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about_o i_o for_o ever_o yet_o have_v thou_o bring_v up_o my_o life_n from_o corruption_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n jon._n 2._o 6._o and_o though_o after_o my_o skin_n worm_n destroy_v this_o body_n yet_o in_o my_o flesh_n shall_v i_o see_v god_n who_o i_o shall_v see_v for_o myself_o and_o my_o eye_n shall_v behold_v and_o not_o another_o though_o my_o reins_o be_v consume_v within_o i_o say_v job_n ch_n 19_o 26_o 27._o though_o the_o saint_n be_v descend_v to_o the_o depth_n of_o the_o sea_n and_o hide_v in_o the_o bowel_n of_o the_o earth_n and_o their_o body_n resolve_v into_o the_o far_a dust_n and_o that_o dust_n disperse_v to_o the_o four_o wind_n yet_o shall_v they_o be_v recover_v and_o rise_v again_o the_o sea_n shall_v not_o contain_v the_o dead_a that_o be_v in_o it_o nor_o the_o grave_n the_o dead_a that_o be_v in_o they_o their_o scatter_a atom_n shall_v be_v recollect_v and_o rear_v up_o again_o to_o a_o goodly_a body_n behold_v there_o shall_v be_v a_o shake_n and_o their_o 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decay_a house_n be_v take_v down_o to_o be_v build_v anew_o and_o these_o weak_a crazy_a body_n be_v lay_v in_o the_o earth_n to_o rise_v afresh_o this_o corruptible_a be_v corrupt_v that_o it_o may_v put_v on_o incorruption_n and_o this_o mortal_a die_v that_o it_o may_v put_v on_o immortality_n thus_o be_v this_o enemy_n overcome_v and_o make_v to_o serve_v as_o a_o mean_a and_o advantage_n to_o the_o believer_n happiness_n this_o indeed_o be_v a_o glorious_a victory_n over_o a_o very_a mighty_a and_o formidable_a enemy_n so_o great_a and_o wonderful_a that_o it_o far_o exceed_v the_o hope_n of_o nature_n flesh_n and_o blood_n can_v believe_v the_o report_n thereof_o paul_n discourse_n of_o the_o resurrection_n
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lord_n when_o shall_v the_o day_n dawn_n and_o the_o daystar_n arise_v in_o my_o heart_n when_o shall_v the_o dayspring_n from_o on_o high_a visit_v my_o soul_n to_o give_v light_n to_o he_o that_o sit_v in_o darkness_n and_o in_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n come_v lord_n jesus_n thou_o light_v of_o life_n come_v quick_o that_o which_o keep_v i_o a_o long_a time_n from_o resolve_v to_o give_v up_o my_o whole_a heart_n to_o god_n in_o covenant_n be_v a_o fear_n that_o i_o shall_v break_v my_o covenant_n and_o so_o double_a my_o sin_n but_o i_o perceive_v since_o that_o this_o be_v but_o satan_n policy_n to_o keep_v my_o heart_n from_o god_n and_o the_o true_a ground_n of_o my_o not_o do_v this_o be_v not_o conscienciousness_n of_o sin_n as_o satan_n once_o make_v i_o believe_v but_o a_o loathness_n to_o part_v with_o all_o sin_n and_o to_o serve_v god_n with_o all_o my_o heart_n a_o strong_a encouragement_n thou_o have_v o_o my_o soul_n to_o enter_v covenant_n with_o god_n to_o serve_v 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heart_n be_v not_o right_a with_o he_o neither_o be_v i_o steadfast_a in_o his_o covenant_n ps_n 78._o 36_o 37._o my_o unstedfastness_n in_o my_o covenant_n with_o the_o lord_n do_v arise_v as_o far_o as_o i_o perceive_v from_o these_o two_o ground_n 1._o my_o heart_n be_v not_o right_a with_o god_n when_o i_o make_v it_o there_o be_v not_o that_o