_v observe_v and_o record_v all_o my_o offence_n and_o have_v number_v all_o my_o footstep_n 17._o thou_o have_v all_o this_o while_n hold_v thy_o peace_n thou_o have_v be_v silent_a thou_o have_v be_v patient_a 10._o woo_v be_v i_o for_o that_o thou_o will_v speak_v at_o length_n as_o a_o weoman_n in_o her_o travail_n this_o exercise_n be_v continue_v the_o xix_o exercise_n 1._o i_o dâ—â—re_v not_o o_o my_o lord_n god_n presume_v on_o my_o own_o merit_n yea_o i_o be_o afraid_a and_o tremble_v to_o present_v myself_o before_o thou_o 2._o for_o my_o soul_n and_o body_n be_v spot_v and_o blemish_v with_o many_o sin_n and_o defect_n and_o i_o have_v be_v negligent_a â—â—_o think_v and_o word_n 3._o to_o thou_o therefore_o o_o merciful_a god_n &_o dear_a sawiour_n i_o wretched_a sinner_n be_v in_o these_o strait_n recurre_v as_o unto_o the_o fountain_n of_o mercy_n and_o pity_n â—_o fly_v unto_o thou_o for_o salvation_n 4._o and_o to_o thou_o o_o lord_n i_o lie_v open_a my_o wound_n and_o sore_n to_o thou_o i_o discover_v my_o infirmity_n of_o which_o i_o be_o ashamed_a 5._o i_o know_v my_o sin_n to_o be_v many_o and_o great_a for_o which_o i_o stand_v in_o fear_n 6._o i_o hope_v in_o thy_o mercy_n which_o be_v without_o end_n 7._o lord_n jesus-christ_n eternal_a king_n god_n and_o man_n look_v upon_o i_o with_o the_o eye_n of_o thy_o mercy_n 8._o harken_v unto_o i_o puttinge_v my_o trust_n in_o thou_o have_v pity_n on_o i_o that_o be_o full_a of_o misery_n and_o sin_n thou_o o_o lord_n who_o never_o restreign_a the_o flowinge_a of_o the_o fountain_n of_o thy_o mercy_n 9_o i_o be_o hartilye_o sorry_a that_o ever_o i_o have_v offend_v thou_o i_o desire_v to_o amend_v for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v 10._o do_v away_o therefore_o from_o i_o o_o most_o merciful_a father_n all_o my_o sin_n and_o iniquity_n that_o so_o be_v purify_v and_o cleanse_v in_o soul_n and_o body_n i_o may_v be_v able_a worthilye_o to_o serve_v thou_o and_o bliss_o to_o be_v unite_v unto_o thou_o 11._o let_v my_o soul_n thirst_v always_o after_o thou_o the_o source_n of_o wisdom_n and_o knowledge_n the_o fountain_n of_o eternal_a life_n and_o sun_n of_o eternal_a light_n the_o river_n of_o pleasure_n the_o plentifulness_n of_o the_o house_n of_o god_n 12._o let_v it_o always_o earnest_o aspire_v after_o thou_o seek_v thou_o and_o find_v thou_o deseruinge_v such_o ingratitude_n at_o my_o hand_n 6._o i_o much_o desire_n that_o i_o be_v more_o sorry_a &_o that_o my_o hart_n may_v break_v for_o any_o one_o of_o the_o offence_n which_o i_o have_v commit_v against_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n 7._o how_o great_a reason_n be_v there_o that_o i_o shall_v melt_v into_o tear_n for_o the_o least_o of_o they_o 8._o for_o i_o have_v little_o
able_a to_o steed_n other_o 10._o so_o that_o the_o whole_a world_n grow_v weary_a of_o i_o and_o of_o my_o life_n and_o be_v and_o daily_o long_o to_o be_v ride_v of_o i_o by_o death_n or_o some_o other_o way_n they_o care_v not_o how_o and_o in_o this_o case_n to_o remain_v diverse_a year_n yea_o for_o my_o whole_a life_n time_n though_o never_o so_o long_o 11._o i_o be_o resign_v that_o die_v in_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n which_o i_o hope_v and_o earnest_o pray_v i_o may_v always_o do_v and_o of_o a_o natural_a death_n i_o be_v for_o all_o that_o through_o some_o occasion_n or_o other_o by_o the_o permission_n of_o god_n esteem_v to_o have_v kill_v or_o destroy_v myself_o and_o thereupon_o to_o be_v accord_v to_o the_o custom_n of_o our_o country_n pierce_v through_o the_o midst_n of_o my_o body_n with_o a_o stake_n and_o bury_v in_o the_o high_a way_n and_o every_o one_o that_o pass_v by_o to_o cast_v a_o stone_n on_o my_o grave_n in_o detestation_n of_o i_o to_o the_o unspeakable_a shame_n confusion_n and_o damnation_n of_o my_o own_o fame_n and_o to_o the_o foul_a aspersion_n of_o my_o family_n resignation_n of_o and_o concern_v the_o soul_n the_o v._o exercise_n 1._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o undergo_v all_o sort_n of_o temptation_n which_o may_v please_v thy_o divine_a majesty_n to_o lay_v or_o permit_v to_o fall_v upon_o i_o for_o my_o exercise_n and_o trial_n and_o to_o endure_v they_o to_o the_o end_n ever_o adheringe_v to_o thou_o and_o not_o yeildinge_v to_o sin_n by_o occasion_n of_o they_o so_o far_o as_o thy_o holy_a grace_n shall_v enable_v i_o 2._o to_o endure_v all_o manner_n of_o desolation_n privation_n aridity_n dryness_n and_o indevotion_n all_o darkness_n in_o my_o understand_v and_o all_o dullness_n and_o coldness_n of_o affection_n in_o my_o will_n towards_o my_o god_n so_o far_o as_o i_o be_o not_o able_a to_o help_v it_o and_o will_v not_o for_o my_o comfort_n convert_v i_o to_o external_a solace_n 3._o to_o want_v all_o manner_n of_o gift_n &_o grace_n that_o be_v not_o absolute_o necessary_a to_o my_o salvation_n as_o all_o supernatural_a contemplation_n sweeteness_n and_o extraordinary_a divine_a visit_n and_o favour_n 4._o to_o resign_v myself_o in_o all_o thing_n be_v they_o never_o so_o contrary_a to_o nature_n and_o its_o inclination_n to_o sensuality_n and_o its_o affection_n 5._o to_o resign_v myself_o to_o bear_v with_o the_o repugnance_n which_o i_o find_v in_o my_o sensuality_n until_o by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n soon_o or_o late_a ever_o or_o never_o in_o this_o life_n it_o may_v be_v bring_v to_o perfect_a subjection_n to_o the_o soul_n and_o in_o the_o mean_a time_n to_o bear_v with_o the_o labour_n and_o difficulty_n that_o be_v in_o fight_a against_o it_o or_o in_o resistinge_v the_o desire_n of_o itt_n 6._o to_o resign_v myself_o to_o die_v before_o that_o i_o can_v reach_v to_o perfection_n and_o to_o live_v and_o die_v in_o that_o state_n or_o degree_n of_o perfection_n which_o shall_v be_v please_a to_o god_n and_o not_o accord_v to_o my_o own_o will_n or_o way_n yet_o ever_o wishinge_v and_o endeavouringe_v that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v wantinge_v in_o cooperatinge_v with_o his_o grace_n and_o call_v 7._o to_o resign_v myself_o to_o be_v content_a to_o serve_v my_o god_n accord_v to_o that_o manner_n which_o he_o preordain_v and_o not_o accord_v to_o my_o own_o proper_a will_n desire_n or_o way_n have_v regard_n notwithstanding_o to_o my_o natural_a talent_n and_o complexion_n or_o corporal_a constitution_n and_o accord_v to_o the_o measure_n of_o wit_n or_o understand_v that_o be_v in_o i_o and_o accord_v to_o the_o supernatural_a help_n and_o grace_n that_o god_n shall_v afford_v unto_o i_o and_o not_o accord_v to_o the_o talent_n gift_n and_o grace_n which_o god_n have_v give_v and_o impart_v unto_o other_o 8._o i_o be_o resign_v and_o well_o please_v that_o god_n have_v give_v and_o hereafter_o at_o his_o pleasure_n may_v give_v to_o other_o far_o great_a grace_n and_o talent_n or_o perfection_n than_o he_o have_v give_v or_o shall_v give_v unto_o i_o 9_o and_o that_o all_o other_o make_v great_a progress_n in_o spirit_n and_o perfection_n than_o i_o do_v albeit_o i_o shall_v use_v great_a diligence_n and_o industry_n than_o they_o 10._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o understand_v learn_v or_o know_v no_o more_o or_o otherwise_o then_o god_n will_v have_v i_o to_o know_v and_o to_o remain_v ignorant_a in_o what_o he_o will_v have_v i_o to_o remain_v ignorant_a of_o it_o be_v continue_v the_o vi_o exercise_n 1._o and_o for_o what_o i_o do_v or_o shall_v know_v i_o do_v resign_v and_o yield_v up_o to_o god_n who_o it_o be_v by_o due_a all_o the_o honour_n contentment_n satisfaction_n and_o commodity_n that_o can_v come_v to_o i_o by_o such_o knowledge_n 2._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o know_v no_o more_o than_o be_v absolute_o necessary_a to_o salvation_n and_o to_o want_v the_o