So likewise is it requisite that thou being emptied and stripped of the world and the concupiscences and lustes thereof shouldest be wholly changed and deuoted to further and aduance the glory of God Whereupon the Apostle said That our old man is crucified that the body of sinne may be destroyed Our Lord hauing beene nayled to his crosse is there-dead and wee his members ought to die to the world and to our selues in such sort that as those which are dead we should make no more reckoning of the things of the world should be without sense or feeling of them and should haue neither synewe nor veyne stretching or tending that way To this purpose S. Paul said to the Colossians you are dead and your life is hidd in Christ Furthermore we must also be buried with the same Sauiour He that is dead hath no more care of the world yet before he be buryed the world hath care to winde him vp in a sheete to Coffyn him then to carry him to his graue where being interred all societie and dealing one with another is at an end In this sort many who thinke themselues to be dead to the world pretending and making semblance to haue renounced it are not yet buryed because the world makes great account of them doth reuerence and worship them But it behooueth vs to be dead and buryed to the world in such sorte as we haue as small accompt and esteeme of it as of a stinking carrion and that it esteeme so of vs. For it is an ill signe when the children of this world speake well of vs. It is then a thing requisite and necessary that we be buryed with Iesus Christ by Baptisme into his death And it is fit also that we descend as our head into hell that is that we haue a right knowledge and a liuely feeling of our sinnes which is done when wee feele in our hearts the loue of God our Father in Iesus Christ crucified For being convicted to haue offended him we must descend to confesse and earnestly to decest and abhorre our pride ignorance infidelitie malice obstinacie and other vices Seeing then that these pollutions and defilements haue so much and so greatly displeased God that to purge them out of the world he hath deliuered his owne sonne to death we are brought to this point in some sorte to know our misery and how much we our selues doe displease God Moreouer as the Sauiour is risen againe so his members ought to rise againe in newnesse of life in such sort that afterwardes they haue no motion or inclination whatsoeuer but to glorifie God walking as persons whose conuersation is alreadie in heauen Christ is risen againe therefore his members ought to rise againe not onely at the last day but hourely and continually in newnesse of life so that thence forward they haue no motion or disposition whatsoeuer but to glorifie God Christ is risen immortall for that hauing triumphed ouer death death hath no more dominion ouer him Thereupon S. Peter sayth to Christians seeing our Sauiour hath suffred for vs in the flesh it is reason that we be armed and resolued in mind that he which hath suffred in the flesh hath ceased from sinne willing and ready to say that Christ the head pledge and suretie for all Gods children comming to die consequently to satisfie fully and wholly the Iustice of God for them hath clearely discharged the debt for all his members who are obliged to him vnlesse they would crucifie him againe and hold the precious bloud of the euerlasting couenant for a prophane thing to cease and giue ouer to sinne For being dead to sinne buryed to the world risen againe to God they ought to sinne no more nor to die in sinne much lesse to remaine dead therein Sinne ought no more to raigne nor haue dominion in them they ought no longer to obey their euill lustes but to curbe and restraine them by the spirit which doth quicken guide and gouerne them Our Lord is ascended vp into heauen In like sort if we be liuing members of his mysticall body we ought zealously and with all our affections to be elevated and raised vp vnto God truely to say with S. Paul that our conuersation is in heauen The same S. Paul sayd to the Colossians Chapter 3. 