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christ_n as_o god_n offer_v he_o in_o the_o gospel_n even_o a_o whole_a christ_n christ_n in_o all_o his_o office_n to_o be_v to_o i_o prophet_n priest_n and_o king_n 3_o trust_v eph._n 1._o 13._o in_o who_o you_o trust_v you_o believe_v trust_v be_v believe_v this_o also_o i_o find_v that_o god_n have_v give_v i_o a_o heart_n to_o rely_v on_o christ_n for_o righteousness_n grace_n and_o life_n 2_o from_o the_o ground_n of_o my_o faith_n which_o be_v the_o word_n of_o god_n it_o be_v through_o my_o knowledge_n and_o acquaintance_n with_o the_o word_n that_o i_o have_v be_v bring_v to_o believe_v in_o christ_n and_o through_o christ_n in_o the_o father_n that_o send_v he_o and_o i_o read_v such_o as_o believe_v through_o the_o word_n be_v true_a believer_n for_o who_o christ_n make_v intercession_n joh._n 17._o 20._o and_o who_o have_v everlasting_a life_n and_o shall_v not_o come_v into_o condemnation_n joh._n 5._o 24._o 3_o from_o this_o property_n and_o effect_n of_o faith_n viz._n prize_v christ_n 1_o pet._n 2._o 7._o unto_o you_o that_o believe_v christ_n it_o be_v precious_a the_o apostle_n speak_v of_o the_o faith_n of_o god_n elect_v ch_n 1._o 2._o and_o of_o save_a faith_n ch_n 1._o 9_o now_o i_o find_v christ_n be_v precious_a to_o i_o so_o precious_a to_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o value_v and_o prefer_v he_o above_o the_o whole_a world_n i_o account_v his_o blood_n precious_a which_o cleanse_v i_o from_o all_o sin_n the_o promise_v exceed_o great_a and_o precious_a which_o in_o he_o be_v yea_o and_o amen_o christ_n be_v so_o precious_a to_o i_o that_o i_o be_o willing_a to_o suffer_v for_o he_o phil._n 1._o 29._o yea_o i_o choose_v a_o suffer_a condition_n for_o christ_n before_o the_o honour_n riches_n and_o pleasure_n of_o the_o world_n when_o they_o can_v be_v enjoy_v without_o sin_v against_o he_o heb._n 11._o 24_o 25_o 26._o i_o be_o willing_a to_o take_v up_o the_o cross_n and_o forsake_v all_o thing_n for_o he_o evidence_n that_o i_o be_v one_o of_o god_n servant_n sept._n 30._o 1666._o i_o consider_v with_o myself_o what_o evidence_n i_o have_v that_o i_o be_v one_o of_o god_n servant_n and_o be_v satisfy_v from_o these_o scripture_n rom._n 6._o 16._o know_v you_o not_o that_o to_o who_o you_o yield_v yourselves_o servant_n to_o obey_v his_o servant_n you_o be_v to_o who_o you_o obey_v whether_o of_o sin_n unto_o death_n or_o of_o obedience_n unto_o righteousness_n i_o find_v god_n have_v give_v i_o a_o heart_n to_o yield_v my_o self_n to_o he_o nehem._n 1._o 11._o o_o lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o let_v now_o thy_o ear_n be_v attentive_a to_o the_o prayer_n of_o thy_o servant_n and_o to_o the_o prayer_n of_o thy_o servant_n that_o desire_v to_o fear_v thy_o name_n here_o i_o see_v that_o such_o as_o desire_v to_o fear_n god_n be_v account_v god_n servant_n which_o through_o grace_n i_o do_v some_o doubt_n arise_v in_o my_o heart_n whether_o i_o be_v one_o of_o god_n servant_n because_o it_o be_v say_v joh._n 8._o 34._o very_o very_o i_o say_v unto_o you_o that_o whosoever_o commit_v sin_n be_v the_o servant_n of_o sin_n for_o remove_v this_o doubt_n i_o consider_v 1._o that_o the_o meaning_n of_o this_o scripture_n be_v not_o that_o no_o man_n that_o have_v sin_n in_o his_o heart_n or_o do_v sin_n in_o his_o life_n can_v be_v god_n servant_n but_o be_v a_o servant_n of_o sin_n for_o then_o god_n shall_v have_v no_o servant_n upon_o the_o face_n of_o the_o earth_n eccl._n 7._o 20._o there_o be_v not_o a_o just_a man_n upon_o earth_n that_o do_v good_a and_o sin_v not_o joh._n 1._o 8._o if_o we_o say_v that_o we_o have_v no_o sin_n we_o deceive_v ourselves_o and_o the_o truth_n be_v not_o in_o we_o 2._o it_o be_v say_v that_o the_o servant_n of_o sin_n be_v free_a from_o righteousness_n rom._n 6._o 20._o now_o through_o mercy_n i_o follow_v after_o righteousness_n and_o find_v something_o of_o it_o whence_o i_o conclude_v i_o be_v not_o the_o servant_n of_o sin_n 3._o i_o see_v that_o david_n hold_v this_o conclusion_n that_o he_o be_v one_o of_o god_n servant_n though_o he_o be_v compass_v about_o with_o infirmity_n yea_o even_o at_o such_o time_n as_o he_o be_v under_o a_o sense_n of_o his_o sinful_a infirmity_n ps_n 116._o 11_o 16._o o_o lord_n true_o i_o be_o thy_o servant_n i_o be_o thy_o servant_n yet_o he_o have_v say_v in_o his_o haste_n unbelieve_o all_o man_n be_v liar_n david_n after_o he_o have_v commit_v the_o great_a sin_n of_o number_v the_o people_n against_o the_o counsel_n and_o advice_n of_o his_o friend_n confess_v that_o he_o have_v sin_v great_o and_o do_v very_o foolish_o yet_o call_v himself_o a_o servant_n of_o the_o lord_n 2_o sam._n 24._o 10._o 4._o as_o i_o be_v consider_v
