prayer_n let_v my_o soul_n never_o faint_v under_o thy_o discipline_n nor_o grow-weary_a in_o confess_v thy_o mercy_n unto_o thou_o by_o which_o thou_o have_v draw_v i_o out_o of_o all_o my_o wicked_a way_n that_o thou_o thyself_o may_v become_v delicious_a unto_o i_o above_o all_o those_o charm_a seducement_n which_o i_o have_v heretofore_o pursue_v and_o that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o entire_o and_o kiss_v thy_o deliver_v hand_n with_o all_o the_o bowel_n of_o my_o affection_n that_o thou_o may_v yet_o rescue_v i_o out_o of_o all_o temptation_n even_o to_o the_o end_n for_o behold_v o_o lord_n my_o king_n may_v it_o now_o be_v for_o thy_o service_n whatever_o useful_a thing_n my_o childhood_n have_v learn_v may_v it_o be_v for_o thy_o service_n that_o i_o speak_v write_v read_v account_n because_o in_o my_o learning_n vain_a thing_n thou_o do_v not_o cease_v to_o discipline_n i_o and_o after_o my_o delight_v in_o those_o vanity_n thou_o have_v forgive_v i_o my_o sin_n for_o i_o 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and_o vanity_n and_o be_v there_o then_o no_o other_o better_a thing_n wherein_o to_o have_v exercise_v our_o wit_n and_o eloquence_n even_o thy_o praise_n o_o lord_n thy_o praise_n in_o thy_o more_o holy_a writing_n these_o may_v have_v be_v a_o divine_a subject_n for_o the_o tender_a branch_n of_o my_o spread_a fancy_n to_o have_v clasp_v about_o and_o depend_v upon_o without_z *_o be_v trail_v on_o the_o ground_n among_o such_o empty_a trifle_n and_o *_o have_v its_o fruit_n make_v a_o filthy_a prey_n to_o those_o ravenous_a spiritual_a fowl_n of_o the_o air_n for_o many_o way_n there_o be_v whereby_o the_o precious_a fruit_n of_o our_o youth_n become_v a_o sacrifice_n to_o those_o unclean_a spirit_n chap._n xviii_o misguide_v by_o vicious_a example_n and_o more_o ashamed_a of_o the_o breach_n of_o grammar-rule_n than_o of_o god_n law_n but_o what_o wonder_n be_v it_o if_o i_o be_v thus_o carry_v away_o through_o vanity_n and_o go_v out_o from_o thy_o presence_n 4.16_o gen._n 4.16_o o_o my_o god_n when_o such_o man_n only_o be_v propose_v to_o my_o imitation_n who_o if_o they_o shall_v relate_v any_o of_o their_o action_n though_o not_o ill_a with_o any_o barbarism_n or_o solecism_n be_v censure_v for_o it_o be_v abash_v and_o confound_v but_o if_o they_o shall_v in_o a_o round_a and_o well-cohering_a stile_n fluent_o and_o neat_o express_v though_o one_o of_o their_o culpable_a lust_n be_v applaud_v for_o this_o become_v exalt_v with_o pride_n this_o thou_o see_v o_o lord_n and_o hold_v thy_o peace_n long-suffering_a and_o abundant_a in_o goodness_n and_o truth_n and_o will_v thou_o always_o hold_v thy_o peace_n no_o but_o thou_o draw_v out_o of_o this_o swallow_a deep_a the_o soul_n that_o seek_v after_o thou_o and_o thirst_v after_o thy_o chaste_a delight_n and_o who_o heart_n say_v unto_o thou_o i_o have_v seek_v thy_o face_n and_o lord_n thy_o face_n will_v i_o seek_v but_o 1.21_o ps_n 27.9_o vulg._n rom._n 1.21_o i_o then_o be_v depart_v far_o away_o from_o 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baptism_n chap._n iii_o verecundus_n a_o citizen_n of_o milan_n offer_v his_o countryhouse_n for_o their_o retirement_n the_o death_n of_o verecundus_n and_o of_o nebridius_fw-la not_o long_a after_o s._n augustine_n conversion_n be_v both_o first_o make_v christian_n 6._o christian_n see_v l._n 8._o cap._n 6._o verecundus_n be_v much_o afflict_v