knowledge_n of_o all_o other_o thing_n and_o especial_o of_o all_o curiosity_n and_o impertinency_n 3._o i_o be_o resign_v yea_o desire_v to_o follow_v god_n by_o all_o way_n whatsoever_o that_o he_o shall_v call_v i_o seem_v they_o never_o so_o strange_a or_o unreasonable_a so_o they_o have_v no_o sin_n in_o they_o i_o mean_v both_o for_o internal_a and_o external_a way_n though_o i_o can_v understand_v the_o reason_n of_o they_o or_o perceive_v how_o they_o can_v lead_v or_o bring_v to_o a_o good_a end_n or_o issue_n and_o so_o to_o be_v content_v to_o walk_v as_o it_o be_v blindfold_a and_o in_o darkness_n as_o to_o the_o use_n of_o my_o natural_a understand_v 4._o i_o be_o resign_v and_o content_v that_o other_o do_v excel_v i_o in_o virtue_n and_o perfection_n yet_o ever_o desiringe_v that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v wantinge_v in_o my_o endeavour_n and_o be_o resign_v that_o they_o be_v far_o more_o than_o myself_o esteem_v love_a and_o honour_v by_o all_o other_o for_o virtue_n and_o perfection_n 5._o i_o be_o resign_v not_o to_o know_v in_o what_o case_n i_o 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complacence_n and_o love_n that_o i_o have_v in_o the_o knowledge_n or_o skill_n of_o any_o particular_a art_n either_o of_o read_n write_n speak_v enditinge_v and_o general_o all_o skill_n and_o knowledge_n of_o any_o art_n or_o science_n whatsoever_o and_o alsoe_o all_o desire_n to_o be_v esteem_v for_o nobility_n gentry_n and_o gteate_a alliance_n all_o thing_n in_o a_o word_n that_o be_v not_o for_o god_n and_o in_o god_n with_o the_o love_n and_o affection_n to_o they_o i_o do_v for_o the_o present_a and_o future_a reject_v and_o cast_v away_o 4._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v free_o renonnce_n all_o manner_n of_o affection_n to_o the_o occasion_n of_o sin_n or_o imperfection_n so_o that_o willing_o i_o will_v utterlye_o fly_v from_o they_o be_v they_o of_o what_o kind_n they_o will_n and_o will_v endeavour_v to_o avoid_v all_o such_o occasion_n as_o far_o as_o well_o i_o may_v and_o what_o i_o can_v such_o be_v the_o necessity_n of_o our_o life_n that_o we_o can_v 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know_v it_o be_v god_n will_n that_o i_o shall_v do_v itt_fw-ge 7._o neither_o be_v there_o any_o kind_a of_o exercise_n so_o ungrateful_a or_o painful_a to_o my_o nature_n but_o i_o will_v embrace_v it_o if_o i_o know_v or_o think_v itt_n to_o be_v god_n will_n that_o i_o shall_v or_o otherwise_o can_v find_v it_o to_o be_v profitable_a to_o i_o 8._o in_o the_o mean_a time_n i_o will_v for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n serve_v he_o in_o such_o kind_n of_o exercise_n as_o my_o poor_a knowledge_n shall_v inform_v i_o to_o be_v most_o for_o his_o honour_n and_o service_n and_o my_o own_o soul_n good_a 9_o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o undergo_v all_o manner_n of_o temptation_n be_v they_o corporal_a or_o spiritual_a as_o blasphemy_n despair_n or_o any_o other_o manner_n of_o temptation_n wherewith_o it_o will_v please_v god_n to_o exercise_v and_o prove_v i_o and_o will_v abide_v in_o they_o as_o long_o as_o he_o shall_v please_v that_o they_o continue_v be_v it_o for_o never_o so_o many_o 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of_o wit_n or_o judgement_n disabilitie_n to_o express_v my_o mind_n by_o word_n or_o write_n ignorance_n or_o unskilfulnesse_n in_o such_o kind_a of_o thing_n as_o other_o of_o my_o call_n usuallye_o can_v do_v rawness_n harshness_n lowness_n or_o unpleasantnesse_n of_o voice_n blemish_n or_o defect_n in_o face_n or_o favour_n or_o in_o any_o other_o part_n of_o the_o body_n or_o in_o stature_n or_o in_o any_o other_o real_a or_o seeminge_v defect_n in_o soul_n or_o body_n or_o in_o be_v descend_v of_o poor_a or_o less_o noble_a parent_n or_o have_v poor_a or_o obscure_a kindred_n or_o friend_n in_o these_o and_o all_o other_o such_o like_a point_n i_o resign_v myself_o to_o god_n and_o i_o do_v and_o will_v still_o accept_v of_o my_o condition_n such_o as_o it_o be_v or_o may_v be_v and_o do_v not_o desire_v any_o betteringe_v lesseninge_v or_o alter_v of_o itt_n but_o that_o it_o may_v continue_v and_o be_v publish_v to_o all_o other_o for_o my_o mortification_n and_o humility_n 4._o i_o resign_v myself_o all_o the_o time_n of_o my_o life_n prove_v it_o never_o so_o long_o for_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o his_o divine_a pleasure_n to_o labour_v all_o that_o i_o can_v both_o corporallye_o and_o spiritual_o for_o gayneinge_v of_o perfection_n that_o be_v the_o perfect_a love_n of_o god_n albeit_o i_o never_o reach_v unto_o itt_n or_o near_o unto_o itt_n therein_o and_o in_o all_o other_o thing_n resigninge_v and_o whole_o submittinge_n myself_o to_o what_o the_o majesty_n goodness_n and_o wisdom_n of_o god_n shall_v please_v to_o determine_v about_o i_o 5._o i_o resign_v myself_o as_o to_o all_o propriety_n and_o affection_n to_o book_n and_o instruction_n print_v and_o writtenâ—_n which_o i_o either_o have_v have_v now_o have_v or_o hereafter_o may_v have_v and_o do_v resign_v myself_o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o they_o when_o and_o by_o such_o mean_n as_o shall_v please_v god_n to_o deprive_v i_o of_o they_o and_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v for_o 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to_o the_o use_n and_o exercise_n of_o the_o tongue_n and_o to_o all_o manner_n of_o talk_v and_o discoursinge_v so_o that_o if_o it_o may_v please_v god_n i_o will_v be_v content_v for_o his_o love_n to_o be_v make_v dumb_a and_o to_o have_v no_o tongue_n at_o all_o so_o that_o i_o can_v not_o speak_v 4._o because_o nevertheless_o the_o necessity_n of_o his_o life_n will_v not_o admit_v such_o mortification_n of_o absolute_a dumnesse_n in_o practice_n but_o that_o i_o must_v often_o speak_v either_o for_o my_o own_o need_n or_o for_o charity_n sake_n or_o for_o my_o ow_v recreation_n or_o for_o some_o other_o iuâ—t_a occasion_n i_o purpose_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n that_o all_o my_o word_n and_o talk_n shall_v not_o be_v out_o of_o affection_n to_o talk_v but_o out_o of_o a_o reasonable_a necessity_n with_o a_o religious_a wariness_n that_o i_o offend_v not_o in_o the_o matter_n or_o manner_n of_o my_o speak_v givinge_v over_o so_o soon_o as_o convenient_o i_o may_v ever_o affectinge_v at_o least_o in_o my_o superior_a will_n if_o not_o in_o my_o nature_n or_o sensuality_n to_o have_v no_o use_n of_o my_o tongue_n at_o all_o nor_o wishinge_v to_o have_v need_n or_o just_a occasion_n for_o it_o save_v only_o for_o praysinge_v &_o honouring_n god_n so_o that_o by_o this_o mean_v my_o error_n &_o escape_v by_o occasion_n of_o talk_v do_v not_o proceed_v out_o of_o affection_n to_o talk_v itself_o but_o that_o the_o talk_n itself_o be_v necessitate_v and_o the_o which_o we_o can_v not_o well_o forbear_v 5._o for_o the_o love_n and_o honour_n of_o god_n i_o do_v renounce_v all_o manner_n of_o desire_n of_o honour_n and_o honourable_a place_n dignity_n and_o office_n that_o be_v oâ—_n authority_n command_n or_o direction_n or_o whatsoever_o may_v breed_v i_o estimation_n with_o other_o and_o thereby_o feed_v my_o proud_a nature_n 6._o and_o in_o steed_n thereof_o i_o will_v undergo_v any_o office_n place_n or_o employment_n that_o my_o nature_n do_v scorn_n and_o abhor_v if_o that_o obedience_n charity_n or_o the_o will_n of_o god_n do_v impose_v itt_n on_o i_o 7._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v renounce_v all_o vain_a complyinge_a conversation_n and_o correspondance_n with_o the_o world_n by_o letter_n token_n message_n or_o otherwise_o and_o all_o seeking_n to_o please_v the_o world_n with_o which_o in_o affection_n i_o desire_v to_o have_v no_o more_o