inward_a cordial_a full_a resolution_n to_o part_v with_o all_o sin_n and_o that_o for_o ever_o from_o a_o antipathy_n to_o it_o and_o dislike_v of_o it_o neither_o that_o inward_a resolution_n of_o cleave_v to_o god_n to_o have_v he_o my_o all_o in_o all_o to_o take_v all_o my_o contentment_n and_o joy_n in_o he_o and_o to_o seek_v it_o in_o nothing_o else_o which_o shall_v have_v be_v 2._o i_o neglect_v my_o watch_n and_o do_v not_o as_o i_o shall_v renew_v my_o covenant_n often_o and_o engage_v my_o heart_n to_o walk_v with_o god_n and_o while_o i_o be_v slothful_a and_o negligent_a my_o heart_n be_v steal_v away_o by_o the_o devil_n and_o the_o world_n and_o be_v now_o in_o league_n again_o with_o sin_n lord_n make_v i_o upright_o and_o clear_v up_o to_o i_o my_o sincerity_n search_v i_o and_o try_v i_o and_o let_v i_o know_v the_o bottom_n of_o my_o heart_n keep_v i_o upon_o my_o watch_n and_o guard_n that_o i_o may_v keep_v my_o covenant_n jul._n 23._o the_o lord_n do_v awaken_v my_o conscience_n to_o such_o a_o sense_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o lose_v estate_n in_o the_o read_n and_o hear_v of_o his_o word_n that_o when_o i_o go_v to_o prayer_n i_o be_v before_o he_o as_o a_o lose_a creature_n be_v under_o wrath_n and_o the_o sentence_n of_o death_n lie_v in_o my_o blood_n and_o pollution_n now_o whereas_o before_o i_o find_v my_o heart_n carry_v out_o in_o beg_a sanctification_n i_o do_v now_o cry_v to_o god_n for_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n to_o wash_v away_o the_o guilt_n of_o my_o sin_n i_o do_v not_o before_o prize_v justify_v grace_n so_o as_o now_o in_o some_o weak_a measure_n i_o be_v make_v to_o do_v but_o i_o soon_o find_v a_o accurse_a hard_a heart_n in_o a_o little_a time_n i_o do_v not_o tremble_v at_o the_o wrath_n of_o god_n i_o have_v labour_v to_o work_v these_o conviction_n upon_o my_o heart_n but_o i_o find_v such_o a_o rove_a heart_n such_o a_o slighty_a heart_n so_o possess_v with_o vanity_n that_o nothing_o will_v abide_v with_o it_o lord_n unless_o thou_o save_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n i_o perish_v aug._n 6._o be_v sabbath_n day_n in_o meditation_n on_o 1_o joh._n 3._o 23._o this_o be_v his_o commandment_n that_o we_o shall_v believe_v on_o the_o name_n of_o his_o son_n jesus_n christ_n consider_v with_o myself_o what_o this_o do_v imply_v viz._n not_o only_o a_o rely_v upon_o god_n in_o christ_n for_o the_o remission_n of_o sin_n but_o for_o the_o pour_v out_o of_o the_o spirit_n joh._n 7._o 38_o 39_o which_o spirit_n when_o it_o be_v give_v will_v shed_v abroad_o the_o love_n of_o god_n in_o our_o heart_n rom._n 5._o 5._o and_o seal_v up_o the_o assurance_n of_o the_o 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the_o like_a evil_n act._n 15._o 9_o that_o faith_n which_o shall_v make_v christ_n a_o great_a reality_n and_o more_o precious_a to_o i_o than_o any_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n 1_o pet._n 2._o 7._o that_o faith_n which_o bring_v peace_n with_o god_n and_o joy_n in_o the_o holy_a ghost_n unspeakable_a and_o full_a of_o glory_n rom._n 5._o 1._o 1_o pet._n 1._o 8._o i_o find_v i_o have_v have_v a_o dead_a faith_n jam._n 2._o 17_o 20._o and_o presume_v upon_o god_n mercy_n in_o christ_n although_o i_o have_v be_v estrange_v from_o god_n