concern_v this_o our_o purpose_n because_o thus_o he_o see_v himself_o by_o reason_n of_o the_o many_o bond_n wherewith_o he_o be_v most_o strait_o tie_v deprive_v of_o our_o society_n himself_o not_o yet_o a_o christian_a though_o his_o wife_n a_o baptize_v professor_n of_o the_o faith_n and_o yet_o be_v he_o *_o retard_v by_o she_o as_o one_o of_o his_o straight_a fetter_n from_o follow_v our_o intend_a course_n *_o and_o do_v deny_v to_o become_v a_o christian_a upon_o any_o other_o term_n than_o these_o he_o can_v not_o perform_v true_o he_o very_o courteous_o offer_v and_o lend_v we_o for_o the_o time_n of_o our_o abode_n in_o that_o 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from_o the_o tumult_n of_o the_o world_n we_o quiet_o repose_v in_o thou_o i._o psal_n 68.15_o 16._o vulg._n in_o in_o monte_fw-fr incascato_fw-la monte_fw-fr tuo_fw-la monte_fw-fr ube_fw-mi i._o the_o amenity_n of_o thy_o eternally-green_a and_o flourish_a paradise_n because_o thou_o have_v remit_v unto_o he_o his_o sin_n here_o on_o earth_n in_o the_o mountain_n of_o fat_a pasture_n the_o hill_n of_o god_n that_o fruitful_a hill_n thus_o be_v verecundus_n afflict_v but_o nebridius_fw-la as_o much_o joy_v for_o although_o he_o not_o as_o yet_o a_o christian_a have_v former_o fall_v into_o the_o pit_n of_o that_o most_o pernicious_a error_n to_o believe_v the_o flesh_n of_o thy_o son_n only_o a_o empty_a apparition_n yet_o now_o reclaim_v from_o it_o he_o be_v a_o most_o earnest_a inq_fw-fr isitor_n of_o truth_n though_o not_o as_o yet_o initiate_v in_o any_o sacrament_n of_o thy_o church_n who_o become_v also_o not_o long_o after_o our_o conversion_n and_o regeneration_n by_o thy_o 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satisfaction_n to_o i_o so_o long_o as_o remain_v thy_o subject_n and_o also_o have_v subject_v unto_o i_o these_o thing_n which_o thou_o have_v create_v below_o i_o and_o this_o be_v the_o right_a temper_n and_o the_o middle_a region_n of_o my_o felicity_n and_o safety_n *_o to_o remain_v as_o i_o be_v create_v according_a to_o this_o thy_o image_n and_o serve_v thou_o *_o to_o rule_v oâ—re_o these_o body_n but_o when_o i_o will_v by_o my_o pride_n rise_v up_o against_o thou_o and_o with_o the_o buckler_n of_o a_o stiff_a neck_n make_v head_n against_o my_o lord_n and_o master_n even_o these_o low_a thing_n be_v make_v above_o i_o and_o press_v i_o down_o and_o there_o be_v no_o relaxation_n no_o take_v breath_n under_o they_o but_o when_o i_o offer_v to_o return_v into_o myself_o and_o unto_o thou_o the_o body_n themselves_o rush_v by_o troop_n unto_o my_o eye_n and_o the_o image_n of_o body_n unto_o my_o fancy_n on_o every_o side_n waylay_v and_o oppose_v i_o as_o if_o they_o have_v 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experience_n discover_v it_o vulgar_a â—ob_v 8.1_o vulgar_a and_o no_o man_n may_v be_v secure_a in_o this_o life_n which_o be_v whole_o call_v a_o temptation_n that_o as_o he_o may_v have_v be_v make_v of_o worse_a better_a so_o he_o may_v not_o become_v from_o better_a worse_a the_o only_a hope_n the_o only_a confidence_n the_o only_a secure_a promise_n to_o rely_v on_o be_v thy_o mercy_n o_o lord_n chap._n xxxiii_o 4._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o ear_n in_o music_n where_o whether_o music_n be_v useful_a in_o church_n the_o pleasure_n of_o the_o ear_n have_v more_o strong_o ensnare_v and_o captive_v i_o but_o thou_o have_v dissolve_v these_o bond_n