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dreadful_a condition_n so_o dreadful_a that_o i_o believe_v few_o son_n of_o adam_n be_v ever_o in_o a_o worse_o that_o do_v not_o do_v the_o thing_n that_o i_o fear_v i._n e._n blaspheme_v god_n and_o destroy_v himself_o i_o say_v be_v in_o such_o a_o condition_n and_o the_o sin_n so_o often_o speak_v of_o lie_v still_o heavy_a upon_o i_o and_o shame_n withhold_v i_o from_o reveal_v it_o for_o many_o year_n it_o please_v god_n to_o over-rule_v my_o spirit_n that_o i_o send_v for_o a_o worthy_a minister_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o come_v to_o i_o the_o day_n before_o my_o deliverance_n i_o acquaint_v he_o with_o that_o sin_n which_o do_v so_o lie_v upon_o my_o conscience_n and_o never_o be_v reveal_v before_o well_o remember_v how_o holy_a david_n ps_n 32.3.5_o who_o while_o he_o keep_v silence_v his_o wax_a old_a through_o his_o roar_v all_o the_o day_n long_o do_v but_o say_v he_o will_v confess_v his_o sin_n and_o the_o lord_n forgive_v his_o iniquity_n so_o the_o lord_n the_o very_a next_o day_n come_v and_o set_v my_o soul_n at_o rest_n the_o comfort_n and_o help_v that_o i_o find_v from_o my_o natural_a relation_n and_o friend_n this_o woeful_a condition_n be_v none_o at_o all_o but_o instead_o of_o pity_n i_o meet_v with_o reproach_n from_o many_o only_o my_o dear_a yoke_n fellow_n be_v my_o fellow_n sufferer_n of_o who_o i_o can_v say_v the_o lord_n give_v she_o to_o i_o for_o such_o a_o day_n as_o this_o to_o be_v his_o bless_a instrument_n of_o my_o deliverance_n for_o when_o i_o be_v even_o distract_v she_o lay_v the_o glory_n of_o the_o lord_n deep_o to_o her_o heart_n and_o do_v daily_o bring_v the_o word_n of_o god_n to_o my_o soul_n read_v with_o great_a diligence_n the_o holy_a scripture_n which_o be_v do_v then_o pour_v forth_o her_o soul_n to_o the_o lord_n with_o ardent_a affection_n and_o with_o a_o mighty_a faith_n in_o our_o gracious_a god_n who_o have_v manifest_v his_o great_a love_n to_o she_o in_o former_a trouble_n the_o experience_n of_o which_o encourage_v she_o to_o go_v on_o still_o in_o earnest_n and_o frequent_a prayer_n and_o expectation_n that_o the_o lord_n will_v accomplish_v the_o work_n of_o deliverance_n and_o upon_o the_o sixteenth_o day_n of_o april_n 1669._o ah_o day_n for_o ever_o to_o be_v solemnize_v as_o glorious_a and_o honourable_a to_o the_o lord_n by_o i_o his_o poor_a creature_n she_o go_v on_o in_o her_o constant_a course_n of_o prayer_n after_o she_o have_v give_v the_o lord_n his_o holy_a and_o reverend_a title_n use_v moses_n his_o argument_n break_v forth_o into_o these_o word_n my_o father_n my_o father_n what_o will_v thou_o do_v with_o my_o husband_n he_o have_v be_v speak_v and_o act_v still_o in_o thy_o cause_n oh_o destroy_v he_o not_o for_o thy_o own_o glory_n oh_o what_o dishonour_n will_v come_v to_o thy_o great_a name_n if_o thou_o do_v it_o oh_o rather_o do_v with_o i_o what_o thou_o will_v oh_o do_v with_o i_o what_o thou_o will_v but_o spare_v my_o husband_n etc._n etc._n 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and_o in_o most_o of_o his_o great_a work_n delight_n to_o advance_v his_o own_o power_n by_o use_v small_a and_o unlikely_a mean_n after_o long_o tarry_v and_o in_o a_o time_n when_o i_o look_v not_o for_o he_o come_v now_o and_o own_v his_o own_o ordinance_n crown_v the_o cry_n and_o faith_n and_o patience_n of_o a_o poor_a woman_n with_o such_o success_n that_o my_o praise_n shall_v be_v continual_o of_o he_o the_o proud_a mâ—y_a scorn_n but_o the_o humble_a shall_v hear_v there_o of_o and_o be_v glad_a that_o roar_a lion_n my_o adversary_n the_o devil_n that_o old_a serpent_n that_o red-dragon_n that_o unclean_a spirit_n that_o liar_n accuser_n murderer_n from_o the_o beginning_n that_o apollion_n to_o the_o geeckâ—_n abbaddon_n to_o the_o jew_n and_o destroyer_n to_o all_o for_o as_o be_v the_o name_n give_v he_o by_o the_o word_n of_o truth_n so_o be_v his_o nature_n and_o so_o have_v he_o labour_v mighty_o for_o a_o long_a season_n to_o show_v himself_o in_o i_o even_o now_o 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