affliction_n end_n they_o may_v true_o understand_v their_o own_o state_n to_o send_v they_o some_o infirmity_n or_o permit_v some_o tribulation_n to_o befall_v they_o for_o such_o trial_n be_v his_o touchstone_n whereby_o he_o prove_v his_o servant_n sincerity_n o_o how_o soon_o shall_v you_o discover_v the_o false_a foundation_n whereon_o they_o build_v the_o edifice_n of_o their_o feign_a devotion_n how_o rot_a be_v their_o inward_a man_n and_o how_o full_a of_o secret_a pride_n for_o they_o refuse_v to_o resign_v their_o will_n and_o to_o humble_v their_o heart_n under_o god_n powerful_a hand_n in_o all_o the_o changeable_a course_n of_o prosperity_n and_o adversity_n they_o will_v not_o according_a to_o the_o divine_a example_n of_o god_n humble_a suffer_a son_n subject_n themselves_o to_o all_o creature_n nor_o take_v their_o seem_a enemy_n that_o which_o true_o they_o be_v to_o be_v their_o true_a friend_n as_o be_v instrument_n of_o god_n goodness_n pomotour_n of_o their_o perfection_n and_o helper_n in_o the_o reformation_n of_o their_o unmortified_a passion_n which_o be_v a_o evident_a sign_n of_o their_o dangerous_a state_n for_o the_o eye_n of_o their_o soul_n be_v dazzle_v and_o corrupt_v by_o gaze_v upon_o these_o outward_a action_n though_o good_a arrogate_a to_o themselves_o i_o know_v not_o what_o degree_n of_o perfection_n and_o from_o thence_o fall_v into_o self-conceit_n they_o judge_v rash_o and_o contemn_v other_o nor_o can_v they_o be_v recall_v or_o cure_v unless_o god_n himself_o strike_v strong_o at_o the_o door_n of_o their_o heart_n and_o dissipate_v the_o darkness_n of_o their_o interior_a with_o the_o divine_a ray_n of_o his_o gracious_a light_n make_v they_o see_v their_o own_o danger_n and_o seek_v the_o remedy_n for_o a_o great_a and_o manifest_a sinner_n be_v more_o easy_o reclaim_v than_o a_o seem_a saint_n who_o secret_a iniquity_n be_v shroud_v under_o the_o appearance_n of_o virtue_n and_o piety_n 9_o thus_o than_o it_o be_v manifest_a unto_o ourselves_o true_a perfection_n therefore_o consist_v in_o the_o knowledge_n of_o god_n and_o ourselves_o thou_o o_o my_o belove_a that_o spiritual_a perfection_n consist_v not_o at_o all_o in_o the_o aforesaid_a practice_n and_o persuasion_n know_v therefore_o that_o it_o be_v place_v in_o no_o other_o thing_n than_o in_o the_o true_a knowledge_n of_o god_n goodness_n and_o greatness_n and_o of_o our_o own_o baseness_n misery_n and_o nothing_o and_o of_o the_o proneness_n of_o our_o natural_a affection_n to_o all_o malice_n also_o in_o the_o hatred_n of_o ourselves_o and_o the_o love_n own_o in_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o hatred_n of_o ourselves_o in_o resignation_n to_o god_n will_v and_o deny_v of_o our_o own_o of_o god_n and_o last_o in_o the_o absolute_a deny_v of_o our_o own_o will_n and_o entire_a resignation_n of_o it_o to_o the_o divine_a will_n and_o pleasure_n that_o be_v that_o we_o total_o submit_v ourselves_o not_o only_o to_o the_o almighty_a god_n but_o even_o to_o every_o one_o of_o his_o creature_n for_o his_o sake_n and_o this_o for_o no_o other_o end_n than_o only_o to_o please_v his_o divine_a majesty_n who_o deserve_v to_o be_v pure_o serve_v high_o honour_v perfect_o praise_v and_o glorify_v by_o all_o 10._o this_o be_v the_o abnegation_n which_o example_n all_o which_o christ_n have_v teach_v we_o by_o word_n and_o example_n christ_n our_o saviour_n so_o often_o inculcate_v this_o be_v the_o obedience_n to_o which_o god_n son_n invite_v and_o direct_v his_o faithful_a follower_n both_o by_o his_o word_n and_o by_o his_o example_n this_o be_v the_o desirable_a cross_n which_o his_o diligent_a servant_n be_v to_o lay_v on_o their_o shoulder_n and_o so_o follow_v the_o step_n of_o their_o saviour_n this_o be_v that_o love_n which_o our_o lord_n so_o serious_o frequent_o and_o careful_o recommend_v to_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o especial_o to_o his_o disciple_n as_o his_o particular_a friend_n and_o child_n after_o his_o last_o supper_n 11._o if_o then_o my_o dear_o belove_a thou_o intend_v to_o attain_v to_o this_o high_a victory_n and_o we_o must_v also_o do_v it_o if_o we_o mean_v to_o purchase_v victory_n perfection_n thou_o must_v use_v violence_n to_o thyself_o and_o vanquish_v thy_o own_o affection_n both_o great_a and_o small_a thou_o must_v affect_v this_o fight_n and_o instruct_v thy_o mind_n to_o