to_o do_v then_o if_o i_o be_v real_o dead_a and_o bury_v desiringe_v only_o to_o serve_v and_o please_v god_n yea_o i_o desire_v so_o much_o to_o be_v forget_v by_o the_o world_n that_o it_o may_v not_o remember_v or_o know_v thaâ—_n there_o be_v or_o ever_o be_v any_o such_o creature_n as_o i_o be_o or_o as_o if_o i_o have_v never_o at_o all_o be_v bear_v 8._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o renounce_v all_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o my_o parent_n friend_n and_o kindred_n as_o if_o i_o be_v another_o melchisedec_n who_o parent_n and_o kindred_n be_v utter_o unknown_a both_o to_o himself_o and_o to_o all_o other_o and_o do_v resign_v myself_o to_o be_v neglect_v and_o forsake_v by_o they_o all_o yea_o and_o to_o have_v they_o without_o any_o just_a occasion_n give_v by_o i_o avert_v from_o i_o so_o that_o they_o abhor_v to_o hear_v i_o name_v nor_o can_v endure_v so_o muchâ—_n as_o to_o think_v of_o i_o 9_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o renounce_v all_o affection_n to_o meat_n and_o drink_v as_o to_o any_o pleasure_n or_o delight_n that_o i_o willing_o intend_v in_o they_o and_o do_v rather_o if_o it_o may_v please_v god_n to_o grant_v itt_n unto_o i_o choose_v for_o the_o mortification_n of_o my_o sensuality_n that_o i_o may_v never_o need_v to_o eat_v or_o drink_v at_o all_o but_o be_v deliver_v from_o the_o necessity_n of_o itt_n and_o in_o such_o case_n will_v i_o desire_v to_o live_v so_o long_o as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n that_o i_o abide_v in_o thâ—â—_n lise_fw-fr i_o mean_v without_o eatinge_v or_o drink_v and_o without_o need_n to_o eat_v or_o drink_v or_o to_o take_v any_o thing_n that_o may_v be_v please_a to_o my_o body_n or_o nature_n 10._o but_o since_o it_o can_v be_v so_o but_o that_o i_o needs_o must_v eat_v and_o drink_v i_o will_v do_v it_o for_o the_o love_n and_o service_n of_o god_n and_o not_o mere_o or_o at_o all_o for_o my_o own_o will_n and_o pleasure_n it_o be_v continue_v the_o xi_o exerciseâ—_n 1â—_n in_o the_o like_a manner_n i_o resign_v myself_o as_o to_o the_o affection_n for_o sleepinge_v recreation_n and_o all_o other_o corporal_a refreshment_n and_o solace_n to_o take_v they_o only_o for_o god_n and_o not_o for_o my_o own_o will_n or_o satisfaction_n and_o to_o be_v willing_a altogether_o to_o
forbear_v they_o if_o that_o it_o can_v stand_v with_o the_o will_n of_o god_n accord_v to_o true_a discretion_n 2._o i_o do_v renounce_v all_o manner_n of_o affection_n to_o create_a thing_n be_v they_o corporal_a or_o spiritual_a as_o to_o any_o affection_n i_o hear_v they_o for_o their_o own_o sake_n mere_o deâ—iringe_v and_o intendinge_v that_o all_o kind_n of_o create_a thing_n spiritual_a and_o corporal_a and_o all_o that_o be_v not_o god_n may_v be_v love_v by_o i_o for_o god_n and_o in_o god_n and_o not_o otherwise_o 3._o in_o particular_a i_o renounce_v all_o affection_n to_o sensible_a gâ—st_n and_o devotion_n to_o spiritual_a light_n to_o facility_n in_o prayinge_v to_o elevate_v contemplation_n both_o active_a and_o passive_a rapt_n and_o extase_n vision_n apparition_n extraordinary_a illumination_n revelation_n knowledge_n of_o the_o deâ—ine_a secret_n the_o beholdinge_v and_o conversinge_v with_o glorious_a angel_n saint_n or_o other_o good_a spirit_n and_o to_o all_o other_o extraordinary_a gift_n and_o favour_n i_o say_v i_o do_v resign_v all_o affection_n to_o they_o so_o that_o if_o i_o chance_v to_o have_v they_o yet_o by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n will_v i_o have_v noâ—_n adheringe_v affection_n to_o they_o but_o refer_v it_o to_o the_o goodness_n and_o freewill_n of_o god_n to_o give_v or_o not_o to_o give_v what_o he_o please_v 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 4._o and_o with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n i_o will_v never_o â—â—st_n in_o any_o gift_n of_o god_n not_o in_o any_o create_a thing_n be_v it_o never_o so_o noble_a but_o only_o shall_v make_v use_n of_o itt_n so_o far_o as_o it_o may_v be_v of_o use_n for_o to_o pass_v further_o into_o that_o which_o be_v increated_a illimited_a and_o infinitt_n which_o be_v god_n himself_o the_o creator_n and_o giver_n who_o be_v infinite_o above_o all_o these_o and_o other_o whatsoever_o gift_n grace_n and_o creature_n and_o in_o he_o only_o will_v i_o place_v and_o make_v my_o final_a rest_n love_n and_o intention_n though_o i_o know_v well_o i_o shall_v not_o attain_v unto_o he_o as_o he_o be_v in_o his_o true_a essence_n while_o i_o â—m_n in_o this_o lâ—fe_n 5._o and_o therefore_o i_o purpose_v with_o his_o grace_n ever_o to_o labour_v more_o and_o more_o to_o approach_v unto_o he_o &_o never_o to_o give_v over_o know_v well_o that_o i_o shall_v not_o perfect_o come_v by_o he_o in_o this_o life_n it_o be_v reserve_v for_o the_o future_a but_o yet_o with_o continual_a labour_n i_o may_v with_o his_o grace_n walk_a only_o in_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n draw_v near_o and_o like_a unto_o he_o and_o more_o please_v his_o divine_a eye_n which_o i_o desire_v and_o intend_v serious_o ever_o to_o do_v 6._o i_o resign_v myself_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n to_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o bodily_a necessary_n and_o to_o be_v as_o naked_a therein_o as_o when_o i_o be_v bear_v and_o as_o for_o such_o necessary_n as_o god_n shall_v afford_v i_o for_o the_o maintayninge_v of_o my_o corporal_a life_n i_o do_v and_o will_v likewise_o resign_v all_o love_n and_o affection_n even_o to_o those_o necessary_n 7._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o resign_v myself_o to_o be_v by_o all_o that_o do_v know_v or_o hereafter_o shall_v know_v i_o esteem_v the_o most_o abject_a unworthy_a base_a ignorant_a foolish_a wittlesse_a and_o most_o contemptible_a of_o all_o human_a creature_n and_o therefore_o not_o only_o incapable_a of_o all_o office_n and_o employment_n but_o alsoe_o unworthy_a to_o be_v admit_v into_o the_o company_n or_o conversation_n of_o any_o other_o though_o of_o never_o so_o mean_a condition_n 8._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v resign_v myself_o to_o be_v content_v with_o the_o natural_a and_o supernatural_a gift_n and_o talent_n that_o i_o have_v or_o shall_v have_v wishinge_v no_o more_o of_o they_o than_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n to_o give_v i_o or_o continue_v in_o i_o which_o i_o will_v employ_v in_o his_o service_n while_o i_o have_v they_o and_o will_v not_o repine_v or_o murmur_v â—o_o be_v deprive_v of_o they_o 9_o i_o be_o resign_v and_o content_v to_o undergo_v all_o such_o mortification_n obedience_n and_o difficulty_n whatsoever_o which_o my_o superior_a mediate_a or_o immediate_a shall_v deliberate_o require_v of_o i_o to_o be_v undergo_v or_o perform_v 10._o i_o be_o resign_v after_o this_o life_n to_o abide_v in_o purgatory_n in_o horrible_a pain_n and_o torment_n and_o for_o so_o long_o time_n as_o it_o shall_v be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n and_o to_o remain_v there_o even_o to_o the_o end_n of_o the_o world_n if_o it_o shall_v so_o please_v god_n to_o ordain_v of_o i_o the_o xii_o exercise_n 1._o i_o be_o resign_v not_o to_o know_v what_o will_v become_v oâ—_n i_o hereafter_o â—iâ—her_o for_o body_n or_o soul_n but_o therein_o to_o refer_v myself_o to_o the_o private_a and_o secret_a judgement_n of_o god_n and_o to_o be_v resign_v and_o content_v that_o god_n do_v reserve_v and_o conceal_v to_o himself_o those_o his_o knowledge_n &_o judgement_n about_o i_o 2._o and_o in_o particular_a not_o to_o know_v where_o in_o what_o company_n with_o what_o assistance_n and_o in_o what_o manner_n of_o what_o kind_n of_o sickness_n and_o whither_o sudden_o or_o of_o a_o long_o sickness_n or_o in_o