1. If you be risen againe with Christ seeke the thinges which are aboue that is heauenly and diuine not earthly and sensuall Now as this good Sauiour soone after his ascension into heauen for a testimony of his infinite glory in that he is set at the right hand of God the Father Almightie sent his holy spirit in a visible forme vpon his twelue disciples So we likewise after we are raised vp to God shall feele our selues filled with this spirit and with feruent charitie which will then appeare when wee shall illuminate kindle and inflame our neighbours in the loue of God not onely with our wordes but especially with our doings and deedes by the good examples of a blamelesse life Iesus Christ ought to come to judge the quicke and the dead And if we be his members a liuely fayth will make vs to feele the sweetnesse of these wordes of our Sauiour Come yee blessed of my Father possesse the inheritance prepared for you before the foundation of the world Let vs adde that as the judge of all shall be judged of none so shall it be with all his true members in the great and last day And who should judge them seeing the Father iustifieth them in his son and by the mouth of his sonne pronounceth them just blessed and heires of the kingdome of heauen Wherefore Christ Iesus denounceth that he which heareth his word and beleeueth in him hath eternall life and shall not come to condemnation that is shall not be judged but is passed from death to life Ioh. 5. 24. This needes no further exposition And it were to blaspheme whosoeuer would call into question the certaintie of our saluation by Iesus Christ alone who is dead for our sinnes risen againe for our iustification that we might be the righteousnesse of God in him Let vs say further with S. Paul 1 Cor. 6. 2. 3. Know yee not that the Saints shall judge the world Know yee not that wee shall judge the Angells But as after the last judgement Christ Iesus shall remaine in heauen in incomprehensible glorie so true Christians already risen againe by faith and sitting together in the heauenly habitations with their head hauing their conuersation in heauen shall there appeare and be found all perfect entire in their bodies and soules with their Sauiour who in raising them vp againe shall change their vile and contemptible bodies so as they shall bee made conformable to his glorious bodie according to the power and efficacie whereby he is able to subdue all things to himselfe If wise old men doe in a quiet and sober moode meditate and consider these thinges euery one of them hanging
crimes and offences doe banish for euer the malefactors from humane society Who shall dare to say that it is iniquity in God the Lord of the permanent and durable City if he eternally banish out of his kingdome of glory his sworne enemies the wicked who continually offend him And the polluted prophane vniust reprobates who plot and conspire against God and their neighbours remaine for euer vnder the wrath and curse of the Lord For iustification of all consider onely the corruption of humane nature and what the sonnes of Adam are in themselues For howsoeuer the beleefe touching the immortality of mans soule be orthodox and most true yet may it fitly bee sayd that the soule is subiect to a certaine kind of death Wee call it immortall because it ceaseth not to liue and in some sort to haue sence and feeling The body is mortall because it may bee depriued of life which consistes in the residence of the soule in it from whence floweth that which doth maintaine it not liuing of it selfe but by the soule which doth gouerne and mooue it But the death of the soule is when God doth abandon it and depriue it of his grace And wee say that man is vtterly dead when the soule is quite gone out of the body and that God doth abandon the soule finally adiudged to euerlasting torments S. Augustine will that the name of death bee deriued from the venomous morsure or sting of the infernall serpent the diuel then by him brought into the world when hee first bit and stung out first mother Eue leauing fast sticking in vs the sting of sinne which the Apostle calleth the sting of death This sting being blunted and taken away death ceaseth mortally to sting vs. When S. Ambrose writeth in his Treatise of the benefit of death Chap. 1. 2. that death hurteth not the soule consequently is not euill seeing that nothing but sinne hurteth the soule it is to bee vnderstood of the bodily death in respect of Gods children Therefore hee maketh a â—hree-fold distinction of death the one good the other euill the third good or euill The good is the mysticall death when a man dyeth to sinne and liueth to God whereof the Apostle speaketh That we are buried with Christ Iesus into his death by Baptisme The euill is the death of sinne whereof it is written Then soule that sinneth shall dye And the third is the end of our race and calling in this world that is the separation of the soule from the body of good men accounted good of wicked men euill Although death doth vnshackle and set all persons at liberty very few yet are to bee found which take pleasure therein But this proceedeth not from any offence that is in death that is in the separatiof the soule from the body but from the infirmity of mortall men who suffering themselues to goe on in their carnall pleasures and delights of this life doe tremble and feare to see themselues at the end of their race in the