wage_v this_o holy_a war_n for_o the_o crown_n of_o victory_n be_v confer_v only_o upon_o the_o stout_a and_o lawful_a combatant_n god_n nor_o be_v there_o any_o thing_n more_o glorious_a to_o ourselves_o or_o more_o grateful_a to_o god_n 12._o for_o as_o this_o battle_n we_o now_o treat_v of_o be_v the_o great_a and_o of_o most_o difficulty_n so_o be_v the_o ensue_a victory_n most_o glorious_a to_o ourselves_o and_o most_o grateful_a to_o god_n in_o so_o much_o as_o if_o thou_o overcom_a subdu_a mortifie_v and_o roote_v out_o thy_o own_o disordinate_a and_o unruly_a affection_n thou_o offere_v up_o to_o god_n a_o more_o agreeable_a sacrifice_n than_o if_o neglect_v this_o thou_o shall_v whip_v thy_o body_n till_o it_o be_v imbrue_v in_o its_o own_o blood_n or_o fast_o beyond_o the_o austerity_n of_o the_o strict_a anchorite_n or_o convert_v thousand_o of_o infidel_n and_o sinner_n to_o christ_n faith_n and_o perfect_a penance_n for_o though_o the_o conversion_n of_o soul_n be_v in_o itself_o more_o dear_a to_o our_o lord_n god_n than_o the_o renounce_n of_o our_o own_o will_n in_o small_a matter_n yet_o it_o be_v thy_o part_n to_o will_n and_o do_v that_o chief_o and_o most_o careful_o which_o he_o most_o strict_o require_v of_o thou_o and_o this_o be_v undoubted_o the_o serious_a mortification_n of_o thy_o untamed_a passion_n wherein_o thou_o shall_v better_o please_v he_o than_o in_o any_o other_o high_a and_o holy_a employment_n 13._o be_v thus_o instruct_v o_o dear_o weapon_n but_o to_o obtain_v it_o we_o must_v provide_v four_o necessary_a weapon_n belove_v wherein_o christian_a perfection_n consist_v and_o that_o to_o obtain_v it_o thou_o must_v adventure_v upon_o a_o cruel_a and_o continual_a war_n if_o thou_o intend_v to_o be_v a_o conqueror_n it_o befit_v thou_o like_o a_o stout_a christian_a champion_n to_o arm_v thy-self_n with_o four_o necessary_a weapon_n which_o be_v 1._o diffidence_n of_o thyself_o 2._o confidence_n in_o god_n 3._o continual_a exercise_n 4._o devout_a prayer_n of_o all_o which_o weapon_n i_o shall_v by_o god_n assistance_n now_o brief_o treat_v according_a to_o their_o several_a order_n chap._n ii_o of_o the_o diffidence_n or_o distrust_v of_o ourselves_o this_o diffidence_n of_o thyself_o may_v be_v obtain_v by_o three_o manner_n nothing_o distrust_v of_o ourselves_o which_o be_v get_v first_o by_o a_o deep_a sense_n of_o our_o own_o nothing_o of_o way_n first_o by_o a_o deep_a sense_n of_o thy_o own_o baseness_n and_o misery_n true_o acknowledge_v that_o of_o thyself_o thou_o can_v not_o do_v the_o least_o good_a thing_n for_o man_n can_v no_o more_o effect_v any_o good_a or_o meritorious_a work_n by_o his_o own_o power_n than_o a_o stone_n if_o i_o may_v say_v it_o be_v able_a of_o itself_o to_o ascend_v upward_o and_o he_o have_v almost_o the_o like_a inclination_n to_o evil_a as_o a_o heavy_a stone_n have_v to_o the_o earth_n centre_n 2._o the_o second_o way_n to_o get_v this_o self-distrust_n prayer_n 2._o by_o prayer_n be_v to_o demand_v it_o of_o he_o who_o gracious_a gift_n it_o be_v with_o humble_a and_o earnest_a prayer_n and_o to_o prevail_v in_o thy_o petition_n thou_o must_v first_o yield_v that_o thou_o true_o want_v it_o and_o that_o of_o thyself_o thou_o can_v never_o attain_v to_o it_o and_o thus_o total_o naked_a present_a thy_o prayer_n with_o a_o constant_a faith_n and_o a_o courageous_a hope_n to_o be_v hear_v and_o to_o obtain_v this_o desire_a diffidence_n of_o thyself_o but_o let_v thy_o prayer_n increase_v in_o daily_a fervour_n and_o expect_v with_o perseverance_n the_o divine_a pleasure_n in_o the_o grant_n of_o thy_o petition_n and_o then_o be_v confident_a it_o will_v soon_o or_o late_a be_v grant_v unto_o thou_o 3._o the_o three_o be_v that_o as_o oft_o as_o thou_o weakness_n 3._o by_o often_o reflect_v upon_o our_o own_o weakness_n fail_v and_o fall_v into_o sin_n thou_o present_o turn_v thy_o soul_n eye_n towards_o thy_o own_o baseness_n misery_n and_o inaby_o to_o act_v any_o thing_n that_o be_v good_a for_o until_o this_o be_v true_o know_v and_o humble_o acknowledge_v by_o thou_o never_o hope_v to_o be_v secure_a from_o fall_v 4._o whosoever_o therefore_o aspiâ—es_v to_o learn_v and_o this_o self-knowledge_n be_v leston_n musâ—_n need_v be_v learn_v a_o bless_a union_n with_o the_o increated_a verity_n must_v first_o study_v this_o necessary_a lesson_n of_o selfe-knowledg_n for_o god_n permit_v the_o proud_a &_o presumptuous_a to_o fall_v sometime_o into_o some_o grievous_a sin_n
