Faith Here for his better Information I shall lay down Ten Principles which 'tis highly requisite he should be acquainted with 1. The Communicant must know That there is a God who is from Everlasting to Everlasting and every where present a Spirit of incomprehensible Wisdom Power Righteousness and Goodness the Maker and Governour of Heaven and Earth and all the creatures which are therein Heb. 11. Psal 90. 1. Jer. 13. 23. Joh. 4. 24. Rom. 16. ult Ps 147. 5. Psal 116. 5. Gen. 2. 1. Dan. 4. 34 35. 2. This God is but One and yet he is distinguished into the Father the Son and the Holy Ghost which have the same Godhead Power and Eternity 1 Joh. 5. 7. Matth. 28. 19. 1 Joh. 5. 20. Heb. 9. 14. Act. 5. 4. This Doctrine of the Trinity is revealed that we may have right conceptions of the True God when we Worship him Excellent is that passage of Nazianzen Orat. 40. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 I am not able to understand One but I am presently struck with the brightness of Three I am not able to distinguish Three but I am presently brought back to One again We are also further to take notice how all these Three Persons in the glorious Godhead do concur in that great Salvation which is brought to light and offered in the Gospel The Father sends the Son to become Man and Mans Saviour the Son is made Flesh and puts away sin by the Sacrifice of himself The Spirit is sent to convince men of sin and of their need of this Saviour and to draw them to him that beleiving in him they may not perish but have Everlasting Life 3. The Communicant must know That Man was at first made upright The first Man Adam had his Makers Image when first he was made which Image did consist in Knowledge Righteousness and Holiness and in having Dominion over the Creatures A Covenant was made with Adam of Life and Immortality upon condition of perfect Obeaience which then he had Power if he would to yeild and he was threatned with Death if he did Eat of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil Eccles 7. ult Gen. 1. 26. Ephes 4. 24. Col. 3. 10. Rom. 10. 5. Gen. 2. 17. 4. The first man Adam being a publick person and representing his whole Posterity did sin against God in Eating the forbidden Fruit and all his posterity Immanuel excepted who being conceived by the Holy Ghost was Born of a Virgin sinned in him and are Fallen short of the Glory of God so that all are Born the Children of Wrath all have corrupted Natures so that they are Reprobate to every thing that is Good and strongly inclined unto Evil in Thought Word and Deed and every sin being a Transgression of the Holy Law of the great God the Desert and Wages of it is no less then Death and Hell Rom. 5. 14. Gen. 3. 6. Rom. 5. 12. Rom. 3. 23. Luke 1. 35. Ephes 2. 3. Gen. 6. 5. 1 Joh. 3. 4. Rom. 6. ult 5. Jesus Christ the Eternal Son of God did take mans Nature upon him but was perfectly free from Sin and suffered in that Nature becoming Obedient unto Death even the Death of the Cross and his Blood is sufficient being the Blood of him that is God and Man to cleanse from sin and to make peace and he is able to save unto the utter most all that come unto God by him neither is there Salvation in any other Heb. 2. 16. Phil. 2. 6 7 8. Act. 20. 28. 1 Joh. 1. 7. Col. 1. 20. Heb. 7. 25. Acts 4. 12. 6. The Communicant must know That Christ after his Death and Eurial did rise again the third day which shewed that the price he paid for his Churches Redemption was sufficient and having Forty days conversed upon Earth with his Disciples and been seen of several other Witnesses even Five Hundred Brethren at once at length he did Ascend into Heaven and is at the Right Hand of God to make Intercession for them that Beleive in him and from Heaven where he now is He shall be at last revealed with Power and great Glory to Judge the World in Righteousness Rom. 4. ult 1 Cor. 15. 3 4 5 6. Luk. 24. 51. Rom. 8. 34. 2 Thess 1. 7. Matth. 25. 31. Acts 17. 31. 7. Christ has three Offices Prophetical Preistly and Kingly As a Prophet he does Teach his Church and who teacheth like him As a Preist he has made satisfaction and does intercede for them And as a King he does Govern and Defend them And this Church of his are Called Justified Sanctified and shall be Saved And though Earth and Hell hate them yet there shall be somewhere or other a Church of Christ always unto the end of the World Acts 3. 22. Heb. 4. 14. Heb. 10. 14. Rev. 19. 16. Ps 3. ult Rom. 8. 30. 1 Cor. 6. 11. Matth. 28. ult 8. The Communicant must know That the Holy Ghost did move and inspire the Penman of the Holy Scripture so that 't is of Divine Authority and contanis all things needful to be known beleived and done in order to Salvation The Books of the Old and New Testament are to be received as the Word of God Those therefore that lived under the Old Testament had some Knowledge of Christ and the Gospel and were saved no other way but by him But under the New Testament Christ and the things of our peace are much more fully revealed 2 Pet. 1. ult 2 Tim. 3. 16. Ps 19. 7. 2 Tim. 3. 17. Eph. 2. 20. Acts 26. 22 23. Matth. 13. 17. 2 Cor. 3. 18. 9. There is a New Covenant which God has made with his people who Repent and Beleive into which Covenant he has also taken their Infant Seed and therein he has promised to be their God to pardon Sin to give Grace after Death to raise them up at the Last day and to bestow upon them Life Everlasting and this Covenant as it was under the Old Testament confirmed by Circumcision and the Passover so under the New 't is confirmed by Baptism and the Lords Supper which two Sacraments are the Seals of it Heb. 8. 8. 10. 12. Acts 3. 19. Acts 16. 31. Acts 2. 39. Joh. 6. 39. 40. Rom. 6. ult Rom. 4. 11. 1 Cor. 5. 7. Matth. 28. 19. 1 Cor. 11. 24 25. 1 Cor. 10. 16. 10. The Communicant must know That the Law of God is not Abolished but Established by Faith as a Rule of Righteousness for Christians to walk by And sincere Obedience to the Law and Gospel through Christ shall be Accepted and Rewarded but those who live and dye Vnbeleiving Impenitent and Disobedient shall suffer the Vengeance of Eternal Fire and their Condemnation will be sorest who have been often offered but have neglected great Salvation Rom. 3. ult 1 Joh. 2. 1. 1 Cor. 15. 58. 1 Pet. 2. 5. 2 Thess 1. 8. 9. Heb. 2. 3. These are the Ten Principles of the Christian Religion which the Communicant is
reason they should despair of mercy Ans 1. Despair is one of the greatest sins that can be committed dishonouring the grace of God making light of the blood of Christ and very opposite to the Spitit of Grace It is good says the Prophet that a man should hope Lam. 3. 26. Surely then 't is bad that a man should despair This sin thwarts the very design of the Gospel And Satan being hopeless himself would fain hinder sensible Sinners from hoping though he cherishes vain hopes in such as are presumptuous 2. There is a despair that is a Duty that is a despair of help from self and a despair of help from God if there be a resolution to continue in Sin Thou mayest as well hope to get no harm by the fall in throwing thy self off from the top of Londons Monument Thou may'st as well cast thy self into the Fire and hope not to be burnt as go on still in thy Sins and hope to escape everlasting Flames 3. But yet the door of hope is really open to the greatest Sinners that are willing to return to God and become Saints Blasphemous persecuting Saul was let in at this door And 1 Cor. 6. 9 10 11. you read of a sad Crew that if Hell were to be raked worse could hardly be found Fornicators Idolaters Adulterers effeminate abusers of themselves with Mankind Thieves Covetous Drunkards Revilers Extortioners and yet these were washt and sanctified and justified in the name of the Lord Jesus and by the spirit of our God Such instances of the rich and free grace of God should hinder the worst from despairing when they come to themselves and are minded to come home to the Lord. 4. That conviction of sin and misery which sensible Souls have is the common road to Christ and grace and comfort He gives rest to the weary and heavy laden he gives liberty to the captives and binds up the broken hearted Mat. 11. 28. Luk. 4. 18. When Sinners are brought to the brink of Hell in their own apprehension this is an hopeful sign they shall be delivered from that place of woe and sorrow and that they shall not feel what they fear Case 5. The fifth Case is this What course must Sinners take after they have prov'd themselves and found how bad they are to be brought into a better and safe Estate Ans 1. They must not oppose conviction but be willing nay earnestly desirous that it may be thorow that their humiliation may be the deeper they must not only be sensible that their actions have been bad but that their hearts are a great deal worse that their very nature is corrupted and their state most miserable Slight convictions soon wear off and a little sense of Sin is followed only with such goodness that is as the morning cloud and as the early dew it goeth away Hos 6. 4. The deeper the humiliation commonly the stricter the holiness afterwards Piscator ictus sapit the burnt Child dreads the Fire And he that hath tasted the Wormwood and the Gall that is in Sin will be the more alienated from it and afraid of contracting new guilt and defilement Let not the pangs of contrition go off too soon for fear there be an abortive instead of the new birth the more you are burthen'd with Sin the more sincere Conversion will be and Christ is the readier to give you rest 2. They must consent to cast away every transgression and cease to be the companions of Transgressors Let not any Sin be kept and rolled as a swee morsel under the Tongue for 't will prove as bitter and deadly as the very gall of Asps at last That promise Iniquity shall not be your ruine is annexed to a command Cast away from you all your transgressions Ezek. 18. 30 31. The wicked man is required to forsake his way which intimates the reformation of his life and also to forsake his thoughts which shews his very heart must be renewed else there cannot be a returning unto God indeed nor mercy and pardon obtained Esa 55. 7. It is reported concerning Agrippina the Mother of Nero Caesar that it was foretold her That her Son should be Emperor of Rome but afterwards kill his own Mother She said Occidat modo imperet Let him kill me so he may but Reign Oh let not any Sinner say so concerning any gainful delightful darling Sin Let it damn me so it may but Reign Let me die by it so I may but live in it And as sinful courses must be abandoned so also sinful company Save your selves from an untoward generation Act. 2. 40. was the advice of Peter to those awakned Souls that askt him what they should do If you would turn to God and go to Heaven you must leave that company that are resolved to go on in Sin and unto Hell 3. They must attend upon prophecy and beg that the Spirit would accompany it The Word of God is the incorruptible seed of which Sinners are born again 1 Pet. 1. 23. and the Word is made effectual by the Spirit 'T is a very encouraging asseveration of Christ Joh. 5. 25. Verily verily I say unto you The hour is coming and now is when the dead shall hear the voice of the Son of God and live A meer man might have cried long enough and to no purpose at Lazarus his grave But when our Lord says Lazarus come forth there went out a power along with his word that raised him Let Sinners attend upon the Word of Christ Christ himself may speak to them as well as man and then the Spirit of Life will enter into them and the dead in sin shall live 4. They must look unto Jesus for righteousness and strength Esa 45. 24. The righteousness of Christ is necessary unto Sinners reconciliation therefore God does not impute their own sins to them upon their believing in Christ because he does impute the righteousness of his Son That 's a notable place Rom. 4. 6. Even as David also describeth the blessedness of the man to whom the Lord imputeth righteousness without works Here is an imputed righteousness and lest any should think it a putative or imaginary righteousness 't is called a righteousness of the Lords own imputing Further 't is a righteousness that does not consist in any works or obedience of ours Finally this Doctrine of the imputed righteousness of Christ is asserted by David under the Old Testament as by Paul under the New In Sinners Approach unto God this righteousness is to be relied on for pardon and justification And as his Righteousness is necessary unto Reconciliation so is his strength and the power of his Spirit unto Conversion None will be made free from the power of Sin and Satan none will be delivered from the power of darkness till the Son of God does make them free indeed and translate them into his own Kingdom 5. They must cry unto God to be throughly turned So did Ephraim Jer. 31.