earth louing long life there to liue euilly that is there to dye hourely O how sweet is the good death to wise old men to men and women who are the seruants of God who watch who pray who cry to their Lord in repentance in faith and charity who manfully fight against all temptations And how bitter is the euill death to those euill soules vnbeleeuers stiffe necked ones hypocrites who wrap themselues in their sinnes who haue no pleasure hope nor comfort but in this world These things being so it is easie to shew how death is to be feared or not Certainely the death of sinners is euill who not content to be borne in sinne liue still in all manner of iniquities But the death of the Saints is precious being the end of their labours and toyles the conseruation and custos of their victory the doore of life and the entrance into an assured perfect glorious rest Those are to bee bewayled in their death who haue hell for their prison But it beseemes vs to reioyce and bee glad at their departure whom God doth bid welcome into his heauenly Palace where they magnifie him for euer If any one aske vs sayth Lactantius in the third Booke of his Christian Institutions whether death be good or euill wee will answere that the qualitie thereof doth consist in the consideration of life in it selfe Death in it selfe cannot bee sayd to bee good pleasing and to be desired on the contrary it is the destruction of nature and the reward of sinne But wee must esteeme it a thing worthy great prayse pleasing and full of grace and delight when wee dye ioyfully in the true knowledge of Christ Iesus to goe out of the prison of this mortall body out of this valley of miseries out of this desart where we are exiled persons to returne to our Father our countrey and heauenly city He dyeth well who with the Apostle sayth in sincerity of conscience all my desire is to depart hence and to bee with Christ Iesus Particularly as touching my selfe I haue fought the good fight I haue finished my course I haue kept the faith also the crowne of righteousnesse is layd vp and reserued for mee which the Lord the iust Iudge shall in that day giue vnto me not to me onely but to those who loue his appearing Againe death and the remembrance and apprehension of it is wonderfull irkesome and bitter to a man which trusteth in his riches liuing in all ease in full strength of body and prosperity Here we demand what we are to judge of the death of those who are cruelly quartered and dismembred by hangmen or by fierce and wilde beastes are swallowed vp in the belly of fishes are stifled with a suddaine apoplexie are bereaued of wit sense and reason by some hot burning feaver or who die franticke and madd As for those who are put to cruell death for the name of Christ Iesus the answere is that their death cannot bee tearmed and accompted but deare and precious in the sight of the Lord and of all his Church For if the heathen Philosophers haue had some reason to say that a vertuous man leaues not to be happie though he bee put to a violent death why should we not say the same of the true vertuous to wit the holy Martyrs seeing we haue so certaine testimonies and so many famous examples of their faith charitie patience and constancie in death The Epistle to the Hebrewes is herein expresse for it conteyneth the heroicall trophies of faith also the opprobries disgracefull reuilings and cruell torments of the invincicible Champions of Christ Iesus But I pray you what torments can dismay and terrifie him which glorieth in the crosse of Christ Iesus among all others a shamefull and terrible torment and death Turtullian obserueth in his Apologetico that in his tyme Christians were called Sarmentitij Semissij bavinistes and poore snakes because they were bound to a stake which
this pardon by the gift and hand of a liuely faith doe wrastle against the image of death against a bruised Serpent a wourried torne Lyon against a stinglesse Waspe against a vanquished enemie Chrysostome censureth in good manner those wretches who feare death and feare not sinne wherein they are insnared and wrapped nor the vnquenchable fire of hell which gapes for them Thus sayth he as children are wayward and wrangle if their mothers come neere them with maskes on their faces but when a lighted Candle is brought neere vnto them they readily thrust their handes in it and are burned So those men feare death who know not what it is to liue Death snatcheth away a miserable and short life to make vs to enter into an eternall and perpetuall blessed life Death doth seperate vs from the heapes of Iewells the robes moueables coffers crammed with gold and siluer the sundrie immoueables which we must leaue But in heaven we haue vnseperable riches with the Angels death