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i_o to_o deny_v my_o hand_n lord_n these_o be_v the_o resolve_v to_o which_o i_o stand_v richard_n baxter_n october_n 29._o 1659._o the_o laâ—e_a lord_n chief_a justice_n oliver_n st._n john_n see_v my_o reason_n of_o the_o christ_n â—â—â—g_v since_o write_v i_o may_v with_o tertullian_n call_v all_o our_o enemy_n to_o search_v their_o court_n record_n and_o â—ce_n how_o many_o of_o we_o have_v be_v cast_v out_o or_o silence_v for_o any_o immorality_n but_o for_o obey_v conscience_n against_o the_o interest_n or_o will_n of_o some_o who_o think_v that_o conscience_n shall_v give_v place_n to_o their_o command_n read_v the_o two_o or_o three_o last_o chapter_n in_o dr._n holden_n analâ—fidei_n read_v mr._n stubbs_n and_o mr._n roger_n book_n against_o i_o and_o the_o soldier_n open_o thâ—â—_n calumaiâ—â—ed_v i_o and_o thâ—e_n in_o eâ—_n my_o death_n as_o the_o say_a author_n â—eâ—red_v they_o to_o call_v i_o to_o a_o trial_n even_o for_o speak_v and_o write_v against_o their_o cast_a 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