the_o covenant_n for_o he_o promise_v to_o make_v a_o everlasting_a covenant_n with_o such_o as_o come_v to_o he_o isa_n 55._o 3._o 2._o my_o engage_v my_o heart_n to_o approach_v to_o god_n jer._n 30._o 21_o 22._o 3._o my_o be_v one_o of_o god_n servant_n as_o before_z isa_n 41._o 9_o 10_o thou_o be_v my_o servant_n i_o be_o thy_o god_n 4._o the_o law_n of_o god_n in_o my_o heart_n and_o my_o delight_n to_o do_v the_o will_n of_o god_n jer._n 31._o 33._o ps_n 40._o 8._o 5._o my_o fear_n of_o god_n jer._n 32._o 38_o 39_o 40._o which_o fear_n be_v discern_v by_o eschew_v and_o depart_v from_o evil_n job_n 1._o 1._o prov._n 16._o 6._o 6._o my_o choose_v the_o lord_n for_o my_o god_n ps_n 16._o 2._o and_o voluntary_a give_v up_o myself_o to_o he_o to_o obey_v his_o voice_n and_o keep_v his_o way_n deut._n 26._o 17_o 18_o 19_o jer._n 7._o 23._o 7._o my_o willingness_n to_o leave_v earthly_a enjoyment_n at_o the_o call_n of_o god_n set_v loose_a to_o the_o world_n look_v upon_o myself_o as_o a_o stranger_n and_o pilgrim_n on_o the_o earth_n and_o prefer_v and_o seek_v heavenly_a thing_n above_o earthly_a for_o god_n be_v not_o ashamed_a to_o be_v call_v their_o god_n that_o be_v and_o do_v thus_o 11._o 13_o 14_o 15._o 16._o hence_o i_o infer_v for_o my_o comfort_n 1._o god_n audience_n of_o my_o prayer_n mic._n 7._o 7._o 2._o god_n presence_n with_o i_o in_o all_o condition_n isa_n 43._o 1_o 2_o 3._o 3._o a_o supply_n of_o all_o my_o want_n ps_n 23._o 1._o 4._o strength_n and_o assistance_n to_o all_o service_n or_o suffering_n isa_n 41._o 10._o 5._o he_o will_v be_v my_o god_n and_o guide_n for_o ever_o ps_n 48._o 14._o 6._o he_o will_v pardon_v my_o sin_n and_o not_o forsake_v and_o cast_v i_o off_o mic._n 7._o 17_o 18_o 19_o 1_o sam._n 12._o 20_o 22._o jer._n 51._o 5._o and_o i_o charge_v it_o on_o myself_o as_o my_o duty_n 1._o to_o walk_v humble_o with_o god_n mic._n 6._o 8._o 2._o to_o seek_v he_o early_o ps_n 63._o 1._o 3._o to_o praise_v and_o exalt_v he_o ps_n 116._o 28._o 4._o to_o love_v he_o above_o all_o with_o all_o my_o heart_n deut._n 6._o 5._o 5._o to_o turn_v to_o he_o when_o ever_o i_o shall_v depart_v from_o he_o hos_fw-la 12._o 6._o 6._o to_o trust_v in_o he_o continual_o for_o all_o thing_n psal_n 18._o 2_o 91._o 2._o yea_o in_o time_n of_o great_a danger_n distress_n and_o fear_n psal_n 31._o 13_o 14._o ps_n 42._o 11._o 1_o sam._n 30._o 4._o 6._o evidence_n of_o god_n love_n to_o my_o soul_n 1._o his_o draw_v of_o i_o to_o christ_n jer_n 31._o 3._o who_o god_n draw_v he_o love_v with_o a_o everlasting_a love_n now_o i_o find_v that_o god_n have_v draw_v i_o because_o my_o soul_n be_v come_v to_o christ_n and_o go_v daily_o to_o he_o and_o no_o man_n can_v come_v to_o christ_n except_o the_o father_n draw_v he_o joh._n 6._o 44._o 2._o his_o give_v i_o faith_n he_o love_v those_o that_o through_o the_o word_n believe_v in_o his_o son_n even_o as_o he_o love_v his_o own_o son_n joh._n 17._o 20._o 23._o 3._o god_n love_v those_o that_o love_v he_o and_o that_o love_v his_o son_n jesus_n christ_n prov._n 8._o 17._o 1_o joh._n 4._o 19_o joh._n 14._o 21._o 16._o 27._o i_o find_v that_o god_n have_v give_v i_o a_o heart_n to_o love_v he_o and_o his_o son_n jesus_n christ_n 4._o a_o principle_n of_o spiritual_a life_n infuse_v into_o my_o soul_n whereby_o i_o live_v to_o god_n be_v a_o evidence_n of_o god_n love_n to_o i_o ezek._n 16._o 6._o 8_o eph._n 2._o 4_o 5._o 5._o god_n love_v not_o only_o the_o righteous_a ps_n 146._o 8._o but_o such_o also_o as_o follow_v after_o righteousness_n prov._n 15._o 9_o which_o through_o grace_n i_o find_v he_o have_v cause_v i_o to_o do_v my_o comfort_n in_o this_o be_v that_o this_o be_v a_o everlasting_a love_n jer._n 31._o 3._o joh._n 13._o 1._o nothing_o shall_v separate_v i_o from_o it_o rom._n 8._o 38_o 39_o no_o not_o my_o sin_n ps_n 89._o 30_o 31_o 32_o 33_o 34._o though_o the_o mountain_n and_o hill_n depart_v his_o lovingkindness_n shall_v not_o depart_v isa_n 54._o 10._o admire_v and_o adore_v this_o love_n oh_o my_o soul_n 1_o joh._n 3_o 1._o evidence_n of_o god_n accept_v my_o person_n and_o service_n this_o enquiry_n be_v necessary_a 1_o sy_n because_o both_o work_n and_o person_n must_v come_v to_o judgement_n 2_o cor._n 5._o 9_o 10._o 2_o lie_n though_o it_o be_v a_o mercy_n to_o have_v our_o service_n accept_v of_o the_o saint_n rom._n 15._o 30_o 31._o yet_o the_o main_a thing_n we_o shall_v labour_v for_o be_v to_o be_v approve_v of_o god_n 2_o tim._n 2._o 15._o for_o the_o approbation_n of_o man_n without_o the_o acceptation_n of_o god_n be_v little_a worth_n 2_o cor._n 10._o ult_n evidence_n 1._o isa_n 56._o 6_o 7._o there_o the_o lord_n promise_v to_o accept_v their_o burnt-offering_n and_o sacrifice_n upon_o his_o altar_n that_o be_v all_o their_o service_n which_o they_o perform_v in_o christ_n name_n who_o be_v call_v a_o altar_n heb._n 13._o 10._o and_o who_o be_v typify_v by_o the_o altar_n under_o the_o moysaicall_a law_n 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my_o spirit_n from_o those_o word_n of_o the_o prophet_n isa_n 40._o 27._o why_o say_v thou_o o_o jacob_n and_o speak_v o_o israel_n my_o way_n be_v hide_v from_o the_o lord_n and_o my_o judgement_n be_v pass_v over_o from_o my_o god_n and_o do_v encourage_v my_o soul_n still_o to_o hope_v in_o god_n and_o wait_v for_o his_o strength_n from_o the_o follow_a word_n v_o 28_o 29._o 31._o have_v thou_o not_o know_v have_v thou_o not_o hear_v if_o thou_o have_v not_o know_v it_o by_o experience_n have_v find_v his_o everlasting_a arm_n under_o thou_o for_o thy_o support_n yet_o have_v thou_o not_o at_o least_o hear_v it_o that_o the_o everlasting_a god_n the_o lord_n the_o creator_n of_o the_o end_n of_o the_o earth_n faint_v not_o neither_o be_v weary_a he_o give_v power_n to_o the_o faint_a etc._n etc._n continue_v thou_o therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n to_o wait_v upon_o the_o lord_n