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and_o perfume_n from_o the_o allurement_n of_o sweet_a smell_n i_o suffer_v no_o great_a trouble_n when_o absent_a i_o do_v not_o miss_v they_o when_o present_a not_o refuse_v they_o and_o be_o willing_a for_o ever_o to_o be_v without_o they_o thus_o i_o appear_v to_o myself_o but_o perhaps_o mistake_v for_o much_o to_o be_v lament_v be_v the_o darkness_n wherein_o my_o very_a ability_n and_o faculty_n which_o be_v within_o i_o lie_v obscure_v and_o hide_a from_o i_o so_o that_o my_o own_o mind_n when_o question_v itself_o concern_v its_o own_o strength_n know_v not_o well_o how_o to_o believe_v itself_o because_o much_o within_o it_o lie_v secret_a and_o conceal_v from_o it_o till_o
job_n 25._o who_o then_o can_v represent_v those_o my_o remote_a sin_n unto_o i_o may_v not_o every_o other_o such_o little_a one_o serve_v for_o this_o purpose_n in_o who_o i_o may_v easy_o read_v the_o fault_n i_o know_v not_o of_o myself_o what_o then_o in_o that_o first_o bud_n of_o my_o age_n be_v my_o guilt_n be_v it_o cry_v so_o vehement_o after_o the_o pap_n and_o hang_v so_o greedy_o upon_o the_o flow_a breast_n which_o shall_v i_o now_o in_o like_a manner_n do_v after_o my_o food_n i_o shall_v become_v both_o culpable_a and_o ridiculous_a therefore_o then_o also_o i_o be_v so_o but_o whilst_o yet_o i_o understand_v not_o reproof_n neither_o reason_n nor_o custom_n suffer_v i_o to_o receive_v it_o but_o yet_o more-grown_a we_o weed_v out_o and_o cast_v away_o such_o humour_n now_o none_o do_v cleanse_v a_o vessel_n of_o that_o which_o be_v good_a and_o in_o that_o little_a age_n be_v these_o also_o commendable_a quality_n *_o to_o beg_v with_o tear_n what_o will_v have_v be_v 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o_o my_o god_n when_o such_o man_n only_o be_v propose_v to_o my_o imitation_n who_o if_o they_o shall_v relate_v any_o of_o their_o action_n though_o not_o ill_a with_o any_o barbarism_n or_o solecism_n be_v censure_v for_o it_o be_v abash_v and_o confound_v but_o if_o they_o shall_v in_o a_o round_a and_o well-cohering_a stile_n fluent_o and_o neat_o express_v though_o one_o of_o their_o culpable_a lust_n be_v applaud_v for_o this_o become_v exalt_v with_o pride_n this_o thou_o see_v o_o lord_n and_o hold_v thy_o peace_n long-suffering_a and_o abundant_a in_o goodness_n and_o truth_n and_o will_v thou_o always_o hold_v thy_o peace_n no_o but_o thou_o draw_v out_o of_o this_o swallow_a deep_a the_o soul_n that_o seek_v after_o thou_o and_o thirst_v after_o thy_o chaste_a delight_n and_o who_o heart_n say_v unto_o thou_o i_o have_v seek_v thy_o face_n and_o lord_n thy_o face_n will_v i_o seek_v but_o 1.21_o ps_n 27.9_o vulg._n rom._n 1.21_o i_o then_o be_v depart_v far_o away_o from_o 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for_o who_o shall_v refund_v unto_o he_o that_o innocent_a and_o precious_a blood_n who_o repay_v he_o the_o price_n wherewith_o he_o buy_v we_o that_o so_o he_o may_v redeem_v we_o from_o he_o to_o the_o sacr_n mean_v of_o which_o price_n thy_o handmaid_n bound-fast_a her_o soul_n with_o the_o line_n of_o she_o faith_n o_o let_v none_o ever_o break_v off_o or_o â—â—ver_o she_o from_o thy_o protection_n let_v not_o that_o lion_n and_o dragon_n either_o by_o strength_n or_o subtlety_n interpose_v himself_o because_o she_o will_v not_o plead_v that_o she_o owe_v thou_o nothing_o lest_o so_o she_o shall_v be_v convict_v