in_o my_o heart_n and_o nature_n my_o rest_a in_o duty_n and_o trust_v in_o my_o own_o righteousness_n as_o far_o as_o i_o can_v see_v have_v be_v the_o deceit_n of_o my_o heart_n lord_n lay_v this_o conviction_n upon_o my_o conscience_n for_o i_o find_v my_o heart_n will_v put_v it_o off_o yea_o it_o have_v already_o desperate_o harden_v itself_o against_o thou_o i_o fear_v i_o shall_v outgrow_a this_o conviction_n of_o thy_o word_n as_o at_o other_o time_n i_o feel_v a_o careless_a spirit_n that_o will_v make_v light_n of_o eternity_n and_o of_o jesus_n christ_n lord_n break_v my_o heart_n under_o thy_o word_n for_o my_o unbelief_n and_o neglect_v of_o christ_n let_v i_o not_o heal_v myself_o but_o wait_v till_o thou_o shall_v heal_v i_o thou_o do_v help_v the_o unbelief_n of_o thy_o servant_n thomas_n oh_o that_o thou_o will_v help_v i_o also_o the_o lord_n have_v show_v i_o that_o i_o be_o dead_a in_o sin_n not_o only_o from_o the_o testimony_n of_o his_o word_n eph._n 2._o 1._o col._n 2._o 13._o but_o by_o inward_a experience_n for_o i_o feel_v myself_o alienate_v from_o the_o life_n of_o god_n cut_v off_o from_o communion_n with_o the_o lord_n jesus_n separate_v from_o god_n and_o his_o bless_a spirit_n my_o deceitful_a heart_n have_v often_o go_v about_o to_o repel_v this_o conviction_n and_o have_v cause_v i_o sometime_o to_o mistake_v a_o life_n of_o morality_n for_o spiritual_a life_n and_o at_o other_o time_n a_o life_n of_o formality_n but_o now_o i_o find_v the_o scripture_n speak_v of_o dead_a work_n and_o call_v for_o repentance_n from_o they_o heb._n 6._o 1._o and_o purge_v our_o conscience_n from_o they_o heb._n 9_o 14._o by_o dead_a work_n i_o understand_v not_o only_o the_o gross_a pollution_n of_o the_o world_n but_o all_o work_n whatever_o that_o be_v do_v by_o a_o man_n void_a of_o the_o quicken_a spirit_n of_o god_n without_o union_n to_o christ_n there_o be_v no_o spiritual_a life_n for_o as_o the_o natural_a life_n result_v from_o the_o union_n of_o the_o soul_n with_o the_o body_n and_o the_o state_n of_o death_n be_v nothing_o but_o the_o
but_o of_o god_n joh._n 1._o 13._o and_o that_o god_n give_v power_n to_o the_o faint_a and_o strength_n to_o they_o that_o have_v no_o might_n in_o a_o way_n of_o wait_a isa_n 40._o 29_o 31._o i_o see_v from_o these_o consideration_n further_a ground_n of_o hope_n and_o wait_v upon_o god_n notwithstanding_o i_o find_v my_o strength_n perish_v from_o i_o neither_o shall_v the_o guilt_n of_o my_o sin_n discourage_v i_o from_o wait_v on_o god_n from_o expect_v of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n from_o go_v to_o christ_n the_o whole_a need_v not_o a_o physician_n christ_n deal_v with_o sinner_n mar._n 2._o 17._o he_o have_v say_v he_o will_v in_o no_o wise_a cast_v out_o they_o that_o come_v to_z him_z joh._n 6._o 37._o why_o do_v he_o shed_v his_o blood_n to_o wash_v away_o our_o sin_n how_o be_v he_o the_o lamb_n of_o god_n that_o take_v away_o the_o sin_n of_o the_o world_n if_o he_o shall_v cast_v off_o guilty_a soul_n when_o they_o come_v unto_o he_o be_v there_o not_o a_o fountain_n open_v for_o sin_n and_o for_o uncleanness_n to_o wash_v in_o zach._n 13._o 1._o what_o though_o i_o be_v in_o my_o blood_n yet_o if_o i_o go_v to_o christ_n he_o will_v not_o loathe_v i_o ezek._n 16._o 6_o 8._o but_o