end there is glory and immortality 6. Where there is Saving illumination there will be a following on to know the Lord and a desire to be enlightned further and an application unto God himself to be the Teacher Ministers and means are to be made use of but we must look beyond both to Heaven to the Father of Lights and Mercies David often prays to have his eyes more fully opened and to be taught to better purpose Psal 119. Moses cryes out Teach us so to number our days that we may apply our hearts to Wisdom Psal 90. 12. Who knows not that mans days are few And yet this ordinary lesson God must teach else none will learn it right so as to be indeed the wiser and all have need to learn this lesson more perfectly The truely enlightned long to be enlightned more because wisdom is so principal a thing Psal 119. 130. The entrance of thy Words giveth light it giveth understanding to the simple and then presently it follows vers 131. I opened my mouth and panted for I longed for thy Commandments Cas 2. The second Case is this When may Humiliation be said to be true As humiliation in Christ went before his exaltation so must his followers first be humbled in the sight of the Lord and he has promised to lift them up Now thus true humiliation may be known 1. Humiliation implies a conviction of Sin The humbled Soul sees his Sin and feels it sees the heinousness feels the weight of it Those humbled ones Esa 59. 12. speak thus Our transgressions are multiplied before and our iniquities testifie against us for our trangressions are with us and as for our iniquities we know them They know their iniquities too well to make light of them they do indeed know and see that 't is an evil thing and a bitter that they have sinn'd against the Lord and were once void of his fear Jer. 2. 19. Being afflicted mourning weeping turning our laughter to mourning our joy to heaviness ' the Apostle makes to be humbling of our selves Jam. 4. 9 10. 2. True Humiliation implies Shame and Self-abhorrency Unhumbled Israel are charged with the want of this Jer. 8. 12. Were they ashamed when they had committed abomination Nay they were not at all ashamed neither could they blush therefore they shall fall among them that fall in the time that I visit they shall be cast down saith the Lord. But humbled ones are made to remember their evil ways and their doings that have not been good so as to loath themselves for their iniquities Ezek. 36. 31. They see ground for shame and blushing considering the great guilt that lies upon them the odious and filthy spots and stains that Sin has left upon their Souls together with the monstrous ingratitude where with they are chargeable All their transgressions have struck at that God who gave them their Being keeps them alive and out of Hell and they have not one mercy or comfort but is of his giving And this God is al-seeing knows the secretest abominations is acquainted even with all their heart-impurity no wonder therefore that they are ashamed and lie down and are covered with confusion Jer. 3. 25. 3. True humiliation implies a taking shame to our selves by confession of Sin and as we take shame to our selves so hereby we give glory unto God David did thus Ps 51. 3. I acknowledge my iniquity and my sin is ever before me An humbled Sinner Est fidelis Dei Orator contra seipsum brings in black Bills of Indictment against himself and in his Confession lays open all especially the worst of all conceals nothing that is evil out of any regard thereto or unwillingness to forsake it And as covering of Sin shall not prosper so they that thus confess and forsake Sin shall have mercy Prov. 28. 13. Confession is by One called Vomitus Spiritualis a Spiritual Vomiting they that are indeed humbled make conscience of abstaining from the iniquities they have acknowledged they dare not return with the Dog to his own vomit again and with the Swine that is washed to her wallowing in the Mire 2 Pet. 2. ult 4. True humiliation implies Self-diffidence Humbled ones 't is very apparent to them that they have no reason at all to place any confidence in themselves they see that their own wisdom is folly and that true wisdom is from above they see that their own righteousness is as filthy rags Esa 64. 6. Therefore they rely not upon their own righteousness but upon the greatness of Divine mercy Dan. 9. 18. They are sensible also that their own strength is weakness and here upon that promise belongs to them Esa 40. 29. He giveth power to the saint and to them that have no might he increafeth strength And as the truly humbled Soul dares not trust in it self so neither does it rely upon the creature for help and though it makes use of the means of grace yet it looks beyond them trusts not rests not in them but is sensible that Ordinances themselves without the Merit and Spirit of Christ are nothing The Spirit of Christ must make them profitable and the Merit of Christ must make the engaging in them acceptable 5. True Humiliation implies a submission unto God This is required Jam. 4. 6 7. He resisteth the proud but giveth grace to the humble Submit your selves therefore unto God God is taken by humbled Sinners for a Lord his Will is taken for a Law Other Lords have had the dominion over them but now they are willing to make mention of Gods name and own his Authority Esa 26. 13. They are unwilling that any Sin should have the dominion Psal 119. 133. Order my steps in thy Word and let not any iniquity have the dominion over me The Throne of Sin is in the Heart and the strength of Sin lies in the love of it They desire that their very hearts may be cleansed and that God may dwell and rule there and their love to Sin is turned into hatred And as they submit to the Will and Law of God so they are patient and humble under his mighty hand They do not condemn the Lord for afflicting but themselves for deserving to be afflicted How submissive is the Church though Gods anger and hand pressed her sore Mic. 7. 9. I will bear the indignation of the Lord because I have sinned against him 6. True Humiliation implies a sense of unworthiness of the least especially of any saving grace and mercy The humbled prodigal when he came home to his Fathers house what low thoughts he had you may perceive by the words he is resolved to speak Luk. 15. 18 19. Father I have sinn'd against Heaven and before thee and am no more worthy to be called thy Son make me as one of thy hired Servants As if he had said Father I have not behaved my self like a Son neither do I expect to be dealt with as a Son 't will be
great favour to be received as a Servaat who deserve to be punished and excluded as an Enemy Humbled Sinners do very much consider their ill deserts and how are they filled with admiration at the free grace of God in his Son Jesus which is the ground of their hope and encouragement By the grace of God they are what they are they have what they have they hope what they hope for Case 3. The third Case follows How may we be sure that our desires after God and grace are sincere 'T is a Maxim in practical Divinity That the desires after Grace are Grace but they must be true desires Now these may thus be known 1. Sincere desires spring from knowledge and serious consideration The Lord is not 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 an unknown God to them that indeed desire after him he has caused his goodness which is his glory to pass before them and the desirableness of that goodness has been perceived Jer. 24. 7. I will give them an heart to know me and then it follows they shall return to me with their whole heart The eyes must be anointed with eye-salve the judgment must be inlightned and informed concerning the Lords perfections and fulness and riches of grace and mercy and willingness to communicate of these riches then desires after him will be real and well-grounded 2. Sincere desires are prevailing my meaning is that God and Grace are desired more than any thing the World than all the World besides An Author tells us that Tepidit as est parvus amor boni Lukewarmness implies some little love to that which is good but there is a greater love to that which is evil and vain And what does the little love then signifie If God be not desired above all he is not truely at all desired That was a sincere desire Psal 73. 25. Whom have I in Heaven but thee and there is none on Earth that I desire besides thee That is All things comparatively to thee are undesirable in my esteem In the Roman State 't was said Nec ferre potest Caesarve priorem Pompeiusve parem Caesar could not endure a superior and Pompey could not brook an equal God will have neither superior nor equal in our hearts they that love him truely give him the highest room of all 3. Sincere desires bear up against opposition Though the Flesh does lust and Mammon and Satan joyn with it yet the Spirit does lust against it Gal. 5. 17. There is a longing to be deliver'd from the body of Sin to be rid of that evil which is present when good is about to be done Rom. 7. Where there are desires after Grace indeed the remainders of Sin are irkfom and we shall sigh and wish that the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus may make us free from the law of Sin and Death 4. Sincere desires are great enemies to delays Davids Soul made haste to God and to do his duty Psal 119. 60. I made haste and delayed not to keep thy commandments and he desires that God would make haste to him Psal 101. 2. I will behave my self wisely in a perfect way Oh when wilt thou come to me So Psal 70. 1. Make haste O God to deliver make haste to help me O Lord. And when God did withdraw from him he cryes out How long wilt thou forget me O Lord for ever How long wilt thou hide thy face from me Ps 13. 1. Every day does seem a year and every year does seem an age to longing Souls when the Lord with-holds his quickening and comforting presence from them 5. Sincere desires are extended to every thing which God propounds in his Word as desirable Not some onely but all the benefits of Christ are longed after all his Offices are prized Sincere ones see a necessity of Christ a Priest upon the Cross they love to hear him as a Prophet in the Pulpit and are very desirous to submit to him as a Prince upon the Throne Nay they yield their hearts to be his Throne The Laws of God are dear to them they desire to keep them all to be filled with all the fulness of God to stand perfect and compleat in all the will of God Nay they aspire so high as to beg that they may do his will on Earth as 't is done in Heaven Mat. 6. 10. 6. Sincere desires are industrious Solomon speaks of a desire of the slothful which kills him because his hands refuse to labour Prov. 21. 25. He perishes for want of the good desired because he will not take pains to obtain it True desires are accompanied with a fear of missing what is desired not so as to make unbelieving conclusions but to quicken unto diligence Psal 27. 4. One thing have I desired of the Lord that will I seek after Then we desire really when we seek diligently And where is diligence and pains better employed than when seeking the Lord who has told us as certainly as he is so certainly he will be a rewarder of them that diligently seek him Heb. 11. 6. 7. Sincere desires are never quite satisfied here in this World What is said concerning earthly riches Crescit amor nummi quantum ipsa pecunia crescit may be applied to the true riches Crescit amor quantum divitiae love to them and covetousness after more increases as they increase He that has most grace is most desirous to have more 'T is true indeed our Lord tells us Joh. 6. 35. He that cometh unto me shall never hunger and he that believeth on me shall never thirst But if this be referr'd to Spiritual things the meaning is he shall not so hunger and thirst as to despair and be tormented with despair of satisfaction or else the passage may be referr'd to the things of this World that impia fames that sinful and eager hunger and thirst after them shall cease Sincere Souls never can in this World and they think they never can prize their Lord Jesus love and fear and serve their God sufficiently and therefore desire still to do all this more and better they forget the things behind and are still reaching forward and if you ask when they will be satisfied David shall answer Psal 17. ult and what he speaks of himself is applicable to others As for me I shall behold thy face in righteousness and be satisfied when I awake with thy likeness Case 4. A fourth Case may be this How may we be able to discern whether in Religion we are acted meerly by slavish fear yea or no Though carnal security is that which ruines the most of men yet a slavish fear yea or no Though carnal security is that which ruines the most of men yet a slavish fear is to be found also in the ungodly Such a fear there was in those we read of Psal 78. 34. When the hand of the Lord was stretched out and slew many of them the rest feared and sought him and yet
sorrow when the heart is grieved it is so hard and can sorrow no more for Sin Such an heart will carefully shun whatever has an hardning effect and oh how is that promise prized and the accomplishment of it longed for Ezek. 36. 26. A new heart will I give you and a new spirit will I put within you and I will take away the heart of stone out of your flesh and I will give you an heart of flesh And when once Sinners are sensible so as to inquire and seek unto the God of Israel to do this for them here is a good work begun in them I grant such may fear sometimes they are judicially hardned but that very fear plainly shews the contrary if they were under such a judgment they would cease to be afraid of it 2. It argues a beginning of a work of Grace when a Sinner is troubled to see such an opposition in his corrupted nature against God and desires to be turned indeed Thus Ephraim bemoans himself that he was as a Bullock unaccustomed to the Yoke and he cryes to be instructed and that God would shew his power and grace in the turning of him Jer. 31. 18. and vers 20. we find the Lord owns Ephraim as his dear Son as a pleasant Child and says he does earnestly remember him and will surely have mercy upon him It argues a new nature when we are weary of the old and that the bent and inclination of the heart is really changed when backwardness unto what is good begins to be burthensom 3. There is a work of Grace where there is a resolution to go unto God and confess all Sin unto him without hiding any through a desire to keep it When David thus without guile does resolve upon Confession God resolves upon Remission and forgives him presently Psal 32. 5. I acknowledged my sin unto thee and my iniquity have I not hid I said I will confess my transgressions to the Lord and thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin Selah Hark what Solomon says He that covereth his Sins shall not prosper but he that confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy And the Apostle speaks a great word 1 Joh. 1. 9. If we confess our Sins he is faithful and just to forgive us our Sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness O thou sensible and drooping and trembling Soul who comest unto God with black Bills of Indictment against thy self Is all thy wickedness down there that thou knowest Hast thou not left out one or other that is a darling Oh no here are all down and the darling sins in a special manner acknowledged and aggravated and I am willing to forsake all as well as to have the pardon of all If it be so chear up for Confess and be saved is the Gospel language When David said I have sinned against the Lord Nathan answers The Lord hath put away thy Sin thou shalt not die 2 Sam. 12. 13. 4. There is a work of grace where there is a desire to believe He that searcheth the heart takes notice of the desires which are there and as a desire to kill is Murther as a lusting after a Woman is Adultery so a desire after that which is good is accepted A desire to repent is repenting and a desire to believe is believing Abraham is said again and again to have offered up Isaac because he had a will to do it at Gods Command though actually he never did it Heb. 11. 17. which shews the truth of that passage of Augustine Coronat Deus intus bonam voluntatem ubi non invenit facultatem Where there is a defect of ability God does own and crown a real willingness Such desires must needs be very pleasing unto God who willeth that his grace should be earnestly desired and therefore says the same Father Desiderare auxilium gratiae est initium gratiae Grace is begun when Grace is desired When once a Sinner desires with his heart to believe and cries out with the man in the Gospel Lord help my unbelief Mar. 9. 24. When he desires that his heart may be set wide open that Christ who knocks there may enter in when he desires to receive Christ just so as Christ is willing to be received and to rely upon him as the onely Mediatour and Saviour renouncing all other Confidences Here is saving faith most certainly 5. There is a work of Grace where there is a weariness of other Lords and a willingness to submit unto Christ the Lord of Glory 'T is a good sign when there is a consent to cast off the yoke of Sin and to take on us the easie yoke of Christ for none but they that are truely gracious are willing to be delivered from the power of darkness and to be translated into the Kingdom of the Son of God Col. 1. 13. If we dislike the bondage of corruption and are unwilling to be led captive by Satan at his will if we look upon our selves as foolish and deceived while we were disobedient and served diverse lusts and pleasures Tit. 3. 3. If we count the Service of our Lord Jesus freedom and freedom indeed and lust against the Flesh which counts his Commands grievous certainly the Spirit of the Lord has begun to set us at liberty our eyes have been opened our hearts changed Voluntas non esset libera nisi liberata The will would not be thus free to be subject unto Christ unless it had been made free by Him 6. There is a work of Grace where there is a desire to fear the name of God Neh. 1. 11. Let thine ear be attentive and so it was unto the prayer of thy Servants who desire to fear thy Name That Soul is renewed that would fain stand in awe of God and of his Word and has a will to do good though evil is present and the Flesh is weak The weakness of the Flesh Christ excuses as long as he saw the Spirit of the Disciples was willing to have done their duty Mat. 26. 41. That which was Gods wish concerning Israel of old is it thy wish concerning thy self Oh that there were an heart in me to fear the Lord and to keep all his Commandments always that it may be well with me for ever Deut. 5. 29. This is certainly the breathing of the new creature In such there is a consent to be the Lords and to serve him and a trouble when they are overpowr'd by sin and temptation and a jealousie lest they should be deceived which shews that their desire to fear and obey the Lord is the more honest and sincere 7. There is a work of Grace where there is an uncontentedness without God before the Sinner was without Christ and liv'd without God in the World as he thought well enough Eph. 2. 12. but the heart being savingly changed cannot be put off with the World or any thing therein for its portion as the Needle being toucht by the Loadstone