extrudes and thrustes vs out of the earth but to bring vs into paradize death kills the bodie but it shall rise againe to die no more but be conformable to the glorified bodie of Christ Iesus If any man fight with his owne shadow he hurtes no bodie so death doth but beate the ayre in bickering and jousting against the just It hath beene Gods will and pleasure so sayth Chrysostome that this present life should be painefull and miserable to the end that being buffetted on all sides with so many and manifold miseries we should eagerly aspire to the happinesses to come But seeing we are thus farre ill aduised to wallow and idle it so willingly in this present life where so many disasters and miseries doe surround and encompasse vs how would it be with vs if there were nothing but ioy peace and rest here Our most mercifull heauenly Father doth so mitigate and temper the afflictions of this life that as a Lute-player doth not winde vp too high his Lute strings for feare to breake them nor slacken them too much that so their sweete harmonie tunablenesse may be more distinctly perceiued So doth the wise maister of our life not leauing vs in continuall prosperitie nor too much oppressed He is faithfull who will not suffer vs to be tempted beyond and aboue our strength but will giue a good issue to our temptations and tryalls to the end we should be able to beare them We see men of warre desirous of honour and to attaine to some rancke and degree manfully to expose themselues to a thousand dangers The couetous Marchant to runne vpon all hazards and risques for a handfull of yellow earth The voluptuous person to disdaine and set light by infinite reprochfull and woefull dangers to satisfie his passions and humours And you wise old men will you slumber and sleepe in a corner will you still sit with your armes and legges a crosse not rouzing lifting vp your selues to the contemplation and diligent seeking after so many happinesses prepared for them which loue God Doe you feare death you which in the middest of the shadowe of death haue standing at your ell-bow the Prince and Author of life If you beare in your hearts that quickning spirit which raised vp Iesus Christ from the dead whence is it that you feare death Haue you blotted out of your remembrance him who hath the wordes of eternall life who is the way the truth the resurrection the life who dyed for our sinne and is risen againe for our iustification But soyle not this gracious remembrance with the myre and mudd of sordid and obscene pleasures Let not the perswasions of the vncleane and filthie flesh stoppe and hinder the motions of the spirit illuminated by sacred Philosophie Let the repetitions of his most sweete most certaine and most holy promises bee potent and powerfull in your hearts who was willing to participate of our flesh and bloud that in the same nature foyled by Sathan our Sauiour hath abolished it by his death as by a most sufficient ransome he which conquered death to wit the Deuill Giue me leaue to reforme and rectifie you by recitall of the excellent promises following of the Lord. Verely I say vnto you that whosoeuer heareth my word and beleeueth in him which sent mee hath eternall life and shall not come to condemnation but is passed from death to life Iohn 5. 24. This is the will of him which sent me that whosoeuer beholdeth the sonne and beleeueth in him hath eternall life and for this cause I will raise him vp againe at the last day Such perspection and contemplation of faith is not as prophane persons chatter and mutter a vaine imagination but is coupled and covnited with his effect and with the true apprehension and laying hold of Iesus Christ and his benefites This great Sauiour hath so often times and againe and againe recommended it and for confirmation of it hath prepared his holy Table to which we draw neere there to receiue the bread of life ordayned to the nourishment of our soules to eternall life not for our bellies to receiue which bread we hold vp the hands of faith to heauen and beleeuing in him doe eate it That bread I say which is giuen to the children of the house not to reprobates who sometimes eate the bread of the Lord but not the bread of life which is the Lord. He which is not reconciled to Christ Iesus eateth not his flesh and drinketh not his bloud although euery day hee receiue but to his condemnation the Sacrament or the holy signes of so excellent a thing But he which confirmes and establisheth vs in Christ and who hath annoynted vs is God who also hath sealed and giuen vnto vs the earnest of his spirit in our hearts It is this holy spirit of promise wherewith we haue beene sealed yea for the day of redemption without which spirit the visible signes in the Sacramentes are