will_v sprinkle_v clean_a water_n upon_o i_o and_o wash_v i_o from_o my_o filthiness_n ezek._n 36._o 25._o when_o therefore_o i_o find_v guilt_n upon_o i_o i_o will_v look_v to_o jesus_n christ_n in_o such_o promise_n as_o these_o isa_n 1._o 18._o 43._o 25_o 26._o 44._o 21_o 22._o i_o will_v cry_v unto_o he_o that_o i_o may_v have_v the_o pardon_n of_o my_o sin_n seal_v up_o to_o my_o soul_n in_o these_o promise_n by_o his_o holy_a spirit_n neither_o shall_v my_o rebellious_a heart_n the_o perverseness_n and_o corruption_n of_o my_o nature_n discourage_v i_o but_o i_o will_v with_o david_n beg_v a_o new_a heart_n and_o a_o right_a spirit_n ps_n 51._o 10._o i_o will_v say_v as_o ephraim_n jer._n 31._o 18._o turn_v thou_o i_o and_o i_o shall_v be_v turn_v god_n have_v send_v christ_n to_o bless_v we_o in_o turn_v we_o from_o our_o iniquity_n act._n 3._o 26._o and_o to_o destroy_v what_o satan_n have_v wrought_v in_o we_o 1._o joh._n 3._o 8._o therefore_o when_o i_o feel_v sin_n prevail_v and_o lead_v i_o captive_a i_o will_v with_o paul_n cry_v out_o of_o this_o body_n of_o death_n rom._n 7._o 24._o and_o go_v to_o god_n in_o jesus_n christ_n through_o such_o promise_n as_o these_o mic._n 7._o 18_o 19_o rom._n 6._o 14._o math._n 11._o 28._o isa_n 45._o 22._o jer._n 31._o 33._o ezek._n 36._o 26._o when_o i_o feel_v myself_o graceless_a i_o will_v look_v to_o he_o who_o be_v full_a of_o grace_n joh._n 1._o 14._o 16._o and_o have_v promise_v to_o give_v grace_n ps_n 84._o 11_o even_o a_o heart_n to_o love_v he_o deut._n 30._o 6._o and_o to_o put_v his_o fear_n into_o we_o jer._n 32._o 40._o and_o to_o withhold_v no_o good_a thing_n if_o we_o endeavour_v to_o walk_v upright_o before_o he_o ps_n 84._o 11._o when_o i_o find_v the_o plague_n of_o a_o hard_a dead_a heart_n upon_o i_o i_o will_v look_v unto_o the_o lord_n who_o quicken_v the_o dead_a rom._n 4._o 17._o and_o can_v raise_v child_n to_o abraham_n out_o of_o stone_n math._n 3._o 9_o i_o will_v look_v unto_o he_o in_o his_o covenant_n promise_v to_o take_v away_o the_o heart_n of_o stone_n and_o to_o give_v a_o heart_n of_o flesh_n ezek._n 36._o 26._o in_o time_n of_o desertion_n when_o god_n withdraw_v the_o comfortable_a influence_n of_o his_o presence_n i_o will_v not_o be_v discourage_v but_o i_o will_v search_v my_o heart_n and_o try_v my_o way_n and_o see_v what_o cause_n i_o have_v give_v the_o lord_n to_o depart_v from_o i_o lam._n 3._o 40._o josh_n 7._o 11._o 12_o 13._o isa_n 59_o 2._o i_o will_v earnest_o seek_v the_o lord_n that_o he_o will_v return_v and_o shine_v upon_o i_o and_o lift_v up_o the_o light_n of_o his_o countenance_n upon_o my_o soul_n ps_n 80._o 3._o 89._o 46._o hos_fw-la 5._o 15._o i_o will_v not_o only_o pray_v but_o wait_v for_o his_o return_n ps_n 130._o 5_o 6._o isa_n 8._o 17._o lam._n 3._o 2_o 3._o etc._n etc._n with_o 26._o and_o in_o wait_v i_o will_v look_v unto_o the_o lord_n in_o these_o or_o like_a promise_n ps_n 103._o 8_o 9_o isa_n 54._o 6_o 7_o 8._o 57_o 16_o 17_o 18._o lam._n 3._o 31_o 32._o hos_fw-la 6._o 1_o 2_o 3._o joh._n 14._o 18._o when_o i_o have_v neglect_v my_o watch_n and_o fall_v and_o be_v unsteadfast_a in_o covenant_n with_o god_n i_o will_v not_o despair_v but_o look_v to_o god_n in_o christ_n that_o he_o will_v pardon_v my_o sin_n grant_v i_o repentance_n and_o restore_v i_o the_o