Thus have I finished this Subject of Self-Examination a Duty which the Ungodly mind not which Hypocrites are afraid and do not care to meddle with and which if Saints would more frequently and thorowly engage in there would be less unbelief and fear more joy and Faith in the Church of Christ You that are Saints In this discourse I have been helping of your Joy Let it not be hindred by your selves Some clusters of Canaan might be brought to the Wilderness and more of Heavens joys might be tasted in the Vale of Tears if the Heirs of Heaven would but take more pains in self-trial to clear up their Title And as for you that are Hypocrites and Vnbeleivers I have don you a kindness in telling you what you are and what you may expect hereafter If after all you will put a cheat upon your own souls you must be blamed and your selves must smart for it If you will cry peace and safety till Christ himself does thunder that sentence in your ears Go ye Cursed into Everlasting fire Who can help it Alas Alas 'T will be too late to look up to Heaven and to look into your selves when the Gulph is fixed between Heaven and you Let every sinner therefore try his own ways and cry to the Lord to search and change and turn his Heart For 't is the greatest Wisdom to prevent those mistakes which will be the mistakers Eternal ruine and which after death will be found impossible to be corrected Herbert page 105. CAnst he idle Canst thou play Foolish soul who sinn'd to day Rivers run and springs each one Know their home and get them gone Hast thou tears or hast thou none If poor soul thou hast no tears Would thou hadst no faults or fears Who hath these those ills forbears But if yet thou idle be Foolish Soul who di'd for thee Who did leave his Fathers Throne To assume thy Flesh and Bone Had he life or had he none If he had not liv'd for thee Thou hadst di'd most wretchedly And two deaths had been thy fee. He so far thy good did plot That his own self he forgot Did he die or did he not If he had not di'd for thee Thou hadst liv'd in misery Two lives worse than ten deaths be He that loseth Gold though dross Tells to all he meets his cross He that sins hath he no loss He that finds a silver vein Thinks on it and thinks again Brings thy Saviours death no gain Who in Heart not ever kneels Neither sin nor Saviour feels Meditations ON THE LORDS SUPPER MEDITATIONS I. WHerefore do I spend my money for that which is not Bread And my labour for that which can never satisfie Many a time have I made trial of the things that are visible but the higher my expectations have been raised the greater has been my disappointment I have sought that among the Creatures which is not to be found Sin has turned this World into a Country far from God and truly Husks are the best fare that ever this World hath yeilded me 'T is high time to come out from the World and to be separate left my Soul perish for hunger there Meat that perishes is improper for a Soul that is of an immortal nature and of an Everlasting duration I will arise and go unto my God and Father He has promised to satiate and replenish the weary and sorrowful Soul In his House I am sure there is Bread enough and to spare MEDITATION II. Boast not O Mammon of thy Treasures Unless thou hast that which is of sufficient value to be a ransom for me Can all the Wealth of both the Indies pay the debt which by sin I have contracted Can Riches satisfie for the wrong I have done to the justice of God by my Transgression Oh no I was not Redeemed with corruptible things as Silver and Gold but with the precious Blood of Christ as of a Lamb without blemish and without spot Pardon Grace and Glory are such gifts of God as are not to be purchased with money for if they were so many Rich men would not be lost for ever Wealth cannot buy any out of the Devils possession but rather brings them more under his power it cannot save any from Hell but rather proves a means to send them thither For they that will be Rich fall into Tempttaion and a Snare and into many foolish and hurtful lusts which drown men in Destruction and Perdition MEDITATION III. O my Soul strive not to load thy self with the thick clay of this present World this will debase thee exceedingly and defile and burthen thee Thou needest that which is of more value then Gold that perishes to enrich thee and that is precious Faith Thou needest a garment to cover thy nakedness which no Shop on Earth can furnish thee withal and that is the Robe of Christs Righteousness Thou needest Food to satisfie thy hunger which cannot be got for money or price but may be had without it and that is the Bread of God which came down from Heaven to give Life unto the World Thou art of Heavenly original and therefore mind not Earthly things for it can never be well with thee untill thou return to that All-sufficient Lord who is the Father of Spirits and alone can fill them out of his own fulness MEDITATION IV. Lord Thou who art full of Love nay love it self and art jealous of my love lest it should be misplaced Turn away my Eyes that they may not be set upon that which is not If Riches take to themselves wings and fly away as an Eagle towards Heaven let my Heart be so wise as to get the start of them and fly away first from such transitory and fading vanities and fly towards the highest Heaven of all How great a gain will it be to lose my love to the World And though it be no gain at all to thee for me to love thee who art so self-sufficient from Everlasting to Everlasting yet I shall hereby be an Eternal gainer and shall be interested in that love which is Everlasting and unchangeable Oh! Love me freely in the Son of thy love and inflame my Heart with love to Thee 'T is my Honour that I have leave to love thee who art so high and glorious and 't is thy first and great Command that I should love thee with my whole Heart and Soul and Strength Let this Command be kept and let not the biggest offer the World can make me ever tempt me to break it so as to prevail with me MEDITATION V. Pleasures of sin and sence have often charmed and deceived me Those things which have gratified the Eye the Ear the Touch the Taste have had a kind of an inchanting Force and Power Sensual Delights have been some of the finest and strongest cords of vanity to draw me a way from God and Duty But now I see what madness 't is to please my self and displease my Lord
if an Emperour should bid me take his Crown and Diadem or then if all the Kingdoms of the World and all the Glory of them were offered me When Christ offered up himself a Sacrifice unto God that he might put sin away how great was the Offering If all the Beasts in Earth the Fowls of the Air had been offered this offering could not have made Atonement for the sinner or for one sin Nay if all the Angels in Heaven had proffered themselves to be annihilated in case fallen man might be pardoned Neither would this have been sufficient satisfaction So that when Christ offered himself to God he offered more then all the World then millions of Worlds would amount unto And when the Lord Jesus bids me take him and feed upon this meat indeed this Bread of Life shall I refuse He that receives Christ how much does he recieve He does indeed receive all For Christ is all in all and filleth all in all MEDITATION XXXI Lift up your Heads O ye Gates and be ye lift up ye Everlasting Doors that the King of Glory may come in Who is this King of Glory The Lord Jesus is the Prince of Life the King and Lord of Glory Behold he stands at the door and knocks if any man hear his voice and open the door he will come into him and sup with him And when he comes and is admitted what entertainment does he bring Meat that perishes is contemptible in comparison Christ will give that Meat which endures to Everlasting Life His Love is better then Wine Nay his favour is better then life it self The Manna in the Wilderness was excellent food but many that Eat it perished But whoever by Faith do feed upon our Lord Jesus in reference to the second Death they become immortal This is the Bread which commeth down from Heaven that a Man may Eat thereof and not dy I am the Bread of Life which came down from Heaven if any man Eat of this Bread he shall live for ever and the Bread that I wil give is my Flesh which I will give for the Life of the World MEDITATION XXXII When an inheritance is conveyed to me by a sealed Deed the Nature of the wax is not changed but the use of it The Bread and Wine after the Sacramental blessing of them remain Bread and Wine still and so in Scripture they are called but their use is very much altered and they become Christs broad seal to convey to me and to assure me of the Remission of sin of the Renewing of my Nature and of Life and Immortality Let the Papists contend for a gross and carnal presence of the Body of Christ at his Table I am perswaded that as Circumcision is called the Covenant and the Lamb the Lords Passeover So the bread and wine are called the Body and Blood of the Lord Jesus And yet I am also fully perswaded that though the Body of Christ is in Heaven yet he is most really present at the Table with them that do believe and such are nourished and strengthened in this Ordinance I learn from Scripture that Spiritual things are most firm most real most substantial most durable and if so then Christs spiritual presence is the most real presence Christ is absent where Transsubstantiation is believed and Romish Devotion and Adoration of the Host is turned into abominable Idolatry MEDITATION XXXIII Lord Thou art my Hope my Help my Saviour my Life my All Thou wouldst have me put thee on to cover my nakedness Thou wouldst have me take sanctuary under thy wings in all my dangers thou wouldst have me use thee as a Physician to cure all my spiritual maladies and when I am hungry and thirsty and my Soul faints within me thou hast enough to satisfie and fill me What one said concerning the Scripture I may apply to my blessed Lord. Adoro Christi plenitudinem I adore the fulness that is in Christ Jesus Draw neerer neerer O thou only Saviour thou deservest the highest the best nay all the room in my Heart thou oughtest to be the most welcom guest Let me have a clearer sight of thy transcendent loveliness a larger taste of thy incomparable sweetness let me clasp about thee and hold thee in more strict embraces Why should I be empty since in thee there is a fulness of the Spirit without stint or measure I would be poor in Spirit but why should I be poor in Grace since in thee there are unsearchable Riches MEDITATION XXXIV Bread is the staff of Life Lord I come to thy Table for support and strength Oh! Let the Bread of God strengthen me with strength in my Soul Let me find and feel the admirable vertue of the Broken Body that I may say from plentiful experience I this is meat indeed Let sin grow weaker and weaker and Mammons interest in me decline and languish but make me strong in Spirit and carry on the work of Faith with Power I have need of strength who have such a way to go and all up Hill who have so much work to do and such mighty Enemies to encounter and overcome My Life lies in believing in thee I stand no longer then Thou upholdest me Without thee I can do nothing or what is worse then nothing I can do nothing but sin and fall but if thou dost strengthen me I shall be able to do all things If thou withdraw from me I shall be weak as a Child unstable as the very Water but if thou dost confirm me by thy Grace I shall be like David nay like unto an Angel I shall fight the good fight of Faith and go on conquering and to conquer till I get the Crown MEDITATION XXXV How great was the breach which sin had made between God and Man that my Lord must be broken to make it up Could not something less have served the turn If Christ must die or sin must not be pardoned judg of the greatness of the fault by the greatness of the Sacrifice and Satisfaction What hath sin done It has filled Earth with troubles it has filled Hell with Souls it has turned Angels into Devils it has provoked the God of Heaven to great and Righteous indignation add unto all this It has killed Christ the Lord of Life He was wounded for our Transgression he was bruised for our iniquities Who would love who would like such an evil If my Father had been stabbed should I embrace the Murtherer or like the Dagger besmeared with his blood Oh hateful sin I 'le be revenged upon thee I will make no provision for thee I will lament because of thee I will detest and abhor thee I will be dead to thee and endeavour to mortifie and kill thee My Lord was not spared for thy sake and thou shalt not be spared Lord Away with these lusts all of them Crucifie them Crucifie them since Christ himself did bear my sins in his own Body on the Tree Oh let me be
70 Several Cases propounded Some Cases relating to sin and a state of Nature 1 Case Is it not better for sinners to continue ignorant of themselves then by searching to fill themselves with horrour Answered p. 78 2 Case Is it not time enough hereafter to look into themselves Answered p. 81 3 Case How shall utter strangers to themselves begin this work of self-proving Answered p. 83 4 Case When sinners have found out the badness of their state is there any reason to despair Answered p. 85 5 Case What course must they take to have their state bettered p. 87 6 Case How far may sinners go and yet fall short of grace and Heaven answered p. 92 Several Cases relating to a state of Grace 1 Case How shall we know whether we are savingly enlightned Answered p. 103 2 Case When may Humiliation be said to be True Answered p. 108 3 Case How may we be sure our desires after God and grace are sincere answered p. 113 4 Case How may we be able to discern whether in Religion we are acted meerly by slavish fear Answered p. 117 5 Case How may we know that we have indeed accepted Christ Answered p. 125 6 Case When may conversion be said to be sincere and true Answered p. 130 7 Case What are the lower degrees of true grace Answered several particulars premised p. 133 Which are the lower degrees of grace that is true p. 138 8 Case How may Grace be discovered under spiritual desertion Answered p. 144 9 Case How grace may be discerned under the prevalency of MELANCHOLY Answered p. 148 10 Case How may repentance be known to be true when 't is a death-bed repentance or just before a Malefactors execution Answered p. 154 11 Case How may grace be discovered in Saints that are fallen Answered p. 158 12 Case How may we know whether we grow in grace Answered p. 164 13 Case How may we know when our joys are true and well grounded Answered p. 171 Application Several inferences drawn from the Doctrine p. 174 The errour of the Romish Church in reference to assurance p. 179 A lamentation that this duty of self-examination is so much neglected p. 181 The fatal consequence of this neglect p. 182 Directions how to prove our selves so as to attain assurance of the love of God p. 186 Nine arguments to perswade Saints to labour after assurance p. 187 Nine directions to attain it p. 194 The right course to keep assurance p. 202 Directions how to prove your selves before you engage in that Ordinance of the LORDS SUPPER p. 205 Ten Principles of Religion that the Communicant must be acquainted with p. 208 What besides he must examine himself about p. 214 Directions how to prove your selves every day so as to walk with greater circumspection p. 234 Let Wicked men prove themselves p. 253 Directed what to do p. 254 Let meerly moral men prove themselves p. 257 Meerly moral men discovered p. 258 Counsel given unto such p. 261 Let unsound professors prove themselves p. 263 Such discovered ibid. And being convicted advised p. 265 Sincere Saints counselled in four particulars p. 267 The Conclusion of the discourse p. 269 MEDITATIONS on the LORDS SVPPER p. 273 A DISCOURSE Concerning Self-Examination by which both Saints and Sinners may come to know themselves 2 Cor. 13. 5. Prove your own selves 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 THe sum of true Wisdom as One observes does consist in two things Dei cognitione nostri in the knowledge of God and of our selves now to make us wise in both these respects is one great design of the holy Scriptures He that is a stranger unto God must needs be a stranger unto Rest and Satisfaction and is ignorant of Him who is the Highest and Chiefest good of all He that is a stranger to Himself must needs remain both sinful and miserable and yet both sin and misery are unperceived and ignorance how Bad he is fixes him in a state that is not good and makes it the more unlikely that ever it should be better'd No wonder therefore that the Apostle does put all upon the Examination and proving of themselves Which Counsel is very proper both to Sinners and to Saints First 't is proper to Sinners for if they come to understand aright their own deplorable and wretched case this would be one large step from sin to Grace Secondly 't is proper also to Saints for proving of themselves will be the way to evidence the saving change that hath been wrought in them and will be a large step from Grace to Comfort In the words we have 1. A duty and that is to prove the Greek word is 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 which is used by Authors for the proving of Gold in the fire 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Isocrat Now Gold is proved in the fire in order to its discovery that 't is true Gold and that the dross may be separated from it So the proving in the Text must be in order unto a discovery and in order unto greater sanctification and purity 2. Whom is it our duty to prove Our own selves In reference to others we are to hope and believe all things as far as is consistent with the apparent fruits they bring forth and the faithfulness which we owe them But in reference to our selves the greater severity commonly the greater sincerity We must watch and be jealous over our selves lest we be mistaken and deceived in and by our selves And if you ask me What we are to prove our selves about The context informs us Whether we are in the Faith Whether Christ be in us yea or no Doct. The Doctrine I raise from the words is this It highly concerns all to examine and prove themselves this duty is very much urged in the verse where the Text lies Examine your selves says the Apostle Prove your own selves the Counsel is doubled which shews the great concernment of it together with the difficulty and backwardness in us all to follow it therefore he adds as if he did half chide What! Know you not your own selves q. d. To be ignorant of your selves your actions and your state for want of self-trial is your Sin and shame and argues prodigious carlesness to be in you and you to be in unexpressible danger In the handling of this Doctrine I shall First tell you what is implied in this proving of our selves Secondly what of our selves is to be proved Thirdly concerning what we are to prove our selves Fourthly the Manner how we are to do it Fifthly by what Rule and Touchstone this proof of our selves is to be made Sixthly the special times and seasons when this duty is to be done Seventhly lay down the reasons persuading to the practice of it Eighthly resolve several Cases of Conscience relating to this subject Lastly close with the Application In the first place I am to tell you What is implied in this proving of our selves and here several propositions are to be