what_o case_n as_o to_o the_o state_n of_o my_o soul_n i_o shall_v die_v as_o whither_o my_o soul_n shall_v go_v to_o heaven_n or_o to_o hell_n or_o to_o purgatory_n in_o all_o these_o case_n i_o be_o to_o resign_v myself_o and_o to_o be_v conâ—â—nted_v that_o god_n only_o do_v know_v what_o will_v become_v of_o i_o and_o my_o 〈◊〉_d to_o be_v ignorant_a of_o itt_n 3._o nevertheless_o as_o to_o my_o soul_n i_o hope_v and_o with_o the_o grace_n of_o godâ—uer_n â—uer_z will_v hope_v because_o he_o be_v good_a and_o command_v i_o to_o hope_v that_o i_o shall_v be_v a_o save_a soul_n and_o shall_v one_o day_n soon_o or_o late_a enjoy_v he_o in_o heaven_n for_o all_o eternity_n 4._o for_o the_o love_n i_o bear_v unto_o god_n &_o pure_o for_o the_o love_n and_o excellency_n that_o be_v in_o he_o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o serve_v he_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n with_o all_o my_o soul_n and_o body_n without_o any_o regard_n to_o a_o reward_n for_o so_o do_v in_o so_o much_o as_o if_o there_o be_v neither_o heaven_n or_o hell_n or_o purgatory_n or_o any_o reward_n or_o punishment_n in_o this_o life_n or_o the_o next_o yet_o will_v i_o serve_v he_o in_o the_o best_a manner_n i_o can_v and_o this_o only_a in_o regard_n that_o his_o goodness_n and_o other_o his_o excellency_n do_v deserve_v infinite_o great_a love_n and_o service_n than_o i_o yea_o or_o all_o the_o angel_n and_o saint_n and_o other_o creature_n whatsoever_o be_v able_a to_o doâ—_n or_o perform_v for_o he_o 5._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n in_o who_o sight_n i_o be_o and_o upon_o who_o all_o my_o be_v depend_v i_o resign_v myself_o unto_o he_o with_o all_o that_o i_o have_v or_o can_v do_v or_o suffer_v in_o soul_n body_n fame_n friend_n or_o external_a good_n for_o time_n and_o eternity_n so_o that_o i_o do_v reserve_v to_o myself_o no_o manner_n of_o will_n but_o in_o all_o thing_n do_v make_v the_o will_n of_o god_n to_o be_v my_o will_n utterlye_o neglectinge_v my_o own_o will_n as_o if_o i_o have_v none_o at_o all_o god_n by_o this_o mean_n wholye_a reigninge_n in_o i_o and_o do_v by_o i_o with_o i_o and_o about_o i_o as_o be_v but_o his_o instrument_n whatsoever_o shall_v please_v he_o and_o nothing_o as_o for_o or_o to_o myself_o or_o any_o end_n of_o my_o own_o a_o act_n for_o a_o timorous_a or_o scrupulous_a conscience_n 6._o for_o the_o love_n i_o bear_v unto_o god_n i_o renounce_v and_o give_v over_o all_o manner_n of_o self_n will_v and_o self_n conceit_n or_o opinion_n in_o all_o matter_n general_o and_o particular_o in_o this_o that_o i_o will_v henceforth_o stand_v to_o and_o practice_v such_o advice_n and_o direction_n as_o have_v be_v give_v i_o by_o such_o as_o i_o have_v reason_n to_o give_v credit_n unto_o in_o spiritual_a matter_n about_o the_o sayinge_v of_o my_o office_n or_o about_o confession_n or_o about_o judge_v what_o be_v sin_n and_o what_o not_o and_o what_o i_o be_o to_o judge_v to_o be_v mortal_a and_o what_o not_o neither_o will_v i_o in_o any_o point_n vary_v from_o such_o advice_n or_o direction_n but_o will_v tie_v myself_o out_o of_o the_o love_n and_o obedience_n i_o owe_v to_o god_n to_o â—â—and_v to_o such_o advice_n as_o have_v be_v or_o shall_v be_v give_v unto_o i_o â—ither_o about_o the_o matter_n manner_n or_o frequency_n of_o confession_n or_o about_o the_o iteratinge_a or_o sayinge_v of_o my_o office_n or_o any_o part_n thereof_o or_o about_o the_o
attention_n unto_o it_o or_o about_o judge_v what_o to_o be_v sâ—nnâ—_n and_o â—hat_n not_o and_o what_o to_o bâ—_n moral_n and_o what_o not_o or_o about_o any_o other_o thing_n that_o shall_v concern_v my_o confession_n or_o sayinge_v my_o office_n or_o otherwise_o concern_v my_o soul_n and_o conscience_n â—_o i_o â—esâ—gne_v myself_o to_o undergo_v and_o perform_v whatsoeuâ—r_v my_o supâ—â—ioâ—_n shall_v deliâ—eraâ—â—lye_v and_o absoâ—utelyâ—_n reqâ—iâ—e_v of_o mâ—â—_n â—lbâ—iâ—_n neuâ—r_n â—oe_v â—â—pugnâ—nt_v â—o_o â—ynâ—_n owâ—â—_n natural_a will_v or_o 〈◊〉_d and_o though_o it_o sâ—â—mâ—â—â—ueâ—â—oe_v repugnant_a to_o my_o natural_a reaâ—on_n aâ—d_a iudgâ—mentâ—_n and_o â—â—â—me_n to_o be_v â—ayne_o and_o impertinent_a or_o agâ—â—â—st_a reâ—sâ—nâ—_n 〈◊〉_d proâ—â—_n very_o pâ—â—nefull_a to_o my_o body_n or_o preiudiciouâ—_n to_o my_o fame_n and_o honour_n yea_o and_o though_o it_o seem_v a_o thing_n impossible_a to_o be_v do_v yet_o will_v i_o attempt_v it_o and_o endeavour_v to_o do_v it_o the_o best_a â—_o can_v provide_v always_o there_o be_v nothing_o command_v i_o as_o without_o doubt_n i_o hope_v there_o never_o will_v be_v against_o the_o law_n of_o god_n and_o his_o church_n 9_o i_o likewise_o resign_v myself_o willing_o to_o undergo_v any_o penance_n public_a or_o private_a that_o shall_v be_v enjoin_v i_o by_o my_o superior_a immediate_a or_o mediate_v yea_o though_o such_o a_o penance_n be_v never_o so_o great_a a_o confusion_n or_o shame_n unto_o i_o or_o stain_v â—o_o my_o honour_n or_o credit_n and_o â—hough_o i_o be_v never_o so_o innocent_a in_o the_o suppose_a crime_n for_o the_o which_o the_o pâ—â—â—anâ—e_n be_v impose_v and_o that_o â—ll_a other_o do_v esteem_v and_o judge_v meâ—_n guilty_a of_o the_o crime_n though_o indâ—ed_v i_o be_o nâ—t_a 10._o i_o resign_v myself_o so_o â—arre_o to_o overcome_v the_o bashfulness_n or_o other_o difficâ—lâ—â—â—â—â—haâ—_n iâ—_n oâ—_n shall_v â—e_v in_o i_o for_o the_o discoveringe_v of_o my_o secret_n bodilye_o necessity_n or_o other_o secret_n of_o my_o interior_a confession_n especial_o to_o do_v this_o in_o matter_n of_o confession_n that_o i_o will_v when_o there_o shall_v be_v cause_n for_o it_o therein_o mortifye_v myself_o and_o will_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n open_v my_o case_n to_o my_o superior_a or_o ghostly_a father_n accord_v to_o the_o nature_n of_o my_o case_n and_o as_o it_o shall_v require_v albeit_o my_o natural_a will_v have_v never_o so_o great_a a_o aversion_n from_o such_o my_o discovery_n of_o my_o necessity_n or_o of_o my_o interior_a state_n the_o xiii_o exercise_n 1._o i_o resign_v myself_o that_o when_o charity_n obedience_n discretion_n or_o necessity_n shall_v require_v it_o i_o will_v visit_v and_o help_v any_o one_o lyinge_a sick_a though_o of_o the_o plague_n or_o any_o other_o infectious_a odious_a or_o horrid_a disease_n and_o will_v attend_v serve_v and_o comfort_v they_o accord_v to_o my_o ability_n without_o flinchinge_v any_o way_n and_o therein_o will_v regard_v neither_o life_n nor_o health_n nor_o will_v avoid_v itt_n for_o any_o horror_n or_o loathsomenesse_n that_o my_o nature_n shall_v find_v or_o conceive_v in_o the_o disease_n or_o employment_n yet_o it_o be_v not_o the_o will_n of_o god_n that_o i_o shall_v without_o cause_n desperate_o put_v myself_o into_o the_o say_a employment_n but_o it_o must_v be_v do_v accord_v to_o the_o rule_n of_o discretion_n and_o that_o good_a may_v come_v by_o it_o to_o the_o party_n that_o be_v infect_v or_o otherwise_o sick_a 2._o in_o like_a manner_n i_o resign_v myself_o to_o attend_v serve_v and_o watch_v with_o those_o that_o be_v sick_a or_o need_v help_v accord_v to_o their_o necessity_n and_o as_o charity_n obedience_n and_o discretion_n shall_v require_v of_o i_o 3._o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o undergo_v and_o put_v in_o execution_n all_o manner_n of_o remedy_n that_o shall_v be_v deliberatelye_a advise_v i_o by_o the_o physician_n with_o the_o consent_n of_o my_o superior_n for_o the_o betteringe_a of_o my_o health_n or_o savinge_v of_o my_o life_n be_v those_o remedy_n never_o so_o harsh_a bitter_a painful_a or_o odious_a to_o my_o nature_n as_o the_o take_n of_o moâ—â—_n bitter_a potion_n cuttinge_v of_o some_o of_o my_o limb_n or_o any_o other_o painful_a remedy_n ordain_v and_o prescribe_v unto_o i_o 