covenant_n of_o grace_n admit_v of_o repentance_n after_o sin_n levit._n 26._o 21._o 40._o 41_o 42._o yea_o god_n have_v exalt_v christ_n to_o give_v repentance_n act._n 5._o 31._o have_v promise_v to_o heal_v backslide_n hos_fw-la 14._o 4._o invite_v backslider_n to_o return_v jer._n 3._o 1_o 12_o 13_o 14._o how_o do_v david_n behave_v himself_o when_o iniquity_n prevail_v over_o he_o he_o go_v to_o god_n to_o purge_v away_o 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in_o god_n through_o he_o for_o pardon_v mercy_n and_o renew_v grace_n and_o all_o other_o good_a thing_n dec._n 16._o i_o find_v the_o lord_n gracious_o present_a with_o i_o in_o my_o morning_n meditation_n on_o my_o bed_n and_o my_o soul_n be_v much_o refresh_v with_o mr._n simond_n sermon_n god_n speak_v a_o suitable_a word_n by_o he_o to_o my_o soul_n from_o mat._n 15._o 23._o but_o he_o answer_v she_o not_o a_o word_n god_n may_v sometime_o defer_v to_o give_v a_o answer_n to_o a_o gracious_a and_o well_o qualify_v prayer_n 1._o to_o correct_v our_o
to_o want_v nor_o how_o to_o abound_v apt_a to_o murmur_v and_o repine_v in_o strait_o and_o to_o be_v lift_v up_o and_o grow_v secure_a in_o enlargement_n o_o lord_n in_o every_o condition_n i_o need_v thy_o grace_n to_o teach_v i_o how_o to_o behave_v myself_o o_o show_v i_o thy_o way_n and_o lead_v i_o therein_o for_o thy_o namesake_n also_o the_o lord_n teach_v i_o hence_o that_o i_o ought_v to_o be_v patient_a under_o his_o hand_n when_o he_o hide_v his_o face_n and_o to_o resign_v up_o my_o will_n to_o his_o will_n inasmuch_o as_o i_o do_v not_o know_v what_o be_v good_a for_o myself_o the_o lord_n see_v i_o shall_v be_v worse_o it_o may_v be_v if_o i_o enjoy_v more_o than_o i_o do_v and_o therefore_o in_o wisdom_n and_o mercy_n he_o keep_v i_o in_o a_o low_a condition_n my_o confusion_n sometime_o have_v be_v so_o great_a that_o i_o have_v be_v so_o unsettle_a and_o at_o such_o a_o loss_n in_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v all_o former_a work_n have_v be_v question_v and_o judge_v as_o nothing_o in_o the_o hour_n of_o such_o temptation_n the_o lord_n teach_v i_o beside_o prayer_n and_o search_v into_o my_o soul_n to_o have_v recourse_n to_o former_a experience_n psal_n 77._o 10_o 11._o and_o psal_n 85._o octob._n 11._o in_o the_o morning_n i_o bewail_v it_o before_o god_n that_o i_o be_v still_o at_o a_o loss_n to_o know_v whether_o i_o love_v he_o and_o after_o prayer_n i_o read_v 1_o joh._n 2_o ch_n and_o i_o be_v make_v in_o a_o more_o special_a manner_n to_o take_v notice_n of_o v_o 5._o whoso_o keep_v his_o word_n in_o he_o very_o be_v the_o love_n of_o god_n perfect_v methinks_v i_o see_v god_n answer_v my_o prayer_n and_o tell_v i_o out_o of_o this_o word_n that_o i_o love_v he_o in_o he_o very_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d it_o be_v a_o sure_a sign_n of_o love_n to_o god_n we_o need_v not_o doubt_v of_o it_o if_o we_o keep_v his_o word_n now_o if_o i_o know_v my_o own_o heart_n i_o desire_v to_o do_v so_o if_o the_o love_n of_o god_n be_v perfect_v in_o he_o that_o keep_v his_o word_n then_o sure_o it_o be_v begin_v in_o he_o that_o desire_v and_o endeavour_n to_o keep_v his_o word_n jan._n 25._o the_o lord_n help_v i_o with_o tear_n to_o bewall_n my_o abomination_n even_o my_o original_a and_o actual_a