lord_n what_o a_o accurse_a hard_a heart_n have_v i_o that_o sin_n which_o grieve_v thou_o gen._n 6._o 6._o thy_n son_n mar._n 3._o 5._o thy_o spirit_n eph._n 4._o 30._o shall_v not_o grieve_v i_o that_o sin_n which_o weary_v thou_o isa_n 43._o 24._o shall_v not_o be_v a_o burden_n to_o i_o that_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v trouble_v for_o want_v of_o thy_o presence_n when_o as_o the_o hide_v of_o thy_o face_n make_v our_o saviour_n cry_v out_o my_o god_n my_o god_n why_o have_v thou_o forsake_v i_o that_o eternity_n and_o judgement_n to_o come_v shall_v make_v no_o impression_n upon_o i_o that_o i_o can_v hear_v yea_o speak_v of_o thy_o word_n thy_o wrath_n etc._n etc._n and_o yet_o not_o fear_v thou_o not_o tremble_v at_o thy_o word_n nor_o at_o this_o my_o condition_n feb._n 19_o be_v sabbath_n day_n have_v former_o perceive_v a_o desperate_a hardness_n in_o my_o heart_n that_o that_o word_n which_o work_v upon_o other_o shall_v do_v i_o no_o good_a that_o no_o mean_n no_o mercy_n do_v melt_v my_o soul_n and_o almost_o despair_v of_o ever_o have_v it_o soften_v after_o prayer_n i_o be_v 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to_o this_o mountain_n be_v thou_o remove_v and_o cast_v into_o the_o sea_n such_o wonderful_a deadness_n have_v seize_v upon_o my_o soul_n so_o great_o have_v i_o be_v enslave_v and_o hold_v captive_a by_o satan_n that_o i_o have_v not_o be_v able_a true_o to_o desire_v the_o spirit_n of_o god_n o_o that_o my_o heart_n can_v bleed_v at_o the_o remembrance_n of_o this_o great_a evil_n that_o i_o shall_v not_o only_o be_v cut_v off_o from_o communion_n with_o god_n but_o be_v content_v with_o this_o condition_n that_o i_o shall_v have_v no_o groan_n in_o spirit_n to_o be_v deliver_v from_o this_o miserable_a bondage_n be_v instruct_v hence_o o_o my_o soul_n to_o ascribe_v every_o good_a motion_n to_o god_n if_o thou_o feel_v any_o hungring_n after_o jesus_n christ_n or_o any_o sorrow_n for_o want_n of_o god_n presence_n or_o the_o like_a own_o it_o as_o his_o work_n and_o bless_v he_o for_o it_o i_o have_v sometime_o find_v my_o condition_n much_o like_o the_o man_n mention_v joh._n 5._o who_o lay_v a_o long_a time_n by_o the_o pool_n of_o bethesda_n but_o be_v not_o able_a to_o put_v himself_o in_o that_o he_o may_v be_v heal_v even_o so_o it_o be_v with_o my_o soul_n though_o god_n have_v open_v a_o fountain_n for_o sin_n and_o for_o uncleanness_n to_o wash_v in_o and_o i_o find_v my_o soul_n exceed_o pollute_v yet_o i_o be_o not_o able_a to_o step_v into_o this_o fountain_n that_o i_o may_v be_v heal_v o_o my_o soul_n the_o lord_n see_v thy_o weakness_n and_o that_o thou_o have_v be_v now_o a_o long_a time_n in_o this_o case_n wait_v thou_o on_o god_n who_o can_v tell_v but_o that_o as_o the_o bowel_n of_o jesus_n christ_n do_v yearn_v towards_o the_o poor_a man_n so_o may_v his_o compassion_n be_v great_a towards_o thou_o and_o he_o may_v heal_v thou_o also_o cease_v not_o to_o importune_v he_o say_v jesus_n thou_o son_n of_o god_n have_v mercy_n on_o i_o o_o lord_n heal_v my_o soul_n have_v at_o several_a time_n find_v diverse_a work_n upon_o my_o heart_n as_o conviction_n and_o thereupon_o some_o pant_n and_o breathe_n after_o god_n but_o as_o yet_o nothing_o come_v to_o perfection_n i_o think_v of_o and_o find_v that_o i_o have_v cause_n to_o take_v up_o the_o complaint_n of_o hezekiah_n in_o another_o case_n it_o be_v a_o day_n of_o trouble_n and_o rebuke_v the_o child_n be_v come_v to_o the_o birth_n and_o there_o be_v no_o strength_n to_o bring_v forth_o isa_n 37._o 3._o some_o time_n after_o read_v isa_n 66._o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o that_o word_n v._n 9_o be_v suit_v to_o my_o case_n shall_v i_o bring_v to_o the_o birth_n and_o not_o cause_n to_o bring_v forth_o say_v the_o lord_n shall_v i_o cause_v to_o bring_v forth_o and_o shut_v the_o womb_n say_v thy_o god_n o_o my_o soul_n wait_v thou_o on_o god_n who_o will_v perfect_v his_o own_o work_n in_o thou_o he_o have_v say_v he_o will_v not_o break_v the_o bruise_a reed_n nor_o quench_v the_o smoke_a flax_n till_o he_o send_v forth_o judgement_n unto_o victory_n i_o have_v ofttimes_o see_v a_o law_n in_o my_o member_n war_a against_o the_o law_n of_o my_o mind_n and_o lead_v i_o into_o captivity_n to_o the_o law_n of_o sin_n and_o death_n so_o powerful_a and_o mighty_a have_v be_v the_o act_n of_o some_o inward_a corruption_n that_o i_o have_v not_o be_v able_a to_o overcome_v they_o but_o have_v be_v hurry_v captive_a by_o they_o hereby_o i_o come_v to_o see_v that_o truth_n the_o heart_n of_o man_n be_v desperate_o wicked_a who_o can_v know_v it_o i_o can_v fathom_v the_o depth_n of_o iniquity_n which_o be_v in_o my_o heart_n hereupon_o i_o be_o make_v to_o cry_v out_o with_o st._n paul_n o_o wretched_a man_n that_o i_o be_o who_o shall_v deliver_v i_o from_o this_o body_n of_o death_n o_o lord_n be_v not_o thou_o far_o from_o i_o but_o make_v haste_n to_o help_v i_o let_v the_o sigh_v of_o the_o prisoner_n come_v before_o thou_o proclaim_v liberty_n to_o thy_o captive_n and_o the_o open_n of_o the_o prison_n door_n to_o he_o that_o be_v bind_v with_o the_o chain_n of_o sin_n isa_n 61._o 1._o mar._n 26._o 1654._o i_o find_v that_o though_o in_o my_o judgement_n and_o profession_n i_o acknowledge_v christ_n to_o be_v my_o