4._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o undergo_v the_o molestation_n of_o little_a but_o payneful_o pinch_v bitinge_v and_o troublesome_a creature_n as_o flea_n louse_n eimise_n and_o other_o such_o like_a uâ—rmine_n so_o far_o as_o god_n will_v have_v i_o to_o be_v exercise_v by_o they_o and_o that_o i_o can_v rid_v myself_o from_o they_o yea_o though_o they_o shall_v so_o farâ—e_n prevail_v over_o i_o as_o to_o bereave_v i_o of_o my_o life_n â—as_v they_o have_v do_v to_o diverse_a i_o will_v and_o do_v sâ—â—â—he_a love_n of_o god_n therein_o reâ—â—gne_v my_o self_n to_o his_o will_n and_o providenâ—â—â—eerin_o â—_o i_o resign_v myself_o when_o obedience_n charity_n or_o necessâ—tie_n shall_v â—â—quire_v it_o to_o go_v to_o any_o house_n room_n or_o place_n and_o lodge_v and_o dwell_v â—here_o notwithstanding_o the_o fear_n of_o devil_n hobgobbling_n or_o other_o have_v spiritâ—_n that_o be_v say_v to_o be_v there_o 〈…〉_o will_v in_o thâ—_n name_n of_o god_n and_o when_o it_o shall_v be_v his_o will_n resort_v and_o abide_v in_o such_o a_o place_n albeit_o i_o shall_v there_o real_o see_v a_o 1000_o of_o those_o evil_n and_o malicious_a spirit_n yea_o and_o though_o god_n will_v permit_v they_o to_o beat_v buffet_n scratch_n and_o torment_v my_o body_n as_o he_o permit_v they_o to_o do_v to_o the_o body_n of_o s._n anthony_n and_o other_o saint_n for_o their_o exercise_n for_o i_o know_v well_o that_o all_o the_o malice_n of_o the_o devil_n will_v not_o be_v able_a to_o hurt_v my_o soul_n so_o long_o as_o i_o continue_v my_o good_a will_n and_o love_n to_o god_n which_o the_o devil_n can_v take_v away_o by_o molestinge_v of_o my_o body_n but_o he_o do_v thereby_o give_v i_o more_o and_o better_a occasion_n to_o unite_v my_o soul_n to_o god_n the_o which_o be_v do_v it_o little_a import_v what_o he_o do_v to_o my_o body_n which_o what_o harm_n soever_o he_o do_v in_o this_o life_n i_o believe_v and_o be_o assure_v will_v be_v well_o restore_v to_o i_o at_o the_o general_a day_n of_o judgement_n and_o in_o perfect_a health_n as_o i_o hope_v alsoe_o for_o the_o salvation_n and_o perpetual_a felicity_n of_o my_o soul_n 6._o and_o therefore_o and_o in_o like_a manner_n i_o do_v resign_v myself_o that_o if_o god_n will_v permit_v and_o have_v my_o body_n to_o be_v possess_v by_o the_o devil_n or_o by_o million_o of_o devil_n and_o to_o be_v vex_v and_o torment_v by_o they_o or_o to_o have_v witchcraft_n prevail_v on_o my_o body_n &_o to_o vex_v and_o torment_v i_o i_o shall_v take_v it_o patientlye_o and_o resigned_o as_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n and_o be_v content_v that_o he_o and_o my_o enemy_n those_o devil_n do_v perform_v their_o malice_n towards_o my_o body_n my_o soul_n be_v still_o untouched_a by_o they_o over_o which_o they_o shall_v have_v no_o more_o power_n than_o my_o frewill_n shall_v give_v way_n to_o which_o by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n shall_v be_v in_o nothing_o at_o all_o and_o some_o saint_n there_o have_v be_v who_o for_o their_o exercise_n &_o humiliation_n have_v desire_v of_o god_n that_o they_o may_v in_o their_o body_n be_v possess_v by_o the_o devil_n and_o have_v theruppon_o come_v to_o be_v possess_v 7._o for_o the_o love_n i_o bear_v unto_o god_n i_o do_v renounce_v all_o desire_n to_o any_o manner_n of_o office_n or_o employment_n that_o be_v of_o authority_n or_o dignity_n or_o in_o any_o sort_n grateful_a to_o my_o nature_n or_o sensuality_n and_o do_v purpose_n with_o the_o help_n of_o his_o grace_n for_o the_o keepinge_v myself_o in_o humility_n and_o for_o avoydinge_v of_o occasion_n of_o distraction_n not_o only_o not_o to_o desire_v or_o go_v about_o direct_o or_o indirect_o to_o procure_v the_o haveinge_n of_o any_o such_o office_n or_o employment_n 8._o but_o alsoe_o by_o all_o the_o mean_n that_o may_v be_v please_a to_o god_n to_o preâ—ent_v the_o have_v of_o they_o 9_o and_o be_v offer_v unto_o i_o to_o refuse_v they_o utâ—erlye_o so_o far_o as_o i_o may_v without_o displeasinge_a god_n it_o be_v continue_v the_o fourteen_o exercise_n 1._o and_o further_o i_o will_v endeavour_v and_o procure_v so_o far_o as_o shall_v stand_v with_o the_o pleasure_n of_o god_n that_o any_o other_o rather_o than_o myself_o though_o he_o be_v my_o junior_a oâ—_n of_o talent_n never_o so_o inferior_a to_o i_o shall_v have_v the_o office_n if_o he_o shall_v be_v judge_v fit_a and_o sufficient_a for_o the_o place_n yea_o though_o he_o be_v one_o who_o in_o my_o nature_n i_o have_v least_o affection_n for_o or_o one_o
11._o grant_v that_o with_o my_o hart_n i_o may_v utterlie_o tread_v under_o foot_n spit_n upon_o and_o have_v in_o detestation_n all_o ambition_n ostentation_n worldly_a pomp_n and_o vanity_n and_o all_o earthly_a dignity_n 12._o that_o by_o profound_a humilitâ—e_n and_o true_a contempt_n of_o myself_o i_o may_v incessant_o â—unne_v towards_o the_o glory_n of_o thy_o heavenly_a felicity_n 13._o hail_o surete_a jesus_n who_o be_v declare_v innocent_a by_o pilate_n the_o judge_n do_v not_o refuse_v to_o hear_v the_o furious_a outcry_n of_o the_o jew_n by_o which_o they_o demand_v that_o thou_o shall_v be_v crucify_v 14._o grant_v that_o i_o may_v live_v innocent_o and_o not_o be_v trouble_v by_o reason_n of_o other_o man_n evil_a will_n towards_o i_o 15._o give_v i_o this_o grace_n that_o i_o may_v neither_o backbite_v other_o man_n or_o willing_o give_v â—are_n to_o those_o that_o do_v it_o 16._o but_o that_o still_o i_o may_v have_v a_o good_a opinion_n of_o other_o and_o bear_v other_o man_n imperfection_n with_o a_o true_a compassion_n 17._o and_o love_v all_o man_n for_o god_n and_o in_o god_n with_o a_o pure_a sincere_a and_o cordial_a affection_n amen_n the_o fourteen_o exercise_n 1._o hail_o sueete_a jesus_n praise_v honour_n and_o glory_n be_v to_o thou_o o_o christ_n who_o do_v permit_v thyself_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o thy_o people_n to_o be_v uniustlie_o condemn_v to_o the_o most_o ignominious_a death_n of_o the_o crosse._n 2._o that_o thou_o may_v free_v we_o from_o the_o sentence_n of_o eternal_a death_n 3._o grant_v that_o i_o may_v seek_v thy_o honour_n and_o rather_o choose_v to_o be_v exercise_v with_o thou_o in_o adversity_n then_o by_o forsake_v thou_o to_o enjoy_v the_o commodity_n of_o this_o life_n 4._o hail_o sueete_a jesus_n who_o be_v deliver_v over_o to_o the_o pleasure_n of_o those_o who_o do_v persecute_v thou_o do_v suffer_v great_a pain_n by_o puttinge_v of_o the_o purple_a garment_n which_o do_v stick_v unto_o thy_o sore_n and_o puttinge_v on_o thy_o own_o again_o 5._o grant_v that_o after_o i_o have_v put_v of_o the_o garment_n of_o my_o body_n and_o be_o vest_v with_o the_o robe_n of_o perfect_a brightness_n i_o may_v appear_v adorn_v with_o thy_o merit_n 6._o hail_o skeete_a jesus_n who_o with_o many_o disgrace_n and_o injury_n offer_v thou_o do_v carry_v thy_o cross_n on_o with_o great_a pain_n upon_o thy_o sacred_a and_o tear_v sholdier_n 7._o and_o be_v weary_a and_o breathless_a do_v languish_v under_o the_o burden_n 8â—_n grant_v that_o with_o fervent_a devotion_n i_o may_v embrace_v the_o cross_n of_o my_o own_o abnegation_n 9_o and_o with_o a_o ardent_a charity_n imitate_v the_o example_n of_o thy_o virtue_n 10._o and_o may_v humble_o follow_v thou_o unto_o death_n 11._o hail_o sueete_a jesus_n who_o in_o that_o lamentable_a journey_n in_o which_o thou_o go_v to_o thy_o death_n do_v meek_o admonish_v the_o woman_n that_o do_v bewail_v thou_o to_o bewail_v themselves_o and_o their_o childeren_n 12._o give_v i_o accegtable_a tear_n of_o compunction_n with_o which_o i_o maâ—_n true_o bewail_v my_o sin_n and_o my_o own_o ingratitude_n 13._o give_v i_o tear_n of_o devout_a compunction_n and_o of_o holy_a love_n which_o may_v melt_v my_o hard_a hart_n and_o make_v it_o