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they_o become_v powerful_a and_o courageous_a to_o admiration_n chap._n xv._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a to_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n by_o human_a prudence_n the_o supernatural_a life_n be_v a_o continual_a mortification_n of_o deprave_a nature_n 1._o for_o it_o be_v certain_a first_o that_o we_o can_v live_v this_o excellent_a life_n but_o by_o annihilate_v our_o sense_n and_o reason_n 2._o second_o that_o this_o life_n be_v whole_o according_a to_o the_o spirit_n which_o can_v be_v but_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n which_o inspire_v the_o soul_n with_o his_o influence_n and_o sacred_a motion_n 3._o three_o that_o the_o soul_n which_o live_v this_o life_n must_v be_v elevate_v above_o sense_n und_fw-ge reason_n whether_o it_o be_v in_o prayer_n or_o the_o practice_n of_o virtue_n which_o can_v be_v do_v but_o by_o offer_v up_o herself_o to_o god_n as_o a_o continual_a sacrifice_n that_o though_o oftentimes_o w_n must_v do_v thing_n sensual_a as_o to_o eat_v and_o drink_v yet_o these_o must_v be_v do_v as_o grace_n direct_v we_o and_o other_o thing_n according_a to_o reason_n as_o to_o love_v our_o relation_n and_o friend_n yet_o this_o must_v be_v only_o in_o god_n and_o as_o his_o oracle_n do_v dictate_v to_o we_o o_o life_n of_o grace_n how_o be_v thou_o a_o continual_a death_n and_o mortification_n who_o live_v christianly_o live_v a_o martyrdom_n tota_n vita_fw-la christiana_n crux_fw-la est_fw-la &_o martyrium_fw-la however_o it_o be_v a_o joyful_a martyrdom_n for_o solid_a joy_n can_v but_o make_v glad_a the_o soul_n where_o grace_n inhabit_v o_o that_o this_o fundamental_a truth_n of_o our_o salvation_n do_v once_o well_o sink_v into_o our_o heart_n the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o eternal_a king_n of_o glory_n leave_v the_o bosom_n of_o his_o father_n and_o become_v man_n to_o live_v and_o die_v in_o infinite_a humiliation_n jesus_n give_v we_o life_n by_o his_o death_n he_o put_v we_o in_o a_o state_n of_o grace_n by_o ruine_v himself_o 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