receiued to condemnation by which spirit faith taught by the word confirmed by the signes or seales of the righteousnesse of the same faith takes daily new growthes and growinges and is manifested by holy workes of which the summe and totall is that we liue and die to the Lord who is dead and risen againe to haue dominion as well over the liuing as the dead to gouerne and guide vs as the sheepe of his pasture and finally to draw vs out of the hideous deserts of this worldly life no life in deed to gather vs to himselfe his heauenly sheep folde If God be on our side who shall be against vs Who shall bee able to make vs afraide and dismay vs Iesus Christ who is dead is risen againe it is he who now being set at the right hand of God maketh request for vs. Let vs adde some worthie sayinges of S. Cyprian in his excellent Treatise of death Simeon the iust reioycing to hold in his armes the little babe Iesus whom he had so
doth transforme them into prophane persons and desperate Atheistes If the exhortation was necessary which the wise man hath giuen to euery young man in the twelfth Chapter and third Verse of Ecclesiastes To remember his Creatour in the dayes of his youth before the euill dayes doe approach what is to be said to old men vpon whom those dayes and painefull to passe and vndergoe because of the miseries that doe accompany them are already come more then halfe gone and past and almost at an end What a shame were it to old men to be reproached and iustly that they play at leap frog vse fond courtings and make foolish toyes and brauadoes and gadde vp and downe whethersoeuer their affections lead them and the lusts of their eyes It were well done to proclaime and cry out with a loud voyce Know that for all thy euill wayes God will bring thee to iudgement O hypocrite where art thou canst thou hide thee from others from thy selfe from God thy Soueraigne thou hast one foot in the graue and thou wilt fetch gambols and friskes and caper aloft that the world may see thou art still one of her minions and a fauourite of her vanities But let vs consider the disorder and licentiousnesse of youth which soone enough procure a miserable old age which besmeare and rudely handle the sinner and lewd liuer The first disorder and licentiousnesse as Philosophers Physicians and Diuines say is found in whooredome adultery and such like abominable sins of the flesh Aristotle in his Tractate of the length and shortnesse of life saith That the males of all creatures which bill often with the females are quickely old and doe waste and consume their bodily strength Galen said that Venus which doth coole the blood too much and weaken the body is the capitall enemy of old men and of hote complections Long before him the holy Ghost hath giuen a good and wholesome caueate and precept thereof by the instruction of Bethsaba to King Salomon her sonne for whom shee made so many vowes Giue not thy strength to women following the way which is the destruction of Kings If such infamous disorders and licentiousnesse bee insupportable and perilous in young men how much more in old men who are obliged and bound to remember the holy statutes and ordinances of their Soueraigne who in his inuiolable law ratified vnder great paines and penalties cryes out Thou shalt not be a fornicatour Thou shalt not commit adultery God will iudge whooremongers and adulterers and such persons shall not inherite the kingdome of heauen Wise old men tremble at the words of their great Prince who telles them in plaine tearmes That whosoeuer lookes vpon a woman to lust after her hath already committed adultery with her in his heart Matth. 5. 28. They mourne and lament when this interrogatory is ministred vnto them by the Apostle Know yee not that our bodies are the members of Christ Shall I then take the members of Christ to make them the members of an harlot God forbid Also he sayth Fly fornication for euery sinne which a man committeth is without the body but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his owne body Know yee not that your body is the temple of the holy Ghost which yee haue of God and yee are not your owne men 1. Cor. 6. 15. c. The reason which he giues doth ouerthrow and cut off all pretexts that young and old men which despise the truth can alledge or take hold of to excuse themselues in accusing themselues You haue sayth hee beene bought with a price glorifie then God in your body and in your soule Let vs without producing further allegations and proofes in this case end it with the words of the same Aduocate of holinesse and truth This is sayth he the will of God and your sanctification that yee should abstaine from fornication and that euery one of you should know how to possesse his vessell in holinesse and honour and not in the lust of concupiscence as the Gentiles doe which know not God 1. Thessal 4. 