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of_o holy_a scripture_n be_v busy_o employ_v in_o this_o poverty_n of_o my_o life_n and_o even_o therefore_o in_o our_o discourse_n oftentimes_o appear_v there_o a_o most_o plentiful_a poverty_n of_o humane_a understanding_n because_o that_o our_o inquire_n spend_v we_o more_o word_n than_o our_o find_v out_o do_v and_o we_o be_v long_o about_o demand_v then_o about_o obtain_v and_o our_o hand_n that_o knock_v have_v more_o work_n to_o do_v than_o our_o other_o hand_n that_o receive_v a_o promise_n have_v we_o lay_v hold_v of_o who_o shall_v defeat_v we_o of_o it_o if_o god_n be_v on_o our_o side_n who_o can_v be_v against_o we_o ask_v and_o 7._o you_o shall_v have_v seek_v and_o you_o shall_v find_v knock_v and_o it_o shall_v be_v open_v unto_o you_o for_o every_o one_o that_o ask_v receive_v and_o he_o that_o seek_v find_v and_o to_o he_o that_o knock_v shall_v it_o be_v open_v these_o be_v thou_o own_o promise_n and_o who_o needs_o fear_n to_o be_v deceive_v whenas_o the_o truth_n promise_v chap._n 2._o that_o the_o heaven_n we_o see_v be_v but_o earth_n in_o respect_n of_o the_o heaven_n of_o heaven_n which_o we_o see_v not_o 1._o unto_o thy_o highness_n the_o lowliness_n of_o my_o tongue_n now_o confess_v because_o thou_o have_v make_v heaven_n and_o earth_n this_o heaven_n i_o mean_v which_o i_o see_v and_o this_o earth_n that_o i_o tread_v upon_o whence_o be_v this_o earth_n that_o i_o bear_v about_o i_o thou_o make_v it_o but_o where_o be_v that_o heaven_n of_o heaven_n make_v for_o the_o lord_n which_o we_o hear_v of_o in_o the_o word_n of_o the_o psalmist_n the_o heaven_n even_o the_o heaven_n be_v the_o lord_n but_o the_o earth_n 16_o have_v he_o give_v to_o the_o child_n of_o man_n where_o be_v that_o heaven_n which_o we_o see_v not_o that_o in_o comparison_n whereof_o all_o this_o heaven_n which_o we_o see_v be_v but_o mere_a earth_n for_o this_o heaven_n be_v whole_o corporeal_a for_o all_o this_o which_o be_v whole_o corporeal_a be_v not_o every_o 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light_n where_o shall_v â—â—_o have_v be_v bestow_v but_o in_o be_v over_o all_o by_o show_v itself_o and_o enlighten_v other_o where_o therefore_o as_o light_n be_v not_o yet_o what_o be_v it_o that_o darkness_n be_v present_a but_o that_o light_n be_v absent_a darkness_n therefore_o be_v over_o all_o hitherto_o because_o light_n be_v absent_a like_v as_o where_o there_o be_v no_o find_v there_o be_v silence_n and_o what_o be_v it_o to_o have_v silence_n there_o but_o to_o have_v no_o sound_n there_o have_v not_o thou_o o_o lord_n teach_v these_o thing_n unto_o the_o soul_n which_o thus_o confess_v unto_o thou_o have_v not_o thou_o teach_v i_o lord_n that_o before_o thou_o creat_v &_o diversify_v this_o unshape_a matter_n there_o be_v nothing_o neither_o colour_n nor_o figure_n nor_o body_n nor_o spirit_n and_o yet_o be_v there_o not_o altogether_o a_o absolute_a nothing_o for_o there_o be_v a_o certain_a unshapednes_n without_o any_o form_n in_o it_o chap._n 4._o of_o the_o chaos_n and_o what_o moses_n call_v it_o 1._o and_o how_o shall_v that_o be_v call_v and_o by_o what_o sense_n can_v it_o be_v insinuate_v to_o people_n of_o slow_a apprehension_n but_o by_o some_o ordinary_a word_n and_o what_o among_o all_o the_o part_n of_o the_o world_n can_v be_v find_v to_o come_v near_o to_o a_o absolute_a unshapednesse_n than_o the_o earth_n and_o the_o deep_a for_o sure_o they_o be_v less_o beautiful_a in_o respect_n of_o their_o low_a situation_n than_o those_o other_o high_a part_n be_v which_o be_v all_o transparent_a and_o shine_a wherefore_o then_o may_v i_o not_o conceive_v the_o unshapelynesse_n of_o the_o first_o matter_v which_o thou_o creat_v