sincere_a affection_n when_o shall_v i_o o_o only_a life_n of_o my_o soul_n relinquish_v all_o self-will_n and_o vanquish_v all_o my_o passion_n and_o imperfection_n 8._o in_o these_o and_o the_o like_a devotion_n thou_o may_v spend_v the_o evening_n and_o morning_n to_o excite_v cherish_v and_o increase_v thy_o desire_n to_o receive_v thy_o dear_a saviour_n that_o so_o thou_o may_v perfect_o please_v he_o and_o be_v most_o happy_o unite_v unto_o he_o and_o in_o thy_o pious_a practice_n of_o these_o thing_n take_v this_o caveat_n be_v sure_a to_o keep_v each_o power_n and_o faculty_n of_o thy_o soul_n pure_a and_o curiosity_n but_o take_v heed_n of_o vanity_n and_o curiosity_n free_a from_o all_o curiosity_n of_o worldly_a thing_n and_o from_o all_o idle_a and_o vain_a thought_n take_v also_o the_o like_a care_n of_o thy_o outward_a sense_n lest_o thy_o heart_n steal_v out_o by_o they_o and_o so_o thou_o lose_v all_o thy_o devotion_n explication_n the_o time_n of_o the_o sacred_a communion_n communion_n at_o the_o time_n near_o the_o communion_n draw_v nigh_o think_v thou_o be_v to_o receive_v the_o lord_n who_o create_v this_o great_a universe_n and_o thou_o to_o his_o own_o likeness_n the_o son_n of_o god_n who_o die_v for_o thou_o nâ—ked_a on_o the_o do_v 1._o think_v what_o thou_o be_v go_v to_o do_v cross_n that_o increase_v goodness_n which_o have_v so_o often_o free_v thou_o from_o danger_n death_n and_o damnation_n which_o thy_o sin_n deserve_v thank_v he_o with_o most_o profound_a thank_v thank_v humility_n and_o adore_v he_o unite_n implore_v adore_v implore_v all_o thy_o spirit_n and_o force_n of_o body_n and_o soul_n together_o as_o true_a god_n and_o true_a man_n beg_v also_o his_o pardon_n for_o thy_o fault_n and_o that_o the_o same_o love_n which_o move_v he_o to_o grant_v thou_o this_o great_a gift_n may_v also_o induce_v he_o to_o purge_v thy_o soul_n from_o the_o stain_n of_o all_o sin_n and_o uncleanness_n thereby_o dispose_v it_o to_o a_o more_o pure_a and_o perfect_a union_n with_o his_o divine_a majesty_n when_o the_o priest_n pronounce_v those_o sacred_a word_n domine_fw-la non_fw-la say_v when_o domine_fw-la non_fw-la sum_fw-la dignus_fw-la be_v say_v sum_fw-la dignus_fw-la o_o lord_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a accompany_v he_o with_o these_o follow_v and_o speak_v to_o thy_o lord_n and_o love_n from_o the_o bottom_n of_o thy_o heart_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o receive_v thou_o o_o my_o great_a lord_n before_o who_o majesty_n the_o angel_n of_o heaven_n tremble_o confess_v their_o own_o nothing_o i_o be_o not_o worthy_a o_o my_o lord_n that_o thou_o shall_v enter_v into_o my_o heart_n who_o be_o one_o of_o the_o mean_a weak_a and_o ungratefull_a creature_n upon_o earth_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a o_o my_o lord_n that_o thou_o shall_v lodge_v with_o i_o because_o i_o love_v thou_o not_o and_o i_o remember_v thou_o not_o though_o these_o be_v prime_a reason_n of_o thy_o institute_n and_o remain_v in_o this_o most_o bless_a sacrament_n thus_o humble_a confound_v and_o abysm_n thyself_o humble_a and_o confound_v thyself_o thyself_o at_o the_o serious_a consideration_n of_o thy_o sin_n malice_n and_o misery_n but_o then_o raise_v up_o thy_o heart_n with_o hope_n by_o the_o follow_a word_n sed_fw-la hope_n but_o still_o raise_v up_o thy_o heart_n with_o hope_n tantum_fw-la dic_fw-la verbo_fw-la &_o sanabitur_fw-la anima_fw-la mea_fw-la do_v thou_o only_o speak_v the_o word_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o soul_n will_v be_v save_v enter_v o_o my_o love_n into_o this_o unworthy_a harbour_n and_o make_v use_n of_o thy_o infinite_a power_n and_o goodness_n in_o pardon_v my_o sin_n supply_v my_o defect_n and_o protect_v i_o from_o my_o enemy_n 9_o and_o after_o thou_o have_v receive_v expression_n text._n have_v communicate_v entertain_v thy_o guest_n with_o amorous_a expression_n this_o divine_a sacrament_n betake_v thou_o present_o to_o the_o innermost_a closet_n of_o thy_o heart_n and_o there_o enter_v into_o communication_n with_o thy_o holy_a guest_n use_v these_o or_o the_o like_a love_a and_o respectful_a expression_n what_o have_v move_v thou_o o_o great_a king_n of_o king_n to_o enter_v in_o to_o i_o who_o be_o nothing_o but_o a_o miserable_a