Rule will discover our obliquities and cause us the better to understand our selves The Apostle in another case condemns the folly of them Who measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves among themselves Let us remember Vivendum est regulis we must walk by Rule and that is the Word and by the Word we must at last be judged therefore 't is our wisdom to see whether heart and life are agreeable to it 5. Self-proving implies Self-accusing and self-condemning for what is evil Upon examination having found out our iniquities we must hold up our guilty hands at Gods Bar and acknowledge all we know all that Satan can justly lay to our charge Nay all that is down in the Book of Gods own remembrance Psal 51. 3. I acknowledge my iniquity and my sin is ever before me And as upon the discovery of sin we are to be our own Accusers so also to judge and condemn our selves We must readily justifie the Lord in the greatest severities at present nay we must acquit him upon supposition of eternal severity if he should make us to feel his wrath and greatest indignation for ever 6. Self-proving implies approving and taking comfort in that grace and goodness that has been wrought in us by the Spirit As we are to be strict in the search after sin so grace is in no wise to be overlookt The least degree of true grace is great matter of praise nay will occasion eternal thanksgiving God does not despise the day of small things neither should we but must own the good things though but some good things which are in us in Christ Jesus Philem. 6. Breathings after God prizing of Christ weariness of sin and longing to be holy must in no wise be unobserved in this work of Self-examination 7. Self-proving will never be to any purpose unless there be a crying unto the Lord himself to search us that we may not pass a wrong judgment upon our selves What depth is there that He cannot fathom What can be concealed from him who knows all things Jer. 17. 10. I the Lord search the heart though 't is deceitful above all things it cannot deceive me I try the Reins David therefore prays Examine me O Lord and prove me try my Reins and my Heart Psal 26. 2. and Psal 139. 23 24. Search me O God and know my heart try me and know my thoughts and see if there be any wicked way in me and lead me in the way ever lasting In the second place I am to shew what of our selves is to be proved 1. We are to examine and prove what is our common and allowed practice A Sanguine man is not denominated Pale as Aristotle observes when he is Pale through fear nor a Pale man Sanguine when he blushes through shame A good man may sometimes fall into that which is evil and a bad man may sometimes hit upon an action that is good The Tree is to be judged by the ordinary Fruit it bears The Apostle speaks of his manner of life that it was godly in Christ Jesus 2 Tim. 3. 10 12. But if it be our manner to be workers of iniquity our doom will be at last to be excluded the Kingdom Luk. 13. 26 27. 2. We are to examine what course we are resolved still to take If the wicked man will forsake his way and turn to God mercy is promised and abundant pardon Esa 55. 7. If the prodigal come home to his Fathers House he shall be received with joy his former riot being forgotten and forgiven so that the door of hope is open even to the ungodly man if he will but deny his ungodliness But if the enemies of God will not lay down their Weapons but refuse and rebel still this argues the state to be bad and destruction to be near the Lord may quickly come to a resolution to ease himself of such Adversaries Esa 1. 24. 3. We must examine what company is most acceptable to us If we we love the ungodly who hate the Lord if the wickedness of others whereby God is dishonoured is not the matter of our dislike as long as they thwart not but promote our secular and carnal interest if we like the company of Fools and Sinners are the worst Fools well enough 't is a sign we are Fools our selves Fools indeed who venture to be destroyed and to go to Hell for company Prov. 13. 20. But if the Saints are lookt upon as the most excellent ones and delighted in as the best Society Psal 16. 3. if we love them that are born of God it shews that we our selves are born of him 4. We must examine of what nature our Communication is The Tongue is the index of the heart and shews what is in it As evil Communications corrupt good manners so they are a sign of a corrupt heart from whence they proceed A Tongue that is not bridled but rails lies backbites and is obscene impious and prophane is an argument that Religion is but vain Jam. 1. 26. But when the Tongue not out of any carnal design but delightfully talks of the Word of God when we sit in the house when we walk by the way when we lie down and when we rise up 't is a sign the Word is in the Heart and that the Heart is renewed and changed by the Word Deut. 4. 6 7. 5. We must examine what thoughts as welcome guests are suffered to lodge within us 'T is said of wicked men that God is not in all their thoughts Psal 10. 4. but wicked and vain thoughts are delightful and abide in them Proud revengeful covetous filthy and all sinful thoughts are vain thoughts because they are to no good end or purpose nay to very bad purpose Now if such thoughts as these lodge in the heart the heart is not washed from its wickedness and they will hinder salvation Jer. 4. 14. But if holy thoughts are cherished and there is a complacency in them more of them are desired and sinful thoughts are a burthen which the heart is weary of and does conflict with and wishes their expulsion This does speak a gracious frame of spirit 6. We must examine what power we have of Spiritual discerning The Gospel is hid from the natural man which proves him in a lost state 2 Cor. 4. 3. The things of the spirit of God are foolishness to him and he counts it the greatest wisdom to secure things visible That Rich man Luk. 12. thought he had been mighty provident and prudent in laying up goods for many years But if we are Saints indeed we have a faculty of Spiritual discerning and judge quite otherwise and our judgment is this and that judgment is true namely That all are fools and poor and miserable that are not rich in Grace rich towards God and that have made no provision for Eternity God called the forementioned Rich man a Fool upon this score And as the Lord calls the worldly-minded Fools
but increase upon them 3. In proving our selves we must take heed of making an ill use of the falls of Saints which are recorded in Scripture Davids uncleanness Lots drunkenness are no arguments to prove that any may allow themselves in filthiness and intemperance and yet go to Heaven Nay the Scripture expresly says the contrary Eph. 5. 5. For this ye know that no Whoremonger nor unclean person nor covetous man who is an Idolater hath any inheritance in the Kingdom of Christ of God and all words that would persuade otherwise are but deceitful and vain v. 6. The falls of Saints are mentioned not to encourage unto sin but to prevent despair and to encourage to repentance and returning unto God when there has been a departing from him And truely they are in a state quite different from the Saints who are only like them in their falls but not like them in their rising again Righteousness and Repentance 4. We must beware of thinking it sufficient to have escaped the more gross pollutions of the World When we compare our selves with the vilest of men and find our selves unlike them this is not enough to prove our selves or our state truely good It was not enough to justifie the Pharisee before God that others were extortioners unjust and adulterers but he was free from such gross and scandalous crimes as these Luk. 18. 11. There are degrees of Sin as well as Grace 'T is but a small commendation Pessimis esse meliorem to be better than the very worst of all we may be bad enough to ruine us for all that The Pharisees were righteous and blameless in the eyes of men but Christ saw how proud and how unsanctified their hearts were therefore he says Except your righteousness exceed the righteousness of the Scribes and Pharisees ye shall in no case enter into the Kingdom of Heaven Mat. 5. 20. 5. The providences of God must not be our Rule of Trial We must not judge of our spiritual condition by present external dispensations You find a wicked man in purple and fine linnen faring sumptuously every day and a godly man a beggar laid at his gate full of Sores desirous to be fed with the Crumbs that fell from the rich mans Table Luk. 16. The righteous are plagued all the day long and chastened every morning when the wicked prosper in the World and increase in riches and have more than heart could wish Psal 73. 12 14. If thriving in this World be all thou hast to shew as an evidence of the love of God thou hast indeed nothing at all to shew as an argument he loves thee with a special love for Solomon says No man knows either love or hatred by all that is before them but all things fall alike to all and there is one event to the righteous and to the wicked Eccles 9. 1 2. 6. We must take heed of a wrong notion of the Grace of God in Christ which may encourage licentiousness and presumption We must not look upon him as all Justice Jealousie Fury neither must we imagine him all Grace and Mercy We must not look upon our Lord Jesus as the Minister of sin Gal. 2. 17. for he was manifested to destroy the works of the Devil 1 Joh. 3. 8. 't is unreasonable therefore to continue in sin that grace may abound Rom. 6. 1. We must be fully persuaded that without holiness no man shall see the Lord. Heb. 12. 14. for if the necessity of holiness be not apprehended we shall entertain a presumptuous confidence in the grace of God and indulge our lusts at the same time 7. We must take heed of putting our selves upon the Tryal farther than the Scripture ever does As whether we can be contented to be damned that God may be glorified Whether we would be so strict and circumspect as the word requires if there were no future reward or punishment 'T is not good to make suppositions which God in his word never makes As whether if we might live here in this world for ever we could be very well contented Whether if God were to be enjoyed but for a time we should prefer that enjoyment before an everlasting fruition of the creature Such suppositions as they have no Scripture warrant so they but perplex them that make them We must take things as they are and not suppose them to be what they are not And if things visible which are but temporal are despised in comparison of invisible things which are eternal it argues the heart is wise to make a right choice Having laid down these cautionary Rules I come now to speak of the Right Touchstone by which this Tryal of our selves is to be made and that is the Written word of God Saints cannot ascend into heaven at present and immediately search the Book of life to know whether their names are there registred Neither must they expect that an Angel should come to them as to Daniel of old to inform them that they are greatly beloved Neither shall the wicked and the hypocritical ones have an hand appearing as once to Belshazzer signifying how bad their state is and how sad their is like to be But to the written word all must repair that they may know what to conclude concerning themselves Now the word of God gives us a description and characters both of a state of nature and of a state of Grace The Prisoner at the bar which is tryed for his life with what trembling does he expect the verdict of the Jury When we are trying our selves in reference to Eternity Oh with what fear and trembling should we attend what sentence the word of God will pass upon us 1. I begin with a description of a State of Nature Now the Scripture pronounces those in a state of nature 1. Who have a vail of grosse and black ignorance upon their hearts As 't is life eternal to know so it must needs be granted to be no less than eternal death to be grosly ignorant of the only true God and Jesus Christ whom he hath sent How can we obey that great Command of the Law to love the Lord with all our hearts or that great Command of the Gospel to believe in Jesus Christ if concerning both God and Christ there be a very gross ignorance Ignorance is commonly rejoyced in as an excuse for sin but it proves destructive where 't is thus liked Hos 4. 6. My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge 2 Cor. 4. 3. If our Gospel be hid 't is hid to them that are lost And Isa 27. 11. It is a people that have no understanding therefore he that made them will not save them and he that formed them will shew them no favor 2. They are in a state of Nature who believe not the report of the Gospel The word speaks terribly against such as esteem the Gospel no more than if it were a cunningly devised Fable who stand no more in awe of
and Gold that ever was created is but dross in comparison of these riches To go to Ordinances and from them as the Door turns upon the Hinges and to remain just as we were will turn to no account nay to an ill account We are not to rest therefore in opere operato the work done but examine what light what heat what strength what grace what peace we gain by attending upon God or else we may live and dye like lukewarm and mistaken Laodicea who said she was rich and increased with Goods and had need of nothing and knew not that she was wretched and miserable and poor and blind and naked Rev. 3. 17. 7. 'T is not amiss if there be some Self-proving every day that keeping of the heart with all diligence Prov. 4. 23. implies a daily watching and calling it to an account and that pondering the path of our feet required vers 26. implies both wariness before and a tracing our Steps afterwards to see whether they have been right or wrong step towards God or from him Pythagoras an Heathen advises every night to ask our selves such Questions as these 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Where have I sinn'd What have I done What duty have I let alone Thus bad and good deeds every night Will be thy chiding or delight In the seventh place I come to the Arguments persuading all to this examination and proving of themselves 1. Satan is very subtle he does endeavour to conceal and hide both Sin and Grace Sin in the wicked that they may not perceive the evil nature and tendency of it till it has actually and utterly ruin'd them and Grace in them that do believe that their hearts may be tormented with doubts and fears and straitned in thanksgiving unto God Satan is a lying Spirit and upholds his Kingdom by deceit and falshood His work is to fill Gods Children with false fears and his own with false hopes and he has many wiles and stratagems to do both 'T is good therefore to be aware of him and to be the stricter in searching of our selves that he may not impose upon us nor make us call evil good and good evil Let us take great heed for Satan is the Accuser of the Brethren Rev. 12. 10. and will accuse them to themselves as well as accuse them before God he will transform a true Saint and make him look in his own apprehension like a meer reprobate And as he is the Accuser of the Brethren so he is the Excuser of the wicked and makes them say they shall have peace till the anger of the Lord and his jealousie smokes against them and eternal Vengeance overtakes them 2. The heart is deceitful above all things Jer. 17. 9. as it is unknown to others so it hides it self from the view of the man himself Need there is then of Self-examination The heart of man will represent Sin as profitable as pleasant as creditable and in fashion and that there is no such danger in the commission of it but that 't is time enough hereafter and easie enough to repent and obtain a pardon The heart will extenuate sin after 't is done and take notice of the mercy of the Lord but shut its eyes against his justice and holiness 't will call any thing almost by the name of saving-grace and from very weak and insufficient premisses conclude the State is safe Such cheats therefore must be more narrowly eyed and we must bring them to the Heart-searcher that they may be discovered 3. There is no Grace but has its counterfeit When abundance of Brass and bad Money is abroad there is the greater care to try before we take There is a world of counterfeit Grace at this day Many take themselves to be something when they are nothing and so deceive themselves every one therefore should prove his own work that he may have rejoycing in himself alone and not in another Gal. 6. 3. 4. that is that he may have not only the good word of others but the joyful approbation of his own Conscience that his work is good and wrought in God There is a precious faith that ends in the salvation of the Soul and there is a counterfeit faith that dures only for a while and in time of temptation fails There is a saving knowledge which is life eternal and there is a notional knowledge which only puffs up him that has it and makes sorrow and stripes at last to be the more There is a sincere love to Christ that has a vehement flame which many Waters cannot quench which no Floods can drown and there is a love which is only a painted Fire a love in word and shew and not in heart and deed and truth There is a Zeal which God is mightily pleased with as that Zeal in Phineas and there is a Zeal not according to knowledge There is a true Humility which makes us like to Christ and gives the Soul rest and there is a shew of Wisdom and Humility to be found even in the Synagogues of Satan and Antichrist All grace therefore whether in pretence or true must be tried by the Word which if rightly applied is infallible in its decision 4. Many do actually go out of the World mistaken in themselves surely then we should be serious in Self-trial The foolish Virgins because their Lamps were burning and neatly trimm'd that is they profess'd and talkt high and made a glistering shew came with full expectation of admission into the Kingdom Therefore with confidence they knock and with confidence they speak Lord Lord open unto us Mat. 25. 11. But the answer is I know you not The Door contrary to their expectation is shut for ever against them and they are sentenc'd to burn too in Hell though their Lamps on Earth did burn and blaze in a glorious profession of Religion Some are brought in pleading with the Lord Jesus when He says He knew them not We have eat and drank in thy presence and thou hast taught in our Streets Luk. 13. 26. As if they should say Lord 't is very strange thou shouldst not know us None more flocked after thee than we did none were more forward to hear thy Word we were Guests at thy Table many a time and yet dost thou not know us Hear their pleas see their confidence of being let in and yet behold them thrust out unto Eternity 5. Hypocrites may go very far and yet remain but Hypocrites and miscarry Therefore we should examine and see that we go farther An Hypocrite may have a name that he is alive he may bend his Knee and lift up his Eye and speak as it were with the tongue of an Angel he may pray and prophesie so as to gain mans approbation but yet that which is highly esteemed among men is abomination in the sight of God Luk. 16. 15. How far did the Apostle Paul go before his Conversion