3. c. The Prouerb is That when the belly is full the bones desire rest or we are apt for wanton delights Delicious fare gluttony drunkennesse cause young men and old to liue so dissolutely and licenciously as before is mentioned And whereas the heathen people sought to finde veritie in wine the Apostle saith to the Ephesians That in wine there is found vanitie dissolutenesse disorder and all misgouernment and misrule Bacchus and Ceres as a heathen man said are the fewellers and fier-makers to Venus Wine and belly cheare dull the vnderstanding and bereaue a man of his senses And it is the onely time for old men to remember the notable sayings of Salomon to this purpose when they are at their great feasts and iunketting bankets I will content my selfe with repetition of those sentences which are contained in the end of the three and twentith Chapter of the Prouerbes where both the vices are set downe together close one by another My sonne sayth the wise man giue me thine heart and let thine eyes be watchfull and looke to my wayes For a whoore is a deepe ditch and the strange woman is a narrow pit Also shee lieth in waite as for a prey and will make the trecherous rebellious and transgressours among men to bee many in number To whom is woe is mee to whom is sorrow and alas to whom are vproares to whom are murmurings to whom are strifes and quarrels without cause to whom are redde eyes To those that sit long at the wine and which goe to seeke mixt wine Looke not vpon the wine when it is redde when it showes his collour in the cup and goes downe plesantly It biteth in the end like a serpent and stingeth like a cockatrice Then thine eyes will looke vpon strange women and thine heart will speake lewd things Thou shalt bee as one that sleepeth in the middest of the sea and as hee that sleepeth in the top mast of a ship They haue buffetted me thou wilt say and haue giuen me many cruell blowes but I was so past sense I felt not when I did awake I will yet goe seeke after new wine To these elegant sayings heere described I will adde the precept of our Sauiour who saith Take heed to your selues least your hearts be oppressed with gluttony drunkennesse and the cares of this life and the last day come vpon you vnawares Luke 21. 34. Saint Peter saith Be sober and watch because your aduersary the diuell goes about you like a roaring Lion seeking whom hee may deuoure 1. Peter 5. 8. And lastly Saint Paul hath this sentence That fornicators adulterers effeminate wantons drunkardes and other wicked persons who are dead asleepe and hardened in their sinnes shall not inherite the kingdome of God 1. Cor. 6. 10. I forbeare to speake of the diseases which proceed of the disorders and licenciousnesse formerly specified or of the extraordinary plagues
the contemplation of God in this present life is the sound food and solid substance of wise old men But let vs grow old in such sort that wee may make a good end that it be not reproached vnto vs in Gods presence that the last yeares of our life haue beene the worst of all But let vs striue to partake of that singular benediction contained in the end of the Song of the wise Debora in the fifth Chapter of the Historie of the Iudges That those who loue God shall bee as the Sunne going foorth in his strength It is not to decline but to rise euen to midday Our midday is to continue such neuer to declyne Not onely old age but the world also is in a decline Let vs then lift vp our eyes to the East aboue let vs behold the Sonne of righteousnesse let vs turne our faces that way least we perish with the world When we shall be departed hence sayth Saint Cyprian against Demetrius there will be no more time to repent satisfaction shall haue no more effect In this world wee lose or saue life Let no man then bee hindred by his sinnes or by the yeares of his life to come to the saluation which is offered vnto him There is no repentance too late to him that remaines yet in the world The gate to obtaine pardon of God is open those which seeke and follow the truth close shall without difficulty approach to it Although you bee ready to topple into your graue and haue not much longer to liue if you pray the onely true God to pardon your sinnes confessing them vnto him and calling vpon him in faith vnfainedly who hath manifested himselfe vnto you your request shall bee granted his mercie shall giue you grace to saluation and you shall passe from death to eternall life Christ affoordeth vs part of such grace hee giueth vs that excellent present of his mercy hauing slaine and put death to death for vs by the Trophie of his Crosse redeeming whosoeuer