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rejoice_v in_o the_o habitable_a part_n of_o his_o earth_n and_o his_o delight_n with_o the_o son_n of_o man_n prov._n 8.31_o this_o may_v be_v more_o at_o large_a evidence_v from_o scripture_n 3._o i_o must_v as_o i_o have_v have_v too_o sad_a a_o cause_n put_v in_o this_o much_o that_o as_o christian_a liberty_n in_o other_o thing_n through_o satan_n policy_n be_v abuse_v too_o too_o much_o for_o a_o occasion_n to_o the_o gratify_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o vanity_n of_o heart_n which_o shall_v not_o be_v gal._n 5.13_o so_o in_o this_o which_o i_o account_v if_o it_o be_v bring_v to_o the_o face_n vain_a laughter_n which_o i_o shall_v describe_v in_o brief_a and_o then_o leave_v to_o spiritual_a judgement_n there_o be_v such_o a_o frame_n of_o heart_n in_o many_o precious_a saint_n as_o this_o viz._n ascertain_v sudden_a indeliberate_a and_o rash_a leap_v of_o heart_n careless_o blind_o and_o unadvised_o transport_v with_o fleshly_a apprehension_n of_o some_o sensual_a ridiculousness_n in_o somewhat_o though_o never_o so_o spiritual_a without_o the_o soul_n a_o unreasonable_a jocundness_n a_o shameful_a discovery_n of_o the_o heart_n nakedness_n and_o inconsiderable_a jovialty_n a_o carnal_a unaccountable_a tripudiation_n in_o case_n never_o so_o serious_a yea_o sometime_o when_o most_o serious_a a_o delightful_a frenzy_n a_o irregular_a itch_a of_o the_o laugh_a faculty_n alas_o i_o can_v but_o say_v i_o have_v sound_v my_o own_o heart_n sometime_o like_o a_o feather_n follow_v the_o puff_n of_o any_o ridiculous_a object_n up_o and_o down_o according_a to_o the_o less_o or_o great_a impression_n which_o any_o vain_a foolish_a matter_n make_v upon_o my_o sense_n i_o have_v occasion_n to_o cry_v out_o june_n 18._o o_o the_o filthy_a emptiness_n of_o my_o weak_a heart_n arise_v from_o those_o trouble_a steam_n within_o i_o this_o i_o can_v then_o count_v nothing_o but_o a_o fuzze_n of_o vanity_n a_o bubble_n of_o corruption_n a_o carnal_a dance_n of_o the_o careless_a son_n the_o bane_n of_o reason_n and_o poison_n of_o religion_n carnality_n therefore_o and_o vanity_n be_v the_o formal_a constitutives_n of_o this_o distemper_n vanity_n i_o say_v and_o lightness_n in_o a_o untameable_a predominancy_n the_o internal_a cause_n of_o it_o be_v the_o looseness_n and_o rottenness_n of_o such_o a_o soul_n as_o be_v void_a of_o the_o actual_a exercise_n or_o power_n of_o reason_n discretion_n and_o judgement_n but_o it_o be_v promote_v cherish_v and_o enlarge_v from_o some_o particular_a circumstance_n in_o the_o object_n ab_fw-la extra_fw-la let_v into_o the_o unsettle_a mind_n and_o indispose_a heart_n by_o the_o quick_a convoy_n of_o the_o brutish_a sense_n which_o cause_v this_o lightness_n i_o speak_v of_o or_o a_o unaccountable_a or_o overpowerful_a frame_n of_o laugh_v upon_o the_o presentation_n of_o the_o imagination_n or_o understanding_n either_o of_o a_o very_a serious_a thing_n grace_n or_o carriage_n of_o a_o person_n 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distemper_n be_v satan_n who_o perceive_v the_o heart_n loose_v at_o the_o bottom_n easy_o dispose_v to_o lightness_n of_o spirit_n make_v it_o more_o vain_a and_o cause_v other_o object_n to_o take_v 5._o as_o the_o cause_n of_o this_o distemper_n be_v very_o bad_a because_o corruptio_fw-la optimi_fw-la est_fw-la pessima_fw-la so_o the_o effect_n be_v and_o proportionable_o worse_a take_v it_o thus_o in_o the_o lump_n it_o be_v scandalous_a and_o a_o temptation_n to_o other_o it_o make_v one_o uncredible_a as_o to_o any_o spiritual_a thing_n do_v or_o urge_v by_o one_o in_o such_o a_o frame_n yea_o it_o render_v a_o more_o serious_a mood_n suspicious_a upon_o the_o same_o account_n it_o grieve_v true_a saint_n and_o delight_v the_o devil_n in_o respect_n of_o one_o self_n it_o cause_v according_o as_o it_o be_v more_o prevalent_a a_o general_a indisposition_n to_o all_o act_n of_o religion_n and_o sense_n of_o god_n it_o deprive_v a_o man_n of_o all_o spiritual_a communion_n either_o 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and_o