grateful_a unto_o thou_o 14._o that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o alone_o and_o rest_n in_o thou_o only_o 15._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n who_o be_v lead_v out_o with_o two_o thief_n do_v not_o refuse_v to_o be_v drive_v forward_o to_o be_v urge_v and_o hasten_v and_o in_o many_o other_o sundry_a manner_n to_o be_v afflict_v 16._o draw_v i_o after_o thou_o and_o let_v i_o cheerefullye_o follow_v thou_o 17._o grant_v that_o i_o may_v rejoice_v in_o thou_o alone_o 18._o give_v i_o grace_n to_o love_v thou_o and_o render_v love_n for_o love._n the_o xv._o exercise_n 1._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n praise_v honour_n and_o glory_n be_v to_o thou_o o_o christ_n who_o have_v thy_o shoulder_n bruise_v with_o the_o weight_n of_o the_o cross_n do_v at_o length_n arrive_v weary_a at_o the_o place_n of_o execution_n 2._o where_o wine_n mingle_v with_o gall_n be_v offer_v thou_o to_o refresh_v thy_o languishinge_v force_n 3._o o_o that_o thou_o will_v extinguish_v in_o i_o the_o allurement_n of_o gluttony_n and_o the_o concupiscence_n of_o that_o flesh_n 4._o and_o cause_n in_o i_o a_o aversion_n &_o horror_n from_o all_o impure_a and_o unlawful_a delight_n 5._o and_o that_o i_o may_v eat_v and_o drink_v sober_o to_o the_o glory_n of_o thy_o name_n 6._o that_o i_o may_v hunger_n and_o thirst_n after_o thou_o alone_o 7._o and_o in_o thou_o place_v my_o delight_n &_o joy_n 8._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n who_o do_v not_o disdain_v to_o be_v strip_v naked_a upon_o mount_n caluarie_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o the_o people_n 9_o and_o to_o suffer_v a_o most_o bitter_a pain_n by_o thy_o sore_n renew_v with_o the_o pullinge_n of_o thy_o clothes_n 10._o grant_v that_o i_o may_v love_v poverty_n of_o spirit_n and_o never_o be_v trouble_v for_o any_o worldly_a want_n 11._o grant_v that_o by_o thy_o example_n i_o may_v endure_v and_o suffer_v any_o corporal_a necessity_n or_o calamity_n whatsoeverâ—_n 12._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n who_o be_v naked_a do_v not_o refuse_v to_o be_v rude_o stretch_v out_o upon_o the_o wood_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o cruel_o fasten_v with_o nail_n unto_o the_o same_o 13._o in_o this_o manner_n do_v thou_o suffer_v thy_o innocent_a hand_n and_o delicate_a foot_n to_o be_v most_o greivous_o wound_v and_o all_o thy_o sacred_a joint_n to_o crack_v and_o be_v put_v out_o of_o joint_a 14._o grant_v i_o o_o lord_n that_o with_o a_o faithful_a and_o grateful_a mind_n i_o may_v consider_v this_o thy_o unspeakable_a charity_n with_o which_o of_o thy_o own_o accord_n thou_o do_v stretch_v forth_o thy_o arm_n and_o willing_o offer_v thy_o hand_n and_o foot_n to_o be_v pierce_v 15._o vouchsafe_v o_o lord_n to_o enlarge_v and_o extend_v my_o hart_n with_o the_o perfect_a love_n of_o thou_o 16._o pierce_v it_o and_o fasten_v itt_n unto_o thyself_o with_o the_o most_o sueete_a nail_n of_o charity_n 17._o and_o all_o my_o sense_n cogitation_n and_o affection_n enclose_v only_o in_o thou_o amen_n the_o xvi_o exercise_n 1._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n praise_n honour_n and_o glory_n be_v to_o thou_o o_o christ_n who_o do_v hang_v thy_o hand_n &_o foot_n be_v pierce_v three_o hour_n upon_o the_o shameful_a wood_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o sheddinge_a in_o great_a abundance_n thy_o precious_a blood_n do_v of_o thy_o own_o accord_n endure_v unspeakable_a torment_n through_o out_o thy_o whole_a body_n 2._o lift_v up_o i_o prey_v thou_o upon_o the_o wood_n of_o thy_o cross_n my_o miserable_a soul_n grovelinge_v on_o the_o ground_n 3._o o_o healthful_a blood_n o_o reviuinge_v blood_n 4._o o_o that_o thou_o will_v purge_v and_o througlie_a heal_v i_o be_v wash_v with_o this_o thy_o precious_a blood_n 5._o o_o that_o thou_o will_v offer_v this_o thy_o blood_n to_o thy_o father_n for_o a_o perfect_a satisfaction_n of_o all_o my_o iniquity_n 6._o grant_v i_o beseech_v thou_o that_o my_o inward_a man_n may_v with_o ardent_a affection_n mental_o receive_v and_o lick_v the_o lively_a drop_n of_o thy_o precious_a blood_n and_o may_v true_o taste_v how_o suerte_a thy_o spirit_n be_v 7._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n who_o hang_v upon_o the_o cross_n in_o the_o midst_n betwixt_o two_o notorious_a theive_n waste_v repute_v with_o the_o wicked_a 8._o that_o by_o thy_o incomprehensible_a humility_n and_o patience_n thou_o might_n amend_v and_o withal_o satisfy_v for_o my_o immense_a impatient_a pride_n 9_o lift_v up_o i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o spirit_n aloft_o that_o from_o above_o i_o may_v despise_v all_o thing_n transitory_a 10._o that_o i_o may_v only_o admire_v thou_o my_o god_n crucify_a for_o i_o 1â—_n let_v i_o think_v speak_v and_o dream_n of_o thou_o 12._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n who_o be_v so_o good_a even_o to_o those_o that_o be_v so_o wicked_a that_o for_o the_o very_a same_o party_n who_o do_v crucify_v thou_o thou_o do_v pray_v unto_o thy_o father_n sayinge_v father_n forgive_v they_o for_o they_o know_v not_o what_o they_o do_v 13._o give_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o the_o grace_n of_o true_a meekness_n and_o patience_n by_o which_o i_o may_v accord_v to_o thy_o commandment_n and_o example_n love_v my_o enemy_n 1â—_n and_o do_v good_a to_o those_o that_o hate_v i_o 15._o i_o hearty_o pray_v unto_o thou_o for_o those_o that_o hurt_n and_o persecute_v i_o 16._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n who_o will_v thou_o the_o title_n write_v in_o hebrew_n greek_a and_o latin_a as_o it_o be_v the_o trophy_n of_o thy_o victory_n shall_v be_v fasten_v to_o the_o cross_n that_o we_o beholdinge_v it_o may_v courageous_o fight_v against_o our_o invisible_a
enemy_n 17._o protect_v i_o under_o this_o title_n against_o the_o wile_n and_o deceit_n of_o the_o devil_n 18._o teach_v i_o under_o this_o title_n to_o overcome_v all_o temptation_n and_o to_o subdue_v all_o vice_n 19_o that_o have_v by_o grace_n conquer_v they_o i_o may_v free_o praise_v and_o glorify_v thy_o holy_a name_n amen_n the_o xvii_o exercise_n 1._o hail_o sueete_a jesus_n praise_v honour_n and_o glory_n be_v to_o thou_o o_o christ._n who_o garment_n the_o soldier_n have_v divide_v among_o themselves_o do_v leave_v thy_o coat_n which_o be_v without_o seam_n and_o signify_v the_o unity_n of_o the_o church_n undevided_a 2._o pour_v down_o into_o my_o hart_n i_o beseech_v thou_o the_o spirit_n of_o peace_n and_o union_n 3._o that_o i_o may_v never_o through_o my_o fault_n deride_v or_o trouble_v the_o concord_n and_o union_n of_o my_o brother_n 4._o but_o that_o i_o may_v always_o endeavour_v to_o repair_v division_n and_o pacify_v trouble_n 5._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n who_o suffer_v upon_o the_o altar_n of_o the_o cross_n incomprehensible_a torment_n and_o ineffable_a lanquish_n waste_v shameful_o reproach_v and_o scorn_v by_o the_o jew_n who_o vomit_v out_o of_o their_o wicked_a mouth_n sundry_a blasphemy_n against_o thou_o 6._o grant_v o_o lord_n that_o be_v mindful_a of_o thy_o humility_n and_o patience_n &_o mildness_n i_o may_v quiet_o and_o cheerful_o suffer_v pain_n disgrace_n persecution_n infamy_n and_o contempt_n of_o myself_o 7._o and_o may_v remain_v with_o thou_o nail_v to_o the_o cross_n even_o to_o the_o end_n 8._o let_v no_o violence_n of_o temptation_n no_o storm_n of_o adversity_n no_o tempest_n of_o contumely_n hinder_v i_o from_o effectinge_v my_o good_a purpose_n 9_o let_v not_o death_n or_o life_n or_o thing_n present_a nor_o to_o come_v nor_o any_o creature_n separate_v i_o from_o thy_o love_n 10._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n who_o do_v tolerate_v one_o of_o the_o