without_o form_n of_o which_o thou_o be_v to_o make_v this_o goodly_a world_n to_o be_v significant_o intimate_v unto_o man_n by_o the_o name_n of_o earth_n without_o shape_n and_o void_a chap._n 5._o that_o this_o chaos_n be_v hard_o to_o conceive_v 1._o when_o herein_o the_o thought_n of_o man_n be_v seek_v for_o somewhat_o which_o the_o sense_n may_v fasten_v upon_o and_o return_n answer_v to_o itself_o it_o be_v no_o intelligible_a form_n as_o life_n be_v or_o as_o justice_n be_v because_o it_o be_v the_o matter_n of_o body_n nor_o be_v it_o any_o thing_n sensible_a for_o that_o in_o this_o earth_n invisible_a as_o yet_o and_o without_o form_n there_o be_v nothing_o to_o be_v perceive_v while_o man_n thought_n thus_o discourse_n unto_o himself_o let_v he_o endeavour_v either_o to_o know_v it_o by_o be_v ignorant_a of_o it_o or_o to_o be_v ignorant_a by_o know_v it_o chap._n 6._o what_o himself_o sometime_o think_v of_o it_o 1._o for_o my_o own_o part_n o_o lord_n if_o i_o may_v confess_v all_o unto_o thou_o both_o by_o tongue_n and_o pen_n whatever_o thyself_o have_v teach_v i_o of_o that_o matter_n the_o name_n whereof_o have_v hear_v before_o but_o not_o understand_v because_o they_o tell_v i_o of_o it_o who_o themselves_o understand_v it_o not_o i_o conceive_v of_o it_o as_o have_v innumerable_a form_n and_o diverse_a and_o therefore_o indeed_o do_v i_o not_o at_o all_o conceive_v it_o in_o my_o mind_n i_o toss_v up_o and_o down_o certain_a ugly_a and_o hideous_a form_n all_o out_o of_o order_n but_o yet_o form_n they_o be_v notwithstanding_o and_o this_o i_o call_v without_o form_n not_o that_o it_o want_v all_o for_o i_o but_o because_o it_o have_v such_o a_o misshapen_v one_o insomuch_o as_o if_o any_o unexpected_a thought_n or_o absurdity_n present_v itself_o unto_o i_o my_o sense_n will_v straight_o way_n turn_v from_o it_o and_o the_o fraylenesse_n of_o my_o humane_a discourse_n will_v be_v distract_v and_o as_o for_o that_o which_o my_o conceit_n run_v upon_o it_o be_v i_o think_v without_o form_n not_o for_o that_o it_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o form_n but_o it_o comparison_n of_o more_o beautiful_a form_n but_o true_a reason_n do_v persuade_v i_o that_o i_o must_v utter_o uncase_v it_o of_o all_o remnant_n of_o form_n whatsoever_o if_o so_o be_v i_o mean_v to_o conceive_v a_o matter_n absolute_a without_o form_n but_o i_o can_v not_o for_o soon_o will_v i_o have_v imagine_v that_o not_o to_o be_v at_o all_o which_o shall_v be_v deprive_v of_o all_o form_n then_o once_o conceive_v there_o be_v likely_a to_o be_v any_o thing_n betwixt_o form_n and_o nothing_o a_o matter_n neither_o form_v nor_o nothing_o without_o form_n almost_o nothing_o 2._o my_o mind_n give_v over_o thereupon_o to_o question_v any_o more_o about_o it_o with_o my_o spirit_n which_o be_v whole_o take_v up_o already_o with_o the_o image_n of_o form_v body_n which_o i_o change_v and_o vary_v as_o i_o list_v and_o i_o bend_v my_o enquiry_n upon_o the_o body_n themselves_o and_o more_o deep_o look_v into_o
at_o all_o no_o be_v such_o empty_a husk_n as_o these_o be_v i_o then_o feed_v with_o yet_o not_o a_o whit_n nourish_v 3._o but_o thou_o my_o love_n after_o who_o i_o pine_v that_o i_o may_v gather_v the_o more_o strength_n be_v not_o these_o body_n which_o we_o see_v though_o from_o heaven_n appear_v nor_o be_v thou_o any_o of_o those_o which_o we_o see_v not_o there_o for_o all_o those_o have_v thou_o create_v nor_o yet_o it_o in_o these_o chief_a piece_n of_o thy_o workmanship_n be_v thou_o far_o absent_a how_o far_o then_o be_v thou_o from_o those_o fond_a fantasy_n of_o i_o the_o fantasy_n of_o those_o body_n which_o have_v at_o all_o no_o be_v than_o which_o the_o image_n of_o those_o body_n which_o