righteousness_n and_o peace_n yet_o upon_o examination_n i_o observe_v that_o my_o heart_n have_v do_v quite_o another_o thing_n and_o that_o secret_o i_o have_v go_v about_o to_o establish_v my_o own_o righteousness_n and_o have_v derive_v my_o comfort_n and_o peace_n from_o my_o own_o act_n for_o when_o i_o have_v be_v disquiet_v by_o the_o act_n of_o my_o sin_n that_o which_o have_v recover_v i_o to_o my_o former_a peace_n have_v not_o be_v that_o i_o can_v find_v god_n speak_v peace_n through_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n but_o rather_o from_o the_o intermission_n of_o temptation_n and_o the_o cessation_n of_o those_o sin_n when_o i_o have_v be_v trouble_v at_o a_o evil_a frame_n of_o heart_n i_o do_v not_o find_v that_o the_o righteousness_n of_o christ_n have_v be_v my_o consolation_n but_o that_o which_o have_v relieve_v i_o as_o far_o as_o i_o can_v find_v be_v that_o afterward_o i_o find_v myself_o in_o a_o better_a temper_n have_v be_v in_o trouble_n and_o perplexity_n i_o have_v read_v the_o scripture_n go_v to_o prayer_n and_o in_o do_v these_o i_o have_v be_v relieve_v yet_o i_o do_v not_o find_v that_o at_o such_o time_n i_o have_v real_a true_a live_a communion_n with_o god_n in_o such_o duty_n or_o that_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n do_v in_o those_o duty_n reveal_v to_o i_o my_o interest_n in_o christ_n and_o so_o quiet_a my_o conscience_n hence_o i_o come_v to_o see_v
what_o great_a need_n i_o have_v and_o that_o it_o be_v of_o singular_a use_n to_o watch_v over_o my_o soul_n in_o all_o its_o way_n both_o in_o reference_n to_o sin_n that_o i_o fall_v not_o into_o it_o and_o when_o fall_v what_o the_o carriage_n and_o act_n of_o my_o soul_n be_v at_o such_o a_o time_n whether_o i_o flee_v for_o relief_n to_o god_n in_o christ_n or_o to_o my_o own_o work_n and_o in_o reference_n to_o my_o duty_n to_o take_v heed_n lest_o those_o mean_n which_o god_n have_v appoint_v to_o be_v the_o conveyance_n of_o himself_o his_o son_n and_o spirit_n and_o all_o spiritual_a blessing_n shall_v prove_v to_o i_o a_o mean_a of_o death_n and_o separation_n from_o god_n by_o my_o formal_a use_n of_o they_o and_o rest_v in_o they_o for_o as_o satan_n keep_v some_o alienate_v from_o god_n by_o the_o gross_a pollution_n of_o the_o world_n so_o other_o from_o christ_n by_o their_o establish_v a_o righteousness_n of_o their_o own_o o_o lord_n break_v thou_o this_o snare_n for_o i_o and_o let_v my_o soul_n escape_v as_o a_o bird_n from_o the_o net_n that_o i_o may_v flee_v to_o thou_o and_o be_v at_o rest_n i_o have_v observe_v in_o myself_o that_o when_o god_n at_o any_o time_n be_v please_v to_o work_v any_o thing_n in_o my_o soul_n i_o soon_o lose_v it_o if_o he_o quicken_v i_o i_o soon_o grow_v dead_a heart_a again_o if_o he_o enliven_v my_o affection_n they_o soon_o grow_v cold_a and_o flat_a and_o my_o old_a hardness_n return_v upon_o i_o hence_o i_o come_v to_o see_v that_o it_o be_v infinite_a wisdom_n and_o goodness_n in_o god_n that_o he_o have_v not_o put_v the_o stock_n of_o grace_n into_o our_o own_o hand_n but_o have_v treasure_v it_o up_o in_o christ_n that_o our_o life_n be_v now_o hide_v with_o christ_n in_o god_n for_o so_o it_o become_v sure_a rom._n 4._o 16._o hereby_o also_o i_o come_v to_o see_v that_o i_o have_v need_n of_o continual_a recourse_n to_o jesus_n christ_n for_o new_a supply_n of_o grace_n and_o strength_n the_o lord_n god_n in_o his_o wisdom_n be_v please_v when_o he_o deliver_v his_o people_n out_o of_o egypt_n before_o he_o bring_v they_o to_o canaan_n to_o lead_v they_o 40_o year_n in_o the_o wilderness_n when_o as_o he_o can_v have_v lead_v they_o a_o near_a way_n to_o canaan_n exod._n 13._o 17._o he_o choose_v rather_o to_o lead_v they_o through_o the_o great_a and_o terrible_a wilderness_n jer._n 2._o 6._o where_o be_v fiery_a serpent_n and_o scorpion_n and_o drought_n where_o there_o be_v no_o water_n where_o he_o bring_v they_o forth_o water_v out_o of_o the_o rock_n of_o flint_n and_o feed_v they_o with_o manna_n for_o this_o end_n that_o he_o may_v humble_v they_o prove_v they_o and_o do_v they_o good_a in_o the_o latter_a end_n deut._n 8._o 15_o 16._o do_v thou_o find_v it_o so_o o_o my_o soul_n in_o thy_o travail_n towards_o the_o heavenly_a canaan_n do_v thou_o walk_v through_o much_o spiritual_a drought_n a_o land_n of_o desert_n and_o of_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n do_v meet_v with_o a_o flinty_a heart_n and_o fiery_a temptation_n know_v that_o the_o lord_n do_v this_o to_o humble_v thou_o which_o through_o his_o grace_n thou_o have_v sometime_o find_v and_o to_o prove_v thou_o i._n e_o to_o discover_v thou_o to_o thyself_o for_o he_o himself_o know_v thy_o thought_n afar_o off_o and_o this_o way_n of_o god_n through_o grace_n have_v be_v a_o mean_n of_o discover_v much_o of_o thy_o corrupt_a heart_n to_o thou_o and_o that_o he_o may_v do_v thou_o good_a in_o the_o latter_a end_n therefore_o take_v heed_n o_o my_o soul_n of_o israel_n sin_n of_o murmur_v against_o god_n under_o thy_o want_n of_o unbeleif_n and_o tempt_a god_n etc._n etc._n read_v oft_o and_o weight_n well_o the_o 78th_o psalm_n may_v 6._o be_v sabbath_n day_n the_o lord_n be_v please_v in_o the_o hear_n of_o his_o word_n to_o convince_v i_o of_o my_o sin_n and_o lose_v condition_n but_o lord_n how_o unfaithful_a