and_o have_v set_v i_o at_o liberty_n i_o confess_v i_o do_v now_o still_o a_o little_a repose_n and_o acquiesse_n in_o the_o melody_n of_o those_o sound_n which_o be_v animate_v with_o thy_o sacred_a hymn_n when_o these_o be_v sing_v with_o a_o sweet_a &_o skilful_a voice_n yet_o not_o so_o 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itself_o more_o move_v i_o than_o the_o matter_n sing_v i_o confess_v i_o sin_n penal_o and_o then_o have_v i_o rather_o hear_v no_o sing_n at_o all_o behold_v the_o present_a condition_n i_o be_o in_o weep_v you_o with_o i_o and_o for_o i_o weep_v you_o who_o within_o yourselves_o have_v the_o like_a good_a purpose_n with_o i_o from_o which_o purpose_v flow_v well-doing_n as_o for_o you_o who_o have_v none_o such_o thing_n as_o these_o trouble_v not_o you_o and_o thou_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n look_v back_o upon_o i_o and_o hear_v and_o see_v and_o pity_n and_o heal_v i_o in_o who_o sight_n i_o be_o thus_o become_v a_o question_n and_o a_o doubt_n unto_o myself_o &_o this_o be_v my_o present_a malady_n chap._n xxxiv_o 5._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o eye_n in_o splendid_a fair_a and_o well-proportioned_a object_n there_o remain_v yet_o the_o pleasure_n of_o these_o eye_n of_o my_o flesh_n of_o which_o i_o will_v now_o make_v my_o confession_n to_o 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flatter_v and_o inveigle_v i_o even_o when_o do_v something_o else_o and_o not_o observe_v it_o and_o so_o strong_o do_v it_o insinuate_v itself_o that_o if_o sudden_o withdraw_v it_o be_v straight_o impatient_o desire_v and_o if_o long_o miss_v it_o contristate_v my_o spirit_n but_o o_o that_o light_n *_o which_o toby_n behold_v when_o with_o his_o eye_n close_v 4._o tob._n 4._o he_o direct_v his_o son_n the_o way_n to_o life_n and_o himself_o walk_v before_o he_o with_o the_o foot_n of_o charity_n which_o swerve_v not_o at_o all_o from_o the_o right_a way_n or_o *_o which_o isaac_n behold_v 27._o gen._n 27._o when_o his_o carnal_a sight_n be_v close_v with_o old_a age_n he_o bless_v not_o his_o son_n by_o know_v they_o but_z by_o blessing_n come_v to_o know_v they_o 49._o gen._n 49._o or_o *_o which_o jacob_n behold_v â–³_o when_o he_o also_o by_o great_a age_n have_v lose_v his_o sight_n with_o a_o illuminate_v soul_n view_v and_o foresignify_v the_o condition_n of_o the_o several_a 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temptation_n of_o the_o eye_n abroad_o dote_v on_o what_o they_o have_v make_v within_o desert_v he_o by_o who_o they_o be_v make_v and_o deface_v that_o which_o they_o be_v make_v but_o i_o o_o my_o god_n and_o my_o glory_n concern_v all_o these_o do_v now_o sing_v a_o hymn_n and_o do_v sacrifice_n praise_v to_o thou_o my_o sanctifier_n for_o all_o these_o beautiful_a piece_n of_o art_n which_o be_v transfer_v first_o from_o a_o idea_n in_o the_o soul_n into_o the_o work_n of_o a_o skilful_a hand_n be_v derive_v original_o from_o that_o beauty_n *_o which_o be_v above_o the_o soul_n and_o *_o after_o which_o my_o soul_n languish_v day_n and_o night_n and_o the_o drawer_n and_o admirer_n of_o these_o exterior_a beauty_n do_v learn_v from_o the_o first_o beauty_n a_o worthy_a estimation_n of_o they_o but_o learn_v not_o from_o it_o a_o right_a use_n of_o they_o and_o there_o also_o the_o true_a beauty_n be_v and_o they_o see_v it_o not_o that_o they_o shall_v seek_v no_o further_o 