despicable_a vild_a blind_a and_o naked_a creature_n and_o he_o will_v answer_v thou_o love_n for_o thou_o be_v my_o dove_n my_o friend_n my_o sister_n my_o spouse_n and_o my_o dear_o belove_v then_o thou_o may_v reply_v o_o increated_a love_n o_o sweet_a dilection_n o_o friendly_a and_o faithful_a charity_n what_o will_v thou_o have_v i_o do_v what_o demand_v thou_o what_o desire_v thou_o i_o ask_v nothing_o say_v he_o but_o love_n i_o will_v have_v nothing_o burn_v in_o the_o hearth_n of_o thy_o heart_n but_o the_o fire_n of_o my_o love_n that_o it_o may_v devour_v all_o foreign_a love_n within_o thou_o and_o destroy_v all_o self-will_a and_o seek_v this_o this_o be_v my_o desire_n because_o i_o will_v be_v true_o thou_o and_o will_v have_v thou_o likewise_o be_v total_o i_o which_o can_v never_o be_v compass_v until_o thou_o free_o deliver_v up_o thyself_o to_o my_o will_n and_o pleasure_n for_o without_o this_o entire_a resignation_n thy_o fancy_n will_v be_v always_o fasten_v to_o the_o love_a and_o like_n of_o thyself_o and_o thy_o own_o action_n be_v they_o never_o so_o mean_a i_o desire_v therefore_o that_o thou_o shall_v hate_v thyself_o that_o thou_o may_v have_v the_o love_n of_o i_o i_o demand_v thy_o heart_n for_o my_o habitation_n that_o i_o may_v join_v and_o unite_v it_o unto_o i_o for_o to_o this_o end_n be_v my_o heart_n open_v to_o thou_o upon_o the_o altar_n of_o my_o cross_n my_o will_n be_v i_o say_v o_o my_o dear_o belove_a spouse_n that_o thou_o desire_v nothing_o think_v nothing_o understand_v nothing_o see_v nothing_o feel_v nothing_o but_o myself_o only_o that_o so_o i_o only_o may_v be_v in_o thâ—e_n and_o thou_o total_o turn_v into_o i_o and_o that_o thou_o may_v possess_v in_o i_o perfect_a quiet_a and_o i_o in_o thou_o pleasant_a context_n 10._o last_o thou_o shall_v offer_v the_o holy_a father_n and_o last_o offer_v up_o the_o divine_a son_n to_o his_o heavenly_a father_n son_n to_o his_o heavenly_a father_n for_o thyself_o for_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o for_o the_o soul_n depart_v in_o memory_n and_o union_n of_o that_o divine_a oblation_n which_o he_o offer_v upon_o the_o holy_a cross_n present_v in_o like_a manner_n all_o the_o unbloody_a sacrifice_n to_o the_o divine_a majesty_n which_o be_v that_o day_n offer_v up_o in_o his_o universal_a church_n chap._n xxxi_o of_o spiritual_a communion_n although_o my_o beloved_a thou_o can_v receive_v thy_o sweet_a saviour_n communicate_v 1._o thou_o may_v thus_o often_o communicate_v sacramental_o only_o once_o a_o day_n yet_o thou_o may_v receive_v he_o spiritual_o every_o hour_n and_o moment_n for_o nothing_o can_v hinder_v thou_o from_o this_o but_o only_o thy_o own_o fault_n and_o negligence_n and_o this_o spiritual_a communion_n may_v sometime_o prove_v more_o profitable_a to_o thy_o soul_n and_o please_v to_o thy_o saviour_n than_o the_o sacramental_a especial_o if_o there_o be_v a_o defect_n in_o thy_o due_a and_o diligent_a preparation_n 2._o for_o as_o often_o as_o thou_o desire_v desire_n by_o frequent_a desire_n to_o receive_v thy_o love_a lord_n god_n thus_o spiritual_o into_o thy_o soul_n thou_o shall_v find_v he_o ever_o ready_a to_o feast_v thou_o with_o his_o own_o sacred_a hand_n and_o thou_o may_v thus_o easy_o dispose_v thyself_o unto_o it_o turn_v thyself_o to_o thy_o saviour_n to_o this_o end_n reflect_v upon_o thy_o own_o frailty_n and_o frequent_a fail_n and_o conceive_v a_o inward_a sorrow_n and_o detestation_n of_o thy_o defect_n then_o make_v thy_o supplication_n with_o a_o love_a affection_n that_o he_o will_v not_o disdain_v to_o enter_v thy_o poor_a cottage_n and_o feast_v thou_o with_o his_o own_o true_a body_n and_o blood_n 3._o so_o also_o when_o thou_o be_v move_v passion_n and_o it_o be_v a_o excellent_a exercise_n against_o passion_n with_o a_o pious_a zeal_n against_o any_o perverse_a passion_n and_o desire_v efficacious_o to_o mortify_v it_o or_o to_o plant_v some_o virtue_n in_o thy_o soul_n make_v use_n of_o this_o spiritual_a communion_n by_o convert_v thy_o thought_n towards_o thy_o lord_n god_n and_o invoke_v his_o aid_n with_o ardent_a prayer_n beseech_v he_o to_o enter_v and_o possess_v the_o secret_a part_n of_o thy_o soul_n or_o call_v to_o mind_v thy_o last_o sacramental_a communion_n speak_v to_o he_o with_o a_o inflame_a desire_n when_o o_o my_o good_a god_n shall_v i_o again_o welcome_v thou_o into_o the_o closet_n of_o my_o heart_n come_v now_o o_o my_o saviour_n and_o comfort_v i_o spiritual_o with_o the_o like_a strength_n and_o virtue_n explication_n if_o thou_o will_v practise_v this_o pious_a profit_n how_o to_o make_v