theive_n to_o upbraid_v thou_o and_o do_v most_o mercifullye_o and_o bountifullie_o promise_v the_o glory_n of_o paradise_n to_o the_o other_o who_o do_v humble_o acknowledge_v his_o own_o injustice_n and_o with_o a_o devout_a faith_n do_v confess_v thou_o to_o be_v his_o king_n and_o god_n 11._o behold_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o with_o those_o eye_n of_o mercy_n which_o thou_o do_v cast_v upon_o the_o thief_n repentant_a for_o his_o sin_n 12._o o_o that_o by_o thy_o holy_a help_n and_o grace_n i_o may_v lead_v a_o life_n so_o innocent_a that_o i_o may_v so_o faithful_o serve_v thou_o and_o pure_o love_v thou_o 13._o that_o at_o the_o end_n of_o my_o life_n i_o may_v deserve_v to_o hear_v from_o thou_o most_o merciful_a redeemer_n that_o most_o desisired_a voice_n this_o day_n thou_o shall_v be_v with_o i_o in_o paradise_n 14._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n who_o from_o the_o cross_n beholdinge_v thy_o most_o sweet_a mother_n full_a of_o grief_n and_o tear_n with_o inward_a compassion_n do_v commend_v she_o to_o thy_o disciple_n john_n and_o again_o john_n to_o her_o and_o we_o all_o in_o john_n unto_o thy_o say_a mother_n 15._o grant_v that_o i_o may_v love_v and_o honour_v she_o with_o a_o most_o chaste_a and_o ardent_a affection_n 1â—_n that_o have_v she_o for_o my_o mother_n i_o may_v deserve_v alsoe_o to_o be_v acknowledge_v by_o she_o for_o her_o son_n 17._o grant_v that_o in_o all_o necessity_n and_o especial_o at_o the_o hour_n of_o my_o death_n i_o may_v find_v her_o present_a assistance_n amen_n the_o xviii_o exercise_n 1._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n praise_v honour_n and_o glory_n he_o to_o thou_o o_o christ_n who_o in_o a_o most_o pitiful_a manner_n hang_v upon_o the_o cross_n with_o wide_a gapinge_a wound_n do_v profess_v thyself_o to_o be_v destitute_a of_o all_o all_o comfort_n 2._o grant_v that_o with_o a_o firm_a confidence_n i_o may_v always_o have_v recourse_n to_o thou_o my_o most_o merciful_a father_n in_o all_o adversity_n temptation_n and_o desolation_n 3._o and_o whole_o distrustinge_v myself_o i_o may_v trust_v in_o thou_o alone_o 4._o and_o commit_v and_o resign_v myself_o entire_o to_o thou_o 5._o wound_v the_o intymme_n of_o my_o soul_n with_o the_o remembrance_n of_o thy_o wound_n 6._o imprint_v and_o character_n they_o in_o my_o hart_n and_o make_v my_o mind_n even_o drink_v with_o thy_o sacred_a blood_n 7._o that_o i_o may_v attend_v to_o thou_o and_o thou_o only_o seek_v find_v hold_v and_o possess_v 8._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n who_o pantinge_v upon_o the_o crosâ—e_a thy_o body_n be_v draw_v dry_a for_o want_n of_o blood_n becam_v very_o thirsty_a and_o do_v burn_v with_o a_o unspeakable_a desire_n of_o our_o salvation_n 9_o grant_v that_o i_o may_v most_o ardent_o thirst_v after_o thy_o honour_n and_o the_o salvation_n of_o our_o soul_n 10._o and_o may_v with_o courage_n employ_v myself_o in_o this_o affair_n 11._o grant_v that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v hinder_v or_o entangle_v by_o any_o transitory_a thing_n 12._o hail_o sweet_a jesâ—s_n who_o will_v thou_o a_o sponge_n dip_v in_o vinegar_n and_o gall_n shall_v be_v offer_v thou_o to_o drink_v thirsty_a even_o to_o death_n that_o by_o tastinge_v thereof_o thou_o may_v satisfy_v for_o our_o gluttony_n and_o leave_v we_o a_o example_n of_o poverty_n 13._o give_v i_o grace_n to_o despise_v unlawful_a pleasure_n and_o delight_n and_o to_o avoid_v all_o excess_n in_o meat_n and_o drink_v 14._o alsoe_o to_o use_v those_o thing_n moderate_o which_o thou_o give_v for_o the_o sustentation_n of_o the_o body_n 15._o pacify_v the_o inordinatenesse_n of_o my_o desire_n that_o whatsoever_o do_v please_v thou_o may_v please_v i_o and_o whatsoever_o displease_v thou_o may_v be_v displeasinge_a alsoe_o to_o i_o 16._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n most_o enamour_v of_o mankind_n who_o due_o performinge_v the_o work_n of_o our_o redemption_n do_v offer_v up_o thyself_o upon_o the_o altar_n of_o the_o cross_n a_o holy_a sacrifice_n for_o the_o expiation_n of_o the_o sin_n of_o all_o men._n 17._o be_v thou_o i_o beseech_v thou_o the_o scope_n of_o all_o my_o thought_n word_n and_o work_n 18._o that_o in_o all_o thing_n i_o may_v with_o a_o right_n and_o simple_a intention_n seek_v thy_o honour_n 19_o grant_v i_o may_v never_o grow_v cold_a or_o faint_a in_o thy_o service_n 20._o but_o that_o the_o fervour_n of_o spirit_n may_v be_v renew_v in_o i_o and_o that_o i_o may_v be_v daily_o more_o and_o more_o inflame_v to_o praise_n and_o love_v thâ—â—_n amen_n the_o xix_o exercise_n 1._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n praise_n honour_n and_o glory_n â—e_v to_o o_o christ._n who_o of_o thy_o own_o accord_n do_v embrace_v death_n and_o recomâ—endinge_v thyself_o to_o thy_o heavenly_a father_n bowinge_v down_o thy_o venerable_a head_n yeild_a up_o thy_o spirit_n 2._o true_o thus_o givinge_v thy_o life_n up_o for_o thy_o sheep_n thou_o have_v show_v thyself_o to_o be_v a_o good_a shepherd_n 3._o thou_o do_v die_v o_o the_o only_o beget_v son_n of_o god_n thou_o die_v o_o my_o belove_a sawiour_n that_o i_o may_v live_v for_o ever_o 4._o o_o how_o great_a hope_n how_o great_a confidence_n have_v i_o repose_v in_o thy_o death_n and_o in_o thy_o blood_n 5._o i_o glorify_v and_o praise_v thy_o holy_a name_n acknowledginge_v my_o infinite_a obligation_n to_o thou_o 6._o o_o good_a jesus_n for_o thy_o bitter_a death_n and_o passion_n give_v i_o grace_n and_o pardon_v 7._o give_v unto_o the_o faithful_a depart_a rest_n and_o life_n everlasting_a 8._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n at_o who_o death_n the_o â—unne_n withdraw_v his_o light_n the_o veil_n of_o the_o temple_n rend_v in_o sunder_o and_o the_o monument_n open_v 9_o o_o sun_n of_o justice_n permit_v not_o i_o beseech_v thou_o that_o the_o beam_n of_o thy_o grace_n at_o any_o time_n forsake_v i_o 10._o but_o let_v they_o continual_o enlighten_v the_o inner_a part_n of_o my_o soul_n 11._o withdraw_v whole_o from_o i_o the_o veil_n of_o hypocrisy_n 12._o shake_v the_o earth_n of_o my_o soul_n with_o wholesome_a repentance_n 13._o rend_a my_o stony_a hart_n 14._o that_o be_v whole_o renew_v i_o may_v contemn_v all_o thing_n transitory_a and_o love_v only_o that_o which_o be_v eternal_a 15._o hail_o sweet_a jesus_n who_o will_v thou_o thy_o side_n shall_v be_v open_v with_o a_o soldier_n lance_n 16._o and_o out_o of_o itt_n pour_v out_o blood_n and_o water_n to_o revive_v and_o wash_v our_o soul_n 17._o thou_o will_v o_o my_o best_a belove_a that_o thy_o mellifluous_a hart_n shall_v be_v wound_v for_o i_o 18._o o_o that_o it_o may_v please_v thou_o to_o make_v a_o most_o deep_a wound_n in_o my_o hart_n with_o the_o lance_n of_o thy_o love_n 19_o and_o unite_v itt_n to_o thy_o most_o sacred_a hart._n 20._o in_o such_o manner_n that_o i_o may_v have_v â—oe_n pour_v to_o will_v any_o thing_n buâ—_n that_o which_o thou_o will_v 21._o