be_v i_o then_o and_o have_v i_o be_v since_o to_o the_o conviction_n of_o thy_o spirit_n how_o soon_o have_v i_o heal_v up_o the_o wound_n that_o be_v give_v by_o the_o word_n how_o soon_o have_v a_o hard_a heart_n a_o secure_a careless_a spirit_n take_v possession_n of_o i_o lord_n if_o ever_o thy_o word_n be_v effectual_a in_o i_o thou_o must_v not_o only_o speak_v it_o to_o my_o heart_n but_o write_v and_o engraff_n it_o there_o also_o henceforth_o i_o desire_v to_o wait_v on_o thou_o as_o for_o the_o teach_n of_o thy_o spirit_n so_o for_o the_o write_n of_o thy_o law_n in_o my_o heart_n by_o thy_o spirit_n i_o find_v a_o lothness_n in_o my_o spirit_n to_o go_v to_o here_o this_o sermon_n whereby_o i_o perceive_v satan_n will_v have_v hinder_v i_o be_v encourage_v hence_o o_o my_o soul_n to_o break_v through_o all_o difficulty_n thou_o meet_v with_o in_o do_v thy_o duty_n when_o thou_o find_v any_o secret_a unwillingness_n to_o ordinance_n or_o duty_n then_o stir_v up_o thyself_o to_o wait_v upon_o god_n expect_v that_o he_o have_v some_o special_a mercy_n 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the_o like_a evil_n act._n 15._o 9_o that_o faith_n which_o shall_v make_v christ_n a_o great_a reality_n and_o more_o precious_a to_o i_o than_o any_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n 1_o pet._n 2._o 7._o that_o faith_n which_o bring_v peace_n with_o god_n and_o joy_n in_o the_o holy_a ghost_n unspeakable_a and_o full_a of_o glory_n rom._n 5._o 1._o 1_o pet._n 1._o 8._o i_o find_v i_o have_v have_v a_o dead_a faith_n jam._n 2._o 17_o 20._o and_o presume_v upon_o god_n mercy_n in_o christ_n although_o i_o have_v be_v estrange_v from_o god_n in_o my_o heart_n and_o nature_n my_o rest_a in_o duty_n and_o trust_v in_o my_o own_o righteousness_n as_o far_o as_o i_o can_v see_v have_v be_v the_o deceit_n of_o my_o heart_n lord_n lay_v this_o conviction_n upon_o my_o conscience_n for_o i_o find_v my_o heart_n will_v put_v it_o off_o yea_o it_o have_v already_o desperate_o harden_v itself_o against_o thou_o i_o fear_v i_o shall_v outgrow_a this_o conviction_n of_o thy_o word_n as_o at_o other_o 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of_o formality_n but_o now_o i_o find_v the_o scripture_n speak_v of_o dead_a work_n and_o call_v for_o repentance_n from_o they_o heb._n 6._o 1._o and_o purge_v our_o conscience_n from_o they_o heb._n 9_o 14._o by_o dead_a work_n i_o understand_v not_o only_o the_o gross_a pollution_n of_o the_o world_n but_o all_o work_n whatever_o that_o be_v do_v by_o a_o man_n void_a of_o the_o quicken_a spirit_n of_o god_n without_o union_n to_o christ_n there_o be_v no_o spiritual_a life_n for_o as_o the_o natural_a life_n result_v from_o the_o union_n of_o the_o soul_n with_o the_o body_n and_o the_o state_n of_o death_n be_v nothing_o but_o the_o
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lord_n when_o shall_v the_o day_n dawn_n and_o the_o daystar_n arise_v in_o my_o heart_n when_o shall_v the_o dayspring_n from_o on_o high_a visit_v my_o soul_n to_o give_v light_n to_o he_o that_o sit_v in_o darkness_n and_o in_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n come_v lord_n jesus_n thou_o light_v of_o life_n come_v quick_o that_o which_o keep_v i_o a_o long_a time_n from_o resolve_v to_o give_v up_o my_o whole_a heart_n to_o god_n in_o covenant_n be_v a_o fear_n that_o i_o shall_v break_v my_o covenant_n and_o so_o double_a my_o sin_n but_o i_o perceive_v since_o that_o this_o be_v but_o satan_n policy_n to_o keep_v my_o heart_n from_o god_n and_o the_o true_a ground_n of_o my_o not_o do_v this_o be_v not_o conscienciousness_n of_o sin_n as_o satan_n once_o make_v i_o believe_v but_o a_o loathness_n to_o part_v with_o all_o sin_n and_o to_o serve_v god_n with_o all_o my_o heart_n a_o strong_a encouragement_n thou_o have_v o_o my_o soul_n to_o enter_v covenant_n with_o god_n to_o serve_v 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in_o i_o yea_o i_o find_v my_o carnal_a heart_n be_v hunger_a after_o the_o fleshpot_n of_o egypt_n after_o its_o old_a delight_n and_o sinful_a pleasure_n be_v ready_a to_o murmur_v against_o god_n in_o the_o wilderness_n and_o speak_v of_o return_v into_o egypt_n and_o be_v impatient_a of_o the_o cross_n it_o revolt_v from_o god_n many_o a_o time_n and_o seek_v relief_n and_o contentment_n from_o the_o creature_n since_o my_o covenant_v with_o god_n i_o see_v more_o of_o thou_o treachery_n and_o hypocrisy_n of_o my_o heart_n i_o find_v my_o soul_n for_o a_o while_n more_o tender_a of_o sin_n and_o my_o heart_n seem_o engage_v to_o serve_v the_o lord_n but_o i_o soon_o forget_v the_o covenant_n that_o i_o have_v make_v and_o in_o a_o short_a space_n i_o do_v not_o find_v that_o my_o covenant_n have_v any_o influence_n on_o my_o heart_n or_o life_n so_o that_o i_o see_v i_o do_v but_o flatter_v the_o lord_n with_o my_o mouth_n and_o lie_v unto_o he_o with_o my_o tongue_n for_o my_o heart_n be_v not_o right_a with_o he_o neither_o be_v i_o steadfast_a in_o his_o covenant_n ps_n 78._o 36_o 37._o my_o unstedfastness_n in_o my_o covenant_n with_o the_o lord_n do_v arise_v as_o far_o as_o i_o perceive_v from_o these_o two_o ground_n 1._o my_o heart_n be_v not_o right_a with_o god_n when_o i_o make_v it_o there_o be_v not_o that_o inward_a cordial_a full_a resolution_n to_o part_v