i_o abhor_v and_o detest_v whatsoever_o i_o have_v do_v say_v think_v or_o desire_v contrary_a to_o thy_o holy_a will_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o love_n i_o renounce_v all_o company_n and_o occasion_n which_o may_v induce_v i_o to_o offend_v thou_o 7._o i_o cast_v myself_o at_o thy_o sacred_a foot_n to_o be_v thy_o slave_n for_o ever_o with_o a_o firm_a resolution_n to_o bear_v thy_o cross_n till_o death_n and_o to_o do_v penance_n and_o satisfaction_n for_o my_o past_a pride_n and_o pleasure_n desire_v nothing_o but_o to_o live_v at_o thy_o foot_n like_o the_o penitent_a magdalen_n in_o solitude_n silence_n submission_n o_o good_a jesus_n out_o of_o thy_o infinite_a mercy_n merit_n and_o meekness_n suffer_v not_o i_o thy_o poor_a creature_n to_o be_v damn_v and_o separate_v from_o thou_o eternal_o o_o amiable_a eternity_n o_o eternal_a amity_n of_o god_n shall_v i_o leave_v and_o lose_v thou_o for_o filthy_a pleasure_n frail_a creature_n fond_a friendship_n fade_a honour_n no_o 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ah_o my_o brutish_a body_n ah_o my_o burdensome_a flesh_n thou_o be_v my_o dangerous_a and_o deadly_a enemy_n it_o be_v thy_o weight_n that_o depress_v my_o soul_n thy_o earth_n that_o clog_v and_o corrupt_v my_o air_n thy_o contagion_n and_o perversity_n which_o infect_v and_o debase_v my_o better_a part_n and_o heavenly_a portion_n thy_o sensuality_n which_o draw_v on_o endanger_v and_o almost_o destroy_v my_o reason_n 2._o ah_o sensuality_n the_o source_n of_o all_o my_o misery_n how_o just_o do_v i_o now_o hate_v thou_o and_o how_o willing_o will_v i_o leave_v thou_o at_o my_o first_o acquaintance_n with_o thou_o thou_o defile_v i_o with_o original_a sin_n in_o my_o infancy_n thou_o make_v a_o beast_n of_o i_o and_o now_o in_o my_o ripe_a year_n thou_o still_o pursue_v i_o proclaime_v open_a war_n with_o i_o blind_a my_o understanding_n with_o darkness_n ignorance_n and_o error_n make_v my_o will_n refractory_a to_o good_a and_o ready_a to_o all_o evil_a distract_a my_o memory_n with_o vain_a and_o vile_a fancy_n and_o perpetual_o tosse_v i_o to_o and_o fro_o between_o love_n and_o hatred_n joy_n and_o grief_n hope_v and_o fear_n and_o the_o rest_n of_o thy_o numerous_a and_o enormous_a irascible_a and_o concupiscible_a power_n and_o passion_n ay_o i_o how_o sad_a be_v my_o state_n how_o deplorable_a my_o condition_n oh_o how_o long_o lord_n must_v i_o dwell_v with_o these_o devil_n how_o long_o must_v i_o endure_v the_o violence_n of_o these_o passion_n o_o my_o lord_n my_o strength_n and_o my_o salvation_n break_v these_o fetter_n for_o i_o command_v a_o calm_a o_o thou_o only_a ruler_n of_o sea_n and_o wind_n and_o appease_v the_o surge_n of_o these_o my_o unmortified_a appetite_n oh_o restore_v i_o to_o myself_o again_o reduce_v reason_n to_o her_o lose_a dominion_n in_o my_o soul_n and_o bring_v back_o i_o thy_o poor_a creature_n to_o thou_o my_o powerful_a creator_n o_o let_v not_o this_o passenger_n perish_v amid_o these_o boisterous_a billow_n nor_o 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in_o my_o whole_a body_n and_o soul_n from_o the_o contagious_a poison_n of_o passion_n from_o the_o infectious_a leprosy_n of_o sin_n and_o sensuality_n all_o be_v out_o of_o order_n o_o my_o lord_n i_o acknowledge_v it_o to_o my_o own_o shame_n and_o confusion_n each_o sense_n be_v go_v astray_o each_o member_n of_o my_o body_n be_v corrupt_v each_o power_n of_o my_o soul_n be_v pervert_v my_o understanding_n be_v obscure_v with_o self-love_n my_o memory_n distract_v with_o sensual_a â—bâ—ects_n my_o will_n possess_v with_o peevish_a inclination_n my_o affection_n be_v vain_a my_o passion_n violent_a my_o disposition_n vicious_a my_o body_n be_v burdensome_a my_o imagination_n troublesome_a my_o life_n irksome_a these_o be_v my_o wound_n o_o my_o heavenly_a surgeon_n o_o put_v to_o thy_o help_a hand_n i_o beseech_v thou_o see_v fear_v and_o search_v they_o before_o the_o gangrene_n enter_v and_o the_o grief_n grow_v incurable_a my_o soul_n be_v sick_a even_o to_o death_n if_o thou_o 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sense_n and_o spiritual_a faculty_n