he was of the straitest Sect and touching the righteousness of the Law blameless and yet though his life was without blame his heart was without grace Hypocrites how far soever they go do either allow themselves in sin or place a confidence in their own righteousness If we would therefore go beyond them we must grieve for all sin and hate it We must worship God in the Spirit and rejoyce in Christ Jesus and have no confidence in the Flesh Phil. 3. 3. 6. To be unwilling to Try and Prove our selves is a very bad symptom The decay'd Tradesman cares not to be at home for fear of being dunn'd by his Creditors neither does he like to look into his Books because he suspects that he owes more than he is worth So unsound Professors like not to dwell with themselves for fear Conscience should fill their Ears with a dreadful sound and reproach them with their offences and they are loath to study the volume of their own hearts because they suspect they shall find little but what is stark naught there Sin is a work of darkness where the light is fear'd and shun'd 't is a sign that sin bears sway and where it reigns it will ruine Joh. 3. 19. This is the condemnation that light is come into the World and men love darkness rather than light because their deeds are evil 7. Though it be very bad with us yet 't is really good to know the very worst of our selves Hardness of heart and unsensibleness of sin is a very great plague the infliction of which argues God to be very angry but conviction of sin is the work of Gods Spirit When the Comforter is come he shall convince the World of Sin Joh. 16. 8. Indeed if a bad condition were unchangeable and there were no difference between an unregenerate Sinner and an Apostate Angel 't were another matter But the truth is though our state and hearts are both bad yet both may be alter'd for the better And if we are sensible that we are under the power of darkness we shall be the more importunate that God would deliver us and translate us into the Kingdom of his dear Son If we perceive that our hearts are old and evil 't will make us to cry with more fervency that the Lord would give us the new heart and the new spirit promised in his new Covenant 8. There may be great disconsolateness where there is truth of grace if it be unknown The children of light may walk in darkness the heirs of salvation may complain as if they were near lost and the friends and favourites of Heaven may think and speak as if God accounted them his Enemies Hark unto Heman Psal 88. 7. Thy wrath lieth hard upon me and thou bast afflicted me with all thy waves And vers 15. 16. Thy fierce wrath goeth over me and while I suffer thy terrors I am distracted Believers being made alive are also endued with Spiritual Sence and cannot be indifferent as to Gods love and hatred as others are If they have not some assurance of the one they cannot but have some dread of the other they should therefore prove themselves that they may know the love that God has to them and that they may joy in God through Jesus Christ by whom they have received the atonement Rom. 5. 11. 9. There is a day of Trial and Judgment appointed and very near at hand God has appointed a day in which he will judge the World in Righteousness Act. 17. 31. and truely the Judge standeth before the Door Jam. 5. 9. The coming of the Lord draweth nigh And if we cannot abide the Trial of our own Consciences now how shall we abide the Trial of him who is greater than our Consciences and knoweth all things It concerns us to call our selves to a severe account and believe in Jesus that we may be justified and then at that day we shall not be condemned Let us watch and work that our Lord when he comes may find us so doing Let us store up Scripture evidences that we are his Children and then we shall have boldness in the day of Judgment and not be ashamed before him at his coming Gods Judgment hereafter will be according to truth names and shews how insignificant will they be at the great day Therefore let us look to it that our graces be true that as such they may be found and own'd at last 10. A well grounded assurance is possible to be obtained Let us never give over Trying our selves till we have it We are commanded to give all diligence to make our calling and by our calling our Election sure 2 Pet. 1. 10. We must not cast away our confidence when once we have gotten it but hold the beginning of it firm unto the end Assurance of the love of God of what value is it What a relish does it give to every Mercy What sweetness does it put into the bitterest Cup of Affliction How undaunted does it make us at the approach of the last Enemy And with what courage and confidence to commend our departing Souls into the hands of him that has redeemed them Before I come to the Application I am to resolve several Cases of Conscience concerning the Subject I am upon Now the Cases will be of two sorts some relate to Sir and a State of Nature and others relate unto a State of Grace I begin with those Cases relating to Sin and a State of Nature Case 1. And the first is this Is it not better for Sinners to continue ignorant of themselves than by an over-strict search to fill their souls with trouble and horrour Is it not a wiser part to keep themselves quiet while they are so than to raise a storm and tempest that may not be laid in hast Now they receive their good things now they receive their consolations now they can take their ease eat drink and be merry they can feast and laugh and sing and time runs very swift being spent in carnal jollity Why then should they look into the state of their Souls and put an end to all their peace and joy and comfort Ans 1. Sinners ignorance of themselves and the wretched condition they are in does but add to their misery Secure indeed they are in a sence but farther off from safety It was the misery of Ephraim that Strangers had devoured his strength and gray hairs were here and there upon him and yet he knew it not Hos 7. 9. Self-ignorance and carnal security makes the hearts of the Sons of Men fully set in them to do evil and causes their state to be nearer a kin to desperate Such will fearlesly add Sin to Sin and draw iniquity with cords of vanity and treasure up more and more wrath unto themselves against the day of wrath 2. Their peace and joy can be but short at longest Pleasures for evermore can be found alone in Gods Prefence The pleasures of sin and sense
are but for a season Job 20. 5 8. Knowest thou not this of old since man was placed upon Earth that the triumphing of the Wicked is short and the joy of the Hypocrite but for a moment Though his excellency mount up to the Heavens and his head reacheth to the Clouds yet he shall perish for ever like his own dung they which have seen him shall say Where is he He shall fly away as a dream and shall not be found yea he shall be chased away as a night vision 3. Better their false peace which must quickly end should be disturbed by Self-trial than that it should cease by their Trial at Gods Bar. The ungodly cannot carry a false peace along with them into another World The rich man in the Gospel that fared sumptuously every day carried none of his good things with him when he died his pleasure then came to a full stop and we read of nothing he met with but evil things torments flames endless and unquenchable Luk. 16. and then the rich man saw it had been better before to have broken off his sinful pleasure by Self-reflection and Repentance 4. Though a false peace upon Self-examination be banished yet there may a true peace be obtained in the room of it Be not unwilling to look into your selves though you find matter of sorrow for godly sorrow worketh repentance unto salvation They that sow in tears shall reap in joy Psal 126. 5. And Christ pronounces the mourners blessed for they shall be comforted Mat. 5. 4. Case 2. The second Case is this Is it not time enough hereafter for Sinners to search and look into themselves Then when prosperity and youth are gone and affliction and old age are come What necessity is there to put themselves upon the rack presently Ans 1. The longer they defer the more afraid they will be to begin and so it may never be done in this World especially considering that delay will make the work more difficult and grievous The larger the scores are the more loath they will be to look them over and the more peccant and wicked the heart has been the more unwilling it will be to be called to account therefore 't is best to begin this very instant and 't would have been better to have begun before 2. Sin is so great an evil that none can be too soon convinced of it nor too soon converted from it as on the other hand Grace is so excellent that we can never be too early enriched with it and assurance of the love of God so desirable and delightful that it can never be too soon obtained Why should there be a delay in the search after Sin This Enemy should speedily be inquired after since if let alone it may ruine us suddenly before we are aware 3. If Sinners refuse to mind the Lord and themselves in the time of youth and prosperity God may refuse to have any regard to them in the time of their distress Now is the accepted time now they may seek the Lord and search themselves to good purpose but whether the time of affliction may be an accepted time or no is questionable The Lord threatens to laugh at the calamity of some and to mack when their fear comes and that he will not be found of them Prov. 1. 26 28. They that refused to hearken and stopt their Ears and made their hearts like an Adamant Stone see what came to pass at last great wrath came upon them they were scattered with a whirlwind and as he cried and they would not hear so they cried and I would not hear saith the Lord of Hosts Zach. 7. 13. 4. Why should such a short lived creature as Man delay to examine himself What is his life 'T is even a vapour that appears for a little time and then vanisheth away Jam. 4. 14. How quickly may Death arrest him and summon him before the Lords Tribunal Some are well in one hour sick the next and dead the third nay some are well and sick and dead the same hour if not the same minute Defer not then to look into thy state and heart speedily since upon the sudden it may be said to thee Render an account of thy Stewardship for thou shalt be no longer Steward Luk. 16. 2. Case 3. The third Case follows which is this How shall Sinners that all their days have been careless of and utter Strangers to themselves manage this business of Self-examination Ans 1. Let them get alone not to be speculatively wanton or project for the World or to please themselves with vain and proud and towring imaginations but that they may seriously bethink themselves what is likely to become of them for ever Let them get out of the croud and hurry of worldly business and shake off carnal company and be at leisure to understand their Souls condition Certainly a Soul that is of greater value than all the World is worth minding is worth saving 2. Let the thoughts of God and of Eternity make them serious especially considering how much God has been provoked and how near they may be unto Eternity Time is posting away from them and Death is making great haste towards them and immediately after Death they enter upon Eternal state and how sad will it be if it be a state of eternal woe 3. Let them cry unto God for his Convincing Spirit When the Spirit is given and truely the Lord is ready to give his Spirit unto all that ask him he does discover that in Sin that before was not perceived he makes Hell to become naked and takes off that covering that was upon destruction He holds before Sinners the Glass of Gods holy Law that in that Glass they may behold their hearts and lives shews unto them that the characters of Gods Enemies agree to them and that their spot is not the spot of his Children Deut. 32. 5. Then Sin will revive and Sinners die that is become sensible they are the sons of death and wrath and in great danger of Eternal ruine Now they are to hold up their hands and cry Guilty Guilty and to lament and bemoan themselves as Ephraim did to see themselves in such a lost condition 4. Let them be very inquisitive what they shall do that they might be saved Thus were those Jews that were prickt at the heart Act. 2. and thus was the trembling Jaylour Act. 16. A lost estate being perceived is not to be rested in none ought to be contented to be damned but they must inquire what they must do to escape the wrath to come and they must give themselves to prayer in good earnest and use the other means of grace and the sense of their sin and misery should make them the more servent in crying for that mercy and grace which they so highly stand in need of Case 4. The fourth Case this When Sinners upon Self-trial have found out the badness of their State is there any
them to the bettering of their actions 12. They who have no true grace may arise so high as to have some kind of joy This joy was in the hearers compared unto the stony ground Mat. 13. 20. Ezekiels hearers flockt to him with rejoycing because of his most pleasant utterance and taking gifts wherewith God had enriched him and 't is very likely that their attendance upon the Prophets Ministery did yield some quiet to their Consciences which else would have been very troublesome if the Ordinances of God had been wholly neglected Besides the great and glorious things of the Gospel may cause some kind of joy at the hearing of them as other glad tidings do affect us especially of some good that is possible to be obtained When the love of God in Christ is set forth his abundant Grace the sureness of his Covenant and the glorious and eternal rest which remains for his People the Hearers that are not savingly wrought on may have some little taste of the good Word of God and of the powers of the World to come as well as be made partakers of the common gifts of the Holy Ghost And all this may cause some kind of joy But their joy is without precedent sorrow for Sin and though the interest of the Flesh and World prevails yet this joy remains the truth is it has no solid foundation no sanctifying effect and will last but for a moment To conclude this since the confines of unregeneracy extend so far since there may be so much where there is not saving grace Oh pray that you may not rest here Be unsatisfied in the proving of your selves till you find that you outstrip all the Hypocrites that ever were 'T is necessary to exceed them 't is not enough to equal them but Oh how sad will it be to fall short of those who fall short of the Heavenly Kingdom In the second place I proceed unto those Cases that relate unto a State of Grace the resolution of which will be very helpful in the examination and proving of your selves Case 1. The first Case is this How shall we know when we are savingly Enlightned Those that are saved are made light in the Lord the eyes of their understandings are enlightned by the Spirit of Wisdom and Revelation and yet there is an illumination which Hypocrites have How then shall saving illumination be distinguished 1. Where saving illumination is the light is marvellous 1 Pet. 2. 9. That ye should shew forth the praises of him who has called you out of darkness into marvellous light When God by a word of power says Let there be light in a dark mind that light makes a marvellous discovery and the Soul is fill'd with wonder for what was concealed is now manifested and indeed the Apostle says Whatsoever does make manifest is light Eph. 5. 13. He that is enlightned sees his danger and marvels that before he should be so fearless and secure He sees the vanity and emptiness of the Creature and marvels that he should so idolize and dote upon it He sees the sinfuless of sin and marvels that he should be so eager to serve it and love that which is so abominable and hateful He sees the Lords al-sufficiency and marvels that he could live so long without Christ and without God in the World and for so doing calls himself foolish and ignorant and a beast before him And that the scales should at last be made to fall off from his eyes that he might know the things of his peace this is marvellous kindness and grace indeed 2. Saving illumination humbles Job says Mine eye seeth thee wherefore I abhor my self and repent in dust and ashes Job 42. 