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that_o her_o condition_n may_v be_v i_o but_o the_o lord_n bring_v that_o scripture_n to_o my_o mind_n jer._n 29.11_o for_o i_o know_v the_o thought_n that_o i_o think_v towards_o you_o say_v the_o lord_n thought_n of_o peace_n and_o not_o of_o evil_a to_o give_v you_o a_o expect_a end_n and_o thereby_o the_o lâ—rd_n stay_v my_o heart_n in_o trust_v upon_o himself_o and_o give_v i_o a_o safe_a delivery_n and_o be_v up_o again_o i_o go_v to_o hear_v mr._n cotton_n and_o he_o be_v show_v what_o assurance_n be_v and_o how_o happy_a that_o soul_n be_v that_o coulâ—_n say_v as_o job_n do_v job_n 19_o 25._o and_o with_o david_n psal_n â—â—9_n for_o ever_o lord_n thy_o word_n be_v settle_v in_o the_o heaven_n and_o so_o the_o lord_n be_v pâ—â—ased_v to_o show_v i_o what_o a_o mercy_n i_o have_v that_o have_v assurance_n then_o i_o go_v to_o speak_v to_o mr._n cotton_n to_o ask_v he_o what_o he_o think_v of_o thâ—_n work_v of_o god_n upon_o my_o poor_a soul_n and_o 〈◊〉_d â—old_a i_o that_o he_o be_v satisfy_v that_o it_o be_v 〈◊〉_d real_a work_n of_o god_n and_o he_o do_v council_n i_o to_o walk_v humble_o and_o thankful_o and_o to_o take_v heed_n of_o grieve_v that_o spirit_n of_o god_n by_o which_o i_o be_v seal_v up_o to_o the_o day_n of_o redemption_n and_o to_o walk_v humble_o towards_o those_o that_o god_n have_v not_o reveal_v so_o much_o of_o himself_o to_o as_o he_o have_v to_o i_o and_o then_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v by_o his_o providence_n to_o call_v my_o husband_n to_o come_v for_o england_n and_o he_o do_v tell_v i_o that_o he_o shall_v so_o order_v business_n that_o i_o shall_v have_v less_o of_o the_o world_n to_o trouble_v i_o i_o be_v glad_a to_o hear_v it_o from_o he_o and_o desire_v he_o to_o go_v and_o then_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o help_v i_o to_o consider_v whether_o i_o have_v not_o get_v a_o better_a husband_n and_o the_o lord_n do_v quiet_a my_o heart_n in_o himself_o my_o soul_n be_v espouse_v to_o he_o 2_o cor._n 11.2_o after_o he_o be_v go_v from_o i_o we_o do_v hear_v of_o a_o war_n break_v forth_o in_o england_n and_o friend_n tell_v i_o my_o husband_n will_v be_v in_o danger_n of_o his_o life_n if_o take_v i_o tell_v thâ—m_v the_o best_a i_o know_v and_o the_o worst_a i_o know_v and_o that_o if_o god_n shall_v take_v my_o husband_n out_o of_o the_o world_n i_o shall_v have_v a_o husband_n in_o heaven_n which_o be_v best_a of_o all_o and_o mr._n john_n elliott_n do_v visit_v i_o in_o his_o 〈◊〉_d fence_n and_o ask_v i_o how_o the_o lord_n do_v bâ—â—_n up_o my_o heart_n in_o my_o husband_n absence_n and_o i_o do_v tell_v he_o that_o the_o lord_n be_v as_o well_o able_a to_o bring_v he_o to_o i_o in_o safety_n as_o he_o do_v to_o carry_v he_o out_o and_o he_o answer_v i_o i_o believe_v the_o lord_n will_v say_v unto_o thou_o as_o he_o do_v to_o the_o canaanitish_a woman_n matth._n 15.28_o be_v it_o unto_o thou_o according_a to_o thy_o say_v and_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o keep_v i_o and_o all_o that_o i_o 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and_o underneath_o be_v the_o everlasting_a arm_n after_o it_o have_v please_v god_n to_o bring_v i_o back_o to_o my_o native_a country_n i_o be_v much_o trouble_v that_o there_o be_v no_o better_a observation_n of_o the_o lord_n day_n it_o be_v our_o practice_n in_o new-england_n to_o begin_v it_o at_o sunset_n the_o evening_n before_o as_o it_o be_v record_v in_o genesis_n that_o the_o evening_n and_o the_o morning_n be_v the_o first_o day_n and_o that_o scripture_n be_v bring_v to_o my_o memory_n prov._n 14.10_o the_o heart_n know_v its_o own_o bitterness_n but_o no_o man_n intermeddle_v with_o its_o joy_n many_o trial_n the_o lord_n have_v be_v please_v to_o exercise_v i_o with_o but_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o all_o god_n have_v make_v that_o word_n sweet_a to_o my_o soul_n isa_n 54.10_o for_o the_o mountain_n shall_v depart_v and_o the_o hill_n be_v remove_v but_o my_o kindness_n shall_v not_o depart_v from_o thou_o neither_o shall_v the_o covenant_n of_o my_o peace_n be_v remove_v say_v the_o lord_n that_o have_v mercy_n on_o thou_o it_o please_v the_o lord_n after_o a_o year_n or_o two_o to_o exercise_v i_o with_o much_o weakness_n but_o then_o he_o make_v that_o word_n sweet_a unto_o i_o isa_n 50.8_o he_o be_v near_o that_o justify_v i_o who_o will_v contend_v with_o i_o and_o that_o word_n job_n 15.11_o be_v the_o consolation_n of_o god_n small_a unto_o thou_o after_o these_o thing_n when_o i_o be_v in_o a_o very_a great_a strait_n upon_o the_o apprehension_n of_o some_o public_a danger_n that_o seem_v to_o threaten_v we_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o bring_v to_o my_o mind_n that_o scripture_n zach._n 9.12_o turn_v to_o your_o strong_a hold_v you_o prisoner_n of_o hope_n and_o since_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o my_o many_o bodily_a infirmity_n god_n have_v make_v that_o word_n sweet_a to_o my_o soul_n psal_n 116.7_o return_v unto_o thy_o rest_n o_o my_o soul_n for_o the_o lord_n have_v deal_v bountiful_o with_o thou_o and_o that_o word_n psal_n 23.4_o though_o i_o walk_v through_o the_o valley_n of_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n i_o will_v fear_v no_o evil_n for_o thou_o be_v wâ—th_v i_o thy_o rod_n and_o thy_o staff_n they_o comfort_v i_o i_o still_o remain_v as_o a_o prisoner_n of_o hope_n wait_v for_o a_o fruition_n of_o that_o happiness_n which_o the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n have_v prepare_v for_o i_o for_o i_o know_v he_o that_o have_v the_o son_n have_v life_n 1_o john_n 5.12_o and_o if_o the_o son_n make_v we_o free_a then_o be_v we_o