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i_o also_o plead_v my_o ignorance_n and_o uncertainty_n for_o this_o or_o shall_v i_o endeavour_v here_o also_o to_o delude_v myself_o and_o nor_o confess_v the_o truth_n before_o thou_o both_o in_o heart_n and_o tongue_n lord_n such_o a_o folly_n put_v thou_o far_o from_o i_o and_o let_v not_o my_o own_o mouth_n go_v about_o to_o anoint_v and_o perfume_v my_o head_n with_o the_o flatter_a oil_n of_o sinner_n i_o be_o poor_a and_o needy_a and_o the_o best_a when_o with_o secret_a lament_n displease_v myself_o and_o invocate_a thy_o mercy_n until_o these_o my_o deficiency_n be_v repair_v and_o perfect_v into_o a_o full_a repose_n and_o peace_n a_o peace_n hide_v from_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o arrogant_a and_o self-conceited_a chap._n xxxviii_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o the_o contemn_v of_o praise_n as_o this_o also_o be_v a_o thing_n praiseworthy_a chief_z speech_n that_o be_v eloquent_a and_o good_a action_n that_o be_v public_a and_o eminent_a cause_n in_o we_o a_o most_o perilous_a temptation_n from_o this_o our_o love_n of_o praise_n which_o subtlety_n assay_v to_o procure_v the_o applause_n of_o other_o to_o the_o advance_n of_o my_o own_o private_a excellency_n even_o then_o also_o when_o such_o love_n of_o praise_n in_o i_o be_v censure_v by_o i_o and_o for_o that_o very_a reason_n because_o it_o be_v so_o censure_v and_o often_o do_v a_o man_n more_o vain_o glory_n of_o the_o very_a contempt_n of_o vainglory_n and_o therefore_o now_o in_o truth_n the_o contempt_n of_o vainglory_n be_v not_o gloryed-of_a by_o he_o for_o he_o utter_o contemn_v it_o not_o so_o long_o as_o within_o himself_o he_o retein_v still_o some_o glory_v chap._n thirty-nine_o incur_v also_o from_o self-love_n and_o self-conceit_n without_o regard_n to_o praise_v from_o other_o there_o be_v yet_o within_o we_o another_o disease_n in_o the_o same_o kind_n of_o temptation_n namely_o a_o vanity_n in_o man_n of_o self_n love_v and_o pleaâ—â—ng_v themselves_o in_o themselves_o *_o whether_o it_o happen_v that_o they_o please_v or_o that_o they_o displease_v abroad_o and*_n wherein_o they_o affect_v not_o the_o please_a of_o other_o but_o these_o man_n whilst_o thus_o please_v themselves_o much_o do_v they_o displease_v thou_o not_o only_o in_o glory_v in_o some_o thing_n not_o good_a as_o in_o good_a but_o also_o in_o thy_o good_a thing_n as_o if_o in_o their_o own_o or_o also_o in_o glory_v in_o they_o as_o thou_o but_o as_o confer_v on_o they_o for_o some_o merit_n of_o their_o own_o or_o also_o as_o in_o thou_o without_o any_o their_o merit_v but_o yet_o not_o sociable_o joy_v in_o they_o but_o as_o envy_v the_o same_o grace_n of_o thou_o to_o other_o in_o all_o these_o and_o the_o like_a peril_n and_o travel_n thou_o see_v the_o fear_n and_o tremble_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o i_o rather_o perceive_v such_o wound_n to_o be_v by_o thou_o continual_o cure_v within_o i_o than_o not_o to_o be_v at_o all_o receive_v chap._n xl._n a_o recapitulation_n of_o the_o thing_n former_o speak_v in_o this_o book_n s._n augustine_n sometime_o extraordinary_a transportment_n in_o the_o contemplation_n and_o love_n of_o god_n o_o truth_n where_o have_v not_o thou_o walk_v along_o with_o i_o and_o be_v instruct_v i_o what_o i_o shall_v avoid_v and_o what_o affect_v when_o i_o recount_v unto_o thou_o my_o mental_a discovery_n such_o as_o i_o be_v