sin_n my_o formality_n earthliness_n alienation_n from_o he_o etc._n etc._n therein_o he_o do_v remember_v and_o fulfil_v that_o gracious_a promise_n ezek._n 36._o 31._o i_o find_v godly_a sorrow_n sweet_a not_o only_o in_o the_o root_n and_o fountain_n thereof_o it_o be_v a_o covenant_n blessing_n but_o in_o the_o very_a act_n of_o it_o feb._n 2._o in_o the_o evening_n upon_o my_o bed_n the_o lord_n do_v gracious_o melt_v my_o heart_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o sin_n under_o this_o consideration_n that_o it_o be_v against_o infinite_a love_n i_o be_v ashamed_a confound_v and_o abash_v because_o i_o have_v so_o long_o slight_v neglect_v rebel_v against_o a_o god_n of_o love_n my_o soul_n even_o tremble_v at_o 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a_o evident_a answer_n of_o prayer_n and_o a_o fulfil_n of_o that_o promise_n prov._n 28._o 27._o he_o that_o give_v unto_o the_o poor_a shall_v not_o lack_v april_n 24._o be_v desire_v to_o go_v to_o a_o poor_a christian_a i_o promise_v to_o go_v there_o be_v only_o two_o maid_n in_o the_o house_n i_o consider_v whether_o it_o may_v not_o prove_v some_o scandal_n to_o go_v but_o consider_v also_o she_o be_v a_o member_n of_o christ_n and_o therefore_o i_o ought_v to_o administer_v to_o her_o soul_n i_o resolve_v to_o commit_v the_o take_a care_n of_o my_o name_n to_o the_o lord_n and_o to_o do_v my_o duty_n i_o beg_v of_o he_o that_o he_o will_v secure_v i_o from_o reproach_n and_o as_o i_o go_v a_o honest_a poor_a man_n meet_v i_o to_o who_o i_o tell_v whither_o i_o be_v go_v and_o ask_v he_o to_o go_v along_o with_o i_o he_o be_v willing_a and_o do_v so_o i_o look_v upon_o he_o as_o send_v by_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n in_o answer_n to_o my_o prayer_n these_o be_v some_o of_o 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my_o spirit_n but_o if_o i_o have_v eye_v and_o follow_v after_o god_n he_o have_v take_v it_o off_o by_o some_o word_n of_o promise_n 2._o the_o observe_v and_o ponder_v of_o every_o word_n and_o circumstance_n in_o a_o promise_n be_v of_o great_a use_n as_o it_o have_v be_v to_o i_o 3._o god_n open_v his_o promise_n gradual_o sometime_o hint_v and_o discover_v one_o thing_n and_o then_o another_o in_o the_o promise_n be_v foil_v by_o sin_n i_o be_v raise_v to_o my_o former_a hope_n and_o affiance_n in_o god_n by_o phil_n children_n of_o god_n till_o the_o come_n of_o christ_n be_v another_o time_n foil_v with_o the_o same_o corruption_n and_o my_o heart_n sink_v in_o a_o despondent_a frame_n i_o be_v much_o revive_v from_o jam._n 4._o 5._o 6._o he_o give_v more_o grace_n where_o i_o see_v that_o even_o our_o strong_a sin_n such_o as_o our_o corrupt_a nature_n be_v most_o prone_a to_o and_o be_v deep_o root_v in_o our_o heart_n and_o spirit_n be_v conquerable_a by_o god_n grace_n be_v 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do_v it_o which_o give_v i_o abundant_a refreshment_n and_o do_v marvellous_o strengthen_v my_o hope_n in_o god_n this_o be_v give_v i_o in_o when_o i_o have_v set_v apart_o some_o time_n to_o humble_v my_o soul_n apr._n 5._o 1665._o i_o set_v apart_o that_o day_n for_o fast_v and_o prayer_n on_o behalf_n of_o my_o daughter_n elinor_n that_o have_v be_v so_o long_o sick_a and_o in_o the_o evening_n have_v my_o