5 6. To know and be proud is not to know as we ought to know He that understands God and himself aright will have high thoughts of God but he will be low in his own eyes If we are acquainted with the glorious holiness and spotless purity of the Lord we shall be abased because of our own pollutions the discovery of his perfections will humble us because of our infirmities David upon this discovery crys out he is a worm and Abraham that he is but dust and Job behold I am vile what shall I answer thee 3. Saving illumination determines the heart and prevails with it to come to Jesus Christ Joh. 6. 45. It is written in the Prophets and they shall be all taught of God every one therefore that hath heard and learned of the Father cometh unto me When God does shine into the hearts of any he gives the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ 2 Cor. 4. 6. Christ is the Image of the invisible God and most of God is to be seen in Christ here is the most glorious display of his abundant Wisdom Justice Power and Love hereupon the Lord Jesus cannot but be lookt upon as desirable and all things are accounted dung and loss that he may be gained 4. Saving illumination removes prejudices Assoon as ever the Psalmist came into the Sanctuary and understood the different ends of the righteous and the wicked his envy at the ungodly their prosperity and his prejudices against purity and innocency as if it were in vain ceased Psal 73. The carnal mind disputes as it thinks with strong reasons before against Religion but when the Word makes any truely wise presently presently these imaginations are cast down and the high thoughts against the knowledge of God are brought into captivity 2 Cor. 10. 5. The Lord of Rochester that was a great Disputer against God and Christ and Godliness when once enlightned he made this notable acknowledgment That all the seeming contradictions and absurdities of the Word of God fancied by men of corrupt minds and judgments were now vanished and the excellency and beauty of it appeared to him being come to receive the truth in the love of it Then also he cryed out That that absurd and foolish Philosophy which was so much admired by some and propagated by Hobs had undone him and many more of the best Parts in the Nation 5. Saving illumination does not rest in speculation but effectually urges unto practical godliness They who know the truth as it is in Jesus do put off concerning the former conversation the old man which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts They that are renewed in the spitit of their mind do put on that new man which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness Eph. 4. 21. 24. When the grace of God does bring Salvation it teaches us to deny ungodliness and worldly lust and to live soberly righteously and godly in this present World Tit. 2. 11 12. And indeed if rightly instructed we shall obey with a willing mind for we shall see plainly that Sin is the worst that God is the best Master that Christs Yoke is easie his ways pleasantness his paths peace and at the
the hearts of these who thus out of slavish fear sought the Lord were not right with him This kind of fear invades the Sinners and Hypocrites Esa 33. 14. The Sinners in Sion are afraid fearfulness hath surprized the Hypocrites who among us shall dwell with devouring Fire Who among us shall dwell with everlasting burnings Aquinas 22. q. 19. art 2. tells us of a fourfold fear there is a Timor mundanus a worldly fear when for fear of the Worlds frowns and hatred we turn away from God There is Timor servilis a flavish fear when meerly for fear of punishment there is some seeking unto God There is Timor filialis a child-like fear when we fear offending God and so follow and cleave unto him Finally there is Timor initialis an initial fear which is partly a fear of Sin and partly a fear of Punishment Such a fear was in the trembling Jaylour at first Conversion who certainly enquited after the way to be saved both from sin and wrath Act. 16. and a mixture of both we read of in the Saints there is a childlike fear Psal 112. 1. Blessed is every one that feareth the Lord and that delighteth greatly in his Commands And there is likewise a fear of punishment Psal 119. 120. My flesh trembleth for fear of thee and I am afraid of thy judgments This Slavish fear I am discoursing of which is certainly bad and when alone only in those that are bad Now because doubting Souls harp much upon this string that they are acted meerly by slavish fear and 't is one of the difficultest doubts to remove therefore I shall describe more largely those that in Religion are acted by this servile fear that by proving of your selves you may know whether you are of the number 1. They that are acted meerly by Slavish fear dislike nothing in Sin but the punishment Their eyes were never opened to see Sin as the Apostle lookt upon it out of measure sinful they never beheld the excellency of righteousness nor the evil of iniquity but still Sin is as high as ever in their affections though fear restrain them from the acts of it 'T is said of a wicked man that he abhorreth not evil Psal 36. 4. he does not abhor it when he fears to commit it The Merchant in a Storm loves his Goods and is sorry that he is reduced to that strait that he must either throw his Goods overboard or lose his Life and after the Tempest is at an end he would be glad if his Goods might be recovered just thus are they affected towards Sin that are meerly acted by Slavish fear Sin it self is liked but Affliction Death and Hell fright them They are unconcerned that God by their Sin is dishonoured his goodness abused his Law broken and themselves enslaved and defiled and rendred hateful in his eyes only they are dismayed at the punishment unto which their Sin exposes them 2. They that are acted meerly by Slavish fear are afraid of coming to the light which may discover their Sin and themselves more fully to them they see but too much already they are unwilling to see more Our Lord speaks generally concerning all evil men That they hate the light neither come to the light lest their deeds should be reproved Joh. 3. 20. They that are lovers of sin must needs be also lovers of darkness and enemies to plain dealing Ahab humbled himself through fear of punishment and yet cannot endure the faithful reproving Prophet Micaiah There is one Micaiah but I hate him for he prophesieth not good concerning me but evil 1 King 22. 8. If thou approvest of a searching Ministery and art willing to have thy sin and the plague of thy heart made more fully manifest if thou art willing to hear all that evil which God speaks of thy Sin in his Word it argues thy heart is really alienated from it and there is something more than Slavish fear 3. Slavish fear has but an unconstant effect This fear 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 has torment as the Apostle speaks and no wonder if persons are weary of it and endeavour to have their Consciences stupified that they may have no remorse for sin past and serve it for the future without disturbance The will remaining unregenerate and corrupted must needs be really desirous of a false peace and to have the wound healed though it be but slightly The language therefore of such is Prophesy not unto us right things prophesy unto us smooth things prophesy deceits Esa 30. 10. Pharaoh while the hand of God was upon him was full of fear he felt that the Lord Jehovah the God of Israel was above his match and then he seems resolved to comply with the will of God to let his people go to serve him but the effect of this fear is but unconstant though fear thaw'd his heart a little like the shining of the Sun in a winters day as soon as ever he had respite he hardned his heart again and refused to let Israel go Exod. 8. 15. If therefore we are desirous of a lasting change and are willing to have our Consciences more throughly awakened and more faithfully to perform their Office 't is a sign the will it self begins to be renewed by the special grace of God 4. Slavish fear is accompanied with hatred of God and of his Law The Slave fears his Master and hates him and is sorry he must be subject to him And the Apostle tells us That the carnal mind is enmity against God and is not subject to the Law of God neither indeed can it be Rom. 8. 7. Whilst any remain carnal they are estranged from God they desire not any fellowship with him they like not his Yoke but look upon his commands as grievous and upon himself as an hard and austere Master they are far from esteeming Gods commandments concerning all things to be right and wishing that their ways were directed to keep his Statutes Those therefore who like the Law of God and consent unto it as good and bless the Lord that he has given them such a Law and account it their priviledge and liberty that he will vouchsafe to rule them and are troubled at the reluctancy that is in their Natures against the yoke of God and cry as Ephraim did I am as a Bullock unaccustomed to the Yoke turn thou me and I shall be turned Jer. 31. 18. In such there is something beyond servile fear 5. They that are acted meerly by Slavish fear do not desire to be acted by love Sin and the Creature have their love without grudging and they have no longings to have their hearts directed into the love of God That promise The Lord thy God shall circumcise thy heart to love him with all thy heart and soul that thou mayest live Deut. 30. 6. is not prized is not pleaded If once therefore we begin to grudge our lusts and the world our affections and desire they may be placed
into Hell before that Hereafter came Well but some at last have seem'd very penitent and How shall the truth of Repentance be discerned Unto this I answer 1. Such who repent truely at last are very ready to accuse and very severe in judging of themselves they give glory to God and take shame to themselves they justifie the Lord in putting a period to their days and acknowledge that he might justly laugh at their calamity and mock at their fear and distress and anguish and refuse to pitty and pardon and kill the Body and damn the Soul together This judging of themselves is a very good sign and there is a promise of escaping judgment that is condemnation annexed thereunto 1 Cor. 11. 31. For if we should judge our selves we should not be judged 2. Such who repent truely at last are very jealous over their own Spirits lest the distress they are in and the nearness unto death be the only motive unto Repentance therefore their cries are the more earnest to be sincere Converts They prize new hearts and beg that God would deliver them from their natural guile and wickedness and make them indeed new creatures Oh how do they long not only for a pardon but that they may feel the power of the renewing and sanctifying Spirit of Christ Heal me and I shall be healed turn me and I shall be turned save me and I shall be saved Jer. 17. 14. are their strong cryes and oh with what vehement desires are they accompanied 3. Such who repent at last truely are filled with an holy indignation that all their time and strength has been wasted in serving Sin and Satan and dishonouring that God that made them to whom they owe themselves How angry are they and displeased at themselves that when they should have been labouring in the Lords Vineyard they either were standing idle in the Market or wrought iniquity with both hands earnestly Now this holy indignation is by the Apostle made an argument of sorrowing after a godly manner of repentance unto salvation 2 Cor. 7. 11. 4. Such who repent truely at last do look unto Jesus Thus did the Thief upon the Cross Lord remember me Luk. 23. 42. Christ is their hope and the grace of God in him which does superabound though Sin has never so much abounded They look upon his Blood as the Blood of God and able to do away the greatest guilt the foulest spot and stain the most monstrous defilements They perceive that the Blood of Jesus speaks better things than the Blood of Abel Heb. 12. 24. Cryes louder for Mercy and Salvation than Abels did for Vengeance Hereupon they are encouraged and enabled to act the faith of reliance and believing on Jesus they shall not be confounded 1 Pet. 2. 6. Oh how is this Saviour now prized How are they grieved at their former and so long continued neglect of him And though the Lord forgets their Sins they cannot but remember them though he justifies them they cannot cease condemning themselves the truth is they are ashamed and confounded and open not their mouths because of their shame though the Lord is pacified towards them for all that they have done Ezek. 16. 3. 5. They who repent truely at last have a care of Gods honour and are willing to prevent others delaying their repentance Their mouths therefore are full of cautions they blame their own folly and exhort others to grow wiser and while 't is called to day to harden their hearts no longer The Earl of Rochesters dying care was to have his prophane and lewd Writings burnt as being only fit to promote Vice and immorality by which he had so highly offended God and shamed and blasphemed that holy Religion into which he was baptized and all his obscene and filthy pictures which were so notoriously scandalous He wisht his Son might never be one of those wretched creatures who pride themselves in abusing God and Religion adding That no Fortunes or Honours were comparable to the love and favour of God To a Friend of some Note that came to see him he thus expressed himself Oh remember that you contemn God no more We have been all mistaken in our conceits and opinions our persuasions have been false and groundless therefore God grant you repentance And in his dying Remonstrance signed before Witness having bewailed his pernicious opinions and vile practices he thus speaks to all whom he had drawn into Sin I warn them in the name of God and as they regard the welfare of their immortal Souls no more to deny his Being or his Providence or despise his goodness no more to make a mock of Sin or contemn the pure and excellent Religion of my ever blessed Redeemer though whose merits alone I one of the greatest of Sinners do yet hope for mercy and forgiveness Case 11. The eleventh Case follows which is this How may Grace be discovered in Saints that are fallen When I speak of the falls of Saints I mean not their Sins quotidianae incursionis of daily incursion for there is not a day nor a duty wherein the best do not in some respect offend but faults that are more gross and offensive that approach nearer unto the nature of presumptuous transgressions That Saints do sometimes thus fall is evident from Scripture and Experience therefore all of them should be the more watchful humble and cry to be upheld living by faith on that God who is of power to establish them Rom. 16. 25. Rom. 11. 20. Well because of unbelief they were broken off and thou standest by faith be not highminded but fear But when they do fall there is a difference between the manner of theirs and others transgressing 't is said of such as are born of God that they cannot sin because they are born of God 1 Joh. 3. 9. i. e. they cannot sin in such a manner as the unregenerate do I am to present to you a Child of Light under an Eclipse and yet even now there is a great difference between him and them that are under the power of darkness 1. A Saint when he falls sins not with the full consent of his will not only his Conscience does declare against Sin but even his Will so far as sanctified and renewed is also against it His purpose is to take heed to his ways that he may not offend Psal 39. 1. therefore when he falls he is surprized and in the hurry of a temptation and though in this hurry Conscience is not heard and corruption like a torrent carries him away yet there is a secret dislike of Sin which arises from the Spirits lusting against the Flesh Hence it is that Saints cannot take that delight in Sin which others do because their wills do not fully close with the temptation Though in Davids transgression there was too much of deliberation and contrivance especially in his carriage towards Vriah yet if you consider the matter you may find he was