with_o all_o sin_n and_o that_o for_o ever_o from_o a_o antipathy_n to_o it_o and_o dislike_v of_o it_o neither_o that_o inward_a resolution_n of_o cleave_v to_o god_n to_o have_v he_o my_o all_o in_o all_o to_o take_v all_o my_o contentment_n and_o joy_n in_o he_o and_o to_o seek_v it_o in_o nothing_o else_o which_o shall_v have_v be_v 2._o i_o neglect_v my_o watch_n and_o do_v not_o as_o i_o shall_v renew_v my_o covenant_n often_o and_o engage_v my_o heart_n to_o walk_v with_o god_n and_o while_o i_o be_v slothful_a and_o negligent_a my_o heart_n be_v steal_v away_o by_o the_o devil_n and_o the_o world_n and_o be_v now_o in_o league_n again_o with_o sin_n lord_n make_v i_o upright_o and_o clear_v up_o to_o i_o my_o sincerity_n search_v i_o and_o try_v i_o and_o let_v i_o know_v the_o bottom_n of_o my_o heart_n keep_v i_o upon_o my_o watch_n and_o guard_n that_o i_o may_v keep_v my_o covenant_n jul._n 23._o the_o lord_n do_v awaken_v my_o conscience_n to_o such_o a_o sense_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o lose_v estate_n in_o the_o read_n and_o hear_v of_o his_o word_n that_o when_o i_o go_v to_o prayer_n i_o be_v before_o he_o as_o a_o lose_a creature_n be_v under_o wrath_n and_o the_o sentence_n of_o death_n lie_v in_o my_o blood_n and_o pollution_n now_o whereas_o before_o i_o find_v my_o heart_n carry_v out_o in_o beg_a sanctification_n i_o do_v now_o cry_v to_o god_n for_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n to_o wash_v away_o the_o guilt_n of_o my_o sin_n i_o do_v not_o before_o prize_v justify_v grace_n so_o as_o now_o in_o some_o weak_a measure_n i_o be_v make_v to_o do_v but_o i_o soon_o find_v a_o accurse_a hard_a heart_n in_o a_o little_a time_n i_o do_v not_o tremble_v at_o the_o wrath_n of_o god_n i_o have_v labour_v to_o work_v these_o conviction_n upon_o my_o heart_n but_o i_o find_v such_o a_o rove_a heart_n such_o a_o slighty_a heart_n so_o possess_v with_o vanity_n that_o nothing_o will_v abide_v with_o it_o lord_n unless_o thou_o save_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n i_o perish_v aug._n 6._o be_v sabbath_n day_n in_o meditation_n on_o 1_o joh._n 3._o 23._o this_o be_v his_o commandment_n that_o we_o shall_v believe_v on_o the_o name_n of_o his_o son_n jesus_n christ_n consider_v with_o myself_o what_o this_o do_v imply_v viz._n not_o only_o a_o rely_v upon_o god_n in_o christ_n for_o the_o remission_n of_o sin_n but_o for_o the_o pour_v out_o of_o the_o spirit_n joh._n 7._o 38_o 39_o which_o spirit_n when_o it_o be_v give_v will_v shed_v abroad_o the_o love_n of_o god_n in_o our_o heart_n rom._n 5._o 5._o and_o seal_v up_o the_o assurance_n of_o the_o 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a_o evident_a answer_n of_o prayer_n and_o a_o fulfil_n of_o that_o promise_n prov._n 28._o 27._o he_o that_o give_v unto_o the_o poor_a shall_v not_o lack_v april_n 24._o be_v desire_v to_o go_v to_o a_o poor_a christian_a i_o promise_v to_o go_v there_o be_v only_o two_o maid_n in_o the_o house_n i_o consider_v whether_o it_o may_v not_o prove_v some_o scandal_n to_o go_v but_o consider_v also_o she_o be_v a_o member_n of_o christ_n and_o therefore_o i_o ought_v to_o administer_v to_o her_o soul_n i_o resolve_v to_o commit_v the_o take_a care_n of_o my_o name_n to_o the_o lord_n and_o to_o do_v my_o duty_n i_o beg_v of_o he_o that_o he_o will_v secure_v i_o from_o reproach_n and_o as_o i_o go_v a_o honest_a poor_a man_n meet_v i_o to_o who_o i_o tell_v whither_o i_o be_v go_v and_o ask_v he_o to_o go_v along_o with_o i_o he_o be_v willing_a and_o do_v so_o i_o look_v upon_o he_o as_o send_v by_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n in_o answer_n to_o my_o prayer_n these_o be_v some_o of_o 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do_v it_o which_o give_v i_o abundant_a refreshment_n and_o do_v marvellous_o strengthen_v my_o hope_n in_o god_n this_o be_v give_v i_o in_o when_o i_o have_v set_v apart_o some_o time_n to_o humble_v my_o soul_n apr._n 5._o 1665._o i_o set_v apart_o that_o day_n for_o fast_v and_o prayer_n on_o behalf_n of_o my_o daughter_n elinor_n that_o have_v be_v so_o long_o sick_a and_o in_o the_o evening_n have_v my_o faith_n revive_v from_o isa_n 44._o 3_o i_o will_v pour_v my_o spirit_n upon_o thy_o seed_n apr._n 7._o i_o begin_v the_o day_n with_o discourse_n with_o some_o friend_n before_o i_o have_v be_v at_o my_o private_a communion_n with_o god_n i_o meet_v with_o a_o gentle_a rebuke_n from_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n in_o my_o family_n affair_n and_o my_o heart_n be_v flat_a in_o family_n duty_n and_o straighten_a in_o private_a i_o take_v this_o as_o a_o item_n to_o begin_v with_o god_n before_o i_o converse_v with_o man_n in_o the_o evening_n god_n come_v in_o gracious_o to_o i_o in_o my_o family_n exercise_n apr._n 9_o lord_n day_n i_o be_v much_o discompose_v in_o my_o spirit_n in_o the_o morning_n by_o reason_n of_o a_o foil_n sin_n have_v give_v i_o the_o evening_n before_o satan_n will_v have_v boat_n i_o off_o from_o preach_v in_o my_o family_n but_o i_o perform_v my_o morning_n exercise_n and_o continue_v deject_v till_o the_o evening_n and_o then_o in_o family_n prayer_n god_n gracious_o revive_v i_o with_o that_o promise_n hos_fw-la 11._o 10._o they_o shall_v walk_v after_o the_o lord_n in_o connexion_n with_o