and_o seized-on_a by_o her_o cunning_a accuser_n but_o she_o will_v plead_v that_o her_o debt_n be_v discharge_v by_o he_o to_o who_o none_o can_v repay_v that_o sum_n which_o he_o owe_v nothing_o for_o himself_o be_v please_v to_o lay_v down_o for_o we_o rest_v she_o therefore_o in_o peace_n together_o with_o her_o husband_n before_o who_o and_o after_o who_o none_o 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from_o their_o departure_n thence_o till_o their_o return_n thither_o that_o so_o what_o my_o mother_n make_v she_o last_o request_n to_o i_o may_v be_v more_o plentiful_o perform_v to_o she_o by_o the_o prayer_n of_o many_o procure_v by_o these_o confession_n and_o prayer_n of_o i_o lib_fw-la x._o chap._n i._n in_o this_o book_n s._n austin_n make_v confession_n of_o the_o several_a lapse_n and_o infirmity_n of_o his_o present_a condition_n since_o his_o regeneration_n by_o baptism_n 12._o 1_o cor._n 13_o 12._o let_v i_o know_v thou_o o_o lord_n perfect_a knower_n of_o i_o let_v i_o know_v thou_o as_o also_o i_o be_o know_v by_o thou_o virtue_n of_o my_o soul_n enter_v thou_o into_o it_o and_o prepare_v it_o also_o for_o thou_o that_o thou_o may_v inhabit_v and_o possess_v it_o pure_a without_o spot_n and_o wrinkle_n this_o be_v my_o hope_n at_o last_o and_o hither_o tend_v my_o speech_n and_o in_o this_o hope_n be_v all_o my_o joy_n when_o i_o joy_v right_o as_o for_o other_o thing_n 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these_o my_o groan_n in_o confession_n testify_v how_o much_o i_o dislike_v and_o loathe_v myself_o thou_o thereby_o become_v so_o much_o the_o more_o splendent_a and_o beauteous_a and_o amiable_a unto_o i_o so_o much_o the_o more_o love_v and_o long_v for_o by_o i_o that_o so_o i_o may_v be_v ashamed_a of_o myself_o and_o throw_v away_o myself_o and_o make_v choice_n of_o thou_o and_o seek_v neither_o to_o please_v thou_o nor_o myself_o for_o i_o but_o only_o for_o thy_o sake_n therefore_o o_o lord_n though_o always_o manifest_a and_o disclose_v to_o thou_o i_o be_o whatever_o i_o be_o yet_o not_o without_o fruit_n do_v i_o confess_v unto_o thou_o as_o be_v show_v before_o which_o confession_n of_o i_o to_o thou_o be_v act_v not_o with_o the_o word_n of_o my_o flesh_n and_o outward_a sound_n but_o with_o the_o word_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o the_o loud_a cry_n of_o my_o thought_n which_o thy_o ear_n only_o discern_v where_o in_o what_o thing_n i_o be_o evil_a my_o confession_n to_o thou_o be_v *_o nothing_o else_o than_o to_o disallow_v and_o condemn_v myself_o in_o what_o thing_n pious_a *_o nothing_o else_o than_o not_o to_o attribute_v and_o ascribe_v such_o thing_n to_o myself_o because_o as_o thou_o o_o lord_n approve_v the_o just_a so_o thou_o first_o hustify_v he_o wicked_a and_o such_o my_o confession_n o_o my_o god_n be_v make_v before_o thou_o in_o some_o sort_n in_o in_o some_o sort_n not_o in_o silence_n be_v silent_a in_o respect_n of_o external_a noise_n but_o very_o clamorous_a in_o respect_n of_o internal_a affection_n and_o nothing_o that_o be_v good_a do_v i_o say_v here_o before_o man_n which_o thou_o lord_n have_v not_o first_o in_o secret_n hear_v from_o i_o nor_o do_v thou_o hear_v any_o such_o thing_n from_o i_o but_o that_o thou_o also_o first_o haste_n say_v it_o unto_o i_o chap._n iii_o the_o end_n and_o fruit_n of_o his_o confess_v his_o present_a condition_n public_o before_o man_n but_o than_o what_o matter_n