have_v real_a existence_n be_v far_o more_o certain_a and_o yet_o the_o body_n themselves_o more_o certain_a than_o their_o own_o image_n yet_o these_o body_n thou_o be_v not_o no_o nor_o yet_o be_v thou_o the_o soul_n which_o be_v the_o life_n of_o those_o body_n though_o better_a and_o more_o certain_a be_v the_o life_n of_o those_o body_n than_o the_o body_n themselves_o be_v but_o thou_o be_v the_o life_n of_o soul_n the_o life_n of_o life_n yea_o the_o very_a live_a life_n itself_o nor_o be_v thou_o alter_v o_o life_n of_o my_o soul_n where_o therefore_o how_o near_o be_v thou_o then_o unto_o i_o and_o how_o far_o from_o i_o very_o far_o very_o have_v i_o straggle_v from_o thou_o be_v even_o bar_v from_o the_o husk_n of_o those_o swine_n who_o with_o husk_n i_o appetite_n be_v set_v to_o feed_v how_o much_o better_a than_o be_v those_o fable_n of_o the_o poet_n and_o grammarian_n than_o these_o fooletrap_n for_o their_o verse_n and_o poem_n and_o medea_n fly_v be_v more_o profitable_a sure_o than_o these_o unto_o man_n five_o element_n odd_o devise_v to_o answer_v the_o five_o den_n of_o darkness_n which_o have_v at_o all_o no_o be_v and_o which_o slay_v the_o believer_n for_o verse_n and_o poem_n i_o very_o can_v refer_v to_o the_o translation_n true_a 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the_o door_n of_o her_o house_n and_o say_v eat_v you_o bread_n of_o secrecy_n willing_o and_o drink_v you_o steal_v water_n which_o be_v sweet_a this_o harlot_n seduce_v i_o because_o she_o find_v my_o soul_n without_o door_n dwell_v in_o the_o eye_n of_o my_o flesh_n and_o chew_v the_o cud_n by_o myself_o upon_o such_o bait_n as_o through_o her_o enticement_n i_o have_v devour_v chap._n 7._o the_o absurd_a doctrine_n of_o the_o manichee_n 1._o for_o i_o know_v not_o that_o there_o be_v any_o other_o truth_n and_o be_v as_o it_o be_v through_o my_o own_o sharp_a wit_n persuade_v to_o give_v my_o consent_n to_o those_o foolish_a deceiver_n when_o they_o put_v these_o question_n to_o i_o whence_o come_v evil_a and_o whether_o god_n be_v make_v up_o in_o a_o bodily_a shape_n and_o have_v hair_n and_o nail_n and_o whether_o those_o be_v to_o be_v esteem_v righteous_a man_n who_o have_v many_o wife_n at_o once_o and_o do_v kill_v man_n and_o offer_v sacrifice_n of_o live_a creature_n at_o which_o thing_n ignorant_a i_o be_v much_o trouble_v and_o while_o i_o go_v quite_o from_o the_o truth_n i_o seem_v to_o myself_o to_o be_v make_v towards_o it_o because_o i_o yet_o know_v not_o how_o that_o evil_a be_v nothing_o else_o but_o a_o privation_n of_o good_a have_v of_o itself_o at_o all_o no_o be_v which_o how_o shall_v i_o come_v to_o see_v who_o sight_n pierce_v no_o further_o than_o to_o a_o body_n with_o my_o eye_n and_o with_o my_o soul_n no_o deep_o than_o to_o a_o mere_a fantasy_n 2._o nor_o do_v i_o yet_o know_v god_n to_o be_v a_o spirit_n who_o have_v not_o any_o part_n extend_v in_o length_n and_o breadth_n or_o effet_fw-fr who_o be_v be_v to_o be_v a_o bulk_n for_o that_o every_o bulk_n be_v lesser_a in_o his_o part_n than_o in_o his_o whole_a and_o if_o it_o be_v infinite_a it_o must_v needs_o be_v less_o in_o some_o part_n that_o be_v limit_v in_o a_o certain_a space_n than_o that_o which_o be_v not_o limit_v and_o can_v so_o be_v whole_o every_o where_o as_o 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judge_v unrighteous_a by_o unskilful_a people_n judge_v out_o of_o humane_a judgement_n and_o measure_v all_o mankind_n in_o general_a by_o the_o model_n of_o their_o own_o custom_n just_a as_o iâ—_n in_o a_o armoury_n a_o man_n be_v ignorant_a what_o piece_n be_v appoint_v for_o what_o part_n shall_v clap_v a_o boot_n upon_o his_o head_n &_o draw_v a_o headpeice_n upon_o his_o leg_n and_o