vers_fw-la 7._o my_o people_n be_v bend_v to_o backslide_v though_o they_o call_v they_o to_o the_o most_o high_a none_o at_o all_o will_v exalt_v he_o where_o two_o thing_n be_v a_o great_a relief_n to_o my_o faith_n 1._o god_n promise_v they_o shall_v walk_v after_o he_o notwithstanding_o their_o habitual_a proness_n to_o backslide_v from_o god_n 2._o notwithstanding_o their_o refuse_v to_o exalt_v the_o lord_n though_o call_v to_o it_o yet_o 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as_o frowardness_n etc._n etc._n may_v make_v i_o fearful_a of_o its_o estate_n it_o be_v bring_v to_o my_o mind_n that_o the_o covenant_n be_v to_o give_v pardon_n of_o sin_n heb._n 8._o 10_o 12._o and_o whereas_o faith_n and_o regeneration_n be_v necessary_a to_o salvation_n i_o consider_v further_a that_o the_o covenant_n be_v to_o give_v all_o thing_n necessary_a to_o salvation_n 2_o sam._n 23._o 5._o this_o be_v all_o my_o salvation_n beside_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o covenant_n god_n give_v i_o other_o encouragement_n to_o hope_v in_o reference_n to_o my_o child_n as_o from_o math._n 19_o 14
suffer_v little_a child_n to_o come_v unto_o i_o and_o from_o observe_v how_o prevalent_a faith_n and_o prayer_n be_v with_o god_n for_o the_o remission_n of_o sin_n and_o salvation_n of_o other_o as_o well_o as_o our_o own_o soul_n math._n 9_o 2._o jesus_n see_v their_o faith_n say_v son_n be_v of_o good_a cheer_n thy_o sin_n be_v forgive_v thou_o so_o 1_o joh._n 5._o 16._o if_o a_o man_n see_v his_o brother_n sin_n a_o sin_n which_o be_v not_o unto_o death_n he_o shall_v ask_v of_o god_n and_o he_o shall_v give_v he_o life_n now_o i_o considere_v that_o though_o my_o child_n have_v sin_n incident_a to_o childhood_n yet_o it_o have_v not_o sin_v the_o sin_n unto_o death_n and_o therefore_o i_o conclude_v that_o if_o i_o ask_v of_o god_n he_o will_v give_v it_o life_n jam._n 5._o 15._o the_o prayer_n of_o faith_n shall_v save_v the_o sick_a and_o if_o he_o have_v commit_v sin_n they_o shall_v be_v forgive_v he_o math._n 15._o 22_o 28._o the_o woman_n of_o canaan_n faith_n and_o prayer_n avail_v with_o christ_n for_o the_o cast_v the_o devil_n out_o of_o her_o daughter_n now_o god_n help_v i_o to_o act_v faith_n for_o my_o child_n upon_o the_o account_n of_o his_o covenant_n and_o stir_v i_o by_o his_o spirit_n often_o to_o pray_v for_o my_o child_n i_o be_v thereby_o encourage_v to_o hope_v for_o its_o salvation_n when_o my_o child_n die_v the_o same_o day_n the_o small_a pox_n begin_v to_o appear_v upon_o my_o sister_n i_o know_v not_o what_o breach_n god_n may_v be_v about_o to_o make_v in_o my_o family_n but_o as_o i_o be_v hear_v the_o word_n the_o minister_n treat_v on_o god_n intention_n to_o glorify_v himself_o by_o all_o affliction_n that_o he_o lay_v upon_o his_o people_n from_o that_o scripture_n isa_n 5._o 15_o 16._o this_o word_n satisfy_v i_o that_o whatever_o judgement_n god_n shall_v bring_v upon_o i_o or_o my_o family_n he_o will_v exalt_v and_o glorify_v his_o own_o name_n by_o they_o hereupon_o i_o submit_v and_o resign_v up_o myself_o to_o god_n to_o do_v with_o i_o and_o i_o what_o he_o please_v yet_o i_o be_v then_o under_o the_o sense_n of_o sin_n which_o weaken_v my_o faith_n and_o make_v i_o fearful_a i_o shall_v not_o bear_v up_o cheerful_o if_o i_o shall_v be_v visit_v while_o under_o the_o sense_n of_o guilt_n but_o i_o be_v much_o encourage_v in_o meditation_n from_o mic._n 7._o 8_o 9_o when_o i_o sit_v in_o darkness_n the_o lord_n will_v be_v a_o light_n unto_o i_o this_o faith_n they_o hold_v when_o their_o affliction_n be_v attend_v with_o the_o sense_n of_o sin_n for_o it_o follow_v i_o will_v bear_v the_o indignation_n of_o the_o lord_n because_o i_o have_v sin_v against_o he_o i_o be_v also_o much_o encourage_v by_o view_v the_o promise_n that_o i_o have_v collect_v to_o comfort_v myself_o with_o when_o i_o be_v in_o danger_n of_o contagious_a disease_n especial_o those_o two_o viz_o ps_n 41._o 12._o as_o for_o i_o thou_o set_v i_o before_o thy_o face_n for_o ever_o and_o this_o be_v when_o under_o a_o evil_a disease_n v_o 8_o which_o be_v the_o fruit_n of_o his_o sin_n ver_fw-la 4._o and_o ps_n 38._o 5_o 7._o my_o wound_n stink_v and_o be_v corrupt_a my_o loin_n be_v fill_v with_o a_o loathsome_a disease_n etc._n etc._n though_o in_o this_o visitation_n he_o be_v afflict_v with_o the_o sense_n of_o sin_n and_o of_o god_n displeasure_n v_o 1_o 2_o 3_o 4_o and_o be_v deprive_v of_o the_o comfortable_a society_n of_o his_o relation_n and_o friend_n v_o 11._o yet_o he_o keep_v up_o his_o hope_n in_o god_n v_o 15._o in_o a_o little_a time_n after_o i_o have_v the_o sense_n of_o guilt_n take_v off_o while_o i_o be_v study_v my_o sermon_n to_o remove_v the_o fear_n of_o death_n jun._n 12._o as_o i_o be_v read_v act._n 6._o in_o my_o evening_n course_n by_o myself_o i_o observe_v by_o compare_v ver_fw-la 4._o 7._o that_o upon_o the_o apostle_n give_v themselves_o continual_o to_o prayer_n and_o to_o the_o ministry_n of_o the_o word_n the_o number_n of_o the_o disciple_n increase_v great_o in_o jerusalem_n and_o a_o great_a company_n of_o the_o priest_n be_v obedient_a to_o the_o faith_n i_o be_v instruct_v and_o affect_v with_o it_o and_o see_v it_o be_v necessary_a i_o shall_v pray_v much_o as_o well_o as_o preach_v much_o if_o i_o will_v convert_v