in a hurry all along first he was hurried by a sinful and inordinate affection and afterwards by fear of shame in case what he had done should be discover'd 2. A Saint though he may fall yet does not ordinarily allow himself in Sin neither does he make use of the falls of Believers which the Scripture records as a plea for such an allowance as wicked men commonly do He looks upon the works of darkness as unfruitful and desires to have no fellowship with them because these will hinder his fellowship and communion with God He cannot be called a Worker of iniquity because he prays with David and that sincerely Deliver me from all my transgressions Ps 39. 8. and Oh that my ways were directed to keep thy Statutes Ps 119. 5. 3. A Saint never falls so far as to chuse a new Lord and Master he never wholly casts off the yoke of Christ nor resolves to be willingly subject to the law of sin Acts of disobedience indeed he may be guilty of but when Satan propounds it to him and persuades him to renounce the Lords service and to give up himself to the service of diverse lusts and pleasures he cannot bear the thought of it for he knows the wages of sin is death and Christ is incomparably the best Master He never consents to be wholly under the bondage of corruption as once he was but often prays that no iniquity may have the dominion over him Psal 119. 133. and especially that he may be kept back from presumptuous sins which are such great transgressions Psal 19. 13. 4. A Saint never falls so far as to take up with any portion beneath God himself His Soul hath said The Lord is my portion Lam. 3. 24. and he will never go back from it or change his mind so as to become contented without God and to have all his portion here in this life Oh no though he may go away from his Fathers house a while and feed upon the husks that are abroad yet he cannot be satisfied with these for they are not bread and as he is unsafe so truely he is restless till he return to his Father again His Soul remains empty till the Lord fills it weary till the Lord satiates it sorrowful till God himself replenish it 5. A Saint when he falls is quickly brought to himself and to his God by affliction his heart shews its tenderness in yielding to the stroke and impression of the Rod. Before I was afflicted says the Psalmist I went astray but now have I kept thy Word Ps 119. 67. And truely though there may be great fears of death when affliction overtakes a Saint in his falls yet the new nature is secretly glad of affliction whereby the flesh may be tamed and corruption purged away The backsliding Saint when he is stricken does not like those Esa 1. 5. Revolt more and more but accepts the punishment of his iniquity and desires to be throughly turned unto God who smites him and with his Soul he wishes the sanctification of what he feels and that the affliction may yield the peaceable and lasting fruits of righteousness Heb. 12. 11. 6. A Saint after he has fallen is very much afraid of Spiritual Judgments he is afraid lest the Lord should utterly leave him and say concerning him He is proud let him be proud still he is filthy let him be filthy still he is fallen let him alone David after his Sin dreaded being cast away and left to himself and being given up to his own hearts lusts Psal 51. 11. Cast me not away from thy presence take not thy holy Spirit from me The holy Spirit had been exceedingly resisted and grieved and had been highly and justly provoked to depart and that for ever But David could not bear the thoughts of being deprived of the quickning sanctifying comforting Spirit of God therefore with such concernedness he deprecates his departure 7. If the Saints falls have been foul he is troubled at Gods dishonour and that he has caused his blessed name to be blasphemed 't is his trouble that he hath wounded his own Conscience and this very much adds to his trouble that he hath wounded Religion and caused the way of Truth to be evil spoken of To see fellow Saints grieving for his miscarriages is the grief of his Soul to hear prophane ones scoffing at Religion is his shame and confusion and to perceive them hardned and strengthned in their wickedness by the Sins he has fallen into this makes his Repentance to be the greater This was laid before David as the aggravation of his Sin and certainly it made a deep wound in his Spirit that by the deed he had done he had given great occasion to the enemies of the Lord to blaspheme 2 Sam. 12. 14. 8. The Saint after his fall rises again and begs that he may stand faster The Sun sometimes is Eclipsed a greater part sometimes half and suppose it should be a total Eclipse yet tarry a while till the Moon that interposed between the Sun and the Earth be gone and the Sun will shine as it did before the Saints will recover after their backslidings and shine as light again though Sin may darken them for a season And when they do recover Oh how do they cry not only for pardon but also for cleansing and establishment Hark unto David Psal 51. 10. Create in me a clean heart O God and renew a right or a constant Spirit within me And vers 12. Vphold me with thy free Spirit They are importunate with God to keep them from falling any more and to present them faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy Jude v. 24. To be upheld will be their joy their exceeding joy as their fall was their grief and trouble Case 12. The twelfth Case is this How may we know whether we grow in grace The Saints in Scripture are compared to Trees because of their growth and fruitfulness to the Cedar because they are so firmly rooted to the Palm-tree because depressi resurgunt the weights of affliction upon them make them grow the higher to the Vine because the fruits of righteousness which they bring forth are so exceeding pleasant to the Willows by the water courses because there is an aptness in the new creature to grow apace if there be not some impediment But alass these impediments are too common and where there is life yet there may be a languishing and withering Growing Christians are more rare especially in this degenerate age Now growth in Grace may thus be known 1. Then we grow in Grace when our belief of the Gospel has a stronger impression when things invisible are lookt upon as the greatest realities in the World and we are affected and swayed by the view of them When we can say with the Apostle that we walk by faith and not by sight 2 Cor. 5. 7. If things sensible do less work upon us if we are less
troubled at sensible evils because they are light for a moment and work for good if we are less taken with sensible good things and enjoy them as if we enjoyed and possess'd them not but things Spiritual and Eternal awaken our care and diligence indeed because we believe that these are infinitely of the nearest and greatest concernment 't is a sign that our grace and faith has some strength and that we resemble those Worthies who saw the invisible God and declared plainly that they sought a better Country than was to be found in this present World Heb. 11. 2. Then we grow in Grace when our senses are exercised to discern both good and evil This will prove us to be of a fuller age and that we are distinguished from such as are but Babes Heb. 5. 14. This discerning both good and evil does not only imply soundness of judgment to perceive what is truth and what is error that truth may be held fast and error under what form or disguise soever it comes may be rejected but seems to have some relation to the will and affections and the good that is to be chosen the evil that is to be refused When good things have a greater relish with us than formerly and Sin grows more and more distasteful this shews our Spiritual senses are improved Davids grace was much increased when he said How sweet are thy words to my taste yea sweeter than hony to my mouth Psal 119. 103. And v. 104. Through thy precepts I get understanding therefore I hate every false way 3. Then we grow in Grace when heart Sins are quickly observed at the very first rising of them and in a greater measure mortified When we are able to keep our hearts under our eye and to check them in their very first out-leaps from God and reduce them presently When pride and hatred and passion and envy cannot stir but they are instantly espied and beat down when lust and evil concupiscence are taken notice of at the first kindling and while in the spark without delay quenched this plainly shews the Spirit to be strong because it does prevail against the Flesh so quickly Grace is certainly grown when Sin is nipt in the bud the Cockatrice in the Egg is crushed 4. Then we grow in Grace when we are more weaned from the World The Patriarchs Abraham Isaac and Jacob were grown Believers and they confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims upon Earth Heb. 11. 13. David also was thus got above the World when he said Surely every man walketh in a vain shew surely they are disquieted in vain he heapeth up riches and knoweth not who shall gather them Psal 39. 6. And v. 12. I am a stranger with thee and a sojourner as all my fathers were The World was so little and low in Moses's esteem that he prefers even affliction with the people of God before those pleasures which was but for a season Heb. 11. 25. And v. 26. he esteemed the reproach of Christ greater riches than the treasures of Egypt When the World is thus gotten under foot that the worst of Christ is prefer'd before the best of the World it argues strength of faith whereby our victory over it is so far advanced When we are undisturbed at changes we meet with here below because our treasure is in Heaven and out of reach when with the Apostle we know how to want and how to abound when we are not so much concerned about earthly things because they are not our portion this plainly speaks an increase of grace 5. Then we grow in Grace when we can readily deny our selves When we are not wedded to our own wills but are yielding and subject unto others being clothed with humility 1 Pet. 5. 5. and especially we submit unto God though his commands never so much cross our natural and carnal inclination when we can lay our Honour our Ease our Wealth our Liberty our Lives at the foot of Christ to be disposed of in such a way as He may be most magnified now certainly there is much of the Spirit of glory and of Gods resting upon us How self-denying how bold and venturous was the Apostle desiring that Christ might be magnified whether it were by life or by death Phil. 1. 20. It argues much Grace when the glory of God the Father and of Christ are dearer to us than our dearest earthly comforts and we count it gain to lose any thing for Christs sake Oh brave Hebrews who took joyfully the spoiling of their Goods knowing that they had in Heaven a better and an enduring substance Heb. 10. 34. 6. Then we grow in Grace when we trust in God though outward and visible helps do fail The Lord who made all the creatures though he uses means is not tied to them but can work without and against them therefore though outward props fail faith should not fail and if it be strong it does not Hab. 3. 17. 18. Although the Fig-trees shall not blossom neither shall fruit be in the Vines though fields do yield no food and flocks are cut off from the fold yet will I joy in the Lord and rejoyce in the God of my Salvation The Creatures are insufficient altogether God alsufficient though alone and a strong faith dares trust him by himself Nay a strong faith will rely upon him and follow him notwithstanding repulses denials and discouragements Thus the Woman of Canaan holds on in petitioning our Lord though at first he was silent and answered not a word though he seemed not to regard the Disciples intercession though when he speaks to her he compares her to a Dog and not fit to eat the Childrens Bread yet she gives not over but retorts this discouragement and turns it into an argument The Dogs eat the crumbs which fall from their Masters Table hereupon her petition is granted and her faith highly commended O Woman great is thy faith be it unto thee even as thou wilt Mat. 15. 28. 7. Then we grow in Grace when the thoughts of God are more abiding and delightful and our affections towards him are stronger the more our hearts are the Lords the more they must needs be enriched with grace and in a greater measure sanctified When David was able to say that the meditation of God was sweet to him Psal 104. 34. That his Soul followed hard after God Psal 63. 8. and that he thirsted for God for the living God as the chased Hart pants after the Brooks of Water Psal 42. 1 2. This certainly did argue not only the truth of grace but strength also 8. Then we grow in Grace when we are not prone to be offended Stumbling argues weakness but stumbling blocks will be got over by those whose grace is strengthned When we hold fast the truth though many being led away with the error of the wicked fall from their own stedfastness as Athanasius contra mundum stood up for the Deity and Godhead of Jesus
to Catechize himself about There must be Light in the Head that is of absolute necessity though it be not sufficient for there must be also Grace in the Heart to qualifie a man for the Lords Supper 2. The Communicant should further examine and ask himself this question Do I apprehend the danger of unworthy Receiving Is not the guilt of Blood heavy And what is it then to be guilty of the Blood of God But if I Eat and Drink unworthily I am guilty of the Body and Blood of the Lord 1 Cor. 11. 27. What a fearful thing is it to Crucifie the Son of God afresh To trample him under Foot and to esteem his Blood a common and an unholy thing My Heart rises against the Jews because they Mocked Scourged Buffeted Crucified the Lord of Life and Glory but this they did in his Humiliation here upon Earth And shall I dare to put an affront upon him now he is at the right Hand of the Almighty Majesty on High If I Eat and Drink unworthily I pull the Blood of Christ upon my Head instead of having my sin pardoned and my Heart cleansed and sanctified by it and I Eat and Drink my own damnation 3. Another question the Communicant should propound to himself is this Have I a right conception of Gospel Worthiness The Worthiness spoken of in the Gospel does not imply any Merit or Desert for Christ the Son is given out of the Transcendent Love of God and with him freely all things Rom. 8. 32. The Patriarch Jacob Acknowledged he could not lay claim to the least of all Mercies as a due debt Our daily Bread is a Gift and how much more the Bread of Life Worthiness therefore is as much as being disposed and made meet to Receive what the Lord in the Supper is willing to bestow When we are sensible of our own unworthiness and guilt and vileness then we are made meet to be accepted looking unto the Beloved and to be Justified by his Meritorious Righteousness When we are sensible how weak and empty and distempered our Hearts are then we are Worthy that is to say made meet to be strengthened and filled and healed by the great Physitian of Souls in whom it hath pleased the Father all fulness should dwell 4. The Communicant should ask himself Do I look upon admission to the Table of the Lord as a mighty priviledge He was no less then a King of Israel who thought it a great favour to be a doorkeeper in the House of God and what is it then to be a welcom guest at his Table What is it to be brought into his Banquetting House where the Banner over his People is love Cant. 2. 4. Our Lord in this Ordinance deals forth Light and Grace and Comfort bountifully Here Tears have been dried up fainting Souls have been revived and Faith ready to fail hath been strengthned and languishing Hope hath been made lively The Blood of Jesus Christ being applied has proved a 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 medicine for every malady and hath sent away the sin distressed Soul both clean and calm both pure and also peaceable Is it not a mighty advantage and an Heart effecting and endearing sight to see the Blood and the Love of Christ streaming forth together Here is 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Love that passeth knowledge Eph. 3. 19. Oh with what confidence may humble and hungry souls go to this Jesus who is so full of Love and so full of all besides which they Hunger after he would have none to content themselves with a little but his language is Eat O Friends Drink yea Drink abundantly O Beloved Cant. 5. 1. 5. The Communicant should ask himself Do I know what it is to discern the Lords Body 1 Cor. 11. 29. My bodily Eye beholds the Sacramental Bread and Wine but have I an Eye to behold something further and better If the Israelites in the Wilderness did behold an Healer and a Saviour when Moses lifted up the Brazen Serpent if the Beleivers under the Old Testament did see a Messiah in the legal sacrifices though as yet he was not manifested in the Flesh surely since the Son of God is come and has been actually offered up to bear the sins of many shall I not behold this Jesus in the Bread and Wine broken and poured out where he is so evidently set forth as Crucified What is it to discern the Lords Body Verily 't is to look beyond the outward Elements to the Body and Blood of Christ which thereby are represented and to relye upon that very Jesus who was Crucified without the Gates at Jerusalem for the Pardon and Mortification of our iniquities in particular and that our wants of Grace and Strength and Comfort may be supplyed out of his superabundant fulness Moreover the Beleiver should grow confident and be perswaded that as really as the Bread and Wine are given him so really Christ bestowes himself and his benefits upon him in this Blessed Ordinance Hark to the Apostle 1 Cor. 10. 16 The cup of Blessing which we bless is it not the Communion of the Blood of Christ The Bread which we brake is it not the communion of the Body of Christ The Communicant should ask himself Do I see my self lost in my self and do I perceive 't is in vain to hope for Redemption any other way but by the Lord Jesus The Apostle has a notable expression when he speaks of being shut up unto Faith Gal. 3. 23. Intimating that all other doors are shut against the Sinner only the door of Faith in Jesus Christ is open We cannot reasonably hope for the Forgiveness of sin or Justification before God any other way but by him who is sufficient to be a propitiation for the sins of the whole World There were multitudes of sacrifices under the old Law which were appointed by the Lord him self and yet the sins of the Sacrificers could be done away by none of them The Apostle tells us plainly that 't is impossible the Blood of Bulls and Goats should take away sin Heb. 10. 4. And if the sacrifices that were of Divine institution could not do it surely those of humane invention could do it lesse though never so costly though we should give our first Born for our Transgression the Fruit of our Body for the sin of our Soul Mic. 6. 7. No active Obedience that we can yeild can justifie us before God for the Apostle peremptorily asserts that there is no Law given which can give Life unto him that obeys it Gal. 3. 21. Nay further our greatest sufferings for Righteousness sake are insufficient to be our justifying Righteousness Therefore those who come out of great Tribulation are said to have washed their Robes not in their own Blood though that was spilt for the Word of God and the Testimony of Jesus Christ but in the Blood of the Lamb Rev. 7. 14. 7. The Communicant should examine and ask himself Am I perswaded