then_o murmur_v because_o they_o will_v not_o fit_v he_o or_o as_o if_o upon_o some_o â—â—_o day_n when_o the_o course_n of_o justice_n 〈◊〉_d public_o forbid_v in_o the_o afternoon_n a_o shopkeeper_n shall_v stomach_v at_o it_o that_o he_o may_v not_o have_v leave_n doctor_n to_o sell_v his_o ware_n which_o it_o be_v lawful_a for_o he_o to_o do_v it_o the_o forenoon_n or_o when_o in_o some_o house_n he_o observe_v some_o servant_n to_o pass_v that_o kind_n of_o business_n through_o his_o hand_n which_o the_o butcher_n be_v not_o suffer_v to_o meddle_v withal_o or_o some_o thing_n do_v behind_o the_o 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withdraw_v myself_o together_o with_o alipius_n a_o catechumenus_fw-la also_o and_o with_o my_o mother_n likewise_o inseparable_o stick_v unto_o we_o in_o a_o woman_n habit_n very_o but_o with_o a_o masculine_a faith_n void_a of_o worldly_a care_n as_o a_o woman_n in_o her_o year_n shall_v be_v yet_o employ_v a_o matrone_o charity_n and_o a_o christian_a piety_n oh_o what_o passionate_a expression_n make_v i_o unto_o thou_o in_o the_o read_n of_o those_o psalm_n oh_o how_o be_v i_o inflame_v towards_o thou_o by_o they_o yea_o i_o be_v on_o fire_n to_o have_v resound_v they_o have_v i_o be_v able_a in_o the_o hear_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n to_o the_o shame_n of_o the_o pride_n of_o mankind_n though_o very_o they_o be_v already_o sing_v all_o the_o world_n over_o nor_o can_v any_o hide_v themselves_o from_o thy_o 6._o heat_n with_o what_o vehement_a and_o bitter_a sorrow_n be_v i_o anger_v at_o the_o manichee_n who_o yet_o again_o i_o pity_v for_o that_o they_o know_v nothing_o of_o 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will_v i_o have_v speak_v the_o same_o thing_n nor_o in_o the_o same_o manner_n have_v i_o perceive_v they_o to_o have_v both_o hear_v and_o see_v i_o but_o have_v i_o so_o speak_v yet_o will_v not_o they_o so_o have_v understand_v how_o with_o myself_o and_o to_o myself_o before_o thou_o out_o of_o the_o familiar_a and_o ordinary_a affection_n of_o my_o soul_n i_o quake_v for_o fear_n and_o boy_n lead_v high_a again_o 2._o with_o hope_n and_o with_o rejoice_v in_o thy_o mercy_n o_o father_n and_o all_o these_o expression_n of_o myself_o pass_v forth_o both_o by_o my_o eye_n and_o voice_n at_o what_o time_n as_o thy_o good_a spirit_n turn_v himself_o towards_o we_o say_v o_o you_o son_n of_o man_n
ghost_n the_o creator_n of_o all_o thy_o own_o creature_n chap._n 6._o of_o the_o spirit_n move_v upon_o the_o water_n 1._o but_o what_o be_v the_o cause_n o_o thou_o true-speaking_a light_n unto_o thou_o lift_v i_o up_o my_o heart_n let_v it_o not_o be_v teach_v vanity_n dispel_v thou_o the_o darkness_n of_o it_o and_o tell_v i_o by_o our_o mother_n charity_n i_o beseech_v thou_o tell_v i_o the_o reason_n i_o beseech_v thou_o why_o after_o the_o mention_n of_o heaven_n and_o of_o the_o invisible_a and_o shapeless_a earth_n and_o darkness_n upon_o the_o deep_a thy_o scripture_n shall_v even_o then_o at_o length_n make_v the_o first_o mention_n of_o thy_o spirit_n be_v it_o because_o it_o be_v meet_v so_o to_o have_v he_o insinuate_v as_o that_o he_o shall_v be_v say_v to_o move_v upon_o and_o so_o much_o can_v not_o true_o be_v say_v unless_o that_o be_v first_o mention_v upon_o which_o thy_o spirit_n may_v be_v understand_v to_o have_v move_v for_o very_o neither_o upon_o the_o father_n not_o upon_o the_o son_n be_v he_o move_v nor_o can_v he_o right_o be_v say_v to_o move_v upon_o if_o there_o be_v nothing_o yet_o for_o he_o to_o move_v upon_o first_o therefore_o be_v that_o to_o be_v speak_v of_o which_o he_o be_v say_v to_o move_v upon_o and_o then_o he_o who_o it_o be_v requisite_a not_o to_o have_v name_v