many_o soul_n and_o that_o upon_o give_v myself_o to_o prayer_n and_o to_o the_o ministry_n of_o the_o word_n i_o be_v in_o the_o most_o likely_a way_n to_o convert_v many_o soul_n to_o christ_n the_o priest_n be_v the_o chief_a opposer_n of_o the_o gospel_n act._n 4._o 1_o 2._o the_o chief_a persecuter_n of_o christ_n math._n 16._o 21._o and_o 20_o 18._o the_o most_o active_a in_o put_v christ_n to_o death_n mar._n 15._o 10_o 11._o luk._n 19_o 47._o the_o multitude_n that_o come_v to_o apprehend_v christ_n be_v send_v by_o the_o priest_n joh._n 18._o 3._o the_o false_a witness_n be_v suborn_v by_o the_o priest_n math_n 26._o 59_o yet_o by_o the_o power_n of_o prayer_n and_o the_o word_n these_o priest_n be_v bring_v in_o by_o great_a number_n to_o the_o faith_n of_o christ_n and_o the_o obedience_n of_o the_o gosple_n jun._n 25._o about_o three_o of_o the_o clock_n in_o the_o morning_n be_v lord_n day_n my_o wife_n be_v deliver_v of_o a_o daughter_n and_o that_o morning_n the_o lord_n send_v a_o very_a plentiful_a rain_n the_o tuesday_n before_o we_o keep_v a_o day_n of_o humiliation_n for_o my_o wife_n safe_a delivery_n and_o to_o seek_v the_o lord_n for_o rain_n and_o the_o lord_n give_v a_o gracious_a answer_n to_o the_o prayer_n of_o that_o day_n both_o at_o one_o time_n jul._n 31._o i_o see_v the_o plague_n of_o my_o heart_n break_v out_o i_o argue_v against_o my_o corruption_n yet_o it_o overcome_v i_o and_o lead_v i_o captive_a it_o wound_v i_o that_o i_o shall_v still_o sin_v against_o god_n even_o while_o under_o his_o correct_a hand_n my_o faith_n be_v revive_v by_o that_o scripture_n isa_n 57_o 17_o 18._o i_o smite_v he_o he_o go_v on_o froward_o in_o the_o way_n of_o his_o own_o heart_n i_o have_v see_v his_o way_n and_o will_v heal_v he_o i_o be_v much_o encourage_v from_o that_o word_n i_o will_v heal_v he_o which_o import_v the_o subdue_a as_o well_o as_o the_o pardon_v of_o sin_n aug._n 2._o i_o be_v encourage_v to_o write_v something_o that_o may_v be_v useful_a for_o my_o generation_n from_o jer._n 36._o 1_o 2_o 3_o 4_o 5._o two_o thing_n especial_o from_o that_o scripture_n do_v put_v i_o forward_o to_o this_o 1._o writing_n of_o the_o word_n of_o god_n be_v a_o mean_n to_o convert_v soul_n and_o to_o lead_v they_o to_o repentance_n 2._o this_o command_n for_o writing_n be_v give_v when_o jeremiah_n be_v shut_v up_o and_o can_v not_o preach_v as_o usual_o and_o such_o be_v my_o case_n viz_o i_o be_v debar_v from_o public_a preach_n hereupon_o i_o apprehend_v god_n call_v i_o to_o write_v sept._n 6._o be_v fast_o day_n as_o i_o come_v from_o church_n i_o receive_v a_o letter_n from_o mr._n j._n which_o acquaint_v i_o that_o my_o son_n samuel_n be_v very_o ill_o that_o day_n i_o spend_v somewhat_o unprofitable_o i_o be_v not_o affect_v as_o i_o ought_v with_o public_a judgement_n and_o the_o misery_n of_o other_o and_o therefore_o it_o be_v just_a with_o god_n to_o bring_v affliction_n into_o my_o family_n the_o next_o day_n my_o wife_n and_o i_o go_v over_o to_o see_v our_o child_n and_o after_o we_o have_v be_v with_o it_o about_o five_o or_o six_o hour_n it_o die_v very_o sudden_o i_o be_v trouble_v that_o i_o do_v not_o pray_v with_o it_o before_o it_o die_v which_o be_v occasion_v by_o be_v in_o another_o family_n and_o my_o not_o apprehend_v death_n to_o be_v near_o this_o stroke_n come_v soon_o after_o my_o removal_n from_o colchester_n i_o commune_v with_o my_o heart_n whether_o i_o have_v sin_v in_o remove_v from_o that_o place_n and_o my_o conscience_n do_v not_o at_o that_o time_n charge_v i_o with_o sin_n in_o remove_v my_o habitation_n i_o be_v comfort_v in_o call_v to_o mind_n god_n deal_v with_o jacob_n who_o meet_v with_o many_o affliction_n in_o those_o remove_n which_o he_o make_v at_o the_o command_n of_o god_n he_o be_v pursue_v by_o his_o uncle_n put_v into_o great_a fear_n by_o his_o brother_n lose_v deborah_n his_o mother_n nurse_n and_o rachel_n his_o belove_a wife_n his_o son_n reuben_n simeon_n and_o levi_n fall_v into_o foul_a sin_n etc._n etc._n hence_o i_o see_v that_o god_n try_v his_o dear_a servant_n with_o sudden_a and_o sore_a affliction_n in_o those_o place_n to_o which_o they_o have_v remove_v at_o the_o call_n of_o god_n sept._n 24._o i_o enjoy_v the_o opportunity_n
of_o the_o lord_n supper_n i_o find_v god_n gracious_a to_o i_o in_o preparation_n in_o the_o morning_n when_o i_o awake_v god_n bring_v to_o my_o remembrance_n jer._n 2._o 32._o can_v a_o maid_n forget_v her_o ornament_n or_o a_o bride_n her_o attire_n i_o consider_v i_o be_v to_o meet_v and_o sup_v with_o my_o bridegroom_n the_o lord_n jesus_n and_o then_o consider_v what_o ornament_n and_o attire_n will_v best_o please_v he_o that_o i_o may_v put_v they_o on_o and_o these_o be_v present_v to_o my_o thought_n some_o as_o i_o lie_v in_o bed_n and_o some_o afterward_o as_o lovely_a and_o desirable_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o christ_n which_o i_o determine_v to_o put_v on_o 1_o sy_n a_o meek_a and_o quiet_a spirit_n 1_o pet._n 3._o 4._o 2_o lie_n faith_n cant._n 4._o 9_o thou_o hash_fw-mi ravish_v my_o heart_n my_o sister_n my_o spouse_n with_o one_o of_o thy_o eye_n faith_n have_v the_o office_n of_o a_o eye_n in_o the_o soul_n joh._n 6._o 40._o every_o one_o that_o see_v and_o believe_v 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