faith_n revive_v from_o isa_n 44._o 3_o i_o will_v pour_v my_o spirit_n upon_o thy_o seed_n apr._n 7._o i_o begin_v the_o day_n with_o discourse_n with_o some_o friend_n before_o i_o have_v be_v at_o my_o private_a communion_n with_o god_n i_o meet_v with_o a_o gentle_a rebuke_n from_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n in_o my_o family_n affair_n and_o my_o heart_n be_v flat_a in_o family_n duty_n and_o straighten_a in_o private_a i_o take_v this_o as_o a_o item_n to_o begin_v with_o god_n before_o i_o converse_v with_o man_n in_o the_o evening_n god_n come_v in_o gracious_o to_o i_o in_o my_o family_n exercise_n apr._n 9_o lord_n day_n i_o be_v much_o discompose_v in_o my_o spirit_n in_o the_o morning_n by_o reason_n of_o a_o foil_n sin_n have_v give_v i_o the_o evening_n before_o satan_n will_v have_v boat_n i_o off_o from_o preach_v in_o my_o family_n but_o i_o perform_v my_o morning_n exercise_n and_o continue_v deject_v till_o the_o evening_n and_o then_o in_o family_n prayer_n god_n gracious_o revive_v i_o with_o that_o promise_n hos_fw-la 11._o 10._o they_o shall_v walk_v after_o the_o lord_n in_o connexion_n with_o vers_fw-la 7._o my_o people_n be_v bend_v to_o backslide_v though_o they_o call_v they_o to_o the_o most_o high_a none_o at_o all_o will_v exalt_v he_o where_o two_o thing_n be_v a_o great_a relief_n to_o my_o faith_n 1._o god_n promise_v they_o shall_v walk_v after_o he_o notwithstanding_o their_o habitual_a proness_n to_o backslide_v from_o god_n 2._o notwithstanding_o their_o refuse_v to_o exalt_v the_o lord_n though_o call_v to_o it_o yet_o 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as_o frowardness_n etc._n etc._n may_v make_v i_o fearful_a of_o its_o estate_n it_o be_v bring_v to_o my_o mind_n that_o the_o covenant_n be_v to_o give_v pardon_n of_o sin_n heb._n 8._o 10_o 12._o and_o whereas_o faith_n and_o regeneration_n be_v necessary_a to_o salvation_n i_o consider_v further_a that_o the_o covenant_n be_v to_o give_v all_o thing_n necessary_a to_o salvation_n 2_o sam._n 23._o 5._o this_o be_v all_o my_o salvation_n beside_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o covenant_n god_n give_v i_o other_o encouragement_n to_o hope_v in_o reference_n to_o my_o child_n as_o from_o math._n 19_o 14
sufficient_a to_o resist_v and_o overcome_v my_o sin_n yet_o god_n grace_n be_v sufficient_a paul_n be_v insufficient_a to_o any_o good_a of_o himself_o as_o i_o be_o 2_o cor._n 3._o 5._o he_o have_v a_o body_n of_o sin_n and_o death_n as_o well_o as_o i_o rom._n 7._o 23._o 24._o and_o satan_n assault_v he_o here_o as_o well_o as_o i_o and_o therefore_o if_o god_n grace_n be_v sufficient_a for_o paul_n why_o not_o for_o i_o also_o what_o god_n speak_v to_o paul_n i_o apply_v as_o speak_v to_o i_o according_a to_o math._n 22._o 31_o 32._o christ_n say_v what_o be_v speak_v by_o god_n to_o moses_n be_v speak_v to_o they_o though_o many_o hundred_o year_n after_o moses_n dec._n 10._o i_o have_v about_o a_o month_n before_o make_v though_o not_o a_o formal_a explicit_a vow_n yet_o a_o kind_n of_o mental_a implicit_a vow_n which_o i_o break_v and_o be_v under_o the_o sense_n of_o guilt_n be_v revive_v by_o read_v a_o passage_n concern_v david_n in_o mr._n harris_n his_o work_n p._n 490._o 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