a_o absolute_a change_n in_o my_o whole_a man_n o_o grant_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o love_a lord_n the_o powerful_a assistance_n of_o thy_o special_a grace_n for_o the_o performance_n of_o this_o great_a and_o good_a purpose_n teach_v i_o now_o o_o my_o bless_a master_n to_o live_v inward_o pious_o spiritual_o as_o i_o love_v former_o to_o live_v outward_o vain_o sensual_o o_o let_v i_o henceforth_o yield_v to_o thy_o divine_a motion_n obey_v thy_o call_n imitate_v thy_o example_n and_o follow_v thy_o will_n o_o let_v i_o never_o more_o act_v or_o omit_v any_o thing_n be_v it_o never_o so_o little_a for_o my_o own_o like_n but_o pure_o and_o perfect_o for_o thy_o love_n 5._o grant_v o_o good_a jesus_n that_o at_o each_o word_n of_o my_o mouth_n at_o each_o glance_n
and_o secure_v lesson_n leave_v all_o thing_n and_o thou_o shall_v find_v one_o thing_n which_o be_v all_o in_o all_o take_v courage_n and_o fight_v valiant_o against_o thy_o own_o bad_a nature_n pray_v suffer_v stoop_v bear_v repugnance_n swallow_v down_o contradiction_n digest_v injury_n the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n suffer_v violence_n the_o end_n thou_o ayme_v at_o be_v perfection_n the_o reward_n of_o thy_o conqucst_a be_v eternal_a love_n eternal_a life_n eternal_a happiness_n behold_v o_o my_o lord_n my_o strength_n and_o my_o salvation_n i_o be_o full_o resolve_v to_o lay_v the_o axe_n to_o the_o root_n of_o this_o wicked_a tree_n help_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o with_o thy_o grace_n from_o above_o that_o i_o may_v hew_v myself_o out_o of_o myself_o that_o i_o may_v kill_v crucify_v and_o mortify_v my_o inveigle_a sensuality_n cut_v off_o my_o evil_a inclination_n rectify_v my_o disorder_a passion_n and_o root_v out_o each_o thought_n or_o desire_n which_o tend_v not_o direct_o to_o thy_o honour_n will_n and_o love_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n 3._o i_o know_v lord_n that_o it_o be_v bootless_a to_o study_v perfection_n without_o the_o practice_n of_o mortification_n i_o confess_v i_o can_v never_o love_v thou_o true_o but_o in_o as_o much_o as_o i_o hate_v myself_o real_o such_o be_v the_o antipathy_n between_o self-love_n and_o thy_o holy_a affection_n ah_o how_o can_v a_o spirit_n distract_v with_o contrary_a inclination_n be_v free_o and_o full_o vacant_a to_o thy_o divine_a contemplation_n put_v therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o a_o sluice_n to_o my_o unmortified_a passion_n put_v a_o bind_v to_o my_o distraught_a heart_n and_o powerful_o keep_v back_o those_o innumerous_a concupiscence_n and_o corrupt_a imagination_n violent_o succeed_v each_o other_o that_o my_o unite_a affection_n may_v intend_v thou_o only_o the_o only_a object_n of_o all_o happiness_n gather_v o_o my_o lord_n the_o disperse_a force_n of_o my_o soul_n from_o all_o multiplicity_n of_o worldly_a affection_n to_o the_o union_n of_o thy_o only_a love_n keep_v i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o understanding_n will_n memory_n imagination_n and_o all_o my_o inward_a and_o outward_a sense_n from_o roam_v abroad_o that_o careful_o attend_v and_o entertain_v thy_o divine_a presence_n in_o my_o soul_n i_o may_v attain_v true_a introversion_n simplification_n and_o union_n of_o my_o spirit_n with_o thou_o reform_v o_o my_o lord_n all_o the_o natural_a corruption_n of_o my_o outward_a man_n and_o redress_v all_o the_o spiritual_a infirmity_n of_o my_o inward_a man_n destroy_v and_o disperse_v all_o internal_a and_o external_a enemy_n and_o opposer_n of_o thy_o holy_a love_n possess_v i_o perfect_o and_o dispose_v of_o i_o entire_o according_a to_o thy_o divine_a will_n and_o pleasure_n 4._o to_o this_o end_n o_o bless_v my_o weak_a endeavour_n almighty_a and_o al-merciful_a lord_n god_n i_o will_v subtract_v all_o superfluity_n from_o my_o body_n and_o accustom_v it_o to_o all_o sort_n of_o suffering_n that_o so_o i_o may_v fit_v it_o up_o for_o thou_o o_o holy_a spirit_n who_o dwell_v not_o with_o they_o that_o be_v sensual_a and_o subject_a to_o sin_n alas_o i_o have_v not_o yet_o resist_v to_o the_o effusion_n of_o my_o blood_n and_o shall_v i_o spill_v each_o drop_n of_o blood_n in_o my_o body_n in_o this_o holy_a quarrel_n how_o little_o ought_v i_o to_o regard_v it_o in_o respect_n of_o the_o great_a good_a i_o expect_v i_o will_v therefore_o crucify_v thou_o o_o