all_o spiritual_a thing_n because_o it_o be_v the_o fruit_n of_o the_o spirit_n gal._n 5.22_o this_o do_v as_o it_o be_v oil_n the_o chariot-wheel_n of_o the_o soul_n dispose_v it_o better_o to_o communion_n with_o god_n and_o all_o spiritual_a activity_n yea_o see_v it_o arise_v from_o some_o love_n of_o god_n and_o christ_n in_o he_o dart_v into_o the_o soul_n it_o fit_v the_o soul_n more_o for_o christ_n and_o inflame_v it_o towards_o he_o by_o this_o the_o apprehension_n of_o god_n be_v not_o extinguish_v but_o sweeten_v not_o diminish_v but_o rather_o enlarge_v whereas_o è_fw-la contra_fw-la the_o frame_n before_o mention_v dim_v the_o light_n of_o grace_n which_o by_o the_o spirit_n have_v be_v sow_o in_o the_o soul_n it_o quench_v the_o spirit_n of_o divine_a union_n and_o so_o estrange_n the_o soul_n from_o god_n it_o set_v the_o door_n open_a to_o backslide_v and_o profaneness_n of_o heart_n and_o we_o see_v it_o be_v the_o nurse_n of_o profaneness_n in_o our_o 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sin_n see_v partic._n 3d._n above_o three_o
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indictment_n write_v with_o blood_n on_o my_o heart_n the_o pride_n sensuality_n and_o the_o earthliness_n of_o which_o i_o be_o charge_v with_o i_o be_o not_o able_a to_o deny_v one_o tittle_n oh_o for_o a_o mountain_n to_o cover_v i_o oh_o whither_o shall_v i_o go_v whither_o shall_v i_o fly_v that_o bed_n these_o curtain_n this_o closet_n can_v hide_v i_o my_o mother_n father_n wife_n or_o child_n can_v help_v i_o o_o who_o then_o shall_v i_o run_v whither_o i_o know_v not_o vengeance_n will_v find_v i_o out_o where_o ever_o i_o go_v oh_o curse_a and_o subtle_a satan_n be_v all_o thy_o fair_a promise_n and_o enticement_n come_v to_o this_o o_o my_o wicked_a curse_a foolish_a heart_n that_o ever_o i_o shall_v believe_v he_o before_o my_o creator_n that_o tell_v i_o the_o day_n i_o sin_v i_o shall_v sure_o die_v oh_o that_o for_o a_o little_a simple_a transient_a pleasure_n i_o shall_v so_o mad_o hazard_v my_o eternal_a life_n and_o now_o i_o must_v be_v cast_v to_o hell_n to_o bear_v the_o punishment_n of_o my_o folly_n think_v once_o again_o think_v that_o this_o be_v the_o day_n and_o this_o the_o very_a place_n in_o which_o god_n shall_v come_v and_o sit_v in_o judgement_n on_o thou_o methinks_v i_o see_v the_o heaven_n bow_v themselves_o oh_o what_o a_o crackle_n do_v i_o hear_v in_o the_o cloud_n look_v yonder_o see_v who_o come_v it_o be_v my_o judge_n his_o countenance_n be_v as_o a_o flame_n of_o fire_n he_o utter_v his_o voice_n like_o thunder_n the_o mountain_n skip_v or_o rather_o shake_v or_o rather_o tremble_v now_o now_o be_v the_o time_n of_o my_o utter_a destruction_n near_o at_o hand_n oh_o how_o shall_v i_o look_v he_o in_o the_o face_n his_o look_n do_v already_o affright_v i_o i_o shall_v not_o say_v one_o word_n and_o i_o have_v not_o one_o friend_n that_o will_v say_v one_o word_n for_o i_o it_o be_v true_a i_o see_v a_o terrible_a glorious_a troop_n of_o angel_n that_o do_v attend_v he_o but_o they_o be_v all_o his_o friend_n and_o therefore_o all_o my_o enemy_n i_o dare_v not_o speak_v a_o word_n to_o they_o and_o alas_o if_o i_o shall_v they_o be_v all_o but_o his_o servant_n and_o fellow-creature_n with_o myself_o alas_o they_o can_v yea_o they_o will_v not_o help_v i_o it_o be_v true_a there_o be_v one_o that_o one_o that_o seem_v as_o one_o with_o god_n the_o beam_n of_o who_o countenance_n be_v far_o bright_a than_o all_o the_o host_n of_o heaven_n beside_o if_o god_n have_v a_o son_n it_o may_v be_v it_o be_v he_o methinks_v he_o be_v a_o mirror_n of_o his_o father_n glory_n but_o this_o i_o know_v not_o be_v what_o he_o will_v he_o can_v pity_v i_o a_o sinner_n the_o door_n of_o hope_n be_v all_o shut_v up_o and_o now_o as_o a_o miserable_a wretch_n i_o must_v prepare_v to_o hear_v my_o sentence_n the_o judge_n be_v set_v and_o with_o tremble_a heart_n and_o joint_n i_o stand_v a_o prisoner_n at_o the_o bar_n for_o my_o life_n and_o now_o i_o must_v attend_v his_o call_n god_n speak_v sinner_n where_o 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