they_o not_o but_o hold_v forth_o on_o thy_o way_n and_o only_o desire_v the_o love_n of_o jesus_n ever_o answer_v thus_o i_o be_o nothing_o i_o covet_v nothing_o but_o only_o the_o love_n of_o our_o lord_n jesus_n this_o be_v the_o best_a secure_a and_o easy_a way_n of_o overcominge_v all_o temptationsâ—_n and_o scruple_n whatsoever_o answer_v nothing_o to_o they_o be_v not_o trouble_v with_o they_o but_o still_o go_v on_o thy_o way_n &_o tend_v to_o the_o love_n of_o thy_o god_n which_o will_v overcome_v all_o and_o make_v all_o right_a witâ—_n thou_o if_o thy_o enemy_n by_o suggestion_n to_o thy_o soul_n say_v unto_o thou_o that_o thou_o have_v not_o make_v thy_o confession_n a_o right_a or_o that_o there_o be_v some_o old_a sin_n or_o sin_n hide_v in_o thy_o hart_n that_o thou_o before_o know_v not_o or_o that_o thou_o have_v not_o as_o yet_o ever_o make_v thy_o confession_n a_o right_a or_o as_o thou_o shall_v have_v make_v they_o and_o therefore_o will_v have_v thou_o turn_v home_o again_o and_o to_o give_v over_o thy_o earnest_a desire_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o to_o go_v and_o make_v a_o better_a confession_n believe_v not_o this_o their_o sayeinge_n for_o it_o be_v folly_n for_o thou_o be_v right_o confess_v and_o so_o do_v thou_o sure_o hope_v and_o trust_v thyself_o to_o be_v and_o that_o thou_o be_v in_o the_o way_n and_o that_o thou_o need_v no_o further_a to_o look_v into_o thy_o conscience_n for_o confession_n of_o what_o be_v past_a hold_v on_o thy_o way_n &_o ever_o think_v on_o jerusalem_n if_o they_o say_v alsoe_o unto_o thou_o that_o thou_o be_v not_o worthy_a to_o have_v the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o therefore_o why_o shall_v thou_o covet_v that_o which_o thou_o will_v not_o be_v able_a to_o come_v by_o or_o be_v worthy_a to_o have_v believe_v they_o not_o but_o hold_v on_o thy_o way_n and_o say_v thus_o not_o because_o i_o be_o worthy_a but_o because_o i_o be_o unworthy_a therefore_o will_v i_o love_v god_n for_o if_o that_o i_o have_v his_o love_n it_o will_v make_v i_o worthy_a and_o since_o that_o i_o be_v create_v for_o that_o end_n which_o be_v for_o the_o love_a of_o god_n though_o i_o shall_v never_o come_v by_o it_o yet_o will_v i_o covet_v it_o and_o therefore_o will_v i_o pray_v and_o think_v how_o i_o maâ—e_n get_v itt_n and_o will_v labour_v for_o itt_n and_o then_o if_o thy_o enemy_n see_v that_o thou_o begin_v to_o grow_v bold_a courageous_a and_o resolute_a in_o thy_o say_a purpose_n they_o begin_v to_o grow_v afraid_a of_o thou_o nevertheless_o they_o will_v not_o cease_v or_o giuâ—_fw-la over_o to_o seek_v to_o stay_v and_o hinder_v thou_o as_o much_o as_o they_o can_v so_o long_o as_o thou_o be_v holdinge_v on_o thy_o way_n what_o on_o the_o one_o side_n with_o fear_n and_o threaten_n and_o what_o on_o the_o otherside_n with_o false_a flattery_n &_o vain_a pleasing_n for_o to_o make_v thou_o give_v over_o thy_o good_a purpose_n and_o to_o turn_v thou_o home_o again_o and_o for_o that_o end_n they_o will_v say_v thus_o unto_o thou_o if_o thou_o thus_o hold_v on_o thy_o desire_n to_o jesus_n travellinge_v so_o fervent_o as_o thou_o now_o begin_v thou_o will_v fall_v into_o fancy_n or_o into_o frenzy_n or_o craze_v thy_o head_n or_o fall_v into_o bodily_a sickness_n as_o thou_o see_v some_o doe_n by_o goinge_v about_o that_o which_o thou_o now_o do_v or_o thou_o will_v fall_v into_o poverty_n or_o some_o bodilye_o harm_n or_o mischief_n and_o no_o man_n able_a to_o help_v thou_o or_o thou_o may_v fall_v into_o secret_n and_o inward_a temptation_n or_o illusion_n of_o the_o enemy_n so_o â—hat_n thou_o will_v not_o be_v able_a to_o help_v thyself_o about_o they_o for_o it_o be_v wondrous_a perilous_a for_o any_o man_n or_o weoman_n to_o give_v he_o or_o herself_o whole_o to_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o to_o leave_v and_o forsake_v all_o the_o world_n and_o to_o covet_v nothing_o but_o only_o the_o love_n of_o he_o for_o so_o many_o perillâ—_n may_v fall_v to_o a_o man_n in_o such_o course_n of_o he_o as_o he_o can_v so_o much_o as_o imagine_v they_o before_o hand_n and_o therefore_o turn_v thou_o home_o again_o and_o leave_v of_o this_o desire_n for_o thou_o shall_v never_o bring_v it_o to_o a_o end_n and_o do_v thou_o as_o other_o worldly_a man_n or_o the_o common_a sort_n of_o good_a christians_n or_o even_o of_o religious_a do_v thus_o say_v thy_o enemy_n but_o believe_v they_o not_o but_o hold_v on_o in_o thy_o desire_n &_o say_v or_o answer_v nothing_o else_o but_o that_o thou_o will_v have_v jesus_n and_o be_v at_o jerusalem_n and_o if_o they_o perceive_v that_o thou_o will_v not_o give_v over_o neither_o for_o sickness_n for_o fantasy_n nor_o for_o frenzy_n for_o doubt_n nor_o for_o fear_n of_o any_o temptation_n corporal_a or_o spiritual_a for_o poverty_n nor_o for_o any_o mischief_n or_o harm_n for_o life_n nor_o for_o death_n but_o ever_o seek_v &_o long_a after_o the_o say_v one_o thing_n and_o nothing_o else_o but_o that_o one_o thing_n and_o yeild_v to_o they_o a_o deaf_a ear_n as_o if_o thou_o hear_v they_o not_o and_o hold_v on_o stiff_o &_o constant_o and_o perseverant_o in_o prayer_n and_o in_o other_o thy_o spiritual_a work_n with_o discretion_n accord_v to_o the_o counsel_n of_o thy_o superior_a or_o the_o advice_n or_o direction_n give_v thou_o by_o thy_o spiritual_a father_n or_o director_n then_o begin_v they_o to_o be_v very_o angry_a and_o to_o go_v a_o little_a more_o near_o thou_o then_o they_o begin_v to_o rob_v thou_o and_o beat_v thou_o and_o do_v thou_o all_o the_o shame_n and_o mischief_n they_o can_v and_o that_o they_o do_v when_o they_o cause_v all_o the_o deed_n thou_o do_v be_v they_o never_o so_o well_o do_v to_o be_v deem_v &_o judge_v by_o other_o to_o be_v evil_a and_o turn_v and_o take_v in_o the_o worse_a sense_n and_o meaning_n and_o whatsoever_o it_o be_v thou_o will_v do_v or_o have_v do_v in_o help_n relief_n or_o comfort_n of_o thy_o body_n or_o of_o thy_o soul_n it_o shall_v be_v let_v or_o hinder_v by_o those_o other_o man_n so_o that_o thou_o shall_v be_v put_v from_o thy_o will_n and_o contradict_v in_o it_o in_o all_o or_o most_o of_o those_o thing_n which_o thou_o with_o reason_n desire_v to_o have_v and_o this_o thy_o say_a enemy_n do_v to_o the_o end_n thou_o shall_v be_v stir_v and_o provoke_v to_o anger_n impatience_n or_o evil_a will_n towards_o thy_o christian_a brother_n or_o sister_n but_o against_o all_o these_o temptation_n and_o vexation_n and_o difficulty_n and_o all_o other_o that_o may_v come_v upon_o thou_o or_o which_o thou_o may_v feel_v use_v this_o remedy_n that_o i_o shall_v now_o again_o tell_v thou_o as_o before_o i_o have_v tell_v thou_o take_v jesus_n or_o his_o love_n in_o thy_o mind_n and_o trouble_v thyself_o no_o further_o with_o they_o but_o think_v on_o thy_o lesson_n that_o thou_o be_v nothing_o that_o thou_o have_v nothing_o that_o thou_o covete_v nothing_o of_o earthly_a or_o transitory_a thing_n that_o thou_o desire_v nothing_o but_o the_o love_n of_o jesus_n and_o in_o and_o with_o these_o exercise_n hold_v on_o thy_o way_n to_o jerusalem_n and_o if_o thou_o happen_v sometime_o through_o thy_o frailty_n or_o by_o the_o evil_a will_n of_o some_o other_o man_n or_o through_o the_o malice_n of_o thy_o enemy_n to_o be_v tarry_v or_o let_v in_o thy_o way_n yet_o assoon_o as_o thou_o can_v come_v again_o to_o thyself_o leave_v of_o thinkinge_v of_o what_o have_v past_a and_o proceed_v in_o thy_o good_a exercise_n and_o hold_v on_o thy_o way_n abide_v not_o long_o with_o those_o thy_o former_a defect_n or_o difficulty_n for_o fear_n of_o thy_o enemy_n who_o will_v still_o hold_v thou_o in_o they_o and_o in_o discussinge_v of_o they_o thereby_o to_o hinder_v thou_o from_o goinge_v forward_o in_o thy_o way_n if_o in_o this_o our_o way_n to_o jerusalem_n and_o spiritual_a tendance_n towards_o god_n we_o chance_v to_o stray_v and_o deviate_v or_o stoppet_n rough_a any_o sin_n or_o defect_n we_o must_v present_o get_v into_o the_o way_n against_o and_o go_v on_o as_o if_o we_o have_v never_o stray_v or_o stop_v at_o all_o &_o this_o be_v the_o only_a way_n to_o expiate_v the_o sin_n or_o defect_n themselves_o and_o to_o ride_v we_o of_o all_o scruple_n for_o their_o be_v no_o such_o contrition_n as_o this_o aspiringe_v to_o god_n in_o the_o cloâ—d_n of_o faith_n and_o feeling_n of_o love._n yea_o if_o we_o fall_v into_o certain_a evident_a great_a sin_n let_v we_o meek_o and_o penitent_o confess_v they_o and_o trouble_v ourselves_o no_o further_o but_o walk_v on_o again_o as_o if_o no_o such_o thing_n have_v happen_v or_o be_v do_v the_o xxiii_o