able_a to_o make_v and_o consult_v thou_o concern_v they_o i_o surveigh_v the_o world_n abroad_o with_o the_o sense_n serve_v i_o for_o that_o purpose_n and_o after_o this_o i_o reflect_v *_o upon_o the_o vegetable_a life_n of_o my_o own_o body_n and_o *_o upon_o those_o my_o sense_n from_o hence_o i_o enter_v further_o into_o the_o inner_a chamber_n of_o my_o memory_n those_o manifold_a capacity_n fill_v with_o a_o innumerable_a store_n of_o wonderful_a thing_n i_o consider_v they_o and_o remain_v amaze_v at_o they_o and_o none_o of_o they_o can_v i_o discern_v without_o thou_o and_o yet_o i_o find_v none_o of_o they_o to_o be_v thou_o neither_o yet_o be_v it_o thou_o i_o the_o discoverer_n himself_o who_o travel_v over_o all_o these_o and_o endeavour_v to_o distinguish_v and_o value_v each_o one_o according_a to_o their_o several_a dignity_n *_o receive_n some_o from_o the_o message_n of_o my_o sense_n *_o question_v about_o other_o more_o intimate_a and_o not_o usher_v in_o by_o they_o whence_o they_o be_v and_z *_o number_n the_o several_a messenger_n whence_o i_o receive_v they_o and_o then_o after_o thus_o have_v display_v in_o my_o memory_n all_o its_o treasure_n *_o handle_n and_o examine_v some_o part_n *_o laying-up-again_a other_o examine_v and_o *_o drawing-out_a other_o to_o be_v peruse_v neither_o i_o say_v be_v i_o myself_o who_o wrought_v all_o this_o that_o be_v my_o faculty_n by_o which_o i_o wrought_v it_o neither_o be_v this_o thou_o my_o lord_n for_o thou_o be_v a_o light_n always_o permanent_a and_o immutable_a which_o light_n i_o still_o consult_v concern_v all_o these_o whether_o and_o what_o and_o of_o what_o worth_n they_o be_v and_o i_o listen_v unto_o its_o instruct_v i_o and_o command_v i_o and_o this_o i_o still_o continue_v to_o consult_v this_o be_v my_o great_a delight_n and_o so_o often_o as_o i_o can_v be_v release_v from_o other_o necessary_a affair_n i_o repair_v to_o this_o pleasure_n neither_o find_v i_o in_o all_o these_o thing_n which_o i_o run_v through_o and_o wherein_o i_o consult_v thou_o any_o place_n of_o settlement_n for_o my_o soul_n save_v only_o in_o thou_o whither_o all_o my_o dissipation_n final_o may_v be_v recollect_v and_o from_o whence_o nothing_o of_o i_o may_v eyer_n again_o be_v stray_v and_o sometime_o thou_o do_v admit_v i_o *_o into_o a_o affection_n very_o unusual_a within_o the_o
innermost_a part_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o *_o to_n i_o know_v not_o what_o sweetness_n which_o be_v it_o once_o perfect_v in_o i_o i_o know_v not_o what_o bliss_n that_o be_v which_o such_o a_o life_n will_v not_o enjoy_v but_o then_o with_o certain_a cumbersome_a weight_n hang_v upon_o i_o i_o present_o be_o press_v down_o again_o to_o these_o thing_n below_o and_o be_o re-ingulfed_n and_o detain_v by_o former_a custom_n and_o much_o i_o bewail_v myself_o and_o yet_o much_o still_o i_o be_o detain_v so_o great_o have_v the_o burden_n of_o a_o bad_a custom_n overload_v i_o and_o in_o this_o estate_n i_o can_v abide_v still_o but_o will_v not_o and_o in_o the_o other_o i_o will_v willing_o abide_v but_o can_v both_o way_n very_o miserable_a chap._n xli_o and_o in_o this_o condition_n i_o proceed_v to_o consider_v the_o remain_a languor_n of_o my_o sin_n in_o a_o threefold_a concupiscence_n and_o have_v invoke_v the_o help_n of_o thy_o right_a hand_n to_o deliver_v i_o for_o i_o behold_v thy_o brightness_n with_o a_o sick_a and_o wound_a spirit_n and_o