my_o flesh_n with_o all_o thy_o concupiscence_n i_o will_v mortify_v my_o outward_a sense_n the_o window_n by_o which_o death_n steal_v into_o my_o soul_n the_o hinderer_n of_o my_o heart_n tranquillity_n the_o destroyer_n of_o true_a devotion_n the_o disperser_n of_o inward_a recollection_n and_o the_o utter_a ruiner_n of_o all_o the_o good_a desire_n which_o i_o conceive_v and_o kindle_v in_o my_o prayer_n ah_o how_o soon_o be_v this_o divine_a fire_n cool_v and_o quench_v not_o only_o by_o 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most_o dangerous_a and_o my_o great_a enemy_n which_o be_v the_o source_n of_o all_o my_o misery_n the_o citadel_n from_o whence_o sin_n assail_v i_o and_o satan_n fetch_v his_o force_n to_o fight_v against_o i_o grant_v good_a lord_n that_o i_o may_v they_o therefore_o every_o one_o must_v strive_v to_o know_v his_o own_o natural_a inclination_n and_o then_o employ_v all_o his_o force_n and_o apply_v all_o his_o prayer_n and_o spiritual_a exercise_n to_o quell_v they_o never_o yield_v to_o this_o wicked_a eve_n persuade_v adam_n my_o superior_a will_n to_o eat_v the_o forbid_a fruit_n to_o consent_n to_o unlawful_a pleasure_n o_o that_o i_o can_v tame_v these_o cruel_a beast_n my_o natural_a passion_n how_o soon_o shall_v i_o be_v master_n of_o all_o moral_a virtue_n o_o that_o i_o can_v so_o till_o this_o vineyard_n so_o delve_v this_o garden_n so_o purge_v it_o from_o all_o ill_a weed_n of_o affection_n and_o prune_v all_o superfluous_a surgeon_n and_o shoot_n of_o passion_n that_o 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understanding_n memory_n will_n leave_v our_o soul_n to_o the_o absolute_a conduct_n of_o our_o love_a lord_n according_a to_o the_o doctrine_n here_o deliver_v which_o be_v the_o short_a and_o secure_a way_n to_o make_v all_o our_o action_n divine_a and_o celestial_a some_o example_n for_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o divine_a way_n of_o prayer_n 1._o receive_v the_o bless_a sacrament_n communicate_v example_n how_o to_o communicate_v i_o say_v to_o my_o heavenly_a guest_n my_o god_n make_v i_o partaker_n of_o these_o sacred_a mystery_n that_o my_o soul_n may_v enjoy_v the_o effect_n for_o which_o they_o be_v by_o you_o institute_v then_o be_v secure_v by_o my_o act_n of_o faith_n that_o i_o have_v receive_v his_o body_n blood_n soul_n divinity_n etc._n etc._n i_o settle_v myself_o in_o this_o holy_a idleness_n and_o abstraction_n before_o describe_v and_o remain_v silent_a and_o recollect_v harken_v what_o my_o dear_a lord_n will_v speak_v within_o i_o 2._o so_o when_o i_o have_v 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do_v what_o lie_v in_o she_o to_o rest_v always_o in_o her_o centre_n which_o be_v god_n may_v follow_v and_o fulfil_v the_o apostle_n counsel_n which_o be_v to_o pray_v continual_o and_o do_v all_o thing_n even_o her_o natural_a and_o necessary_a action_n of_o eat_v drink_v sleep_v &c._n &c._n to_o god_n glory_n and_o these_o pure_a desire_n and_o intention_n render_v they_o all_o meritorious_a some_o further_a advice_n for_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o pure_a prayer_n 1._o before_o we_o thus_o recollect_v ourselves_o in_o god_n we_o may_v make_v what_o adulce_n the_o first_o adulce_n act_n we_o please_v but_o after_o we_o be_v enter_v into_o it_o we_o be_v to_o remain_v still_o quiet_a silent_a insensible_a unmoveable_a as_o a_o stock_n to_o be_v fashion_v or_o a_o stone_n to_o be_v carve_v according_a to_o the_o heavenly_a workman_n design_n we_o must_v leave_v ourselves_o entire_o to_o be_v move_v and_o manage_v as_o best_o like_v our_o great_a master_n who_o both_o know_v what_o 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for_o practice_n keep_v exact_o some_o certain_a time_n of_o silence_n every_o day_n which_o our_o calling_n consider_v we_o have_v enjoin_v ourselves_o unto_o second_o to_o decline_v imperceptible_o divers_a unnecessary_a and_o impertinent_a occasion_n extroversion_n affair_n company_n curiosity_n etc._n etc._n three_o to_o speak_v modest_o and_o moderate_o in_o time_n of_o speak_v four_o to_o yield_v easy_o to_o other_o and_o not_o contest_v in_o word_n for_o all_o consist_v in_o deny_v and_o humble_v ourselves_o now_o in_o contemplation_n there_o be_v three_o sort_n of_o silence_n 1._o when_o all_o fancy_n imagination_n silence_n in_o contemplation_n there_o be_v a_o