whose favour affords the fullest joy and whose frowns can cause an Hell on Earth Carnal Pleasures are but bruitish The Beasts enjoy those as well as men and several of them excelling us in sense their pleasures also may be greater They are worse then Beasts who can be contented with such delights because they are capable of delights much higher which capacity the Beasts have not How unfit is he for Christ and for the Kingdom of God who esteems Earthly pleasure as the most desirable paradise He wofully forgets both Himself and Eternity who admires those delights and joys which can last but for a moment MEDITATION VI. O my Soul Art thou indeed fond of Pleasure The highest of all are not grudged thee Oh taste and see that the Lord is Gracious What is pleasing to the Flesh cannot reach thee but God is a Spirit has enough is enough for thee The Angels have no Flesh and yet enjoy the greatest delight and God himself who is the most spiritual is the most blessed and happy Being of all Solomon enjoyed as much as the most voluptuous can wish for He says whatever his Eyes desired he kept not from them neither did he withhold from his Heart any joy Though sensual delight was in its highest Exaltation yet it was wofully mixed the sting was much sharper then the Honey was sweet Therefore he cryes out all was vanity and vexation of Spirit Be not eager O my Soul after that which will prove a vexation to thee Return unto God look unto Jesus here thou maist find exceeding joy here a Soul may find rest And being once interested in that meat which endures to Everlasting Life and in the unsearchable Riches of christ thou maist speak to thy self upon good ground Soul take thine ease Eat Drink and after an holy manner be Merry for thou hast Goods laid up which will never be spent but last unto Eternity MEDITATION VII Lord How far is that Man from knowing Thee who is a Lover of Pleasure more then a Lover of God! How excellent is thy Loving kindness How sweet the Meditation of Thee When my heart is enlarged and my Affections for Thee are vehement and strong here is a joy indeed which the World is a stranger to and cannot equal David called Thee the gladness of his Joy no other joy can make me truly glad besides How All-sufficient is thy fulness How Rich is thy Mercy How superabundant is thy Grace And even thy justice which is so affrighting unto guilty man is fully satisfied by the Obedience and Sufferings of Jesus Christ Thou art just when thou justifiest him that Believeth in Jesus Unbeleiving Doubts and Fears are groundless but joy and peace are highly reasonable The Saints which are now Triumphant who see thee face to face and are in the Lambs Presence and Throne are far from admiring the pleasures of sin and sense Away away thou deceitful Tempter Offer such poor such low things no more I am to preferre Affliction with the People of God before such Pleasures and certainly then Heaven and the foretastes of it are of infinitly greater value From henceforth Lord it shall be my pleasure to study thee and thy will to love thee to serve thee to please thee to praise thee and to enjoy thee will be my highest Happiness MEDITATION VIII What is the Applause and esteem of Men How vain and poor a thing is Worldly Honour Why should I Envy this to others or be eager after it or proud of it my self Man does judge according to outward appearance and therefore may more easily mistake When man commends Conscience may condemn and God much more That which is highly esteemed among men is an Abomination in the sight of God To be spoken well of by sinners is rather a bad sign they were false Prophets who had the good word of all men And the good Word of Saints is rather an argument of their Charity then of our sincerity The Jew that is one inwardly his Heart is Circumcised and his praise not of men but of God How poor a thing is it to be praised for Beauty which is so great a snare to them that have it and to others also and which Death may so quickly turn into paleness and rottenness And to be praised for Worldly Greatness does yield but a sorry satisfaction for Death is a sure and terrible Leveller and the Worms will make as bold with the Catkass of the Prince as of the Peasant What will it advantage one to be commended for Gifts or Parts or Grace if Conscience at the same time do justly Reproach and call one Proud and Hypocritical How little did Christ value Honour in the days of his Humiliation he was despised rejected reproached and at last most ignominiously Crucified Lord They are truly Honourable that Honour Thee and are honoured by thee and to whom thou wilt say at last Well done good and faithful Servants MEDITATION IX When I look into my self my Sins appear by great multitudes But a Righteousness of my own I cannot find which does deserve to be called by the name of Righteousness If the Elect Angels do cover their faces in the presence of a God glorious in Holiness how shall sinful man appear without a Mediatour They that are ignorant may be Proud and Self-conceited and may trust to themselves that they are Righteous but one view of Gods unspotted purity and exact justice is enough to cause in any mortal man self-distrust nay self-abhorrency The Sun is confounded and the Moon ashamed the Heavens are not clean in the sight of Him that made them the Angels themselves are charged with folly what is man that he should be Righteous MEDITATION X. My evill deeds do far exceed my good ones how great is the number of those how small comparatively the number of these How many more are the vain words which I speak then those that are serious And when I keep the strictest watch over my Heart the bad thoughts though intruders will be ten for one that is pure and holy if the odds be not farr greater And can I stand then if the Lord should be extream to mark what is done amiss Who in the World has more reason then I to cry out Lord enter not into judgment with thy Servant That little good which I do what mixtures of evil are there with it The Flesh is still lusting against the Spirit and makes every duty I perform imperfect and upon its own account impossible to be accepted The best of my works cannot merit the acceptation of themselves how then can they make satisfaction for my iniquities I see plainly when I have done all I must call my self unprofitable and look unto Christ who became obedient unto Death and desire that both I and my works the most perfect of them all may be found in him MEDITATION XI To whom can I look but unto Jesus Here the Angels look and wonder at the manifold wisdom
with God the Father takes upon him the form of a Servant and becomes obedient to death even the Death of the Crosse and he is sufficient to make peace MEDITATION XVIII Christ as he was God could not die but he took mans nature upon him that he might be in a capacity to dye for sinful and lost Man He suffered in the same Nature that had sinned that he might make Atonement Sacrifices and Burnt-offerings could never take away the guilt of sin nor quiet the Conscience of the sinner nor cleanse and sanctifie a defiled soul therefore Christ had a Body prepared for him that by one Offering he might perfect his Church for ever Wonderful mystery of Godliness That God should be manifested in the Flesh and suffer upon the Cross to make peace Here is a wonderful contrivance Christ is the Sacrifice Christ is the Altar and Christ is the Priest Through the Eternal Spirit he offered up himself without spot to God to purge our Consciences from dead works that we might serve the Living God MEDITATION XXI Christ is God and has so effectually don the work of a Mediator that God is forward to be at Peace and entreats sinners to be reconciled Christ is Man and therefore Man may go with boldness to him O my Soul Thy Lord is near a kin to thee he bears good will to thy whole kind He is the Saviour of all men especially of them that Believe Being so nearly related to thee he has a right to Redeem thee nay he has actually paid the price of thy Redemption already so that nothing remains but that thou come to him and be made free indeed His Arms were not folded or hanging down but stretched out upon the Cross And oh How forward is this Saviour who died to embrace all that come to him When he says he will in No wise cast them out methinks it speaks the greatest readiness and gladness imaginable to entertain them Venture O venture to look to Jesus to come to Jesus and venture thy all with him Never any miscarried in this bottom and all must needs miscarry in any other He knows thy Sins thy Wants thy Foes thy Fears he knows how to Pity Protect and Succour thee He was in all things made like unto his Brethren that he might be a Merciful and Faithful High Priest in things pertaining to God to make Reconciliation for the sins of the People for in that he himself hath suffered being tempted he knows how to succour them that are tempted MEDITATION XX. How excellent is the Knowledge of Christ Crucified Look O my Soul upon thy Lord who loved thee at such a rate as to dye for thee Behold him Arrested Arraigned and Condemned Thou wast guilty of the crime and thy Lord did bear the punishment Behold him going to execution going unto Golgotha and if he had not gone thither whither Oh! Whither must thou needs have gone for ever The Law had condemned Thee not only the first but also the second Death was the just desert of thy Transgressions But here thy Surety stept in and Redeemed thee from the Curse of the Law being made a Curse for thee Look upon the Wrath of God revealed against thee because of thy ungodliness and unrighteousness look upon the glittering Sword of Justice drawn look upon devouring Fire and Everlasting Burnings prepared for thee and thy self just ready to be thrown into those unquenchable Flames And then behold and wonder at the kindness and love of Jesus who was willing to be made sin for thee and to bear the Wrath of God himself that he might appease it which was too heavy for thee to bear and which would have sunk thee into the lowest Hell and have kept thee there unto Eternity In what a deplorable and desperate case had the Sheep been if this good Shepherd had not stood in their room and layed down his Life for them MEDITATION XXI History tells us of Codrus the last Athenian King who was a great Lover of his People as appears by the manner of his Dying When the Grecians of Doris sought Counsel from the Oracle concerning the success of their Wars which they waged with the Athenians It was answered that undoubtedly they should prevail and become Lords of that State when they could obtain any victory against the Nation and yet preserve the Athenian King himself alive Codrus the King by some intelligence being informed of this answer withdrew himself from his own Forces and putting on the habit of a common Souldier he entred alone the Camp of the Dorians his Enemies and killing the first he met with was himself forthwith cut in pieces Thus he was willing to lose his own life rather then his Country should be ruined The Lord Jesus the Prince of Life and Glory did vail his Majesty appeared in the form of a Servant was contented to be counted a deceiver and to be numbred among Transgressours that his Life might be taken away and hereby Eternal Redemption be procured Codrus was deservedly honoured among the Athenians and certainly the Lord Jesus should be the higher in our esteem and love the lower he humbled and abased himself for our sakes The offence of the Crosse should cease since his Crucifixion was so necessary to our Eternal Salvation MEDITATION XXII Greater Love hath no man then this that a man lay down his Life for his Friends But Lord Thou didst dye for Rebels and for Enemies thou didst dye unsought to undesired therefore thy love is greater then the greatest love besides Thy love was stronger then Death no Water could quench it no Floods could drown it Hell it self could not discourage it 'T was a bitter Cup the Father put into thy hand but thou didst drink it and drink it off too the very dreggs of the Cup are gone Oh what a load did lye upon thee All the sins of all that ever were or shall be saved did meet on thee together How many stings had thy Death and yet thy Godhead and thy love did carry thee through all thy sufferings Oh! That I could comprehend with all Saints what is the heighth and length and depth and breadth and know the Love of Christ which passeth Knowledge that I may be filled with all the fulness of God! MEDITATION XXIII My Lord did know what was to come upon him Mans sin had been shamefull Christs Death was most Reproachful and Accursed Man had taken Pleasure in sin Christs Death was painful Man had been wilful in Transgression and Christs Death was voluntary though 't was violent Man had sinned against knowledge and with great contrivance and deliberation and Christ perfectly understood all that he was to endure He was well aware what he was to feel from Earth from Hell and from his heavenly Father and yet he makes no demur but endures the Cross and despises the shame and gives his Life a Ransom for many How was he straitned till his bloody Baptism was accomplished And
dead to sin and live to Righteousness MEDITATION XXXVI Is the Cup of blessing at the Table the Communion of the Blood of Christ indeed How should my Soul and all that is within me bless the Lords Name when I take it into my hand My Lord does in effect say to me Here is the New Testament sealed and confirmed there is remission of all thy sins Here is sanctifying Grace here is an assurance of mine and my Fathers love here is a pledge and earnest of Glory and Immortality This Blood of Jesus is deservedly styled precious 't is the Blood of the Lamb without spot nay 't is the Blood of the Lord Jehovah To make light of this Blood as if it were an unholy or common thing is to deny the Lord that bought us and to bring upon our selves certain and swift destruction But whosoever by Faith applyes this Blood of Jesus shall find it sufficient to cleanse them from all unrighteousness MEDITATION XXXVII Dearest Lord How great is the vertue of that blood of thine which was shed upon the Cross without the gates of Jerusalem It can appease thy Fathers anger though provoked unto great fierceness it can remove the greatest guilt it can cure and cleanse the most leprous and defiled Soul it can heal the most wounded and enraged Conscience Oh blessed Laver where I may wash and be clean where I may bath and be eased Effectual medicine which heals every spiritual malady How wonderful was thy love which made thee shed thy blood how happy is thy Church for whom thy blood is shed Lord I love thee I rest upon thee I rejoyce in thee who hast loved thy People and washed them from their sins in thy own Blood and hast made them Kings and Priests unto God and thy Father who gavest thy self for thy Church that thou mightest sanctifie and cleanse it and present it to thy self a glorious Church not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing but that it should be holy and without blemish MEDITATION XXXVIII Who shall lay any thing to the charge of Gods Elect It is God that justifieth Who is he that condemneth it is Christ that dyed This is my Answer unto the Accuser of the Brethren when he tells me of my manifold Transgressions All that he can truly lay to my charge I am ready to lay to my own nay I subscribe guilty to all that is down in the book of the Omniscient Gods remembrance but then I add Christ dyed Christ shed his Blood that sin might be pardoned and purged and I am willing to be cleansed as well as pardoned And if the Blood of Christ be enough to satisfie divine justice surely 't is sufficient to satisfie and quiet the most awakened Conscience I have indeed like a Sheep gon astray and turned to my own way but the Lord has laid on Christ all my iniquities he endured the chastisement of my peace he felt the stripes that I might be healed Hereby Satan is silenced my own desponding Spirit revived and encouraged and in the Name and Mediation of Jesus I can go unto God himself though he is so glorious in Righteousness and Holiness as a Child unto a Father MEDITATION XXXIX The Blood of Christ does speak and speaks better things then the Blood of Abel No voice more loud then that of Blood no blood does cry like that of God This blood does speak both to God and Me it speaks to God and what ever I pray for which I really need this blood cryes that I may obtain Blessings of all sorts were purchased by the shedding of it and it is continually pleading that what it purchased may be bestowed Hence is the efficacy of Prayer because what the belieuer prays for the blood of Christ speaks for How loud does it cry in Gods ears Lord pity and pardon the humbled and Believing Soul Heal and Comfort the Contrite and Broken hearted Oh give converting and Renewing Grace to all that do desire it Those that fear thy Wrath let them escape it Those that prize thy love love them freely and for ever Receive all returning sinners and take away all their iniquities Give Grace give Glory and no good thing withhold from them that seek thee in sincerity Thus the blood of Christ does intercede with God And the Lord having contrived the shedding of it on purpose that without any derogation from his Righteousness he might shew mercy to the Children of men certainly its intercession for mercy shall not be in vain MEDITATIONS XL. The blood of Christ does speak also to Me. And how good and comfortable are the words of it Soul be of good chear thy sins are forgiven thee thou hast destroyed thy self but in me is thy help and Salvation found God was angry with thee but I have appeased his Wrath. He whom thou wast ready to find a consuming Fire is become a God in Covenant nay a Father to thee That blood which was shed upon the Cross has made thy Peace though heretofore never so much a stranger never so great an Enemy Behold Hell lockt up thou shalt never fall into that place of Wo behold the way into the Holiest of all is open Thou hast liberty to come with boldness to the Throne of Grace and within a little while thou shalt have an abundant entrance into Glory Dear Lord What am I that blood and such blood as thine should be shed for me Why wast thou at such expence and cost for the Redemption and Salvation of such a Wretch such a Rebel Thou hast mercy because thou wilt have mercy thy exceeding rich and glorious Grace must be matter of a delightful transport and sweet astonishment to Eternity MEDITATION XLI My Lords love and kindness should thaw and melt my heart That God whom for so long a time I neither lov'd nor fear'd nor cared to be acquainted with but dishonoured and sinn'd against with so high an hand had he indeed purposes of Grace towards me from Eternity That Jesus whom I shut and barr'd the door of my Heart so fast against whose word I was deaf unto and whose Spirit I resisted for so long a time has He indeed born my sins and carried my sorrows Oh that my head were Waters and my eyes Fountains of Tears Oh stony Heart for shame now become like wax and be melted in the midst of my Bowels I am a prodigy of unkindness wo is me that I have sinned Wo is me that I who have sinn'd so much do grieve no more Surely all my days I will walk softly in the bitterness of my Soul I will be vile in my own eyes and wonder that the Lord should have respect to such an one as I My own sin and my Lords Love shall be my Study I will compare them together that sin may be lamented and loathed according to the desert of it and that my Repentance may be indeed Evangelical and after a godly manner MEDITATION XLII O my Soul if thy