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and_o every_o outward_a work_n of_o god_n come_v from_o the_o father_n through_o the_o son_n and_o by_o the_o holy_a ghost_n the_o father_n begin_v every_o work_n of_o himself_o work_v in_o and_o through_o the_o son_n also_o in_o and_o by_o the_o holy_a ghost_n therefore_o the_o make_n and_o begin_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n be_v entitle_v unto_o he_o the_o son_n work_v in_o and_o from_o the_o father_n in_o and_z by_o the_o holy_a ghost_n therefore_o the_o redemption_n and_o saviourship_n go_v in_o his_o name_n because_o he_o take_v unto_o he_o a_o body_n and_o a_o soul_n and_o so_o be_v both_o god_n &_o man_n purchase_v our_o salvation_n and_o save_v we_o in_o and_o from_o his_o father_n in_o and_z by_o the_o holy_a ghost_n joh._n 4.19_o the_o son_n can_v do_v nothing_o of_o himself_o mat._n 12.28_o but_o if_o i_o cast_v out_o devil_n by_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n etc._n etc._n the_o holy_a ghost_n work_v in_o and_o from_o the_o father_n in_o and_z from_o the_o son_n and_o so_o 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be_v always_o very_o fearful_a of_o displease_v he_o prou._n 28.14_o four_o to_o settle_v all_o my_o trust_n and_o confidence_n in_o he_o jer._n 17.5.6.7_o how_o have_v i_o perform_v these_o duty_n first_o i_o have_v not_o be_v mindful_a of_o god_n presence_n for_o both_o be_v alone_o and_o in_o company_n my_o mind_n have_v be_v so_o far_o from_o that_o duty_n as_o if_o there_o have_v be_v in_o my_o belief_n no_o god_n at_o all_o second_o i_o have_v all_o my_o life_n long_o more_o esteem_v love_a and_o desire_v worldly_a pleasure_n and_o profit_n yea_o vain_a toy_n and_o trifle_n than_o the_o favour_n of_o god_n i_o have_v a_o far_o off_o think_v upon_o god_n as_o of_o a_o thing_n at_o the_o furthermost_a end_n of_o all_o the_o world_n and_o therefore_o my_o affection_n be_v always_o wed_v unto_o thing_n which_o seem_v to_o be_v near_o unto_o i_o though_o indeed_o nothing_o can_v be_v so_o near_o unto_o i_o as_o he_o be_v for_o in_o he_o i_o live_v and_o move_v and_o have_v my_o be_v 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trent_n with_o who_o i_o have_v former_o be_v for_o my_o windy_a disease_n and_o by_o mean_n of_o m._n john_n batte_n vicar_n of_o newarke_n now_o decease_v my_o old_a schoolmaster_n have_v receive_v much_o favour_n from_o he_o he_o send_v i_o word_n that_o as_o he_o can_v conjecture_v by_o my_o letter_n for_o i_o be_v not_o able_a to_o ride_v unto_o he_o i_o be_v in_o danger_n of_o some_o deadly_a fret_a in_o my_o kidney_n by_o reason_n of_o gravel_n stone_n which_o be_v not_o without_o difficulty_n to_o be_v prevent_v in_o a_o settle_a course_n of_o physic_n i_o have_v little_a money_n to_o bestow_v and_o no_o great_a mind_n to_o take_v bodily_a medicine_n before_o my_o soul_n be_v cure_v by_o the_o physic_n of_o jesus_n christ_n crucify_v the_o grievous_a disease_n of_o my_o water_n increase_v and_o my_o old_a splennitive_a windiness_n fill_v my_o body_n and_o head_n together_o with_o a_o extreme_a faintness_n the_o 19_o day_n of_o april_n i_o do_v with_o very_o fearful_a 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unto_o thou_o be_v all_o good_a pleasure_n praise_n honour_n worship_n and_o glory_n in_o jesus_n christ_n now_o and_o for_o evermore_o amen_n amen_n ¶_o my_o noon_n psalm_n to_o a_o tune_n which_o in_o cambridge_n be_v call_v mr._n perkins_n tune_n o_o holy_a holy_a holy_a lord_n the_o pure_a of_o all_o thing_n the_o blessefull_a glorious_a majesty_n from_o whence_o all_o goodness_n spring_v look_v down_o from_o thy_o most_o holy_a place_n behold_v good_a lord_n and_o see_v a_o sinful_a woeful_a wretched_a man_n most_o loathsome_a unto_o thou_o most_o foul_a and_o filthy_a be_v my_o sin_n ah_o fie_o upon_o i_o fie_o o_o father_n of_o all_o holiness_n to_o thou_o for_o grace_n i_o cry_v for_o grace_v to_o wash_v and_o make_v i_o clean_o from_o
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