beleeueth in him by the price of his blood reconciling man to God quickening him that is dead by a heauenly regeneration If it bee possible let vs follow after this Sauiour let vs bee taken and recognized for his Souldiers let vs fight vnder his banner It is hee which openeth vnto vs the passage to life which doth bring and set vs vp againe in the possession of Paradise which doth guide vs to the Kingdome of heauen wee shall liue altogether with him who hath made vs the children of God and being restored by his precious blood we shall enioy ioy for euer in his presence We shall be glorified with our head blessed in God the Father haue our fill of gladnesse and euerlasting happinesse in his presence whom wee shall thanke without ceasing And truely whosoeuer acknowledging his miseries past hath beene made assured of immortall life it cannot bee but hee will bee alwayes ioyfull and render continuall thankes to God These are the sayings of S. Cyprian the meditation of which we doe recommend to the wise Vieillard and for to excite and stir him vp yet the more thereunto wee doe present vnto him these two Prayers following O Lord my God who hast giuen to man life vpon condition to bee a while on the earth and then to goe thence by death to the end to admonish mee that there is a better life heauenly and eternall Grant mee thy grace I beseech thee that as alwayes I ought to thinke by all meanes to liue holily so now I may endeuour to depart happily out of this world Let the hope to behold speedily and out of hand thy glory remooue from mee the feare of death that I may waite in ioy for that day wherein that approaching and euerlasting libertie shall vnlose mee from the chaynes of my sinnes which doe so mightily ouerload mee Let this hope vphold mee so that I may make no reckoning of any transitory thing and let humane affections bee so mortified in my frayle members that I may not desire to beginne againe or to continue my course but to bee soone at an end Grant that I may not bee carefull for this wretched body and this decayed building but so much onely as may bee fit for this short life which remaines for mee to vse Especially fortifie my minde against the many impostures and guiles of Sathan which doe compasse mee about on euery side I am ashamed that I am become a childe againe and worse then a young man who doth forge yeares to himselfe and doth dreame of immortalities in the shadow of death Suffer not this fond confidence of lingering still in the earth insensibly to steale away my life from mee so as without thinking on it and too late I shall finde my selfe at the end of it surprised and suddenly taken desperate and past hope wherevpon would follow a vaine complaint to haue wretchedly cast away thy graces to see my selfe shackled with an vnsupportable chaine and from which I feare to bee loosed My life is betweene my lips why then should I pant and sigh after transitory thinges What haue I any more to doe with the profits and commodities of this life My weakenesses doe bidd mee enough to turne my backe to all infamous lendnesse and licenciousnesse and O my God though I should be stronger then I am should it bee to offend thee My sight is dimme and decayes my hearing is dull and deaffed should I reuiue these dead senses with the remembrance of old pleasures and new also O let mee not with new crimes and sinnes increase and adde to mine iniquities past And if thy fauour hath vpheld mee in my young age oh let mee not abuse it in old age or vilely sinke into the bottomlesse gulfe of death notwithstanding so many graces of thine for which I am bounden and indebted to thine infinite goodnesse and am to make account before thy iudgement seate Thy holy Angels shall they mourne euer mee Thy Spirit shall it be made heauy in beholding mee My conscience shall it accuse mee to bee hypocriticall and malicious Make this old age O Lord free from stupiditie and sottishnesse from pollution from weakenesse talkatiuenesse from arrogancie bragging doating from too much niggardship and from vnnecessarie vaine odious expences make me become charitable honest sober temperate alwaies mindfull of my neere departure and desirous of that immortalitie which I hope for In fine let my old age haue nothing that I may feare nothing that my friends and enemies may lament or condemne Let it be beloued and welcome vnto mee in that it will make mee shorly to returne into thy heauenly Pallace where thou shalt wipe away the teares from mine eyes where I shall see my selfe deliuered from all sinnes filled with thy grace and closed about with blissefull glory in the holy company who there continually magnifie thee O my God deliuer mee from these so many cares and miseries which doe presseme downe to the end