it_o that_o man_n shall_v 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what_o vast_a astonishable_a thing_n o_o my_o god_n a_o profound_a and_o infinite_a multiplicity_n and_o this_o be_v my_o soul_n and_o this_o be_v i_o myself_o what_o a_o thing_n therefore_o be_v myself_o what_o a_o nature_n be_o i_o a_o various_a and_o multiforme_a life_n and_o exceed_o immense_a in_o the_o extent_n of_o its_o power_n and_o behold_v through_o these_o innumerable_a field_n and_o cave_n and_o sellar_n of_o my_o memory_n innumerable_o full_o of_o innumerable_a sort_n of_o thing_n by_o so_o many_o several_a way_n convey_v in_o thither_o through_o all_o those_o thing_n i_o fly_v i_o run_v i_o dive_v this_o way_n and_o that_o way_n as_o far_o as_o i_o be_o able_a and_o nowhere_o can_v i_o find_v a_o end_n so_o great_a be_v the_o power_n of_o memory_n so_o great_a the_o power_n of_o this_o life_n in_o man_n even_o whilst_o he_o be_v yet_o mortal_a what_o shall_v i_o do_v then_o o_o thou_o my_o true_a life_n my_o god_n i_o will_v also_o pass_v beyond_o this_o power_n of_o i_o 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holy_a pleasure_n which_o thy_o charity_n and_o thy_o mercy_n have_v bestow_v upon_o i_o take_v pity_n upon_o my_o poverty_n chap._n xxv_o but_o where_o be_v thou_o resident_a in_o my_o memory_n thou_o the_o lord_n what_o lodging_n have_v thou_o make_v there_o for_o thou_o what_o sanctuary_n have_v thou_o build_v i_o pass_v by_o the_o low_a part_n thereof_o common_a with_o beast_n because_o in_o my_o remember_v thou_o i_o find_v thou_o not_o there_o among_o the_o image_n of_o corporeal_a thing_n and_o i_o come_v to_o the_o part_n thereof_o where_o be_v store_v the_o affection_n of_o my_o soul_n neither_o yet_o there_o find_v i_o thou_o and_o i_o have_v enter_v into_o the_o very_a seat_n and_o lodging_n of_o my_o mind_n itself_o which_o seat_n also_o be_v there_o in_o my_o memory_n because_o the_o mind_n remember_v also_o its_o self_n and_o neither_o waist_n thou_o there_o for_o as_o thou_o be_v no_o image_n of_o a_o body_n nor_o no_o affection_n of_o the_o mind_n so_o neither_o be_v 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thou_o the_o truth_n art_n in_o every_o place_n present_a and_z giving_z audience_n to_o all_o consult_v thou_o and_o at_o the_o same_o time_n thou_o give_v answer_v unto_o all_o consult_v thou_o thing_n never_o so_o many_o or_o diverse_a and_o clear_o thou_o answer_v unto_o all_o but_o all_o do_v not_o clear_o hear_v thou_o all_o consult_v thou_o about_o what_o they_o please_v but_o not_o always_o hear_v from_o thou_o what_o please_v they_o and_o among_o they_o he_o be_v thy_o best_a servant_n who_o desire_v not_o so_o much_o to_o hear_v from_o thou_o what_o shall_v be_v conformable_a to_o his_o will_n but_o rather_o to_o conform_v his_o will_n to_o whatever_o he_o shall_v hear_v from_o thou_o chap._n xxvii_o that_o though_o he_o now_o true_o love_v god_n abstract_v from_o and_o far_o above_o all_o other_o creature_n and_o olso_o above_o himself_o too_o too_o late_o have_v i_o find_v and_o begin_v to_o love_v thou_o o_o beauty_n so_o ancient_a and_o yet_o so_o new_a too_o too_o late_o 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great_a be_v these_o my_o disease_n many_o and_o great_a they_o be_v but_o great_a be_v the_o cure_n which_o thou_o have_v provide_v and_o well_o may_v we_o have_v imagine_v thy_o word_n to_o have_v be_v too_o remote_a from_o have_v any_o