threefold_a silence_n and_o species_n cease_v in_o the_o soul_n so_o that_o she_o be_v silent_a as_o to_o any_o create_a object_n desire_v no_o worldly_a thing_n but_o drive_v from_o her_o all_o that_o be_v not_o direct_o god_n to_o who_o only_o she_o be_v silent_o joyful_o and_o quiet_o attentive_a 2._o when_o in_o this_o great_a calm_a she_o fit_v with_o mary_n at_o her_o lord_n foot_n in_o a_o certain_a spiritual_a idleness_n as_o it_o be_v say_v i_o will_v hear_v what_o my_o lord_n speak_v within_o i_o to_o who_o he_o answer_v harken_v my_o daughter_n and_o behold_v and_o forget_v thy_o people_n and_o thy_o father_n house_n 3._o when_o she_o transform_v herself_o all_o into_o god_n her_o will_n taste_v his_o sweetness_n and_o she_o slumber_v in_o his_o bosom_n in_o absolute_a silence_n desire_v nothing_o more_o because_o full_o satisfy_v so_o that_o here_o be_v a_o threefold_a silence_n 1._o when_o no_o creature_n talk_v to_o we_o as_o have_v no_o object_n of_o they_o in_o our_o understanding_n and_o memory_n 2._o when_o we_o talk_v not_o to_o ourselves_o as_o total_o forget_v ourselves_o and_o convert_v our_o inward_a man_n to_o god_n alone_o with_o a_o receptive_a subjection_n climb_v above_o ourselves_o by_o the_o act_n of_o faith_n whereby_o our_o understanding_n be_v unite_v immediate_o to_o god_n 3._o when_o god_n talk_v not_o to_o we_o but_o leave_v we_o in_o the_o enjoyment_n of_o this_o divine_a sweetness_n and_o elevation_n of_o ourselves_o above_o ourselves_o o_o heavenly_a silence_n this_o have_v be_v by_o some_o experienced_a but_o can_v be_v by_o none_o sufficient_o explicate_v the_o 26._o maxim_n that_o the_o perfect_a love_n of_o god_n and_o hatred_n of_o ourselves_o must_v be_v our_o constant_a and_o continual_a employment_n we_o can_v love_v god_n except_o we_o hate_v ourselves_o and_o if_o ourselves_o how_o to_o know_v whether_o we_o love_v god_n and_o hate_v ourselves_o we_o will_v true_o know_v how_o far_o we_o be_v advance_v in_o this_o love_n and_o hatred_n first_o we_o must_v weigh_v how_o willing_o we_o can_v and_o do_v submit_v our_o judgement_n in_o thing_n contrary_a to_o our_o natural_a inclination_n second_o how_o quiet_o we_o can_v and_o do_v suffer_v such_o thing_n as_o be_v opposite_a to_o our_o sensuality_n as_o hard_a usage_n pain_n confusion_n etc._n etc._n we_o must_v not_o conceive_v we_o have_v any_o degree_n of_o pure_a and_o perfect_a love_n until_o our_o affection_n be_v so_o total_o transform_v into_o god_n that_o he_o free_o and_o full_o possessâ—s_v our_o spirit_n guide_v it_o enlighten_v it_o inflame_v it_o elevate_v it_o how_o and_o when_o he_o please_v his_o love_n be_v our_o only_a light_n and_o life_n and_o we_o desire_v only_o two_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n first_o to_o love_v see_v taste_n and_o enjoy_v god_n only_o second_o to_o be_v humble_v despise_a revile_v reject_v repute_a reprobate_n for_o his_o love_n o_o sweet_a life_n o_o love_a lord_n jesus_n what_o heaven_n what_o happiness_n be_v this_o we_o may_v stir_v up_o our_o soul_n to_o a_o ardent_a love_n of_o god_n by_o these_o and_o the_o like_a motive_n first_o what_o be_v the_o object_n of_o our_o god_n motive_n to_o love_n god_n love_n and_o who_o be_v the_o author_n of_o all_o our_o good_a be_v it_o not_o god_n only_o what_o have_v 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we_o so_o patient_o invite_v we_o so_o sweet_o receive_v we_o so_o merciful_o o_o lord_n what_o shall_v we_o do_v or_o say_v we_o be_v bind_v in_o thy_o chain_n of_o charity_n we_o love_v thou_o we_o be_v all_o thou_o etc._n etc._n 5._o upon_o who_o do_v we_o depend_v each_o moment_n for_o our_o whole_a being_n both_o of_o nature_n and_o grace_n our_o body_n depend_v not_o so_o much_o on_o our_o soul_n nor_o our_o life_n on_o air_n as_o all_o thing_n body_n life_n soul_n depend_v upon_o thou_o o_o powerful_a lord_n god_n o_o that_o i_o have_v whole_a world_n to_o offer_v thou_o infinite_a body_n to_o suffer_v for_o thou_o and_o innumerable_a soul_n to_o love_v thou_o 6._o have_v we_o not_o a_o inclination_n to_o love_n for_o what_o be_v we_o create_v can_v we_o better_o employ_v our_o love_n than_o upon_o god_n do_v any_o creature_n better_o deserve_v it_o or_o more_o desire_v it_o than_o our_o amiable_a creator_n 7._o can_v any_o thing_n else_o full_o quiet_v we_o in_o this_o life_n 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