beat_v back_o and_o dazzle_v by_o it_o i_o say_v who_o can_v ever_o attain_v thither_o i_o be_o utter_o cast_v away_o from_o the_o sight_n of_o thy_o eye_n thou_o be_v the_o truth_n who_o preside_v above_o all_o thing_n and_o i_o out_o of_o my_o covetousness_n be_v not_o willing_a to_o loose_v thou_o but_o yet_o greedy_o desire_v also_o to_o possess_v what_o be_v a_o lie_n together_o with_o thou_o as_o no_o man_n desire_v so_o to_o speak_v lie_n as_o to_o be_v ignorant_a what_o be_v truth_n and_o therefore_o i_o lose_v thou_o because_o thou_o vouchsafe_v not_o to_o be_v enjoy_v together_o with_o a_o lie_n chap._n xlii_o his_o recourse_n for_o a_o remedy_n to_o all_o these_o his_o malady_n not_o *_o to_o evil_a angel_n or_o demon_n with_o the_o platonist_n or_o other_o practise_v evil_a art_n as_o mediator_n between_o god_n and_o man_n because_o sinner_n like_o man_n spirit_n like_o god_n and_o now_o who_o can_v i_o find_v who_o may_v reconcile_v and_o reduce_v i_o unto_o thou_o be_v that_o office_n to_o be_v undertake_v by_o some_o angel_n for_o i_o upon_o what_o devotion_n upon_o what_o sacrament_n perform_v unto_o he_o many_o endeavour_v to_o return_v unto_o thou_o and_o of_o themselves_o unable_a as_o i_o hear_v have_v attempt_v such_o way_n and_o fall_v into_o the_o desire_n of_o curious_a vision_n and_o so_o deserve_v to_o be_v expose_v to_o many_o delusion_n for_o be_v high-minded_a they_o seek_v thou_o with_o the_o pride_n of_o learning_n exalt_v rather_o than_o beat_v their_o swell_a breast_n and_o so_o have_v allure_v unto_o rhem_n from_o the_o likeness_n of_o their_o affection_n spirit_n associate_v with_o they_o in_o pride_n 2._o eph._n 2_o 2._o the_o power_n of_o this_o air_n by_o who_o through_o magical_a operation_n they_o may_v be_v deceive_v whilst_o they_o be_v seek_v a_o mediator_n by_o who_o they_o may_v be_v purge_v but_o it_o be_v none_o such_o they_o light_v on_o 14_o 2_o cor._n 11_o 14_o but_o the_o devil_n it_o be_v transform_v himself_o as_o a_o angel_n of_o light_n and_o this_o much_o allure_v proud_a flesh_n to_o repair_v unto_o he_o because_o he_o have_v no_o body_n of_o flesh_n for_o they_o be_v mortal_n and_o sinner_n and_o thou_o o_o lord_n with_o who_o they_o seek_v reconciliation_n be_v sinless_a and_o immmortal_a now_o the_o mediate_a person_n between_o god_n and_o man_n it_o be_v meet_v he_o shall_v have_v something_o like_a to_o god_n something_o like_o to_o man_n lest_z in_o both_o like_a to_o man_n he_o shall_v be_v at_o too_o great_a a_o distance_n from_o god_n or_o in_o both_o like_a to_o god_n he_o shall_v stand_v too_o remote_a from_o man_n therefore_o also_o this_o counterfeit_a mediator_n by_o who_o according_a to_o thy_o secret_a judgement_n our_o pride_n deserve_v to_o be_v delude_v have_v one_o thing_n common_a with_o man_n that_o be_v sin_n and_o will_v seem_v to_o have_v the_o other_o thing_n common_a with_o god_n whilst_o not_o clothe_v with_o the_o mortality_n of_o flesh_n he_o vaunt_v himself_o as_o immortal_a 6.23_o rom._n 6.23_o but_o since_o the_o certain_a wage_n of_o sin_n be_v death_n and_o this_o sin_n he_o have_v common_a with_o man_n he_o have_v also_o that_o common_a with_o man_n to_o be_v sentence_v unto_o death_n chap._n xliii_o but_o *_o to_o christ_n who_o be_v the_o only_a true_a mediator_n mortal_a like_o man_n righteous_a like_o god_n through_o who_o else_o desperate_a he_o confident_o hope_v a_o perfect_a cure_n of_o all_o his_o disease_n but_o the_o