alliance_n with_o we_o and_o so_o have_v despair_v of_o ourselves_o have_v it_o not_o thus_o be_v make_v flesh_n and_o dwell_v among_o we_o affright_v with_o these_o my_o sin_n and_o with_o the_o load_n of_o my_o misery_n i_o have_v once_o a_o thought_n and_o a_o design_n of_o retire_v myself_o into_o some_o desert_n solitude_n but_o thou_o do_v prohibit_v it_o unto_o i_o and_o confirm_v i_o say_v that_o therefore_o christ_n die_v for_o all_o 5.15_o 2_o cor._n 5.15_o that_o they_o who_o live_v shall_v not_o henceforth_o live_v unto_o themselves_o but_o unto_o he_o who_o die_v for_o they_o behold_v o_o lord_n i_o cast_v all_o my_o care_n upon_o thou_o let_v i_o live_v and_o i_o will_v consider_v the_o wonderful_a thing_n of_o thy_o law_n 119.18_o psal_n 119.18_o thou_o know_v my_o ignorance_n my_o infirmity_n teach_v i_o heal_n i_o he_o thy_o only_a one_o in_o who_o be_v hide_v all_o the_o treasure_n of_o wisdom_n and_o knowledge_n redeem_v i_o with_o his_o own_o blood_n let_v not_o the_o proud_a my_o spiritual_a enemy_n false_o accuse_v i_o for_o i_o meditate_v on_o this_o my_o ransom_n 2.3_o col._n 2.3_o and_o i_o eat_v it_o and_o drink_v it_o and_o communicate_v it_o to_o other_o and_o be_v poor_a i_o desire_v to_o be_v satisfy_v therewith_o among_o those_o who_o eat_v and_o be_v satisfy_v and_o they_o shall_v praise_v the_o lord_n that_o seek_v he_o chap._n xliv_o the_o end_n and_o purpose_n of_o these_o his_o confession_n o_o lord_n since_o thou_o be_v eternal_o be_v thou_o ignorant_a o_o these_o thing_n i_o now_o say_v unto_o thou_o or_o see_v thou_o no_o till_o a_o certain_a time_n what_o be_v do_v in_o time_n why_o then_o have_v i_o order_v a_o narration_n of_o so_o many_o several_a matter_n unto_o thou_o sure_o not_o that_o thou_o shall_v learn_v such_o thing_n from_o i_o but_o only_o that_o i_o may_v the_o more_o excite_v my_o affection_n and_o love_n towards_o thou_o and_o they_o also_o who_o reaâ—_n these_o thing_n that_o we_o may_v all_o say_v together_o magnus_fw-la dominus_fw-la &_o lauâ—abilis_fw-la valde_fw-la great_a be_v the_o lord_n and_o great_o to_o be_v praise_v i_o have_v already_o say_v it_o and_o let_v i_o say_v it_o again_o out_o of_o my_o love_n of_o thy_o love_n to_o i_o it_o be_v that_o i_o do_v this_o as_o also_o we_o continue_v to_o pray_v nevertheless_o that_o the_o truth_n have_v say_v your_o heavenly_a father_n know_v what_o thing_n that_o have_v need_n of_o before_o you_o ask_v he_o 6.8_o mat._n 6.8_o we_o only_o publish_v the_o affection_n we_o have_v towards_o thou_o while_o we_o confess_v to_o theâ—_n our_o misery_n and_o thy_o mercy_n that_o thou_o may_v complete_v our_o freedom_n as_o thou_o have_v already_o begin_v it_o and_o that_o a_o length_n we_o may_v perfect_o cease_v to_o be_v miserable_a in_o ourselves_o and_o may_v arrive_v to_o beatitude_n in_o thou_o because_o thoâ—_n have_v gracious_o call_v we_o that_o we_o shall_v be_v poor_a in_o spirit_n and_o meek_a and_o mournful_a and_o hungry_a and_o thirsty_a after_o righteousness_n and_o merciful_a and_o pure_a in_o heart_n and_o peace_n maker_n see_v i_o have_v rehearse_v before_o thou_o a_o many_o thing_n such_o as_o i_o have_v ability_n and_o such_o as_o i_o have_v also_o a_o will_n to_o relate_v because_o thou_o first_o have_v so_o will_v that_o i_o shall_v confess_v unto_o thou_o 118.1_o psal_n 118.1_o the_o lord_n my_o god_n because_o that_o thou_o arâ—_n good_a and_o thy_o mercy_n endure_v for_o ever_o finis_fw-la