otherwise_o than_o a_o he_o be_v say_v to_o move_v upon_o but_o wherefore_o yet_o be_v â—â—_o not_o fit_v to_o have_v he_o insinuate_v otherways_o unless_o he_o be_v say_v to_o move_v upon_o chap._n 7._o of_o the_o effect_n or_o work_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n 1._o from_o hence_o let_v he_o that_o be_v able_a follow_v with_o his_o understanding_n thy_o apostle_n where_o he_o thus_o speak_v because_o thy_o love_n be_v shed_v abroad_o in_o our_o heart_n by_o the_o holy_a ghost_n which_o be_v give_v unto_o we_o and_o where_o concern_v spiritual_a gift_n he_o teach_v and_o show_v unto_o we_o a_o more_o excellent_a way_n of_o charity_n and_o where_o he_o bow_v his_o knee_n unto_o thou_o 21._o for_o we_o that_o we_o may_v come_v to_o 19_o learn_v that_o most_o excellent_a knowledge_n of_o the_o love_n of_o christ_n and_o therefore_o even_o from_o the_o very_a beginning_n do_v the_o spirit_n supereminent_o move_v upon_o the_o water_n who_o shall_v i_o tell_v it_o unto_o and_o in_o what_o term_n shall_v i_o describe_v how_o the_o huge_a weight_n of_o lustful_a desire_n press_v down_o into_o the_o steep_a pit_n and_o how_o charity_n raise_v we_o up_o again_o by_o thy_o spirit_n which_o move_v upon_o the_o water_n unto_o who_o shall_v i_o speak_v it_o and_o in_o what_o language_n utter_v it_o for_o they_o be_v no_o certain_a place_n into_o which_o we_o be_v plunge_v and_o out_o of_o which_o we_o be_v again_o lift_v what_o can_v be_v like_a and_o yet_o what_o unlikeer_n they_o be_v affection_n they_o be_v love_n they_o be_v the_o uncleanness_n of_o our_o own_o spirit_n that_o overflow_v our_o low_a part_n with_o the_o love_n of_o care_n and_o it_o be_v the_o holiness_n of_o thy_o spirit_n that_o raise_v we_o upward_o again_o by_o the_o love_n of_o our_o safety_n that_o 2._o we_o may_v lift_v our_o heart_n up_o unto_o the_o lord_n where_o thy_o spirit_n be_v move_v upon_o the_o water_n and_o that_o we_o may_v come_v at_o length_n to_o that_o repose_n which_o be_v above_o all_o rest_n when_o namely_o our_o soul_n shall_v have_v escape_v over_o these_o water_n where_o we_o can_v find_v no_o ground_n chap._n 8._o how_o god_n spirit_n cherish_v feeble_a soul_n 1._o the_o angel_n fall_v and_o man_n soul_n fall_v and_o all_o thy_o spiritual_a creature_n in_o general_n have_v show_v the_o way_n unto_o the_o deep_a which_o be_v in_o that_o most_o darksome_a bottom_n have_v not_o thou_o say_v let_v there_o be_v light_n and_o there_o be_v light_a and_o unless_o every_o spiritual_a creature_n of_o thy_o heavenly_a city_n have_v continue_v in_o obedience_n unto_o thou_o and_o settle_a itself_o upon_o thy_o spirit_n which_o move_v 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yea_o restore_v thyself_o unto_o i_o for_o i_o love_v thou_o and_o if_o it_o be_v too_o little_a let_v i_o now_o love_v thou_o more_o affectionate_o i_o be_o not_o able_a to_o measure_v my_o love_n that_o i_o may_v so_o come_v to_o know_v how_o much_o there_o want_v of_o enough_o that_o my_o life_n may_v even_o run_v into_o thy_o embracement_n and_o not_o tnrne_v from_o they_o again_o until_o i_o be_v whole_o hide_v in_o the_o secret_a of_o thy_o presence_n this_o one_o thing_n be_o i_o sure_a of_o that_o woe_n be_v i_o if_o i_o be_v not_o in_o thou_o yea_o not_o so_o only_o if_o i_o be_v without_o myself_o but_o ill_o will_v it_o go_v with_o i_o though_o i_o be_v hide_v within_o myself_o yea_o all_o other_o plenty_n beside_o my_o god_n be_v mere_a beggary_n unto_o i_o chap._n 9_o why_o the_o spirit_n only_o move_v upon_o the_o water_n 1._o but_o do_v not_o the_o father_n also_o or_o the_o son_n move_v upon_o the_o water_n and_o if_o we_o understand_v move_v as_o it_o be_v in_o a_o 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