true_a mediator_n who_o in_o thy_o secret_a mercy_n thou_o have_v manifest_v to_o the_o humble_a and_o haste_v also_o send_v he_o among_o they_o 2.5_o 1._o tim._n 2.5_o that_o they_o may_v by_o his_o example_n learn_v humility_n that_o mediator_n of_o god_n and_o man_n the_o man_n christ_n jesus_n between_o these_o mortal_a sinner_n and_o the_o immortal_a righteous_a one_o have_v appear_v mortal_a together_o with_o man_n righteous_a together_o with_o god_n that_o because_o the_o wage_n of_o righteousness_n be_v life_n and_o peace_n he_o by_o his_o righteousness_n which_o be_v ally_v to_o god_n may_v evacuate_v death_n to_o justify_v sinner_n which_o death_n he_o be_v please_v to_o have_v common_a with_o man_n and_o this_o true_a mediator_n be_v also_o make_v know_v to_o the_o saint_n of_o old_a that_o they_o by_o the_o faith_n of_o his_o passion_n to_o come_v as_o we_o by_o the_o faith_n of_o it_o past_a may_v attain_v salvation_n and_o it_o be_v as_o he_o be_v man_n that_o he_o be_v mediator_n but_o as_o he_o be_v the_o word_n so_o he_o be_v no_o middling_a person_n because_o equal_a to_o god_n and_o god_n with_o god_n and_o 1.1_o phil._n 2.6_o joh._n 1.1_o together_o with_o the_o holy_a spirit_n one_o god_n how_o far_o have_v thou_o love_v we_o o_o thou_o good_a father_n who_o sparedst_v not_o thy_o only_a son_n but_o deliver_v he_o up_o for_o we_o ungodly_a how_o far_o have_v thou_o love_v we_o for_o who_o he_o 8._o rom._n 8.52_o phil._n 2.6_o 8._o who_o think_v it_o no_o robbery_n to_o be_v equal_a to_o thou_o be_v make_v subject_a even_o to_o death_n even_o to_o the_o death_n of_o the_o cross_n only_o he_o free_a among_o the_o dead_a have_v power_n to_o lay_v down_o his_o life_n 10.18_o john_n 10.18_o and_o power_n likewise_o to_o take_v it_o up_o again_o become_v unto_o thou_o for_o we_o both_o a_o victor_n and_o a_o victim_n and_o therefore_o a_o victor_n because_o he_o have_v be_v a_o victim_n become_v unto_o thou_o for_o we_o both_o the_o priest_n and_o the_o sacrifice_n and_o therefore_o the_o priest_n because_o a_o sacrifice_n make_v we_o unto_o thou_o of_o servant_n son_n by_o be_v bear_v thy_o son_n and_o become_v our_o servant_n and_o therefore_o do_v i_o just_o repose_v strong_a hope_n in_o he_o that_o thou_o will_v heal_v all_o my_o disease_n by_o he_o who_o sit_v at_o thy_o right_a hand_n and_o intercede_v unto_o thou_o for_o we_o else_o shall_v i_o despair_v for_o many_o and_o great_a be_v these_o my_o disease_n many_o and_o great_a they_o be_v but_o great_a be_v the_o cure_n which_o thou_o have_v provide_v and_o well_o may_v we_o have_v imagine_v thy_o word_n to_o have_v be_v too_o remote_a from_o have_v any_o alliance_n with_o we_o and_o so_o have_v despair_v of_o ourselves_o have_v it_o not_o thus_o be_v make_v flesh_n and_o dwell_v among_o we_o affright_v with_o these_o my_o sin_n and_o with_o the_o load_n of_o my_o misery_n i_o have_v once_o a_o thought_n and_o a_o design_n of_o retire_v myself_o into_o some_o desert_n solitude_n but_o thou_o do_v prohibit_v it_o unto_o i_o and_o confirm_v i_o say_v that_o therefore_o christ_n die_v for_o all_o 5.15_o 2_o cor._n 5.15_o that_o they_o who_o live_v shall_v not_o henceforth_o live_v unto_o themselves_o but_o unto_o he_o who_o die_v for_o they_o behold_v o_o lord_n i_o cast_v all_o my_o care_n upon_o thou_o let_v i_o live_v and_o i_o will_v consider_v the_o wonderful_a thing_n of_o thy_o law_n 119.18_o 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